Full Circle
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On November 15th, 2014, Trevor Kennison’s life changed in an instant when he broke his back snowboarding in the Colorado backcountry. The film follows Trevor on his journey as he adapts to his new reality, inadvertently following a path laid out for him 50 years earlier by Barry Corbet, the famed mountaineer, adventurer, author, and paraplegic disability advocate. On a whim, Trevor tried sit-skiing for the first time (a device enabling wheelchair users to ski). His life changed forever again: setting goals around sit-skiing gave him a newfound purpose. Despite setbacks from secondary injuries, an unsupportive family, and the tiresome reality of living with Spinal Cord Injury, a career as a professional skier blossomed and Trevor finds himself redefining disability on a global scale, inadvertently building off the foundation laid by Barry.
Apple News | Shaker Samman
"Trevor Kennison’s story is raw and human. It’s joyful, sure, but at times it’s painful – something this film thankfully does not shy away from. FULL CIRCLE is a story about what it means to dig deep, as an athlete, and a person."
Forbes | Michelle Bruton
"One of the most moving ski films in recent memory."
Mountain Gazette | Mike Rogge
"FULL CIRCLE is a satisfying, masterful, and honest documentary. The film will punch you in the gut and lift you up offering a full range of emotional payoffs."
National Geographic | Sofia Jaramillo
"FULL CIRCLE is a storytelling feat – a must-see movie that will push your understanding of what it means to be an athlete."
Josh Dueck, Paralympic Champion
"As an athlete, amateur historian, person with a disability and person who loves ski culture; you fucking nailed this."
New Mobility Magazine | Ian Ruder, Editor
"The film is beautiful, intelligent and moving. Barry’s writing always hits me at the core, and to have built a movie that lives up to that standard and even elevates it, is quite an accomplishment."
Project Possible | Chris Slavin
"The honesty and truthfulness with which the creators presented the reality of life with Spinal Cord Injury was a relief. We need films like this – you guys put something really spectacular together."
Citation
Main credits
Berman, Josh (film director)
Berman, Josh (screenwriter)
Berman, Josh (film producer)
Smith, Conor (screenwriter)
Smith, Conor (film producer)
Crandall, Thomas (screenwriter)
Tuscany, Roy (film producer)
Kennison, Trevor (on-screen participant)
Other credits
Cinematography, Josh Berman; editing, Thomas Crandall, Josh Berman; music, Mark Crawford.
Distributor subjects
Disability; Mental Health; Depression; Addiction; Adaptive SportsKeywords
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[orchestral music playing]
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[car engine rumbles]
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[narrator] Once… a person
was severely injured.
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So severely in fact
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that the person suffered
motor paralysis
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and the loss
of many body functions
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normally taken for granted.
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Furthermore… the injured person
faced a lifetime in a wheelchair
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experienced catastrophic
disruption of personality
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was extremely fearful
of future relationships
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with family and friends
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and had no means of support.
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One dilemma was obvious.
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To cope… or not to cope.
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To cope meant to work and play
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and live and love
as if nothing had happened.
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But something had happened.
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We are the spinal cord injured.
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We're all badly hurt
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and many of us don't know
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what to do
about living this way.
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It's a very good thing therefore
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that the world is full of
people with injuries like ours
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who have coped…
who are glad they are coping
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and who give to the human race
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in full measure
for what they take.
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[wheelchair squeaks]
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[wheelchair brakes click]
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[tram running]
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[TV anchor] Welcome everyone
to the top of Corbet's
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absolutely stunning up here.
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For anyone
that has skied Jackson
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you look around at the Valley,
you look at the mountains
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you're like okay I've arrived.
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You walk out of that tram,
and I have to tell you
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this place
is absolutely breathtaking
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and just to be part
of this event is truly special.
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[announcer 1] Let's talk
about Corbet's
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here at
Jackson Hole Mountain Resort
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one of the most iconic
features at any mountain.
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What an amazing venue this is.
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[announcer 2] Yeah
regularly rated and voted
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one of the steepest, gnarliest
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most extreme runs
in all of America
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possibly even the world.
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[announcer 1] We have got
24 athletes out here.
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It's a two run format.
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They don't have
to take both runs
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-if they don't want to.
-[announcer 2] No.
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[announcer 1] We’ve got
nine women, 15 men today.
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And it's a mix of skiers
and snowboarders on both sides
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and all of the competitors
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are competing together,
so women separately from the men
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but the skiers
and snowboarders together.
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There are no judges,
this is a rider judged event.
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But let's get
underway with this.
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Let's get to the top
of Corbet's here.
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-[announcer 2] I’m excited.
-[announcer 1] Because we're
ready to kick this off
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Kings & Queens of Corbet’s.
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The Kings & Queens of Corbet's
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is a unique event
on Jackson Hole Mountain Resort.
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It's a skiing
and snowboarding competition
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to celebrate limits.
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[fans cheering]
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Corbet's is the icon
of Jackson Hole Mountain Resort.
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It's the Everest for a lot
of skiers and snowboarders.
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When you ride the tram
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you go up 4,000
vertical feet in 12 minutes.
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[man] You know,
you're getting up there
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and then you crest that cliff.
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And there's
a hanging snow field
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and oh here comes Corbet’s
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and you go by
and you’re looking at it
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and it's just like, “Wow.”
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[Travis] I mean it's so nasty
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there's massive boulders,
super sharp rocks.
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[Jess] It's so steep
that when you look down
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it looks like you're standing on
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the second floor of a building.
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[Travis] Within this
death laden cliff area
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there is one route through,
and it's Corbet's Couloir.
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[Jeff] It's for real.
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Anybody who says that
they're a really good skier
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you take them up to the lip
of Corbet's and be like
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“So do you want to ski this?”
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Almost everybody is like
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“Yeah no, no I'm good.”
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[athletes and crew talking]
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[Jeff] I just had never seen
the kid before.
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I didn't really know
what the deal was like
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“Oh, they're gonna…
he's gonna come and watch.”
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[Trevor] I just wanna
get over to that
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-[Trevor] where that shovel is.
- [Jeff] And then
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[Jeff] I see him talking
to some people
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and I'm like,
“Oh no, he's competing”
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you know like,
“Oh okay, cool.”
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Next thing I know
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I'm employed to help
push him up the hill.
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When you saw how far
he was getting pushed up
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before he was going in
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[pauses] it was like,
“Oh he’s really going in.”
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-[people cheering]
-[Jess] Before the competition
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Trevor and I hopped
on the phone and he said, "Jess
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I am going to send it
off the nose of Corbet's."
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[sighs] And I was like
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"Right, how far
do you plan on going?"
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And he was like,
"At least 100 feet."
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And I was like
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[inhales sharply] "Okay."
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You know?
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You know
what might be helpful too
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is if I give you a little push.
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[Jess] As an athlete I was like
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[whispering] “That would be
so freaking rad.”
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Like, “let's do this.”
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As the event organizer,
I was like okay
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what happens if things go wrong?
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It can go
terribly wrong for anyone.
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[intense music plays]
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[Travis] People have broken
their back in Corbet’s Couloir
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just from cartwheeling
down the mountain.
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[Jess] I was really,
really nervous.
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He did just have
a huge spinal cord injury.
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Was I gonna allow him
into the competition
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to watch him die doing this?
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[wind howls]
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[Travis] At that point,
I had my own personal doubts.
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I decided to go up
and talk to him
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kind of wanting to give
my own assessment of like
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should I try to talk this guy
out of this right now?
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[Travis] And I said,
“This thing’s pretty gnarly
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do you got this?”
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He looked me
straight in the eyes
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without any hesitation
and he said, I got this."
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“Alright. How can I help?”
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[Travis chuckles]
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[Trevor] Hey Travis?
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That’s the one I’m gonna hit.
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-[Travis] This one?
-[Trevor] Yep.
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[Travis] I can help you
line up speed.
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[Trevor] Okay cool. Thank you.
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[Travis] When you take speed
into Corbet's Couloir
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it's totally blind.
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[Jeff] He can't see
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what Travis and some
of the other athletes could see
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because he's
in this recumbent position.
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[Travis] I mean
the trick is like
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you know you come in and
you’re kinda looking out at the
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-[Travis] that mountain.
-[Trevor] Okay.
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[Trevor] So I want
to land like right there
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-[Trevor] you know what I mean?
-[Travis] Yeah.
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[Travis] Here let me,
let me give you a full…
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[Travis] If you watch any
of the skiers or snowboarders
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milling about prior
to their runs
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you'll see everybody
walk up to the lip
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and walk back.
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Walk up to the lip
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look down
at the landing, walk back.
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‘Cause you don’t want
to be surprised
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by that view in the air.
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[Travis] I’m gonna,
I’ll give you speed
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I’ll make sure you don’t go over
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but it’s nicer to have speed.
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[woman] Yeah Trevor.
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[Jeff] Travis would push him
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and then stop him
right at the very end.
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The whole thing kind of was
unseemly you know?
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[Wade] As I was watching
Trevor do the practice inrun
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[chuckles] I just started
getting more and more nervous.
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‘Cause it was obvious
he was gonna hit it
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straight on, full bore.
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[Travis] That was it,
the stage was set.
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He was about to air into this.
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[Trevor yelling]
Three, two, one, dropping!
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[Travis] Pointed his
ski downhill.
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[exhales] I remember
thinking he was slow.
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[people cheering]
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[Trevor gasps]
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[Travis] I think
it was a good call.
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-[Travis] I agree.
-[Trevor] Way more speed.
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[Trevor] Yeah I just need
more speed than that.
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-[Trevor chuckles]
-[Jeff] Right on, cool.
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[Jeff] It kind of brought the
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collective anxiety
of everybody back in again.
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Oh shit, okay. Okay.
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No he's gonna do it,
it's gonna be fine right?
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Okay, maybe. Maybe.
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[Travis] You know
we brought him back up
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to a starting spot
that was even higher.
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Probably higher
than anyone went.
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I remember
saying something like
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"Trevor, are you sure that
you really want to do this?”
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[Travis] You know
nine times out of ten
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if someone doesn’t believe
that they’re gonna land it
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they're not gonna land it.
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[Travis] And then um…
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you sure
you want to send that thing?
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[Trevor] Yeah.
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[Travis] You know,
it was like a genuine place of
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I need to do this.
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[orchestral music playing]
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[Jess] It is dead silent.
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I am down there with the
Vice President of Operations
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and our
Risk and Safety Director.
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And I'm nervous.
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They're all looking
at the easiest way
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and I’m thinking, “Nope
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he is gonna go
right off the nose.”
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-[Travis] What do you think?
-[Trevor] Uh…
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[Travis] Can't remember exactly
what I said
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but I think
it was something like
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you know,
"Have fun” and
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maybe, “See you
on the other side."
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[Travis] It actually was like,
see you on the other side
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of this paradigm shifting thing
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that you're about to do.
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[sighs] So you know he reset.
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Called the drop.
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[Trevor yelling]
Three, two, one, dropping!
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[Travis] The rest
is kind of history.
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[crowd gasps]
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-[crowd cheers]
-[man] Oh my god.
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[man yelling] Yeah!
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That was insane.
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[Jess yelling] Yeah buddy!
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[Trevor laughing] Yeah!
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-[man] That was insane.
-[Trevor] Wow!
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[Jess] God
everyone wanted to just
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touch him, you know.
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Just to have a piece
of the magic that just happened.
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[Trevor laughing]
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Well refresh my
memory ‘cause um…
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Was he the one
that first rode it?
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You know I guess
over time people forget.
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There's so much lore
about Corbet's Couloir
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within the
Jackson Hole community.
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But I don't know a ton
about Barry Corbet.
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I grew up riding
on Jackson Hole Mountain Resort
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but no, I don't know
what happened to Barry.
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Well you want the real story
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or you want the story
that we spun?
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[man chuckles]
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[acoustic guitar plays]
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[Roger] Jackson Hole was
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we thought Vail was great
until we saw Jackson Hole.
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[chuckles] It just
was a beautiful, charming place.
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[woman] I met Barry
in August 1959.
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When I first met Barry,
he was teaching skiing
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on the town hill in the winter.
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[Muffy] Paul McCollister,
who started the resort
00:12:24.660 --> 00:12:26.287
was a friend
of Barry's and mine.
00:12:28.330 --> 00:12:30.958
The day that I went up
with Paul and Barry
00:12:31.542 --> 00:12:33.919
was an absolutely
gorgeous, bright blue day
00:12:34.003 --> 00:12:35.462
and the snow was wonderful.
00:12:35.546 --> 00:12:40.009
And we looked at the
study plots and had a picnic
00:12:40.092 --> 00:12:42.761
looking up at what
became Corbet's Couloir.
00:12:44.221 --> 00:12:47.600
And Barry looked at it and said
00:12:47.683 --> 00:12:49.602
"Someday, somebody’s
going to ski that."
00:12:49.685 --> 00:12:51.729
“Someday, somebody’s
gonna ski that.”
00:12:51.812 --> 00:12:54.148
“Somebody’s gonna
actually ski that.”
00:12:54.231 --> 00:12:58.903
And ever since then it's been
known as Corbet’s Couloir.
00:13:04.617 --> 00:13:08.579
[man] I didn't know about
all his accomplishments
00:13:08.662 --> 00:13:11.248
until someone said, "Hey do you
know who you're talking to?”
00:13:12.124 --> 00:13:14.209
um I said, "Yeah Barry Corbet.”
00:13:14.710 --> 00:13:16.086
[chuckles] "Do you
know about him?"
00:13:18.756 --> 00:13:22.092
[Bob] He was this
larger than life human being.
00:13:23.510 --> 00:13:26.305
[woman] He did first ascents
on Mount McKinley
00:13:26.388 --> 00:13:27.682
he did first ascents
on the highest
00:13:27.808 --> 00:13:30.143
and second highest
peaks in Antarctica
00:13:30.226 --> 00:13:31.770
Mount Vinson, Mount Tyree.
00:13:32.353 --> 00:13:34.897
[chuckles] Among others,
shall we say.
00:13:34.980 --> 00:13:36.815
Yeah he for his time
00:13:36.899 --> 00:13:38.901
was definitely
a very badass mountaineer.
00:13:40.653 --> 00:13:43.030
[Bob] He was literally
the Camel man.
00:13:44.198 --> 00:13:45.991
[Muffy] He could never
get away from that picture
00:13:46.075 --> 00:13:47.159
I mean it’s all over the place.
00:13:47.785 --> 00:13:50.037
[chuckles] I've got one
in the bathroom here.
00:13:52.498 --> 00:13:54.124
[upbeat instrumental
music plays]
00:13:56.502 --> 00:13:58.587
[man] When I met Barry,
it was on Everest.
00:13:59.797 --> 00:14:02.007
The major goal of the expedition
00:14:02.091 --> 00:14:05.844
was to get the first American
up Everest
00:14:05.928 --> 00:14:07.972
it wasn't to climb a new route.
00:14:08.055 --> 00:14:12.476
But Barry and I
really had this similar passion
00:14:12.559 --> 00:14:15.437
to do something on the mountain
that was unknown.
00:14:16.981 --> 00:14:19.692
[Roger] Most climbers would love
to have a first ascent
00:14:20.693 --> 00:14:22.528
and the West Ridge
was just that.
00:14:23.696 --> 00:14:25.239
It was the biggest
mountain in the world
00:14:25.323 --> 00:14:27.575
and that particular part of it
had not been climbed.
00:14:28.951 --> 00:14:32.579
[Dr. Hornbein] At the time
of the summit bid, Barry said
00:14:32.663 --> 00:14:35.124
"I think it should be
Hornbein and Unsoeld.
00:14:35.708 --> 00:14:38.252
You guys are
just about over the hill
00:14:38.335 --> 00:14:40.129
and I'll be
coming back someday."
00:14:41.046 --> 00:14:44.466
[Roger] And Barry humped loads
up to the next camp
00:14:44.550 --> 00:14:46.719
while they moved on
and went to the summit.
00:14:48.345 --> 00:14:50.139
It was the first ascent
of the West Ridge.
00:14:50.514 --> 00:14:51.765
[audience clapping]
00:14:51.849 --> 00:14:53.600
[President Kennedy] I want to
on behalf of all the
00:14:53.684 --> 00:14:55.769
[cameras click] people of the
United States to express our
00:14:56.353 --> 00:14:58.564
great appreciation
for this wonderful effort
00:14:58.647 --> 00:15:00.441
by our fellow citizens.
00:15:00.524 --> 00:15:02.068
We’re very proud to welcome
00:15:02.068 --> 00:15:03.904
these men here
to the White House.
00:15:05.821 --> 00:15:07.198
[Roger] He was
a very creative guy
00:15:07.866 --> 00:15:10.243
and climbing around the rocks
was his passion but
00:15:10.827 --> 00:15:11.952
he needed something more
00:15:12.911 --> 00:15:15.456
and film was
that something more.
00:15:17.583 --> 00:15:20.836
When Barry got back from Everest
I said, “Barry look me up
00:15:20.919 --> 00:15:22.880
maybe we can
get together on some films."
00:15:23.505 --> 00:15:25.090
And we made
the first Jackson Hole film.
00:15:25.591 --> 00:15:27.551
[soft piano playing]
00:15:30.220 --> 00:15:31.597
[Bob] What got me
into freestyle skiing
00:15:31.680 --> 00:15:33.766
were these two iconic ski films
00:15:33.849 --> 00:15:36.769
Ski the Outer Limits
and The Moebius Flip.
00:15:38.520 --> 00:15:40.022
[Roger] Barry went up there
00:15:40.105 --> 00:15:43.025
and they did the first
big flips into the Couloir.
00:15:44.193 --> 00:15:46.361
And that excited
a lot of people
00:15:46.445 --> 00:15:48.781
because nobody
was even ready to ski it
00:15:48.906 --> 00:15:50.240
no less do a flip into it.
00:15:52.284 --> 00:15:53.243
It made our career.
00:15:54.036 --> 00:15:56.663
[narrator] These then
are the outer limits
00:15:57.664 --> 00:15:59.041
A flight into space.
00:16:00.292 --> 00:16:02.044
Reaching to regain his shadow.
00:16:03.462 --> 00:16:05.339
[Bob] There's poetry
in the way it's shot
00:16:05.422 --> 00:16:07.132
and what the narrator is saying.
00:16:08.634 --> 00:16:11.637
And they were doing things that
nobody in the world had seen.
00:16:13.931 --> 00:16:15.933
For a kid like me
and all over the world
00:16:16.016 --> 00:16:18.936
it just, it captured
the imagination of yes
00:16:19.019 --> 00:16:21.563
I want to do that,
I want to fly, I want to
00:16:22.147 --> 00:16:24.441
I want to ski the outer limits.
00:16:24.525 --> 00:16:27.653
[orchestral music
with choir swells]
00:16:29.488 --> 00:16:32.199
[narrator] What was
impossible yesterday
00:16:32.282 --> 00:16:34.660
is today's absolute limit.
00:16:36.161 --> 00:16:38.247
Tomorrow's common place.
00:16:48.006 --> 00:16:49.550
-[woman] Is that the guy?
-[Trevor] What’s up?
00:16:50.092 --> 00:16:50.926
[dogs barking]
00:16:52.511 --> 00:16:53.470
[woman] You got it?
00:16:58.475 --> 00:16:59.560
[woman] There's you and Ashley.
00:17:01.228 --> 00:17:02.187
With his Momma.
00:17:02.271 --> 00:17:04.064
This is a great
picture right here.
00:17:04.148 --> 00:17:06.441
-[Trevor] Me and Ash.
-[woman] There’s Trevor.
00:17:08.110 --> 00:17:09.153
[woman] With his father.
00:17:09.695 --> 00:17:11.613
-And his onesie has got--
-[Trevor] Athlete’s Corner.
00:17:11.697 --> 00:17:13.323
[woman] Athlete’s Corner
on the butt.
00:17:13.407 --> 00:17:15.534
[Trevor] Sports shop
my dad had growing up
00:17:15.617 --> 00:17:16.410
my Mom and Dad.
00:17:18.871 --> 00:17:20.914
[Trevor] And then it turned
into a skateboard shop
00:17:20.998 --> 00:17:22.583
and snowboard shop.
00:17:24.835 --> 00:17:26.170
[woman] Trevor loved
snowboarding.
00:17:27.588 --> 00:17:30.340
You would see nothing
but white teeth.
00:17:30.883 --> 00:17:32.593
in the little goggles
when he was a little kid.
00:17:32.676 --> 00:17:35.053
He wouldn't even go inside
to get something to eat.
00:17:35.137 --> 00:17:36.597
“Nope, I gotta do it again.”
00:17:38.599 --> 00:17:41.351
[woman] Growing up,
my parents were super busy
00:17:41.435 --> 00:17:45.022
running their stores,
training for marathons.
00:17:45.814 --> 00:17:47.608
So my parents
were extremely absent.
00:17:49.109 --> 00:17:51.153
[man] I was running
two businesses.
00:17:51.236 --> 00:17:53.655
12 hour days,
sometimes six days a week.
00:17:53.739 --> 00:17:56.116
Yeah it was,
it was very challenging.
00:17:56.200 --> 00:17:58.076
There was a lot
of challenging moments.
00:18:01.455 --> 00:18:02.582
[woman] When my parents
separated
00:18:02.665 --> 00:18:05.085
Trevor was about five years old.
00:18:06.543 --> 00:18:07.836
I think Trevor
00:18:07.920 --> 00:18:14.176
emotionally took the divorce
and my Mom leaving… super hard.
00:18:16.803 --> 00:18:20.182
[Ashley] From the time that
we were in third or fourth grade
00:18:20.265 --> 00:18:24.228
we moved
probably every six months.
00:18:26.897 --> 00:18:28.273
[Trevor] You know, I knew
we didn't have a lot of money
00:18:28.357 --> 00:18:31.109
so we had someone
rent the third room basically
00:18:31.193 --> 00:18:32.236
so we could get more rent.
00:18:34.696 --> 00:18:35.822
Looks pretty good though.
00:18:35.906 --> 00:18:37.407
And it looks just like
cleaned up and
00:18:37.491 --> 00:18:39.201
you know
it's decorated and shit.
00:18:39.284 --> 00:18:40.661
Looks like an
actual family lives there.
00:18:40.745 --> 00:18:41.788
[Trevor chuckles]
00:18:44.122 --> 00:18:46.166
[Trevor] I guess
all these houses we lived in
00:18:46.250 --> 00:18:47.918
it was just so like short.
00:18:49.169 --> 00:18:50.796
As a kid,
I didn't know any better
00:18:50.879 --> 00:18:54.925
I didn't know what a normal
family relationship looked like.
00:18:55.509 --> 00:18:57.970
[reflective piano plays]
00:18:58.762 --> 00:19:00.764
[man] In high school,
he'd never had
00:19:00.847 --> 00:19:02.724
a ton of support
from his family.
00:19:03.684 --> 00:19:05.143
He was our brother pretty much
00:19:05.227 --> 00:19:07.062
I mean, bouncing around
between houses
00:19:07.145 --> 00:19:09.106
um… sleeping
on couches and stuff.
00:19:09.189 --> 00:19:11.858
Weren't in any
after school clubs, so it was
00:19:11.942 --> 00:19:13.902
let's get drunk and high.
00:19:16.446 --> 00:19:18.532
[Olga] At first
I did not know that
00:19:18.615 --> 00:19:20.701
Trevor was abusing painkillers.
00:19:21.743 --> 00:19:23.662
But then he said to me, "Mom
00:19:24.454 --> 00:19:26.498
I have an issue,
I have this problem.
00:19:26.581 --> 00:19:29.251
I keep taking these pills
because I'm very depressed."
00:19:31.545 --> 00:19:33.630
[Trevor] I was just
at the time in my life
00:19:33.714 --> 00:19:35.382
I just didn't know what to do.
00:19:35.465 --> 00:19:38.260
I couldn't go to school,
I couldn’t apply to Keene State
00:19:38.343 --> 00:19:39.845
they didn’t really
want me, I could…
00:19:39.928 --> 00:19:41.264
probably do the
community college
00:19:41.347 --> 00:19:43.557
around here, but like
I didn't know what to do in life
00:19:43.640 --> 00:19:44.308
I didn't know where to live
00:19:44.433 --> 00:19:45.518
I didn’t know
what to do for work.
00:19:48.103 --> 00:19:49.438
[Max] Growing up in Keene
00:19:49.522 --> 00:19:52.483
everyone's idea
after high school was
00:19:52.566 --> 00:19:53.400
to get out of Keene.
00:19:55.319 --> 00:19:57.237
[Olga] There was
nothing here for Trevor.
00:19:58.196 --> 00:20:00.699
And that's when
Ashley went to Colorado.
00:20:01.366 --> 00:20:03.744
When he saw Ashley moving
00:20:04.286 --> 00:20:07.831
and seeing how happy Ashley was
and she’s in Colorado
00:20:07.915 --> 00:20:10.918
the mountains and snowboarding
00:20:11.002 --> 00:20:14.839
he's like… "I'm out of here."
00:20:14.922 --> 00:20:18.216
Ashley goes,
“Trevor, get a plumbing job.”
00:20:19.426 --> 00:20:22.679
[Ashley] And Trevor
came out to Colorado
00:20:22.763 --> 00:20:24.348
and was like,
“This is what I’m gonna do.
00:20:24.431 --> 00:20:25.808
I'm gonna pursue plumbing
00:20:25.850 --> 00:20:29.187
I’m gonna get
my plumbing license.”
00:20:29.269 --> 00:20:32.105
And he was shortly on his way
00:20:32.189 --> 00:20:34.024
just before his accident.
00:20:36.193 --> 00:20:38.403
[helicopter blades whir]
00:20:42.866 --> 00:20:44.159
[Roger] Barry had
finished shooting
00:20:44.242 --> 00:20:45.577
the Ski the Outer Limits film.
00:20:46.495 --> 00:20:48.622
And we had a contract
to shoot the
00:20:48.747 --> 00:20:52.876
International Ski Instructors
Association meeting in Aspen.
00:20:54.252 --> 00:20:55.545
I remember very clearly
00:20:55.629 --> 00:20:56.838
that he was going up there.
00:20:57.422 --> 00:21:00.384
And then I got very nervous,
something really bothered me.
00:21:02.511 --> 00:21:04.054
And I just stared at the phone
00:21:04.137 --> 00:21:06.181
for maybe two or three hours,
and the phone rang.
00:21:06.973 --> 00:21:08.475
There’s been
a terrible accident.
00:21:09.476 --> 00:21:10.560
It's Barry.
00:21:11.686 --> 00:21:13.021
[woman sighs]
00:21:14.481 --> 00:21:16.650
Dad never talked about
how he got hurt.
00:21:17.401 --> 00:21:19.569
My mom didn't really talk
about it either.
00:21:19.653 --> 00:21:21.947
I think those were…
pretty dark days
00:21:22.030 --> 00:21:23.657
so people didn’t
really want to revisit that.
00:21:24.825 --> 00:21:27.160
[ominous music plays]
00:21:30.372 --> 00:21:32.374
[Roger] Barry was
filming the skiers
00:21:33.125 --> 00:21:34.334
and it was
in the middle of the day
00:21:34.418 --> 00:21:36.128
so the undulation of the terrain
00:21:36.211 --> 00:21:38.338
was not completely
clear to the pilot.
00:21:39.214 --> 00:21:41.466
It's all blasted by sun.
00:21:42.509 --> 00:21:44.302
Barry had the seatbelt loose
00:21:44.386 --> 00:21:46.680
so he could turn out the
00:21:46.763 --> 00:21:48.890
to the side
of the helicopter and shoot.
00:21:50.559 --> 00:21:52.853
The helicopter pilot
clips a knoll
00:21:52.936 --> 00:21:54.312
and starts to bounce.
00:21:55.188 --> 00:21:56.523
And on one
of those bounces
00:21:56.607 --> 00:21:58.734
Barry breaks the seatbelt
00:21:58.818 --> 00:22:00.486
takes out the door,
and goes out the door.
00:22:06.992 --> 00:22:08.535
[Roger] We were all
going nuts that
00:22:08.618 --> 00:22:11.204
Barry was gonna die,
we thought surely he was dead.
00:22:13.165 --> 00:22:15.917
And they got him
into Denver to Craig Hospital.
00:22:17.961 --> 00:22:19.212
And they kept him alive.
00:22:22.257 --> 00:22:23.676
[Muffy] I did go down to see him
00:22:23.759 --> 00:22:25.386
when he was
still in the hospital.
00:22:26.428 --> 00:22:28.346
He had some
of those elbow crutches.
00:22:29.181 --> 00:22:32.058
And he asked me to bring them
when I came, so I did.
00:22:32.684 --> 00:22:35.479
And I remember a nurse
looking at them and saying
00:22:36.480 --> 00:22:38.690
“What are those doing here,
he’ll never use them.”
00:22:42.110 --> 00:22:44.988
[Dr. Hornbein] That’s when
his life as a paraplegic began.
00:22:45.489 --> 00:22:48.200
[somber string music plays]
00:23:04.966 --> 00:23:05.801
[Trevor] This is the first time
00:23:05.885 --> 00:23:07.220
I've been here
since my accident.
00:23:08.261 --> 00:23:11.097
And I was definitely scared
to come back here.
00:23:14.476 --> 00:23:16.811
This spot is super
important in my recovery.
00:23:17.562 --> 00:23:20.024
Getting closure,
you know being okay
00:23:20.107 --> 00:23:21.525
and accepting with my injury.
00:23:22.735 --> 00:23:24.694
You know
I lost everything up here.
00:23:28.657 --> 00:23:30.534
Being back here
is something I need to do
00:23:31.326 --> 00:23:33.745
to move forward to accomplish
a lot of my goals
00:23:33.828 --> 00:23:37.082
and one of those goals is
skiing here at Vail Pass.
00:23:38.833 --> 00:23:41.169
[dark music playing]
00:23:41.753 --> 00:23:43.547
[wind howls]
00:23:44.631 --> 00:23:47.008
[truck engine rumbles]
00:23:54.182 --> 00:23:56.643
[piano plays softly]
00:23:59.187 --> 00:24:00.689
[man] So the day that
Trevor got hurt
00:24:01.898 --> 00:24:03.024
my brother, Trevor, and I
00:24:03.108 --> 00:24:04.401
decided to go up to Vail Pass.
00:24:05.443 --> 00:24:08.363
So we got to the parking lot,
got our gear out
00:24:08.446 --> 00:24:11.616
and started hiking up
next to the snowmobile track.
00:24:12.117 --> 00:24:14.411
And hiked up
about 100, 150 yards.
00:24:15.620 --> 00:24:17.956
And we saw a guy coming down
on a snowmobile that
00:24:18.039 --> 00:24:20.584
stopped and let us know that
there was a jump up further.
00:24:27.007 --> 00:24:30.510
When we got to the jump,
it wasn’t anything too crazy.
00:24:31.803 --> 00:24:32.805
I wasn't really worried about
00:24:32.888 --> 00:24:34.848
any of us
hitting that size jump.
00:24:36.600 --> 00:24:39.269
I hit it first, then my brother
00:24:40.145 --> 00:24:41.313
and Trevor hit it last.
00:24:42.480 --> 00:24:44.149
End of the day, it's dark.
00:24:44.983 --> 00:24:46.276
[Trevor] And I drop in
00:24:47.360 --> 00:24:48.903
and come down this cat track.
00:24:49.487 --> 00:24:51.197
And I saw him,
as soon as he took off the lip
00:24:51.281 --> 00:24:53.325
he just kind of
went off a weird angle.
00:24:53.408 --> 00:24:55.577
And I was flying
through the air like a superman.
00:24:56.077 --> 00:24:57.495
And I didn't want
to land on my neck
00:24:57.579 --> 00:25:00.248
so I tucked my neck,
landed on my back
00:25:00.332 --> 00:25:02.334
my board and boots
compressed like a taco
00:25:02.834 --> 00:25:05.086
and I just heard
a loud, loud pop.
00:25:06.504 --> 00:25:07.672
[man] A person called me
00:25:08.381 --> 00:25:11.176
um… and I was doing a car deal.
00:25:11.259 --> 00:25:13.220
I was in the middle
of negotiating
00:25:13.304 --> 00:25:15.055
so I would never
answer my phone.
00:25:16.556 --> 00:25:17.766
[pauses] I happened
to answer it.
00:25:18.391 --> 00:25:21.353
"Trevor’s hurt,
he can’t feel his toes."
00:25:22.979 --> 00:25:26.524
I said, "Put Trevor
on the phone."
00:25:27.233 --> 00:25:29.235
“Trevor get your ass up.
00:25:30.945 --> 00:25:32.364
Don't be faking this shit.”
00:25:34.366 --> 00:25:37.994
Um… he said,
"Dad I can’t move my toes."
00:25:39.037 --> 00:25:40.497
[Ernie sniffling]
00:25:46.419 --> 00:25:47.879
[Trevor] I just remember
laying there.
00:25:49.547 --> 00:25:51.007
[pauses] You know thinking about
00:25:51.091 --> 00:25:53.719
my girlfriend, my sister
00:25:53.844 --> 00:25:55.804
telling my parents,
telling my boss
00:25:55.929 --> 00:25:57.973
not being a plumber anymore
00:25:58.057 --> 00:25:59.559
not doing the things
I love anymore.
00:26:01.017 --> 00:26:03.728
And I looked at my feet,
and it was just like
00:26:03.812 --> 00:26:04.979
I knew right away.
00:26:05.063 --> 00:26:06.856
[wind blowing]
00:26:10.193 --> 00:26:11.319
[Miguel] We call
Search and Rescue.
00:26:11.403 --> 00:26:13.405
They said that
they're gonna send a team up
00:26:13.488 --> 00:26:14.615
but since the storm was
00:26:14.699 --> 00:26:16.367
hitting pretty hard
at that point
00:26:16.491 --> 00:26:18.743
they said it was gonna take
at least an hour
00:26:18.827 --> 00:26:20.537
and then one of us
needed to go down and meet them.
00:26:21.121 --> 00:26:22.747
[snowplow rumbles]
00:26:24.332 --> 00:26:26.668
[Trevor] My adrenaline
started to wear off and
00:26:26.751 --> 00:26:28.712
my back was killing me.
00:26:32.716 --> 00:26:34.217
[Trevor] Time was
just going slow.
00:26:35.344 --> 00:26:38.264
I was scared no one
was gonna find me
00:26:38.347 --> 00:26:40.015
I was scared
I was gonna freeze to death.
00:26:41.141 --> 00:26:42.308
No one was coming for me.
00:26:43.768 --> 00:26:46.980
From when he crashed to when
Search and Rescue was on scene
00:26:47.063 --> 00:26:49.232
was roughly
two and a half, three hours.
00:26:51.109 --> 00:26:53.528
The search party
was on just snowshoes.
00:26:57.031 --> 00:26:59.033
My brother called me twice.
00:26:59.117 --> 00:26:59.993
“Trevor’s really cold
00:27:00.077 --> 00:27:01.412
he’s in pain."
I’m like, “We’re coming.
00:27:01.536 --> 00:27:03.496
I'm not gonna leave you guys,
like we're coming."
00:27:04.706 --> 00:27:06.207
[Trevor] I remember
thinking to myself
00:27:06.291 --> 00:27:07.917
just don't close
your eyes Trevor.
00:27:09.210 --> 00:27:10.253
Don't close your eyes.
00:27:10.962 --> 00:27:12.213
Because I feel like if I did
00:27:12.297 --> 00:27:13.923
I didn't think
I was gonna wake up.
00:27:26.311 --> 00:27:27.145
[narrator] Listen.
00:27:29.230 --> 00:27:31.107
Something hard
has happened to us both.
00:27:32.734 --> 00:27:34.027
And neither of us likes it.
00:27:34.694 --> 00:27:36.321
[ambulance engine running]
00:27:36.821 --> 00:27:38.323
[narrator] Despite the
inexplicable fact
00:27:38.406 --> 00:27:39.741
that you’ll encounter lots of us
00:27:41.117 --> 00:27:43.661
who say our lives have been
improved by our accidents.
00:27:45.121 --> 00:27:46.539
-[buckle clips shut]
-[narrator] Strange.
00:27:49.709 --> 00:27:50.543
Still and all
00:27:51.503 --> 00:27:52.879
I don't think it takes
much heavy thought
00:27:52.962 --> 00:27:54.798
for anyone who's
broken a back or neck
00:27:55.965 --> 00:27:58.134
to realize that
big changes are coming.
00:28:01.221 --> 00:28:03.389
And that nobody
is giving anybody
00:28:03.473 --> 00:28:04.641
much choice in the matter.
00:28:13.107 --> 00:28:16.820
[Ashley] I had a friend
drive me to the hospital.
00:28:17.779 --> 00:28:19.447
When I got there,
we were waiting
00:28:19.948 --> 00:28:21.825
and I asked the receptionist
00:28:21.908 --> 00:28:23.576
I was like,
“Hey you know
00:28:24.577 --> 00:28:27.038
there's this kid coming in
from Vail Pass
00:28:27.121 --> 00:28:28.873
do you know what the ETA is?”
00:28:30.583 --> 00:28:33.962
[sighs] And she said,
"Oh well it's a code whatever
00:28:34.045 --> 00:28:35.588
it's pretty serious.
00:28:35.672 --> 00:28:38.466
They're probably gonna be here
in about an hour and a half."
00:28:39.259 --> 00:28:42.470
And I said,
"Okay, well I'll just wait.
00:28:42.971 --> 00:28:44.722
Can you just let me know
when he gets here?”
00:28:46.391 --> 00:28:51.271
And I remember…
when he got there
00:28:52.480 --> 00:28:54.357
I saw him and
00:28:56.067 --> 00:28:59.904
he grabbed my hand
and I looked at the X-ray.
00:29:00.530 --> 00:29:02.073
[voice breaks] And he said,
"It's gonna be okay.
00:29:02.156 --> 00:29:05.827
Everything is gonna
be okay, I love you.”
00:29:09.205 --> 00:29:10.415
[Trevor sniffles]
00:29:12.458 --> 00:29:14.919
I don't remember
saying that to my sister
00:29:15.003 --> 00:29:16.546
or grabbing her hand
and looking at her
00:29:16.629 --> 00:29:18.131
and saying,
"It's gonna be okay."
00:29:19.549 --> 00:29:20.925
But it made me tear up
00:29:21.009 --> 00:29:23.011
you know hearing that now,
and it you know
00:29:23.511 --> 00:29:25.096
I'm just showing her every day
00:29:25.179 --> 00:29:27.724
that it’s gonna be okay,
and my family
00:29:28.975 --> 00:29:30.603
[sniffles] and people
that love me or
00:29:30.686 --> 00:29:31.604
close ones around me.
00:29:32.395 --> 00:29:34.147
You know it sucks
what happened to me but
00:29:34.231 --> 00:29:35.399
it’s gonna be okay.
00:29:36.024 --> 00:29:38.443
And I just feel like
I keep proving that every day.
00:29:48.703 --> 00:29:50.747
[sighs deeply]
00:29:52.498 --> 00:29:55.001
[solemn orchestral music plays]
00:29:59.339 --> 00:30:01.174
[Olga] To see Trevor
in the hospital
00:30:02.050 --> 00:30:04.385
[voice breaks] laying there
was a really difficult thing.
00:30:06.220 --> 00:30:08.932
It was just hard for me
to see my boy broken.
00:30:11.351 --> 00:30:14.854
As a parent, you never want
any of this stuff
00:30:14.938 --> 00:30:16.189
to happen to your children.
00:30:17.273 --> 00:30:21.486
And I was afraid and fearful of
what his future would be like.
00:30:26.032 --> 00:30:29.285
[Trevor] I shattered
T11, T12 of my vertebrae
00:30:29.369 --> 00:30:31.704
I punctured my spinal cord,
and dislocated my back
00:30:31.788 --> 00:30:33.414
90 degrees into my stomach.
00:30:35.458 --> 00:30:38.503
I got two 12 inch rods
and 12 screws in my back.
00:30:40.213 --> 00:30:43.216
And they basically told me,
"There's no way.
00:30:44.342 --> 00:30:45.927
There’s no way you’re even
00:30:46.010 --> 00:30:47.804
gonna move again,
walk again
00:30:47.887 --> 00:30:48.805
anything like that.”
00:30:52.433 --> 00:30:53.352
[Dr. Butt] At Craig
00:30:53.435 --> 00:30:56.146
the most common question
for people is
00:30:58.314 --> 00:31:00.233
“Am I going
to completely recover?”
00:31:00.316 --> 00:31:03.111
There are people who come
into the facility
00:31:03.653 --> 00:31:06.280
who feel truly
that their lives are over.
00:31:11.244 --> 00:31:12.870
[Trevor] Alright toesies move.
00:31:14.080 --> 00:31:14.914
Move.
00:31:16.666 --> 00:31:17.834
Come on, move toes.
00:31:19.043 --> 00:31:20.003
Come on, move toes.
00:31:20.586 --> 00:31:22.171
Move toes.
00:31:24.048 --> 00:31:25.049
Move toes!
00:31:26.843 --> 00:31:28.720
Come on big toes,
you got this.
00:31:30.805 --> 00:31:31.932
[Dr. Butt] This is
a family affair.
00:31:32.974 --> 00:31:34.351
And the research is very clear
00:31:35.018 --> 00:31:37.020
that people
with better support system
00:31:38.229 --> 00:31:40.314
tighter families,
have better outcomes.
00:31:41.566 --> 00:31:43.818
[sighs] We were a little distant
at that point in time.
00:31:44.318 --> 00:31:49.032
And I think…
maybe I put up a wall, I was
00:31:49.115 --> 00:31:52.410
I withdrew
when I was around him.
00:31:54.078 --> 00:31:58.791
[Ashley] My Mom, she struggled
to watch Trevor in his PT.
00:31:59.667 --> 00:32:01.419
She was just like,
“I can't be here”
00:32:01.502 --> 00:32:03.087
and like would get up
and walk away.
00:32:04.672 --> 00:32:07.592
I think that
really took a toll on Trevor.
00:32:09.594 --> 00:32:12.430
[man] When you're inside
recovery or a rehab facility
00:32:12.513 --> 00:32:13.806
every single day matters.
00:32:14.390 --> 00:32:18.186
At Craig, you’ve got
nearly 100 people
00:32:18.269 --> 00:32:22.023
with very similar injuries that
all have different outcomes.
00:32:22.106 --> 00:32:25.026
But you're all
fighting together
00:32:25.109 --> 00:32:26.569
to have the best outcome
for each other.
00:32:28.696 --> 00:32:30.699
[Trevor] You have six months
to two years
00:32:30.783 --> 00:32:31.825
to get nerve return.
00:32:32.784 --> 00:32:34.911
And our whole goal
was for me to walk.
00:32:35.995 --> 00:32:37.246
[Trevor straining]
Come on, come on baby.
00:32:37.955 --> 00:32:40.083
[Trevor groaning]
00:32:45.755 --> 00:32:47.006
[Trevor exhales]
00:32:48.216 --> 00:32:49.217
One day at a time.
00:32:49.300 --> 00:32:51.344
[driving instrumental
music playing]
00:32:53.387 --> 00:32:55.181
[Ashley] I think that
was the first time I had
00:32:55.264 --> 00:32:58.851
genuinely seen Trevor
motivated to do anything.
00:33:00.353 --> 00:33:02.188
He was looking for new ways
00:33:02.271 --> 00:33:03.981
to challenge himself
every single day.
00:33:04.982 --> 00:33:07.026
[Trevor struggles]
00:33:08.569 --> 00:33:10.613
Yeah there's the left leg, see?
00:33:11.197 --> 00:33:12.281
Now I can lift it too.
00:33:12.824 --> 00:33:13.950
Ready, right leg.
00:33:14.033 --> 00:33:15.993
[Trevor groans]
00:33:17.787 --> 00:33:20.081
That's as far as I can get it,
but left leg's pretty good.
00:33:20.623 --> 00:33:21.457
Cut it.
00:33:23.709 --> 00:33:25.419
[Trevor] I took all these
things that I learned
00:33:25.503 --> 00:33:27.088
playing sports as a kid,
it was like
00:33:27.171 --> 00:33:29.715
alright, how can I
make this a game?
00:33:29.799 --> 00:33:31.634
[people working out]
00:33:32.385 --> 00:33:33.637
[Dr. Butt] I remember
meeting Trevor
00:33:33.720 --> 00:33:35.764
for the first time
at Craig Hospital.
00:33:36.722 --> 00:33:38.516
Therapists would come
to me and say
00:33:39.183 --> 00:33:40.893
"This guy's going in fifth gear.
00:33:40.977 --> 00:33:43.813
It's premature,
he needs to be in second gear.
00:33:43.896 --> 00:33:46.524
And how do we slow him down?”
00:33:46.607 --> 00:33:49.569
[machine whirring]
00:33:54.699 --> 00:33:55.616
[Trevor] What’s up camera.
00:33:55.700 --> 00:33:56.701
[woman chuckles]
00:33:56.784 --> 00:33:58.870
[therapist] Walking
into the sunshine.
00:33:58.953 --> 00:34:00.454
[Roy] One of the biggest
things that happen
00:34:00.538 --> 00:34:01.998
with a spinal cord injury
00:34:02.081 --> 00:34:05.001
is that first goal people
set is, “I want to walk.”
00:34:06.335 --> 00:34:08.045
And yeah, we all want to walk.
00:34:09.213 --> 00:34:13.509
But recovery has to be built
on smaller goals.
00:34:14.802 --> 00:34:16.680
What happens if
that's your only goal
00:34:16.763 --> 00:34:19.016
and it doesn’t… come true?
00:34:24.729 --> 00:34:26.105
[narrator] It's only fair
to warn you
00:34:26.856 --> 00:34:27.857
that many of us have found
00:34:27.940 --> 00:34:29.942
the first weeks or months
after the escape
00:34:30.443 --> 00:34:32.029
to be the most
difficult ones of all.
00:34:33.572 --> 00:34:34.573
Hard times.
00:34:36.657 --> 00:34:37.533
While the institution
00:34:37.617 --> 00:34:40.077
was toilet training you,
and teaching you mobility
00:34:41.037 --> 00:34:43.039
it was also becoming
your sheltering mother
00:34:43.873 --> 00:34:46.001
who loved you
in spite of your flaws
00:34:46.752 --> 00:34:48.879
real or imagined.
00:34:51.255 --> 00:34:53.633
That comfortable shelter
can be difficult to abandon
00:34:54.133 --> 00:34:57.220
for the ragged,
jagged edges of real life.
00:34:59.430 --> 00:35:03.100
Ask yourself whether
you want to live or die.
00:35:04.810 --> 00:35:07.396
Many folks
with spinal cord injuries
00:35:07.480 --> 00:35:09.941
have told me that
they once contemplated suicide.
00:35:10.650 --> 00:35:12.735
Usually soon
after their accidents.
00:35:14.528 --> 00:35:17.949
They were all of course…
still alive when I met them.
00:35:20.576 --> 00:35:23.996
[Ashley] A month
after Trevor left Craig Hospital
00:35:24.080 --> 00:35:26.791
he hit a pretty low point.
00:35:29.085 --> 00:35:31.879
My Mom told me that Trevor
00:35:31.963 --> 00:35:35.883
drove the car
off the road on purpose and
00:35:36.968 --> 00:35:38.386
she was really concerned.
00:35:40.721 --> 00:35:43.307
For a little while, I was
very nervous for his future.
00:35:45.184 --> 00:35:50.856
because I knew he would be
needing… pain medication.
00:35:52.358 --> 00:35:54.235
I was very worried
that he would just
00:35:54.318 --> 00:35:57.655
fall back into
using prescription drugs.
00:35:59.365 --> 00:36:01.075
[Trevor] The pills
definitely numbed me to
00:36:01.742 --> 00:36:02.994
just like a lot of life.
00:36:03.619 --> 00:36:05.705
I was just trying to forget
00:36:05.788 --> 00:36:07.873
all the stuff
I used to be able to do.
00:36:09.000 --> 00:36:12.253
And once I started using drugs,
and partying and
00:36:12.753 --> 00:36:14.130
you know I just felt numb.
00:36:16.382 --> 00:36:18.384
I didn't care
about anything anymore.
00:36:20.636 --> 00:36:22.972
[Ashley] We were
genuinely concerned about him.
00:36:24.015 --> 00:36:27.727
I was no longer in the picture,
my parents had gone back home.
00:36:29.020 --> 00:36:30.313
He had no one else.
00:36:33.899 --> 00:36:36.110
[Trevor] I ended up moving
back to Max's house
00:36:36.986 --> 00:36:39.405
and lived on his couch
for a couple months.
00:36:40.656 --> 00:36:44.869
[Max] This house was not meant
for somebody with a disability
00:36:44.952 --> 00:36:47.580
especially one that
involves a wheelchair.
00:36:48.789 --> 00:36:50.791
[Trevor] The only bathroom was
on the second floor.
00:36:52.084 --> 00:36:54.128
Every other day
I would climb the stairs
00:36:54.795 --> 00:36:57.048
scooting up one step
at a time on my butt
00:36:58.132 --> 00:36:59.258
just so I can
go to the bathroom.
00:37:00.843 --> 00:37:02.887
I was definitely not
in a good state.
00:37:02.970 --> 00:37:05.931
I think I was at my lowest,
lowest point there.
00:37:07.767 --> 00:37:10.644
[Max] It was probably the
toughest time mentally for him.
00:37:11.562 --> 00:37:13.314
Right out he’s like,
"Dude, I'm gonna walk again."
00:37:13.397 --> 00:37:16.650
When in reality that
just wasn’t his situation.
00:37:17.151 --> 00:37:19.904
He could put in
as much work as he wanted to
00:37:19.987 --> 00:37:22.156
towards the goal
of walking again and
00:37:22.824 --> 00:37:24.159
that wasn't necessarily
gonna happen
00:37:24.243 --> 00:37:25.410
no matter how hard he tried.
00:37:26.994 --> 00:37:28.580
Reality would set in and he just
00:37:28.663 --> 00:37:30.290
wasn’t adjusted to it yet.
00:37:32.124 --> 00:37:33.834
[Ernie] How are you
gonna support yourself?
00:37:33.918 --> 00:37:35.419
Where were you gonna live?
00:37:36.504 --> 00:37:38.297
I mean his plumbing thing
was going great
00:37:38.798 --> 00:37:42.510
but after this accident, you’re
not gonna go be a plumber.
00:37:43.094 --> 00:37:44.095
So what are you gonna do?
00:37:45.763 --> 00:37:48.474
That was a big concern
of mine. Huge.
00:37:54.438 --> 00:37:56.774
Not good. Not good at all.
00:37:56.857 --> 00:37:59.944
[acoustic guitar plays]
00:38:09.912 --> 00:38:12.081
[Dr. Hornbein] It wasn't
an easy beginning.
00:38:12.665 --> 00:38:14.875
There were some
rocky times that Barry
00:38:14.959 --> 00:38:16.335
was trying
to get his shit together.
00:38:18.254 --> 00:38:20.506
[Roger] He couldn't ski,
he couldn't climb.
00:38:21.006 --> 00:38:22.758
He couldn't do anything.
00:38:23.926 --> 00:38:26.387
So here he is stripped
of the core of his life.
00:38:27.888 --> 00:38:29.181
[Dr. Butt] In the ‘60s
00:38:29.265 --> 00:38:32.017
there were disincentives to be
in the community.
00:38:32.643 --> 00:38:34.937
People felt truly
that life is over.
00:38:37.273 --> 00:38:39.066
A trauma is a change.
00:38:39.775 --> 00:38:41.235
Life is change.
00:38:42.570 --> 00:38:45.698
And if you don't evolve
with that change
00:38:45.781 --> 00:38:50.327
you remain stagnant… and static.
00:38:50.411 --> 00:38:51.412
And that was not Barry.
00:38:51.495 --> 00:38:54.874
Barry was the
epitome of fluidity.
00:38:57.460 --> 00:38:58.752
[Jennifer] Dad was
amazing that way.
00:38:59.295 --> 00:39:01.589
He would come
into the fire and come out
00:39:01.672 --> 00:39:02.882
forged in whole new ways.
00:39:02.965 --> 00:39:05.342
He always found
a way to find strength
00:39:05.926 --> 00:39:09.555
and find a way to cope
with changing circumstances.
00:39:12.600 --> 00:39:16.020
In 1980, my Dad
published a book called Options.
00:39:17.771 --> 00:39:20.065
He decided to interview people
all over the country
00:39:20.149 --> 00:39:21.484
who had spinal cord injury.
00:39:21.984 --> 00:39:23.819
And so the book brought together
00:39:24.528 --> 00:39:26.197
the stories
of all of these people
00:39:26.280 --> 00:39:27.865
interlaced with his own stories.
00:39:31.744 --> 00:39:34.079
[Dr. Butt] In my
interactions with patients
00:39:34.163 --> 00:39:36.415
I would give them this book.
00:39:37.124 --> 00:39:41.378
And I'd say, “When you've read
a few of the narratives
00:39:41.462 --> 00:39:42.922
let’s get together and talk.
00:39:43.589 --> 00:39:46.926
Let’s see how this
helps you re-envision
00:39:47.510 --> 00:39:49.553
who you are
and where you're going.”
00:39:50.471 --> 00:39:53.140
[Bob] He essentially
wrote the book
00:39:53.224 --> 00:39:57.520
on living and thriving
with a spinal cord injury.
00:39:58.938 --> 00:40:00.773
It had a huge effect on people.
00:40:01.649 --> 00:40:03.360
[Dr. Butt] It really
is foundational
00:40:03.443 --> 00:40:05.028
in terms of the beginning
00:40:05.152 --> 00:40:07.738
of people
writing about disability
00:40:07.821 --> 00:40:13.536
and what it's like to live
and thrive with spinal injury.
00:40:16.705 --> 00:40:18.457
[Jennifer] In tandem
with Options
00:40:18.582 --> 00:40:20.834
he created two companion films
00:40:21.335 --> 00:40:23.170
Changes and Outside.
00:40:23.712 --> 00:40:24.588
[Barry] In this film
00:40:24.713 --> 00:40:25.631
I wanted to show
new cord injuries
00:40:25.714 --> 00:40:27.091
how old cord injuries live.
00:40:27.591 --> 00:40:29.928
Three years,
five, ten, twenty
00:40:30.010 --> 00:40:32.388
as much as 35 years
after their accidents.
00:40:32.930 --> 00:40:34.848
I wanted to visit people
all over this country.
00:40:35.349 --> 00:40:36.684
People with injuries like mine
00:40:37.142 --> 00:40:38.352
and much worse than mine
00:40:38.852 --> 00:40:40.312
and see what
their lives were like.
00:40:41.480 --> 00:40:42.648
So a journey was begun.
00:40:43.440 --> 00:40:45.693
A journey in search
of spinal cord injured America.
00:40:48.445 --> 00:40:50.698
[orchestral music plays]
00:40:55.327 --> 00:40:56.954
[Jennifer] He had
so many people that
00:40:57.037 --> 00:40:58.457
had done incredible things
00:40:58.540 --> 00:41:00.542
despite their
spinal cord injury.
00:41:01.625 --> 00:41:03.669
[Dr. Butt] The communality
was that
00:41:03.752 --> 00:41:08.090
every single person to have
a creative, meaningful life
00:41:08.173 --> 00:41:10.426
had to reinvent
themselves in some way.
00:41:14.263 --> 00:41:17.474
I like to think that
before I was paralyzed
00:41:17.558 --> 00:41:19.059
there were
10,000 things I could do.
00:41:19.643 --> 00:41:21.478
And now there's 9,000.
00:41:22.104 --> 00:41:25.357
So I can either dwell
on the 1,000 that I've lost
00:41:25.441 --> 00:41:27.526
or I can concentrate
on the 9,000 that's left.
00:41:27.610 --> 00:41:30.404
And of course the joke is that
none of us in our lifetime
00:41:30.487 --> 00:41:31.655
are gonna do more than
two or three thousand
00:41:31.739 --> 00:41:33.365
of those things
in any event.
00:41:39.246 --> 00:41:40.080
[narrator] I don't
want to tell you
00:41:40.164 --> 00:41:41.540
that life will become easier
00:41:43.375 --> 00:41:44.627
or the choices simpler
00:41:46.712 --> 00:41:49.506
or that spinal cord injury is
in any way beneficial
00:41:50.257 --> 00:41:52.176
to one’s mental
and physical health.
00:41:53.927 --> 00:41:56.096
Because those things
aren't true.
00:41:58.307 --> 00:41:59.767
I do want to tell you
00:41:59.850 --> 00:42:01.977
that this
monumental inconvenience
00:42:02.478 --> 00:42:03.395
can be lived through
00:42:03.937 --> 00:42:07.274
lived with,
loved with, laughed with
00:42:07.358 --> 00:42:10.402
surmounted, shared, transcended
00:42:10.944 --> 00:42:13.697
and that you have not
been deprived of choice.
00:42:15.240 --> 00:42:16.867
You do have a lot of options.
00:42:18.744 --> 00:42:21.038
You can be okay
if you choose to be okay.
00:42:22.790 --> 00:42:27.836
The future, however
unfathomable… is yours.
00:42:31.423 --> 00:42:34.510
I have heard, I can't tell
you how many people
00:42:34.593 --> 00:42:37.554
that have said,
“The spinal cord injury
00:42:37.638 --> 00:42:38.722
was my epiphany.
00:42:40.516 --> 00:42:44.061
It was my start
to reprioritize my life.
00:42:45.729 --> 00:42:46.605
Who am I?
00:42:47.940 --> 00:42:48.774
Who am I now?”
00:42:51.193 --> 00:42:53.237
[woman] I was
Trevor's first ski instructor
00:42:53.320 --> 00:42:55.364
at the Adaptive Sports Center
in Crested Butte
00:42:55.447 --> 00:42:59.034
when he came with
Craig Hospital in February 2016.
00:43:00.994 --> 00:43:03.288
Trevor's stoke
and lack of fear
00:43:03.372 --> 00:43:07.126
stood out above anyone else
I’ve ever taught before.
00:43:08.502 --> 00:43:10.170
He had goals
before I even knew his name.
00:43:11.797 --> 00:43:13.924
The first day,
Trevor was talking about
00:43:14.007 --> 00:43:17.094
sit skiing in the backcountry
on Vail Pass
00:43:17.678 --> 00:43:20.097
catching air,
jumping cliffs.
00:43:20.848 --> 00:43:22.433
“Where can we go jump this?” and
00:43:22.933 --> 00:43:24.268
“What about that box
over there?”
00:43:25.853 --> 00:43:28.981
We don't typically allow people
to do any kind of jumping
00:43:29.064 --> 00:43:31.525
but you know
every chance I looked away
00:43:31.608 --> 00:43:34.111
there he was,
jumping something off the side.
00:43:36.071 --> 00:43:37.239
[Trevor] That trip
changed my life.
00:43:37.990 --> 00:43:39.283
It’s just like, “Oh boy”
00:43:39.366 --> 00:43:40.200
you know you get excited.
00:43:40.284 --> 00:43:41.660
You're like,
“Alright well what's next?”
00:43:42.244 --> 00:43:44.121
And you're just like,
“Oh, can I do that?”
00:43:46.039 --> 00:43:49.752
[Ashley] He was stoked,
and that was the first time
00:43:49.835 --> 00:43:52.045
I'd actually seen
him happy in a while.
00:43:53.630 --> 00:43:56.091
[Trevor] Well since I got hurt
snowboarding on the mountain
00:43:56.175 --> 00:43:59.845
about a year and three months
ago on the top of Vail Pass
00:44:01.263 --> 00:44:04.099
I sat there for three and a half
hours in a blizzard at--
00:44:04.183 --> 00:44:06.143
from 4 to 7:30 at night so
00:44:06.685 --> 00:44:08.187
I never really thought I could
00:44:08.270 --> 00:44:09.730
be back where I am today.
00:44:10.272 --> 00:44:13.650
And so what this means
getting back on the mountain is
00:44:13.734 --> 00:44:16.445
there's no words that can
actually describe the feeling.
00:44:17.946 --> 00:44:19.198
This will be
a huge part of my life
00:44:19.282 --> 00:44:20.241
for the rest of my life.
00:44:22.451 --> 00:44:25.329
I went on that trip
and you know I realized that
00:44:25.412 --> 00:44:28.123
I'm not gonna wait around
my whole entire life
00:44:28.207 --> 00:44:30.459
to just see if I'm gonna have
a chance to walk.
00:44:31.919 --> 00:44:34.588
I'm gonna go do
and attack other things.
00:44:37.716 --> 00:44:39.384
[Dr. Butt] Post-Traumatic Growth
00:44:39.468 --> 00:44:45.349
is the ability of a person
to experience trauma
00:44:46.433 --> 00:44:50.604
and craft it into
a positive means for themselves.
00:44:50.687 --> 00:44:52.397
How does tragedy
00:44:53.273 --> 00:44:56.652
transform itself
into opportunities?
00:45:00.864 --> 00:45:02.741
[Ashley] High Fives invited him
00:45:02.825 --> 00:45:05.786
to do a ski camp in Lake Tahoe
00:45:05.869 --> 00:45:10.624
and that's when his relationship
with Roy really blossomed.
00:45:11.917 --> 00:45:15.046
[Roy] High Fives is a
national nonprofit organization
00:45:15.128 --> 00:45:18.383
with a mission to prevent
life changing injuries
00:45:18.465 --> 00:45:20.133
and provide resources and hope
00:45:20.217 --> 00:45:21.426
if they happen
in the outdoor sports.
00:45:22.010 --> 00:45:23.345
[athletes cheering]
00:45:24.304 --> 00:45:27.349
When High Fives gives a grant,
you've gotta set goals
00:45:27.432 --> 00:45:29.768
so that we see
how our grant funding
00:45:29.852 --> 00:45:32.145
is helping you progress,
and you keep achieving
00:45:32.229 --> 00:45:33.647
a better quality of life.
00:45:37.526 --> 00:45:39.152
[Ashley] Trevor's biggest goal
00:45:39.236 --> 00:45:41.071
once he started
getting into sit skiing
00:45:41.154 --> 00:45:43.323
was to make the Paralympic team.
00:45:45.951 --> 00:45:47.119
-[man 1] Come on Trevy.
-[man 2] Let’s go.
00:45:47.661 --> 00:45:49.913
-[crowd cheering]
-[man] Push, push, push.
00:45:49.997 --> 00:45:54.043
[crowd cheers and
rings cowbells]
00:45:55.294 --> 00:45:57.254
[Max] Seemingly
within three or four months
00:45:57.337 --> 00:45:59.047
of starting his training
00:45:59.131 --> 00:46:01.550
he was already competing
for spots on the team.
00:46:01.633 --> 00:46:03.260
[Roy] With the silver medal,
from the USA
00:46:03.343 --> 00:46:04.678
baby Trevor Kennison!
00:46:04.761 --> 00:46:05.596
[man] Baby Trevor.
00:46:06.096 --> 00:46:07.848
[Ashley] So he ended up
moving to Winter Park
00:46:07.931 --> 00:46:10.851
and started out his third winter
00:46:12.227 --> 00:46:15.272
and then decided
to quit ski racing.
00:46:16.356 --> 00:46:19.234
A lot of us were wondering why.
00:46:21.111 --> 00:46:22.696
[Trevor] I quit
ski racing because
00:46:22.779 --> 00:46:25.032
I had a passion
for hitting jumps and cliffs
00:46:25.115 --> 00:46:27.576
and rails and everything else.
00:46:28.619 --> 00:46:30.747
I just wanted to ski
the whole mountain.
00:46:30.830 --> 00:46:31.539
[Trevor cheering] Yew!
00:46:32.122 --> 00:46:34.333
[Roy] When Trevor gave us
his list of goals for our grant
00:46:34.416 --> 00:46:36.877
there was more on there than
just making the Paralympic team.
00:46:37.502 --> 00:46:39.212
He wanted to do
a backflip off a rail
00:46:39.922 --> 00:46:41.882
he wanted to jump
into Corbet's Couloir
00:46:42.424 --> 00:46:44.217
he wanted to compete
in the X-Games
00:46:44.718 --> 00:46:46.595
he wanted to sit ski
at Vail Pass
00:46:47.429 --> 00:46:50.140
and do the first ever
sit ski double backflip.
00:46:52.100 --> 00:46:54.937
[Ashley] I told him,
“Stick with ski racing
00:46:55.020 --> 00:46:56.021
there's money there.”
00:46:56.688 --> 00:47:00.609
But he was doing his thing,
he was gonna freeski.
00:47:02.235 --> 00:47:04.571
[Trevor] My Dad and my sister,
and even Roy were like
00:47:04.655 --> 00:47:05.781
kind of chuckled
when I was like
00:47:05.864 --> 00:47:07.449
“Yeah this is what
I want to do, I want to
00:47:07.532 --> 00:47:08.659
try to make a living off this
00:47:08.742 --> 00:47:11.203
I want to get sponsors,
I want to do this for a career.”
00:47:11.286 --> 00:47:12.204
And I said, “Honey
00:47:13.664 --> 00:47:18.460
let's get a solid career…
and go forward
00:47:19.336 --> 00:47:21.213
because this is short term.”
00:47:24.132 --> 00:47:25.550
His response to that was
00:47:27.511 --> 00:47:28.428
he didn't say anything.
00:47:28.512 --> 00:47:31.056
My thought was,
“Go fuck yourself Dad ‘cause
00:47:32.182 --> 00:47:33.225
I'm gonna do it.”
00:47:33.517 --> 00:47:36.144
[TV anchor] It is the video
taking the ski world by storm
00:47:36.228 --> 00:47:38.897
a sit skier launching
off the top of the mountain
00:47:39.022 --> 00:47:40.816
at Jackson Hole, Wyoming.
00:47:40.899 --> 00:47:43.860
Trevor Kennison
happens to call Colorado home.
00:47:43.944 --> 00:47:45.988
Join Kennison on the slopes
00:47:46.071 --> 00:47:48.699
and see what he's doing
with all that newfound fame.
00:47:49.282 --> 00:47:51.326
I’m sitting there watching ESPN.
00:47:51.410 --> 00:47:53.078
[TV anchor] This is
Trevor Kennison
00:47:53.162 --> 00:47:54.747
who is unable to ski
00:47:54.871 --> 00:47:56.873
except in this
contraption that he has.
00:47:56.957 --> 00:47:57.791
[Ernie] Trevor Kennison?
00:47:58.667 --> 00:47:59.543
That’s my kid!
00:48:00.168 --> 00:48:01.420
Holy shit!
00:48:01.504 --> 00:48:03.339
[Ernie stammers] I--
00:48:04.423 --> 00:48:06.675
[Trevor] After Corbet's,
everything in my life changed.
00:48:07.175 --> 00:48:08.844
People just recognized
who I was.
00:48:10.512 --> 00:48:13.098
[TV anchor] Trevor started
going bigger and bigger.
00:48:14.391 --> 00:48:16.351
He's using his daredevil persona
00:48:16.435 --> 00:48:19.604
to inspire others,
able-bodied or not.
00:48:19.688 --> 00:48:21.940
[Trevor] I love learning,
I love pushing it
00:48:22.024 --> 00:48:23.567
and learning,
and learning and learning.
00:48:27.571 --> 00:48:30.532
[people cheering]
00:48:31.491 --> 00:48:32.659
[man yells] Oh!
00:48:34.578 --> 00:48:35.787
[man] Hell yeah Trev!
00:48:37.039 --> 00:48:38.749
[Roy] Trevor was starting
to set a bar
00:48:38.832 --> 00:48:39.708
that others hadn’t seen.
00:48:40.375 --> 00:48:42.919
He was progressing
so fast in a sit ski.
00:48:43.003 --> 00:48:44.755
[man] Oh my god!
00:48:44.838 --> 00:48:46.882
[TV anchor] This is
Trevor Kennison
00:48:46.965 --> 00:48:48.884
and he is with us here today.
00:48:48.967 --> 00:48:50.052
He's pretty much a pro
00:48:50.135 --> 00:48:51.470
you're pretty much
famous at this point.
00:48:52.846 --> 00:48:54.848
You've made
some pretty big strides
00:48:54.931 --> 00:48:56.224
these past couple of years.
00:48:56.308 --> 00:48:57.894
No one's ever done
this before right?
00:48:57.977 --> 00:48:58.269
[Trevor] No.
00:48:58.328 --> 00:49:00.145
[TV anchor] How has that
impacted you?
00:49:00.228 --> 00:49:01.522
[Trevor] Over the past
two, three years
00:49:01.606 --> 00:49:03.482
it's just given me
hope in my life
00:49:03.607 --> 00:49:04.733
and to move forward with it.
00:49:05.233 --> 00:49:06.735
And to live life to the fullest.
00:49:06.818 --> 00:49:08.361
[crowd cheering]
00:49:08.445 --> 00:49:10.322
[Miguel] His attitude
and his spirit is always
00:49:10.405 --> 00:49:11.823
just so positive.
00:49:11.907 --> 00:49:15.952
That first time I rode with him,
he hit like a 20 foot jump.
00:49:16.036 --> 00:49:18.455
I remember that day
very vividly, he said
00:49:19.456 --> 00:49:22.000
“I want to be able
to hit 90 foot jumps
00:49:22.542 --> 00:49:24.169
like the guys do
in the X-Games.”
00:49:26.463 --> 00:49:29.257
[TV anchor] Now to the X-Games,
and a major first ahead today
00:49:29.341 --> 00:49:32.219
Trevor Kennison will become
the first adaptive athlete
00:49:32.302 --> 00:49:34.096
to hit the big air jump
at the Games.
00:49:34.554 --> 00:49:36.014
-[Roy] Let’s go!
-[crowd cheering]
00:49:37.265 --> 00:49:40.102
[announcer 1] A tale of pure
will and determination.
00:49:40.936 --> 00:49:43.271
Pushing boundaries,
pushing the limits
00:49:43.772 --> 00:49:45.565
and he is set to do it again.
00:49:46.191 --> 00:49:47.317
[TV] Three, two, one!
00:49:47.400 --> 00:49:48.569
[announcer 1] Trevor Kennison
00:49:48.653 --> 00:49:49.988
looking to make history
out here today.
00:49:50.112 --> 00:49:51.738
The first ever adaptive athlete
00:49:51.822 --> 00:49:54.074
to hit the big air jump
here in Aspen!
00:49:54.157 --> 00:49:55.451
[announcer 2] Straight
off the jump
00:49:55.493 --> 00:49:57.578
huge balance,
he's going massive!
00:49:57.702 --> 00:50:00.872
Oh! So, so close.
00:50:03.708 --> 00:50:06.378
I mean took it
to the bottom line and just
00:50:06.878 --> 00:50:08.463
just not holding on.
00:50:08.964 --> 00:50:11.216
[ominous music plays]
00:50:20.976 --> 00:50:21.810
[producer] You okay?
00:50:39.411 --> 00:50:41.580
[receptionist] Yes just in case.
00:50:52.090 --> 00:50:53.758
[Bob] Sit skiing
is a great sport.
00:50:54.885 --> 00:50:57.013
Like any form of skiing
00:50:57.763 --> 00:51:00.391
when you start
taking it to its extreme
00:51:01.099 --> 00:51:02.976
the danger level goes up.
00:51:06.313 --> 00:51:07.523
When you're standing up
00:51:07.606 --> 00:51:10.026
you have the full
shock absorption
00:51:10.150 --> 00:51:11.735
of your knees,
which is about three feet
00:51:11.818 --> 00:51:14.404
and you add a couple more feet
bending at the waist.
00:51:15.322 --> 00:51:17.073
The best sit skis have maybe
00:51:17.157 --> 00:51:18.867
six to eight inches of travel.
00:51:20.118 --> 00:51:21.786
If you bottom that shock out
00:51:23.038 --> 00:51:25.415
it transfers directly
into your spine.
00:51:28.168 --> 00:51:30.128
That can
blow out a vertebrae.
00:51:30.837 --> 00:51:33.423
Myself, and I know
other people that have had
00:51:33.506 --> 00:51:36.218
secondary spinal
injuries sit skiing
00:51:36.301 --> 00:51:39.012
and it’s due to
bottoming out of shocks.
00:51:43.767 --> 00:51:44.768
[Ernie] I gotta be a parent.
00:51:45.393 --> 00:51:48.939
The jumps… that bothers me.
00:51:49.689 --> 00:51:51.900
I mean, he can
come down and
00:51:51.983 --> 00:51:55.153
land on his neck
and… no more Trevor.
00:52:01.576 --> 00:52:03.578
[intense music plays]
00:52:07.040 --> 00:52:07.999
[man] Oh, shit.
00:52:09.710 --> 00:52:11.670
[ski crash noises]
00:52:43.451 --> 00:52:45.745
[narrator] Goals
come in two forms.
00:52:50.583 --> 00:52:52.460
There are take one
day at a time goals.
00:52:55.630 --> 00:52:57.090
And there are the goals
we perceive
00:52:57.173 --> 00:52:58.800
way out there in the future murk
00:53:00.802 --> 00:53:03.138
which we will work toward
with consuming passion.
00:53:07.434 --> 00:53:09.227
Your goals
can open doors for you.
00:53:11.479 --> 00:53:12.981
You don't have to go
through the doors
00:53:15.650 --> 00:53:18.194
but they do ease the passage
if you’re bumping into walls.
00:53:24.784 --> 00:53:26.202
[narrator] So pick a goal.
00:53:26.286 --> 00:53:27.370
Manufacture one.
00:53:28.913 --> 00:53:31.333
Pick anything you haven't
been doing, but can do.
00:53:32.250 --> 00:53:33.168
Then do it.
00:53:34.836 --> 00:53:37.047
The identification
of realistic goals
00:53:37.130 --> 00:53:39.466
is the keystone
of all rehabilitation.
00:53:41.176 --> 00:53:44.012
No goals... no free lunch.
00:53:45.597 --> 00:53:46.848
[producer] Have you
hit a rail like
00:53:46.931 --> 00:53:49.309
-have you hit this rail before?
-[Trevor] No.
00:53:49.392 --> 00:53:50.226
-[producer] In the park?
-[Trevor] No.
00:53:51.519 --> 00:53:52.812
But I'm going to right now.
00:53:52.896 --> 00:53:57.275
[radio] Five, four,
three, two, one
00:53:57.359 --> 00:54:00.403
Trevor dropping.
00:54:05.701 --> 00:54:06.618
[skiers laughing]
00:54:06.701 --> 00:54:08.912
-[man 1] Fucking laced it.
-[man 2] All day baby.
00:54:14.751 --> 00:54:16.419
-[Trevor] Hell yeah.
-[man 1] That was perfect.
00:54:16.920 --> 00:54:18.880
[Trevor] Yo can someone
radio down
00:54:18.963 --> 00:54:20.757
to see if I should just
00:54:20.841 --> 00:54:23.176
uh… backflip it right now?
00:54:23.259 --> 00:54:24.886
[man] Well you can see
what you wanna do dude.
00:54:25.261 --> 00:54:27.722
[radio] Trevor says be ready
for the backflip.
00:54:33.895 --> 00:54:34.896
[Trevor exhales]
00:54:35.814 --> 00:54:37.190
[producer] Let me know
when ten seconds buddy.
00:54:37.273 --> 00:54:38.358
[Trevor] Alright ten seconds.
00:54:38.441 --> 00:54:39.734
-[radio] Alright ten seconds.
-[Trevor] Yeah boys.
00:54:39.818 --> 00:54:41.236
-[man 1] Let's go dog.
-[man 2] Yeah G.
00:54:41.319 --> 00:54:42.445
-[radio] Ten seconds to Trevor.
-[man 1] Let’s go.
00:54:42.946 --> 00:54:46.950
[radio] Five, four,
three, two, one.
00:54:53.957 --> 00:54:55.667
[Ashley cheering] Yeah!
00:55:05.718 --> 00:55:06.970
[Trevor] Let's go!
00:55:07.554 --> 00:55:09.097
Let's fucking go!
00:55:11.433 --> 00:55:14.352
-[Trevor] Let's go!
-[man] Oh my god!
00:55:14.436 --> 00:55:15.937
[man] That was so easy dude!
00:55:17.188 --> 00:55:19.107
-[Trevor] So sick.
-[Ashley] That was sick.
00:55:19.190 --> 00:55:20.066
[Trevor] Thanks.
00:55:20.150 --> 00:55:22.318
[Ashley] Nice work,
you crushed it Trev.
00:55:24.904 --> 00:55:25.697
[Trevor] It's just wild
00:55:25.780 --> 00:55:28.158
three years ago ski racing,
and like you know
00:55:28.241 --> 00:55:30.118
Ashley, Roy, my Dad
00:55:30.201 --> 00:55:31.494
kind of chuckling at my face
00:55:31.578 --> 00:55:33.746
and then it’s just like,
actually doing it.
00:55:33.830 --> 00:55:35.290
Now it's like,
I’ve had this idea
00:55:36.249 --> 00:55:37.041
I don't even know how long ago
00:55:37.125 --> 00:55:39.461
maybe a year ago,
but like... I just like
00:55:39.544 --> 00:55:40.879
I would tell people
and people would be like
00:55:40.920 --> 00:55:44.090
“Oh yeah, that’s kind of a…
kind of like a
00:55:44.591 --> 00:55:46.718
-[Trevor] crazy idea.”
-[producer] Pipe dream, man.
00:55:46.801 --> 00:55:48.094
[Trevor] But it’s just
moreso like
00:55:48.261 --> 00:55:50.847
coming into reality
and making it like
00:55:50.930 --> 00:55:52.140
a dream come true.
00:55:52.599 --> 00:55:53.516
Which is pretty cool.
00:55:54.142 --> 00:55:55.351
[producer] Yeah it's
more than pretty cool.
00:55:55.435 --> 00:55:56.478
[Trevor] It's kind
of wild that…
00:55:57.061 --> 00:55:57.896
And then maybe we'll put
00:55:57.979 --> 00:55:59.397
the box in there tomorrow.
00:56:00.064 --> 00:56:02.150
We'll backflip onto a down box.
00:56:02.650 --> 00:56:03.943
[Trevor laughing]
00:56:06.461 --> 00:56:08.198
[crew shoveling]
00:56:19.792 --> 00:56:21.669
[Trevor] ‘Cause I’m
gonna flip to a rail.
00:56:22.170 --> 00:56:23.046
Rail to a rail.
00:56:43.399 --> 00:56:44.692
[Trevor] I didn't
commit on that one.
00:56:47.487 --> 00:56:48.738
[man] Shit’s rowdy dude.
00:56:49.531 --> 00:56:50.615
[Trevor] Where
did I land though?
00:56:51.574 --> 00:56:53.868
[man] Dude you landed
right in line with the
00:56:53.952 --> 00:56:55.787
orange dots there,
on the right.
00:56:56.329 --> 00:56:57.872
[Trevor] I'm gonna do
honestly another
00:56:57.956 --> 00:57:00.083
same speed
just rip it a little harder.
00:57:03.586 --> 00:57:04.754
[man] Yep, yep.
00:57:10.260 --> 00:57:11.511
[Trevor] Dude that was so money.
00:57:11.928 --> 00:57:12.845
‘Cause that's basically
how I want
00:57:12.929 --> 00:57:15.265
to land on the rail
is like basically here.
00:57:15.848 --> 00:57:16.724
That was it dude.
00:57:17.308 --> 00:57:18.142
I say we put it in.
00:57:20.311 --> 00:57:22.146
[man] So many things
that are out of your control
00:57:22.230 --> 00:57:24.148
-[man] like on that rail.
-[Trevor] Yeah.
00:57:24.232 --> 00:57:25.108
[man] That it's like
00:57:25.567 --> 00:57:27.318
-[man] it's so gnarly.
-[Trevor] For sure.
00:57:27.402 --> 00:57:29.737
[man] And you're landing
literally on four inches.
00:57:29.821 --> 00:57:30.863
[Trevor] I know.
00:57:33.408 --> 00:57:34.284
[Trevor] I think
this is gonna be
00:57:34.367 --> 00:57:35.368
the scariest thing in my life.
00:57:36.202 --> 00:57:37.204
I don’t know, like scary
00:57:37.288 --> 00:57:38.914
but I feel
comfortable with this.
00:57:38.997 --> 00:57:39.706
You know
what I mean like--
00:57:39.790 --> 00:57:41.500
-[producer] Yeah.
-[Trevor] And I just need to
00:57:41.583 --> 00:57:44.335
once I get on the rail just…
I just need to rip my backflip.
00:57:46.796 --> 00:57:49.757
[ominous music builds]
00:57:54.262 --> 00:57:55.096
[Trevor sighs]
00:57:57.348 --> 00:57:58.349
Jeez boys.
00:57:58.891 --> 00:57:59.767
I’m fucking nervous.
00:58:10.028 --> 00:58:10.904
[Trevor exhales]
00:58:11.489 --> 00:58:12.448
[Trevor] Alright let's
get it, boys.
00:58:12.530 --> 00:58:13.615
-[man] Yeah Trev.
-[Trevor] Alright, let’s get it.
00:58:14.699 --> 00:58:16.034
-[man] Yeah Trev.
-[Trevor] Dropping.
00:58:19.120 --> 00:58:22.081
[instrumental music builds]
00:58:41.017 --> 00:58:42.393
[Trevor cheers]
00:58:42.477 --> 00:58:43.853
[Trevor] Lets fucking go!
00:58:45.480 --> 00:58:48.107
[Trevor laughing]
Let’s go!
00:58:49.275 --> 00:58:50.860
[Trevor] Oh my god!
00:58:50.944 --> 00:58:52.946
[Trevor laughing]
00:58:53.488 --> 00:58:54.322
[man] Yeah baby.
00:58:57.200 --> 00:58:59.077
[Trevor] Holy shit.
00:58:59.952 --> 00:59:00.953
Oh my god.
00:59:01.037 --> 00:59:01.871
I did it!
00:59:02.373 --> 00:59:05.083
[Trevor laughing] Let’s go!
00:59:05.166 --> 00:59:07.210
[Trevor] I've been dreaming
about doing this for two years.
00:59:08.503 --> 00:59:10.171
-After doing the backflip--
-No way.
00:59:10.254 --> 00:59:12.632
last year on that rail,
here it is a year later.
00:59:12.715 --> 00:59:14.384
-[Trevor yelling] Let’s go.
-Rode it out.
00:59:15.510 --> 00:59:17.970
Honestly, it's
one of the best feelings.
00:59:18.054 --> 00:59:20.140
One of the best
feelings, let’s go.
00:59:20.224 --> 00:59:21.305
[Trevor clapping] Let's go.
00:59:22.642 --> 00:59:23.476
[excitedly] Yew!
00:59:26.145 --> 00:59:28.314
[friends cheering]
00:59:28.398 --> 00:59:29.358
[producer] Dude!
00:59:29.441 --> 00:59:31.569
[man] Right on bottom
of your ski dude!
00:59:32.568 --> 00:59:33.986
[Trevor] Thanks for all
the help everybody.
00:59:39.158 --> 00:59:40.536
[Jennifer] Dad did
reinvent himself
00:59:40.619 --> 00:59:41.537
in a lot of ways.
00:59:41.661 --> 00:59:44.539
You know after his accident,
he couldn’t ski anymore
00:59:44.622 --> 00:59:47.166
he couldn’t climb anymore.
00:59:47.250 --> 00:59:49.460
He sought out new conquests.
00:59:51.170 --> 00:59:52.339
So in the early ‘70s
00:59:52.423 --> 00:59:54.466
Dad was filming a movie
with Roger Brown
00:59:54.549 --> 00:59:55.884
called The Edge,
and they did
00:59:56.427 --> 00:59:58.095
several weeks
in the Grand Canyon.
00:59:58.803 --> 01:00:02.014
[Bob] No paraplegic
had ever tried kayaking.
01:00:02.098 --> 01:00:04.392
And as he's shooting
this movie from a chair
01:00:04.475 --> 01:00:05.309
he noticed, “Hey…
01:00:06.561 --> 01:00:08.187
everything they do
is the upper body.
01:00:09.230 --> 01:00:10.356
That's what I've got.
01:00:11.023 --> 01:00:12.108
I think I'm gonna try that.”
01:00:13.651 --> 01:00:14.569
[Dr. Butt] He learned it
01:00:14.652 --> 01:00:18.823
against all the admonitions
of all the people at Craig
01:00:18.906 --> 01:00:22.660
for fear of skin sores,
decubitus ulcers.
01:00:23.286 --> 01:00:25.538
For fear that
he would die on the river.
01:00:26.622 --> 01:00:27.749
[Roger] He was paralyzed
in the legs
01:00:28.666 --> 01:00:30.960
and a lot of kayaking
is in the hips
01:00:31.544 --> 01:00:33.129
‘cause if you get knocked over
01:00:33.212 --> 01:00:37.467
you have to twist your hips
and paddle at the same time
01:00:37.550 --> 01:00:40.428
on one side or the other
to get yourself back up.
01:00:42.013 --> 01:00:44.307
[Dr. Butt] Indeed there was
a point where
01:00:44.390 --> 01:00:45.892
he almost died on the river
01:00:45.975 --> 01:00:47.811
because he couldn't
sufficiently roll
01:00:47.894 --> 01:00:49.020
given the current.
01:00:50.480 --> 01:00:53.483
[Bob] So Barry spent months with
some of the best instructors
01:00:53.566 --> 01:00:57.111
and created a way
to Eskimo roll a kayak.
01:00:59.030 --> 01:01:00.782
[Dr. Butt] He
developed techniques
01:01:00.865 --> 01:01:05.286
he found ways to hitch three
kayaks on the side of his van.
01:01:07.580 --> 01:01:10.291
One of the old monikers
that I love about Craig Hospital
01:01:10.792 --> 01:01:12.710
is redefining possible.
01:01:13.711 --> 01:01:14.629
And when I think about Barry
01:01:14.712 --> 01:01:16.631
that's what I think about
in many ways.
01:01:17.256 --> 01:01:19.217
He redefined what was possible.
01:01:19.301 --> 01:01:21.345
[spanish guitar plays]
01:01:22.845 --> 01:01:27.141
[Bob] Barry being Barry,
as a paraplegic kayaker ran
01:01:27.225 --> 01:01:29.685
all the most extreme
rivers in the West
01:01:29.769 --> 01:01:31.062
including the Grand Canyon.
01:01:35.066 --> 01:01:35.900
[Roger] It meant a lot to him
01:01:35.983 --> 01:01:38.486
because he had been
cut out of all the things
01:01:38.569 --> 01:01:40.613
he really liked to do,
the great adventures and
01:01:41.322 --> 01:01:43.783
kayaking gave him
back adventure.
01:01:45.451 --> 01:01:47.495
[Jennifer] He found a way
to have his fun no matter what.
01:01:47.995 --> 01:01:50.040
And it wasn't the way
he did it before
01:01:50.123 --> 01:01:52.042
but it was a way
that worked for him.
01:01:53.709 --> 01:01:55.586
[Bob] Essentially, Barry said
01:01:55.670 --> 01:01:58.589
“I'm not gonna let my
wheelchair define me.
01:01:58.673 --> 01:02:03.636
I'm gonna define myself
through athletic endeavors
01:02:03.719 --> 01:02:06.931
that go beyond
what people perceive
01:02:07.015 --> 01:02:08.642
a wheelchair user can do.”
01:02:09.733 --> 01:02:12.353
[wheels cracking on gravel]
01:02:16.399 --> 01:02:17.859
[narrator] As you
and your injury mellow
01:02:17.942 --> 01:02:18.819
through a little time
01:02:20.194 --> 01:02:22.071
you'll find that you don't
think much about walking.
01:02:25.741 --> 01:02:28.119
Nor will you think wistfully
about whatever you used to do.
01:02:31.247 --> 01:02:33.708
You'll start to think
with interest and pleasure
01:02:34.375 --> 01:02:35.710
about the things you can do now.
01:02:39.046 --> 01:02:40.047
There are more than enough
01:02:40.131 --> 01:02:42.925
things you can do
after a broken back or neck.
01:02:43.009 --> 01:02:45.136
And some of them
you’ll like so much
01:02:45.636 --> 01:02:47.763
that you'll be unable
to contain your joy.
01:02:48.348 --> 01:02:49.683
[Trevor chuckles]
01:02:51.434 --> 01:02:54.353
[helicopter engine turns on]
01:02:56.772 --> 01:02:58.482
[man] And we’re firing up.
01:02:59.358 --> 01:03:00.192
[Trevor] Yeah baby.
01:03:01.110 --> 01:03:02.904
[man] Yes, Trevor.
01:03:05.439 --> 01:03:07.481
[high energy music plays]
01:03:42.860 --> 01:03:44.320
[Trevor] Yeah boys!
01:03:44.987 --> 01:03:46.948
Yeah boys.
01:03:47.031 --> 01:03:48.324
Let’s go baby.
01:03:54.372 --> 01:03:55.873
[radio] Trevor’s gonna ride this
01:03:55.957 --> 01:03:58.125
main chute just beneath us.
01:03:58.751 --> 01:04:02.797
Alright three, two,
one, dropping.
01:04:03.798 --> 01:04:04.632
[man] Get it dude.
01:04:23.861 --> 01:04:25.028
[Trevor shouts]
01:04:26.070 --> 01:04:27.947
[Trevor] Oh my goodness!
01:04:32.910 --> 01:04:34.578
Sit skiing gave me that freedom
01:04:35.329 --> 01:04:36.330
being out of my wheelchair.
01:04:37.081 --> 01:04:38.499
I could go anywhere
on the mountain.
01:04:38.582 --> 01:04:39.917
I could be just like
anyone else.
01:04:41.210 --> 01:04:42.713
Having that freedom back
01:04:42.796 --> 01:04:44.464
it gave me such
a purpose to life.
01:04:45.048 --> 01:04:48.467
[Trevor laughing] Oh my god!
01:04:50.344 --> 01:04:51.846
[Trevor giggling]
01:04:51.929 --> 01:04:53.681
[Trevor] Here's the thing,
when I’m in my ski
01:04:54.306 --> 01:04:55.683
I feel free,
I feel whole
01:04:56.267 --> 01:04:57.476
and I feel extremely happy.
01:04:58.352 --> 01:05:02.356
Just sliding on the snow
literally soothes my soul.
01:05:02.440 --> 01:05:06.319
[Trevor laughing]
Oh my god, let’s go!
01:05:08.738 --> 01:05:09.739
Yeah boys!
01:05:10.322 --> 01:05:12.825
[Trevor laughing]
01:05:16.370 --> 01:05:17.538
That was a good one.
01:05:20.374 --> 01:05:23.169
[Trevor] When you go skiing or
snowboarding, you have to adapt.
01:05:24.587 --> 01:05:27.882
When I do it now, I just
have to adapt a little bit more.
01:05:29.008 --> 01:05:30.134
[Heavy drums playing]
01:05:45.066 --> 01:05:48.027
[Trevor cheering]
01:06:00.956 --> 01:06:02.083
[Trevor cheering]
01:06:14.970 --> 01:06:16.972
[man] Every turn
he just gets so pitted.
01:06:17.765 --> 01:06:19.266
[laughing] He just disappears.
01:06:30.402 --> 01:06:32.446
[man] Yeah doggy!
01:06:34.156 --> 01:06:36.158
-[KC laughing]
-[man] Yeah!
01:06:37.910 --> 01:06:39.703
[KC] After a spinal
cord injury it’s
01:06:40.204 --> 01:06:42.331
it feels like you can't take
anything for granted.
01:06:42.414 --> 01:06:43.165
That's the thing about
01:06:43.249 --> 01:06:44.626
being in the mountains
with Trevor here
01:06:44.709 --> 01:06:45.627
is you see it in him.
01:06:46.460 --> 01:06:48.546
You know,
he’s in a sit ski but
01:06:48.629 --> 01:06:51.590
he's not bumming about
the fact that he’s in a sit ski.
01:06:51.674 --> 01:06:54.760
[radio] Three, two,
one, Trevor dropping.
01:06:55.845 --> 01:06:57.054
[KC] He has something about him
01:06:57.138 --> 01:06:59.598
he's just kind of glowing
when he’s out there.
01:06:59.682 --> 01:07:01.559
Just like this pure stoke
that comes out of him.
01:07:02.059 --> 01:07:03.018
And it's pretty special.
01:07:06.230 --> 01:07:07.732
I don't think that
he’s just inspiring
01:07:07.816 --> 01:07:09.317
people that are
maybe adaptive
01:07:09.441 --> 01:07:11.527
or have anything
that's limiting them.
01:07:13.028 --> 01:07:14.531
He's inspiring people that
01:07:14.656 --> 01:07:16.616
are just like me
and you, they’re just
01:07:17.575 --> 01:07:19.743
you know they got ten fingers,
ten toes that work.
01:07:20.452 --> 01:07:21.412
Two breaths and a heartbeat.
01:07:22.288 --> 01:07:23.790
And they're looking
at Trevor thinking
01:07:23.874 --> 01:07:25.083
“There’s no way I can do that.”
01:07:27.126 --> 01:07:29.628
He's not just
an adaptive athlete
01:07:29.712 --> 01:07:30.588
he's just an athlete.
01:07:31.547 --> 01:07:32.798
The thing is if you want to
01:07:32.882 --> 01:07:35.384
up the game
and hit stuff like this
01:07:35.467 --> 01:07:37.136
just take it one turn at a time.
01:07:37.845 --> 01:07:38.679
[Trevor exhales]
01:07:39.013 --> 01:07:40.472
-[Trevor] Okay.
-[KC] You good?
01:07:41.140 --> 01:07:41.974
[Trevor] Yep.
01:07:42.766 --> 01:07:44.268
[KC] Alright if you copy
01:07:44.768 --> 01:07:46.395
Trev dropping in ten.
01:07:47.230 --> 01:07:49.149
[Trevor exhales deeply]
01:07:49.231 --> 01:07:53.986
[KC] Trev in five, four,
three, two, one.
01:08:14.715 --> 01:08:17.676
[Trevor and crew cheering]
01:08:18.761 --> 01:08:20.095
[Trevor] Holy.
01:08:20.179 --> 01:08:23.015
That’s by far the
biggest cliff I've done!
01:08:24.017 --> 01:08:24.559
[Trevor cheers]
01:08:25.936 --> 01:08:27.104
[KC laughs]
01:08:27.186 --> 01:08:30.522
-[man] Dude the GoPro is like--
-[KC] Look at where you landed!
01:08:30.606 --> 01:08:31.607
[Trevor] Yeah dude.
01:08:32.274 --> 01:08:35.070
[KC and Trevor laughing]
01:08:35.152 --> 01:08:36.111
[KC] Yes!
01:08:39.323 --> 01:08:40.866
[narrator] I've had
glorious days.
01:08:41.992 --> 01:08:44.745
Days when everyone
and everything I encounter
01:08:44.828 --> 01:08:47.122
dances to some tune I know well.
01:08:48.999 --> 01:08:50.125
On those days
01:08:50.209 --> 01:08:52.461
confidence and
good cheer flow out of me
01:08:52.544 --> 01:08:54.296
and infect total strangers.
01:08:56.715 --> 01:08:57.716
And on some days
01:08:58.217 --> 01:09:00.177
the wheelchair
becomes a rolling ghetto.
01:09:00.970 --> 01:09:04.473
A chrome cage that blocks
communication absolutely.
01:09:05.641 --> 01:09:07.935
Period. Don't bother me
01:09:08.978 --> 01:09:10.521
I'm crippled today.
01:09:14.984 --> 01:09:17.904
I have never felt despised
for being in a wheelchair.
01:09:18.404 --> 01:09:19.656
[keys jingling]
01:09:19.738 --> 01:09:20.656
[narrator] I have felt pitied.
01:09:23.575 --> 01:09:24.994
I have despised myself.
01:09:27.371 --> 01:09:29.331
The first is the
other person's problem
01:09:31.709 --> 01:09:33.377
and the second is mine.
01:09:37.923 --> 01:09:39.800
[Trevor] Having a spinal
cord injury, it sucks.
01:09:41.343 --> 01:09:45.180
A lot of people look at you and
they just see a wheelchair.
01:09:45.264 --> 01:09:46.349
And that's fine
01:09:46.432 --> 01:09:48.268
but it’s way more
than a wheelchair.
01:09:49.727 --> 01:09:51.395
The wheelchair is
just a part of you
01:09:51.479 --> 01:09:52.480
you know those are your legs.
01:09:55.232 --> 01:09:56.567
People come up to me and
01:09:56.651 --> 01:09:57.861
they’re like,
“Oh what happened?”
01:09:57.985 --> 01:10:00.197
“Oh I, you know I broke
my back snowboarding”
01:10:00.280 --> 01:10:01.322
and they’re like,
“Oh I’m sorry.”
01:10:01.989 --> 01:10:03.032
And that's all they say.
01:10:03.824 --> 01:10:06.201
[laughing] Then I'm like,
“Why are you sorry?”
01:10:06.285 --> 01:10:09.204
You know it’s like,
“Alright that’s fine.”
01:10:09.705 --> 01:10:10.957
But you should be sorry about
01:10:11.041 --> 01:10:12.917
the real things
that really get to me.
01:10:13.584 --> 01:10:16.003
Those things, that
you should be sorry about.
01:10:16.086 --> 01:10:17.046
But people don't know.
01:10:20.966 --> 01:10:22.719
[Jennifer] So after Dad
finished filmmaking
01:10:22.802 --> 01:10:23.469
and went into writing
01:10:23.552 --> 01:10:26.555
he became editor
for a rag called New Mobility.
01:10:28.265 --> 01:10:30.809
[Dr. Butt] When Barry
became the editor
01:10:30.893 --> 01:10:34.730
he could reach people in ways
that he was never able to prior.
01:10:36.273 --> 01:10:37.441
[Bob] Barry and the magazine
01:10:37.525 --> 01:10:40.403
covered really difficult topics.
01:10:40.527 --> 01:10:42.988
Drug use and or abuse
in spinal cord injury
01:10:43.072 --> 01:10:46.950
spinal cord injured people
in prison, sexuality
01:10:47.034 --> 01:10:49.495
there was no subject
that was taboo.
01:10:50.871 --> 01:10:54.750
It was this edgy Rolling Stone
for wheelchair users.
01:10:56.210 --> 01:10:58.629
[Dr. Butt] He was speaking
the unspeakable.
01:10:59.463 --> 01:11:02.341
Bowel programs,
bladder management
01:11:03.175 --> 01:11:06.595
all things that are
kind of verbten or forbidden
01:11:06.678 --> 01:11:08.430
in the able-bodied community.
01:11:12.267 --> 01:11:13.602
[Ashley] When he
first got injured
01:11:13.685 --> 01:11:17.189
I wondered if he
would be able to date again.
01:11:19.274 --> 01:11:21.527
Trevor has always
wanted a family
01:11:21.610 --> 01:11:24.530
that's something that's
particularly important to him.
01:11:26.698 --> 01:11:30.285
[Trevor] I can get hard,
but I can't get a girl pregnant.
01:11:31.495 --> 01:11:33.247
It's all those things that
01:11:33.330 --> 01:11:35.166
you don't think about
getting injured
01:11:35.250 --> 01:11:37.168
and all those things
that happen after.
01:11:38.627 --> 01:11:39.503
That’s real life.
01:11:40.671 --> 01:11:41.547
I deal with that.
01:11:44.091 --> 01:11:46.760
[Bob] Barry and the magazine’s
understanding is look
01:11:47.344 --> 01:11:50.013
life with spinal
cord injury is life
01:11:50.097 --> 01:11:51.640
life with disability is life
01:11:51.723 --> 01:11:54.518
so we're gonna cover
all facets of it.
01:11:56.437 --> 01:11:58.355
[Jennifer] How refreshing
for people who thought
01:11:58.439 --> 01:12:00.190
that part of their lives
was over.
01:12:01.316 --> 01:12:02.776
Dad brought it out into the open
01:12:02.860 --> 01:12:04.486
he highlighted it,
he addressed
01:12:05.028 --> 01:12:07.114
the good, the bad,
the ugly, and the beautiful
01:12:07.197 --> 01:12:09.533
about sexuality
when you're injured.
01:12:09.617 --> 01:12:11.494
[Trevor chuckling]
01:12:13.287 --> 01:12:16.582
[Trevor] Alright so this is
where I do my business.
01:12:19.293 --> 01:12:21.128
This is an adaptive sex chair.
01:12:21.211 --> 01:12:22.839
Basically I transfer in here
01:12:22.922 --> 01:12:24.507
and then I just
go back and forth.
01:12:26.216 --> 01:12:29.428
After my injury,
not being able to ejaculate
01:12:29.511 --> 01:12:31.889
like I used to,
this like gets me
01:12:31.972 --> 01:12:33.765
that feeling again and so…
01:12:34.683 --> 01:12:37.144
The upholstery is a little,
you know worn down.
01:12:37.227 --> 01:12:38.228
[Trevor laughs]
01:12:38.312 --> 01:12:39.356
I think I need to get this
01:12:39.439 --> 01:12:41.191
a little tightened,
reupholstered.
01:12:41.315 --> 01:12:42.441
[Trevor laughs]
01:12:42.524 --> 01:12:44.693
It makes me feel
like a man again
01:12:44.776 --> 01:12:45.652
[Trevor chuckles]
I’ll tell you that.
01:12:46.904 --> 01:12:48.611
[whimsical music playing]
01:12:53.118 --> 01:12:54.828
[Roy] Spinal cord
injuries, there’s
01:12:55.329 --> 01:12:56.830
things that you're
not prepared for.
01:12:58.040 --> 01:13:00.417
And we'll just be honest,
bowel and bladder are those.
01:13:01.835 --> 01:13:03.879
[Dr. Butt] When people
have injuries
01:13:03.962 --> 01:13:06.256
at a certain level and above
01:13:06.340 --> 01:13:09.093
they have dysfunction
of their ability
01:13:09.177 --> 01:13:11.179
to control the flow of urine.
01:13:11.803 --> 01:13:13.597
So it can occur at any time.
01:13:13.680 --> 01:13:16.892
[Trevor] We're about to drop in
on this little cliffy and
01:13:18.018 --> 01:13:19.770
light's a little flat but
01:13:20.938 --> 01:13:22.481
just gonna punt her
and feel her good.
01:13:23.565 --> 01:13:25.150
[Trevor sighs] God
I totally just pissed myself.
01:13:26.068 --> 01:13:28.570
-[producer chuckles]
-[Trevor] I didn’t mean to.
01:13:29.321 --> 01:13:32.157
Okay. Three, two, one dropping!
01:13:32.699 --> 01:13:33.242
[producer] Drop!
01:13:39.414 --> 01:13:40.249
[people cheering]
01:13:42.626 --> 01:13:44.253
[Bob] Accidents are gonna happen
01:13:45.003 --> 01:13:46.797
and you have two choices.
01:13:47.297 --> 01:13:50.467
It can be devastating,
which it is.
01:13:51.718 --> 01:13:54.555
It can also be a funny story
later if you choose it.
01:13:57.766 --> 01:13:59.768
[Trevor] Can you grab a
catheter out of the zipper
01:14:00.477 --> 01:14:01.603
in my GoPro backpack?
01:14:03.188 --> 01:14:04.898
[Roy] If you're staying
properly hydrated
01:14:04.982 --> 01:14:07.025
that means you're gonna pee
eight to twelve times a day.
01:14:07.526 --> 01:14:08.527
[producer] What are you doing
over there Trevy?
01:14:09.027 --> 01:14:09.861
[Trevor] Taking a pee.
01:14:09.945 --> 01:14:10.862
-[producer] Yeah?
-[Trevor] Yeah.
01:14:10.946 --> 01:14:12.239
[producer] Why are you
behind the dumpster?
01:14:12.322 --> 01:14:15.033
‘Cause there’s
no bathroom I can get to.
01:14:17.286 --> 01:14:19.371
[Roy] And every time
you have to use a new catheter.
01:14:20.664 --> 01:14:22.291
Every time
that you want to go pee.
01:14:23.709 --> 01:14:25.460
If you're paying out of pocket
01:14:25.544 --> 01:14:28.005
a single catheter could cost you
up to 18 dollars.
01:14:28.964 --> 01:14:32.718
And so you could pay
up to 250 dollars a day
01:14:33.427 --> 01:14:34.469
just to go pee.
01:14:35.596 --> 01:14:37.097
It's just, it's not fair.
01:14:39.808 --> 01:14:41.226
[Trevor] Yo you should
take a picture of this
01:14:41.310 --> 01:14:42.269
the tube hanging out.
01:14:43.186 --> 01:14:44.646
[man chuckles] It's pretty
full on, it’s like--
01:14:44.730 --> 01:14:48.442
[Trevor] It’s just the truth.
The hard truth of it.
01:14:49.818 --> 01:14:53.947
[Dr. Butt] Barry talked about
how a gal wrote to him
01:14:54.031 --> 01:14:57.242
saying it was
mind boggling to her
01:14:57.326 --> 01:14:59.494
to even see advertisements
01:14:59.578 --> 01:15:04.041
about bladder management
and caths, catheters.
01:15:04.124 --> 01:15:08.253
And how she felt that there
truly was a community out there.
01:15:09.296 --> 01:15:10.547
[Ashley] I didn't know
anything about
01:15:10.631 --> 01:15:12.424
using catheters, suppositories.
01:15:12.507 --> 01:15:14.635
It is just,
it's the simplest things
01:15:14.718 --> 01:15:15.969
going to the bathroom is new
01:15:16.053 --> 01:15:18.180
it's hard, it takes forever.
01:15:18.263 --> 01:15:20.682
It's not an easy road.
01:15:21.725 --> 01:15:24.019
[Dr. Butt] A bowel program
is a routine
01:15:24.519 --> 01:15:27.147
hopefully each day
around the same time.
01:15:29.149 --> 01:15:31.318
[Roy] You have got to
put on a rubber glove
01:15:31.401 --> 01:15:34.279
take a suppository,
put it up inside you
01:15:34.780 --> 01:15:36.865
and then you've got to wait
a minimum of an hour
01:15:36.948 --> 01:15:39.409
to make sure that
your bowels completely empty.
01:15:43.163 --> 01:15:47.084
[Dr. Butt] People use what's
called digital stimulation
01:15:47.167 --> 01:15:50.379
where a finger is inserted
around the anus
01:15:50.921 --> 01:15:55.425
and it creates peristalsis
and evacuation of the bowels.
01:15:57.010 --> 01:15:59.554
It can be, in the
beginning, embarrassing
01:16:00.472 --> 01:16:04.059
time consuming,
it's one of the many
01:16:04.142 --> 01:16:07.062
inconveniences inherent
in the spinal injury.
01:16:07.229 --> 01:16:08.063
[shower running]
01:16:13.276 --> 01:16:15.487
[Bob] Learning how to live
with a spinal cord injury
01:16:15.570 --> 01:16:18.115
is like scuba diving
the rest of your life.
01:16:19.324 --> 01:16:21.243
Am I sitting on a soft cushion?
01:16:21.743 --> 01:16:22.869
Is my bladder full?
01:16:23.995 --> 01:16:26.498
You constantly have
to check these things
01:16:26.581 --> 01:16:27.749
that you can't feel.
01:16:31.002 --> 01:16:33.171
[Trevor] Living with a
spinal cord injury is hard.
01:16:34.423 --> 01:16:36.217
I mean definitely I get isolated
01:16:36.300 --> 01:16:38.261
and I definitely
have my ups and downs.
01:16:39.636 --> 01:16:43.056
Seeing people going for hikes
or doing anything like that
01:16:43.140 --> 01:16:44.933
you know, sometimes
it'll bum me out.
01:16:46.685 --> 01:16:49.855
Sometimes I do wish like
I could have that normalcy.
01:16:52.983 --> 01:16:56.570
[Roy] Trev and I talk weekly,
a lot of times daily.
01:16:56.903 --> 01:16:59.156
And you can tell
when Trevor's off
01:16:59.698 --> 01:17:01.074
because he becomes very silent.
01:17:01.575 --> 01:17:03.034
And I think
one of the things that
01:17:03.118 --> 01:17:05.787
I really recognize is
when Trevor’s like that is like
01:17:06.413 --> 01:17:07.998
we gotta get him back outside.
01:17:10.250 --> 01:17:12.669
We gotta get him back out
doing the things he loves.
01:17:13.170 --> 01:17:14.756
[machinery operating]
01:17:26.016 --> 01:17:27.768
We do some
custom projects like Trevor
01:17:27.851 --> 01:17:31.104
but for the most part we design
skis for disabled skiers.
01:17:33.231 --> 01:17:34.733
Help people get back
on the mountain
01:17:34.816 --> 01:17:36.109
or find it for the first time.
01:17:36.651 --> 01:17:38.820
[Trevor] Dude so my idea
is gonna be genius.
01:17:38.904 --> 01:17:39.780
I’m telling you.
01:17:39.863 --> 01:17:42.365
[Bobby] I kind of understood it
on the phone which scared me.
01:17:42.449 --> 01:17:43.492
[Trevor laughing] I know right?
01:17:44.618 --> 01:17:46.578
[Bobby] So we’ll just tie like a
01:17:46.661 --> 01:17:48.497
-Six inch pull loop so you can--
-[Trevor] Something to my mouth.
01:17:48.997 --> 01:17:49.956
[Bobby] To your mouth?
01:17:50.040 --> 01:17:51.625
[Trevor] Dude,
well here’s the thing
01:17:51.708 --> 01:17:53.001
if I do it to my hand--
01:17:53.084 --> 01:17:55.212
[Bobby] Yeah you gotta be
one handed coming in.
01:17:55.295 --> 01:17:57.005
Right, and I don’t want
to be doing that.
01:17:57.589 --> 01:18:00.008
[Bobby] So you basically
want this to your mouth?
01:18:00.884 --> 01:18:02.719
Well that’s what I’m saying,
you know what I mean
01:18:02.803 --> 01:18:04.387
we’re adapting over here okay?
01:18:04.471 --> 01:18:05.598
[engine starts]
01:18:07.599 --> 01:18:09.309
[Bobby] So some skiers
use a motorized winch
01:18:09.392 --> 01:18:10.769
to get speed on flat ground.
01:18:12.229 --> 01:18:14.898
Able-bodied skiers use two hands
to hold on to the rope
01:18:14.981 --> 01:18:17.234
but Trevor needs his hands
to hold on to his outriggers.
01:18:18.193 --> 01:18:19.696
So we're building
a quick release system
01:18:19.779 --> 01:18:21.447
to attach that rope
to his sit ski.
01:18:22.280 --> 01:18:25.367
[Trevor] And the string is like
this short to release.
01:18:25.450 --> 01:18:26.201
Does that make sense?
01:18:26.785 --> 01:18:28.620
-[Bobby] All we can do is try.
-[Trevor] Yeah.
01:18:28.703 --> 01:18:29.579
[Bobby] We’re in new territory.
01:18:30.216 --> 01:18:31.374
[Grinder starts]
01:18:35.359 --> 01:18:37.277
[Power tools buzzing]
01:18:47.681 --> 01:18:48.640
[Trevor] Okay you ready?
01:18:51.268 --> 01:18:54.437
Dude this is exciting stuff.
01:19:09.327 --> 01:19:11.079
[Trevor] I’m sweating,
I’m all nervous.
01:19:13.915 --> 01:19:14.583
[Trevor] Nuh uh.
01:19:16.376 --> 01:19:17.627
[producer] Why are you
gonna do this?
01:19:18.712 --> 01:19:19.796
‘Cause it's
never been done
01:19:20.714 --> 01:19:21.548
and I want to.
01:19:25.552 --> 01:19:26.928
I'm gonna get towed in
01:19:27.012 --> 01:19:28.680
I'm gonna pull the
quick release with my mouth
01:19:29.347 --> 01:19:31.308
and then I'm gonna
jump that jump
01:19:31.391 --> 01:19:32.726
and then the landing’s
right there.
01:19:33.685 --> 01:19:35.645
Even though I'm paralyzed,
you know you only see
01:19:35.729 --> 01:19:37.981
able-bodied people
hitting street or urban.
01:19:38.690 --> 01:19:41.151
And you know, me being
in a wheelchair it’s like
01:19:41.234 --> 01:19:42.569
“Oh wait, you even ski?”
01:19:43.111 --> 01:19:45.363
And it's just funny ‘cause
people have no idea.
01:19:45.447 --> 01:19:46.907
You know I just
want to keep evolving it
01:19:46.990 --> 01:19:49.242
and keep pushing the boundaries,
and keep progressing
01:19:49.743 --> 01:19:53.288
and I think this is one step
in that direction.
01:19:57.500 --> 01:19:59.002
[winch motor running]
01:20:02.756 --> 01:20:04.299
[Trevor] Yeah Cody!
01:20:04.966 --> 01:20:05.926
[Trevor yelling] Woo!
01:20:07.135 --> 01:20:08.011
[Trevor laughing]
01:20:12.474 --> 01:20:13.975
[music intensifies]
01:20:30.784 --> 01:20:31.618
[Trevor] It’s getting caught.
01:20:32.619 --> 01:20:34.162
Yo this thing is getting caught.
01:20:34.246 --> 01:20:35.748
[Trevor exhales deeply]
01:20:41.753 --> 01:20:42.837
Can we do this one more time?
01:20:43.838 --> 01:20:44.631
[Trevor groans]
01:20:44.714 --> 01:20:46.007
[man] Got it? Feeling good?
01:20:46.091 --> 01:20:46.925
-[Trevor] Yeah.
-[man] Yeah?
01:20:49.846 --> 01:20:51.013
[Trevor breathes deeply]
01:20:51.054 --> 01:20:53.640
[Trevor] Okay. Just hold on
as long as possible.
01:20:55.684 --> 01:20:57.560
Hold on as long as
possible baby.
01:20:58.855 --> 01:21:00.105
[outriggers click]
01:21:00.939 --> 01:21:01.898
[man] Here we go!
01:21:26.965 --> 01:21:28.967
[muffled cheering]
01:21:39.811 --> 01:21:41.813
[man] Holy cow, dude.
01:21:41.896 --> 01:21:44.482
-Trev that was fucking massive.
-[Trevor] My fucking neck.
01:21:55.035 --> 01:21:56.411
-[man 1] Yeah.
-[man 2] For sure.
01:21:56.494 --> 01:21:57.579
[producer] Dude,
if you’re not feeling it
01:21:57.662 --> 01:21:59.831
the last thing I want
you to do is go and try--
01:21:59.914 --> 01:22:01.082
[Trevor] I’m just
pissed at myself
01:22:01.166 --> 01:22:02.584
because I know
I could have had it.
01:22:02.667 --> 01:22:03.543
I know, I just--
01:22:03.626 --> 01:22:06.463
I just know I could
have had it, it just…
01:22:07.590 --> 01:22:08.674
[Trevor groans]
01:22:08.757 --> 01:22:11.051
I’m not gonna be able to move
my shoulder tomorrow morning.
01:22:15.430 --> 01:22:18.641
[Roy] Is a sit ski meant
to go upside down? No.
01:22:19.184 --> 01:22:21.519
The purpose was
to return people to skiing
01:22:22.228 --> 01:22:23.313
not to go upside down
01:22:23.396 --> 01:22:25.690
and flip a 50 pound piece
of metal underneath you.
01:22:29.736 --> 01:22:31.488
[Trevor] Last night at dinner
01:22:31.571 --> 01:22:33.823
even like an hour after,
I just couldn’t really like
01:22:34.324 --> 01:22:35.700
it just kept hurting
and hurting.
01:22:37.285 --> 01:22:39.954
I just literally cannot
like lift my arm
01:22:40.038 --> 01:22:42.290
it hurts so bad,
right here on the
01:22:43.249 --> 01:22:45.585
I think collarbone or shoulder,
one or the other.
01:22:50.800 --> 01:22:52.468
My shoulders are so important
01:22:52.551 --> 01:22:54.053
because they’re
basically my feet.
01:22:54.594 --> 01:22:56.179
And without them
01:22:56.262 --> 01:22:58.765
I can't push my wheelchair
so I can get around.
01:23:05.355 --> 01:23:06.481
[Trevor groans]
It's kind of wild when it's like
01:23:06.564 --> 01:23:08.691
you're wheelchair bound
and then you’re just like
01:23:09.484 --> 01:23:10.735
“Oh there goes one arm.”
01:23:11.653 --> 01:23:15.156
But transfer still
independently, it’s like
01:23:16.950 --> 01:23:19.077
the rest of my,
like half my body doesn't work
01:23:19.160 --> 01:23:20.662
now you're taking out
another limb?
01:23:21.162 --> 01:23:22.163
[Trevor laughing]
You know what I mean?
01:23:22.622 --> 01:23:23.998
Then it’s like dude
01:23:24.082 --> 01:23:27.335
you're down to like
one out of four working limbs.
01:23:29.045 --> 01:23:30.839
It's definitely a wakeup call
too I guess but
01:23:31.840 --> 01:23:33.675
am I gonna stop
doing what I'm doing? No.
01:23:34.593 --> 01:23:36.400
[acoustic guitar plays]
01:23:41.057 --> 01:23:43.685
[Bob] When I met Barry
in the early ‘90s
01:23:43.768 --> 01:23:46.646
his shoulders were
already starting to go.
01:23:47.147 --> 01:23:49.315
He was already
starting to wear out.
01:23:50.567 --> 01:23:52.360
[Dr. Butt] In his latter years
01:23:52.443 --> 01:23:55.488
in spite of being
in a power chair
01:23:55.572 --> 01:23:57.949
he really was
at peace with himself.
01:23:58.366 --> 01:24:02.078
Not fighting the injury,
fighting who he was
01:24:02.579 --> 01:24:05.582
but really so much
more comfortable
01:24:05.666 --> 01:24:07.209
in his own personhood.
01:24:11.296 --> 01:24:13.047
[Bob] Somewhere around 2003
01:24:13.131 --> 01:24:15.091
Barry was diagnosed
with bladder cancer.
01:24:17.051 --> 01:24:18.511
The doctor told Barry
01:24:18.595 --> 01:24:20.221
the toll it was gonna take
01:24:20.305 --> 01:24:22.932
that it was going to
make his already frail body
01:24:23.016 --> 01:24:24.976
much worse with the chemo.
01:24:27.270 --> 01:24:30.690
And at that point, they knew
it was pretty widespread.
01:24:30.773 --> 01:24:33.943
He elected not to do
further treatment.
01:24:38.740 --> 01:24:40.700
[Dr. Hornbein sniffles]
And that was it.
01:24:43.203 --> 01:24:44.078
[Roger sighs] Well…
01:24:46.164 --> 01:24:47.582
What can I say?
01:24:47.665 --> 01:24:51.044
I miss him, a lot.
01:24:51.127 --> 01:24:53.213
You know meeting Barry
01:24:53.296 --> 01:24:55.131
and going into business with him
01:24:55.215 --> 01:25:00.470
and becoming
close friends with him is…
01:25:02.096 --> 01:25:04.140
the highlight of my life.
01:25:05.016 --> 01:25:06.434
[sighs] He'd be pissed
at me for crying.
01:25:06.518 --> 01:25:07.561
[Bob laughs]
01:25:07.644 --> 01:25:14.192
Um… the wild thing
is I got word of that
01:25:14.275 --> 01:25:18.821
and about four days later
my wife says
01:25:18.905 --> 01:25:20.490
“You got this letter.”
01:25:20.573 --> 01:25:26.496
From Barry… startling,
two weeks after his death.
01:25:32.043 --> 01:25:35.004
[Dr. Butt sniffles] Okay.
"Dear friends
01:25:35.088 --> 01:25:37.133
a very large part of my life
01:25:37.216 --> 01:25:40.803
is the friendships
that develop over the years."
01:25:40.927 --> 01:25:44.597
"As many of you already know
my life is now over.
01:25:44.681 --> 01:25:46.849
The reason you're getting
this letter is that
01:25:46.933 --> 01:25:49.978
yours is one of the friendships
I've treasured
01:25:50.061 --> 01:25:52.021
and I want you to know that."
01:25:53.015 --> 01:25:54.608
[Dr. Butt] "I'm
a little saddened
01:25:54.691 --> 01:25:55.901
to be leaving a little earlier
01:25:56.006 --> 01:25:59.487
than expected,
but feel no sense of tragedy.
01:25:59.570 --> 01:26:02.699
I've lived a lot longer
than I ever could have
01:26:02.783 --> 01:26:04.201
or would have predicted
01:26:05.103 --> 01:26:09.065
36 years ago
after the helicopter crash.
01:26:09.789 --> 01:26:12.750
I have no fears for my children
01:26:12.834 --> 01:26:15.003
who are all embarked
on their own roads
01:26:15.086 --> 01:26:18.798
and doing it with
astonishing style and grace."
01:26:18.881 --> 01:26:23.219
[Bob] "I've had love
overflowing, impassioned careers
01:26:23.303 --> 01:26:27.181
a life of adventure
and everything I’ve ever wanted.
01:26:27.265 --> 01:26:29.767
Nothing missed, no regrets."
01:26:32.937 --> 01:26:34.147
[Dr Butt] "My love to you all
01:26:34.230 --> 01:26:35.815
Signed, Barry."
01:26:36.774 --> 01:26:37.608
"Barry."
01:26:38.693 --> 01:26:40.486
And that was him.
01:26:41.446 --> 01:26:42.906
If I could have done it
in his voice
01:26:42.990 --> 01:26:44.574
it would have been just casual
01:26:44.699 --> 01:26:47.118
with kind of a smile
in the background.
01:26:53.082 --> 01:26:54.543
[Dr. Hornbein] In the obit
that I wrote
01:26:54.626 --> 01:26:56.461
for The American Alpine
Club Journal
01:26:56.586 --> 01:27:00.048
I had to pause and wonder
01:27:00.131 --> 01:27:02.926
what Barry's life
might have been
01:27:03.010 --> 01:27:04.887
if he had not been paralyzed.
01:27:08.014 --> 01:27:11.100
[Jennifer] Dad divided his life
into two sections.
01:27:11.184 --> 01:27:13.603
There was his first life
which was pre-accident
01:27:13.686 --> 01:27:16.272
and his second life
which was post-accident.
01:27:16.356 --> 01:27:18.775
And it wasn't until
his later years
01:27:18.858 --> 01:27:21.527
that he really considered
it to be one life.
01:27:22.570 --> 01:27:24.572
It was all as he
would have said
01:27:24.655 --> 01:27:26.616
“part and parcel
of the same thing.”
01:27:27.950 --> 01:27:29.369
I did ask him one time
01:27:29.452 --> 01:27:32.248
which half of his life
meant more to him
01:27:32.372 --> 01:27:35.249
and I mean he said it was
the second half of his life.
01:27:36.584 --> 01:27:39.170
He had learned so much
and grown so much.
01:27:40.630 --> 01:27:46.010
He gave hope to people
with spinal cord injury
01:27:46.094 --> 01:27:48.262
around the world
and continues to.
01:27:49.972 --> 01:27:52.934
He taught doctors,
he taught insurance companies
01:27:53.017 --> 01:27:56.687
he taught regular old people
how to look at disability
01:27:56.771 --> 01:27:58.773
in new ways
that they'd never thought of.
01:28:00.817 --> 01:28:03.236
[Muffy] It was never his goal
to be a leader.
01:28:03.319 --> 01:28:04.987
He became one but
01:28:05.071 --> 01:28:07.824
the point for him was
what he was doing.
01:28:07.907 --> 01:28:10.743
He didn't announce himself
as being a leader
01:28:10.827 --> 01:28:13.079
follow me, but people did.
01:28:16.874 --> 01:28:18.001
Among skiers
01:28:18.085 --> 01:28:21.255
Barry's legacy lives
in Corbet's Couloir
01:28:21.379 --> 01:28:23.172
but he left so much more behind.
01:28:25.133 --> 01:28:27.343
[Jennifer] Ski The Outer Limits
is so much about
01:28:27.427 --> 01:28:29.512
pushing edges,
and being willing to
01:28:30.012 --> 01:28:31.556
reinvent things. And…
01:28:32.056 --> 01:28:35.268
I think pushing limits
was part of Dad’s nature.
01:28:37.770 --> 01:28:41.816
He really made people
rethink disability
01:28:41.899 --> 01:28:45.903
and I think the world
will never be the same for that.
01:28:50.241 --> 01:28:52.535
[Roger] Barry's legacy
is taking a
01:28:53.370 --> 01:28:55.998
terrible accident
and turning it into
01:28:56.122 --> 01:28:59.793
a wonderful gift
to everybody that
01:28:59.793 --> 01:29:01.711
has followed
with a similar accident.
01:29:03.005 --> 01:29:04.046
Giving them hope.
01:29:05.715 --> 01:29:07.592
He gave them something
they didn't have.
01:29:09.582 --> 01:29:10.793
[Trevor sighs]
01:29:30.657 --> 01:29:33.784
It's pretty crazy looking back
at everything you know?
01:29:34.660 --> 01:29:35.953
[Trevor sniffles]
01:29:38.998 --> 01:29:45.087
I’m just so thankful…
to be where I am right now.
01:29:55.515 --> 01:29:57.517
You don't know what
you have until it’s gone.
01:29:58.017 --> 01:29:58.935
No one does.
01:29:59.435 --> 01:30:00.728
But looking back on it
01:30:02.063 --> 01:30:04.190
I'm injured,
and I’m in a wheelchair
01:30:04.273 --> 01:30:05.775
and it's like dude,
I do more than
01:30:06.402 --> 01:30:07.819
half the able-bodied people do.
01:30:07.944 --> 01:30:09.487
You know it is just,
it's a mentality.
01:30:09.570 --> 01:30:11.072
It's just you go get stuff done.
01:30:19.872 --> 01:30:21.582
I was definitely scared
to come back here.
01:30:23.000 --> 01:30:23.960
Very scared.
01:30:25.795 --> 01:30:28.005
This place has taken
so much away from me
01:30:28.089 --> 01:30:30.925
and you know
I want to come back here
01:30:31.008 --> 01:30:34.011
I want to…
make myself whole again.
01:30:36.097 --> 01:30:38.015
I want to close that circle
01:30:38.099 --> 01:30:40.059
and make my heart
not hurt anymore.
01:30:43.813 --> 01:30:45.898
[Roy] Take that day
that you had this injury
01:30:45.982 --> 01:30:48.109
and then how do you
grow from that?
01:30:50.573 --> 01:30:52.739
What if you could get back
to the sport you love
01:30:52.811 --> 01:30:55.481
in the place that changed
your life forever?
01:30:56.492 --> 01:30:58.452
How empowering could that be?
01:30:59.409 --> 01:31:00.788
And I think that's just like
01:31:00.871 --> 01:31:02.999
what Trevor took as an idea
01:31:03.083 --> 01:31:04.960
and took it
to the highest level.
01:31:08.797 --> 01:31:10.632
One of Trevor's biggest goals
01:31:10.715 --> 01:31:14.511
was to become
the first person ever to land
01:31:14.844 --> 01:31:16.430
a double backflip in a sit ski.
01:31:18.514 --> 01:31:20.975
And Vail Pass
was the place to do it.
01:31:24.186 --> 01:31:25.688
[Olga] He said, “Mom
01:31:27.815 --> 01:31:28.608
this is…
01:31:30.985 --> 01:31:33.237
my mountain,
this is where I broke my back.
01:31:33.321 --> 01:31:38.159
And I came back,
and I persevered my injury.
01:31:38.826 --> 01:31:41.370
I persevered what happened Mom.
01:31:41.871 --> 01:31:43.247
I've accomplished…
01:31:45.374 --> 01:31:46.459
and I'm back Mom.
01:31:49.003 --> 01:31:49.879
I'm back.”
01:32:02.433 --> 01:32:03.684
[Olga] Nice job babe.
01:32:03.768 --> 01:32:04.977
I'm proud of you.
01:32:05.061 --> 01:32:07.146
[Trevor] Check the jump out Mom.
01:32:07.229 --> 01:32:11.317
[Olga gasps] Oh--
Oh my god.
01:32:11.400 --> 01:32:18.157
Trevor, Trevor. Jesus.
01:32:18.616 --> 01:32:20.284
You've gotta be kidding me.
01:32:20.785 --> 01:32:22.244
Where are you gonna land?
01:32:22.370 --> 01:32:26.123
Oh my god Trevor, wow.
01:32:26.624 --> 01:32:29.085
There's the jump, right there.
01:32:30.753 --> 01:32:33.130
[producer] So hey guys,
we’re like two minutes out
01:32:33.214 --> 01:32:35.549
from Trevor speed checking.
01:32:35.633 --> 01:32:37.219
I'm gonna leave it
up to you all
01:32:37.302 --> 01:32:38.928
to help Trevor get ready
01:32:39.053 --> 01:32:40.721
so I can shoot
and get in position.
01:32:43.349 --> 01:32:44.517
[Trevor] Push it in.
01:32:44.600 --> 01:32:45.893
Alright, ready one, two, three.
01:32:52.566 --> 01:32:54.402
[man] Where are you
planning on taking off the lip?
01:32:56.987 --> 01:32:57.863
When you hit it
01:32:57.947 --> 01:33:00.616
where's your ideal spot
you're looking to hit it doggy?
01:33:01.492 --> 01:33:03.661
That's what I always like to do
is pick out where I’m headed.
01:33:03.744 --> 01:33:05.454
[Trevor] So I just have to be…
01:33:05.538 --> 01:33:08.082
when I come in, come in,
come in, pop!
01:33:08.165 --> 01:33:10.418
You know just pop,
and then just hold.
01:33:10.501 --> 01:33:12.670
Once I see it,
I just want to make sure I--
01:33:12.753 --> 01:33:13.921
[man] Have enough air time.
01:33:14.046 --> 01:33:15.923
[Trevor] I will,
I think I will but
01:33:16.006 --> 01:33:17.550
I just wanna make sure,
you know.
01:33:20.720 --> 01:33:23.806
[man] Boom yo! Yessir.
01:33:23.889 --> 01:33:26.726
[Trevor] Alright,
I’m ready for it dude.
01:33:31.079 --> 01:33:33.599
[narrator] Your injury
is an epic thing.
01:33:35.527 --> 01:33:37.820
It reeks of mythic heroism.
01:33:39.488 --> 01:33:40.531
Wanna be a hero?
01:33:42.950 --> 01:33:45.619
The fact is…
you have little choice.
01:33:48.080 --> 01:33:50.154
Having died to a portion
of the past
01:33:51.333 --> 01:33:53.836
having passed
through the fires of initiation
01:33:53.919 --> 01:33:55.505
and prevailed over all obstacles
01:33:56.214 --> 01:33:57.966
the hero is ready
to make visible
01:33:58.049 --> 01:34:00.051
his rebirth as a more
complete being
01:34:00.676 --> 01:34:01.970
by returning to the world.
01:34:04.388 --> 01:34:05.724
We are the twice born.
01:34:07.267 --> 01:34:08.477
We represent to humanity
01:34:08.560 --> 01:34:10.729
its greatest fears
of catastrophe
01:34:10.853 --> 01:34:12.814
and its greatest hopes
of transcendence.
01:34:14.399 --> 01:34:16.693
We have embarked
upon the hero's path
01:34:16.776 --> 01:34:18.236
and we have no choice.
01:34:20.196 --> 01:34:21.281
To others
01:34:21.364 --> 01:34:23.116
our transcendence
is the proof of our
01:34:23.263 --> 01:34:24.660
heroic energy and direction.
01:34:26.536 --> 01:34:28.497
[narrator] To ourselves
01:34:28.580 --> 01:34:29.539
our energy and direction
01:34:29.623 --> 01:34:31.874
derive from
the need to transcend
01:34:33.417 --> 01:34:35.420
because there’s
no other way to survive.
01:34:36.504 --> 01:34:38.964
[radio] Berman here
can I get a status check?
01:34:39.048 --> 01:34:39.966
Status check, please.
01:34:44.178 --> 01:34:47.098
[radio] Still holding up top.
01:34:49.350 --> 01:34:51.018
[man] Just let me know
when you're 30 or so out.
01:34:56.106 --> 01:34:56.941
[Trevor exhales deeply] Alright.
01:34:57.024 --> 01:34:57.817
[man] Ready?
01:34:59.485 --> 01:35:00.986
30 seconds until drop
01:35:01.070 --> 01:35:03.989
30 seconds then there’ll be
a five second countdown.
01:35:06.116 --> 01:35:06.951
[Trevor exhales]
01:35:08.786 --> 01:35:10.246
[man] You've got this dude.
01:35:16.293 --> 01:35:18.546
[man] Everybody is ready to go.
01:35:18.629 --> 01:35:19.463
Everybody ready.
01:35:22.925 --> 01:35:23.551
[radio] Copy.
01:35:24.844 --> 01:35:26.178
Ready, ready, ready.
01:35:28.473 --> 01:35:29.474
Ready down here.
01:35:31.142 --> 01:35:32.561
Ready up here.
01:35:35.813 --> 01:35:36.647
[man] Yeah brother.
01:35:36.690 --> 01:35:39.401
Alright, dropping
in five seconds.
01:35:39.484 --> 01:35:40.985
Dropping in five seconds.
01:35:42.320 --> 01:35:44.447
-[man] Drop in five, four…
-[Trevor] Let’s do this baby.
01:35:44.572 --> 01:35:47.950
[man] Three, two,
one, dropping in.
01:35:48.033 --> 01:35:49.411
[orchestral music builds]
01:36:01.463 --> 01:36:04.925
[radio] Three, two, one…
01:36:24.028 --> 01:36:25.738
[muffled cheering]
01:36:41.420 --> 01:36:42.672
[Trevor cheers]
01:36:43.632 --> 01:36:44.758
[Trevor yelling] Woo!
01:36:45.633 --> 01:36:47.217
[Trevor] Let's go!
01:36:47.302 --> 01:36:49.429
[Ashley and Olga cheering]
01:36:51.139 --> 01:36:52.766
[Trevor cheering]
01:36:54.951 --> 01:36:56.197
[Trevor laughing] Let's go!
01:36:57.270 --> 01:36:59.188
[Ashley] That was
fucking insane.
01:36:59.271 --> 01:37:00.814
-[Olga laughing]
-[Trevor] Let's go!
01:37:00.899 --> 01:37:03.443
[friend and Trevor laughing]
01:37:03.526 --> 01:37:05.153
Oh, let's go!
01:37:09.114 --> 01:37:09.949
Wow.
01:37:10.492 --> 01:37:12.201
[Ashley] Nice job Trevy.
01:37:12.786 --> 01:37:14.954
[Trevor] I may or may not
have cried over there.
01:37:16.080 --> 01:37:17.290
-[Trevor exhales deeply]
-[Ashley] I’m so proud of you.
01:37:17.373 --> 01:37:18.708
Oh my goodness.
01:37:19.668 --> 01:37:21.001
[Trevor] Redemption Mom.
01:37:21.085 --> 01:37:23.045
-[Olga] Redemption.
-[Trevor] Redemption.
01:37:27.007 --> 01:37:29.802
[narrator] The last hot tip,
final admonishment
01:37:29.885 --> 01:37:31.220
and parting shot.
01:37:34.515 --> 01:37:37.643
Of course we don’t
often choose our adventures.
01:37:39.061 --> 01:37:41.355
The best adventures befall us.
01:37:45.484 --> 01:37:48.237
A parallel trick
of living with a disability
01:37:48.320 --> 01:37:51.323
is to see all and everything
as an adventure.
01:37:52.783 --> 01:37:54.703
One that endows every moment
01:37:55.411 --> 01:37:57.330
with all the most
adventuresome qualities.
01:37:58.706 --> 01:38:03.043
Uncertainty and risk,
richness and joy
01:38:04.253 --> 01:38:05.921
deliberation and daring.
01:38:08.716 --> 01:38:10.968
We crystallize for ourselves
and for others
01:38:11.635 --> 01:38:13.887
the real fact and fear
of calamity.
01:38:15.514 --> 01:38:19.435
If we reinforce this image,
we invite sympathy and sorrow.
01:38:21.228 --> 01:38:22.271
If we proceed apace
01:38:23.188 --> 01:38:26.900
we are inspirations…
to everyone.
01:38:29.361 --> 01:38:31.905
We should not
be afraid to inspire.
01:38:34.950 --> 01:38:36.535
The world needs it badly
01:38:38.037 --> 01:38:41.373
and we need the experience
of giving extravagantly.
01:38:44.209 --> 01:38:46.378
Our gift to the world
01:38:46.462 --> 01:38:50.799
is the world's gift… to us.
01:38:51.592 --> 01:38:55.345
Everybody, able-bodied
and disabled alike
01:38:57.347 --> 01:39:00.059
should take the money and run.
01:39:04.313 --> 01:39:09.151
Barry Corbet, Lookout Mountain,
Colorado, 1980.
01:39:42.684 --> 01:39:45.145
[”Who I am” playing]
01:40:15.843 --> 01:40:18.679
♪ I am imaginary boundaries ♪
01:40:20.472 --> 01:40:22.850
♪ I am peculiarly drawn ♪
01:40:26.895 --> 01:40:29.481
♪ I am a cause
for some discomfort ♪
01:40:31.985 --> 01:40:34.111
♪ I am a need for public works ♪
01:40:37.907 --> 01:40:39.868
♪ I need directions
to the hospital ♪
01:40:42.620 --> 01:40:44.705
♪ I need a 90's mini van ♪
01:40:48.584 --> 01:40:50.669
♪ I need directions
to the water ♪
01:40:53.422 --> 01:40:55.340
♪ And I need a trailer
in the sand ♪
01:40:56.592 --> 01:40:57.635
♪ It's what I am ♪
01:41:21.492 --> 01:41:23.786
♪ I am avoiding certain irony ♪
01:41:26.664 --> 01:41:28.540
♪ I am evolving in the night ♪
01:41:32.628 --> 01:41:34.756
♪ I am awarding the authority ♪
01:41:37.717 --> 01:41:39.635
♪ I am completely in the fight ♪
01:41:43.639 --> 01:41:45.766
♪ I need a local anesthesia ♪
01:41:48.519 --> 01:41:50.396
♪ I need a place
to stay the night ♪
01:41:54.067 --> 01:41:56.069
♪ I need an alternate reality ♪
01:41:58.821 --> 01:42:00.698
♪ And I need
an incandescent light ♪
01:42:04.953 --> 01:42:06.913
♪ I need a world that shows me ♪
01:42:10.625 --> 01:42:12.877
♪ All of the reasons
that it chose me ♪
01:42:16.172 --> 01:42:18.091
♪ I need a world that shows me ♪
01:42:21.427 --> 01:42:23.679
♪ All of the seasons
of the old me ♪
01:42:26.682 --> 01:42:28.851
♪ I need a world that shows me ♪
01:42:30.895 --> 01:42:33.022
♪ A brand new way
to give a damn ♪
01:42:34.941 --> 01:42:36.109
♪ It’s what I am ♪