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Before she left,

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I woke up in the middle of the night to her screaming,

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“Help me Daddy, help me.”

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I ran to her room and

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she was throwing up.

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So I helped her and she was okay after that.

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After she was gone, I...

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There wasn\'t anything I could do.

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I couldn\'t get that out of my head.

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Still can\'t.

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I got a phone call from the local PD asking for dental records.

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When you have a child that’s missing,

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you can only assume that they’re trying to ID a body.

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A lot of cops you know, especially when they’re young,

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are adrenaline junkies.

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In my case, doing the undercover

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to pretend to be something you’re not

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and getting paid for it,

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that’s what you become a cop for is all that excitement.

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It\'s been 12 years for me in street crimes.

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There\'s a lot to try to deal with mentally.

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You can\'t bring it home.

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A lot of cops will be jaded within the first three or four years.

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You deal with a specific segment of society that

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pretty much hates you.

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And you get that

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day in and day out.

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I was 15.

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I should have experienced a childhood,

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my teenage years, my high school years.

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I should have been going to football games.

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But instead,

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I was so sure

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that I was in love

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with this 32-year-old pimp.

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I just didn’t know what was real anymore.

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We’ve been married for going on 20 years.

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This is gross.

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We recently

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lived in the state of Washington,

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just outside of Seattle.

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I was a teacher there

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and my husband, he was a stay-at-home dad.

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That gave him the opportunity to watch all the firsts.

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The first steps, the first teeth, the first going to school.

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Tom took pride in being a stay-at-home dad.

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He put his heart and soul into our children.

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Pushing them to do well.

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Wanting them to do better than what we had done for ourselves.

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Stop it.

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If you had seen my family

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on June 10th of 2010,

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we would have been a normal-looking family,

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just like every family in America.

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I’ve always wanted to come out here and do this.

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I got a DVD player!

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Did you know you got that?

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No I thought I was getting a pair of boots.

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I took care of the kids at home.

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Wake up!

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Good morning.

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Just a stay-at-home dad.

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Did what any stay-at-home parent would do.

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Trying to hold things together,

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keeping the kids in line and doing what we\'re supposed to do.

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Hi honey.

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Hi momma.

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Hi honey.

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Family, to me, means my life.

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Release up here like that and follow through.

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It\'s how I identify myself.

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I’m a family man.

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That\'s me.

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From, you know, the time I was 15 to the time I was like 23,

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I was basically on my own.

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It affected me because I knew what could be going on.

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I couldn\'t stop the thought processes from happening.

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I knew all the possibilities.

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There wasn’t really much that I think I was running away from at home.

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I think that I just wanted to rebel.

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To not have to listen to rules or

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have to worry about getting straight A’s for my parents.

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Just the pressures of being a kid were, I guess, a little too much for me.

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And I just wanted to go find myself

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and see what the world had to offer me.

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First couple of periods at school I uh,

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wrote a letter to my parents telling them

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that I wanted to kind of go live my life.

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Just do my own thing and

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gave it to one of my friends and told them to

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call my parents and give it to them.

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I had some clothes packed in a backpack.

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Found a bus stop,

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got on my first city bus ever and made my way to Seattle.

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Once I made it there, I was like,

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I was like, “Oh my gosh, I’m in the big city.”

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I was just you know really kind of in awe of like

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being out on my own because I had never really experienced that.

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I thought I had discovered life.

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I was just so excited to, you know,

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be a rebel and get to stay up late, I guess.

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And not have to follow rules or do homework.

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And I just thought that it was going to be something really great.

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I found a shelter.

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There was this girl there.

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I told her that I was only 15.

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That I ran away from home.

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She was like, “Oh, well you know let’s go hang out this weekend.”

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I smoked weed for the first time, drank for the first time.

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This is what kids do when they don’t have parents

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breathing down their back to do good.

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She had started talking to me about going to California.

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I was like, “Oh, California, that’s a way bigger place than Seattle is.

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That’ll be fun.”

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“How are we going to get there?”

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She was like, “Well, we could prostitute.”

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I was a virgin.

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How am I going to go sleep with people?

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She was like, “Well, I’ll teach you.”

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We would walk on the street.

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Cars would come pick us up.

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She would sleep with them in the car right next to me.

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And then they’d just drop us off somewhere.

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It went from one second we were smoking weed

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and drinking and having fun, trying to go to California.

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And the next second, I’m in a guy’s basement, you know,

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selling my body for sex.

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And getting raped and cleaning up stains on a carpet.

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It was insane how quickly it happened.

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Ok, it\'s kind of hard with other people,

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but as long as nobody else comes in we’re cool.

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You feel ok?

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I’m high.

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What are the marks on your arms from?

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My cutting.

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Cutting and like...

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You see that kind of lame? That’s a track mark.

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That’s an abscess from a track mark.

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What\'s that from?

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An abscess. From shooting heroin.

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And these, that’s from an abscess.

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These are um, track marks. Track marks.

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These are track marks. Right here. Here, right here.

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This scar is...

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Those are track marks?

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No these are just from cutting.

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And this is from cutting also.

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Have you tried to stop?

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Cutting?

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Everything.

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I’ve quit cutting like three years ago.

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I quit a couple of times with heroin,

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but I’ve been using it everyday for the past year.

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Is it the 27th yet? Or past?

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It was a year on the 27th.

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Wow, a couple days ago it was a year and three days now.

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Yeah she’s passing McDonald’s now.

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She’s walking north by the ATM.

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Yeah, I don’t got her anymore.

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She’s back towards the escalators.

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Oh, I see her.

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She could be young.

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It’s hard to tell.

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Man, I wonder where she went?

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When I come to work I shift gears.

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You just kind of slide into a different mode

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because you’re faced with

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all kinds of things during the course of the day.

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Her boots look silver.

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They are shiny.

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Up to her knees.

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She is real short and stubby.

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She has a short haircut, black pants and a winter coat.

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That’s her.

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She’s out standing, talking on her phone

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underneath the pawn shop sign.

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Yeah, that’s her.

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Did you give somebody your ID yet?

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I don’t have ID.

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I’m just dropping my sister’s stuff off.

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I have an address in Renton.

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Which city?

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That is in Seattle.

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Yeah.

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Who is this here?

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That is her.

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That is my sister.

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Never in my life have I ever sold my body.

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I respect my body more than that.

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So, so far we have established that you don’t know what a jug is.

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You don’t know what a trick is.

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You don’t know what east and west is.

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I know what a jug, trick is, that don’t mean I prostitute.

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I let my friends use my phone,

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I’m not a prostitute.

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Here’s a message she wrote recently.

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I’m in Kent really quick for another jug.

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Where are you at?

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OK, really, I’m not a prostitute.

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Can I talk to you alone please?

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Brian and I, we\'ve worked loosely together

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since we became cops.

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We went to the academy at the same time.

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We got hired the same day.

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the 360 number has got ads on it from seven other sites.

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I actually met Andy through my brother.

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I kind of talked him into becoming an officer.

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He went on a lot of ride-alongs early in my career,

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and I kept telling him, “You should be a cop,”

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and he kind of still wanted to be a professional football player.

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Can\'t say that I blame him.

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I\'ve been with the Sheriff\'s office for about 15 years.

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The last several years I would say I worked a lot of vice activity.

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Pacific Highway is notorious for prostitution.

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It\'s been that way for decades.

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She’s in a turning lane. Probably about to go onto Sunset.

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Right in the back of the building half way down.

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Oh, look at that.

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What is going on?

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I’m stepping out man.

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Oh, she set me up?

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She didn’t set up you up.

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She’s a prostitute.

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She was working the highway.

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You drove up and picked her up.

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She just called me.

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I thought you was buying pussy, guy.

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She just called me.

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I thought you was buying it.

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Ok?

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That’s why, that’s why we contacted you.

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It’s a little one.

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Just a little Derringer.

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I felt some kind of burden

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for these girls and their lifestyle.

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Just the endless trap.

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They can\'t seem to get themselves out.

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At the time, I didn\'t understand it as much because

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the sentiment for law enforcement is that the girls are out there,

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they want to be out there,

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they know what they\'re doing is wrong

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and they\'re out there from their own free will.

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And that changed for me in 2005.

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Man, she looks young.

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A couple of girls I had arrested within several weeks.

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I\'d arrested both of these girls maybe a dozen times.

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Back to back to back.

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Arrested them, booked them, they were out the next day.

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I was frustrated with them.

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I said, “What are you guys doing?

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Why do I have to keep arresting you?”

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One of the girls opened up to me and said,

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\"You know what, this is all I can do to survive.

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Will you help me?

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Can you help me get out of this life?\"

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Her dad pimped her out when she was 12.

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Sold her to all his drug buddies, and so...

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That was the first time, out of hundreds of arrests I would say,

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that any girl has asked me to help them

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get out of that lifestyle.

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And I just was talking to her, like I’m talking to you,

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and I said, you know, there’s just,

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and I was thinking to myself, there’s no way I can help this girl,

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she is just doomed.

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There’s no way she’s out.

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Her dad pimped her for the last five years.

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She has no friends, no family, no school, no job, no nothing.

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This is the only way she can survive is this.

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She’s just walking around and her eyes were just dead.

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She was dead inside.

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When she asked me, it kind of brought me back to,

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I\'m here to help people, not just to arrest them

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and enforce the law, we\'re also to help.

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I assumed that there would be some kind of program.

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There\'s got to be some kind of service provided

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to help these girls get out of this lifestyle.

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After a lot of time and research and bewilderment,

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I found there was none.

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I didn\'t stop working vice,

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but what I did stop doing is

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is just making these constant arrests.

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I would stop a girl

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and then I would get into her story.

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Story after story after story,

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I learned the culture of prostitution.

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The girls aren\'t there by their own will.

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They\'re not there because that\'s what they want to do.

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These girls either have a really poor home life,

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some kind of abuse, physical, usually sexual.

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Eight-five percent of most of these girls are runaways,

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which increases the vulnerability,

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increases the need for someone to take care of them,

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whether it\'s an abusive relationship or not, they need somebody.

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It\'s an entrapment.

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It\'s a deception.

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And it usually starts at a very young age,

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12, 13, 14 years old.

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The pimps take advantage of that.

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Take advantage of their vulnerability.

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Close to 500 juvenile females

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in King County are being trafficked.

00:21:00.417 --> 00:21:04.459
100,000 to 300,000 in the United States

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are underage girls are being trafficked.

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I think it’s completely understated.

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It’s a much bigger problem now.

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When I first got back I was lost.

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I just don\'t think it had hit me yet

00:21:40.000 --> 00:21:45.832
that I was prostituting for money.

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I don\'t think that really settled in

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Until you know until later.

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I was sad, I was depressed, I was confused.

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I lost my friends.

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Like, I didn’t go to school anymore.

00:22:05.126 --> 00:22:09.417
They’d call me a whore, call me a slut.

00:22:09.417 --> 00:22:12.750
Say that I’m easy because I’d sleep with people.

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And as quick as, you know, I left the first time,

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I packed my stuff and snuck down the stairs

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and opened my door and left again.

00:22:41.084 --> 00:22:43.334
Daddy look!

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Right in front.

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The aircraft, it depends on what aircraft it is.

00:22:48.417 --> 00:22:50.000
Honey, don’t film me.

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I don’t know.

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I think you question everything.

00:22:54.959 --> 00:22:56.875
You question everything as a parent,

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of what, you know,

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is there anything I could have done different?

00:23:04.330 --> 00:23:07.376
Is there anything,

00:23:07.376 --> 00:23:10.417
is there anything that I did?

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Every possible scenario that

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there is surrounding your child

00:23:19.126 --> 00:23:22.000
goes through your mind.

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Over and over and over again.

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Like to, spend time with my family.

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It’s like an,

00:23:31.500 --> 00:23:33.209
an endless cycle of

00:23:33.209 --> 00:23:37.334
hell that you can\'t stop

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until they finally come home.

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If they come home.

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So...

00:23:46.251 --> 00:23:49.917
Our walls came tumbling down.

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The support that we thought we had with friends,

00:23:52.834 --> 00:23:57.292
that just stopped.

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Open your cards from grandpa.

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I don\'t know how to read.

00:24:01.000 --> 00:24:04.792
It felt like they looked at us like it was like our fault.

00:24:04.792 --> 00:24:06.625
I get a dollar!

00:24:06.625 --> 00:24:08.000
Thank you grandpa!

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Pretty soon you\'re alone.

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There was some police that really stepped up

00:24:16.709 --> 00:24:23.292
and there was other police that, that didn\'t seem to care at all.

00:24:23.292 --> 00:24:26.667
Whether they didn\'t have the experience dealing with

00:24:26.667 --> 00:24:29.251
with this type of thing, or

00:24:29.251 --> 00:24:32.500
like “Oh, she\'ll come back, they always come back.”

00:24:32.500 --> 00:24:35.792
Well, that\'s not the case that they always come back.

00:24:35.816 --> 00:24:37.816
I had to go to work

00:24:37.840 --> 00:24:39.840
and care for other people’s children

00:24:39.864 --> 00:24:41.864
while my daughter was missing,

00:24:41.888 --> 00:24:44.716
and my husband’s world had been turned upside down.

00:24:45.417 --> 00:24:47.116
Here, he had been this caregiver,

00:24:47.150 --> 00:24:52.151
and things were falling apart rapidly.

00:24:57.417 --> 00:25:00.000
When I first met Baruti,

00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.042
he didn’t seem scary or

00:25:05.042 --> 00:25:06.875
intimidating.

00:25:06.875 --> 00:25:09.000
He took me out to eat.

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Not anywhere special.

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We just stopped by some fast food place.

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He took me to his house.

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He had a whole closet full of like VHS movies

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and a big old TV, huge bed.

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He really just,

00:25:27.084 --> 00:25:28.920
I don’t want to say it,

00:25:28.920 --> 00:25:30.500
but made me kind of feel at home.

00:25:31.376 --> 00:25:34.959
He popped in a movie that we both really liked.

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We kind of just talked a little bit.

00:25:37.376 --> 00:25:39.459
Told him where I was from.

00:25:39.459 --> 00:25:41.625
Just filled him in a little bit on my life.

00:25:41.625 --> 00:25:45.709
He was just very accepting.

00:25:45.709 --> 00:25:49.084
He definitely capitalized on the fact

00:25:49.084 --> 00:25:52.126
that I was having a hard time at home.

00:25:52.126 --> 00:25:54.167
He tried to make me feel comfortable.

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Told him I read the bible.

00:25:55.834 --> 00:25:58.209
My dad used to always tell me when I was younger,

00:25:58.209 --> 00:25:59.920
“Read the red words,

00:25:59.920 --> 00:26:03.084
because those are the words that Jesus said.”

00:26:03.084 --> 00:26:05.834
He was like, “You just read red words in the Bible?”

00:26:05.834 --> 00:26:06.834
And I was like, “Yeah.”

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And he goes, “So do I.”

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Little things like that.

00:26:09.834 --> 00:26:11.459
And he would always tell me,

00:26:11.459 --> 00:26:14.167
“Oh this is, this is what God wants.

00:26:14.167 --> 00:26:16.750
God’s going to lead you to the right path.

00:26:16.750 --> 00:26:18.376
And he led you to me.”

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Even though it sounds so crazy, being so vulnerable,

00:26:26.084 --> 00:26:31.000
I was so easy to just take it all in and accept it.

00:26:31.000 --> 00:26:33.376
I became a different person.

00:26:33.376 --> 00:26:35.917
I wasn’t who I was.

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And um, I lost myself.

00:26:39.126 --> 00:26:41.667
I lost myself in him.

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And um, he took complete advantage of that.

00:26:45.625 --> 00:26:49.167
I fell in love with him.

00:26:49.625 --> 00:26:53.292
He had asked me, “Have you ever prostituted before?

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Do you want to try to work

00:26:54.875 --> 00:26:56.126
and make some money and

00:26:56.126 --> 00:26:57.920
I’ll drive you around?

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Make sure, you know, that nothing happens to you.

00:27:00.167 --> 00:27:01.667
We’ll just do it for a little bit

00:27:01.667 --> 00:27:03.750
to get some money or something.”

00:27:04.251 --> 00:27:06.334
He went and bought a camera.

00:27:06.334 --> 00:27:08.251
Bought me some cute clothes.

00:27:08.251 --> 00:27:09.251
Took some pictures

00:27:09.251 --> 00:27:11.376
and posted them on BackPage.

00:27:12.167 --> 00:27:15.875
Within the hour we were getting phone calls,

00:27:15.875 --> 00:27:18.000
within the week we were making

00:27:18.000 --> 00:27:21.500
$1500 a night.

00:27:21.500 --> 00:27:25.330
I felt in my heart what I was doing was bad.

00:27:25.330 --> 00:27:27.251
and it didn’t feel right and

00:27:27.251 --> 00:27:29.417
you know, I felt dirty all the time.

00:27:29.417 --> 00:27:33.500
I was just like, God, I just feel gross about myself you know?

00:27:33.500 --> 00:27:35.792
Because my dad would always tell me when I was younger,

00:27:35.792 --> 00:27:38.167
“Wait for the right person to have sex with,

00:27:38.167 --> 00:27:41.334
and wait for the right person to give yourself to.”

00:27:41.334 --> 00:27:47.292
And like, here I am giving myself to everybody.

00:27:50.167 --> 00:27:55.834
I just became numb to it kind of.

00:28:20.000 --> 00:28:24.834
No she, she, she, she likes to snap at me a lot.

00:28:24.834 --> 00:28:27.920
But she also knows that I can take it too.

00:28:27.920 --> 00:28:29.334
And I know that she’ll get over it.

00:28:29.334 --> 00:28:30.667
I made guacamole.

00:28:30.667 --> 00:28:31.625
Yes.

00:28:31.625 --> 00:28:32.834
She makes the best guacamole.

00:28:35.750 --> 00:28:38.292
Did you get those one chips?

00:28:38.292 --> 00:28:38.792
No,

00:28:38.792 --> 00:28:41.330
I forgot to buy chips.

00:28:41.330 --> 00:28:41.625
What do you want?

00:28:41.625 --> 00:28:42.875
I said I would call Nick back.

00:28:42.875 --> 00:28:44.667
Like what the fuck?

00:28:45.459 --> 00:28:47.834
Dude, it doesn’t matter where the fuck I am.

00:28:47.834 --> 00:28:50.209
Why?

00:28:51.500 --> 00:28:55.459
Dude, no, seriously you’re going to piss me the fuck off dude.

00:28:55.459 --> 00:28:57.000
Yeah right, why didn’t you have a hundred bucks

00:28:57.000 --> 00:28:58.292
when I fucking got there?

00:28:58.292 --> 00:28:59.920
Being fucking cheap and shit.

00:28:59.920 --> 00:29:02.084
You know seriously, don’t call me tonight,

00:29:02.084 --> 00:29:04.625
you can call me tomorrow, but not tonight.

00:29:32.500 --> 00:29:35.920
Bitch, I overdid myself with this spanish rice.

00:29:35.920 --> 00:29:38.459
What? Why you keep calling me?

00:29:40.376 --> 00:29:42.834
I dont give a fuck dude.

00:29:42.834 --> 00:29:44.875
Seriously?

00:29:44.875 --> 00:29:46.500
No, I’m going to block your number

00:29:46.500 --> 00:29:48.251
if you keep fucking calling me.

00:29:49.792 --> 00:29:51.126
Ok you have a hundred bucks?

00:29:51.126 --> 00:29:53.500
Why didn’t you have a hundred bucks before?

00:29:54.834 --> 00:29:58.251
So you, you, you, it’s just you?

00:30:00.920 --> 00:30:03.042
Fuck no.

00:30:42.709 --> 00:30:45.042
This is the rough part of the job right here.

00:30:54.292 --> 00:30:57.292
I didn’t get any napkins.

00:31:04.767 --> 00:31:08.517
I wonder if she changed her

00:31:08.517 --> 00:31:10.726
phone number because she’s with a pimp?

00:31:10.726 --> 00:31:11.642
After having the same

00:31:11.642 --> 00:31:14.642
phone number for a long time.

00:31:20.100 --> 00:31:24.475
Hi, I’m unavailable to take your call.

00:31:24.475 --> 00:31:26.017
Please leave your name,

00:31:26.017 --> 00:31:29.225
number and a brief message as to why you’re calling,

00:31:29.225 --> 00:31:31.809
and I’ll get back to you as soon as I’m available to do so.

00:31:31.809 --> 00:31:35.976
Thank you and have a great day.

00:31:35.976 --> 00:31:38.767
Hey. I just wondered if you were available tonight.

00:31:38.767 --> 00:31:41.309
I saw your ad in Backpage.

00:31:41.309 --> 00:31:43.520
If you are would you give me a call back?

00:31:43.520 --> 00:31:44.520
206...

00:31:52.520 --> 00:31:54.892
Alright it sounds like we’re still good Joel

00:31:54.892 --> 00:31:57.684
that she’s coming to the room.

00:31:57.684 --> 00:31:59.392
Oh yeah yeah.

00:31:59.392 --> 00:32:00.225
Yeah there she is.

00:32:00.225 --> 00:32:01.934
She’s in the room.

00:32:01.934 --> 00:32:05.851
Target is inside the room, target is inside the room.

00:32:10.434 --> 00:32:13.809
Alright Joel check for the hole she’s in the room.

00:32:14.726 --> 00:32:16.559
Is she dancing?

00:32:16.559 --> 00:32:18.017
Does she have pants on?

00:32:18.017 --> 00:32:20.520
Yeah she’s got pants they’re just skin tight pants.

00:32:20.520 --> 00:32:23.600
There’s the money.

00:32:23.600 --> 00:32:26.225
She looks young.

00:32:26.225 --> 00:32:27.392
You said that last time.

00:32:27.392 --> 00:32:29.392
I did.

00:32:29.392 --> 00:32:33.600
Dude you’re the oldest one in the fucking room, that\'s why. Nevermind.

00:32:33.600 --> 00:32:36.309
I look young to you.

00:32:36.309 --> 00:32:40.350
Me? 44. Yeah.

00:32:40.350 --> 00:32:44.392
I’m premature grey.

00:32:44.392 --> 00:32:47.559
I\'m the baby.

00:32:48.767 --> 00:32:52.934
Condom.

00:32:52.934 --> 00:32:56.017
Here we go.

00:33:03.059 --> 00:33:07.892
Sheriff’s office ma\'am.

00:33:07.892 --> 00:33:10.017
Put your hands behind your back for me.

00:33:10.017 --> 00:33:12.059
How old are you?

00:33:12.059 --> 00:33:13.267
I am 19.

00:33:13.267 --> 00:33:13.851
You’re 19?

00:33:13.851 --> 00:33:14.976
Do you have ID?

00:33:14.976 --> 00:33:15.767
Yes.

00:33:15.767 --> 00:33:16.392
OK.

00:33:16.392 --> 00:33:17.976
What is this for?

00:33:17.976 --> 00:33:22.520
You’re under arrest for prostitution ma\'am.

00:33:22.520 --> 00:33:24.559
How old are you?

00:33:24.559 --> 00:33:25.267
I’m 19.

00:33:25.267 --> 00:33:27.767
OK. What’s your name?

00:33:27.767 --> 00:33:28.892
You see my name.

00:33:28.892 --> 00:33:30.517
No we don’t. You can tell us,

00:33:30.517 --> 00:33:31.517
you have to answer our questions.

00:33:31.517 --> 00:33:33.309
On my, on my diploma, you see my name.

00:33:33.309 --> 00:33:34.309
Is there, is there some reason why you can’t

00:33:34.309 --> 00:33:35.642
just tell us what your name is?

00:33:35.642 --> 00:33:36.851
I can’t believe this.

00:33:36.851 --> 00:33:38.600
She might be underage that’s why.

00:33:38.600 --> 00:33:42.559
I can’t believe this. I’m not underage. I am 19 years old.

00:33:43.726 --> 00:33:46.642
Sapphire Cherry?

00:33:47.559 --> 00:33:50.267
It wasn\'t until we dug deeper

00:33:50.267 --> 00:33:52.350
that we became more aware

00:33:52.350 --> 00:33:54.892
that there\'s a lot more to the issue.

00:33:54.892 --> 00:33:57.767
You\'re just kind of taken aback by the horror stories.

00:33:58.809 --> 00:34:01.267
Brian and I, we would be in the midst of conducting one of these

00:34:01.267 --> 00:34:04.017
these interviews, and hearing these horrible stories,

00:34:04.017 --> 00:34:06.475
and we actually would have to take a break.

00:34:06.475 --> 00:34:08.851
“Man, that\'s the worst story I ever heard,”

00:34:08.851 --> 00:34:10.642
and then tomorrow comes along,

00:34:10.642 --> 00:34:14.930
and it\'s the next worst story you\'ve ever heard.

00:34:18.434 --> 00:34:21.520
It really hit home, especially with

00:34:21.520 --> 00:34:23.976
the age group having, I\'ve got four daughters

00:34:23.976 --> 00:34:25.559
from 23 to 15,

00:34:25.559 --> 00:34:28.225
so it just made me think of my own girls.

00:34:28.225 --> 00:34:31.851
Brian’s got his own girls as well.

00:34:35.767 --> 00:34:36.892
So it’s like,

00:34:36.892 --> 00:34:39.520
I mean, understand that I don’t want to do this.

00:34:39.520 --> 00:34:41.934
OK, I’m doing pretty much what I have to do

00:34:41.934 --> 00:34:43.726
to support my family.

00:34:43.726 --> 00:34:45.017
And it’s not even my family

00:34:45.017 --> 00:34:46.475
it’s like I’m supporting my kids

00:34:46.475 --> 00:34:47.976
I’m not even supporting my um,

00:34:47.976 --> 00:34:49.976
my ex right now.

00:34:49.976 --> 00:34:52.930
But he’s he’s getting,

00:34:52.930 --> 00:34:54.309
his mom is helping him

00:34:54.309 --> 00:34:58.100
I don’t have nobody to help me.

00:34:59.600 --> 00:35:02.642
So family is not really in the picture really at all?

00:35:02.642 --> 00:35:06.930
So no dad in the picture.

00:35:06.930 --> 00:35:08.892
Uncles, aunties none of that?

00:35:08.892 --> 00:35:11.976
Best friends you can always count on?

00:35:11.976 --> 00:35:14.017
So you’re lacking a support system basically.

00:35:14.017 --> 00:35:15.475
You’ve got none.

00:35:15.475 --> 00:35:17.475
It’s all on you.

00:35:17.475 --> 00:35:20.559
Over the years was they just started getting younger and younger.

00:35:20.559 --> 00:35:24.309
We started seeing 14 to 17 year old girls.

00:35:26.017 --> 00:35:30.434
Not all of our victims come from cycles of abuse

00:35:30.434 --> 00:35:33.392
or extreme levels of poverty.

00:35:34.930 --> 00:35:39.017
Everybody’s child is at risk

00:35:39.017 --> 00:35:40.517
including my own.

00:35:40.517 --> 00:35:44.017
So basically you’re saying he’s just your ride.

00:35:44.017 --> 00:35:46.684
Ok, so.

00:35:46.684 --> 00:35:50.100
But you do realize or they told you that,

00:35:50.100 --> 00:35:54.225
he’s well known out here for being a pimp.

00:35:54.225 --> 00:35:56.851
And so are a lot of the other guys that I talk to.

00:35:56.851 --> 00:35:58.642
So are you a renegade, you independent?

00:35:58.642 --> 00:36:01.930
Yes I am.

00:36:01.930 --> 00:36:03.726
I got a seventeen year old daughter right now

00:36:03.726 --> 00:36:05.767
and I see a seventeen year old out there,

00:36:05.767 --> 00:36:07.100
I think about my daughter.

00:36:07.100 --> 00:36:10.475
And I would want if my daughter was caught up in the same situation

00:36:10.475 --> 00:36:13.642
or, or romanced by some older guy

00:36:13.642 --> 00:36:15.309
and forced to do this,

00:36:15.309 --> 00:36:17.726
I would hope that she would run into somebody like me

00:36:17.726 --> 00:36:18.517
that would give it their all

00:36:18.517 --> 00:36:20.892
to try to get them out of that situation.

00:36:21.684 --> 00:36:23.517
We got to protect our kids.

00:36:23.517 --> 00:36:25.934
Look at this. Look at this.

00:36:25.934 --> 00:36:27.559
We got Pretty Cuz

00:36:27.559 --> 00:36:28.809
parentheses pimping.

00:36:28.809 --> 00:36:32.059
This guy just reached out to the 16 year old.

00:36:32.059 --> 00:36:35.309
He’s a boss at break-a-bitches purse.

00:36:35.309 --> 00:36:37.475
That’s his job.

00:36:46.267 --> 00:36:49.434
These pimps, they’re smart.

00:36:49.434 --> 00:36:50.559
They are clever.

00:36:50.559 --> 00:36:52.017
I mean you meet one on the street,

00:36:52.017 --> 00:36:53.851
he’ll try to kill you with kindness.

00:36:53.851 --> 00:36:54.767
He said what are you good at?

00:36:54.767 --> 00:36:58.520
They will get to know these girls and they will talk to them

00:36:58.520 --> 00:37:00.600
and feign interest with one thing in mind.

00:37:00.600 --> 00:37:02.930
Making money.

00:37:03.267 --> 00:37:05.851
So, here’s the conversation.

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So first how old are you?

00:37:07.767 --> 00:37:08.892
I said 16.

00:37:08.892 --> 00:37:10.100
He said, “You’re young”.

00:37:10.100 --> 00:37:11.851
And I said, “But worth it.”

00:37:11.851 --> 00:37:12.726
He said, “How is that.”

00:37:12.726 --> 00:37:15.930
I said, “Check out the pics, you tell me.”

00:37:15.930 --> 00:37:16.930
And I, “How old are you?”

00:37:16.930 --> 00:37:18.684
He said, “25. Too old for you?”

00:37:18.684 --> 00:37:20.726
And I said, “Just a number.”

00:37:20.726 --> 00:37:22.851
“What you about besides breaking purses?”

00:37:22.851 --> 00:37:24.100
And he said, “ That’s all I do.”

00:37:24.100 --> 00:37:25.934
And I said, “Profit rules.”

00:37:25.934 --> 00:37:28.726
“Money make the world go round,” is his reply so.

00:37:29.726 --> 00:37:33.392
When the girls fall head over heels in love with them,

00:37:33.392 --> 00:37:35.350
the other shoe is going to drop.

00:37:35.350 --> 00:37:39.309
And they’re going to have to get out there and and do their part for him

00:37:39.309 --> 00:37:42.017
and and and their perceived family.

00:37:42.017 --> 00:37:45.100
Which is him and all the other prostitutes working for him.

00:37:45.100 --> 00:37:46.642
So they can take their time.

00:37:46.642 --> 00:37:50.100
A lot of them try to have multiple girls for that very reason, you know?

00:37:50.100 --> 00:37:53.392
Where they can take months in courting a girl.

00:37:55.225 --> 00:37:58.017
Facebook.

00:38:00.520 --> 00:38:03.267
It’s a predators dream.

00:38:04.726 --> 00:38:07.892
Just a shopping mall.

00:38:07.892 --> 00:38:09.475
That’s what it is.

00:38:09.475 --> 00:38:11.309
Picking girls out.

00:38:14.059 --> 00:38:16.309
Another girl knocking on the door

00:38:16.309 --> 00:38:18.851
so if she sees Rich or any of us she’s going to,

00:38:18.851 --> 00:38:21.059
they’re looking out to see who it is.

00:38:21.059 --> 00:38:22.851
She’s going into 1242 now.

00:38:24.726 --> 00:38:29.267
Confirming that’s the Legend or Value Inn?

00:38:29.267 --> 00:38:30.809
Value Inn.

00:38:30.809 --> 00:38:33.934
For me, Andy is kind of a hero.

00:38:33.934 --> 00:38:35.892
This whole thing, it’s his baby.

00:38:35.892 --> 00:38:37.559
He hatched the whole idea.

00:38:37.559 --> 00:38:40.809
And then approached Brian and myself and said,

00:38:40.809 --> 00:38:43.892
“Man, I\'m thinking about opening up some kind of center

00:38:43.892 --> 00:38:46.767
to tackle this problem, because somebody\'s got to do something.”

00:38:46.767 --> 00:38:48.517
And asked if we would be willing to join him.

00:38:48.517 --> 00:38:50.642
And of course we said yes.

00:38:52.642 --> 00:38:54.809
Andy you don\'t get paid to think, you\'re the muscle.

00:38:54.809 --> 00:38:57.559
Get your butt over here.

00:38:57.559 --> 00:38:59.934
He\'s been a great leader.

00:38:59.934 --> 00:39:02.600
A man of vision.

00:39:04.392 --> 00:39:06.434
The girls are going to get caught.

00:39:06.434 --> 00:39:07.225
They\'re going to get arrested.

00:39:07.225 --> 00:39:08.520
They\'re going to get put in jail.

00:39:08.520 --> 00:39:10.851
That\'s what\'s happened for decades.

00:39:10.851 --> 00:39:13.059
We have the unique ability

00:39:13.059 --> 00:39:16.600
to take that girl\'s rights from her at that time.

00:39:17.225 --> 00:39:18.851
Do you have your ID with you?

00:39:18.851 --> 00:39:22.892
We can hold her and have a captive audience with her.

00:39:22.892 --> 00:39:25.520
When was the last time we arrested you?

00:39:25.520 --> 00:39:27.851
And we start breaking through those walls and then we tell her.

00:39:27.851 --> 00:39:30.684
You ever heard of Genesis Project?

00:39:30.684 --> 00:39:32.350
In this place, they don’t judge you,

00:39:32.350 --> 00:39:34.475
all they do is provide resources.

00:39:34.475 --> 00:39:36.809
If you don’t have warrants and I can take you to

00:39:36.809 --> 00:39:38.559
a place that will help you,

00:39:38.559 --> 00:39:40.350
would that be something you’re interested in?

00:39:40.350 --> 00:39:42.726
Some long term housing.

00:39:42.726 --> 00:39:45.976
Get into a GED program to get your GED.

00:39:45.976 --> 00:39:47.267
Do you have a license?

00:39:47.267 --> 00:39:48.475
A drivers license?

00:39:48.475 --> 00:39:49.642
Do you want to get one?

00:39:49.642 --> 00:39:52.350
Family, peers, education is huge.

00:39:52.350 --> 00:39:54.350
A lot of the girls have no education.

00:39:54.350 --> 00:39:56.434
Job skills, life skills training.

00:39:56.434 --> 00:39:59.059
Our NGO, takes care of all of that.

00:40:04.434 --> 00:40:07.767
Lisa,

00:40:07.767 --> 00:40:08.976
how long you been doing this?

00:40:08.976 --> 00:40:10.475
Since you’ve had a habit?

00:40:10.475 --> 00:40:12.767
No, since I was 13.

00:40:12.767 --> 00:40:14.350
Since you were 13?

00:40:14.350 --> 00:40:15.559
Who turned you out?

00:40:15.559 --> 00:40:17.434
A pimp.

00:40:17.434 --> 00:40:18.267
Is he still with you?

00:40:18.267 --> 00:40:22.767
No. Detective King in Tukwila saved my life.

00:40:22.767 --> 00:40:24.350
From him?

00:40:24.350 --> 00:40:25.934
You got anybody with you right now?

00:40:25.934 --> 00:40:27.726
You been staying away from them?

00:40:27.726 --> 00:40:31.225
He’s in prison for murder now. He’s not getting out.

00:40:31.225 --> 00:40:33.934
Alright, yeah, but there’s other pimps out here.

00:40:33.934 --> 00:40:35.809
There’s other pimps out here trolling for you too though.

00:40:35.809 --> 00:40:39.059
I learned the hard way but it only took one time to learn.

00:40:39.059 --> 00:40:41.892
You’re telling me that you,

00:40:41.892 --> 00:40:43.225
there’s nothing, there’s nothing for you to do,

00:40:43.225 --> 00:40:44.225
that’s why you got to be out here.

00:40:44.225 --> 00:40:47.520
But I’m telling you, there is a place to go.

00:40:47.520 --> 00:40:49.517
So if you want to go we can take you there.

00:40:49.517 --> 00:40:51.225
I mean, you know, you don’t like all this.

00:40:51.225 --> 00:40:53.059
You just told me you don’t like doing all this.

00:40:53.059 --> 00:40:55.600
You don’t like living hotel to hotel.

00:40:55.600 --> 00:40:57.684
This might be the only chance you ever get a chance

00:40:57.684 --> 00:41:00.059
to get some help and get out.

00:41:02.892 --> 00:41:04.726
I would like to see what’s up.

00:41:04.726 --> 00:41:05.976
You want to look at it?

00:41:05.976 --> 00:41:07.520
You want to look at it first?

00:41:07.520 --> 00:41:08.726
I don\'t want to be in cuffs, I don\'t want to be...

00:41:08.726 --> 00:41:10.930
Alright.

00:41:10.930 --> 00:41:12.392
You want to go check it out.

00:41:12.392 --> 00:41:15.017
Let’s take the cuffs off and we’ll go check it out.

00:41:15.017 --> 00:41:17.517
You take them from that horrific situation,

00:41:17.517 --> 00:41:20.392
on the side of the road with a john or a pimp

00:41:20.392 --> 00:41:22.976
directly to a place where they can eat.

00:41:22.976 --> 00:41:24.392
because a lot of them haven\'t eaten.

00:41:24.392 --> 00:41:26.434
They can shower because they\'re not allowed

00:41:26.434 --> 00:41:27.600
in the motel room, let\'s say,

00:41:27.600 --> 00:41:29.434
until they reach a certain amount of money made

00:41:29.434 --> 00:41:30.517
on the street.

00:41:32.350 --> 00:41:36.225
They have been let down literally by

00:41:36.225 --> 00:41:38.434
everybody they come into contact with.

00:41:38.434 --> 00:41:40.892
Somebody always wants something from them.

00:41:40.892 --> 00:41:46.434
They get so beat down spiritually and emotionally

00:41:46.434 --> 00:41:49.475
and don’t see any value in themselves.

00:41:49.475 --> 00:41:51.517
I try to build that back up.

00:41:51.517 --> 00:41:53.059
I don’t want anything from you.

00:41:53.059 --> 00:41:55.684
I’m going to be nice to you just because you deserve it.

00:41:55.684 --> 00:42:00.642
Lisa, you want to put this on?

00:42:00.642 --> 00:42:02.726
Warm you up a little bit?

00:42:02.726 --> 00:42:06.267
It’s going to start warming up a little bit in here.

00:42:06.267 --> 00:42:11.930
And then you’ll be more comfortable and be able to cover up.

00:42:13.100 --> 00:42:16.017
That cool?

00:42:16.017 --> 00:42:18.809
Warm you up a little bit ok?

00:42:18.809 --> 00:42:20.684
I said I don’t think that I’ve ever worn a robe.

00:42:20.684 --> 00:42:22.726
You don’t think you’ve ever worn a robe?

00:42:22.726 --> 00:42:25.726
Well, do me a favor and keep that one then.

00:42:25.726 --> 00:42:27.851
And then when leave here I want you take a big old bag of clothes

00:42:27.851 --> 00:42:29.600
and stuff with you ok?

00:42:29.600 --> 00:42:31.350
Alright?

00:42:31.350 --> 00:42:32.892
It’s all yours. It’s ok.

00:42:32.892 --> 00:42:34.517
This is why you here, this is...

00:42:34.517 --> 00:42:36.892
This is why you is here because we care about you.

00:42:36.892 --> 00:42:38.267
Ok?

00:42:38.267 --> 00:42:40.350
I want you to feel at home here.

00:42:40.350 --> 00:42:42.434
I want you to feel like you can come here anytime you want

00:42:42.434 --> 00:42:44.934
and go in the fridge and grab yourself something to eat.

00:42:44.934 --> 00:42:46.767
Because this is yours.

00:42:46.767 --> 00:42:48.726
Ok?

00:42:48.726 --> 00:42:50.017
That’s fine don’t worry about it.

00:42:50.017 --> 00:42:52.520
It’s here, we’re here for you.

00:42:52.520 --> 00:42:54.267
Ok?

00:42:54.267 --> 00:42:57.434
Your family just increased by about 120 people.

00:42:57.434 --> 00:42:59.392
Ok?

00:42:59.392 --> 00:43:03.559
Alright we do this because we care about you guys.

00:43:03.559 --> 00:43:04.559
We really do.

00:43:04.559 --> 00:43:06.726
Why?

00:43:06.726 --> 00:43:07.475
Is that what you said?

00:43:07.475 --> 00:43:09.059
I don’t even care about myself.

00:43:09.059 --> 00:43:12.350
Well,

00:43:12.350 --> 00:43:15.309
we’re going to teach you how to start caring about yourself.

00:43:15.309 --> 00:43:17.809
So I want you to enjoy this.

00:43:17.809 --> 00:43:19.475
And I want you to relax.

00:43:19.475 --> 00:43:20.100
Alright?

00:43:20.100 --> 00:43:21.350
I don’t even know how to relax.

00:43:21.350 --> 00:43:23.225
Yeah but you’re gonna learn.

00:43:23.225 --> 00:43:26.934
Ok? You’re gonna learn, because you got us now.

00:43:26.934 --> 00:43:29.434
So remember my name and you call me anytime

00:43:29.434 --> 00:43:35.017
and keep in touch and just to say hi ok?

00:43:35.017 --> 00:43:36.017
Thank you.

00:43:36.017 --> 00:43:37.520
Alright.

00:43:37.520 --> 00:43:41.017
You’re going to be taken care of. From here on out, alright?

00:43:41.017 --> 00:43:42.267
Ok?

00:43:42.267 --> 00:43:43.976
Seriously...

00:43:43.976 --> 00:43:48.851
Any time, any time, any time, ok?

00:43:48.851 --> 00:43:53.930
Any time. Alright? This is for you.

00:44:06.059 --> 00:44:09.434
It’s just amazing, yeah.

00:44:09.434 --> 00:44:11.475
That girl right there, that’s worth everything.

00:44:11.475 --> 00:44:13.976
Uh huh, it is, it is.

00:44:13.976 --> 00:44:16.267
Alrighty.

00:44:21.559 --> 00:44:27.350
Slowly, it started to change when he started to get violent.

00:44:27.350 --> 00:44:31.976
I remember just feeling so helpless.

00:44:31.976 --> 00:44:37.059
I stayed, I was getting dressed after seeing someone.

00:44:37.059 --> 00:44:40.309
And I… I was two minutes…

00:44:40.309 --> 00:44:43.600
I was with him two minutes too long.

00:44:43.600 --> 00:44:45.930
And I remember walking down the street

00:44:45.930 --> 00:44:47.520
and seeing him standing there.

00:44:47.520 --> 00:44:48.684
Because usually, he’d just wait in the car.

00:44:51.350 --> 00:44:53.520
I remember just walking up to him

00:44:53.520 --> 00:44:58.267
and him just punching me straight in the face.

00:44:58.267 --> 00:45:00.684
I had blood everywhere.

00:45:00.684 --> 00:45:03.350
And he grabbed me up by my hair

00:45:03.350 --> 00:45:06.559
and drug me about two blocks down the street,

00:45:06.559 --> 00:45:11.225
threw me in the back of the car.

00:45:11.225 --> 00:45:12.892
He started choking me.

00:45:12.892 --> 00:45:16.559
He was pushing my head up against the back of the window.

00:45:16.559 --> 00:45:20.434
And there was all these people standing around our car

00:45:20.892 --> 00:45:24.392
and not one person did anything.

00:45:24.392 --> 00:45:25.892
And I was just...

00:45:25.892 --> 00:45:28.100
I had never felt so like…

00:45:28.100 --> 00:45:30.309
I just felt like nothing.

00:45:30.309 --> 00:45:36.767
After that, it was never the same.

00:45:36.767 --> 00:45:39.059
It broke my spirit.

00:45:39.059 --> 00:45:41.934
I didn’t…

00:45:41.934 --> 00:45:49.225
I just gave up and I did what I was told.

00:45:49.225 --> 00:45:53.309
And at that point, I was like, damn,

00:45:53.309 --> 00:45:56.475
home would be so much better than this.

00:45:56.475 --> 00:45:58.809
I’d rather listen to my parents and get straight A’s

00:45:58.809 --> 00:46:03.559
than listen to him and get my ass beat.

00:46:08.809 --> 00:46:11.559
One day,

00:46:11.559 --> 00:46:13.934
he woke me up really early in the morning

00:46:13.934 --> 00:46:16.017
and he goes, “Let’s go.”

00:46:16.017 --> 00:46:16.934
I was like, “Where are we going?”

00:46:16.934 --> 00:46:18.475
He was like, “You’ll see.”

00:46:18.475 --> 00:46:22.267
And I remember him driving me and driving me and driving me

00:46:22.267 --> 00:46:23.934
and it felt like forever.

00:46:23.934 --> 00:46:26.600
And finally, he just stopped at a gas station

00:46:26.600 --> 00:46:29.059
and he’s like, “Call your mom.”

00:46:29.059 --> 00:46:33.930
And he gave me, I think, $1.50 in quarters.

00:46:33.930 --> 00:46:35.225
He’s like, “Call your mom.”

00:46:35.225 --> 00:46:37.851
I was like, “Okay.”

00:46:37.851 --> 00:46:41.059
And it was uh, it was my mom’s birthday.

00:46:41.059 --> 00:46:45.851
And I called her and told her I loved her,

00:46:45.851 --> 00:46:46.892
told her I missed her.

00:46:46.892 --> 00:46:48.559
And she asked me to come home.

00:46:48.559 --> 00:46:50.851
And I was like, “I can’t.

00:46:50.851 --> 00:46:52.892
I can’t come home.”

00:46:52.892 --> 00:46:58.350
She asked me why and I said, “I just can’t.”

00:46:58.350 --> 00:47:03.976
Because I knew there was like now way…

00:47:03.976 --> 00:47:05.892
I just felt like it was like the end for me.

00:47:05.892 --> 00:47:12.267
Like, I was with this guy who wouldn’t, who wouldn’t let me leave.

00:47:12.267 --> 00:47:18.892
And I felt like I had done all these things and seen all these people.

00:47:18.892 --> 00:47:20.267
I just felt like, you know,

00:47:20.267 --> 00:47:24.767
I’m not that little girl that I used to be

00:47:24.767 --> 00:47:28.559
and I can’t come home.

00:47:28.559 --> 00:47:32.475
And then he told me

00:47:32.475 --> 00:47:33.851
that we had to leave

00:47:33.851 --> 00:47:37.309
so I told her that I had to go and I hung up.

00:47:37.309 --> 00:47:42.475
We drove home and posted another ad.

00:47:47.600 --> 00:47:50.930
I was looking online at

00:47:50.930 --> 00:47:53.520
different pages on Backpage.

00:47:55.767 --> 00:47:59.434
I saw them advertise girls

00:47:59.434 --> 00:48:02.976
as weekend specials and I couldn’t,

00:48:02.976 --> 00:48:07.851
I couldn\'t imagine, and I still can\'t imagine,

00:48:07.851 --> 00:48:14.434
advertising my daughter as a weekend special.

00:48:14.434 --> 00:48:18.059
That is infuriating to me.

00:48:20.392 --> 00:48:24.267
Now I know where I’m at.

00:48:24.267 --> 00:48:26.726
Fuck yeah.

00:48:26.726 --> 00:48:27.851
When you’re hunting, any

00:48:27.851 --> 00:48:31.851
any kind of hunter, or somebody like that, will tell you,

00:48:31.851 --> 00:48:36.642
you’ve got to become like prey.

00:48:36.642 --> 00:48:41.600
You’ve got to become the predator.

00:48:41.600 --> 00:48:43.642
You’ve got to become that person.

00:48:43.642 --> 00:48:45.517
I was looking for my kid.

00:48:45.517 --> 00:48:47.475
I know what these streets are about.

00:48:47.475 --> 00:48:48.809
I grew up on them so...

00:48:48.809 --> 00:48:53.434
If I had found her,

00:48:53.434 --> 00:48:55.350
it would have been carnage.

00:48:55.350 --> 00:48:57.225
I was watching a movie the other day

00:48:57.225 --> 00:48:59.517
and there was a guy that said you know,

00:48:59.517 --> 00:49:04.642
I’d kill the whole world to get my little girl back.”

00:49:09.976 --> 00:49:16.767
And that’s the way I felt.

00:49:16.767 --> 00:49:20.684
I’d kill the whole world to get my little girl back.

00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:27.642
I\'m ashamed of that,

00:49:27.642 --> 00:49:30.059
thinking that way and having those types of thoughts,

00:49:30.059 --> 00:49:34.684
but that\'s,

00:49:34.684 --> 00:49:37.930
you know...

00:49:37.930 --> 00:49:39.017
I don\'t know if that\'s normal for a father or not.

00:49:39.017 --> 00:49:43.017
Nobody\'s ever told me.

00:49:43.017 --> 00:49:45.517
So.

00:49:46.934 --> 00:49:50.642
Searching for her was,

00:49:50.642 --> 00:49:56.059
was an outlet for a while.

00:49:56.059 --> 00:50:00.559
I started handing out flyers to everybody I could find.

00:50:00.559 --> 00:50:01.934
Police officers,

00:50:01.934 --> 00:50:05.976
different hotels, motels.

00:50:05.976 --> 00:50:08.100
And as we started finding out little bits of information

00:50:08.100 --> 00:50:11.017
where she might possibly be, I\'d go there.

00:50:11.017 --> 00:50:15.309
It was all-consuming.

00:50:21.767 --> 00:50:23.809
Keep me mic\'d up, but put down your camera.

00:50:23.809 --> 00:50:25.809
Check this shit out.

00:50:37.934 --> 00:50:41.809
Hi.

00:50:41.809 --> 00:50:44.520
How you doing?

00:50:44.520 --> 00:50:47.934
Yeah, how much is a massage?

00:50:47.934 --> 00:50:51.851
For an hour, or?

00:50:51.851 --> 00:50:54.934
Are you the only one working here?

00:50:54.934 --> 00:50:57.434
Is there, can I see anyone else?

00:50:57.434 --> 00:51:00.559
Oh, I don\'t want to frighten you or anything.

00:51:00.559 --> 00:51:02.434
There\'s nobody else working here?

00:51:02.434 --> 00:51:04.350
Yeah.

00:51:04.350 --> 00:51:05.726
Can I see them?

00:51:05.726 --> 00:51:06.767
You just want to see?

00:51:06.767 --> 00:51:09.851
Yeah…thank you.

00:51:09.851 --> 00:51:13.267
Hi, how are you?

00:51:13.267 --> 00:51:16.892
I was wanting to get a massage or something.

00:51:16.892 --> 00:51:20.392
And there\'s just you and her or...

00:51:20.392 --> 00:51:24.600
Because I like a younger, a little younger girl.

00:51:24.600 --> 00:51:27.434
How old? 18. Yeah.

00:51:27.434 --> 00:51:28.726
How old are you?

00:51:28.726 --> 00:51:29.642
35.

00:51:29.642 --> 00:51:31.684
35?

00:51:31.684 --> 00:51:36.520
Well I\'m looking to have some fun.

00:51:36.520 --> 00:51:39.434
You don\'t have anybody else working?

00:51:39.434 --> 00:51:43.100
No, nobody else is working tonight?

00:51:43.100 --> 00:51:44.892
Just you two?

00:51:44.892 --> 00:51:46.892
Ok. Thank you.

00:51:46.892 --> 00:51:47.559
Bye.

00:51:47.559 --> 00:51:53.267
Goodbye.

00:51:54.934 --> 00:51:58.600
I felt like her case

00:51:58.600 --> 00:52:03.309
wasn\'t getting the recognition or getting the attention that it needed.

00:52:03.309 --> 00:52:04.892
And I was going to do something

00:52:04.892 --> 00:52:07.225
to make sure that it did.

00:52:09.267 --> 00:52:12.976
What I was prepared to do

00:52:12.976 --> 00:52:17.267
wasn\'t right and it wasn\'t fair to anybody.

00:52:17.267 --> 00:52:20.434
It would have been wrong,

00:52:20.434 --> 00:52:24.017
but I didn\'t care at that point.

00:52:25.767 --> 00:52:29.392
I wanted to…

00:52:29.392 --> 00:52:31.767
I wanted to get my daughter on the national news

00:52:31.767 --> 00:52:35.517
in the national media.

00:52:35.517 --> 00:52:40.934
And I was going to make a big enough stink to do it.

00:52:40.934 --> 00:52:43.642
I wanted to kill pimps.

00:52:45.930 --> 00:52:49.475
He’s goddamn fucking lucky I didn’t catch him.

00:52:49.475 --> 00:52:50.934
And I was close.

00:52:50.934 --> 00:52:52.767
And they knew it in Bellevue.

00:52:52.767 --> 00:52:56.350
They knew that if I found that motherfucker

00:52:56.350 --> 00:52:58.809
I was, that he was gone.

00:53:02.600 --> 00:53:04.976
I saw

00:53:04.976 --> 00:53:08.642
an obvious pimp and prostitute,

00:53:08.642 --> 00:53:11.434
and I got extremely angry.

00:53:11.434 --> 00:53:15.059
Over, overwhelmingly angry.

00:53:15.059 --> 00:53:19.930
And uh,

00:53:19.930 --> 00:53:25.434
I sped my truck at them.

00:53:25.434 --> 00:53:26.976
This is...

00:53:26.976 --> 00:53:29.309
And at the very last second,

00:53:29.309 --> 00:53:33.851
I think it was

00:53:33.851 --> 00:53:37.726
an instinctive reaction to slam on the breaks before I hit them.

00:53:37.726 --> 00:53:40.976
And I slammed on the brakes.

00:53:40.976 --> 00:53:43.851
And I almost hit them.

00:53:43.851 --> 00:53:45.934
And that was it for me.

00:53:45.934 --> 00:53:48.225
That was,

00:53:48.225 --> 00:53:52.100
that was the end of searching.

00:53:52.100 --> 00:53:55.934
I couldn’t do it anymore.

00:53:55.934 --> 00:54:00.350
So,

00:54:00.350 --> 00:54:03.392
I came home with a bottle, and that was it.

00:54:03.392 --> 00:54:05.851
I was done.

00:54:05.851 --> 00:54:08.892
I started drinking

00:54:08.892 --> 00:54:11.934
and I almost drank myself to death.

00:54:29.434 --> 00:54:31.684
Look how bad I\'m shaking.

00:55:00.475 --> 00:55:02.517
I\'m going to tell them look,

00:55:02.517 --> 00:55:06.930
I\'m going to do one shot before detox.

00:55:06.930 --> 00:55:11.475
Man, that\'s hella rude of me. How am I going to?

00:55:11.475 --> 00:55:16.017
I\'m already fucking high.

00:55:19.851 --> 00:55:21.767
It’s really nice to meet you too.

00:55:21.767 --> 00:55:22.934
I’m glad you’re here.

00:55:23.517 --> 00:55:25.642
Can I have a pair of socks?

00:55:25.642 --> 00:55:27.059
You can have more than socks.

00:55:27.059 --> 00:55:28.392
Do you want to take a shower?

00:55:33.642 --> 00:55:37.684
That\'s what not sleeping will do.

00:55:38.350 --> 00:55:40.767
Do you, do you want to sit down?

00:55:40.767 --> 00:55:42.100
I can go. Can I go?

00:55:42.100 --> 00:55:44.059
Yeah, yeah.

00:55:44.976 --> 00:55:47.642
Strong coffee.

00:55:49.809 --> 00:55:51.520
Can I take aspirin while I\'m here?

00:55:51.520 --> 00:55:51.892
Sure.

00:55:51.892 --> 00:55:52.934
Sit down wherever you want to sit.

00:55:52.934 --> 00:55:53.809
I’ll get you some water.

00:56:05.851 --> 00:56:08.559
If I keep doing this shit I’m going to die.

00:56:08.559 --> 00:56:10.684
You know what I mean? Like for real.

00:56:10.684 --> 00:56:12.309
I’m going to go, you know what I mean?

00:56:12.309 --> 00:56:14.309
Even if I’m in detox for an hour

00:56:14.309 --> 00:56:15.475
I still want to go.

00:56:15.475 --> 00:56:16.100
You know what I mean?

00:56:16.100 --> 00:56:18.976
Just to you know give it a try.

00:56:18.976 --> 00:56:21.520
I mean, hopefully I’m going to try longer than an hour

00:56:21.520 --> 00:56:22.726
but it’s like...

00:56:22.726 --> 00:56:25.892
Yeah, do you guys have the appointment set up, or?

00:56:25.892 --> 00:56:28.520
We have to go, I have stuff.

00:56:28.520 --> 00:56:31.559
I have to pick up my stuff from Tukwila.

00:56:31.559 --> 00:56:32.309
Oh ok.

00:56:32.309 --> 00:56:34.684
Like my clothes and stuff like that.

00:56:34.684 --> 00:56:36.976
I don’t…

00:56:38.392 --> 00:56:39.809
Thank you.

00:56:39.809 --> 00:56:42.767
Yeah! Let me give you a hug girl.

00:56:42.767 --> 00:56:43.809
Keep fighting.

00:56:43.809 --> 00:56:47.930
Thank you, I don’t know.

00:56:47.930 --> 00:56:48.684
We’ve been praying for you.

00:56:48.684 --> 00:56:50.684
Ok let’s go. Do you have shoes?

00:56:50.684 --> 00:56:52.684
Good you got sun glasses,

00:56:52.684 --> 00:56:53.726
I didn’t know it was this bright out here.

00:56:53.726 --> 00:56:54.267
So where do you want to go?

00:56:57.520 --> 00:56:59.600
Do you want to walk down the street?

00:57:11.559 --> 00:57:14.559
Sorry, I had them on me.

00:57:14.559 --> 00:57:17.434
That\'s ok. That\'s ok. I don\'t mind. None of my business.

00:57:17.434 --> 00:57:18.934
You know I don’t got people

00:57:18.934 --> 00:57:20.934
who you know what I mean like

00:57:20.934 --> 00:57:24.434
who really, who are there for me.

00:57:25.350 --> 00:57:27.267
My own mother, my own sister,

00:57:27.267 --> 00:57:29.520
yeah she just called me,

00:57:29.520 --> 00:57:30.520
but you know what I mean?

00:57:30.520 --> 00:57:31.517
I told her I was going to detox

00:57:31.517 --> 00:57:33.517
and she didn’t even really...

00:57:33.517 --> 00:57:35.559
She really didn’t care.

00:57:35.559 --> 00:57:38.642
You don\'t have like a little compact mirror or something?

00:57:38.642 --> 00:57:43.559
No I don\'t have a compact. I left my compact in my purse.

00:57:43.559 --> 00:57:45.309
What do you do with the compact?

00:57:45.309 --> 00:57:47.851
I need it to, because I shoot in my neck.

00:57:47.851 --> 00:57:49.017
Oh, you need it to see.

00:57:49.017 --> 00:57:49.851
Yeah.

00:57:49.851 --> 00:57:52.434
Hey you got a cigarette?

00:57:52.434 --> 00:57:55.225
I think you\'d be good going to detox like you are.

00:57:55.225 --> 00:57:56.309
No.

00:58:10.767 --> 00:58:16.684
So, these are like the last hundred steps, to the rest of your life.

00:59:35.517 --> 00:59:38.809
88030, the court sentences you to 90 days

00:59:38.809 --> 00:59:40.600
in jail and suspends 80 days.

00:59:40.600 --> 00:59:43.600
A one thousand dollar fine, suspends 700 dollars of the fine.

00:59:43.600 --> 00:59:45.475
Period of suspension is for two years.

00:59:45.475 --> 00:59:49.726
For the next two years have no criminal law violations,

00:59:49.726 --> 00:59:52.934
abide by the stay out areas of prostitution order.

00:59:52.934 --> 00:59:54.392
You’re not to use, possess or consume

00:59:54.392 --> 00:59:56.392
any alcohol or non-prescribed drugs.

00:59:56.392 --> 00:59:58.892
The court is going to place you on probation so,

00:59:58.892 --> 01:00:01.726
abide by all their rules and restrictions.

01:00:04.517 --> 01:00:09.309
Is it what, I got to sit in here for fucking what?

01:00:11.225 --> 01:00:14.851
I don\'t know how this shit works, I don\'t.

01:00:14.851 --> 01:00:21.809
I have the same public defender, you remember the guy on the video screen?

01:00:21.809 --> 01:00:25.520
That\'s him for everybody here.

01:00:25.520 --> 01:00:29.600
Yeah. He don\'t give a fuck dude.

01:00:29.600 --> 01:00:37.930
I\'ve tried more times this year to get sober than I have in the past five years.

01:00:37.930 --> 01:00:39.976
When I say black is my everything, it doesn\'t really mean it\'s my everything.

01:00:39.976 --> 01:00:44.100
It keeps me, you know what I mean? It makes me...

01:00:44.100 --> 01:00:45.767
It makes it so I don\'t care.

01:00:45.767 --> 01:00:48.017
I can do a little heroin and forget.

01:00:48.017 --> 01:00:49.600
You know, forget that

01:00:49.600 --> 01:00:53.684
I just had to go suck on some old guys fucking dick for some money.

01:00:59.642 --> 01:01:04.767
Like, seriously, do you know how like straight up like, a lot of it is self-esteem?

01:01:04.767 --> 01:01:06.767
Do you know how nasty I feel?

01:01:06.767 --> 01:01:09.809
I\'m 19 years old and

01:01:09.809 --> 01:01:14.892
I have fucked more fucking people than Ron Jeremy, I swear to God.

01:01:14.892 --> 01:01:18.100
You know, like, that\'s fucking disgusting.

01:01:18.100 --> 01:01:22.517
Like how, how can, like I even,

01:01:22.517 --> 01:01:28.892
like I feel like my skin crawls even thinking about it right now.

01:01:28.892 --> 01:01:31.600
And it\'s like it doesn\'t matter how clean I try to get,

01:01:31.600 --> 01:01:33.767
how many showers I take, how many whatever,

01:01:33.767 --> 01:01:37.309
it doesn\'t go away, you know?

01:01:37.309 --> 01:01:40.520
When I say, you know, that I\'m scared of being sober,

01:01:40.520 --> 01:01:42.600
it\'s I\'m scared of, you know, the reality of things.

01:01:42.600 --> 01:01:46.392
Heroin makes me forget everything.

01:01:48.517 --> 01:01:52.930
I\'m so scared of being alone.

01:01:52.930 --> 01:01:55.225
I am.

01:02:04.475 --> 01:02:08.726
Like, seriously,

01:02:08.726 --> 01:02:13.642
what\'s next?

01:02:32.684 --> 01:02:35.520
I didn’t care what happened to me.

01:02:35.520 --> 01:02:37.642
I didn\'t care if I went to jail.

01:02:37.643 --> 01:02:40.841
I really didn\'t want my parents to see me like that.

01:02:40.865 --> 01:02:43.865
I didn\'t want to have to tell them everything I had done.

01:02:45.890 --> 01:02:49.890
I just felt I was gone already.

01:02:50.910 --> 01:02:54.410
I felt inside I was already gone.

01:02:54.434 --> 01:02:57.591
I didn\'t want to come back again

01:02:57.615 --> 01:02:59.615
and end up breaking their hearts

01:02:59.639 --> 01:03:01.639
and disappointing them again.

01:03:04.663 --> 01:03:06.663
I remember talking to my mom on the phone

01:03:06.687 --> 01:03:08.687
before she came to visit me

01:03:08.711 --> 01:03:10.711
I was like you know \"Please just get me out\"

01:03:10.735 --> 01:03:12.735
\"I don\'t want to be here\"

01:03:13.000 --> 01:03:15.500
And she told me she would come visit me that night.

01:03:16.524 --> 01:03:18.791
And I remember seeing her

01:03:19.000 --> 01:03:21.000
And I was so pissed off.

01:03:21.024 --> 01:03:23.024
I was so angry.

01:03:23.048 --> 01:03:27.048
Like I felt so much...

01:03:28.490 --> 01:03:32.148
I don\'t want to say hatred

01:03:32.172 --> 01:03:35.172
because I didn\'t feel hatred towards my parents.

01:03:35.692 --> 01:03:40.192
But I hated myself for

01:03:40.892 --> 01:03:42.930
getting caught.

01:03:42.930 --> 01:03:44.350
I hated myself for

01:03:44.350 --> 01:03:47.559
leaving the second time even.

01:03:47.559 --> 01:03:49.976
And uh,

01:03:49.976 --> 01:03:53.930
I, I just...

01:03:53.930 --> 01:03:58.392
The only thing I knew to do was to blame my parents.

01:03:58.392 --> 01:03:59.976
I didn’t know who else to blame.

01:04:02.059 --> 01:04:09.930
I was terrible to my mom the first time she came.

01:04:09.930 --> 01:04:12.934
She had been brainwashed by a pimp.

01:04:12.934 --> 01:04:16.100
A 32 year old man.

01:04:17.309 --> 01:04:20.475
Upon my arrival at juvie,

01:04:20.475 --> 01:04:22.976
ecstatic to see my daughter

01:04:22.976 --> 01:04:25.392
and to know that she looked well and

01:04:25.392 --> 01:04:27.726
and everything that you would expect.

01:04:27.726 --> 01:04:31.517
I received anger and bitterness

01:04:31.517 --> 01:04:33.600
that this man had been put in jail and

01:04:33.600 --> 01:04:37.434
she was going to do nothing to harm him.

01:04:39.559 --> 01:04:42.976
She loved him and if her father and I only got to know him,

01:04:42.976 --> 01:04:45.100
we would really like him.

01:04:45.100 --> 01:04:47.225
He was a good guy.

01:04:47.225 --> 01:04:49.434
And when I left there,

01:04:49.434 --> 01:04:53.309
I knew that she was in no state to come home.

01:04:53.309 --> 01:04:55.767
And that I needed professional help.

01:04:55.767 --> 01:05:01.600
I knew that if she was let out any time soon

01:05:01.600 --> 01:05:02.976
she would be on the run.

01:05:02.976 --> 01:05:05.517
I pleaded with the judge to hold her

01:05:05.517 --> 01:05:08.892
while I found safe haven for her,

01:05:08.892 --> 01:05:10.934
outside counseling.

01:05:10.934 --> 01:05:13.392
And uh,

01:05:13.392 --> 01:05:14.267
that’s what we did.

01:05:14.267 --> 01:05:15.309
We fought,

01:05:15.309 --> 01:05:17.517
fought to keep her safe.

01:05:17.517 --> 01:05:23.350
And that was our job as parents is to make sure that she was safe.

01:05:25.350 --> 01:05:27.517
It was hard.

01:05:27.517 --> 01:05:28.767
It was a confusing time.

01:05:28.767 --> 01:05:30.392
It was like you want her home.

01:05:30.392 --> 01:05:31.475
She’s been gone.

01:05:31.475 --> 01:05:33.475
You want her with you.

01:05:34.059 --> 01:05:36.392
You felt like you were punishing her

01:05:36.392 --> 01:05:39.017
for something that wasn’t her fault.

01:05:39.017 --> 01:05:42.930
And yet, you knew it was the best thing for her.

01:05:43.600 --> 01:05:46.642
The more time passed

01:05:46.642 --> 01:05:49.267
and the more I saw my parents,

01:05:49.267 --> 01:05:53.559
the more I realized that

01:05:53.559 --> 01:05:57.642
he really didn’t care about me.

01:05:57.642 --> 01:05:59.017
And I wanted that so badly,

01:05:59.017 --> 01:06:02.225
I really wanted to believe that he did care about me.

01:06:02.225 --> 01:06:04.684
And uh,

01:06:04.684 --> 01:06:09.059
accepting that was probably the hardest part.

01:06:09.059 --> 01:06:11.350
Accepting the fact that I’d stayed with this guy

01:06:11.350 --> 01:06:13.684
and done all this stuff for him,

01:06:13.684 --> 01:06:16.767
and that he didn’t care about me whatsoever.

01:06:17.809 --> 01:06:21.642
Counselors helped me through that.

01:06:21.642 --> 01:06:24.017
My parents helped me through that.

01:06:24.017 --> 01:06:26.559
They really did.

01:06:26.559 --> 01:06:31.684
I thought that I had failed my parents for life.

01:06:31.684 --> 01:06:34.434
How are they ever going to forgive me?

01:06:34.434 --> 01:06:37.309
They didn’t need to forgive me.

01:06:37.309 --> 01:06:40.350
They, they had no forgiving to do.

01:06:40.350 --> 01:06:44.267
They just loved me unconditionally.

01:06:44.267 --> 01:06:49.520
And that’s all a child, me,

01:06:49.520 --> 01:06:51.225
that’s all I ever needed.

01:06:51.225 --> 01:06:54.059
And, uh,

01:06:54.059 --> 01:06:57.600
I’m happy that I found that out.

01:06:57.600 --> 01:07:01.642
I found it out the hard way, but I found it out.

01:07:05.559 --> 01:07:08.600
My family we’re all together again

01:07:08.600 --> 01:07:11.642
and that’s where I’m meant to be.

01:07:12.767 --> 01:07:15.059
I found myself.

01:07:20.225 --> 01:07:24.767
She came home and things were supposed to be better.

01:07:24.767 --> 01:07:28.225
Not that I was better.

01:07:28.225 --> 01:07:31.767
It’s just, the drinking just didn\'t mesh with

01:07:31.767 --> 01:07:35.684
what was going on for her or going on for Nacole or anything else.

01:07:35.684 --> 01:07:37.767
I had to become

01:07:37.767 --> 01:07:39.976
part of the family again.

01:07:47.930 --> 01:07:52.642
I wasn\'t part of the family when I was drinking.

01:07:52.642 --> 01:07:55.976
I was taking away from it

01:07:55.976 --> 01:07:59.642
rather than giving something to it.

01:08:09.767 --> 01:08:13.267
This experience has changed

01:08:13.267 --> 01:08:14.851
who I am as a mother

01:08:14.851 --> 01:08:16.642
and who I am as a person.

01:08:17.475 --> 01:08:20.475
It’s made me stronger,

01:08:20.475 --> 01:08:25.309
more passionate and less naive as to the things that go on.

01:08:25.767 --> 01:08:33.225
It’s made me feel empowered.

01:08:33.225 --> 01:08:36.434
She’s my hero.

01:08:36.434 --> 01:08:39.600
Because

01:08:39.600 --> 01:08:44.767
no matter what my struggle is, I know hers is worse.

01:08:44.767 --> 01:08:47.892
And she makes it every day.

01:08:47.892 --> 01:08:50.059
And I’m proud of her.

01:08:58.642 --> 01:09:04.059
I know that all my children are well and happy.

01:09:04.059 --> 01:09:06.809
For the most part, they\'re happy

01:09:06.809 --> 01:09:09.600
and that they love me as a father.

01:09:09.600 --> 01:09:12.930
Primarily that\'s my main concern,

01:09:12.930 --> 01:09:15.559
is that I\'m loved by my kids and my wife.

01:09:15.559 --> 01:09:18.309
And that I\'m not doing anything to take away from that.

01:09:22.726 --> 01:09:24.809
Love.

01:09:24.809 --> 01:09:26.434
You know, love.

01:09:26.434 --> 01:09:29.642
It covers a multitude of sins.

01:09:29.642 --> 01:09:32.225
It really does.

01:09:33.249 --> 01:09:36.149
You can even forgive yourself you know.