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Do you like it like this?
The jacket?

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I like the jacket, period.

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Okay.

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Please welcome Sara Mardini.

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Then you were arrested.
So why were you arrested?

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I was arrested because I was
every night on the shoreline,

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handing over water and blankets,

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translating for the
refugees arriving.

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This is how I see it.

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How the government sees it,
and the policies...

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They believe that the volunteers
who are on the shorelines

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are encouraging, assisting
the entry of illegal migrants.

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At the end of the day,
I'm a full-time student

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and at the same time,

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I have a case and 25 years
hanging over the top of my head.

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And why it was harder because...
the fact...

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Imagine yourself
living for 107 days,

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you don't know why
you're locked up.

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You don't know what's
going to happen tomorrow,

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you don't know...

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It just drove me crazy.

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I started questioning myself:

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"Maybe I've done
something wrong?"

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I come from an athlete family
in Damascus, Syria.

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My sister Yusra and I
grew up in a swimming pool.

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In 2015, the pool is bombed.

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I'm 20.

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She's 17.

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And we flee the war.

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We are on a boat
from Turkey to Greece.

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There are 19 people around me.

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And we are drowning.

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I jump in the water, I take the
boat in one hand and I push.

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My sister follows.

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And after three and a half hours
of pushing and pulling,

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we reach the island of Lesbos.

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-Dad? Mum?
-It is 2016.

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And the story of the two
swimming sisters exploded.

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We got this publicity
out of nowhere.

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We settled down in Berlin.

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But I was injured,
and have to stop swimming.

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Nationalism and xenophobia

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are emerging in strength
again in Europe.

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I go back to Lesbos
to volunteer as a humanitarian.

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And that's where
my label was changed

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from "a refugee" to "a rescuer".

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How many were there? 15? 13?
-Yeah, it's all women and kids.

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At some point, the situation,
the time that you're in,

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just gets you to change.

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I found that I
can handle stuff,

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I never thought
one day I can do it.

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And I found this warrior
part inside myself.

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The shift in politics
of asylum in Europe

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have militarised borders

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and cast suspicion
on humanitarianism.

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21st August 2018.

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I'm arrested in Greece.
And I'm not the only one.

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Humanitarians across Europe

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are being criminalised for
helping people in need.

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The authorities detained me
and my colleague Sean Binder

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in high security prisons
in Greece.

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Free, free, Sara!
-Free, free, Sara...

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Free, free, Sean!
-Free, free, Sean...

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Thanks so much for being here.

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Humanity is not a crime.
Thank you.

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After three and a half months,
we are released on bail.

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The next steps
are going to be...

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We're going to check
the status of the case,

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we will see what's inside
for the motive in the case.

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And after some rest,
we'll organise our defence.

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But this is not the time for
speaking about this.

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Thank you.

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I'm out on bail,
but I'm not free.

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I'm banned from Greece
and waiting for a trial

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to prove my innocence.

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I break the record
with collecting things.

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I forgot my toothbrush.
I knew it.

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That's my sister's things.
There's no space in the closet.

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That's why I don't
like coming home.

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There is no space for anything.

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I just moved back to my family.

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In this house lives my mom
and my youngest sister Shahed.

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My other sister Yusra
is in Hamburg.

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My father has his own house here
also in Berlin.

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Okay, guys, ready?
Costas, where are you?

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I can't see Danae.

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And Costas.
Costas, come here. Okay?

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A professional one...

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... and a stupid one.

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Bard College in Berlin helped
campaigning for my release.

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I had a full scholarship

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and they covered
some of my legal fees.

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So just a few days after
coming out of prison,

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I'm back on campus.

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People say they know
someone's waiting

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and that's why they come.

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I don't believe that.

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When I crossed, there was
no one waiting and I made it.

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And I knew there was
no one waiting in 2015.

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You have very nice...

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Did you notice
that? Just you wait...

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I'm not sure what I prefer:
prison or press conference.

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They are accused of being
members of a criminal team.

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They are accused of conducting
the crime of migrant smuggling.

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They were accused
of laundering money and forgery

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because they happened to be
inside a car with forged plates.

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And I forgot espionage.

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Have other people been
similarly accused of the crimes?

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Yes, in this case
there are 37 people involved.

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It's the first time that
somebody expresses so openly

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that the typical operations

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and duties of an NGO
are a criminal act.

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Could you tell me a bit
about your time in jail?

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My bed just became
my living room, my kitchen,

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my library and a place to sleep.

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We used to smuggle letters
through books for each other.

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That's the wrong
word, I would say.

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"Sent"!

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We sent each other letters.
-In books.

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But I was impatient
the whole time.

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I called my lawyer's all angry,
because I wanted to leave.

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What we did was,
I believe, is right.

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There's nothing
wrong with trying to

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pull drowning people
out of the water,

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or trying to not have families
go into hypothermic shock,

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or not have pregnant
women experience

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contractions on
the side of a cliff,

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or show children they're allowed
to be children by learning,

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or have people not
suffer from parasites

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because they have
no clean clothing.

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There's nothing wrong with that.

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Do you feel that
this may, perhaps,

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instil some fear in
future volunteers?

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Going forward, I guess?
-Yes.

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Because there's still fear
inside me.

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I imagine that everyone else
on the island now is scared.

00:14:01.294 --> 00:14:04.551
It wasn't easy at the very
beginning when I got released.

00:14:06.424 --> 00:14:09.427
There's always that question:
What's next for Sara?

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It just gave me
a lot of pressure.

00:14:17.594 --> 00:14:20.184
It doesn't allow me
to have a normal life:

00:14:20.217 --> 00:14:23.082
just be a student,
just go party for 48 hours,

00:14:23.107 --> 00:14:25.860
just do whatever I want.

00:14:30.531 --> 00:14:34.410
And I had some issues. I
felt that I'm useless right now.

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Not doing anything, just going
to school, and that's nothing.

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I respect what everybody
thinks about me,

00:14:44.080 --> 00:14:46.589
that I'll do great
things in the future.

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But I might not.
I might just, you know...

00:14:50.962 --> 00:14:53.173
end up doing nothing in my life.

00:15:01.479 --> 00:15:05.316
So she comes up and she hits.
She broke these two.

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She... Oh my God, that was bad.

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She's so smart.
Every time I come from Lesbos,

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she sleeps in my bag,

00:15:26.629 --> 00:15:30.299
because she smells...
she remembers where she's from.

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It's so beautiful.

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Every time I come back from
there, she's like...

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She feels like:
"Oh my God, home."

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After Yusra and I
came to Europe,

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the rest of the
family joined us.

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My parents and my
youngest sister, Shahed.

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Family reunion
might take up to three years,

00:15:55.074 --> 00:15:58.661
my parents decided to take
the same journey as we did.

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The rest of the family
also crossed by boat

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from Turkey to Greece.

00:16:04.583 --> 00:16:06.579
But we never spoke
about it with them.

00:16:06.603 --> 00:16:08.713
Because simply we can't.

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I have to write my essay.
3,000 words...

00:16:18.597 --> 00:16:22.643
Stop, stop!
-Carry me! Carry me! Carry me!

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I'm going to see what I
can write, and just write it.

00:16:31.610 --> 00:16:37.033
So I can get ready to go out
and get in the going-out mood.

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You never saw me in glasses.
I look nerd?

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I used to study law in Syria.

00:16:49.253 --> 00:16:53.174
But since coming to Berlin,
I switched to liberal arts.

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It's not the best situation.

00:17:01.312 --> 00:17:03.896
But I'm not ready
to do anything.

00:17:04.185 --> 00:17:05.909
I know if I want
to do something,

00:17:05.933 --> 00:17:09.190
I want to be useful
again as I used to be.

00:17:09.690 --> 00:17:13.736
I don't have this freedom
right now to do anything.

00:17:34.381 --> 00:17:36.346
At the beginning we
were just laughing:

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"Dude, what the fuck is this?"

00:17:38.677 --> 00:17:42.014
But they held us in prison
for three and a half months.

00:17:43.516 --> 00:17:46.727
Saying we are spies
because our team in Greece

00:17:46.894 --> 00:17:50.731
communicated with encrypted
software like WhatsApp.

00:17:51.816 --> 00:17:53.859
Saying we laundered money

00:17:54.026 --> 00:17:56.053
because of fundraisers
for different projects

00:17:56.077 --> 00:17:57.780
in the refugee camps.

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We are migrant smugglers

00:18:00.128 --> 00:18:02.774
just because we were
providing medical care,

00:18:02.910 --> 00:18:06.402
water bottles and blankets
on Lesbos's shorelines.

00:18:11.085 --> 00:18:13.504
If you have evidence,
not just claims,

00:18:13.671 --> 00:18:16.966
that I'm guilty, I'll be
responsible for my actions.

00:18:17.133 --> 00:18:18.777
But I didn't come
to Europe

00:18:18.801 --> 00:18:21.394
to be accused of something
I never did.

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I'm banned from Greece
till 2025.

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And I'm waiting
for the further...

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judge to give us a date.

00:19:00.718 --> 00:19:03.304
If there will be a court
or no court.

00:19:03.971 --> 00:19:08.118
So far there was nothing
since we came out on bail.

00:19:30.956 --> 00:19:32.666
Do you think this is a crime?

00:19:33.209 --> 00:19:36.629
You can nod your head.
Do you think this is a crime?

00:19:37.001 --> 00:19:40.463
Did you know that criminalising
humanitarians is happening

00:19:41.091 --> 00:19:43.844
maybe a couple of kilometres
away from here?

00:19:53.270 --> 00:19:55.439
Wait, there's a body over there!

00:19:55.464 --> 00:19:56.858
Get the life jackets
out, out, out!

00:19:56.882 --> 00:19:59.190
Stay there! You're safe.

00:20:02.905 --> 00:20:05.574
Can you take him in, please!
-One, two, three.

00:20:23.720 --> 00:20:27.056
NGOs face a new wave
of criminalisation.

00:20:27.093 --> 00:20:30.376
The European authorities are
doing everything in their power

00:20:30.401 --> 00:20:33.404
to prevent organisations
from saving human lives.

00:21:03.900 --> 00:21:04.912
Europe,

00:21:04.936 --> 00:21:08.304
the so-called nest of human
rights and civil liberties,

00:21:08.470 --> 00:21:11.640
did not consider them worth
to touch its land.

00:21:23.444 --> 00:21:27.614
It was hard to be a
European citizen in those days.

00:21:27.781 --> 00:21:29.325
It felt very shameful.

00:21:44.173 --> 00:21:46.324
Everybody thinks
the trial is over.

00:21:46.349 --> 00:21:49.227
They don't know that another
sentence has been added.

00:21:49.595 --> 00:21:51.305
It's just unreal.

00:21:52.352 --> 00:21:54.788
I was in the supermarket
when I received the e-mail

00:21:54.812 --> 00:21:56.147
and I panicked.

00:21:56.727 --> 00:21:59.188
It said that

00:22:00.064 --> 00:22:03.484
that the investigations
have reopened.

00:22:03.642 --> 00:22:06.008
They added the
crime of fraud to us

00:22:06.033 --> 00:22:08.739
and we have to go
and testify again.

00:22:08.906 --> 00:22:11.241
And I panicked.

00:22:11.504 --> 00:22:14.053
I just got, like:
boom, 25 years in my head.

00:22:14.078 --> 00:22:15.159
And I was like:

00:22:15.183 --> 00:22:17.498
the other cases were
25 and they added this.

00:22:17.524 --> 00:22:22.241
How many years more? I'm 24.
So it's like my life already.

00:22:22.586 --> 00:22:24.713
But this is "departures".

00:22:25.964 --> 00:22:28.801
We need "arrivals".
-Let's just go in.

00:22:34.598 --> 00:22:36.350
We need to go to D.

00:22:42.791 --> 00:22:45.043
Oh my God, last time I was here

00:22:45.234 --> 00:22:48.153
I threw half of my
clothes in the trash.

00:22:48.320 --> 00:22:49.780
Because of overweight?

00:22:49.947 --> 00:22:52.991
I was going to Lesbos
and I couldn't pay for my bag.

00:22:53.158 --> 00:22:54.420
I was crying.

00:22:54.444 --> 00:22:57.811
And there was a lady. She was
homeless and took everything.

00:22:57.836 --> 00:22:59.666
I felt better.

00:23:00.749 --> 00:23:02.751
What are you doing here?

00:23:03.585 --> 00:23:05.754
How are you?
-Good.

00:23:05.779 --> 00:23:08.031
You look cool.

00:23:09.383 --> 00:23:10.592
Good to see you, man.

00:23:12.469 --> 00:23:14.805
And a few smiley ones.

00:23:15.389 --> 00:23:17.641
It's hard after being neutral.

00:23:24.857 --> 00:23:26.228
Okay, cool.

00:23:26.253 --> 00:23:29.548
I cannot be serious right now.
Okay.

00:23:30.007 --> 00:23:32.084
We have to focus
on our silliness.

00:23:32.108 --> 00:23:35.096
That's what people
want to see more of.

00:23:35.200 --> 00:23:36.827
That's what the fans love.

00:23:37.786 --> 00:23:39.997
Let's leave love on the side,
please.

00:23:40.164 --> 00:23:42.708
Okay, I think we're ready to go.

00:23:46.336 --> 00:23:48.844
Since we're out, Sean's
been trying to find a job.

00:23:48.869 --> 00:23:51.500
Everybody's saying
no because of the case.

00:23:52.968 --> 00:23:56.469
My own story
has me covered and protected.

00:23:56.847 --> 00:24:00.809
But Sean is just a normal guy
who wants a job.

00:24:00.834 --> 00:24:03.754
He finished his masters
and he wants to live normal.

00:24:06.064 --> 00:24:08.150
It's been a year like this.

00:24:08.324 --> 00:24:11.111
If I'm in his place, I don't
know how I can survive it.

00:24:13.208 --> 00:24:13.946
That's good.

00:24:13.970 --> 00:24:15.632
Where are you
going with your chin?

00:24:15.657 --> 00:24:18.090
I'm trying to get
elevation here.

00:24:21.580 --> 00:24:24.896
How this issue of
humanitarianism

00:24:24.921 --> 00:24:28.254
being criminalised
across Europe...

00:24:28.497 --> 00:24:31.333
How did you feel
when you realised you were

00:24:31.590 --> 00:24:34.176
in prison because
of this wider issue?

00:24:34.713 --> 00:24:35.968
It felt like chess

00:24:35.992 --> 00:24:39.198
and we're soldiers and
they're just playing with us.

00:24:39.223 --> 00:24:41.600
But at the end of the day,
we're people.

00:24:41.767 --> 00:24:45.995
It's a lot of
emotional exhaustion.

00:24:46.188 --> 00:24:47.270
Yeah, for me now,

00:24:47.294 --> 00:24:50.359
I don't want to do any
volunteering work in the EU.

00:24:50.526 --> 00:24:54.488
Because it's just creepy,
it's scary to do it.

00:24:54.655 --> 00:24:57.383
I had a lot of
requests and I said no.

00:24:57.407 --> 00:24:59.343
I don't want to do
anything here anymore.

00:24:59.368 --> 00:25:00.992
There's a push

00:25:01.017 --> 00:25:03.305
from parts of the political
spectrum that are saying,

00:25:03.330 --> 00:25:04.912
"We need to stop asylum seeking

00:25:04.936 --> 00:25:07.417
because we can't
host any more people."

00:25:07.584 --> 00:25:09.689
No matter if you're
on the right or left,

00:25:09.714 --> 00:25:12.217
no one should risk drowning
because of that.

00:25:12.965 --> 00:25:15.509
Even if you end up
not granting them asylum,

00:25:15.676 --> 00:25:18.887
the risk of drowning
should never be a calculation

00:25:18.912 --> 00:25:21.324
or used as a tool
to stop migration.

00:25:21.390 --> 00:25:24.810
It's just completely wrong.
It's illegal and immoral.

00:25:28.105 --> 00:25:31.233
I don't think that can be said
in any simpler terms.

00:25:31.733 --> 00:25:34.473
Cool. Anything else
you want to add?

00:25:34.497 --> 00:25:37.030
That you love me
and want to marry me?

00:25:37.319 --> 00:25:39.113
I'd like to ask for
her hand in marriage.

00:25:39.137 --> 00:25:41.743
Oh God. I'm running
away right now.

00:25:44.288 --> 00:25:46.498
I'm married to myself.

00:25:48.208 --> 00:25:50.794
I can imagine you would do that.

00:25:51.461 --> 00:25:54.256
Okay, what's next? Good?

00:25:54.631 --> 00:25:56.259
Yeah, good job!

00:25:58.677 --> 00:26:00.737
You want to go
somewhere after this?

00:26:00.762 --> 00:26:01.863
To meet my friend.

00:26:01.888 --> 00:26:03.807
She says she's going with you.
-Where?

00:26:03.974 --> 00:26:06.876
Close to here.
We're going for one drink.

00:26:06.900 --> 00:26:08.095
That's it, you're coming.

00:26:08.228 --> 00:26:10.272
We are just very afraid.

00:26:10.439 --> 00:26:12.216
All these stories
from your nightlife.

00:26:12.240 --> 00:26:14.151
We're not going partying...

00:26:14.176 --> 00:26:17.004
What's that wild club in Berlin?
-Berghain.

00:26:17.029 --> 00:26:18.572
Berghaus?
-Berghain.

00:26:18.739 --> 00:26:20.991
Berghain.
She's a resident there now.

00:26:21.215 --> 00:26:23.258
My nightlife is on the weekend.

00:26:23.282 --> 00:26:25.637
If I go, I'm not
bringing any of you.

00:26:25.662 --> 00:26:28.031
Because I don't
babysit anyone...

00:26:28.055 --> 00:26:29.124
Nice!

00:26:29.291 --> 00:26:31.710
And I...
-No babysitting.

00:26:31.877 --> 00:26:33.724
"There's my friend!

00:26:33.755 --> 00:26:35.471
I need to check on him!"
I don't do this.

00:26:35.631 --> 00:26:37.777
I go myself,
I meet my friends there.

00:26:37.802 --> 00:26:40.093
If we meet on the
dance floor, we meet.

00:26:40.260 --> 00:26:42.178
If not, I dance on
my own, it's fine.

00:26:42.202 --> 00:26:44.448
Or I make new friends.

00:26:44.473 --> 00:26:46.226
This is where you
thrive and I don't.

00:26:46.250 --> 00:26:48.560
Usually I become
very talkative.

00:26:48.727 --> 00:26:50.023
To the level that
my friends are like:

00:26:50.047 --> 00:26:51.938
"Sara, shut up and dance."

00:26:52.105 --> 00:26:54.426
I go to another corner
where there are strangers

00:26:54.450 --> 00:26:55.859
and talk to them.

00:26:56.735 --> 00:27:00.364
Getting to know them
because I just cannot be quiet.

00:27:17.756 --> 00:27:20.676
Madness is me on the fucking
dance floor. When I dance,

00:27:21.009 --> 00:27:23.220
the whole dance floor
is so crowded,

00:27:23.387 --> 00:27:27.015
and then around me,
there's a bit of space.

00:27:27.307 --> 00:27:30.510
People are afraid when
I'm dancing that I'll hit them.

00:27:30.560 --> 00:27:32.854
Because I use all my body parts.

00:27:33.188 --> 00:27:35.857
People know when I'm dancing

00:27:36.032 --> 00:27:38.387
because I'm hurt
or when I'm happy,

00:27:38.411 --> 00:27:40.078
my friends all know that.

00:27:40.103 --> 00:27:41.528
When I'm dancing
when I'm hurt,

00:27:41.552 --> 00:27:43.990
I always turn my
face to the wall.

00:27:44.157 --> 00:27:46.311
I don't want to see anyone

00:27:46.336 --> 00:27:49.604
and no one comes close.
It's my moment with myself.

00:27:57.713 --> 00:28:00.841
Since she got out of jail,
my sister has not been herself.

00:28:01.007 --> 00:28:02.676
I know her.

00:28:03.760 --> 00:28:05.266
Sara was fearless,

00:28:05.290 --> 00:28:08.181
she knew exactly
what she wanted.

00:28:08.348 --> 00:28:11.226
I feel like it's
making her nervous,

00:28:11.457 --> 00:28:13.812
like she's afraid
of starting something new

00:28:13.836 --> 00:28:15.378
because of the case.

00:28:16.064 --> 00:28:19.025
OLYMPIC CENTRE
HAMBURG/SCHLESWIG-HOLSTEIN

00:28:25.198 --> 00:28:26.375
Since we were young,

00:28:26.399 --> 00:28:28.285
I would say
I was very competitive.

00:28:28.452 --> 00:28:30.996
And I still am, to be honest.

00:28:31.288 --> 00:28:33.569
Kind of my dad
created this competition

00:28:33.593 --> 00:28:35.417
between me and Sara.

00:28:50.557 --> 00:28:52.841
I started swimming
at the age of five

00:28:52.865 --> 00:28:55.604
because my father
was a swimming coach.

00:28:56.396 --> 00:28:58.732
I grew up in the water.

00:30:08.969 --> 00:30:10.988
The first crack that
happened between us

00:30:11.012 --> 00:30:13.348
was when Yusra
went to the Olympics.

00:30:13.515 --> 00:30:16.393
I was jealous
and wasn't really there for her.

00:30:22.524 --> 00:30:24.401
This is a historic moment:

00:30:24.818 --> 00:30:26.611
I can announce to you

00:30:26.778 --> 00:30:31.074
the members of the first ever
refugee Olympic team.

00:30:39.171 --> 00:30:41.572
Mardini of the
refugee Olympic team.

00:30:41.596 --> 00:30:44.575
The young lady in
lane 4: Yusra Mardini.

00:30:44.880 --> 00:30:47.632
She came across from Syria
as a refugee.

00:30:56.816 --> 00:30:58.638
This lady has come a long way.

00:30:58.662 --> 00:31:02.041
And in lane 4,
Mardini has taken it.

00:31:09.696 --> 00:31:11.506
From that boat
journey to Europe,

00:31:11.530 --> 00:31:14.659
my whole spine was dislocated.

00:31:14.849 --> 00:31:16.281
And then I couldn't
swim anymore.

00:31:16.305 --> 00:31:17.816
I didn't know what to do.

00:31:17.841 --> 00:31:19.801
That was the only thing I knew.

00:31:32.969 --> 00:31:34.324
Yusra Mardini

00:31:34.348 --> 00:31:37.253
is UNHCR's youngest
goodwill ambassador

00:31:37.278 --> 00:31:39.572
the organisation has had
in its long history.

00:31:39.851 --> 00:31:42.354
Yusra,
we could not be prouder of you.

00:31:42.687 --> 00:31:46.775
For your courage
and your resilience.

00:31:46.942 --> 00:31:51.976
The great example that you're
setting for children everywhere.

00:31:54.366 --> 00:31:56.868
I felt that I lost my identity.

00:31:57.035 --> 00:31:59.371
And that's why
I went back to Greece.

00:31:59.537 --> 00:32:03.291
To figure out myself again,
to be independent again.

00:32:07.003 --> 00:32:08.366
When she was in Lesbos,

00:32:08.390 --> 00:32:10.715
we realised that it makes her
happy the most,

00:32:10.740 --> 00:32:12.867
that this is her place.

00:32:18.974 --> 00:32:21.559
I don't think she ever felt
supported by me.

00:32:21.726 --> 00:32:24.479
She told me to visit a lot
and I never did.

00:32:24.653 --> 00:32:26.488
But also

00:32:26.512 --> 00:32:30.659
that period was
the busiest period of my life.

00:33:22.037 --> 00:33:24.956
I didn't hear this
for five years.

00:33:25.665 --> 00:33:27.375
The call for prayer.

00:33:31.720 --> 00:33:35.694
Me and my sister are
invited for an event called

00:33:35.719 --> 00:33:37.059
"What really matters".

00:33:37.802 --> 00:33:41.218
It's basically organised by
Princess Lara Faisal

00:33:41.243 --> 00:33:42.640
from Jordan.

00:33:42.807 --> 00:33:47.687
The talk is going to be in
Arabic and with my sister.

00:33:47.892 --> 00:33:49.513
Two things that I've
never done before.

00:33:49.537 --> 00:33:52.317
So I don't know
how it's gonna go.

00:33:54.105 --> 00:33:56.733
"Back to the Middle East, baby!"

00:34:00.200 --> 00:34:02.313
She has her way
and I have my way.

00:34:02.337 --> 00:34:03.703
She always says I'm angry.

00:34:03.870 --> 00:34:06.539
An angry person
fighting the fire.

00:34:06.706 --> 00:34:08.577
She's more chill

00:34:08.601 --> 00:34:12.170
and has a more beautiful,
flowery way of fighting.

00:34:13.088 --> 00:34:14.561
But actually I'm not angry.

00:34:14.585 --> 00:34:18.218
I'm just straightforward,
I hit directly.

00:34:23.431 --> 00:34:25.642
We are full.
Oh, sorry.

00:34:25.809 --> 00:34:29.187
I was trying to be Mommy
and clean.

00:34:30.772 --> 00:34:32.885
Okay, so I'm Fernando,

00:34:32.909 --> 00:34:35.568
I'm finishing my last
couple of words.

00:34:35.776 --> 00:34:38.319
Thank you very much,
blah, blah, blah.

00:34:38.343 --> 00:34:40.990
We love you, I love you. Salaam.

00:34:41.480 --> 00:34:44.427
They tried in the beginning
to say, "Yusra, your story!"

00:34:44.452 --> 00:34:46.300
But I was like:
"It's not my story only.

00:34:46.324 --> 00:34:48.790
My sister and other
people were involved.

00:34:48.957 --> 00:34:51.143
I did not pull the
boat the whole way.

00:34:51.167 --> 00:34:53.169
It's impossible for any swimmer.

00:34:53.336 --> 00:34:55.313
Ask any world champion."

00:34:55.338 --> 00:34:57.607
There was once a headline

00:34:57.631 --> 00:34:59.801
saying that you guys pulled
the boat from Syria?

00:34:59.968 --> 00:35:03.054
Yeah, also!
-From Syria to Greece.

00:35:03.221 --> 00:35:06.744
From Syria to Germany!
-To Germany!

00:35:06.933 --> 00:35:09.679
We always have to explain

00:35:09.703 --> 00:35:12.438
that refugees pay a lot
of money to get to Europe.

00:35:12.605 --> 00:35:15.108
We both paid 10,000 euros.

00:35:15.133 --> 00:35:17.004
To cross only from
Turkey to Greece?

00:35:17.028 --> 00:35:18.720
10,000 gives you what?

00:35:19.028 --> 00:35:21.865
Gives you the chance
to die or survive in the water.

00:35:22.042 --> 00:35:25.760
Sometimes when boats enter
international or Greek waters,

00:35:25.785 --> 00:35:27.620
out of nowhere, they disappear.

00:35:27.787 --> 00:35:31.166
The Greek or Turkish coastguard
is pushing them back.

00:35:31.366 --> 00:35:35.162
Sometimes also...
We heard when we were crossing

00:35:35.461 --> 00:35:37.574
that if you get to Greece

00:35:37.598 --> 00:35:39.841
and the boat is okay
with the engine,

00:35:40.008 --> 00:35:42.260
they send you back to Turkey.

00:35:42.427 --> 00:35:46.639
So when we arrived, we just
destroyed the boat with knives.

00:35:53.748 --> 00:35:56.617
Let's do it spontaneously then.

00:35:56.642 --> 00:35:59.140
I would start when
you were born.

00:35:59.201 --> 00:36:00.069
Exactly.

00:36:00.102 --> 00:36:02.989
"I was born in a family like
this... Then my sister came."

00:36:03.014 --> 00:36:06.724
Your dreams,
when you were a child.

00:36:06.826 --> 00:36:08.286
Got it.

00:36:08.578 --> 00:36:10.455
So, again.

00:36:11.956 --> 00:36:13.458
Light off...

00:36:13.625 --> 00:36:14.464
But first,

00:36:14.488 --> 00:36:18.338
let me take you back in time
to... I'm gonna kill myself.

00:36:22.386 --> 00:36:25.094
I know that, but I need
to concentrate. I can't.

00:36:25.261 --> 00:36:28.348
Tomorrow don't look at anyone.
-That's not the problem.

00:36:28.514 --> 00:36:34.285
It's the sounds around me.
Because if it's noisy, I panic.

00:36:35.021 --> 00:36:38.269
So now, light is off.
The light is on.

00:36:38.294 --> 00:36:42.111
I was born in 1995
in Damascus, Syria,

00:36:42.612 --> 00:36:45.780
into a family that instead
of blood,

00:36:45.804 --> 00:36:49.944
we had water
going through our veins.

00:36:50.367 --> 00:36:52.088
My father was a swimming coach

00:36:52.112 --> 00:36:53.704
and he taught all
of us swimming.

00:36:53.831 --> 00:36:57.335
And that's how we became
the swimming... swimmers family.

00:36:57.536 --> 00:36:59.680
I had only one dream as a child:

00:36:59.704 --> 00:37:02.207
to become an Olympic swimmer,

00:37:02.323 --> 00:37:03.899
get a gold medal

00:37:03.923 --> 00:37:07.143
and make everybody stand
up for my country's anthem.

00:37:08.095 --> 00:37:10.546
Then you talk about
the bombing in the pool.

00:37:10.570 --> 00:37:12.224
This is what happened.

00:37:12.642 --> 00:37:13.726
Yeah...

00:37:14.269 --> 00:37:16.771
You can say...
that's what I always do.

00:37:17.077 --> 00:37:21.498
I'm not telling you what to say.
I'm giving you an idea. Listen.

00:37:21.526 --> 00:37:23.639
You're 17 and you
had to pack

00:37:23.663 --> 00:37:26.155
your 17 years
of life in one backpack.

00:37:26.322 --> 00:37:28.448
But I don't want to
be told what to say.

00:37:28.472 --> 00:37:30.115
Do whatever you want.

00:38:26.549 --> 00:38:31.095
The blue colour of the water,
this is life itself for me.

00:38:31.288 --> 00:38:34.040
Just the blue colour
of the swimming pool.

00:38:36.642 --> 00:38:41.022
It's just like a breath of fresh
air when I see this colour.

00:38:41.189 --> 00:38:43.858
And you don't see it in the sea
or anywhere else.

00:38:44.233 --> 00:38:47.582
Even the taste of the water,
the feeling of the water,

00:38:48.071 --> 00:38:50.281
it's just life itself for me.

00:38:54.619 --> 00:38:58.081
It was my safe zone,
it was where I found myself,

00:38:58.247 --> 00:39:01.584
and where I settled down.

00:39:03.920 --> 00:39:05.922
It was like meditation.

00:39:08.800 --> 00:39:12.387
The feeling of being
in the water and competing

00:39:12.553 --> 00:39:14.722
is still in my veins till now.

00:39:28.194 --> 00:39:30.655
I'd be dead right now
if I wasn't a swimmer.

00:39:44.546 --> 00:39:46.297
Shall I do it like that?

00:39:51.426 --> 00:39:54.971
After swimming in
the Rio Olympics 2016,

00:39:55.138 --> 00:39:57.297
Yusra is training
to qualify again

00:39:57.321 --> 00:39:59.903
for the Olympic
Games in Tokyo 2020

00:40:00.435 --> 00:40:02.728
as part of the refugee
Olympic team.

00:40:06.800 --> 00:40:10.971
My lane was number 2 when
I won the bronze medal here.

00:40:11.404 --> 00:40:14.279
Here?
-Yeah, I was 14.

00:40:14.532 --> 00:40:17.243
I loved swimming
and I was really hard-working.

00:40:17.410 --> 00:40:21.414
I always swam extra
than everyone else.

00:40:21.439 --> 00:40:22.367
Longer.

00:40:22.392 --> 00:40:25.599
Because of my
fucking hyper body.

00:40:25.623 --> 00:40:26.992
I think back then
we didn't know.

00:40:27.086 --> 00:40:30.339
You already had ADHD.
-Yeah, I was so young.

00:40:31.549 --> 00:40:34.135
So what is best?
Butterfly or this...

00:40:34.302 --> 00:40:35.636
Freestyle?
-Freestyle.

00:40:35.803 --> 00:40:39.015
There's no best.
They're all different things.

00:40:40.016 --> 00:40:42.654
And they say that
you're a good swimmer,

00:40:42.678 --> 00:40:44.854
the less water you
have around you.

00:40:45.021 --> 00:40:47.690
You see the flying water
from the movement?

00:40:48.107 --> 00:40:52.737
The best technique is the
less amount of water splashing.

00:40:57.450 --> 00:41:00.244
I wish we had this in Europe.
So beautiful.

00:41:18.888 --> 00:41:22.683
Being so close to Syria reminds
me of what I left behind.

00:41:23.695 --> 00:41:25.947
I block my feelings
for survival.

00:42:09.522 --> 00:42:10.721
In the last part she
says,

00:42:10.745 --> 00:42:13.276
"Damascus,
you're my daughter, my mother.

00:42:13.609 --> 00:42:16.612
You hold my...

00:42:17.113 --> 00:42:19.824
"sibaja", I don't know
how to say "sibaja".

00:42:20.533 --> 00:42:24.328
You know, when you're a youth,
we say "sabihe".

00:42:24.495 --> 00:42:25.997
"My youth".

00:42:26.022 --> 00:42:29.692
"You hold my youth.
Would I grow up inside you?"

00:42:31.502 --> 00:42:33.588
And then at the end, they say,

00:42:34.797 --> 00:42:39.594
"I wish my wedding dress
and my grave

00:42:39.760 --> 00:42:42.430
were in your jasmine blossoms."

00:42:42.597 --> 00:42:46.434
So it's a really, really
strong song about Damascus.

00:42:47.226 --> 00:42:48.769
One of the most beautiful.

00:42:49.103 --> 00:42:51.105
You want it here?
-Yeah.

00:42:53.024 --> 00:42:56.152
And what about you?
-Same, because it needs to fit.

00:42:56.319 --> 00:42:58.654
It needs to connect.
-On this side?

00:43:01.449 --> 00:43:03.760
My eye is going to
connect with yours

00:43:03.784 --> 00:43:05.536
and then we have
the circle all over us.

00:43:05.703 --> 00:43:07.538
But then we have to...

00:43:08.268 --> 00:43:11.313
It'll be a little bit tricky.
But if you take it from up here.

00:43:11.667 --> 00:43:15.046
And then our eyes are like this.
This is an eye.

00:43:15.212 --> 00:43:17.255
And then the
circle is like this.

00:43:17.279 --> 00:43:18.049
Okay.

00:43:18.522 --> 00:43:20.165
I really love it!

00:44:04.720 --> 00:44:07.723
Come on, let's smoke. Done?
-Done.

00:44:08.224 --> 00:44:10.938
Let's walk away both.
That's nice for the camera.

00:44:10.963 --> 00:44:12.590
One, two, three.

00:44:59.483 --> 00:45:00.943
Me too.

00:45:02.445 --> 00:45:04.530
You're gonna learn something.

00:47:48.712 --> 00:47:50.464
When I get back from Jordan,

00:47:50.488 --> 00:47:53.300
I'm diagnosed with
PTSD and depression.

00:47:53.949 --> 00:47:57.745
When my therapist told me I have
depression, I laughed so hard.

00:47:58.195 --> 00:47:59.668
I come from Syria.

00:47:59.723 --> 00:48:02.231
We don't talk about
these things there.

00:48:09.506 --> 00:48:13.177
I got a lot of flashbacks
the last couple of weeks.

00:48:13.552 --> 00:48:16.556
You don't know when it hits you,
it's just like "click"

00:48:16.581 --> 00:48:19.959
and then you feel like someone
just takes you back there.

00:48:24.855 --> 00:48:26.636
The jail where I was living,

00:48:26.660 --> 00:48:29.234
the emotions,
the stress that I had,

00:48:29.260 --> 00:48:31.304
thinking about things.

00:48:34.657 --> 00:48:37.952
I'm not good
with fear or emotions or stress.

00:48:38.118 --> 00:48:42.331
Whenever it hits me,
my whole body is shivering

00:48:42.356 --> 00:48:46.777
because the pain and exhaustion,
the mental exhaustion that I had

00:48:47.086 --> 00:48:49.171
it just hits me quick.

00:48:51.173 --> 00:48:53.717
I'm with you,
but my mind is not with you.

00:48:53.884 --> 00:48:56.595
I'm not in control of
my body right now.

00:49:03.088 --> 00:49:04.538
And then I was fighting it,
like:

00:49:04.562 --> 00:49:07.231
"Leave me alone,
leave me alone."

00:49:08.273 --> 00:49:09.605
Then I close my eyes:

00:49:09.629 --> 00:49:12.074
"This pain, these emotions,
these flashbacks,

00:49:12.099 --> 00:49:13.321
It's you, Sara.

00:49:13.345 --> 00:49:16.270
You just need to accept that
it's part of you right now."

00:49:21.537 --> 00:49:23.087
I don't want it
to be part of me,

00:49:23.112 --> 00:49:26.157
but actually it is part of me,
that's why it's coming out.

00:49:36.635 --> 00:49:40.014
And I just put my arms up.

00:49:43.851 --> 00:49:45.378
And it's just like
when you let go

00:49:45.402 --> 00:49:47.730
and you let
everything come in.

00:49:49.273 --> 00:49:52.234
Okay, you want to freak me out?
Let's do it.

00:50:32.149 --> 00:50:35.069
So what can people do to help?

00:50:36.111 --> 00:50:38.322
Both the case that you're in now

00:50:38.489 --> 00:50:42.117
and also the wider refugee
crisis that's happening?

00:50:42.443 --> 00:50:44.779
It's not about me alone as Sara.

00:50:45.329 --> 00:50:50.125
There is 150 cases like me
around the whole world.

00:50:50.459 --> 00:50:54.213
Number one: you can speak up
and the same way we are able

00:50:54.379 --> 00:50:57.633
to go in millions on the streets
for climate change,

00:50:57.800 --> 00:51:00.594
we can go in millions
for refugees' rights

00:51:01.220 --> 00:51:04.973
and we can go in millions
for criminalising humanitarians.

00:51:05.265 --> 00:51:07.476
You need to come out
of your comfort zone.

00:51:07.810 --> 00:51:11.313
You need your willing.
Will and do it.

00:51:11.480 --> 00:51:14.608
I'm so sorry to say that, but
there's no more time for hope.

00:51:14.775 --> 00:51:18.654
There's time for action.
We all should stand up and act.

00:51:18.821 --> 00:51:20.902
We've been hoping
for so many years

00:51:20.926 --> 00:51:23.409
and we need to act
right now, all of us.

00:51:25.828 --> 00:51:29.373
Your sister said about you that
no one can get you to stay quiet

00:51:29.540 --> 00:51:32.709
and I hope for all of our sake,
no one does.

00:52:31.977 --> 00:52:33.270
Sorry!

00:52:36.481 --> 00:52:39.109
Even though there are
no updates from Greece,

00:52:39.276 --> 00:52:41.653
the trial is costing
time and money.

00:52:42.821 --> 00:52:47.409
Our legal fees are adding up.
With a lot of help, we manage.

00:52:47.701 --> 00:52:50.621
But the legal bills
are just unbelievable.

00:53:03.091 --> 00:53:05.135
We have three shifts a day.

00:53:05.302 --> 00:53:08.138
The hardest one
is actually lunch.

00:53:08.163 --> 00:53:11.083
You need to work like a machine.

00:53:18.732 --> 00:53:21.276
There's a lot of loud noise,
you can scream.

00:53:21.443 --> 00:53:24.144
You can smash things.

00:53:27.491 --> 00:53:30.119
The fact that I work so fast

00:53:30.143 --> 00:53:32.541
brings me back to my
environment in Greece,

00:53:32.566 --> 00:53:35.652
which is emergency,
stress and pressure.

00:53:38.585 --> 00:53:40.956
At the same time,
I put out my energy

00:53:40.980 --> 00:53:43.423
during the day so
I can sleep at night.

00:54:36.977 --> 00:54:39.688
So you saw these posts
I put on Instagram?

00:54:40.230 --> 00:54:42.101
About mental health
and everything?

00:54:42.125 --> 00:54:43.525
Yeah, I saw that one.

00:54:43.859 --> 00:54:46.403
Everybody was texting me:
"I'll stand by you."

00:54:46.428 --> 00:54:47.480
I'm like: "Guys,

00:54:47.504 --> 00:54:50.098
I have friends and family
who are standing by me.

00:54:50.407 --> 00:54:52.200
I don't need more.

00:54:52.367 --> 00:54:55.037
You're actually
not fucking standing with us.

00:54:55.062 --> 00:54:57.647
It's me and Sean
worrying about the 40,000 euros.

00:54:57.956 --> 00:55:01.251
You just clap to us when we
speak a speech and that's it."

00:55:01.668 --> 00:55:04.046
Here, I feel like
I'm just giving

00:55:04.212 --> 00:55:06.882
and I'm not paid.

00:55:07.095 --> 00:55:11.671
And also its re-traumatising.
You think the more you talk...

00:55:11.696 --> 00:55:13.680
It's a lot of emotional labour.
-Yeah!

00:55:13.847 --> 00:55:17.100
And also you push it all down
all the time,

00:55:17.125 --> 00:55:20.045
but then it comes
out in other things.

00:55:20.812 --> 00:55:25.525
My activism work is not based
on how many stages I stand on.

00:55:29.571 --> 00:55:32.407
I'm pissing off a lot of people,
but where were they

00:55:32.574 --> 00:55:35.577
when we were fundraising
40,000 euros for our case?

00:55:40.699 --> 00:55:44.912
Now I'm asking myself: How
do all my friends deal with me?

00:55:45.212 --> 00:55:47.172
I'm so intense!

00:55:47.839 --> 00:55:50.634
Glad you start to...
Just joking.

00:55:50.659 --> 00:55:53.537
No, seriously.
I was saying to myself,

00:55:53.561 --> 00:55:55.872
"What the fuck? Chill, girl!"

00:55:58.934 --> 00:56:02.020
But that's what we love you for.
-My intensivity?

00:56:02.187 --> 00:56:03.647
Of course.
-Wow!

00:56:03.814 --> 00:56:07.984
The whole Mardini package.
-That's a statement.

00:56:09.694 --> 00:56:13.365
Now I understand why my mom
struggles to deal with me.

00:56:14.334 --> 00:56:17.584
But I have such a good
relationship with Yusra now.

00:56:17.609 --> 00:56:18.284
Yeah?

00:56:18.308 --> 00:56:20.914
My mom, too. We're all
doing therapy with Ali.

00:56:21.081 --> 00:56:23.083
So everybody's opening up.

00:56:23.250 --> 00:56:24.835
That's beautiful.
-Yeah.

00:56:25.168 --> 00:56:27.379
Do talk with her
about future plans?

00:56:27.712 --> 00:56:30.090
No.
-It's a different matter?

00:56:30.257 --> 00:56:32.884
No,
but I don't have future plans.

00:56:50.235 --> 00:56:53.822
How was it to deal with
when the Olympics got postponed?

00:56:54.156 --> 00:56:57.451
Okay, one fact straight: we
cannot change anything about it.

00:56:57.784 --> 00:57:01.310
Also, we should all think about
refugees at the moment

00:57:01.335 --> 00:57:06.002
because they don't have access
to what we have access to.

00:57:49.419 --> 00:57:52.380
The hearing was supposed
to take place in September.

00:57:52.881 --> 00:57:54.549
Due to Covid,

00:57:54.716 --> 00:57:58.508
the courts are closed and
not operating for these cases.

00:57:58.929 --> 00:58:01.865
So we are waiting for the courts
to operate again

00:58:01.890 --> 00:58:05.393
to take a new date
for this kind of procedure.

00:58:29.709 --> 00:58:32.504
Oh yeah,
I'm trying to change everything.

00:58:32.671 --> 00:58:34.858
My therapist said
I'm in a midlife crisis,

00:58:34.883 --> 00:58:37.619
but in my twenties.
Earlier.

00:58:37.759 --> 00:58:40.600
I got enrolled into politics
and everything

00:58:40.625 --> 00:58:42.090
because when we
arrived here,

00:58:42.114 --> 00:58:45.367
we just got channelled
and we went with it.

00:58:45.392 --> 00:58:47.936
We technically
went with the flow.

00:58:47.961 --> 00:58:51.715
But then now I'm realising, I
think because I started therapy,

00:58:52.190 --> 00:58:54.420
that I never actually
thought about my decisions

00:58:54.444 --> 00:58:57.053
and just follow my heart.

00:59:00.949 --> 00:59:02.725
But now I do.

00:59:02.826 --> 00:59:05.181
I don't want to do
another day doing things

00:59:05.205 --> 00:59:07.080
I'm not motivated to do.

00:59:08.123 --> 00:59:10.709
I don't want to even
write another essay

00:59:10.875 --> 00:59:13.236
for a subject
that I'm not interested in.

00:59:15.797 --> 00:59:17.152
I stayed in that school

00:59:17.176 --> 00:59:19.884
because I enjoyed the
comfort zone of that money.

00:59:20.100 --> 00:59:23.242
But then at the end, I felt like
this was taking a toll on me

00:59:23.267 --> 00:59:25.586
and my brain and my time.

00:59:25.724 --> 00:59:28.310
And then I decided
to just leave.

00:59:30.270 --> 00:59:32.508
I think if I would
own all this place,

00:59:32.533 --> 00:59:35.036
I'd make all my friends'
dreams come true.

00:59:35.817 --> 00:59:37.527
And mine too.

00:59:39.070 --> 00:59:41.448
We can make it
a temporary emergency camp.

00:59:42.198 --> 00:59:44.689
For people in
emergency situations.

00:59:44.713 --> 00:59:46.911
Or a mental health camp.

00:59:47.537 --> 00:59:49.414
Because it's in nature.

00:59:49.706 --> 00:59:52.876
So people can come here
and just chill.

00:59:53.752 --> 00:59:56.004
It's pretty damaged, though.

01:00:22.238 --> 01:00:24.282
The fire was sparked overnight.

01:00:24.449 --> 01:00:27.118
Several shacks went up in flames
around the camp

01:00:27.285 --> 01:00:30.080
before the entire
compound began to burn.

01:00:39.506 --> 01:00:44.260
Moria is basically Europe's
largest and worst refugee camp.

01:00:53.728 --> 01:00:56.064
That's where the food
lines were. Up here.

01:01:01.528 --> 01:01:05.782
I didn't talk to anyone about it
for the whole week.

01:01:07.200 --> 01:01:08.844
I just kept on sharing,

01:01:08.868 --> 01:01:11.838
but I blocked all the
communication with everybody.

01:01:11.863 --> 01:01:14.532
Because I wasn't able
to put it into words.

01:01:14.999 --> 01:01:19.087
I didn't want to put it into
words. No words can describe it.

01:01:20.213 --> 01:01:22.340
It looks exactly like...

01:01:23.216 --> 01:01:26.678
back home
when everything was destroyed.

01:01:33.768 --> 01:01:36.688
And I just felt, my
two homes on fire.

01:01:36.855 --> 01:01:40.567
Greece is my second home
before Berlin after Syria.

01:01:40.734 --> 01:01:43.194
So I felt pretty hopeless.

01:01:43.987 --> 01:01:46.489
Especially also that
I could not be there.

01:01:46.656 --> 01:01:50.326
If I could just fly there,
I would be there already.

01:01:50.493 --> 01:01:52.495
I would not skip a heartbeat.

01:02:08.907 --> 01:02:12.119
I was released
exactly almost two years ago.

01:02:13.516 --> 01:02:15.602
I was released in
December, actually.

01:02:15.769 --> 01:02:19.439
Two years ago I was
still in prison. And...

01:02:19.773 --> 01:02:22.484
We are still criminals

01:02:22.650 --> 01:02:26.571
and we are still waiting
for our court date to happen,

01:02:27.197 --> 01:02:29.866
hopefully one day.

01:02:30.257 --> 01:02:31.487
The last couple of months,

01:02:31.511 --> 01:02:35.371
we all know what happened
in Moria and the fire.

01:02:35.955 --> 01:02:39.271
We were all against
rebuilding Moria

01:02:39.295 --> 01:02:41.544
and they've rebuilt even worse.

01:02:41.878 --> 01:02:45.398
We demonstrated and talked
about it for a couple of days.

01:02:45.423 --> 01:02:48.468
But now we forgot again.

01:02:48.802 --> 01:02:51.179
What has been
happening around us?

01:02:52.388 --> 01:02:55.642
Do we actually see anyone
doing something about it?

01:02:55.975 --> 01:03:00.063
Are we doing something about it,
apart from here and protesting?

01:03:00.230 --> 01:03:02.524
Or we just keep it
normal, normalise it,

01:03:02.549 --> 01:03:05.635
everything is cool
and we go back to normal?

01:03:18.039 --> 01:03:21.918
I have very good news. Sea-Watch
contacted me this morning.

01:03:21.978 --> 01:03:24.605
They want me to
join the next mission.

01:03:25.922 --> 01:03:27.382
Where?

01:03:27.549 --> 01:03:31.188
I didn't read the e-mail yet
because I was coming here.

01:03:31.261 --> 01:03:32.521
But it's made me a bit, like:

01:03:32.545 --> 01:03:34.848
"Oh, fuck. I'm
back on the move."

01:03:35.014 --> 01:03:37.850
If I do this,
I'm out of here again.

01:03:54.075 --> 01:03:55.577
Yeah, I look so...

01:03:56.160 --> 01:03:58.090
not me, but in a good way.

01:03:59.497 --> 01:04:01.374
Now it's her turn!

01:04:03.459 --> 01:04:04.878
Sara?

01:04:05.378 --> 01:04:08.214
Can you give me your phone?
It's time for my music.

01:04:10.717 --> 01:04:14.512
In the party, if someone cut the
set and played something else,

01:04:15.513 --> 01:04:18.600
the Satan comes
down in my brain.

01:04:19.183 --> 01:04:20.560
Why am I talking to you?

01:04:20.727 --> 01:04:23.605
Go look at the... No, don't
look at the outfits, actually.

01:04:23.938 --> 01:04:25.020
Of course, if you ask me

01:04:25.044 --> 01:04:27.641
what's going on with
your case in Mytilini,

01:04:27.752 --> 01:04:33.188
I would have to notify you that
we're still in the same spot.

01:04:33.406 --> 01:04:38.199
Yeah, I'm aware, I think. I'm
aware that nothing's changing.

01:04:38.411 --> 01:04:43.333
And I'm joining Sea-Watch
in a couple of days, in Italy.

01:04:44.542 --> 01:04:45.905
You know about the problems

01:04:45.929 --> 01:04:48.004
that we have with
Sea-Watch in Greece?

01:04:48.546 --> 01:04:49.589
Really?

01:04:49.784 --> 01:04:54.052
There is an enormous case
with German NGOs.

01:04:54.218 --> 01:04:57.430
They are facing
an identical case like yours.

01:04:57.663 --> 01:04:59.698
I like how he's smiling
when he says it.

01:04:59.722 --> 01:05:02.727
He's like: "My God,
she's going there."

01:05:02.894 --> 01:05:06.064
Stay away from search
and rescue operations.

01:05:06.238 --> 01:05:07.883
Yeah, I promise.

01:05:07.907 --> 01:05:09.918
What are you going
to do exactly there?

01:05:09.943 --> 01:05:14.030
I don't do a search and rescue.
I don't go on small boats.

01:05:14.055 --> 01:05:17.691
I just distribute
food and clothes

01:05:17.715 --> 01:05:19.677
and water and
these types of things.

01:05:19.702 --> 01:05:21.941
I'm happy that you're
again on the field.

01:05:21.965 --> 01:05:23.331
Thank you.

01:05:23.498 --> 01:05:25.875
Because for me it's...

01:05:26.049 --> 01:05:29.136
It would be a huge
win for those people

01:05:29.161 --> 01:05:33.582
that wanted to put you out
of this humanitarian role.

01:05:33.883 --> 01:05:37.845
For me, having this case in
Greece should not be something

01:05:38.012 --> 01:05:39.512
that can keep you away

01:05:39.537 --> 01:05:42.241
from what you feel and
what you dream for yourself.

01:05:43.559 --> 01:05:47.605
Yeah. I tried to do so
many other things. I couldn't.

01:05:47.772 --> 01:05:51.315
I had depression because
I couldn't do anything else.

01:05:51.339 --> 01:05:52.819
It's just where I belong.

01:06:08.209 --> 01:06:11.421
You're taking so much space!
-One more time!

01:06:11.587 --> 01:06:13.673
Okay, go. One, two, three.

01:06:16.634 --> 01:06:19.887
Amazing.
-You're cheering up.

01:06:19.994 --> 01:06:22.871
Wait, wait. Come back,
come back. Come to me.

01:06:22.896 --> 01:06:25.065
Come stand here.
And see this.

01:06:25.601 --> 01:06:28.146
From here.
You see her corner.

01:06:30.997 --> 01:06:34.501
Vogue Arabia, after they see
this, they're gonna do a cover.

01:06:34.777 --> 01:06:37.613
Yeah.
-You go behind her. Behind her.

01:06:38.031 --> 01:06:40.450
Lean on me.
-Yes.

01:06:42.368 --> 01:06:45.788
Wait, wait. Hold on. Let me
stabilise and now lean on me.

01:06:48.995 --> 01:06:52.290
I'm freaking out here!
-You're heavy, sister!

01:06:54.630 --> 01:06:56.243
We're creating
our own narratives,

01:06:56.267 --> 01:06:58.718
we're creating our
own boundaries.

01:07:00.136 --> 01:07:01.686
So I did break
out of it.

01:07:01.710 --> 01:07:04.140
I think that was
part of the healing.

01:07:05.600 --> 01:07:07.736
I wanted to create a
whole different path

01:07:07.760 --> 01:07:10.855
that is completely
far from what she do.

01:07:14.400 --> 01:07:17.945
I don't want to be her shadow
and I don't want her to be mine.

01:07:18.112 --> 01:07:20.990
We don't believe in shadows,
both of us.

01:07:23.493 --> 01:07:25.862
Instead of having
this narrow road,

01:07:25.887 --> 01:07:28.723
I want to experience
and learn so many things.

01:07:32.710 --> 01:07:33.854
It's like music

01:07:33.879 --> 01:07:36.011
when sometimes
the beat is so nice

01:07:36.035 --> 01:07:37.841
that you jump from your place.

01:07:39.258 --> 01:07:40.883
For me, I want
every single moment

01:07:40.908 --> 01:07:43.227
in my life to be like this.

01:08:06.160 --> 01:08:08.955
For the first day,
I will not be able to sleep.

01:08:09.288 --> 01:08:10.503
I always get scared

01:08:10.527 --> 01:08:13.459
when I'm going to
experience something new.

01:08:13.835 --> 01:08:16.712
And then when I do it, I relax.

01:09:19.942 --> 01:09:21.891
The five-year migration crisis,

01:09:21.915 --> 01:09:24.480
especially in the
Mediterranean and Atlantic

01:09:24.530 --> 01:09:29.035
continues unabated, with
drowning deaths now on the rise.

01:09:30.870 --> 01:09:34.749
It seems masked men often attack
migrant boats on the open seas,

01:09:35.041 --> 01:09:38.753
damaging them so they can't be
steered and leaving them adrift.

01:09:38.778 --> 01:09:40.961
Sometimes they even
actively force the boats

01:09:40.985 --> 01:09:42.907
back into Turkish waters,

01:09:42.932 --> 01:09:45.184
a tactic known as pushback.

01:10:25.549 --> 01:10:28.970
My name is Sara Mardini.
Solidarity is not a crime.

01:10:36.018 --> 01:10:39.385
That's the bow.
That was my area.

01:10:40.606 --> 01:10:44.908
I gave them a lot of emergency
blankets and wrapped them.

01:10:53.995 --> 01:10:56.956
I was happy there.
It was really nice.

01:11:05.214 --> 01:11:07.174
So we were just talking.

01:11:07.341 --> 01:11:10.219
They love having conversations
and we'd just sit there.

01:11:10.386 --> 01:11:13.347
I'd be talking to one
and then they'd all come closer

01:11:13.372 --> 01:11:15.833
and then it's like
a big circle of people.

01:11:20.271 --> 01:11:22.064
Libyan coastguard.

01:11:26.235 --> 01:11:27.528
Yeah.

01:11:27.820 --> 01:11:30.197
There was a
fucking horrible day.

01:11:30.489 --> 01:11:33.551
Because we couldn't bring them.
They took them on board.

01:11:33.576 --> 01:11:37.079
But we witnessed everything.
We saw them hitting them...

01:11:37.413 --> 01:11:39.999
That was so bad, that day.

01:11:44.086 --> 01:11:48.462
This one, we could risk drowning
ourselves if we rescue them.

01:11:48.487 --> 01:11:51.917
Because of capacity.
For the safety of the ship.

01:11:52.178 --> 01:11:56.265
And then the head of mission
and the head of engineers

01:11:56.432 --> 01:11:58.642
decided that we can take them.

01:12:02.104 --> 01:12:06.275
You see how they cheer up, in
one moment that someone, like...

01:12:07.193 --> 01:12:10.166
Life changes from death to life.

01:12:12.406 --> 01:12:15.951
Yes, it's just tough.
And they're alive now.

01:12:16.285 --> 01:12:18.162
It's something that...

01:12:18.454 --> 01:12:22.041
That's why I'm like...
Who are other humans to...

01:12:22.333 --> 01:12:23.459
Yeah.

01:12:24.001 --> 01:12:25.961
I cannot speak about it.

01:12:26.420 --> 01:12:29.548
I don't understand. Why would
anyone do that to anyone?

01:12:41.852 --> 01:12:44.939
What the fuck is
going on in the world?

01:12:45.481 --> 01:12:48.776
Who are you to decide
I can leave that person to drown

01:12:48.943 --> 01:12:51.529
and see the Libyan coastguard
hitting them?

01:12:51.695 --> 01:12:54.615
To say to me, "No, you're
not allowed to interfere"?

01:12:55.491 --> 01:12:57.993
Who are you to give
me laws to follow

01:12:58.017 --> 01:13:00.454
when you yourself
are not following it?

01:13:02.123 --> 01:13:03.999
Who are you?

01:13:10.548 --> 01:13:13.092
This is me standing in
front of the whole world:

01:13:13.250 --> 01:13:15.225
I do not support what's going on

01:13:15.258 --> 01:13:17.054
and I'm not going
to be part of it.

01:13:18.972 --> 01:13:21.835
I have a message I
completely believe in

01:13:21.860 --> 01:13:23.310
and I'm going
to fight for it.

01:13:42.246 --> 01:13:45.040
After being in jail
because of volunteering,

01:13:45.207 --> 01:13:48.561
she volunteered with Sea-Watch,
helping lives again.

01:13:48.586 --> 01:13:51.255
To be honest, this is
very brave. I told her:

01:13:51.280 --> 01:13:54.684
I could never go to
the middle of the sea again

01:13:54.724 --> 01:13:56.827
and be on a
ship and rescue people.

01:13:56.852 --> 01:13:59.146
I don't know how I would feel.

01:14:02.766 --> 01:14:04.743
I would love her to know

01:14:04.768 --> 01:14:08.063
that because she was crazy
and she was so different,

01:14:08.088 --> 01:14:10.716
I learned a lot from her.

01:14:11.015 --> 01:14:13.623
I learned to say no
and I learned to say:

01:14:13.648 --> 01:14:14.837
"I do not like this."

01:14:14.862 --> 01:14:18.115
And I learned to say:
"I can be better than you

01:14:18.282 --> 01:14:20.576
even if you think I'm not."

01:14:41.847 --> 01:14:46.003
Yusra Mardini,
she's in lane number 3.

01:14:49.647 --> 01:14:52.775
We're into the water for the
100-metres butterfly for women

01:14:52.942 --> 01:14:55.486
at the Tokyo Olympic Games.

01:15:09.672 --> 01:15:13.884
We were put in prison
because we decided to save lives

01:15:14.338 --> 01:15:19.301
when the governments of Europe
and the world failed to do so.

01:15:20.052 --> 01:15:23.681
But guess what?
We will not stop.

01:15:26.517 --> 01:15:30.312
Because saving a human life
from drowning in the sea

01:15:30.479 --> 01:15:33.607
can never, ever,
ever be a crime.

01:15:34.233 --> 01:15:35.359
Thank you.

01:16:02.196 --> 01:16:04.196
Hello.

01:16:07.099 --> 01:16:11.312
That's the first letter
that Sean sent to me in prison.

01:16:12.354 --> 01:16:14.231
So basically, he says:

01:16:14.565 --> 01:16:16.442
"Dear Mardini...

01:16:17.484 --> 01:16:19.644
I'm selfish because
I'm happy..."

01:16:19.668 --> 01:16:21.697
His handwriting is so hard.

01:16:21.864 --> 01:16:26.201
"I'm selfish because I'm happy
we are in here together.

01:16:28.829 --> 01:16:31.874
Who thought what
will happen tomorrow?

01:16:32.041 --> 01:16:36.545
But I believe
tomorrow is a start..."

01:16:40.007 --> 01:16:43.385
His handwriting!
It's just... not for me.

01:16:53.687 --> 01:16:56.190
I got a phone call from Sean.

01:16:56.357 --> 01:17:00.152
And he was telling me
that the trial date is up.

01:17:00.319 --> 01:17:02.307
And then you're
in this situation,

01:17:02.331 --> 01:17:05.157
you're like: "What is going on?"

01:17:07.701 --> 01:17:10.068
You're being prosecuted,
you have a trial date

01:17:10.093 --> 01:17:12.679
and didn't even
receive official paperwork.

01:17:21.090 --> 01:17:22.132
It wasn't easy at all.

01:17:22.156 --> 01:17:27.154
I just woke up and I heard what
Sean was saying.

01:17:27.179 --> 01:17:28.815
And the first thing... I cried:

01:17:28.839 --> 01:17:31.225
"I don't want to go
back to prison."

01:17:31.392 --> 01:17:33.644
I just do not want
to go back there.

01:17:44.738 --> 01:17:47.991
My brain is like: "It's
going to take another year,

01:17:48.158 --> 01:17:50.703
you're going to get
into more depressive modes.

01:17:50.869 --> 01:17:54.289
You're gonna be very sad,
you're gonna hate yourself."

01:17:56.250 --> 01:17:58.099
And this is me, by myself,

01:17:58.123 --> 01:18:00.838
struggling with every
single day right now.

01:18:08.053 --> 01:18:09.322
My body is, like:

01:18:09.346 --> 01:18:12.641
"One last fight! We did it
before. We can do it again."

01:18:28.741 --> 01:18:32.703
Yeah, yeah. I'm not backing off.
Not now, not ever.

01:18:32.995 --> 01:18:35.622
I'm done, one last battle.

01:18:36.290 --> 01:18:37.457
I'm battling my body,

01:18:37.481 --> 01:18:40.669
I'm battling my whole
life for this right now.

01:18:41.712 --> 01:18:45.299
Actually, I got out of my bed
just this morning.

01:18:45.466 --> 01:18:47.968
Four days and not able to walk.

01:18:49.011 --> 01:18:50.804
And I'm done.

01:18:58.812 --> 01:19:02.107
Well, you know my lawyers
know me very well, so...

01:19:02.132 --> 01:19:03.667
I don't know why
I'm stressed today.

01:19:03.691 --> 01:19:06.553
I've never been
stressed with them.

01:19:07.905 --> 01:19:10.339
Maybe because
I have so much energy

01:19:10.363 --> 01:19:11.691
I don't know what to do with.

01:19:11.950 --> 01:19:15.746
Happy to see all of you.
-I can't hear you.

01:19:15.913 --> 01:19:18.499
Can you hear me now better?
-Repeat the question.

01:19:19.166 --> 01:19:23.295
What is the positive
and negative aspect for us?

01:19:23.670 --> 01:19:27.341
Yeah, what will change,
basically?

01:19:28.175 --> 01:19:32.596
We have a prosecutor
who decided to indict us

01:19:32.763 --> 01:19:36.642
without taking notice of
the irregularities in that case.

01:19:36.809 --> 01:19:40.395
For sure, we'll have
to present any progress

01:19:40.554 --> 01:19:43.596
as one of the most
intense examples

01:19:43.629 --> 01:19:46.210
of the judicial harassment

01:19:46.235 --> 01:19:47.903
by the local authorities.

01:19:48.403 --> 01:19:51.399
We feel that we have
a good opportunity

01:19:51.423 --> 01:19:54.159
here to make this a wider issue.

01:19:54.493 --> 01:19:57.454
I presume that we want
to speak more than just about

01:19:57.621 --> 01:20:00.541
"Sean and Sara
should not go back to jail"

01:20:00.707 --> 01:20:03.460
because that
doesn't resonate very widely.

01:20:03.627 --> 01:20:06.709
We can frame this as an attack
on civil society at large.

01:20:06.733 --> 01:20:07.648
Sorry, Sara.

01:20:07.673 --> 01:20:09.424
I completely agree.

01:20:09.591 --> 01:20:11.771
What we were waiting for

01:20:11.795 --> 01:20:14.012
the past three years is to
have a court date.

01:20:14.513 --> 01:20:16.485
I want somehow to
pressure them

01:20:16.509 --> 01:20:20.202
because it needs to
be out in the public.

01:20:20.227 --> 01:20:22.437
I will interrupt you
to say goodbye.

01:20:22.604 --> 01:20:24.606
Back to work!
-Bye!

01:20:24.773 --> 01:20:26.692
See you.
-Take care.

01:20:26.859 --> 01:20:29.903
Bye, everybody.
-Bye bye.

01:20:30.070 --> 01:20:31.864
Big hugs!

01:20:32.030 --> 01:20:33.490
Kisses!

01:20:33.907 --> 01:20:37.035
Sean, do you want to stay a bit?
-Yeah.

01:20:37.060 --> 01:20:38.151
I'm so stressed,

01:20:38.175 --> 01:20:42.082
I'm trying to be normal,
as much as possible.

01:20:42.595 --> 01:20:46.411
For me, it was wild as well
because I was so used to limbo.

01:20:46.837 --> 01:20:49.559
And I didn't realise
how comfortable

01:20:49.583 --> 01:20:52.901
I had become with being in limbo

01:20:52.926 --> 01:20:54.805
and knowing that
it's not going ahead

01:20:54.830 --> 01:20:58.156
and suddenly there's
going to be a trial.

01:20:58.181 --> 01:21:01.351
You should start smoking,
that will help de-stress.

01:21:03.228 --> 01:21:04.654
That's not happening,

01:21:04.678 --> 01:21:06.607
I'm not even drinking
coffee at the moment.

01:21:06.773 --> 01:21:11.320
I am on the... I just got
my white belt in kickboxing.

01:21:11.486 --> 01:21:15.002
I'm trying to get
ready for prison.

01:21:15.027 --> 01:21:15.800
Nice!

01:21:15.824 --> 01:21:17.367
Don't joke about it!

01:21:17.392 --> 01:21:18.949
We're not fucking
going to prison.

01:21:18.973 --> 01:21:20.971
We're not going to prison.

01:21:20.996 --> 01:21:23.254
We're not going to prison.

01:21:24.708 --> 01:21:26.293
Woah, man.

01:21:26.627 --> 01:21:30.297
I have the power of a fucking
thousand people in my body.

01:21:43.185 --> 01:21:45.062
Okay, voilą.

01:21:45.520 --> 01:21:47.571
I'm not going to make
my feelings take over me,

01:21:47.595 --> 01:21:49.232
not right now.

01:22:41.368 --> 01:22:44.360
The Greek authorities
kept me in prison

01:22:44.385 --> 01:22:47.462
because they were afraid
I'd escape my own trial.

01:22:48.208 --> 01:22:51.253
And now they won't even
let me back in the country

01:22:51.278 --> 01:22:55.323
because they believe I'm a
threat to the national security.

01:22:56.174 --> 01:23:00.846
There's 24 people in our case
and I'm being singled out.

01:23:08.603 --> 01:23:12.247
I'm not given my basic right to
defend myself in the courthouse.

01:23:14.700 --> 01:23:16.493
I go to Rome.

01:23:16.588 --> 01:23:19.674
I need to be alone
to get my energy back together

01:23:20.615 --> 01:23:22.908
to be able to
stand in solidarity

01:23:22.932 --> 01:23:25.029
with my friends in Greece.

01:23:35.589 --> 01:23:37.382
I feel like

01:23:37.841 --> 01:23:40.552
we've always been here

01:23:40.719 --> 01:23:42.095
since then.

01:23:43.013 --> 01:23:45.098
We haven't really left it.

01:23:45.265 --> 01:23:48.810
Greece has been on my mind every
single day for three years.

01:23:49.227 --> 01:23:51.104
I know it's been
on Sara's mind too.

01:23:57.194 --> 01:23:59.696
I mean, just being
completely honest:

01:24:00.322 --> 01:24:02.949
The media is
interested in Sara's story.

01:24:04.910 --> 01:24:06.995
It sounds so weird, but...

01:24:07.579 --> 01:24:10.005
In some ways I'm lucky

01:24:10.029 --> 01:24:12.102
that it was Sara who
was arrested with me,

01:24:12.127 --> 01:24:13.414
that we were arrested together

01:24:13.470 --> 01:24:16.695
because if it had been me alone,
for example,

01:24:17.266 --> 01:24:20.477
I don't think there'd be as
much interest from the media.

01:24:20.801 --> 01:24:23.247
And the media has
been hugely important

01:24:23.271 --> 01:24:25.097
for our release
from pre-trial prison

01:24:25.263 --> 01:24:28.350
and is hugely important for
public opinion now as well.

01:24:28.809 --> 01:24:31.728
As a friend, I wish that she
never was involved in this.

01:24:31.895 --> 01:24:33.980
But as a co-defendant...

01:24:34.523 --> 01:24:38.485
I couldn't think of a better
"partner in crime", as it were.

01:24:38.826 --> 01:24:40.119
Hey!

01:24:40.374 --> 01:24:41.394
How are you doing?

01:24:41.418 --> 01:24:43.532
I'm good. I just landed in Rome.

01:24:43.698 --> 01:24:46.535
You guys do the trial,
I'm on holiday for ten days.

01:25:19.901 --> 01:25:22.821
I'm scared of the process
of the whole thing.

01:25:22.990 --> 01:25:27.495
I'm just worried that some
stupid decisions will happen

01:25:27.826 --> 01:25:32.053
and make us again... We don't
really have much energy left.

01:25:32.164 --> 01:25:35.800
And we're wasting everything
we have now for this case:

01:25:35.824 --> 01:25:37.878
money, time and energy.

01:25:38.211 --> 01:25:40.589
So let's see
what's going to happen.

01:25:49.806 --> 01:25:51.683
What do I expect?

01:25:52.976 --> 01:25:55.487
This prosecution has
done a very poor job

01:25:55.511 --> 01:25:57.314
of sending an indictment.

01:25:57.772 --> 01:26:00.650
It doesn't name people,
it numbers people,

01:26:00.817 --> 01:26:02.903
so people don't
know the charges.

01:26:03.069 --> 01:26:06.081
It's clearly a violation
of their right to a fair trial.

01:26:07.991 --> 01:26:10.202
What damage has
already been done?

01:26:10.368 --> 01:26:12.871
There is no more
search and rescue on Lesbos.

01:26:13.038 --> 01:26:14.998
It has frightened away everyone.

01:26:39.940 --> 01:26:42.359
Now the trial begins.

01:26:44.194 --> 01:26:48.448
We don't know what's going on.
The media is not allowed in.

01:26:53.578 --> 01:26:56.498
I'm not sure what
the outcome would be.

01:26:56.665 --> 01:26:59.209
That is the most
scary thing about it.

01:27:01.962 --> 01:27:04.506
You don't know what
they are capable of.

01:27:10.679 --> 01:27:14.641
So that's really the issue now,
they don't have an interpreter.

01:27:14.808 --> 01:27:17.477
That or they wanted
a 20-minute lunch break.

01:27:17.811 --> 01:27:19.896
It's just a matter
of waiting now.

01:27:20.063 --> 01:27:22.190
For them to find...?

01:27:22.357 --> 01:27:24.103
For them to realise that

01:27:24.127 --> 01:27:27.112
there's a need for English
interpretation.

01:27:32.575 --> 01:27:35.578
This is so stupid.
Oh God, this is so stupid.

01:27:40.125 --> 01:27:42.377
I really can't keep going
like this.

01:27:43.003 --> 01:27:45.338
Sean, they asked
me to translate.

01:27:45.362 --> 01:27:46.549
Are you happy with that?

01:27:46.798 --> 01:27:50.636
Zaccharias,
I don't know the words for...

01:27:50.661 --> 01:27:51.484
"Fuck you"?

01:27:51.508 --> 01:27:55.414
That also. And "judicial",
"counsel" and all that.

01:27:55.439 --> 01:27:58.275
We are not going
to need such detail.

01:28:00.687 --> 01:28:03.064
I don't know if this is smart.

01:28:05.233 --> 01:28:06.401
Come on!

01:28:12.407 --> 01:28:14.242
I hope they don't postpone it.

01:28:14.409 --> 01:28:17.662
I'm gonna be so angry
if they postpone it again.

01:28:53.773 --> 01:28:56.568
One of the 24 defendants,
he's a lawyer.

01:28:56.593 --> 01:28:59.292
According to Greek
legislation,

01:28:59.316 --> 01:29:01.473
a lawyer can be judged
only by a higher court.

01:29:01.498 --> 01:29:03.583
Okay, thank you, Zaccharias.

01:29:09.464 --> 01:29:11.424
The trial is postponed.

01:29:11.591 --> 01:29:14.094
They're making an
example out of us.

01:29:14.260 --> 01:29:17.722
We have to start all over again
with another court.

01:29:20.892 --> 01:29:22.852
Will it ever end?

01:29:23.186 --> 01:29:26.106
What we as search
and rescuers ask for

01:29:26.272 --> 01:29:30.235
is that the EU and Greece
simply respect their own laws.

01:29:30.260 --> 01:29:32.107
The Universal Declaration
of Human Rights,

01:29:32.131 --> 01:29:33.888
the EU Convention
on Human Rights.

01:29:33.913 --> 01:29:36.080
They require us
to observe the right

01:29:36.104 --> 01:29:38.201
to seek asylum
and preserve life.

01:29:38.226 --> 01:29:40.620
We are not doing that.

01:29:40.787 --> 01:29:44.874
What we're spending thousands
of euro doing and years doing

01:29:45.041 --> 01:29:47.460
is going through these courts
for no reason

01:29:47.485 --> 01:29:50.488
other than trying to
criminalise search and rescue.

01:29:52.048 --> 01:29:53.263
What are you going to do now?

01:29:53.287 --> 01:29:56.138
When do you think
this will be over?

01:29:56.651 --> 01:29:57.726
There is no indication.

01:29:57.750 --> 01:30:01.015
We could be waiting for
years. We will be.

01:30:01.182 --> 01:30:04.519
That's the problem. And
while I wait, what can we do?

01:30:04.686 --> 01:30:06.736
We have to wait in limbo,

01:30:06.760 --> 01:30:08.815
unable to continue
with our lives,

01:30:08.982 --> 01:30:11.709
unable to provide
care at the shoreline,

01:30:11.733 --> 01:30:13.545
unable to do anything but wait

01:30:13.570 --> 01:30:16.114
for this trial to finally
get its act together,

01:30:16.281 --> 01:30:19.325
for this prosecution
to do their job correctly.

01:30:22.829 --> 01:30:26.332
I just want to be innocent,
all of us. Just let us go.

01:30:26.791 --> 01:30:29.043
That's the only-case scenario
that we want.

01:30:29.210 --> 01:30:30.776
Just let us fucking go

01:30:30.800 --> 01:30:34.215
in one piece because we
can't live like this anymore.

01:30:35.158 --> 01:30:37.487
How much more
trauma will we get now?

01:30:37.527 --> 01:30:39.835
And how will we
live with it later?

01:30:41.798 --> 01:30:44.752
Just leave me to be
alive with the peace

01:30:44.776 --> 01:30:46.010
that I have already in me.

01:30:46.186 --> 01:30:47.896
And let me go.

01:31:11.002 --> 01:31:13.838
What is the strongest thing
about me right now?

01:31:14.005 --> 01:31:15.673
It's my voice.

01:31:23.097 --> 01:31:26.476
They tried to stop us,
they tried to stop me.

01:31:26.643 --> 01:31:29.354
But I will never, ever shut up.

01:31:35.193 --> 01:31:38.363
And if you don't take actions
and take actions now,

01:31:38.530 --> 01:31:41.157
there will be thousands
of Saras.