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♪ From the rising of the sun to its setting, ♪

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♪ praised be the name of the Lord. ♪

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♪ From the rising of the sun to its setting, ♪

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♪ praised be the name of the Lord. ♪

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♪ Praise O servants of the Lord, ♪

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♪ praise the name of the Lord. ♪

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♪ May the name of the Lord be blessed, ♪

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♪ both now and forever more. ♪

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♪ From the rising of the sun to its setting, ♪

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♪ praised be the name of the Lord. ♪

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♪ From the rising of the sun to its setting, ♪

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♪ praised be the name of the Lord. ♪

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♪ High above all nations is the Lord, ♪

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♪ above the heavens His glory, ♪

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♪ Who is like the Lord our God, ♪

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♪ who has risen on high to His throne, ♪

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♪ Yet stoops from the heights to look down, ♪

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♪ to look down upon heaven and earth. ♪

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(Bell ringing)

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(Bell ringing)

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(Bell ringing)

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(bell ringing)

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May the divine
assistance remain always with us.

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Amen.

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Good morning everybody.

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Good morning.

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I'm thinking this morning,

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let's identify the different things we need

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to have in place before April 1st.

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Holy week will be right after that,

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so we need to get things ready and in place.

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For every community,

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there's someone chosen by the community

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to be the mother to the community.

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I was elected in 2012 for a six year term

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and in 2018 in May,

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they're gluttons for punishment,

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they reelected me.

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So I'm back.

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My responsibilities would be,

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first of all, the
spiritual care of the community,

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the physical care,

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make sure that they get to doctors

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and that their health is taken care of,

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and then temporal care.

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Yes, we have bookkeepers and all that,

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but in the end, the buck stops here.

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Oh, look at that!

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Look at that!

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I would describe the contemplative life
as a way of being in such a way that gradually

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you learn to open out to
the experience of God everywhere.

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No matter what you're
doing, the contemplative life

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also plunges you into
the awareness that we're all one.

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So everything and everyone is connected
in that love. That's where our happiness lies.

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As we partake of this
meal, send us the Holy Spirit so that

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abiding in you, we may
produce abundant and lasting proof.

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We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

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Nowadays our communities are getting
older, but not that many people are coming.

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Recruitment is a big factor.

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I have no idea whether God is calling
less people to it, but I know He is calling.

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But I think it can be hard, and it's
one of the reasons why we have a very prolonged

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period before we make our final vows
so that people can actually live the life.

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See how it fits. Is this a call
from God? Is this what I want to be doing?

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It's hard for young
people to make a decision to enter.

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There are so many opportunities available
for women now. They have a much broader choice.

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So we follow the rule of St. Benedict.

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So he wrote the rule of St. Benedict
in the sixth century, important Cisterian.

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This is a statue of St. Rita, who...
our monastery is Our Lady of the Santa Ritas.

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The mountains in our
backyard are the Santa Rita Mountains.

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Probably named that
because explorers in this area

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saw them first on the
Feast of St. Rita, which is May 22nd.

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We take a vow of
conversion of our way of life,

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stability, and obedience
according to the rule of St. Benedict.

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We're vowing to continually change, to
continually grow, to continually be open to what

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God is calling us to, which is far
from sitting around all day doing nothing.

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Stability means we enter
here, we take a vow of stability, we

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stay here, we never leave here
until we die, and we're buried here.

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And then obedience is
obedience to the superior.

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Somehow the will of God works through her.

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The will of God is something
that's very dynamic. It's always evolving.

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I'm sometimes amazed.
It's like one little thing can

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change in your day, and the
whole world readjusts, it seems.

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The deer are out there.

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Sweetie! Sweetie!

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Hi, honey!

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That's a good deer.

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Hi, honey!

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Hi, honey!

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(laughter)

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We deliberately put in a lot
of windows so we could enjoy the view.

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Our deer have gone, they've gone elsewhere.

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To wake the sisters up in
the morning, we decided that we

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didn't want a bell. We wanted
something like a doorbell, so it's...

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(ding)

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We ring it a number of times to wake us up.

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We each have our little book
stand and our bed and crucifix and a desk.

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And then each of us
has a little bathroom, so...

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My room.

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When our new sister comes sometime next
month, Sister Hildegard, this will be her room.

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Well, the work is perfectly suited to our
type of life because, I mean, we're making the

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bread that's going to
become the body of Christ.

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And the Eucharist. And so it
just ties right into our prayer life.

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The sale of our altar breads
gives us the cash we need to pay our bills.

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We have, like, last time I counted,
360-some customers out throughout the United States.

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Anywhere from a priest who's ordering 30
priest hosts a month so he can say a mass every day,

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to parishes that order
20,000 every two weeks.

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Once I get into the rhythm of
it, I can just pray while I'm working.

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And I love saying
the Jesus Prayer, "Lord Jesus

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Christ, Son of the Living
God, have mercy on me a sinner."

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And I just say it in
my mind. If I get distracted,

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eventually it's kind of like an
underground river going on in my mind.

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And eventually it comes back to me
and I can just fall right back into it.

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It's hard to express our
way of life only in words, you know.

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I've lived here over
30 years and so I'm taking

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photos of the same
thing year after year after year.

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And I think because, you know, we're
cloistered so we don't go wandering around off the

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property or I don't get to go to
the Grand Canyon or anything like that.

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I did that when I was young before I
entered. But to live in one place where you've

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really sunk your roots
deep, you know, and then to,

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to learn to see, it's taught
me, I think, to look more deeply.

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(silence)

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Well, I better not get into
that because it might get into politics.

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My thing is you can't drink copper.
So don't get me into my revolutionary mode.

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God put me in the convent so that I
would be quiet and peaceful and don't be out there

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marching in because I think I would
very much be out there making a lot of noise.

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And I probably am getting
much more done in here just by praying.

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My paternal grandparents
lived in Cumberland, Rhode Island.

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Valley Falls...and that was
where there was a monastery of monks.

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One of the girls
across the street said to me,

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"Would you like to
go out for Benediction?"

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I loved the music. Gregorian chant. Found it

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very peaceful. I was
drawn to it very closely.

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I never felt called to
another life. I felt, "This is it."

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I entered January 1950 and I'm still here.

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You know, it isn't that
I haven't felt like leaving at

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times, but I always knew that
this life was where God wanted me.

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I hope I have a few more years
because I like living. I really do.

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And I would like to
see our monastery here sort of

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flourish in the idea
of more people coming to join.

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♪Hail Mary, full of grace,
the Lord is with you.♪

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♪Blessed are you among women, Alleluia.♪

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I said, "Mom,  I think I'm gonna go to a monastery."

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And she says, she was
in her wheelchair in her room.

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She says, "That's nice."

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I said, "You know, it's in Southern Arizona

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where I've been
working."  And I told her about them

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and about the sisters and all that,

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that they had been praying for her.

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And she said, "That's so nice."

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She said, "I think you'll like it there."

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You do what's called an observorship.

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So I come, I live in community with them.

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We have work in the
morning, work in the afternoon.

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I work with them.

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I pray with them, go to mass with them.

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(bell ringing)

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(somber music)

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♪ Oh Lord, make haste to help me ♪

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♪ Glory be to the
Father and to the Son ♪

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♪ And to the Holy Spirit ♪

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♪ As it was in the beginning... ♪

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I feel moved that God would call me

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to do this, to live this way.

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I feel grateful to the community

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that they would give me the opportunity,

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that they would take me in,

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not even knowing everything about me

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and everything I've done.

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And they could be horrified

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if they knew everything I had done,

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but that they would
open their home and their hearts.

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You know, I still am sad sometimes

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I didn't figure it out sooner.

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To give me more time here.

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But as Mother Vicki has said, you know,

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you have to leave the timing in God's hands.

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Maybe I wasn't ready.

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Obviously I wasn't ready.

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Still probably not ready.

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♪ And forgive us our trespasses ♪

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♪ As we forgive
those who trespass against us ♪

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What'd you decide for lunch, sister?

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We're gonna have mushroom quiche.

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Mushroom with little bacon bits in it.

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What about dessert?

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Maybe melon.

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I'll have to see.

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Check your pears.

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The pears are really,
I don't know, not so good.

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When they come, you know,

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they're all enthusiastic and everything.

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And that's good.

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You wanna encourage
that, but it's more important

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that they learn how to live the life.

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They know how to learn
how to relate in community.

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That's the criteria for success.

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Mother Vicky, I met with her and said,

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"you know, I really don't wanna go."

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And she said, "Yeah, it's really important

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that you go away."

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And I really don't
want you to come hang out,

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like come to church, come to, you know,

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it's really important that you get away

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and reflect and think about your experience.

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And then should I come, I
have to deal with my possessions.

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Even though I feel
like I've downsized my life

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a huge amount, I
still have the RV that I live in

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and the truck and whatever stuff I have.

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Probably shouldn't
tell you this, but you know,

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they said, no, you
can't bring the dog and the cat.

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Although I was hoping I could.

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I actually questioned Mother about that.

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I said, "You know, I
really think it'd be a perfect place

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for a cat, an Abbey, come on."

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It would be perfect.

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In our way of life, you need rules.

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You're gonna have a body of people together.

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You have to channel the
energy in a certain direction.

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And that's what rules do.

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If it's a good
rule, it will have a good end.

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It's for something good.

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You know, sometimes rules can be looked upon

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as a constriction, trying to close me in,

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fence me in, not letting me be myself,

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but it's actually to bring us to freedom.

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Grew up, had a normal social life,

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had lots of fun, enjoyed life,

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but I couldn't shake
this deep desire within me

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to want to have a deeper relationship to God

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that would encompass my whole life.

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Meanwhile, I was
dating and there was someone

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that I really liked.

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Should I get married?

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Should I be a nun?

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I gave God an
ultimatum and I said, okay, God,

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I give you three days.

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You let me know if you want me for life

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or I'm gonna go through with marriage.

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Deep inside came this voice that said,

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your raison d'etre lies in belonging to me.

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That was my call.

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From that moment on,
I knew doing anything else

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made no sense to me.

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And so I made my first vows out here

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and then my final vows.

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I am so grateful for
being in this way of life.

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(birds chirping)

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Call for each individual person

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is very personal and different.

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I think of it in terms of asking,

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what did you do with
your partner in the bedroom?

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It's that personal.

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It's a love affair.

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Because I was going to different communities

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and people were saying, they were telling me

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about their retirement plans

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and they were telling me about, you know,

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the educational opportunities that they had.

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And that was all well
and good, but it was like, no,

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I want God, you know.

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And what's probably
even a bit more startling was that

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when I said that,
what came to me inside was,

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and God wants you.

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I gave myself to God to use my life

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in whatever way He wanted.

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Use me in whatever way
would work for the good of people.

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(raven cawing)

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(wind blowing)

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Generosity is simultaneously a moral

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and a material imperative,

00:28:30.208 --> 00:28:33.545
especially among
people who live close to the land

00:28:34.045 --> 00:28:36.965
and know its waves of plenty and scarcity.

00:28:38.466 --> 00:28:40.301
Where the well-being of one is linked

00:28:40.510 --> 00:28:42.095
to the well-being of all.

00:28:42.887 --> 00:28:45.515
Wealth among traditional people is measured

00:28:46.099 --> 00:28:47.767
by having enough to give away.

00:28:49.227 --> 00:28:53.189
Hoarding the gift, we
become constipated with wealth,

00:28:53.523 --> 00:28:57.110
bloated with
possessions, too heavy to join the dance.

00:28:58.236 --> 00:29:01.364
Sometimes there's
someone, maybe even a whole family,

00:29:01.990 --> 00:29:04.868
who doesn't understand and takes too much.

00:29:05.660 --> 00:29:09.664
They heap up their
acquisitions beside their lawn chairs.

00:29:11.541 --> 00:29:13.501
Maybe they need it, maybe not.

00:29:14.169 --> 00:29:17.964
They don't dance, but
sit alone guarding their stuff.

00:29:20.592 --> 00:29:21.968
In a culture of gratitude,

00:29:22.510 --> 00:29:25.096
everyone knows that
gifts will follow the circle

00:29:25.597 --> 00:29:28.683
of reciprocity and flow back to you again.

00:29:29.809 --> 00:29:32.687
This time you give,
the next time you receive.

00:29:33.938 --> 00:29:35.440
Both the honor of giving,

00:29:35.982 --> 00:29:37.609
and the humility of receiving.

00:29:43.823 --> 00:29:46.534
These are photographs of our early days.

00:29:48.119 --> 00:29:50.538
That's Mother Cecile, our first superior.

00:29:51.080 --> 00:29:51.956
That would be me.

00:29:52.457 --> 00:29:55.210
And that would be Sister Celestine,

00:29:55.960 --> 00:29:58.880
who since left the community.

00:30:00.298 --> 00:30:05.553
Now there is Clare, earnestly, earnestly,

00:30:05.637 --> 00:30:07.680
interceding God, obviously.

00:30:08.264 --> 00:30:09.432
Are you milking a cow?

00:30:09.891 --> 00:30:10.517
What are you doing?

00:30:10.517 --> 00:30:12.227
No, I am, I'm...

00:30:12.227 --> 00:30:13.269
What are you doing while you're milking?

00:30:13.603 --> 00:30:16.105
Oh, where did you ever get this?

00:30:16.648 --> 00:30:18.316
I would never have guessed that was you.

00:30:18.316 --> 00:30:20.401
I would never have known it was me.

00:30:21.528 --> 00:30:22.695
We would.

00:30:23.404 --> 00:30:23.613
Yeah.

00:30:24.072 --> 00:30:24.280
Yes.

00:30:24.447 --> 00:30:26.407
Because see, she had to cut the lead,

00:30:27.116 --> 00:30:28.993
but that was our first industry.

00:30:29.828 --> 00:30:31.329
We made stained glass pieces.

00:30:32.580 --> 00:30:34.916
And we also did ceramic.

00:30:35.625 --> 00:30:37.710
And that's Claire walking up the hill

00:30:38.419 --> 00:30:42.590
with a bunch of
driftwood and stained glass pieces.

00:30:43.091 --> 00:30:44.425
I came up that hill once,

00:30:44.425 --> 00:30:46.094
because I knew you
guys had gone up and down,

00:30:46.094 --> 00:30:46.928
and I wondered where.

00:30:47.512 --> 00:30:48.596
I almost didn't make it.

00:30:48.596 --> 00:30:51.099
I was scrambling to get up.

00:30:51.558 --> 00:30:53.017
Still not sure how you did it.

00:30:53.017 --> 00:30:53.560
You were develop muscles.

00:30:54.143 --> 00:30:54.352
Yes.

00:30:54.352 --> 00:30:54.769
Wow, they had to come right.

00:30:54.769 --> 00:30:57.272
And not only that, we
were a little bit younger.

00:30:58.940 --> 00:30:59.983
And our dog Chica,

00:31:01.693 --> 00:31:04.863
sticking out her little tongue at everybody.

00:31:05.947 --> 00:31:07.907
Chica would come back sometimes.

00:31:08.658 --> 00:31:10.743
She was only about this high off the ground.

00:31:10.743 --> 00:31:12.745
Her head held high, dragging a rabbit.

00:31:13.746 --> 00:31:15.373
She would catch rabbits.

00:31:15.874 --> 00:31:16.499
Wow.

00:31:16.499 --> 00:31:17.500
She was something.

00:31:17.917 --> 00:31:19.043
So the dog loving...

00:31:19.043 --> 00:31:19.919
But a cutie pie.

00:31:20.128 --> 00:31:21.170
...goes way back.

00:31:21.546 --> 00:31:22.088
Oh yes.

00:31:23.715 --> 00:31:25.091
That's Beverly.

00:31:27.218 --> 00:31:30.972
Yes, she was novice
director for many, many years.

00:31:31.472 --> 00:31:34.893
Up until the time we elected her prioress.

00:31:34.893 --> 00:31:40.607
This is in ceramics, I
was putting glaze on a vase.

00:31:40.899 --> 00:31:41.524
You look intent.

00:31:43.151 --> 00:31:43.860
I was content.

00:31:44.444 --> 00:31:44.777
Intent.

00:31:45.486 --> 00:31:46.779
And there's Bev,

00:31:47.864 --> 00:31:50.533
doing something both
of you are very familiar with.

00:31:50.742 --> 00:31:51.451
Ringing the bell.

00:31:53.828 --> 00:31:54.037
And.

00:31:56.956 --> 00:31:57.415
That's me.

00:31:58.416 --> 00:31:58.833
Pardon me.

00:31:58.958 --> 00:31:59.709
(laughing)

00:31:59.709 --> 00:32:00.335
That's funny.

00:32:02.754 --> 00:32:05.089
You understand this was 40 years ago.

00:32:05.089 --> 00:32:05.798
Yes.

00:32:06.925 --> 00:32:08.927
I think it was 40 or is it more?

00:32:09.844 --> 00:32:11.137
No, it has to be.

00:32:11.679 --> 00:32:12.680
Almost 50.

00:32:13.181 --> 00:32:14.057
Almost 50.

00:32:14.432 --> 00:32:14.891
Yeah.

00:32:15.683 --> 00:32:16.768
That was how we started.

00:32:17.852 --> 00:32:20.396
And kind of a little bit of our history of

00:32:20.772 --> 00:32:21.981
what it was like when we came.

00:32:22.690 --> 00:32:24.359
There was just the little,

00:32:24.859 --> 00:32:28.529
where you see that white-
washed adobe block out there.

00:32:28.529 --> 00:32:29.072
That was it.

00:32:29.364 --> 00:32:31.074
A ranch house.

00:32:31.658 --> 00:32:32.951
All of us lived there.

00:32:33.493 --> 00:32:34.786
Anita had,

00:32:35.828 --> 00:32:38.331
she just didn't care about mice or things.

00:32:38.539 --> 00:32:40.750
I mean, she just wasn't interested in them.

00:32:41.000 --> 00:32:44.337
And she's sitting on
the floor reading very quietly

00:32:44.587 --> 00:32:45.463
and all of a sudden,

00:32:46.005 --> 00:32:46.714
woo!

00:32:47.340 --> 00:32:48.967
A mouse ran up her dress.

00:32:49.968 --> 00:32:50.885
(laughing)

00:32:51.094 --> 00:32:51.928
She cared about it then?

00:32:52.011 --> 00:32:53.429
She cared about it then.

00:34:05.710 --> 00:34:06.711
Sweetie.

00:34:08.546 --> 00:34:09.630
Sweetie.

00:34:10.923 --> 00:34:12.133
Hi honey.

00:34:13.092 --> 00:34:14.302
Hi honey.

00:34:15.136 --> 00:34:16.471
Hi honey.

00:34:17.263 --> 00:34:18.473
Hi sweetie.

00:34:19.682 --> 00:34:22.769
The desert has been a teacher to me.

00:34:23.561 --> 00:34:25.688
It's almost like being inside God.

00:34:26.147 --> 00:34:30.026
It's just this incredible openness and view.

00:34:30.443 --> 00:34:32.570
At night, the stars are so,

00:34:32.570 --> 00:34:33.780
they look so close,

00:34:33.780 --> 00:34:35.239
you almost think you could pick them.

00:34:38.993 --> 00:34:41.287
It's just the wrong place for a mine.

00:34:42.121 --> 00:34:44.082
(crickets chirping)

00:34:45.083 --> 00:34:48.127
Out there, where
those squiggly mountains are.

00:34:49.003 --> 00:34:50.421
We are as the crow flies,

00:34:50.421 --> 00:34:53.132
probably only about
five miles from the mine.

00:34:54.592 --> 00:34:56.135
Not only have we been praying

00:34:56.302 --> 00:34:59.555
that it wouldn't come about ever,

00:35:00.932 --> 00:35:03.309
but many other people,

00:35:03.768 --> 00:35:08.064
simply because it will
be a disaster for the area.

00:35:08.648 --> 00:35:10.233
It will drain the aquifer,

00:35:11.442 --> 00:35:16.948
the toxic waste will be placed

00:35:17.365 --> 00:35:20.243
on Forest Service land around the mine.

00:35:21.035 --> 00:35:23.913
So we continue the prayers

00:35:24.914 --> 00:35:28.042
and pray that it does not come about.

00:35:29.752 --> 00:35:31.629
We're blessed to be able to live here

00:35:32.004 --> 00:35:35.216
and it would just be
a shame if it disappeared.

00:35:36.801 --> 00:35:38.761
You can actually see out this window,

00:35:39.011 --> 00:35:42.682
I can see it from my own dormitory room.

00:35:44.475 --> 00:35:47.436
The tops of the mountains there

00:35:47.687 --> 00:35:50.731
that will probably go away

00:35:50.940 --> 00:35:53.442
because you dig an open pit mine,

00:35:53.734 --> 00:35:56.821
this humongous pit
with all this toxic tailings

00:35:56.904 --> 00:36:00.074
and eventually a
little toxic lake down there

00:36:00.199 --> 00:36:02.827
and all that has a cost.

00:36:03.911 --> 00:36:07.957
We're still praying that
a way will be found to stop it.

00:36:40.239 --> 00:37:05.932
(machinery pounding)

00:37:08.851 --> 00:37:10.436
Santa Rita Abbey, may I help you?

00:37:10.978 --> 00:37:11.646
Yes, hi.

00:37:12.605 --> 00:37:17.693
I am calling to see
if you will pray for my mom.

00:37:17.944 --> 00:37:20.446
Is that something that I can do?

00:37:21.113 --> 00:37:22.114
Oh sure, yes.

00:37:22.406 --> 00:37:25.618
That's part of why
we're here, is to pray for people.

00:37:26.118 --> 00:37:29.163
Oh great, okay, so
what do you need to know?

00:37:29.163 --> 00:37:30.581
Wanna give me the name?

00:37:31.123 --> 00:37:33.125
Okay, it's my mom, her name is Betty.

00:37:33.751 --> 00:37:34.293
Mm-hmm.

00:37:34.293 --> 00:37:37.046
- And she's 90 and

00:37:37.046 --> 00:37:39.382
she has ovarian cancer

00:37:39.715 --> 00:37:42.260
and she's recovering from a stroke.

00:37:42.927 --> 00:37:44.929
The 90s are not for sissies.

00:37:45.846 --> 00:37:48.557
(laughing) She's
tough and she has an amazing

00:37:50.268 --> 00:37:51.936
positive outlook on life.

00:37:51.936 --> 00:37:54.438
We have a little
bulletin board outside our chapel

00:37:54.939 --> 00:37:57.358
where we can put
prayer requests from people.

00:37:57.858 --> 00:37:59.777
And that way all the sisters will see it.

00:38:00.611 --> 00:38:01.612
Okay, thank you so much.

00:38:01.612 --> 00:38:02.321
I really appreciate that.

00:38:02.321 --> 00:38:02.863
Oh, you're welcome.

00:38:03.406 --> 00:38:03.948
You're welcome.

00:38:04.615 --> 00:38:05.283
God bless you.

00:38:06.075 --> 00:38:06.409
Thank you, bye-bye.

00:38:06.951 --> 00:38:07.243
Bye-bye.

00:38:11.539 --> 00:38:14.166
So that happens a lot,
you know, that people call us

00:38:14.166 --> 00:38:18.963
and just with various needs, you know,

00:38:20.131 --> 00:38:23.426
for themselves or their
loved ones asking for prayers.

00:38:24.635 --> 00:38:28.681
There's so many broken hearts out there

00:38:28.806 --> 00:38:31.934
and broken bodies and people that, you know,

00:38:31.934 --> 00:38:35.062
we hold them in our love and our prayer.

00:38:35.646 --> 00:38:40.860
It's one way that we can minister to people,

00:38:40.860 --> 00:38:43.112
you know, from inside the monastery.

00:39:15.144 --> 00:39:17.772
You know, being in monastic life,

00:39:18.314 --> 00:39:23.277
God has stretched me in
ways I never imagined, you know.

00:39:23.569 --> 00:39:27.114
Like my job as the cellarer, as we call it,

00:39:27.114 --> 00:39:29.784
so I'm in charge of the
physical plant of the monastery.

00:39:29.784 --> 00:39:32.119
So when I got this job as cellarer,

00:39:32.495 --> 00:39:34.580
dad thought that was a great joke

00:39:34.830 --> 00:39:37.958
because, you know, my lazy daughter

00:39:37.958 --> 00:39:41.003
who just wanted to sit
in a chair and read all day,

00:39:41.003 --> 00:39:44.173
you know, and so he actually gave me,

00:39:44.799 --> 00:39:47.635
it was, you know, one
of those home maintenance books

00:39:48.010 --> 00:39:50.179
and he wrote in the
front of it something about,

00:39:50.179 --> 00:39:53.140
this is to make up for my lack as a father

00:39:53.140 --> 00:39:55.643
in teaching you how to, you know, change oil

00:39:55.893 --> 00:39:58.062
and fix a leaky faucet and all that.

00:40:03.943 --> 00:40:07.655
I kinda like taking care of the place

00:40:07.780 --> 00:40:10.241
because that's how I'm
taking care of the sisters.

00:40:17.206 --> 00:40:18.332
This thing isn't too empty.

00:40:21.836 --> 00:40:22.545
Okay, here.

00:40:26.173 --> 00:40:27.174
So did that help?

00:40:32.721 --> 00:40:35.724
It's still pretty squeaky.

00:40:40.729 --> 00:40:43.065
The goal really is continual prayer.

00:40:43.899 --> 00:40:46.986
Simply being where you
are and doing what you're doing,

00:40:47.194 --> 00:40:49.029
you know, the mindfulness.

00:40:51.657 --> 00:40:53.284
Because God is everywhere.

00:40:53.868 --> 00:40:55.453
God's not confined to the chapel.

00:41:37.119 --> 00:41:40.206
So I went to Austin
first where my older sister is

00:41:40.372 --> 00:41:42.124
and spent, I think, three days.

00:41:42.124 --> 00:41:44.418
And then I drove to
the Memphis, Tennessee area

00:41:44.418 --> 00:41:45.711
where my little sister is

00:41:46.170 --> 00:41:48.297
and spent three days
there so I did a lot of driving.

00:41:48.839 --> 00:41:51.509
I think it was when I got there that I wrote

00:41:51.592 --> 00:41:53.969
Mother Vicki and said, "I wanna come."

00:41:55.679 --> 00:41:57.640
She wrote back and said,

00:41:58.807 --> 00:42:03.354
"I too think you might have a calling to the

00:42:03.521 --> 00:42:05.231
Cistercian monastic way of life."

00:42:05.606 --> 00:42:06.941
I remember that it said, "Might."

00:42:06.941 --> 00:42:09.235
And I thought, Hmm,
doesn't sound very sure.

00:42:12.530 --> 00:42:13.531
And I still think that.

00:42:13.531 --> 00:42:15.658
That doesn't sound very
sure, but then I think, well, you know,

00:42:15.658 --> 00:42:17.201
she doesn't hardly even know me.

00:42:17.201 --> 00:42:18.869
I'm sure she probably isn't very sure.

00:42:39.431 --> 00:42:40.474
I was an observer before.

00:42:40.683 --> 00:42:41.559
Now I'm a postulant.

00:42:41.559 --> 00:42:42.851
It's the first phase.

00:42:44.061 --> 00:42:45.854
After you're a postulant, you're a novice.

00:42:46.605 --> 00:42:47.523
It's the next step.

00:42:47.523 --> 00:42:50.568
It's when you get a habit,
it's a white habit, white veil.

00:42:50.985 --> 00:42:52.361
They start calling you sister.

00:43:22.099 --> 00:43:26.645
If you, O Lord should
mark our guilt,

00:43:26.854 --> 00:43:28.397
Every now and then I think,

00:43:28.397 --> 00:43:30.733
gosh, I wonder if everyone
is really committed to being here

00:43:30.733 --> 00:43:32.276
if someone might think about leaving

00:43:32.276 --> 00:43:34.111
because that would kind of wreck me.

00:43:34.111 --> 00:43:37.114
Someone left about...
just a few days after I entered,

00:43:37.489 --> 00:43:40.951
one of the community
left, and it did kind of wreck me.

00:43:42.161 --> 00:43:44.079
(bell ringing)

00:43:44.371 --> 00:43:48.042
You know, it doesn't always feel 100% rosy,

00:43:48.959 --> 00:43:51.962
so I can't say I've felt like running away.

00:43:52.129 --> 00:43:54.256
There was one challenging moment I remember,

00:43:55.007 --> 00:43:56.884
and I said to Vicki and to Rita,

00:43:57.426 --> 00:43:59.386
now I know why you
wouldn't let me bring my car

00:43:59.470 --> 00:44:01.347
because I probably would have gotten in it.

00:44:01.764 --> 00:44:02.848
I don't think I would have left,

00:44:02.848 --> 00:44:04.850
but I would have at
least driven down the road.

00:44:05.059 --> 00:44:05.851
(laughing)

00:44:06.143 --> 00:44:07.603
and probably driven back.

00:44:08.228 --> 00:44:10.814
It was an interaction with another person

00:44:11.482 --> 00:44:14.943
that I had obviously upset.

00:44:16.987 --> 00:44:21.533
And so it was like, you know, this is crazy.

00:44:21.950 --> 00:44:24.036
What is wrong with you?

00:44:24.787 --> 00:44:27.748
You know, as I'm sure
happens when you're married,

00:44:28.248 --> 00:44:30.167
and you probably get in your car

00:44:30.167 --> 00:44:32.211
and drive around the
block sometimes, you know,

00:44:32.211 --> 00:44:34.630
or go out to the movies with your girlfriend

00:44:34.630 --> 00:44:35.798
or something, you know, whatever.

00:44:37.007 --> 00:44:40.219
But you know, I
went to bed early that night.

00:46:10.350 --> 00:46:11.810
I love it, I love the life,

00:46:12.478 --> 00:46:16.064
but like anything, it has its difficulties.

00:46:16.857 --> 00:46:21.570
The difficulties, I
think, are in self-knowledge,

00:46:22.237 --> 00:46:23.489
learning about yourself,

00:46:24.573 --> 00:46:27.951
because especially in a life of prayer,

00:46:28.368 --> 00:46:29.745
you need to know what's there

00:46:29.870 --> 00:46:33.582
because it can be a
block to opening out to God,

00:46:33.582 --> 00:46:36.168
which is what prayer is about.

00:46:37.795 --> 00:46:39.922
Let us turn to the Father of mercies,

00:46:40.380 --> 00:46:41.924
and the God of all comfort.

00:46:42.257 --> 00:46:45.969
(horn blowing)

00:46:47.012 --> 00:46:53.644
♪ Our Father, who art  in heaven ♪

00:46:53.644 --> 00:46:59.733
♪ hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come ♪

00:46:59.733 --> 00:47:01.151
thy will be done.

00:47:01.151 --> 00:47:05.906
Gradually, you can
move from a life of prayers

00:47:06.448 --> 00:47:11.078
to a life of prayer and becoming prayer.

00:47:12.037 --> 00:47:14.748
You realize how connected you are

00:47:14.748 --> 00:47:17.501
with everyone and everything.

00:47:23.257 --> 00:47:26.635
I want to transform whatever I'm in

00:47:27.177 --> 00:47:30.973
and let it be beauty, you
know, let it be something good.

00:47:31.765 --> 00:47:38.480
Not let barrenness or
harshness change me to become like it.

00:47:52.995 --> 00:48:01.712
(birds chirping)

00:48:26.403 --> 00:48:29.865
All of a sudden, in
the midst of the darkness,

00:48:31.408 --> 00:48:35.871
this bird, this bird
started to sing its heart out.

00:48:36.413 --> 00:48:39.875
Just sing and sing and sing.

00:48:40.167 --> 00:48:42.711
It was like the sound
was coming up from its toes

00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:45.380
and passing through its
heart and out its little beak.

00:48:45.797 --> 00:48:49.760
And I thought, wow,
that's the Cistercian life.

00:48:50.469 --> 00:48:53.430
It's joy, it passes through you

00:48:53.430 --> 00:48:55.515
and just comes out in song.

00:48:56.850 --> 00:48:59.811
♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪

00:48:59.853 --> 00:49:04.650
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:05.025 --> 00:49:06.234
Oops, that's not quite right.

00:49:09.404 --> 00:49:10.405
Let's see.

00:49:10.405 --> 00:49:19.790
♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪

00:49:19.790 --> 00:49:23.543
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:23.543 --> 00:49:24.461
Yeah.

00:49:25.337 --> 00:49:27.589
There were only six
sisters when we were founded

00:49:27.839 --> 00:49:31.218
and they did the whole
thing, everything in Latin.

00:49:32.469 --> 00:49:35.389
And if you open these to any page

00:49:35.514 --> 00:49:37.599
and show it to Mother Vicki,

00:49:37.599 --> 00:49:39.059
she will immediately start singing

00:49:39.059 --> 00:49:41.186
because she loved this.

00:49:41.895 --> 00:49:45.273
♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪

00:49:45.273 --> 00:49:46.358
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:46.650 --> 00:49:48.527
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:48.777 --> 00:49:51.113
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:51.321 --> 00:49:53.615
♪ Alleluia ♪

00:49:54.199 --> 00:49:56.785
And it feels so good on Easter morning.

00:49:57.202 --> 00:49:59.788
You've had 40 days of
Lent and Holy Week and everything

00:49:59.955 --> 00:50:04.251
with no alleluias
and then suddenly it bursts out.

00:50:05.043 --> 00:50:12.509
(bell ringing)

00:50:20.559 --> 00:50:24.396
♪ God, come to my assistance ♪

00:50:24.855 --> 00:50:30.986
♪ Oh Lord, make haste to help me ♪

00:50:30.986 --> 00:50:36.158
♪ Glory to the Father and to the Son ♪

00:50:36.158 --> 00:50:40.328
♪ And to the Holy Spirit ♪

00:50:40.537 --> 00:50:43.707
♪ As it was in the beginning ♪

00:50:43.707 --> 00:50:46.793
♪ Is now and ever shall be ♪

00:50:46.960 --> 00:50:50.547
♪ World without end, Amen ♪

00:50:51.006 --> 00:50:53.467
(soft music)

00:50:53.467 --> 00:50:56.511
♪ Oh God be gracious and bless us♪

00:50:56.511 --> 00:51:00.640
♪ and let your face shed its light upon us. ♪

00:51:00.640 --> 00:51:04.519
♪ So will your ways be known upon earth ♪

00:51:04.519 --> 00:51:08.857
♪ And all nations
learn your saving help ♪

00:51:09.232 --> 00:51:13.904
♪ Let the people praise you, O God ♪

00:51:13.904 --> 00:51:17.783
♪ let all the peoples praise you ♪

00:51:18.658 --> 00:51:22.579
♪ Let the nations be glad and exult ♪

00:51:22.579 --> 00:51:26.083
♪ For you rule the world with justice ♪

00:51:26.083 --> 00:51:29.002
♪ With fairness you rule the peoples ♪

00:51:29.002 --> 00:51:33.048
♪ You guide the nations on earth ♪

00:51:33.048 --> 00:51:38.095
♪ Let the people praise you O God ♪

00:51:38.095 --> 00:51:42.390
♪ Let all the peoples praise you ♪

00:51:42.849 --> 00:51:46.019
♪ The earth has yielded its fruit ♪

00:51:46.103 --> 00:51:49.689
♪ For God, our God, has blessed us ♪

00:51:49.689 --> 00:51:52.859
♪ May God still give us His blessing ♪

00:51:52.859 --> 00:51:57.155
♪ Till the ends
of the earth revere Him. ♪

00:51:57.447 --> 00:51:59.783
(prayer fades)

00:52:20.387 --> 00:52:29.604
(leaves rustling)

00:52:38.822 --> 00:52:40.991
You're old hands with this.

00:52:45.787 --> 00:52:47.664
Pam, leaving a building.

00:55:07.679 --> 00:55:12.475
We're looking at the
gospel for Sunday's liturgy

00:55:13.476 --> 00:55:15.895
to do a little sharing on this.

00:55:16.396 --> 00:55:20.442
This section is from
the last discourse of Jesus

00:55:21.484 --> 00:55:24.237
and it's like His last will and testament

00:55:24.904 --> 00:55:27.949
that He's giving to his disciples to us.

00:55:28.658 --> 00:55:31.202
This love that's between him and the Father

00:55:31.870 --> 00:55:33.997
and that He's opening up to us.

00:55:34.873 --> 00:55:38.376
For me, just the start off was

00:55:39.627 --> 00:55:41.463
how many times love was mentioned

00:55:42.172 --> 00:55:43.882
in that first paragraph.

00:55:45.425 --> 00:55:47.260
Whoever loves me will keep my word

00:55:47.552 --> 00:55:49.095
and my Father will love him.

00:55:50.388 --> 00:55:53.433
Whoever does not
love me does not keep my words

00:55:53.892 --> 00:55:55.894
yet the word you hear is not mine.

00:55:56.936 --> 00:56:00.315
It's kind of like
how it personally affects me.

00:56:02.817 --> 00:56:06.529
"The peace I leave with
you, not as the world gives,

00:56:06.529 --> 00:56:07.405
do I give it to you."

00:56:07.530 --> 00:56:10.158
I don't know, it made me feel or think

00:56:10.241 --> 00:56:13.161
about how it is being here.

00:56:14.204 --> 00:56:18.041
So it was kind of an
affirmation for me of being here

00:56:18.041 --> 00:56:19.626
and then of course, do not let your hearts

00:56:19.626 --> 00:56:20.668
be troubled or afraid.

00:56:21.503 --> 00:56:22.295
Yes, yes.

00:56:22.712 --> 00:56:24.005
I thought, okay then.

00:56:42.565 --> 00:56:44.734
Here we are, dear Sharon.

00:56:45.068 --> 00:56:47.404
One year into Cistercian life

00:56:48.029 --> 00:56:50.949
in the magnificent
high desert of the Southwest

00:56:52.200 --> 00:56:54.577
and this place of Santa Rita Abbey.

00:56:56.121 --> 00:56:59.707
God has led you here
and you have heard His voice

00:57:00.375 --> 00:57:01.918
and responded in love.

00:57:03.503 --> 00:57:05.380
He has been leading you through deserts

00:57:05.630 --> 00:57:08.007
of a different sort to this community.

00:57:09.175 --> 00:57:12.971
A place to seek God and a place for God

00:57:13.179 --> 00:57:16.724
to seek out your
heart with His love and mercy.

00:57:16.724 --> 00:57:17.809
I'm gonna cry too.

00:57:19.060 --> 00:57:20.979
(laughing) So don't mind.

00:57:22.647 --> 00:57:25.066
We welcome you with much love and joy

00:57:25.984 --> 00:57:28.987
as you take this step
in your Cistercian journey

00:57:29.571 --> 00:57:32.949
along with your
sisters into the heart of God.

00:57:34.284 --> 00:57:39.164
And so I ask you, do
you resolve to be clothed

00:57:39.330 --> 00:57:42.417
in the Cistercian habit and follow Jesus

00:57:42.834 --> 00:57:44.919
in the community of Santa Rita?

00:57:46.713 --> 00:57:48.798
Yes, Reverend Mother,
with the grace of God

00:57:48.798 --> 00:57:50.175
and with the help of your prayers.

00:57:54.053 --> 00:57:59.934
♪ O God of truth, O Lord of might♪

00:57:59.934 --> 00:58:05.982
♪ Who order time and change aright ♪

00:58:05.982 --> 00:58:11.404
♪ Who send the early morning ray ♪

00:58:11.404 --> 00:58:18.536
♪ And light the glow of perfect day ♪

00:58:18.536 --> 00:58:23.458
♪ And while you keep the body whole ♪

00:58:24.501 --> 00:58:32.467
♪ Shed forth your peace upon the soul ♪

00:58:32.759 --> 00:58:39.182
♪ Almighty Father, hear our cry ♪

00:58:39.182 --> 00:58:44.938
♪ Through Jesus Christ our Lord most high ♪

00:58:44.938 --> 00:58:51.277
♪ And with the Spirit Paraclete ♪

00:58:51.277 --> 00:58:59.827
♪ whose reign the endless ages greet ♪

00:58:59.827 --> 00:59:06.501
♪ Amen ♪

00:59:06.501 --> 00:59:10.171
Knowing that the community voted
and said yes,

00:59:10.630 --> 00:59:12.006
I'll never forget it,

00:59:12.006 --> 00:59:15.301
I don't think, you coming
out and saying it was unanimous.

00:59:16.302 --> 00:59:21.015
Although I thought, well, if it wasn't,

00:59:21.015 --> 00:59:21.683
would you have told me?

00:59:21.891 --> 00:59:22.892
Two people voted no.

00:59:24.060 --> 00:59:24.894
Because then I would have thought,

00:59:24.894 --> 00:59:25.728
well, who was that?

00:59:25.937 --> 00:59:26.938
I probably would have wondered.

00:59:28.690 --> 00:59:31.985
But that was a big affirmation for me.

00:59:32.360 --> 00:59:33.486
More that way, you know,

00:59:33.486 --> 00:59:36.447
because I think,
you know, you always wonder,

00:59:36.823 --> 00:59:37.824
are they gonna kick me out?

00:59:37.824 --> 00:59:39.242
You know, are they gonna really figure out?

00:59:40.118 --> 00:59:41.077
Might not be an ax murderer,

00:59:41.077 --> 00:59:44.163
but I might be, you
know, not good enough or something.

00:59:44.831 --> 00:59:48.543
So it was another
opportunity for me to say yes.

00:59:48.710 --> 00:59:48.918
Yes.

00:59:49.752 --> 00:59:50.211
Yes!

00:59:51.462 --> 00:59:52.839
As Mother Vicki says, yes.

00:59:53.881 --> 00:59:57.093
Yes, God, whatever
you say, whatever you want.

00:59:58.303 --> 01:00:00.430
But you know, I don't always say that.

01:00:01.514 --> 01:00:02.849
I think He heard you.

01:00:02.849 --> 01:00:04.434
Sometimes I just say yes.

01:00:06.352 --> 01:00:07.353
Okay.

01:00:07.353 --> 01:00:10.189
Yeah, trying to say yes, yes.

01:00:13.026 --> 01:00:13.735
I don't know.

01:00:14.819 --> 01:00:19.324
But I guess that's
normal, normal part of life?

01:00:19.741 --> 01:00:20.658
Yeah, it's normal.

01:00:23.745 --> 01:00:26.122
Father, I think I told you,

01:00:26.289 --> 01:00:31.127
Father, the Tibhirine
monks, the old monk, the doctor,

01:00:33.379 --> 01:00:35.506
every night he'd
say, I'm out of here tomorrow.

01:00:36.174 --> 01:00:37.425
And then he'd get up in the morning

01:00:37.425 --> 01:00:39.927
and he'd get on and do his own routine.

01:00:39.927 --> 01:00:41.721
And he'd be there that night saying,

01:00:42.430 --> 01:00:44.307
I'm out of here tomorrow, you know.

01:00:44.349 --> 01:00:47.644
But it's just like, you know,

01:00:47.644 --> 01:00:49.479
we have our ups and downs during the day.

01:00:49.479 --> 01:00:50.855
You know, that's hard.

01:00:51.731 --> 01:00:55.068
To constantly being
faced with things in yourself

01:00:55.193 --> 01:00:58.780
that really need to let
go of, or you need to change,

01:00:59.197 --> 01:01:02.408
or, you know, it feels relentless.

01:01:02.784 --> 01:01:03.576
And I guess it is.

01:01:05.244 --> 01:01:07.705
But that's the point.

01:01:08.289 --> 01:01:10.625
You just keep, it's almost like--

01:01:10.625 --> 01:01:11.876
It's like every day
you have an opportunity

01:01:12.251 --> 01:01:13.086
to say how much you love God.

01:01:13.127 --> 01:01:14.921
Like an opportunity, yeah.

01:01:15.338 --> 01:01:18.383
It's God continuing to ask, you know,

01:01:19.175 --> 01:01:20.718
that you're that important to him.

01:01:28.726 --> 01:01:31.479
(birds chirping)

01:03:43.110 --> 01:03:48.699
(paper rustling)

01:03:52.161 --> 01:03:53.538
Lord, thank you for the good news

01:03:53.621 --> 01:03:54.997
regarding the Rosemont Mine.

01:03:55.706 --> 01:03:59.377
And may you continue to help those

01:03:59.377 --> 01:04:02.922
who are working to protect the Santa Ritas

01:04:02.922 --> 01:04:06.384
from the ravages of open pit mining.

01:04:09.846 --> 01:04:14.642
We're quite happy
about the temporary injunction.

01:04:15.726 --> 01:04:17.895
It, as far as I understand it,

01:04:19.856 --> 01:04:24.235
now, Hudbay has challenged it

01:04:24.652 --> 01:04:30.908
and it's going to go to
the Ninth Circuit in San Francisco.

01:04:31.784 --> 01:04:33.411
So we continue the prayers.

01:04:34.453 --> 01:04:35.955
Oh God, come to my assistance.

01:04:36.247 --> 01:04:39.208
Lord, make haste to help me.

01:04:39.876 --> 01:04:43.921
Glory be to the Father and to the Son

01:04:44.547 --> 01:04:46.924
and to the Holy Spirit.

01:04:47.592 --> 01:04:50.177
As it was in the beginning,

01:04:50.803 --> 01:04:53.639
is now and ever shall be.

01:04:54.056 --> 01:04:56.350
World without end, amen.

01:04:57.852 --> 01:05:00.813
The waters have lifted up their voice.

01:05:01.647 --> 01:05:04.525
The waters have lifted up their thunder.

01:05:05.610 --> 01:05:09.697
Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy.

01:05:10.323 --> 01:05:11.032
Let us pray.

01:05:14.827 --> 01:05:18.247
God really is present with love.

01:05:19.582 --> 01:05:22.376
And the most important thing is that.

01:05:23.419 --> 01:05:26.380
God's loving
presence, no matter what happens.

01:05:27.798 --> 01:05:32.178
My dad was diagnosed
with a rare form of lymphoma.

01:05:33.429 --> 01:05:39.310
We all knew that the
cancer was gonna win out in the end

01:05:39.977 --> 01:05:43.356
sooner or later, but
then all of a sudden it's like,

01:05:43.356 --> 01:05:45.066
oh my gosh, it's happening now.

01:05:46.150 --> 01:05:52.949
And so I dropped
everything and jumped in our pickup truck

01:05:53.157 --> 01:05:55.910
and it's a five hour
drive from here to Prescott.

01:05:56.744 --> 01:06:00.247
I just remember my
sister on the other side of bed

01:06:00.247 --> 01:06:04.210
and I'm on this side
and just the tears pouring down.

01:06:06.337 --> 01:06:12.760
But I had this deep
sense that I could trust God

01:06:13.427 --> 01:06:14.637
with my father.

01:06:15.137 --> 01:06:17.431
I could, you know, it was just of,

01:06:19.475 --> 01:06:21.102
okay God, I entrust him to you.

01:06:22.645 --> 01:06:26.691
But of course, you
know, it's like, oh, my daddy.

01:06:26.732 --> 01:06:27.858
You know.

01:06:33.155 --> 01:06:38.744
Our life here is so
all absorbing that I don't know

01:06:38.744 --> 01:06:43.249
that I've done a
whole lot of grieving exactly.

01:06:46.544 --> 01:06:50.214
Last week I'm trying
to fix Sister Jacqui's faucet

01:06:50.214 --> 01:06:54.802
and I couldn't hardly move
the water shut offs underneath.

01:06:56.762 --> 01:06:59.432
So, you know, I was
just like, okay grandfathers,

01:06:59.682 --> 01:07:02.393
okay grandpas and
uncles, give me a hand here.

01:07:02.393 --> 01:07:05.271
And then I was like, oh,
wait, dad is up there with them.

01:07:05.479 --> 01:07:08.065
So, okay dad, help me out.

01:07:09.316 --> 01:07:13.696
And seriously, when I
do that, I'll get an idea,

01:07:14.196 --> 01:07:16.907
you know, something
I hadn't thought of before.

01:07:17.908 --> 01:07:21.078
It's like I'm
opening my mind to, I don't know,

01:07:21.078 --> 01:07:23.873
to be creative, to think
outside of my little mental box.

01:07:24.790 --> 01:07:25.583
And you know, it worked.

01:07:26.167 --> 01:07:27.835
So it's like, okay dad, you're hired.

01:07:31.547 --> 01:07:33.591
We can't see dad, we can't touch him.

01:07:34.008 --> 01:07:35.718
We can't hear his voice anymore.

01:07:37.011 --> 01:07:41.265
But I believe dad, you
know, somehow dad is in God now.

01:07:41.682 --> 01:07:44.643
And if God is
everywhere, in a sense, so is my father.

01:08:08.542 --> 01:08:13.172
When Beverly died, I
thought, gee, it's so expensive.

01:08:13.923 --> 01:08:19.637
So I went with this
man that was doing jobs around.

01:08:20.971 --> 01:08:26.143
And we got this wood
and the paint and everything.

01:08:26.143 --> 01:08:30.189
for $98, which is a good price for a casket.

01:08:30.648 --> 01:08:35.361
I had books in there, but I'm getting older.

01:08:35.861 --> 01:08:39.240
And so I thought it
was time to get the books out.

01:08:40.324 --> 01:08:45.788
But on the side, it says I
am the resurrection and the life.

01:08:47.081 --> 01:08:51.168
I painted all that...butterflies.

01:08:51.168 --> 01:08:53.129
I have flowers down here.

01:08:54.088 --> 01:08:56.215
Because I wanted it to be cheerful.

01:08:59.218 --> 01:09:02.179
Although, once it's in the ground,

01:09:02.930 --> 01:09:05.558
who gives a hoot
whether it's cheerful or not?

01:09:08.727 --> 01:09:11.021
Here it says the keeper of the portal.

01:09:11.939 --> 01:09:15.651
Usually we think of
Our Lady as the gate of heaven.

01:09:16.652 --> 01:09:19.780
Well, heaven, is it a place?

01:09:21.198 --> 01:09:24.535
I don't think so.

01:09:26.036 --> 01:09:29.915
And I keep telling the
sisters, I'm not going anyplace.

01:09:30.624 --> 01:09:32.501
I'm gonna be here to haunt you.

01:09:33.294 --> 01:09:37.006
And it's great.

01:09:37.590 --> 01:09:39.425
Why should I go anyplace?

01:09:39.717 --> 01:09:43.804
You know, although it'd
be nice to zoom around space.

01:09:44.263 --> 01:09:46.182
I would kind of like that, you know,

01:09:47.016 --> 01:09:51.187
after you leave your body, you just, psssss.

01:09:51.770 --> 01:09:52.062
Wow.

01:09:53.147 --> 01:09:57.568
I would get all space to zoom around.

01:09:58.402 --> 01:10:01.614
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪

01:10:01.822 --> 01:10:04.867
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪

01:10:04.867 --> 01:10:09.705
♪ Happy birthday dear Clare ♪

01:10:09.788 --> 01:10:14.752
♪ May God bless you ♪

01:10:14.752 --> 01:10:16.712
You can do it.

01:10:16.962 --> 01:10:19.089
You can do it. You can do it, yay.

01:10:20.925 --> 01:10:23.552
Thank God it's Sunday
tomorrow and we get to rest.

01:10:27.765 --> 01:10:28.224
Don't you think?

01:10:28.724 --> 01:10:29.808
Yep.

01:10:31.268 --> 01:10:33.646
Of course you still
have to do this on a Sunday.

01:10:33.854 --> 01:10:35.189
Not so swollen, sister.

01:10:35.689 --> 01:10:37.358
Pretty good, pretty
good at the end of the day.

01:10:37.691 --> 01:10:39.109
That is very good.

01:10:39.568 --> 01:10:40.069
Don't you think?

01:10:40.819 --> 01:10:42.488
That's much better than it was.

01:10:42.696 --> 01:10:43.781
Tell me what this is.

01:10:44.114 --> 01:10:44.573
This is new.

01:10:45.282 --> 01:10:45.866
What's this for?

01:10:46.158 --> 01:10:47.743
Because my hand was hurting.

01:10:48.869 --> 01:10:49.787
Tell me about that.

01:10:49.995 --> 01:10:50.955
Why is your hand hurting?

01:10:50.955 --> 01:10:51.664
Where is it hurting?

01:10:52.831 --> 01:10:53.332
Right here.

01:10:53.832 --> 01:10:56.460
Okay, only when you walk with this?

01:10:56.460 --> 01:10:56.669
Yes.

01:10:57.294 --> 01:10:58.837
Well, do you want me to rub it a little?

01:11:00.923 --> 01:11:01.924
Hmm, why bother?

01:11:02.758 --> 01:11:03.592
Well, if it hurts.

01:11:05.427 --> 01:11:08.931
This is a problem with comfortable chairs.

01:11:09.848 --> 01:11:11.141
You have to really lean forward.

01:11:11.892 --> 01:11:13.727
Good, Clare, that's so good.

01:11:14.103 --> 01:11:15.271
You get up good.

01:11:30.286 --> 01:11:33.497
May the divine
assistance remain always with us.

01:11:33.497 --> 01:11:34.206
Amen.

01:11:34.498 --> 01:11:35.666
Good morning, everybody.

01:11:35.916 --> 01:11:36.583
Good morning.

01:11:37.251 --> 01:11:40.713
This morning, we need to start planning

01:11:41.463 --> 01:11:44.258
for our Jubilee celebration.

01:11:45.092 --> 01:11:46.302
Yeah, we have to plan out a route,

01:11:46.719 --> 01:11:46.927
Yeah.

01:11:47.553 --> 01:11:49.388
and which rooms we actually want to show.

01:11:50.264 --> 01:11:55.144
Everything in my dorm
room that is a pile of this

01:11:55.144 --> 01:11:58.647
and a pile of that, I was
thinking I would just put them

01:11:58.647 --> 01:12:00.024
all in the bathroom.

01:12:00.024 --> 01:12:00.858
Me too.

01:12:00.858 --> 01:12:03.193
I really want to show them your coffin.

01:12:04.111 --> 01:12:07.156
That's what I mean,...yellow submarine.

01:12:13.746 --> 01:12:18.125
(clicking)

01:12:28.927 --> 01:12:30.054
You have to do all of them.

01:12:30.054 --> 01:12:30.637
Right.

01:12:31.138 --> 01:12:32.306
Holy moly.

01:12:32.306 --> 01:12:35.476
I haven't had time yet to put new bags in.

01:12:35.684 --> 01:12:37.853
Well, I'll get them and bring them.

01:12:37.853 --> 01:12:40.564
One, two, three.

01:12:44.985 --> 01:12:46.945
How did you do that?

01:12:48.322 --> 01:12:49.615
Spread it at the bottom.

01:12:49.615 --> 01:12:50.366
There you go.

01:12:50.532 --> 01:12:51.575
I got it, I got it.

01:13:41.458 --> 01:13:44.711
(chatter)

01:13:44.711 --> 01:13:46.463
You want those other two bags of ice

01:13:46.463 --> 01:13:47.756
put back in the freezer?

01:13:47.756 --> 01:13:48.882
Yes, that'd be great.

01:13:52.344 --> 01:13:53.804
(chatter)

01:14:14.533 --> 01:14:16.994
Maybe the cake should be at this end

01:14:16.994 --> 01:14:18.454
where it's more accessible.

01:14:18.454 --> 01:14:19.913
Can you put these by the cake more?

01:14:19.997 --> 01:14:20.789
Yes.

01:14:20.956 --> 01:14:22.541
If you could get that open.

01:14:26.503 --> 01:14:27.963
Or did you have disposable?

01:14:27.963 --> 01:14:29.089
What were you thinking?

01:14:29.089 --> 01:14:30.966
We're gonna have to use our stuff.

01:14:31.008 --> 01:14:31.508
Okay.

01:14:31.800 --> 01:14:33.218
So we'll need a knife too.

01:14:33.218 --> 01:14:34.178
Right, I will see if I...

01:14:34.511 --> 01:14:36.805
Yeah, they're slicing all the bagels.

01:14:36.805 --> 01:14:37.973
Thank you.

01:14:40.934 --> 01:14:41.768
(laughing)

01:14:53.947 --> 01:14:56.992
I don't know how often applause

01:14:56.992 --> 01:14:59.077
is offered up in monastic chapels,

01:14:59.077 --> 01:15:01.580
but I just think, I know all of this,

01:15:01.580 --> 01:15:05.000
all of your guests, sisters,
like me, are so anxious

01:15:05.000 --> 01:15:07.211
to say congratulations and to say thank you

01:15:07.211 --> 01:15:09.379
for what you've been for 50 years

01:15:09.379 --> 01:15:14.134
and for what you
will be well into the future.

01:15:14.134 --> 01:15:16.386
(applause)

01:15:18.514 --> 01:15:20.432
You might think you're
hidden away here in the hills,

01:15:20.682 --> 01:15:26.104
but no, you're the
most counter-cultural, probably,

01:15:27.105 --> 01:15:29.399
and prophetic presence we have.

01:15:30.317 --> 01:15:34.738
Your prayer, your witness, your life,

01:15:34.738 --> 01:15:37.241
makes a huge difference.

01:15:37.241 --> 01:15:38.825
Oh, yes, yes, yes.

01:15:39.159 --> 01:15:42.162
I have to tell people
that there's food in here.

01:15:42.162 --> 01:15:43.455
Oh, okay, okay.

01:15:44.831 --> 01:15:46.500
I don't know how I'm gonna do this.

01:15:46.792 --> 01:15:47.793
You need a bell.

01:15:47.960 --> 01:15:49.378
Maybe, maybe I'll...

01:15:51.088 --> 01:15:51.838
(laughing)

01:15:55.342 --> 01:15:58.637
Oh, you look as beautiful as ever.

01:15:59.179 --> 01:16:01.640
Oh who told you we were...

01:16:01.640 --> 01:16:03.475
I got an invitation.

01:16:03.725 --> 01:16:05.143
Oh, did you.

01:16:06.019 --> 01:16:07.312
Hi, nice to meet you.

01:16:07.354 --> 01:16:08.397
Good to be here.

01:16:15.028 --> 01:16:18.865
The prioress, our
superior's office, is right there,

01:16:19.324 --> 01:16:21.118
and then we have what we call the parlor.

01:16:21.868 --> 01:16:23.537
That's where we receive people.

01:16:23.537 --> 01:16:26.540
We don't really ever
bring people into the monastery,

01:16:26.540 --> 01:16:28.667
so this is special and unusual.

01:16:29.334 --> 01:16:31.336
And we're gonna trust
you not to go wandering around

01:16:31.336 --> 01:16:33.380
into our bathrooms and bedrooms and stuff.

01:16:34.006 --> 01:16:35.757
Okay, but you're welcome to come.

01:16:35.757 --> 01:16:36.675
It's very interesting.

01:16:37.134 --> 01:16:39.511
I'm first professed,
I'm not finally professed.

01:16:39.511 --> 01:16:41.138
It's just a community event,

01:16:41.847 --> 01:16:43.348
and it happens in the chapter room.

01:16:43.348 --> 01:16:46.727
So the whole
community is here, all 11 of us,

01:16:47.185 --> 01:16:49.104
and I make my vows in their presence.

01:16:50.188 --> 01:16:53.942
When we get new
books, they just get put here.

01:16:54.318 --> 01:16:54.818
(laughing)

01:16:54.818 --> 01:16:55.777
So someone can see them.

01:16:56.028 --> 01:16:57.237
And we have periodicals.

01:16:57.821 --> 01:16:59.823
That's the biggest way we get news.

01:17:01.116 --> 01:17:02.826
So we're gonna go into the dorm,

01:17:03.076 --> 01:17:05.412
so we'll just stop right up here.

01:17:07.748 --> 01:17:09.750
It's just part of our charism of having,

01:17:09.750 --> 01:17:13.378
living a simple life,
not being distracted by things,

01:17:13.462 --> 01:17:15.422
trying to be focused completely on God.

01:17:16.423 --> 01:17:18.300
We vow to live here, but really you vow,

01:17:19.009 --> 01:17:20.677
stability is a vow to your community.

01:17:21.053 --> 01:17:24.348
So if our community,
I don't know, lost the land

01:17:24.348 --> 01:17:25.724
or decided we had to move,

01:17:26.224 --> 01:17:28.727
then the vow is really to the community.

01:17:28.727 --> 01:17:30.062
Kind of like the church isn't the building,

01:17:30.062 --> 01:17:30.771
it's the people.

01:17:31.813 --> 01:17:34.399
So I'm committed to
these people in this place.

01:17:37.027 --> 01:17:39.071
Her given name is Melody Joy Duran.

01:17:40.030 --> 01:17:40.989
So when she first came,

01:17:42.991 --> 01:17:44.493
Bev didn't like either of her names,

01:17:44.493 --> 01:17:46.036
so we called her Mary.

01:17:52.668 --> 01:17:54.753
And she's still at--

01:17:54.795 --> 01:17:55.796
She's at the Vitorchiano.

01:17:56.213 --> 01:17:57.089
Vitorchiano, yeah.

01:18:02.135 --> 01:18:11.269
( birds chirping )

01:18:21.905 --> 01:18:24.741
Next year, I will be 75.

01:18:25.909 --> 01:18:29.079
When we reach the age of 75,

01:18:29.871 --> 01:18:33.291
we have to turn in our resignation

01:18:34.334 --> 01:18:38.422
to the Abbot General of our order.

01:18:38.672 --> 01:18:42.008
I will hand in my
resignation at the beginning of April.

01:18:42.801 --> 01:18:45.220
And it's totally up to the community.

01:18:45.679 --> 01:18:47.723
If they still want the person to go on,

01:18:47.723 --> 01:18:51.017
they can request that
they would like the prioress

01:18:51.184 --> 01:18:53.353
to complete their term.

01:18:54.271 --> 01:18:56.064
I want what the community wants.

01:18:56.523 --> 01:18:57.899
No one goes on forever.

01:18:58.567 --> 01:19:00.360
So next year is a big year.

01:19:00.652 --> 01:19:01.695
(laughing)

01:19:02.988 --> 01:19:04.656
So we'll see what happens.

01:19:06.992 --> 01:19:14.666
♪ Son, why have you done so to us ♪

01:19:14.833 --> 01:19:18.545
Okay, we work quite together on son, why.

01:19:18.837 --> 01:19:21.506
You know, you've got two
notes with two lines over them.

01:19:22.591 --> 01:19:24.760
What is that, a bi-verga with a--

01:19:25.510 --> 01:19:26.344
Episemas--

01:19:27.387 --> 01:19:27.888
Over them.

01:19:28.305 --> 01:19:31.266
♪ The word from on high...♪

01:19:31.516 --> 01:19:33.602
It's so hard to believe that she'll be 75.

01:19:35.103 --> 01:19:37.355
All of us in the back
of our minds are like, hmm,

01:19:37.355 --> 01:19:38.315
so what are we gonna do?

01:19:40.317 --> 01:19:42.486
You have to be at least 35 years old

01:19:42.486 --> 01:19:45.447
and you have to have been solemnly professed

01:19:45.447 --> 01:19:46.740
for at least seven years.

01:19:49.993 --> 01:19:54.039
♪ Glory to you, word of God ♪

01:19:54.039 --> 01:19:54.998
♪ Lord Jesus Christ ♪

01:19:55.248 --> 01:19:57.209
I don't know what's gonna happen.

01:19:58.794 --> 01:20:01.296
You know, and just the
future of our community generally,

01:20:02.839 --> 01:20:03.715
that kind of insecurity,

01:20:04.007 --> 01:20:07.177
because nobody can say,
okay, this is what's gonna happen

01:20:07.385 --> 01:20:09.513
next year and the year
after that, and the year after that.

01:20:09.513 --> 01:20:10.806
That is my plan for life.

01:20:11.056 --> 01:20:14.643
Well, life has a way of interfering

01:20:14.851 --> 01:20:17.354
with our nice, neat plans.

01:20:17.354 --> 01:20:21.274
♪ The Lord will give to him ♪

01:20:21.274 --> 01:20:23.109
♪ A throne of his father ♪

01:20:23.109 --> 01:20:25.695
Wait, something's going on there with--

01:20:26.238 --> 01:20:28.323
The thought of me being elected,

01:20:28.323 --> 01:20:29.449
it's like, Lord have mercy.

01:20:31.701 --> 01:20:32.327
That's up to God.

01:20:35.288 --> 01:20:40.168
You know, we all serve in
some capacity in the monastery.

01:20:42.254 --> 01:20:45.048
I always think of that scripture,

01:20:45.757 --> 01:20:47.008
carry each other's burdens

01:20:47.425 --> 01:20:49.678
and so fulfill the law of Christ.

01:20:50.595 --> 01:20:53.390
You know, help one
another, encourage one another.

01:20:54.099 --> 01:20:56.142
To me, that's the beauty of community

01:20:56.268 --> 01:20:58.436
because, you know, when I fall,

01:20:58.854 --> 01:21:01.189
somebody can pick me up and dust me off

01:21:01.273 --> 01:21:03.817
and say, okay, keep walking.

01:21:04.109 --> 01:21:05.110
(laughing)

01:21:21.084 --> 01:21:24.296
I think the call of
God to the consecrated life

01:21:24.296 --> 01:21:25.964
will always be there.

01:21:26.506 --> 01:21:29.175
It's one of the many ways we can go to God.

01:21:30.427 --> 01:21:33.555
But I think it's difficult nowadays.

01:21:35.515 --> 01:21:36.850
Women have said to me,

01:21:36.850 --> 01:21:38.894
there are so many things I could be doing.

01:21:39.102 --> 01:21:40.228
I just, I don't know.

01:21:40.770 --> 01:21:42.355
I don't know what to do.

01:21:43.315 --> 01:21:45.525
I could do this and I
could do that and it's true.

01:21:46.985 --> 01:21:48.904
They have the gifts, they have the talent.

01:21:50.322 --> 01:21:55.243
And God will try to
make God's voice a little louder

01:21:56.244 --> 01:21:59.289
so that you can hear it.

01:22:00.457 --> 01:22:04.377
Perhaps it's a
question of knowing how to listen,

01:22:05.128 --> 01:22:09.257
how to get to a
deeper place where we can listen.

01:22:12.177 --> 01:22:15.555
I wouldn't want to walk
the planet in any other way.

01:22:25.273 --> 01:22:28.026
(birds chirping)