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(solemn music)

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(birds cawing)

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- Check roof vents.

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Close all windows.

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Check that all doors, cabinets,
including the bathroom door,

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and refrigerator are latched.

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Turn off all inside lights,

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electrical appliances.

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Check your water level.

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I don't know how to do that.

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Turn off water pump, furnace,

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gas stove, water heater.

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Maybe I should have listened

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to my friends at
the coffee shop.

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They said, "Pearson,
don't do that.

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"That's not you.

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"It's totally against
your lifestyle."

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But what should I be doing?

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(speaks foreign language)

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(subway roaring)

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(contemplative music)

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- [Steve] I had no idea what
was going on around me at all.

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I worked about 18 hours a day.

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Was drinking, smoking.

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Grossly overweight.

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I was completely lost.

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- [Robert] People my age are
falling over dead all the time.

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Heart attacks, cancer, whatever.

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I'm becoming aware of, if
I want to do something,

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I should do it now.

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(door rattling)

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(speaks foreign language)

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(waves crashing)

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- [Steve] It's not the magical
Blackpool it used to be.

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It was a brand new venue.

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Nobody had done
anything like it.

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It was packed every
night, it was really busy.

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It was just wonderful.

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(somber music)

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It's a very sad place now.

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It's very depressing
walking the streets.

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There's a lot of
unemployment there.

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I would have never have thought
that I would leave the U.K.

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Ever.

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(contemplative music)

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- [Robert] My ex-girlfriend
said to me one day,

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she wanted to live
full time in an RV.

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I had no interest in RVs.

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Zero.

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It was the last
thing I wanted to do.

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RV people are overweight,
undereducated,

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and have no teeth, so I thought.

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But one day she said,
"You can continue

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"to go to the Coffee Clutch,

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"or you can take off and
have another adventure."

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So we started looking.

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After a few months, we got
it down to two used RVs.

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A 24 foot, and a 27 foot.

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And then we broke up,

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and I went and
bought the RV anyway.

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(door squeaks)

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Here I am sitting in
a Walmart parking lot

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when I could be sitting at home,

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warm, comfortable and safe.

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First thing I think about is,

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should I lock the door?

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From what I read,
people don't break

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into occupied RVs very often.

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And RVs burn up a lot.

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So, maybe it's better I
leave the door unlocked

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in case there's a problem,
I can get out really fast.

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Or, if someone
needs to rescue me,

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they can get in really fast.

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So I think I'll
leave it unlocked,

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and I'll just think, I'm
probably pretty safe.

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(water splashing)

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(door creaks)

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(latch clicks)

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(footsteps thudding)

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(somber music)

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(announcements buzzing)

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(speaks foreign language)

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(rails squeaking)

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(speaks foreign language)

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(machine whirring)

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(shower hissing)

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(speaks foreign language)

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- [Woman] Says she's
known him for eight years.

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Well I barely recognize him.

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No, you see him every day.

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(television buzzing)

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- [Robert] I'm
actually a scaredy cat.

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I worry about lots of things.

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More than most people.

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But you have to
ignore that sometimes,

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or you just stay at home on
your couch and watch T.V.

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And then you die.

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- Aging means making adjustments

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and accepting your limits.

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Sounds so unidealistic.

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We don't get any
wiser, only tired.

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(adventurous music)

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(door squeaking)

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- [Robert] I never
even drove an RV

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until I wrote the check.

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I got in, and left
town right away.

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Because I knew if I didn't,

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I would just park it somewhere
and leave the damn thing.

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(engine rumbling)

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(footsteps crunching)

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- [Computer] Raise left side.

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Raise left side.

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Raise left side.

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Raise left side.

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(engine sputtering)

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Raise left side.

00:17:20.999 --> 00:17:21.501
Raise left side.

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(engine roaring)

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Raise left side.

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Raise front.

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Raise front.

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Raise front.

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(phone beeping)

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- [Woman] Mr. Detail's voicemail

00:17:50.999 --> 00:17:51.959
is temporarily not available.

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Please try your call
later, thank you.

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- [Robert] I'm an urban
guy, I love the cities.

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But, it's not like
the Seattle life

00:18:06.542 --> 00:18:07.292
was that rewarding either.

00:18:09.000 --> 00:18:09.667
Just less scary.

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It was easier, certainly warmer,

00:18:21.918 --> 00:18:22.334
but not great.

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- [Woman] Mr. Detail's voicemail

00:18:27.334 --> 00:18:28.083
is temporarily not available.

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Please try your call
later, thank you.

00:18:32.999 --> 00:18:33.459
(somber music)

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- [Robert] Wasn't happy.

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But then, when am I?

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If I vanished, would
someone search for me?

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(golf balls clacking)

00:20:23.999 --> 00:20:24.792
(speaks foreign language)

00:20:34.250 --> 00:20:34.959
(club cracks)

00:20:38.584 --> 00:20:39.375
(speaks foreign language)

00:21:15.751 --> 00:21:16.167
(club cracks)

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(birds chirping)

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- I don't know how
I made it to Spain

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in all honesty.

00:21:41.918 --> 00:21:42.375
(heels clacking)

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(crowds chattering)

00:22:16.999 --> 00:22:17.501
(music thumping)

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My grandmother, as true
as I'm standing here,

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97 years old,

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is in the front room,

00:22:40.792 --> 00:22:41.375
curtains wide open,

00:22:42.042 --> 00:22:42.999
kneeling on the hearth rug,

00:22:44.667 --> 00:22:45.417
sucking me grandad's cock.

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(audience laughing)

00:22:48.999 --> 00:22:49.501
She's like that.

00:22:53.584 --> 00:22:54.042
(Steve groaning)

00:23:01.542 --> 00:23:01.999
(Steve choking)

00:23:04.209 --> 00:23:04.876
(lips smacking)

00:23:05.000 --> 00:23:05.667
(Steve moaning)

00:23:08.999 --> 00:23:10.292
I said, "Granny, that's
fuckin' disgustin' that."

00:23:12.292 --> 00:23:12.959
She said, "Why?"

00:23:12.999 --> 00:23:13.999
I said, "Well it should
have been cremated

00:23:14.501 --> 00:23:15.250
"with him a fortnight ago."

00:23:16.792 --> 00:23:17.542
(audience laughing and clapping)

00:23:20.999 --> 00:23:21.417
(Steve cackles)

00:23:27.999 --> 00:23:28.626
Look at her.

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You nearly forgot to swallow
then, didn't you love?

00:23:32.584 --> 00:23:33.000
(somber music)

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I follow Stella
wherever she gets a job.

00:24:00.542 --> 00:24:01.959
'Cause without her, I
wouldn't have what I have.

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I would be nothing.

00:24:26.999 --> 00:24:27.626
I'd lived abroad before,

00:24:27.999 --> 00:24:28.999
but I'd always had
somewhere to go back to.

00:24:40.999 --> 00:24:41.999
There was nothing
for me to go back to.

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This is now my home.

00:24:59.334 --> 00:24:59.999
(latch clicks)

00:25:01.999 --> 00:25:02.417
(keys jingle)

00:25:42.584 --> 00:25:43.167
(birds squeaking)

00:25:46.334 --> 00:25:47.083
- [Robert] Yeah, hey, it's me.

00:25:47.999 --> 00:25:49.000
And I made it to Turtle
Creek last night.

00:25:52.167 --> 00:25:52.999
Pulled in, camped here.

00:25:53.999 --> 00:25:54.501
It was cold.

00:25:55.292 --> 00:25:55.959
It was freezing.

00:25:56.667 --> 00:25:57.709
Maybe a couple degrees
below freezing.

00:25:59.834 --> 00:26:00.999
But it was worth it,
'cause you wake up,

00:26:02.209 --> 00:26:02.999
the sunrise on the desert.

00:26:04.000 --> 00:26:05.083
I can see, I don't know,
50, 60 miles maybe.

00:26:07.999 --> 00:26:08.626
It's hard to tell.

00:26:08.792 --> 00:26:10.000
And the mountains still
have a little bit of snow,

00:26:11.542 --> 00:26:12.667
but it's melting, so
the creek is running.

00:26:14.083 --> 00:26:14.999
You can hear the creek noise

00:26:15.584 --> 00:26:16.167
even inside the rig.

00:26:18.334 --> 00:26:19.083
And it's desert, you know,

00:26:20.999 --> 00:26:21.876
but there's lots of beauty.

00:26:22.209 --> 00:26:23.709
There's the rocks, and the
different kinds of trees.

00:26:25.250 --> 00:26:26.751
No cactus, but bushes and
trees of different colors.

00:26:29.959 --> 00:26:30.709
And I see a lizard or two.

00:26:31.375 --> 00:26:32.501
No snakes, that's
good, no snakes.

00:26:35.167 --> 00:26:36.000
So, I will call you later,

00:26:38.417 --> 00:26:39.000
give you an update.

00:26:39.417 --> 00:26:40.167
Hope you get the message.

00:26:41.501 --> 00:26:41.999
And thank you.

00:26:53.584 --> 00:26:54.000
(motor rumbling)

00:27:03.125 --> 00:27:03.959
(rubber gloves snapping)

00:27:33.792 --> 00:27:34.375
(liquid splashing)

00:27:49.542 --> 00:27:50.125
(contemplative music)

00:28:00.876 --> 00:28:01.626
I've always been a software guy.

00:28:02.792 --> 00:28:03.834
I don't know much about
mechanical things.

00:28:06.501 --> 00:28:07.250
I don't know how things work.

00:28:15.999 --> 00:28:17.375
I've always classified
mechanical things
as two classes.

00:28:21.125 --> 00:28:22.250
The things that work
easily every time,

00:28:24.375 --> 00:28:25.125
and the things you throw away.

00:28:36.999 --> 00:28:38.292
Every time I hear a
noise, I go, what's that?

00:28:48.083 --> 00:28:48.918
But if you're alone,

00:28:48.999 --> 00:28:50.042
there's nobody to
tell you, what's that.

00:29:03.250 --> 00:29:03.999
(footsteps padding)

00:29:28.959 --> 00:29:29.375
(latch rattles)

00:29:33.209 --> 00:29:33.876
(door clicks)

00:29:34.792 --> 00:29:35.542
(speaking foreign language)

00:29:43.667 --> 00:29:44.417
It'd be nice to have someone,

00:29:45.626 --> 00:29:46.751
not only to help out,
but just to talk to.

00:29:50.834 --> 00:29:51.999
Someone to handle
a crisis with you.

00:30:02.999 --> 00:30:04.125
I guess I have a
relationship with the RV.

00:30:12.918 --> 00:30:13.501
(machine clicking)

00:30:42.167 --> 00:30:43.542
- Most of us only see another
20 or 30 more summers.

00:30:46.834 --> 00:30:47.292
It's not much.

00:30:47.834 --> 00:30:48.999
And life hasn't
kept the promises

00:30:49.501 --> 00:30:50.584
that most people
thought it made them.

00:30:52.042 --> 00:30:52.918
It's just not fair.

00:30:55.918 --> 00:30:56.709
(overhead announcements buzzing)

00:30:59.459 --> 00:30:59.999
(trams rumbling)

00:31:17.083 --> 00:31:17.999
(speaking foreign language)

00:31:42.417 --> 00:31:43.042
(lips sputtering)

00:31:50.959 --> 00:31:51.751
(speaking foreign language)

00:33:50.375 --> 00:33:50.999
(shade rattling)

00:33:57.999 --> 00:33:58.501
(waves crashing)

00:34:24.667 --> 00:34:25.834
- [Robert] I once
heard someone say,

00:34:26.876 --> 00:34:27.959
that my mom was a
saint for raising me.

00:34:33.125 --> 00:34:33.792
I was moody.

00:34:34.584 --> 00:34:35.167
Seldom a happy child.

00:34:47.542 --> 00:34:48.125
(thoughtful music)

00:34:55.042 --> 00:34:56.125
When I was born,
we lived on a ranch

00:34:57.792 --> 00:34:58.751
in San Juan
Bautista, California.

00:35:12.501 --> 00:35:13.542
When I was about seven,
we left the ranch,

00:35:16.334 --> 00:35:17.459
but the memories I have
of the ranch are good.

00:35:42.918 --> 00:35:44.083
When my dad, or uncle,
or aunt went bird hunting

00:35:46.626 --> 00:35:47.209
I often got to go along.

00:35:50.999 --> 00:35:51.709
I picked up the birds.

00:35:58.999 --> 00:35:59.999
In school I was never
one of the popular kids.

00:36:03.834 --> 00:36:04.876
I was there, but
didn't really belong.

00:36:17.042 --> 00:36:18.167
I can think of no
exceptionally happy,

00:36:20.042 --> 00:36:20.999
or exceptionally
sad experiences.

00:36:41.999 --> 00:36:42.999
Things were not all
that well, though.

00:36:43.792 --> 00:36:45.000
My mom and dad fought, and
they divorced when I was 16.

00:36:51.999 --> 00:36:52.792
But mostly we got along.

00:36:54.501 --> 00:36:55.250
No major problems that I recall.

00:37:08.751 --> 00:37:09.167
(waves crashing)

00:37:38.209 --> 00:37:39.667
When my father died, and I
visited him in the hospital,

00:37:41.375 --> 00:37:41.999
he said, "Who are you?

00:37:45.667 --> 00:37:46.792
"We have the same name,
and we look the same."

00:37:49.999 --> 00:37:50.999
I said, "Well, I'm
you 20 years ago."

00:37:54.999 --> 00:37:55.999
But what I didn't
say, of course is,

00:37:57.459 --> 00:37:58.209
he's me 20 years from now.

00:38:03.083 --> 00:38:03.751
(motor rumbling)

00:38:07.999 --> 00:38:08.626
(crickets chirping)

00:38:10.792 --> 00:38:11.209
(quiet music)

00:38:44.584 --> 00:38:45.334
(speaking foreign language)

00:41:18.501 --> 00:41:18.999
(door squeaking)

00:41:27.292 --> 00:41:27.959
(motor roaring)

00:41:30.667 --> 00:41:31.083
(door thudding)

00:41:49.999 --> 00:41:50.667
(mouth crunching)

00:42:00.125 --> 00:42:01.584
- [Robert] Hey, well it's Bob
again with a status report.

00:42:04.834 --> 00:42:05.584
I just drove across Hoover Dam.

00:42:07.334 --> 00:42:08.751
Was kinda nervous about that,
'cause it's kinda narrow.

00:42:09.999 --> 00:42:11.083
Was built in the
30s, for 30s cars,

00:42:13.459 --> 00:42:14.042
not for big cars.

00:42:14.250 --> 00:42:15.667
But it turned out to be
okay driving the RV across.

00:42:17.999 --> 00:42:19.083
I pulled the mirror in,
but I didn't have to.

00:42:20.999 --> 00:42:21.999
So now I'm here
overlooking the dam.

00:42:23.083 --> 00:42:23.999
The water's low, but it's,

00:42:24.000 --> 00:42:25.042
certainly is an
impressive structure.

00:42:27.000 --> 00:42:27.999
Anyway, hope you
get the message,

00:42:28.876 --> 00:42:29.626
and I'll keep you updated.

00:42:30.999 --> 00:42:31.459
Bye-bye.

00:42:36.834 --> 00:42:37.250
(somber music)

00:42:44.542 --> 00:42:45.125
(engine rumbling)

00:42:59.459 --> 00:42:59.999
(radio chatter)

00:43:08.584 --> 00:43:09.167
- I hate me life.

00:43:09.834 --> 00:43:10.417
(audience laughs)

00:43:10.584 --> 00:43:11.709
I do, I never thought
I'd live to be this old,

00:43:12.417 --> 00:43:13.000
to be honest with you.

00:43:13.999 --> 00:43:14.501
I didn't.

00:43:15.417 --> 00:43:15.999
I didn't.

00:43:16.000 --> 00:43:17.083
I think I've got
Alzheimer's as well.

00:43:18.792 --> 00:43:19.999
You know, and I didn't
want Alzheimer's disease.

00:43:22.542 --> 00:43:23.292
I wanted Parkinson's disease.

00:43:24.999 --> 00:43:25.751
(audience laughing)

00:43:26.709 --> 00:43:27.459
I did, I'd rather spill a drink

00:43:27.918 --> 00:43:28.999
than fucking forget
where I put it.

00:43:30.000 --> 00:43:30.834
(audience laughing)

00:43:31.999 --> 00:43:32.876
Did you see 'em the other week

00:43:32.999 --> 00:43:33.999
outside the Houses
of Parliament,

00:43:34.667 --> 00:43:35.792
the Alzheimer's
Society? (laughs)

00:43:38.417 --> 00:43:39.000
Some demonstration.

00:43:39.167 --> 00:43:40.626
They're all there with their
banners and their black cards.

00:43:42.250 --> 00:43:42.918
What do we want?

00:43:43.375 --> 00:43:43.999
More money.

00:43:44.167 --> 00:43:44.999
When do we want it?

00:43:45.999 --> 00:43:46.292
What?

00:43:46.959 --> 00:43:47.542
(audience laughing)

00:43:52.292 --> 00:43:52.959
(Steve giggles)

00:43:53.918 --> 00:43:54.542
Have you done that?

00:43:54.709 --> 00:43:55.999
When you go upstairs, and
you get on the landing,

00:43:56.125 --> 00:43:57.584
and you go, what the fuck
have I come up here for now?

00:43:59.959 --> 00:44:00.375
(Steve cackles)

00:44:02.959 --> 00:44:03.709
I went upstairs the other day.

00:44:04.584 --> 00:44:05.334
I got on the landing, I thought,

00:44:06.751 --> 00:44:07.501
fuck am I doing up here now?

00:44:10.751 --> 00:44:11.334
(audience chuckling)

00:44:24.667 --> 00:44:25.417
Then you have the bright idea

00:44:25.584 --> 00:44:26.751
of retracing your
steps, don't you?

00:44:29.501 --> 00:44:29.999
(Steve giggles)

00:44:31.751 --> 00:44:32.918
So, back down the stairs
I went, got in the hall,

00:44:35.999 --> 00:44:36.542
shit meself.

00:44:36.999 --> 00:44:37.667
(audience laughing)

00:44:45.542 --> 00:44:45.999
(Steve giggles)

00:44:48.999 --> 00:44:49.584
(somber music)

00:45:05.250 --> 00:45:06.626
It's much easier to entertain
people here in Benidorm,

00:45:10.959 --> 00:45:11.709
because a lot of them are drunk.

00:45:19.709 --> 00:45:20.292
They arrive drunk.

00:45:21.999 --> 00:45:22.792
They leave drunk.

00:45:24.999 --> 00:45:25.834
And probably don't remember it.

00:45:30.292 --> 00:45:31.334
And a lot of people
are just old.

00:45:56.542 --> 00:45:57.125
I suppose it's the same.

00:45:58.709 --> 00:46:00.000
Being loved by an audience,
as being loved by one person.

00:46:10.999 --> 00:46:11.999
Except the love
doesn't stay with you.

00:46:12.999 --> 00:46:14.042
It goes out of the door
at the end of the night,

00:46:14.375 --> 00:46:15.542
and there you are
on your own again.

00:46:23.083 --> 00:46:23.999
Needling to live like that.

00:46:36.209 --> 00:46:36.999
It would be nice to come home

00:46:39.292 --> 00:46:40.042
and have somebody to talk to.

00:46:41.751 --> 00:46:43.042
It would be nice sometimes
to sit and watch a film,

00:46:44.667 --> 00:46:45.417
and discuss it with somebody.

00:46:48.999 --> 00:46:49.584
(dog snoring)

00:46:52.999 --> 00:46:54.209
But I don't think I
could still fall in love,

00:46:55.584 --> 00:46:56.999
because I wouldn't want
to lose somebody I loved.

00:47:03.999 --> 00:47:05.209
I wouldn't want to put
myself through that again.

00:47:15.918 --> 00:47:16.667
I'm happy in my own company.

00:47:30.209 --> 00:47:31.000
(spa hissing)
(water bubbling)

00:47:49.999 --> 00:47:50.999
(insects humming)
(birds chirping)

00:48:04.459 --> 00:48:05.584
- [Robert] More of the
things that I regret

00:48:06.459 --> 00:48:07.209
are things that I didn't do,

00:48:08.501 --> 00:48:09.250
than things that I did do.

00:48:15.209 --> 00:48:16.334
There was a woman who
was trying to seduce me,

00:48:17.999 --> 00:48:19.417
but she was married, and I
didn't do anything about it.

00:48:22.751 --> 00:48:23.334
I was dancing with her.

00:48:24.999 --> 00:48:25.999
And later on I
thought I should have.

00:48:30.417 --> 00:48:31.000
(scissors snipping)

00:48:32.375 --> 00:48:32.999
(machinery humming)

00:48:53.501 --> 00:48:53.999
(somber music)

00:49:02.000 --> 00:49:02.667
(crank clicking)

00:49:11.000 --> 00:49:11.834
(vacuum whirring)

00:49:30.667 --> 00:49:31.417
- All the things we put up with

00:49:31.584 --> 00:49:32.999
because we hoped it would
all get better sometime,

00:49:35.042 --> 00:49:36.125
and that we'd find
out some great secret.

00:49:38.417 --> 00:49:39.000
And then we do find out.

00:49:39.709 --> 00:49:40.751
And it's just a small
ridiculous line.

00:49:43.209 --> 00:49:43.999
We don't want to die.

00:49:57.999 --> 00:49:59.042
- [Robert] Sometimes in
my life I felt depressed

00:50:00.501 --> 00:50:01.250
to the point where I thought,

00:50:02.918 --> 00:50:03.999
I'm gonna jump off a
bridge or shoot myself,

00:50:05.792 --> 00:50:06.209
or whatever.

00:50:07.834 --> 00:50:08.417
(insects buzzing)

00:50:19.918 --> 00:50:20.999
But I'm curious, just to
see what happens next.

00:50:28.167 --> 00:50:29.250
So there's no point
in rushing that.

00:50:31.167 --> 00:50:31.999
(gravel crunching)

00:50:42.542 --> 00:50:43.000
(door slams)

00:50:59.209 --> 00:50:59.999
(fingers tapping)

00:51:08.876 --> 00:51:09.626
(speaking foreign language)

00:51:39.125 --> 00:51:39.959
(papers rustling)

00:51:54.375 --> 00:51:55.167
(speaking foreign language)

00:52:05.584 --> 00:52:06.000
(somber music)

00:52:22.042 --> 00:52:22.999
(speaking foreign language)

00:53:56.417 --> 00:53:56.999
(wig scratching)

00:54:04.042 --> 00:54:05.417
- [Steve] When I was younger,
I found that being funny

00:54:09.209 --> 00:54:09.999
was a great advantage,

00:54:12.584 --> 00:54:13.667
and I used it to
my advantage a lot.

00:54:17.375 --> 00:54:18.125
Because, obviously, I was called

00:54:20.751 --> 00:54:21.501
all sorts of names at school.

00:54:25.334 --> 00:54:26.792
So I actually used it so
that I didn't get bullied.

00:54:34.999 --> 00:54:35.999
Then I suddenly was
okay to be with.

00:54:40.667 --> 00:54:41.792
I found it a great,
a great protector.

00:54:46.626 --> 00:54:47.042
(somber music)

00:55:48.667 --> 00:55:49.417
My dad was one of the boys.

00:55:50.209 --> 00:55:51.334
He was a fisherman and
worked in a factory.

00:55:58.250 --> 00:55:59.000
He was very much a man's man.

00:56:16.999 --> 00:56:17.834
I was 19 when I got married.

00:56:19.834 --> 00:56:21.125
Because where I come from
is quite a small place,

00:56:24.999 --> 00:56:25.918
and that's what was expected.

00:56:28.042 --> 00:56:28.876
It was the thing to do.

00:56:43.000 --> 00:56:44.125
I have three children,
two boys and a girl.

00:56:53.042 --> 00:56:54.083
It's quite an
amazing thing to see

00:56:55.876 --> 00:56:56.999
that tiny little thing
take its first breath.

00:57:13.417 --> 00:57:14.167
It was almost like living a lie.

00:57:20.999 --> 00:57:22.000
I chose to walk away
from their lives.

00:57:26.959 --> 00:57:28.167
I made the decision that
I wasn't going to go back.

00:57:32.876 --> 00:57:34.042
It was better to walk away
and just keep walking.

00:58:00.209 --> 00:58:00.999
My life doesn't make me sad.

00:58:04.999 --> 00:58:05.959
'Cause I won't allow it to.

00:58:13.999 --> 00:58:14.999
If you start feeling
sorry for yourself,

00:58:17.751 --> 00:58:18.334
you've lost the battle.

00:58:26.000 --> 00:58:26.667
(dog slurping)

00:58:45.375 --> 00:58:45.999
(bird squawking)

00:58:52.000 --> 00:58:52.834
(gravel crunching)

00:58:59.999 --> 00:59:00.792
(blanket fluttering)

00:59:13.876 --> 00:59:14.292
(gulls cawing)

00:59:42.042 --> 00:59:42.709
(horn intoning)

00:59:46.083 --> 00:59:46.751
(bells dinging)

00:59:49.999 --> 00:59:50.542
(train roaring)

01:00:05.292 --> 01:00:05.999
(thoughtful music)

01:00:40.918 --> 01:00:41.375
(dogs barking)

01:00:52.167 --> 01:00:52.999
(popcorn popping)

01:01:00.417 --> 01:01:01.501
- [Robert] I don't know
if I like this life

01:01:03.209 --> 01:01:03.876
at this point.

01:01:14.999 --> 01:01:15.626
(dogs barking)

01:01:17.834 --> 01:01:18.417
(crickets chirping)

01:01:32.999 --> 01:01:33.626
(door clicking)

01:01:35.167 --> 01:01:35.834
(bird cawing)

01:01:47.999 --> 01:01:49.459
- [Woman] Yeah, it would
have been okay. (giggles)

01:01:52.334 --> 01:01:52.999
(crowd chattering)

01:01:55.209 --> 01:01:56.667
- [Man] Have you ever
seen one of their trucks?

01:01:59.083 --> 01:02:00.459
Looks like an Indian
drove it around the world.

01:02:09.667 --> 01:02:10.083
(dogs barking)

01:02:28.209 --> 01:02:28.999
(gravel crunching)

01:02:30.667 --> 01:02:31.751
- I guess I'm kind
of a romantic.

01:02:32.999 --> 01:02:33.626
I think about that.

01:02:34.999 --> 01:02:35.584
I think about things.

01:02:36.999 --> 01:02:37.999
Adventures and whatever
in romantic terms.

01:02:43.125 --> 01:02:43.959
That's a nice dog.

01:02:44.209 --> 01:02:45.334
I used to carry
doggie treats, but

01:02:46.876 --> 01:02:47.334
(man chuckles)

01:02:47.667 --> 01:02:48.125
not now, sorry.

01:02:50.083 --> 01:02:50.999
- So, are you new out here?

01:02:52.334 --> 01:02:52.876
- Huh?

01:02:52.999 --> 01:02:53.834
Yeah, yeah, just showed up.

01:02:54.375 --> 01:02:55.542
- You can never be
sure that this life,

01:02:56.375 --> 01:02:57.375
the one you've
somehow slipped into,

01:02:58.542 --> 01:02:59.125
is the right one.

01:02:59.334 --> 01:03:00.751
What if you'd been happier
in a different world?

01:03:02.626 --> 01:03:03.209
It can paralyze you.

01:03:03.459 --> 01:03:04.584
Make you stare at
the sky and hope

01:03:05.459 --> 01:03:06.209
for some humor so you can laugh.

01:03:08.999 --> 01:03:09.834
- See you later,
love, take care.

01:03:12.292 --> 01:03:12.999
See you later, love.

01:03:14.375 --> 01:03:15.542
Do you want to sing
up your birthday

01:03:15.709 --> 01:03:16.834
so you can hear
it one last time?

01:03:18.000 --> 01:03:18.834
(audience laughing)

01:03:30.792 --> 01:03:32.042
I bet he did silver service
at the fucking last supper.

01:03:37.584 --> 01:03:38.000
(Steve giggles)

01:03:38.999 --> 01:03:40.167
I bet his national
insurance number's three.

01:03:42.042 --> 01:03:42.876
(audience cackles)

01:03:45.209 --> 01:03:45.999
(thoughtful music)

01:03:54.042 --> 01:03:54.999
The nice thing about Benidorm is

01:03:55.292 --> 01:03:56.417
of course you get a
lot of old people.

01:04:03.209 --> 01:04:04.292
They come here and
because the sun shines

01:04:05.542 --> 01:04:06.667
and you feel good
about yourself,

01:04:07.501 --> 01:04:08.083
you can be young again.

01:04:40.417 --> 01:04:41.834
Getting old is a good
subject for making jokes.

01:04:54.375 --> 01:04:55.459
And together, we
can laugh about it.

01:05:12.626 --> 01:05:13.999
- How can you be conscious
of the transience of life

01:05:16.000 --> 01:05:16.999
and still actually live it?

01:05:17.999 --> 01:05:18.999
It only works if
you suppress it,

01:05:19.834 --> 01:05:20.876
otherwise you'd
never get out of bed.

01:05:23.999 --> 01:05:24.959
(speaking foreign language)

01:06:11.501 --> 01:06:11.999
(hopeful music)

01:06:14.626 --> 01:06:15.375
(speaks foreign language)

01:08:56.459 --> 01:08:57.042
(machine whirring)

01:09:03.292 --> 01:09:03.959
(spoon clacking)

01:09:22.334 --> 01:09:22.999
(upbeat music)

01:09:27.125 --> 01:09:28.584
- [Lady] I'm not the only
one 'round here who smokes.

01:09:30.501 --> 01:09:31.083
Can't be smelling me.

01:09:31.250 --> 01:09:32.417
- [Woman] Hey, that's
enough from you, lady.

01:09:33.626 --> 01:09:34.209
Your nana doesn't smell.

01:09:34.501 --> 01:09:35.584
- [Lady] Ah no, I'm
not sitting here

01:09:36.584 --> 01:09:37.167
to listen to that filth.

01:09:37.999 --> 01:09:38.751
I'm going to get some sun.

01:09:39.959 --> 01:09:40.542
- [Man] Once we've gone

01:09:40.918 --> 01:09:41.999
through the process
of negotiating...

01:09:44.209 --> 01:09:44.999
(speaking foreign language)

01:09:52.959 --> 01:09:53.542
(thoughtful music)

01:09:59.209 --> 01:10:00.292
- [Steve] I've
done 60 years now.

01:10:03.999 --> 01:10:04.792
So what is there in front of me?

01:10:25.375 --> 01:10:25.999
I've got a new life now,

01:10:28.417 --> 01:10:28.999
and I love it.

01:10:34.834 --> 01:10:35.459
(waves splashing)

01:10:47.250 --> 01:10:47.999
(children playing)

01:10:50.083 --> 01:10:51.209
You wake up and
the sun is shining,

01:10:52.250 --> 01:10:53.042
and that makes you feel good.

01:11:26.000 --> 01:11:26.999
- Aging doesn't mean anything.

01:11:27.792 --> 01:11:28.918
Why does everyone
go on about it?

01:11:29.999 --> 01:11:31.000
Aging happens the second
you come into the world.

01:11:35.083 --> 01:11:35.918
(fingers tapping)

01:12:13.999 --> 01:12:14.417
- Yeah!

01:12:14.751 --> 01:12:15.334
(collar jingling)

01:12:16.584 --> 01:12:17.167
Yeah, that's good, huh?

01:12:18.542 --> 01:12:18.999
You like that.

01:12:19.334 --> 01:12:19.999
Don't go away.

01:12:21.667 --> 01:12:22.083
Okay, yeah.

01:12:24.584 --> 01:12:25.000
Oh, what a dog.

01:12:26.250 --> 01:12:27.000
What a great dog, oh yes.

01:12:30.083 --> 01:12:30.918
What a great dog.

01:12:32.459 --> 01:12:33.542
You're a cute little
guy, aren't you?

01:12:36.792 --> 01:12:37.375
Let's go over here.

01:12:38.626 --> 01:12:39.209
(gravel crunching)

01:13:04.792 --> 01:13:05.209
(woman laughing)

01:13:07.667 --> 01:13:08.250
(light, fun music)

01:13:59.834 --> 01:14:00.417
What is life about?

01:14:05.459 --> 01:14:06.042
I don't really know.

01:14:19.209 --> 01:14:20.375
But I think it's about
conquering your fears.

01:14:59.999 --> 01:15:00.542
(hopeful music)

01:15:18.792 --> 01:15:19.542
So it's better just to say,

01:15:20.042 --> 01:15:21.542
I'm afraid of this, and I'm
gonna wish I hadn't done it,

01:15:23.999 --> 01:15:24.959
but you still need to do it.

01:15:31.000 --> 01:15:32.459
Because, when it's over,
you'll be glad you did it.

01:15:39.000 --> 01:15:39.501
Maybe.

01:18:05.334 --> 01:18:05.999
(light, airy music)

01:19:32.751 --> 01:19:33.751
- [Steve] Just remember,
boys and girls,

01:19:35.000 --> 01:19:36.459
as you go through life,
take care of one another,

01:19:38.751 --> 01:19:39.501
take care of your friends.

01:19:40.999 --> 01:19:41.876
And wherever you end up in life,

01:19:45.999 --> 01:19:46.626
well there you are.

01:19:47.584 --> 01:19:48.000
Till next time.

01:19:48.167 --> 01:19:49.626
Goodnight, and God bless,
and thank you for listening.

01:19:50.999 --> 01:19:51.626
Look after yourself.

01:19:51.999 --> 01:19:52.751
(audience applauding)