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(twigs snapping)
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Daughter: Dad?
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♪ (soft wistful music) ♪
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Dad, I don't know
if you remember this.
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I was in Grade Two and
my classmate got sick,
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and you were called
over the intercom
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to clean up the mess.
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Intercom Voice: Janitor
to room B12 please.
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Daughter: There was
a pencil on my desk.
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I remember pushing
it off my desk
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so that when you
came into the room
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I could look for my pencil.
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(foot steps)
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I was afraid all the other kids
would find out you were my dad.
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Do you remember that?
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You used to say we were lucky
because our house number was 88.
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A symbol of prosperity.
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But I didn't feel lucky.
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Do you remember when you
would see me in the halls
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and call out my Japanese name?
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Classmate: Is that her dad?
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Classmate 2: Why is
he calling her Mayu?
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Daughter: I hated
your broken English,
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your rough exterior,
your 'Japaneseness.'
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I lived in fear
of people asking me,
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what does your dad do?
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Because I thought
it would define me.
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My social status,
my intellect
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and my ambitions.
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I wanted you to be the
dad who wore a suit,
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carried a briefcase,
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drove to your
downtown office job,
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played golf on the weekends.
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I wanted you to be the
Japanese salary man,
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or the quiet, noble
and wise Japanese Sensei.
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But that wasn't you.
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(seagull squawking)
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I covered you up and
hid your identity.
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I disguised my shame by
becoming the opposite of you.
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I dressed myself in an exterior
of cool and cleanliness,
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because I didn't
want to look poor.
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And by doing so, I rejected you,
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and I became the daughter
of the father I wanted.
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(paper tearing)
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(wind gusting)
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(sofa squeaks, TV turns on)
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(fizzle)
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Daughter: I never had this
conversation with my dad.
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♪ (chimes) ♪
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He was right.
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We were lucky.
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I just wish I had told him that.
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One of my favourite
memories of us is
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mushroom foraging in the summer.
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He would show us
how to find Matsutake,
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the rare and elusive
pine mushroom.
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♪ (soft wistful music) ♪
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(footsteps)
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Dad?
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Dad?
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(twigs crunching)
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♪ (soft wistful music) ♪
