Out of State
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Shipped thousands of miles away from the tropical islands of Hawaii to a private prison in the Arizona desert, two native Hawaiians discover their indigenous traditions from a fellow inmate serving a life sentence. It's from this unlikely setting that David and Hale finish their terms and return to Hawaii, hoping for a fresh start. Eager to prove to themselves and to their families that this experience has changed them forever, David and Hale struggle with the hurdles of life as formerly incarcerated men, asking the question: can you really go home again?
Educational Media Reviews Online (EMRO) | Reviewed by Brad Eden, Ph.D., Independent Scholar and Librarian, Valparaiso, IN
"This film looks at the criminal justice system and incarceration policy in Hawaii with regard to its native population. Native Hawaiians who break the law, especially those who are male, are shipped thousands of miles to a private prison in the Arizona desert to serve their sentences. Disturbing statistics indicate a negative bias and an over-representation of native Hawaiians as inmates or parolees. Two men caught in this web of ethical and criminal prejudice are profiled as they attempt to reintegrate themselves back into Hawaiian society after their incarceration in Arizona. I highly recommend this movie for higher education classes in criminal justice, men's studies, indigenous studies, and Pacific Islander studies."
Video Librarian ★★★
T. Keogh
"Lacy’s access to so many personal moments behind bars and in the lives of her two subjects is remarkable. A powerful documentary, this is recommended."
Library Journal | Joshua Peck, Pioneer Library System
"Out of State follows a small group of men on their shared journeys inside and outside prison. Recommended for all libraries in Hawaii and with Hawaiian populations."
Asian/Pacific/American Institute at NYU | Amita Manghnani
"Out of State is a gripping portrayal of life for Native Hawaiians under U.S. occupation, and within the U.S. criminal justice system. Through the stories of David and Hale, the film weaves together some of the most critical issues of our moment -- mass incarceration, rapidly growing economic inequality, Hawaiian sovereignty, and Indigenous cultural resurgence. Out of State is a powerful teaching and organizing tool to further understanding of the way that empire both operates and is resisted."
CINEMACY | Morgan Rojas
"Exposing the wisdom and hardships they gained throughout their turbulent journey, Out of State is a film worth rooting for... Ciara Lacy is a native Hawaiian and her approach in humanizing and sympathizing with convicted criminals is a testament to her directorial skills."
Yerba Buena High School | Student Testimonials
"The film was great, it gave me insight as to what it's like in prison and how it changes people's lives. It gave me a whole new view on the Hawaiian culture because of how dedicated they can be to their culture. I liked the performances and am now wanting to watch one live. I felt sympathy for those who changed. It's sad that they learned about their culture in prison. This made me think about the world's whole colonization problem. The movie overall was interesting and kept my attention."
"I enjoyed watching Out of State because everyone tells me if you go to prison you'll never be able to get back on your feet but this movie shows that they’re wrong. You can get back on your feet."
"Out of State was a great film, because it has serous topics that I feel like our community can relate to like drugs and incarceration, and to me personally I have some family members that have gone through it. The film is also great because it shows that people can change and you don't have to let your past determine your future."
Citation
Main credits
Lacy, Ciara (film director)
Lacy, Ciara (film producer)
Bassett, Beau (film producer)
Kahalewai, David (on-screen participant)
Gualdarama, Genaro (on-screen participant)
Vance, Eric (on-screen participant)
Other credits
Director of photography, Chapin Hall; editors, Jeff Consiglio, Sara Booth, Jason Zeldes; music, Tyler Strickland.
Distributor subjects
Criminal Justice; Men’s Studies; Mental Health; American Studies; Indigenous Studies; Pacific Islander StudiesKeywords
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[sound of ocean waves]
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You can see this area right here.
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It was something before.
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See the way the rock
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formations are?
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Maybe it was like a bath area, a
bathing pool area or something.
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And sometimes I come down
and check it out and
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stay in the water and…
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Nothing like the beach, man.
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It’s
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a release for me.
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My Mom used to tell me the story of how
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we went camping one time, and
I think I was like maybe five
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or six or something.
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She woke up in the middle of
the night, and I was gone
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I was in the water
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And she was screaming her head off,
“What you doing in the water?”
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And I kept telling her “the
water was calling me, Ma.”
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[Laugh]
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[ ♫ ]
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They call it
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kapukai.
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When you dive into the
water and cleanse yourself
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and you heal.
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[ ♫ ]
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You forgive yourself for a
lot of stuff that you did,
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yeah.
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And I think I had to go to
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the ends of the earth so to speak and
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hit bottom
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to really find out who I was.
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[ ♫ ]
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[traffic noise]
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[men talking]
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What unit are you in?
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Are you native American?
No, this is Hawaii.
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Native Americans I want someplace else.
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Native Hawaiian goes here,
native American here.
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Do we have any other natives?
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[officer speaking]
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They’re in alphabetical
order, practice your abcs.
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In alphabetical order and
the unit by your name.
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[men talking]
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[men talking]
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I didn’t know who I was.
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I wanted to know
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where did I come from.
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[conch shell sound]
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Who am I
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inside?
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[conch shell sound]
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You need to know your culture
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to know who you really are.
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[stamp, stamp, clap]
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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[conch shell]
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[conch shell]
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[ ♫ ]
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I never knew one ounce of Hawaiian
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before I even came jail.
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I learned everything in jail
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One of my friends was real active
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in the Hawaiian class.
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He was my alaka’i.
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He told me “eh, sign up.”
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[crowd noise]
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This is the sink.
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Get one toilet.
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Nobody ever stands up.
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You always sit down when you go.
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Not much of a view,
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but we can see the road.
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And I get this one.
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Kinda like this one.
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Shows all the
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Hawaiian journey
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back home.
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The Hōkūle‘a voyage.
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You know what I mean – the Hawaiian people,
they were a beautiful people, man.
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And they still are, we
just struggling right now
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and we need to find ourselves.
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I asked my daughter for
pictures of my grandkids.
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This is my mo‘opuna,
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Jeremiah
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and Janine.
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And,
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Pretty much that’s all the
pictures I got right now, cause
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everybody busy at home, eh?
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[ Hawaiian Chanting]
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Ha‘a is the Hawaiian bombastic dance.
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It’s aggressive
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but
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you’re not acting out.
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You’re letting them know
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the pain you feel inside of you about
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what you went through in your life.
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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[ ♫ ]
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When I had my kids, my daughter
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she was my baby.
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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I was working for my friend.
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He used to remodel homes
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Everyone in the work force
was pretty much hooked
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on ice.
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We had a place and
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she was pregnant and we were
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both using and then it
started going downhill
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after that. I think I
went on a 20 year run,
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just went crazy,
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in and out of jail, doing drugs
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picking up charges and then
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finally ending up here. You know?
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Hawaiian chanting
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[chanting]
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(applause from other inmates)
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[David giving direction for makahiki]
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[Hale] You know the first day I went there,
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I watched him do the Ha‘a
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and I was instantly drawn to it.
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I said I wanna learn this.
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Everybody should be involved
because it’s the people.
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But I would never
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have learned it
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if I wasn’t in prison.
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That’s messed up.
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Why couldn’t I have learned my
culture when I was outside?
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And the simple answer to that is
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because I was getting more progressive
with the drinking and the drugs
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Hale (talking to inmates):
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back in to the regular triangle, eh?
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Ho’omau mau.
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I always took from people.
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That’s how I know how to
get what I wanted in life.
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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The more I understood our culture,
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the more I understood myself.
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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First and foremost, I
am Hawaiian, you know?
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[Hawaiian Chanting]
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Kalani: You guys
warmed up already yeah?
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OK, one more and then we do the warm up.
You guys’ legs gonna burn.
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And make sure you guys snap ‘um!
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Jake, when you guys stay up here
and you guys ku iluna,
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make sure you guys bring ‘um
down with one da kine, yeah?
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K?
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It’s a big responsibility
being kumu hula yeah?
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Some people never even got chance
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for know things
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like this and yet they’re Hawaiian yeah?
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[ipo sounds]
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(chanting)
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Teaching them our culture. I love to do it.
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[chanting with dance]
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So in here it shows all
my steps and the moves
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of all the hula
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that they they learn.
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This all of my work and then
I make sure that all the
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people get this
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and I refer them to the books
that they need to read.
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My time is really long,
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I have a life sentence.
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So I have 120 years
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and the minimum is
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45.
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I’ll be here
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quite some time.
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For
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my family,
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my kids and everything
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This was a disaster.
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It was a disaster.
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Yeah, this is my home right here.
It’s my home.
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[chanting]
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[Kalani] So every dance I do with these
guys and every time I come
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to this place,
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it takes me away.
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(chanting, dancing)
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[Ka‘iana] We’re not waiting for
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permission to be indigenous people
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We are indigenous and the only
way we’re going to be recognized
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is to stand up and say it.
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[Man] Majority of us in here
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did things
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that caused us to come in here.
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Eh, hands down. We not going deny that.
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However, we much more than these
brown khakis that we using.
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A lot of us in here is kānaka
maoli and we love our culture
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and we know and we recognize
that that’s the only
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thing that going heal us.
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Get our feet back on the ground
and our head out of the clouds.
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[David] For me, I was carrying a lot of
baggage over the 20 years that I been
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in the system
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and that all gotta get released
first, you gotta kīloi
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that first before you can
go out there and try be
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something pono.
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The hula, the ha’a,
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the spirituality.
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And we can have that process starting here.
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[Ka‘iana] Right, And outside,
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where do we begin?
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We get used to being locked up
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I’ve seen it way too many times happen
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on the outside.
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Spin, right back in the door.
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And the guys who’ve been through prison,
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you definitely have some
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measure of Post Traumatic
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Stress Disorder, trauma!
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You have to have a plan.
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“Oh, I’m going to get out and
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go back to my family and get
a job and I’ll be fine”.
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Some of the families may not
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feel that way
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and as far as getting a job,
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not so easy.
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Sometimes you gotta release the pressure.
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Try um again, boss?
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And we got a nightlight out over here…
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Called you to pack up yet?
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Not yet,
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probably tomorrow.
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They did a max-outs, yeah?
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Are you on your max out date yet?
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No, I got paroled.
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Stay out of trouble when you get home, bro.
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Yeah, I got a job so
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David: It’s gonna be good.
Boss: That’s half the battle right there.
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Hello?
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David: Vina!
Devina (on phone): Hi Dad!
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Hey
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Hi Dad!
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Finally got you!
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Um
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I just wanted to let you know that um…
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they haven’t packed me up yet,
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I’m still waiting and I’m hopeful that
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they’re going to call my name, so
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so everybody just gotta stand by and wait.
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That means that you might not
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be on this flight?
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Maybe,
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but I’m hopeful,
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and um…
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When is the flight?
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Next week.
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When is the next flight?
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Probably three months from now.
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Oh.
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But I miss you,
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I miss talking to you.
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Thank you dad.
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How’s the babies?
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Big.
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Who’s that? Jairus?
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Give them a kiss from me.
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Mommy…
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Ma mama…
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Who are you?
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This is Papa, honey.
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Oh, what’s Papa?
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I love you.
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I love you.
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I love you honey.
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Ok, love you too, bye.
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Her mother and I
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split up
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while she was like
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real young.
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She practically grew up on her own.
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I was not really
00:19:25.660 --> 00:19:27.040
in her life
00:19:27.530 --> 00:19:28.870
the way I should have been.
00:19:35.160 --> 00:19:36.350
I’m hopeful
00:19:36.390 --> 00:19:39.560
this time out.
00:19:41.640 --> 00:19:49.640
[ ♫ ]
00:21:04.630 --> 00:21:07.740
[ Guards talking ]
00:21:16.990 --> 00:21:24.760
[talking]
00:21:24.800 --> 00:21:25.880
Let’s do this
00:21:29.190 --> 00:21:37.190
[ ♫ ]
00:21:55.180 --> 00:21:56.190
Hey,
00:21:56.340 --> 00:22:03.140
[speaks in hawaiian]
00:22:06.630 --> 00:22:07.540
eh,
00:22:07.560 --> 00:22:09.610
no squeeze me hard, brah. no squeeze me.
00:22:10.350 --> 00:22:11.570
I love you,
00:22:11.980 --> 00:22:13.650
I love you too.
00:22:13.960 --> 00:22:15.480
K, go over there for sit down.
00:22:15.580 --> 00:22:16.590
I get something for you.
00:22:18.870 --> 00:22:22.230
You’re gonna have a smile on your face
00:22:22.560 --> 00:22:23.730
cause your oldest son
00:22:23.760 --> 00:22:24.940
do better this time.
00:22:24.970 --> 00:22:28.860
Instead of all the messed
up shit I was doing before.
00:22:28.920 --> 00:22:29.930
I messed up stuff.
00:22:30.850 --> 00:22:31.850
I sorry, yeah dad?
00:22:35.410 --> 00:22:36.420
I know I
00:22:40.070 --> 00:22:41.940
I bring shame to the family name.
00:22:44.380 --> 00:22:45.390
But I
00:22:45.590 --> 00:22:47.640
gon’ make up for that.
00:22:50.230 --> 00:22:51.240
I apologize
00:22:51.310 --> 00:22:52.320
to you.
00:22:52.600 --> 00:22:54.090
I had expectations.
00:22:55.830 --> 00:22:56.840
But
00:22:59.810 --> 00:23:01.200
I apologize for that,
00:23:01.390 --> 00:23:02.400
you know?
00:23:05.030 --> 00:23:06.360
That’s all in the past, Dad
00:23:06.390 --> 00:23:07.920
we gotta look forward
00:23:08.140 --> 00:23:09.140
Yeah?
00:23:09.710 --> 00:23:11.630
Yeah.
00:23:17.050 --> 00:23:18.480
[ chanting ]
00:23:42.150 --> 00:23:44.340
[David’s Dad claps ]
00:23:44.640 --> 00:23:48.140
Yep, there’s your grandchildren
00:23:49.410 --> 00:23:51.140
Hey!
00:24:01.240 --> 00:24:02.240
Gimme kiss!
00:24:02.320 --> 00:24:05.820
Gimme kiss!
00:24:05.850 --> 00:24:09.280
[ ♫ ]
00:24:09.380 --> 00:24:13.530
This is my daughter, Devina
00:24:22.770 --> 00:24:25.610
Pau!
00:24:27.000 --> 00:24:28.720
You know me?
00:24:28.760 --> 00:24:30.420
Papa.
00:24:30.460 --> 00:24:33.070
Say Papa. Papa?
00:24:33.150 --> 00:24:35.040
Papa.
00:24:36.570 --> 00:24:40.070
(David sings w/ ukulele)
00:24:40.100 --> 00:24:48.100
[ ♫ ]
00:25:26.990 --> 00:25:30.770
Eh, how you like my song, brah?
00:25:31.030 --> 00:25:33.010
Good?
00:25:33.670 --> 00:25:35.940
I love you, Dad. Happy!
00:25:42.160 --> 00:25:44.220
At least you don’t have school tomorrow.
00:25:44.490 --> 00:25:47.990
Tomorrow’s a holiday.
00:25:55.350 --> 00:25:58.560
Max out today cuz!
00:26:02.100 --> 00:26:05.470
Been drinking all morning.
00:26:05.490 --> 00:26:09.130
Don’t go back in, brah.
00:26:09.150 --> 00:26:10.950
Don’t go back in.
00:26:11.000 --> 00:26:16.180
[Man] No no… I don’t do drugs or anything…[David]
Everybody is going back in already brah.
00:26:16.200 --> 00:26:19.700
Nah, I see everybody come back in.
00:26:19.720 --> 00:26:23.220
Don’t worry, bro. I’m glad
you’re doing you, man.
00:26:26.280 --> 00:26:29.420
I didn’t expect that from you, bro
00:26:29.440 --> 00:26:33.690
Culture, cuz.
00:26:42.030 --> 00:26:43.040
This is my new job,
00:26:43.170 --> 00:26:44.430
Ho’omau ke ola.
00:26:44.640 --> 00:26:45.830
It’s a clean and sober house.
00:26:46.660 --> 00:26:49.080
Teaching the stuff that I
been doing to the young
00:26:49.120 --> 00:26:51.550
kānaka that are currently in rehab.
00:26:51.720 --> 00:26:53.370
Ok, so how we gonna make that happen?
00:26:53.450 --> 00:26:55.460
We gotta figure out how this
00:26:55.540 --> 00:26:56.320
going go.
00:26:56.350 --> 00:26:58.100
[Mona] It’s a “we” thing. [David] Alright.
00:26:59.420 --> 00:27:00.830
Well my speciality
00:27:01.070 --> 00:27:02.070
is ha’a
00:27:02.450 --> 00:27:04.260
And it’s spiritual.
00:27:04.810 --> 00:27:06.240
It’s gotta go with self first.
00:27:07.780 --> 00:27:08.900
Just for feed the spirit.
00:27:09.440 --> 00:27:10.450
[Mona] Let’s do it.
00:27:14.560 --> 00:27:16.750
[David] I move forward this way,
00:27:16.880 --> 00:27:18.380
now I’m gonna help my people
00:27:18.400 --> 00:27:19.920
get strong.
00:27:21.820 --> 00:27:22.840
So helping them to
00:27:22.870 --> 00:27:23.620
become strong
00:27:23.650 --> 00:27:24.920
helps me
00:27:25.170 --> 00:27:26.180
to be stronger.
00:27:26.930 --> 00:27:34.930
[ Hawaiian Chanting ]
00:27:48.420 --> 00:27:49.430
How you guys feel?
00:27:49.790 --> 00:27:50.540
Good
00:27:50.590 --> 00:27:51.940
You know what you gotta do?
00:27:52.230 --> 00:27:53.860
You gotta find one place for hanu.
00:27:54.710 --> 00:27:55.710
You get breaks, eh?
00:27:56.430 --> 00:28:00.790
[ Hawaiian ]
00:28:00.870 --> 00:28:01.880
Breathe in through your mouth.
00:28:02.000 --> 00:28:03.510
Cause once you start holding
00:28:03.710 --> 00:28:06.250
and you no can breathe,
next thing you know …
00:28:08.900 --> 00:28:16.900
[joking]
00:28:17.540 --> 00:28:19.540
Not to make fun of the chant!
00:28:23.000 --> 00:28:24.510
Good job!
00:28:26.990 --> 00:28:28.150
Love you boy!
00:28:28.210 --> 00:28:31.710
[Hawaiian singing]
00:28:31.730 --> 00:28:39.730
[ ♫ ]
00:29:05.460 --> 00:29:09.240
[Kalani] I always gonna be helping
people no matter what
00:29:09.730 --> 00:29:11.480
It really lifts our spirit up.
00:29:13.340 --> 00:29:14.960
A lot of us we’re struggling in here
00:29:15.030 --> 00:29:16.220
too and we’re just
00:29:16.250 --> 00:29:17.420
bearing with,
00:29:17.540 --> 00:29:18.550
improvising.
00:29:19.860 --> 00:29:21.160
I always try to help people
00:29:21.190 --> 00:29:23.120
go in the right direction
00:29:24.690 --> 00:29:26.650
and it keeps me busy, you know what I mean?
00:29:27.330 --> 00:29:28.970
Keeps me out of trouble.
00:29:29.300 --> 00:29:30.410
Yeah.
00:29:54.750 --> 00:30:02.750
[ ♫ ]
00:30:08.710 --> 00:30:12.670
[Hale] I been locked up 15 years.
00:30:16.210 --> 00:30:19.710
Honestly, brah, I’m nervous.
00:30:19.740 --> 00:30:23.240
Not gonna pretend that I’m not.
00:30:23.260 --> 00:30:31.260
[ ♫ ]
00:30:46.600 --> 00:30:47.740
I going be entering
00:30:47.770 --> 00:30:48.810
the work furlough program.
00:30:49.420 --> 00:30:50.790
Work furlough is
00:30:50.820 --> 00:30:52.270
transition from
00:30:52.290 --> 00:30:54.240
doing long term prison sentence
00:30:54.670 --> 00:30:55.920
out back into society.
00:30:56.810 --> 00:30:57.930
Every day I walk out
00:30:57.950 --> 00:30:59.530
the gate for go work,
00:31:01.320 --> 00:31:02.760
But I gotta always be back
00:31:02.980 --> 00:31:04.460
at the facility
00:31:04.490 --> 00:31:05.490
by 1:30 in the morning,
00:31:05.830 --> 00:31:09.330
No if ands or buts.
00:31:30.500 --> 00:31:38.500
[ ♫ ]
00:32:04.340 --> 00:32:07.270
Man, how this island changed so much!
00:32:07.800 --> 00:32:12.750
Nothing but buildings now, eh?
00:32:21.390 --> 00:32:22.590
Where’s home?
00:32:22.640 --> 00:32:24.000
Idaho
00:32:24.200 --> 00:32:25.250
Oooh,
00:32:25.280 --> 00:32:27.320
Home of the potatoes.
00:32:27.950 --> 00:32:30.960
Thanks to you folks I have potato salad.
00:32:30.980 --> 00:32:32.850
Nah, I’m just joking.
00:32:36.580 --> 00:32:40.080
You know what’s so funny is like
00:32:41.510 --> 00:32:44.610
I’ve been waiting all this time
- I want to come home.
00:32:46.660 --> 00:32:50.650
But right now, prison is home, yeah?
00:32:50.680 --> 00:32:54.400
Think about it. Some years
that I spent there.
00:32:54.440 --> 00:32:56.810
So where is home?
00:32:56.930 --> 00:32:59.500
You know what I mean?
00:33:54.930 --> 00:33:58.430
P.O (parole officer)
00:33:58.460 --> 00:34:01.960
Good good.
00:34:01.980 --> 00:34:04.720
How ‘bout you?
00:34:04.740 --> 00:34:08.680
Stay out, eh?
00:34:08.710 --> 00:34:10.700
Stay out then!
00:34:21.620 --> 00:34:29.620
[ ♫ ]
00:35:16.260 --> 00:35:24.260
[ David’s brother sings happy
birthday to Devina.]
00:35:26.180 --> 00:35:28.930
Happy Birthday!
00:35:29.050 --> 00:35:31.740
26 years. Wow.
00:35:31.790 --> 00:35:33.670
David: I think the happiest
time of my life was
00:35:34.410 --> 00:35:35.420
when I had my kids.
00:35:35.460 --> 00:35:37.250
Myah! Like swim?
00:35:37.280 --> 00:35:40.080
Go change your clothes.
00:35:41.430 --> 00:35:42.860
And my daughter,
00:35:43.070 --> 00:35:44.850
she got to open up to me
00:35:44.930 --> 00:35:46.030
to let me know about
00:35:46.080 --> 00:35:47.800
the pain she was going through
00:35:47.850 --> 00:35:49.320
the years that I was absent
00:35:49.380 --> 00:35:50.560
from her life.
00:35:51.690 --> 00:35:52.700
Vina!
00:35:53.880 --> 00:35:55.640
No crashing into anybody.
00:35:58.660 --> 00:35:59.670
I kinda just…
00:36:00.260 --> 00:36:01.270
It tore me up
00:36:01.300 --> 00:36:02.780
Cause I knew that I was
00:36:03.330 --> 00:36:04.900
that I was letting her down big time.
00:36:08.730 --> 00:36:09.740
But I gotta admit,
00:36:09.780 --> 00:36:10.860
it made her strong.
00:36:20.920 --> 00:36:22.750
She’s like really playing a big part
00:36:23.030 --> 00:36:24.460
in helping me with my
00:36:24.510 --> 00:36:25.520
transitioning out.
00:36:26.930 --> 00:36:27.930
I need that.
00:36:28.880 --> 00:36:30.220
It’s important to me.
00:36:32.830 --> 00:36:33.840
I never had that
00:36:33.860 --> 00:36:34.870
the other times.
00:36:35.480 --> 00:36:37.580
I came out on my own and
I always messed up.
00:36:38.410 --> 00:36:39.420
Cause
00:36:40.820 --> 00:36:43.590
that’s what happens when you
try things on your own.
00:36:48.580 --> 00:36:51.700
Devina: Self discipline is essential
to personal development,
00:36:51.890 --> 00:36:53.730
spiritual growth and
Christian service.
00:36:53.970 --> 00:36:54.900
However,
00:36:54.930 --> 00:36:57.310
self-discipline does
not just happen
00:36:57.510 --> 00:36:59.350
or appear as a natural trait.
00:36:59.460 --> 00:37:01.070
People must practice
00:37:01.100 --> 00:37:04.800
self-control in order to
lead disciplined lives.
00:37:07.440 --> 00:37:08.450
[ Jesus.]
00:37:08.750 --> 00:37:11.530
[ He was one in purpose and
mind with God, the Father.]
00:37:11.670 --> 00:37:12.680
[ Yet, ]
00:37:12.710 --> 00:37:14.350
[ God foresaw the misery ]
00:37:14.730 --> 00:37:17.080
[ Lucifer was about to introduce ]
00:37:17.100 --> 00:37:19.400
[ into the kingdom of Light.]
00:37:19.970 --> 00:37:22.520
[ we have here the verse ….]
00:37:22.760 --> 00:37:23.760
[ the prophesy ]
00:37:23.870 --> 00:37:25.290
[ about the Messiah ]
00:37:25.320 --> 00:37:27.070
[ in terms of when the
Messiah would come …]
00:37:29.530 --> 00:37:30.530
[ Verse 25 ]
00:37:31.600 --> 00:37:34.140
[ \"Know therefore and understand that…\" ]
00:37:34.310 --> 00:37:36.400
[Devina] Dad, are you multitasking?
00:37:37.340 --> 00:37:39.000
Can you listen at the same time?
00:37:40.280 --> 00:37:42.040
It’s not grabbing me, Vina, sorry.
00:37:42.260 --> 00:37:43.280
Cause…
00:37:43.310 --> 00:37:46.010
even though it’s not grabbing you,
this is something you have to learn
00:37:46.040 --> 00:37:47.240
in order to get baptized.
00:37:47.480 --> 00:37:49.190
You gonna get questioned on this …
00:37:49.250 --> 00:37:50.950
you told me you just
wanted me to listen
00:37:51.060 --> 00:37:52.080
Yeah, but
00:37:52.110 --> 00:37:54.280
you going be confused
when you go there.
00:37:55.550 --> 00:37:57.470
Cause everybody talking
about prophecies,
00:37:57.570 --> 00:37:59.500
it’s just going to be foreign.
00:37:59.740 --> 00:38:02.010
This is what we talk about all the time.
00:38:12.070 --> 00:38:14.820
[♫]
00:38:14.850 --> 00:38:16.880
[David] Mahalo ke akua,
nā kupuna, nā amakua
00:38:17.630 --> 00:38:19.840
Thank you to our God
for this moment,
00:38:20.010 --> 00:38:22.300
I especially want
to thank you for
00:38:23.160 --> 00:38:24.250
reuniting
00:38:25.240 --> 00:38:26.450
me and my family.
00:38:27.760 --> 00:38:29.340
Especially my daughter and I.
00:38:30.140 --> 00:38:33.690
[♫]
00:38:33.730 --> 00:38:35.890
Help us to rebuild our relationship
00:38:35.910 --> 00:38:37.250
and make it stronger
00:38:39.050 --> 00:38:40.070
through you.
00:38:41.350 --> 00:38:43.220
I thank you in your son’s name,
00:38:43.390 --> 00:38:44.560
amen.
00:38:46.440 --> 00:38:47.500
Hi D!
00:38:48.150 --> 00:38:49.440
[Devina] Hi Auntie!
00:38:50.350 --> 00:38:52.050
This is my Dad, David.
00:38:52.690 --> 00:38:53.690
Ipo,
00:38:54.740 --> 00:38:55.750
Marylou.
00:38:55.830 --> 00:38:56.870
David.
00:38:56.920 --> 00:38:58.920
They all help me with everything.
00:38:59.770 --> 00:39:01.370
They take care of me,
00:39:02.070 --> 00:39:03.220
everything.
00:39:04.280 --> 00:39:05.960
So this is my family.
00:39:09.540 --> 00:39:17.540
[♫]
00:39:20.070 --> 00:39:21.080
[Fence Door Opens]
00:39:27.050 --> 00:39:28.070
[Hale] In prison,
00:39:28.220 --> 00:39:30.290
there’s so much
restrictions on everything
00:39:31.320 --> 00:39:32.320
so now,
00:39:32.720 --> 00:39:33.930
out here…
00:39:35.250 --> 00:39:36.280
how do I change?
00:39:37.230 --> 00:39:38.360
Where do I begin?
00:39:40.430 --> 00:39:42.480
It started when I was young.
00:39:43.670 --> 00:39:46.900
My mom used to deal weed in the
housing and everybody knew that.
00:39:48.770 --> 00:39:51.020
That’s how pretty much it started,
00:39:51.150 --> 00:39:54.200
sneaking, grabbing her stash,
sneaking and smoking weed
00:39:54.350 --> 00:39:55.760
until one day I got caught
00:39:55.780 --> 00:39:59.280
and then she just made me smoke
joint after joint until I threw up.
00:40:01.840 --> 00:40:04.280
Came to a part in my life
when it’s just like…
00:40:04.820 --> 00:40:05.820
I just didn’t care.
00:40:09.240 --> 00:40:11.840
There’s that sun, coming up!
00:40:11.870 --> 00:40:13.860
Beautiful, eh?
00:40:16.230 --> 00:40:19.060
Pretty soon I can actually
go to the beach and
00:40:19.110 --> 00:40:21.710
watch the sunrise.
00:40:26.080 --> 00:40:28.430
Once you have that
mentality of I don’t care,
00:40:28.530 --> 00:40:29.850
nothing can hurt me,
00:40:30.090 --> 00:40:32.660
then you start taking more
than you need to take
00:40:32.970 --> 00:40:34.270
and taking from people that
00:40:34.310 --> 00:40:36.210
don’t deserve to be taken from.
00:40:37.750 --> 00:40:39.310
I ended up collecting money.
00:40:42.570 --> 00:40:44.500
Hawaii doesn’t have
00:40:44.530 --> 00:40:47.120
an official legal gambling system
00:40:47.450 --> 00:40:49.350
so a lot of people go backyard.
00:40:49.430 --> 00:40:52.930
Say you have one habit
00:40:52.950 --> 00:40:55.480
of gambling, you borrow maybe five grand.
00:40:55.500 --> 00:40:57.980
If you don’t pay it by the end of the week,
00:40:58.010 --> 00:41:00.320
then you gotta pay the juice.
00:41:03.440 --> 00:41:06.750
Now the juice can run 2% to 3%
00:41:06.780 --> 00:41:10.010
and it just keeps rolling
over until you pay.
00:41:11.980 --> 00:41:13.600
If you don’t pay,
00:41:13.680 --> 00:41:17.330
I get the call. And I go in.
00:41:17.410 --> 00:41:25.410
[ ♫ ]
00:41:27.770 --> 00:41:31.270
back then, I would blame
everybody for my life.
00:41:31.290 --> 00:41:34.790
Everything but me.
00:41:37.080 --> 00:41:38.540
Some things in life
00:41:38.580 --> 00:41:41.840
You cannot undo, right?
00:41:41.860 --> 00:41:46.020
You think to yourself,
why did I do what I did?
00:41:46.070 --> 00:41:49.570
How do I explain to the
families that I’m sorry?
00:41:53.220 --> 00:41:55.280
Believe me,
00:41:55.300 --> 00:41:57.850
I’m more than remorseful about it.
00:41:57.880 --> 00:42:00.400
I cannot change what I did wrong.
00:42:00.430 --> 00:42:04.090
I can only make sure I don’t
continue to do wrong.
00:42:04.160 --> 00:42:05.780
And that somehow
00:42:05.810 --> 00:42:08.210
along the line, I do better.
00:42:08.260 --> 00:42:16.260
[ ♫ ]
00:42:17.250 --> 00:42:18.740
Have a good day tomorrow, brah.
00:42:19.010 --> 00:42:20.290
Good day tomorrow, brah.
00:42:20.330 --> 00:42:21.530
[Hale] Thank you.
00:42:36.690 --> 00:42:44.690
[ Hawaiian Chanting ]
00:42:46.210 --> 00:42:47.210
Arms to the side,
00:42:47.270 --> 00:42:48.280
he!
00:42:50.350 --> 00:42:51.480
K? Try.
00:42:51.720 --> 00:42:52.730
So I told you
00:42:53.040 --> 00:42:54.340
after you guys learn
00:42:54.380 --> 00:42:55.380
i ku nui akea
00:42:55.480 --> 00:42:57.360
you guys gon’ move on to something else.
00:42:57.840 --> 00:42:59.050
This is it, k?
00:42:59.250 --> 00:43:00.960
What I like ask of you guys
00:43:01.030 --> 00:43:02.410
that you guys represent
00:43:02.460 --> 00:43:03.470
in the most
00:43:03.600 --> 00:43:05.620
mana-full-est way.
00:43:07.360 --> 00:43:08.520
So let that emotional
00:43:08.550 --> 00:43:09.550
content flow.
00:43:10.430 --> 00:43:11.530
The rising of you
00:43:11.780 --> 00:43:13.220
and your ‘ uhane
00:43:13.600 --> 00:43:14.600
to come out of
00:43:14.770 --> 00:43:16.570
what you guys going through in here
00:43:19.210 --> 00:43:20.310
So that you guys able
00:43:20.330 --> 00:43:21.720
to hold your head high
00:43:22.590 --> 00:43:23.370
and say
00:43:23.400 --> 00:43:24.640
I’m a kānaka.
00:43:25.840 --> 00:43:27.840
Been there, done that.
00:43:28.800 --> 00:43:30.070
Went through all the things
00:43:30.150 --> 00:43:31.160
I had to go through
00:43:31.500 --> 00:43:32.510
to come here
00:43:33.580 --> 00:43:34.740
and be in front of you
00:43:34.760 --> 00:43:36.080
and represent my culture
00:43:36.130 --> 00:43:37.200
in this way.
00:43:37.960 --> 00:43:38.960
Good job guys!
00:43:39.610 --> 00:43:47.610
[praying in Hawaiian]
00:43:50.070 --> 00:43:51.070
Love you guys
00:43:52.150 --> 00:43:54.110
[hawaiian]
00:44:00.720 --> 00:44:08.720
[ ♫ ]
00:44:35.960 --> 00:44:39.700
We all Hawaiians over here.
00:44:39.720 --> 00:44:41.550
We just trying to get through.
00:44:42.210 --> 00:44:45.790
I live on the streets my whole
fucking life, brah, it’s hard.
00:44:46.350 --> 00:44:50.140
My brother’s right there with my niece.
00:44:50.170 --> 00:44:51.180
Is he helping you?
00:44:55.190 --> 00:44:59.500
Nobody help me… I help myself.
00:44:59.530 --> 00:45:02.610
You better stop that
00:45:02.660 --> 00:45:05.530
No, it’s my best friend.
00:45:07.560 --> 00:45:10.790
I like see you dump that out.
00:45:11.560 --> 00:45:12.870
Dump um? [David] Dump um.
00:45:12.950 --> 00:45:16.450
No can. [David] Ikaika, ikaika.
00:45:16.470 --> 00:45:17.880
Micha
00:45:17.970 --> 00:45:19.700
Ikaika. Be ikaika.
00:45:19.720 --> 00:45:23.020
I like see you dump that out. Be ikaika.
00:45:23.080 --> 00:45:25.660
I can, but I no like. [David] Why?
00:45:25.740 --> 00:45:27.750
The thing make me feel good.
00:45:29.970 --> 00:45:33.500
It’s not that bad it’s just it
makes me feel better inside eh?
00:45:33.520 --> 00:45:37.840
All the hurt, I don’t see my family yeah.
00:45:37.870 --> 00:45:39.610
I love to drink that’s why.
00:45:39.640 --> 00:45:42.820
When that’s gone
what\'s gonna happen?
00:45:45.310 --> 00:45:46.740
It’s only temporary.
00:45:46.790 --> 00:45:50.060
It’s only temporary.
00:45:54.150 --> 00:45:57.260
I need your help.
00:45:57.280 --> 00:46:01.210
[David] When you’re ready, come over there,
Ho‘omau Ke Ola. I stay over there.
00:46:03.660 --> 00:46:06.980
Eh? K?
00:46:07.060 --> 00:46:11.350
That’s the bus.
00:46:11.380 --> 00:46:14.880
I sorry for the way I act, it’s
just because I stay on drugs, brah.
00:46:14.900 --> 00:46:22.900
[ ♫ ]
00:46:32.520 --> 00:46:36.020
[David] I felt like that over 20 years.
00:46:36.040 --> 00:46:39.950
20 years stuck in that.
00:46:40.080 --> 00:46:43.070
[ ♫ ]
00:47:14.320 --> 00:47:15.760
[Debra] Last time we talked about
00:47:15.820 --> 00:47:17.170
calling prison home.
00:47:17.990 --> 00:47:20.330
Hale: yeah, I still...
Debra: You been working on that?
I know it\'s hard.
00:47:20.350 --> 00:47:22.950
I still going through that.
00:47:24.680 --> 00:47:26.630
It’s just one habit, but not only that
00:47:27.330 --> 00:47:28.620
it’s like security, right?
00:47:28.770 --> 00:47:30.370
When I get back to the
00:47:30.780 --> 00:47:31.790
prison it’s like
00:47:32.230 --> 00:47:33.240
now I can breathe again
00:47:33.830 --> 00:47:35.640
because the environment there, I know.
00:47:35.710 --> 00:47:37.140
[Debra] It’s so familiar.
00:47:37.270 --> 00:47:38.960
[Hale] Like, this is where I belong.
00:47:39.500 --> 00:47:41.580
I’m so used to a guard opening the
00:47:41.600 --> 00:47:43.070
door or waiting for the buzzer.
00:47:43.090 --> 00:47:45.790
Hale: You know what I mean? Debra: Right,
have you used the key at all?
00:47:45.820 --> 00:47:47.320
No
00:47:47.350 --> 00:47:50.910
Debra: That’s gonna help you feel more connected.
Hale: And I still wait for her to go in.
00:47:51.720 --> 00:47:53.090
I gotta work on that.
00:47:53.910 --> 00:47:55.970
You know, for me it’s a
whole new beginning.
00:47:57.390 --> 00:47:58.480
Actually applying
00:47:58.510 --> 00:47:59.640
the help that’s out there.
00:48:00.450 --> 00:48:01.460
[Debra] It’s so much easier
00:48:01.490 --> 00:48:02.500
to just say
00:48:02.850 --> 00:48:03.860
“I don’t need help”
00:48:04.890 --> 00:48:06.090
I don’t think I would have
00:48:06.150 --> 00:48:07.830
gotten this far
00:48:08.060 --> 00:48:10.390
if I never had my church support,
00:48:10.550 --> 00:48:12.580
braddahs, you.
00:48:13.600 --> 00:48:16.120
Without one good lady
by my side, I would not
00:48:16.210 --> 00:48:17.220
get this far.
00:48:19.910 --> 00:48:23.410
[ ♫ ]
00:48:32.930 --> 00:48:35.850
Look at him on the side of the road.
00:48:35.890 --> 00:48:38.380
Babe, you said 7-11.
00:48:38.410 --> 00:48:41.740
Laura: Oh that’s okay. Hale: I just ran
back across the street.
00:48:42.140 --> 00:48:43.150
[Hale] Laura
00:48:43.460 --> 00:48:45.580
I’ve known since we were kids,
00:48:45.800 --> 00:48:47.980
used to play football with the boys.
00:48:48.030 --> 00:48:50.490
And she always used to come to the field.
00:48:50.600 --> 00:48:53.210
She had a crush on me back then.
00:48:56.750 --> 00:48:59.370
But growing up, typical housing boy.
00:48:59.400 --> 00:49:03.780
I had it in my mind to be a he’e.
00:49:03.800 --> 00:49:07.680
Spread my love around,
you know what I mean?
00:49:10.200 --> 00:49:12.710
We connected in 2002
00:49:12.750 --> 00:49:15.630
and she stood there with me all the way.
00:49:15.650 --> 00:49:18.350
She never missed one call,
she never missed visit.
00:49:18.420 --> 00:49:19.900
She never left my side
00:49:21.260 --> 00:49:24.920
Yeah, so it’s a keeper, you know?
00:49:24.940 --> 00:49:32.940
[ ♫ ]
00:49:49.330 --> 00:49:50.340
[David] When I stand up
00:49:50.710 --> 00:49:53.090
and I let people know who I am,
00:49:54.200 --> 00:49:56.730
sometimes people cannot handle it.
00:49:59.810 --> 00:50:00.820
People see this
00:50:01.190 --> 00:50:02.200
totally
00:50:04.190 --> 00:50:05.390
hyped up aggressive
00:50:05.410 --> 00:50:07.680
guy and they don’t know if I have a
00:50:09.350 --> 00:50:11.610
cool, soft side or something.
00:50:12.210 --> 00:50:14.690
So they misinterpret a lot of
00:50:16.270 --> 00:50:18.540
A lot of the things that I do.
00:50:18.850 --> 00:50:19.860
David: Aloha
00:50:19.890 --> 00:50:20.900
Mona: Aloha
00:50:22.710 --> 00:50:24.840
So before we start, I just wanted to
00:50:25.150 --> 00:50:26.690
explain to you like
00:50:27.360 --> 00:50:28.110
I know
00:50:28.180 --> 00:50:29.810
you have concerns.
00:50:29.970 --> 00:50:31.690
I’m here to listen,
00:50:31.820 --> 00:50:32.820
mainly.
00:50:32.870 --> 00:50:34.690
And I didn’t know how you guys was
00:50:34.820 --> 00:50:36.660
going to accept me because
00:50:37.480 --> 00:50:39.000
you know, it’s hard
00:50:39.120 --> 00:50:40.610
not knowing.
00:50:40.900 --> 00:50:41.910
Every place I went
00:50:42.270 --> 00:50:43.280
was like, “oh,”
00:50:43.360 --> 00:50:44.370
you know what I mean?
00:50:44.430 --> 00:50:45.440
And my way
00:50:45.570 --> 00:50:47.290
And my way is too aggressive sometimes.
00:50:47.420 --> 00:50:49.900
I gotta learn to tone it down so…
00:50:50.860 --> 00:50:51.870
[Mona] I agree.
00:50:51.950 --> 00:50:53.280
I don’t mean to offend you,
00:50:53.390 --> 00:50:55.770
you’ve been institutionalized a lot.
00:50:57.710 --> 00:50:59.540
Yeah? And coming back
00:50:59.570 --> 00:51:02.990
and being part of the
community again, yeah?
00:51:03.540 --> 00:51:04.820
I was like okay
00:51:04.850 --> 00:51:06.110
let’s do it.
00:51:06.250 --> 00:51:07.260
You know?
00:51:07.340 --> 00:51:08.960
But then also to look in – okay
00:51:08.980 --> 00:51:10.580
how we going do this?
00:51:13.610 --> 00:51:16.230
Thank you for being open to toning it down.
00:51:37.320 --> 00:51:40.930
[David chanting in Hawaiian]
00:51:40.960 --> 00:51:43.080
[David] I was supposed
to be there full time.
00:51:43.610 --> 00:51:44.840
But now it’s like
00:51:45.150 --> 00:51:46.720
2 days out of the week.
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:49.260
So now what do I do?
00:51:52.750 --> 00:51:54.450
I wanna work.
00:51:54.570 --> 00:51:57.100
I’m trying to do something good.
00:52:10.940 --> 00:52:13.700
[ ♫ ]
00:52:13.730 --> 00:52:16.820
[Hale] This was my mistake
in life growing up:
00:52:16.920 --> 00:52:20.080
Thinking I’d rather be respected
00:52:20.180 --> 00:52:23.680
or feared than loved.
00:52:23.710 --> 00:52:26.580
Today, it’s totally the opposite.
00:52:26.650 --> 00:52:30.730
I getting out of prison after
15 years and I getting married.
00:52:30.750 --> 00:52:34.250
Girl: Congratulations! Hale:
So I’m a hot steel pony.
00:52:36.870 --> 00:52:41.300
I never thought I would be this blessed.
00:52:41.320 --> 00:52:43.900
[Laura]... all
the rubbish over there...
00:52:43.930 --> 00:52:48.350
[Hale] That’s what I do best! Make mess!
00:52:48.370 --> 00:52:51.870
[Laura] Try grab me another trash bag.
See if you can fit inside.
00:52:51.890 --> 00:52:55.390
[Hale] Smart ass
00:52:55.420 --> 00:52:58.920
I get the broom you know.
00:52:58.940 --> 00:53:02.440
[Joking]
00:53:03.170 --> 00:53:05.990
Funny, huh?
00:53:10.800 --> 00:53:13.010
Don’t forget your glasses.
00:53:13.030 --> 00:53:16.530
Lock up the house, that’s
your responsibility.
00:53:16.560 --> 00:53:20.060
Hale: I’ll lock up your house. Laura: What?
00:53:20.080 --> 00:53:23.240
I’ll lock up the house.
00:53:23.270 --> 00:53:27.100
Laura: Correction! Hale: The house.
00:53:30.260 --> 00:53:32.030
No matter what I gotta put up with,
00:53:32.050 --> 00:53:34.120
whatever I gotta go through
throughout the day,
00:53:34.640 --> 00:53:36.870
whatever I do, I doing it for my family.
00:53:37.210 --> 00:53:38.220
[ door closing ]
00:53:42.460 --> 00:53:43.470
[ gate closing ]
00:53:44.680 --> 00:53:51.110
[ traffic noise ]
00:53:52.360 --> 00:53:54.430
[David] I should be happy
that I even got a job,
00:53:54.460 --> 00:53:55.860
but it’s like…
00:53:56.190 --> 00:53:57.200
geez man
00:53:58.410 --> 00:54:00.140
I owe a whole bunch of money.
00:54:03.230 --> 00:54:04.520
Court fees,
00:54:05.250 --> 00:54:07.450
stuff that I did, I put on myself.
00:54:09.280 --> 00:54:11.360
I owe $45,000
00:54:11.680 --> 00:54:12.860
back payments,
00:54:13.220 --> 00:54:15.080
child support.
00:54:22.060 --> 00:54:24.960
Hi, I have questions on
00:54:24.980 --> 00:54:26.530
financial assistance.
00:54:26.640 --> 00:54:28.850
How can we go about that?
00:54:31.190 --> 00:54:32.860
(mumbling): Of course,
00:54:33.140 --> 00:54:34.300
of course you gotta try this.
00:54:37.200 --> 00:54:39.440
I cannot even get welfare
00:54:40.250 --> 00:54:44.090
so what makes you think? You heard me?
Going through this right now
00:54:44.110 --> 00:54:48.230
is just … right now I just
gotta take one step at a time.
00:54:57.580 --> 00:55:01.540
I just trying to get this month’s
rent paid, officer. And then I
00:55:01.580 --> 00:55:04.460
can figure out for next month
00:55:04.570 --> 00:55:12.460
[ ♫ ]
00:55:12.530 --> 00:55:14.270
The last time I was out,
00:55:14.740 --> 00:55:16.430
I called up one of my friends
00:55:16.510 --> 00:55:18.080
that had something going on.
00:55:20.010 --> 00:55:21.020
From Kalihi
00:55:21.420 --> 00:55:22.460
to Waikiki,
00:55:22.710 --> 00:55:25.110
that was the playground, eh?
00:55:25.670 --> 00:55:28.890
Money is fast out there.
00:55:31.710 --> 00:55:33.030
Probably be out all night,
00:55:33.060 --> 00:55:36.560
go see the same people.
00:55:36.580 --> 00:55:44.580
[ ♫ ]
00:55:46.420 --> 00:55:49.890
[ chanting ]
00:55:49.940 --> 00:55:57.940
[ ♫ ]
00:55:58.030 --> 00:56:00.660
But I don’t even want to go there
00:56:00.690 --> 00:56:05.050
‘cause I have too much to lose right now.
00:56:06.590 --> 00:56:10.640
I don’t want to go back to jail because I don’t
want to have to explain to the guys again
00:56:10.900 --> 00:56:12.250
what went wrong.
00:56:12.310 --> 00:56:20.240
[ ♫ ]
00:56:20.700 --> 00:56:28.700
[ chanting ]
00:56:43.630 --> 00:56:51.630
[ chanting ]
00:56:58.500 --> 00:57:00.460
[Shyann] Let’s see which bunch this is.
00:57:01.230 --> 00:57:02.500
[Laura] Yup, that’s them
00:57:03.880 --> 00:57:08.180
There’s a whole bunch of them.
00:57:08.600 --> 00:57:12.100
[Shyann] Where is he? Wait… there he is!
00:57:12.120 --> 00:57:15.620
The last one out of the pack.
00:57:15.640 --> 00:57:18.710
What happened to 7:30, bud?
00:57:22.850 --> 00:57:24.270
Let’s see how big your stomach is.
00:57:24.690 --> 00:57:26.580
Oh my god I can’t imagine.
00:57:27.140 --> 00:57:28.550
[Hale] The way I see things,
00:57:28.610 --> 00:57:31.150
her kids, they’re part of my life now.
00:57:31.410 --> 00:57:33.540
Whenever I introduce Shy, it’s like
00:57:33.730 --> 00:57:34.740
“this is my daughter”.
00:57:35.190 --> 00:57:36.530
Even though biologically
00:57:36.620 --> 00:57:37.620
she’s not.
00:57:38.430 --> 00:57:39.880
[Shyann] What number is that?
[Hale] 39?
00:57:39.900 --> 00:57:42.090
You are a certified sow.
00:57:42.310 --> 00:57:44.350
Anything after 35
00:57:44.390 --> 00:57:46.780
you just a calf, now you’re a
00:57:47.060 --> 00:57:48.400
certified sow.
00:57:48.460 --> 00:57:52.510
K, so being that Messiah’s nose is
big, we gotta measure your nose
00:57:52.530 --> 00:57:54.270
No come here
00:57:57.310 --> 00:57:59.220
Hey, what’s up doc?
00:57:59.310 --> 00:58:01.440
[Doctor] Good to see you again, how’s
everything going? [Hale] Good, good.
00:58:01.590 --> 00:58:03.360
He has his gloves on.
00:58:04.710 --> 00:58:06.550
Let’s measure quickly first
just to make sure it’s all…
00:58:06.600 --> 00:58:07.600
39. 39.
00:58:08.610 --> 00:58:12.250
If she measures 39, I’d worry, okay?
00:58:15.070 --> 00:58:16.510
[Doctor] That would be a bad day.
00:58:16.670 --> 00:58:19.860
[Hale] Oh yeah, she only
6 inches away from it.
00:58:19.890 --> 00:58:21.040
33
00:58:21.090 --> 00:58:23.530
[Shyann] Yeah, but 6 inches, that’s a lot.
00:58:24.970 --> 00:58:27.020
[Hale] For me, that was the hardest
day/thing of my life,
00:58:27.050 --> 00:58:28.970
to actually forgive myself
00:58:28.990 --> 00:58:31.290
for failing as a dad.
00:58:31.300 --> 00:58:34.810
There he is now [Listening
to heart beat] I hear him.
00:58:34.840 --> 00:58:36.690
He’s hanging out now.
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:40.410
But,
00:58:41.940 --> 00:58:44.460
I know I’m not going to fail
this being a grandfather.
00:58:44.730 --> 00:58:45.910
(Putting up the tent)
00:58:46.070 --> 00:58:48.760
Try hold this…
00:58:53.510 --> 00:58:58.620
[Hale] So what is this, like trying
to say that Messiah gonna be fat
like one elephant or something?
00:58:58.750 --> 00:59:01.690
[Shyann] Well I want him
to be chubby, but not fat.
00:59:02.580 --> 00:59:04.330
We’ll feed him plenty breadfruit.
00:59:04.660 --> 00:59:05.670
That boy goin’ be big.
00:59:15.590 --> 00:59:16.880
[Hale] Just the word “forgive”.
00:59:17.990 --> 00:59:19.330
People can throw that around,
00:59:19.780 --> 00:59:20.980
“Oh yeah, I forgive you.
00:59:21.460 --> 00:59:22.460
But I no forget.”
00:59:23.100 --> 00:59:24.510
Obviously, you never forgive!
00:59:24.930 --> 00:59:28.170
You have to be able to actually let go.
00:59:34.810 --> 00:59:36.220
When my mom passed,
00:59:36.480 --> 00:59:40.330
That’s where I learned
forgiveness for me in life.
00:59:40.810 --> 00:59:42.340
Cute!
00:59:42.420 --> 00:59:44.220
[Hale] Growing up was rough.
00:59:44.250 --> 00:59:47.750
I was kinda like addicted to the abuse.
00:59:47.780 --> 00:59:50.550
If I never get licking, I never
00:59:50.740 --> 00:59:51.750
feel the love.
00:59:52.240 --> 00:59:57.020
[ ♫ ]
00:59:57.150 --> 01:00:00.890
And when she asked me to forgive her,
01:00:01.210 --> 01:00:02.220
as a mom,
01:00:03.120 --> 01:00:05.200
which I never expected from her, you know?
01:00:06.910 --> 01:00:09.510
I guess from that day
on, everything just….
01:00:11.130 --> 01:00:14.230
All the hatred, all the anger, all the
01:00:14.320 --> 01:00:15.890
resentment
01:00:16.060 --> 01:00:18.190
went away.
01:00:21.490 --> 01:00:24.360
That right there really
changed my whole thinking.
01:00:24.400 --> 01:00:32.400
[ ♫ ]
01:00:40.390 --> 01:00:48.390
You going recycle? I love you
01:00:51.180 --> 01:00:59.180
[ ♫ ]
01:01:03.710 --> 01:01:06.210
Child support is going to start taking out
01:01:06.270 --> 01:01:08.900
$755 dollars a month.
01:01:09.060 --> 01:01:10.070
And
01:01:10.310 --> 01:01:12.510
I make $7.50 an hour
01:01:13.450 --> 01:01:14.790
which comes out to
01:01:14.820 --> 01:01:16.090
roughly about
01:01:16.530 --> 01:01:19.220
$7-$800 dollars a month.
01:01:24.000 --> 01:01:25.400
I’m not gonna be able
01:01:25.700 --> 01:01:27.270
to afford the rent here.
01:01:32.050 --> 01:01:33.060
Luckily,
01:01:33.140 --> 01:01:34.970
my cousin is willing to help me.
01:01:43.780 --> 01:01:47.280
He’s gonna let me stay at his place
01:01:47.300 --> 01:01:50.800
until I can get back on my feet.
01:02:02.910 --> 01:02:04.370
But then nothing,
01:02:06.470 --> 01:02:07.920
nothing really
01:02:08.510 --> 01:02:10.710
keeps you grounded.
01:02:32.810 --> 01:02:38.200
[Tim] That’s right, it’s your last day.
01:02:38.710 --> 01:02:39.790
[David] Last day of parole.
01:02:39.970 --> 01:02:41.450
[Tim] Just another day
01:02:42.350 --> 01:02:47.070
[Joking - \"Just another day\"]
01:02:47.210 --> 01:02:49.270
Everything is just another day.
01:03:02.520 --> 01:03:04.080
[Devina] Congratulations Dad!
01:03:04.100 --> 01:03:05.110
Mmm?
01:03:05.240 --> 01:03:07.670
I heard that today’s
your last day of parole.
01:03:09.280 --> 01:03:12.260
How come you never told me?
[David]It’s just another day.
01:03:12.590 --> 01:03:14.070
It’s good though right?!
01:03:14.910 --> 01:03:17.370
You actually made it through without…
01:03:18.280 --> 01:03:19.280
Messing up again?
01:03:21.840 --> 01:03:22.850
Proud of you
01:03:22.880 --> 01:03:23.890
I know
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[Devina] Actually does work, right,
when you have support?
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Congratulations Dad!
01:03:33.160 --> 01:03:34.840
Thanks for being an awesome Dad,
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Remember I told you last night?
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You feel like you achieved something?
01:03:43.480 --> 01:03:44.760
Not really.
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I going let you know when that day comes.
01:03:49.280 --> 01:03:51.020
But we should count the little
01:03:51.040 --> 01:03:52.370
steps that we take too before us.
01:03:52.410 --> 01:03:54.490
If we can’t appreciate and be grateful
01:03:54.520 --> 01:03:57.110
for that, we can’t appreciate
when the big thing come.
01:03:57.140 --> 01:03:58.850
We always want want want want more.
01:04:01.690 --> 01:04:03.180
Love you guys!
01:04:03.250 --> 01:04:04.800
[David] Bye!
01:04:04.850 --> 01:04:05.850
[Tim] Be safe!
01:04:06.120 --> 01:04:08.580
[Devina] Thank you! God Bless!
01:04:15.300 --> 01:04:23.300
[ chanting ]
01:04:57.150 --> 01:05:00.310
[Mona] Part of our program is a
culturally based program,
01:05:00.330 --> 01:05:04.840
finding pride in themselves
and grasping their identity.
01:05:05.010 --> 01:05:09.870
These are our guys from our
therapeutic living program.
01:05:11.390 --> 01:05:19.390
[ chanting ]
01:05:37.830 --> 01:05:45.830
[ ♫ ]
01:05:55.050 --> 01:06:01.720
[ audience claps ]
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[David] It gives the young kānakas today
01:06:04.260 --> 01:06:08.040
a chance to be proud of their
heritage and their culture.
01:06:08.270 --> 01:06:12.620
To represent not
only themselves, ke akua,
01:06:12.640 --> 01:06:16.570
their families, and the nation
of the Hawaiian people. Mahalo.
01:06:16.590 --> 01:06:20.090
[ audience claps ]
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[ ♫ ]
01:06:23.640 --> 01:06:31.640
[ singing ]
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[ ♫ ]
01:06:33.850 --> 01:06:37.710
[David] It’s like a valve got opened
01:06:37.730 --> 01:06:41.750
and I’m slowly losing something,
01:06:41.780 --> 01:06:44.750
you know what I mean? It’s like dripping.
01:06:48.010 --> 01:06:55.750
[ wave sounds ]
01:07:14.410 --> 01:07:17.830
[ Inmates chanting.]
01:07:17.990 --> 01:07:19.430
A reverberating voice in the heavens
01:07:19.650 --> 01:07:23.950
Here we are your descendants
01:07:24.330 --> 01:07:26.480
Care for us
01:07:26.750 --> 01:07:28.150
That we may flourish in the heavens
01:07:28.270 --> 01:07:29.690
Grant us power
01:07:33.380 --> 01:07:40.420
Love to the ancestors, the guardians,
the families, and the warriors.
01:07:40.600 --> 01:07:41.890
[Kalani] These guys here, they come
01:07:41.930 --> 01:07:42.930
and they go.
01:07:45.020 --> 01:07:47.810
A lot of them I seen them
come back many times already.
01:07:49.130 --> 01:07:51.790
When they’re ready I guess they’ll change,
01:07:51.810 --> 01:07:54.150
but some, they live the hard life and
01:07:54.780 --> 01:07:55.780
it’s like a magnet.
01:07:56.660 --> 01:07:59.980
And you’re either gonna choose the
right path or the wrong path.
01:08:00.070 --> 01:08:01.070
And
01:08:01.260 --> 01:08:02.620
I hope they make the right choice.
01:08:09.040 --> 01:08:15.030
[ Chanting in Hawaiian ]
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[David] I know 10 years ago, I would have
01:08:17.320 --> 01:08:18.320
threw in the towel
01:08:25.020 --> 01:08:26.030
and said
01:08:26.480 --> 01:08:27.490
to hell with this,
01:08:28.640 --> 01:08:30.220
yeah.
01:08:32.610 --> 01:08:36.390
[ chanting ]
01:08:42.280 --> 01:08:44.130
[David] I went out to
01:08:44.450 --> 01:08:45.990
see the old neighborhood.
01:08:48.890 --> 01:08:50.900
The old stomping grounds.
01:08:52.050 --> 01:08:53.280
I just had to go out
01:08:53.310 --> 01:08:55.150
there and take a look for myself
01:08:59.570 --> 01:09:01.870
Try not to make the same mistakes again.
01:09:04.340 --> 01:09:05.730
I can’t let that happen.
01:09:09.550 --> 01:09:14.210
[ speaking Hawaiian ]
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[David] You know, when
you start feeling like
01:09:20.740 --> 01:09:21.750
you belong
01:09:23.510 --> 01:09:24.620
in prison
01:09:24.640 --> 01:09:25.650
or you belong
01:09:26.560 --> 01:09:27.710
in the drugs,
01:09:29.080 --> 01:09:30.090
you know,
01:09:30.500 --> 01:09:31.500
the game
01:09:32.160 --> 01:09:33.170
and that world.
01:09:34.640 --> 01:09:36.250
And you stay stuck there
01:09:36.310 --> 01:09:37.320
in your mind…
01:09:49.930 --> 01:09:51.740
Everything is gonna be hard.
01:09:58.970 --> 01:10:06.970
[ ♫ ]
01:10:09.360 --> 01:10:12.910
[ clicking door ]
01:10:25.050 --> 01:10:26.600
Now, freedom.
01:10:26.650 --> 01:10:27.660
Yeah?
01:10:27.700 --> 01:10:29.330
Now everything begins.
01:10:29.350 --> 01:10:31.360
This is where the real test begins.
01:10:32.170 --> 01:10:35.280
Goin’ be weird not hearing
something click behind me
01:10:35.300 --> 01:10:38.080
when I close the door.
01:10:46.530 --> 01:10:54.470
5… 10… 15… There it goes. 15 years.
01:10:54.740 --> 01:11:02.740
[ ♫ ]
01:11:16.050 --> 01:11:18.040
[Woman] So you just got back from Arizona?
01:11:18.060 --> 01:11:19.060
[Hale] Yeah,
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15 years.
01:11:20.050 --> 01:11:22.950
[Woman] Oh so you folks have been
together for a while then, huh?
01:11:23.030 --> 01:11:25.810
Awesome. Good, see? Good lady, good man
01:11:25.830 --> 01:11:27.760
you work it out, everything’s good.
01:11:28.680 --> 01:11:29.690
You know what I’m gonna do?
01:11:29.720 --> 01:11:32.260
You guys are really
touching my heart today.
01:11:32.290 --> 01:11:33.710
I’m not going to charge you ok?
01:11:34.160 --> 01:11:37.400
Take her out for a nice
dinner or something, alright?
01:11:37.430 --> 01:11:41.000
And I’m glad everything’s
working out for you.
01:11:41.020 --> 01:11:44.180
[Officiant] Now face each other….
01:11:44.330 --> 01:11:45.600
Will you love
01:11:45.650 --> 01:11:49.670
and honor her, cherish and protect
her, in good times and bad?
01:11:49.700 --> 01:11:51.220
And do you promise to be
01:11:51.360 --> 01:11:52.370
her best friend
01:11:52.610 --> 01:11:54.760
for as long as you both shall live?
01:11:54.910 --> 01:11:56.860
I do
01:11:56.910 --> 01:11:59.320
I now pronounce you husband and wife.
01:12:04.640 --> 01:12:05.530
[Hale] I love you.
01:12:05.550 --> 01:12:07.160
[Laura] I love you too.
01:12:33.350 --> 01:12:41.350
[ ♫ ]
01:13:00.420 --> 01:13:02.470
[Baby] Da da
01:13:02.570 --> 01:13:06.880
It’s not “Da da”, it’s “Papa”.
01:13:06.910 --> 01:13:09.760
Yeah, “Papa”.
01:13:11.400 --> 01:13:19.400
[ ♫ ]
01:13:31.410 --> 01:13:32.440
[David] So I was thinking
01:13:32.490 --> 01:13:36.980
from the time I came out till now,
01:13:37.170 --> 01:13:39.350
wouldn\'t that be a
01:13:40.070 --> 01:13:41.070
a trip
01:13:41.600 --> 01:13:42.610
for people to see
01:13:42.940 --> 01:13:45.970
how hard it really is?
01:13:54.200 --> 01:14:00.670
[ wave sounds ]
01:14:20.470 --> 01:14:22.310
I actually had thoughts about
01:14:22.630 --> 01:14:23.640
checking out.
01:14:28.740 --> 01:14:32.240
[ wave sounds ]
01:14:32.260 --> 01:14:34.060
I ended up using.
01:14:34.320 --> 01:14:35.320
You know?
01:14:35.470 --> 01:14:38.970
Going back to the dope.
01:14:58.180 --> 01:14:59.610
People always say,
01:14:59.640 --> 01:15:03.640
“it’s the choices you make.” True.
01:15:03.660 --> 01:15:07.520
But what happens when you get to
be my age and you still in jail,
01:15:07.540 --> 01:15:10.680
lock up thinking about your baby
01:15:10.710 --> 01:15:13.950
before
01:15:13.980 --> 01:15:17.730
before she was even born
01:15:17.750 --> 01:15:19.530
and you know she her for 16 years
01:15:19.600 --> 01:15:22.570
and when you finally do come out,
01:15:22.620 --> 01:15:26.630
you see this grown young girl
standing in front of you,
01:15:30.180 --> 01:15:33.680
calling you Dad.
01:15:37.220 --> 01:15:40.720
And you don’t even know who she is…
01:15:40.750 --> 01:15:48.750
[ ♫ ]
01:16:47.470 --> 01:16:50.860
So being in the house, paying rent
01:16:51.010 --> 01:16:54.710
that’s what you’re expected to do you know?
Those kinda things.
01:16:54.740 --> 01:16:58.240
It’s called life.
01:16:58.260 --> 01:17:01.980
What I wanted people to
know is this is life too.
01:17:02.010 --> 01:17:05.800
Right here. You know?
01:17:05.870 --> 01:17:08.810
[ ♫ ]
01:17:25.900 --> 01:17:29.950
[chanting ]
01:17:29.970 --> 01:17:37.970
[ ♫ ]
01:17:46.810 --> 01:17:54.810
[ chanting ]
01:18:17.790 --> 01:18:25.790
[ ♫ ]