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Blooming on the Asphalt
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As Jack starts his gender transition process, Brazil is plunged into a wave of extreme conservatism. For five years, we follow the transformations in both his life and in Brazil, as the LGBTQI+ community are challenged by an ultra-right-wing government and a devastating pandemic.
This intimate portrayal of Jack and his friends reveals a tender network of affection and solidarity that flourishes in the midst of adversity. Blooming on the Asphalt is a beautiful, vibrant documentary that captures the resilience and strength of queer Brazilian youth.
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Main credits
Ruiz, Coraci (film director)
Ruiz, Coraci (screenwriter)
Ruiz, Coraci (film producer)
Matos, Julio (film director)
Matos, Julio (screenwriter)
Matos, Julio (film producer)
Fagá, Luiza (screenwriter)
Romero, Hidalgo (film producer)
Celeste, Jack (on-screen participant)
Other credits
Cinematography, Coraci Ruiz; editor, Luiza Fagá; music, Malka Julieta, Tuca Freitas.
Distributor subjects
Gender + Sexuality Studies, Latin American Studies, South America, Body Image, Mental Health, Economics + Social Class Issues, Political Science, SociologyKeywords
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I've got to look at the camera, right?
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Is this the first time you are being filmed like this?
- Yes
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Cameras make me feel awkward...
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So...
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Introduce yourself first!
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Tell me your name, your age.
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I'm Jack.
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I am 15 years old and I am a trans boy.
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Jack is a friend of our eldest child.
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In 2016 he told us that he was
starting to take testosterone.
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How do you imagine yourself
in ten years from now?
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So, I imagine myself a bearded man,
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who will be working normally,
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people will acknowledge me as a man...
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I see myself as, like...
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visible in society.
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I don't know...
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We spent a few years making
interviews and following his transition.
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Oh, today is the 20th of...
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December 2016.
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I have now been transitioning for forty-one days
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and I will take my third dose today.
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My voice has changed a lot.
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The muscles have changed a lot.
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Weight...
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After T I put on, what?
About six kilos.
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I don't think I've reached
the shape I want yet.
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But...
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It's very close,
it's very close. So...
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I'm very anxious and I'm being patient.
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Meanwhile, Brazil has plunged deep into a wave
of political instability and violent conservatism.
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When I saw that Bolsonaro had won
the election, I went into a kind of outburst.
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The kids at school started mocking me...
I mean, not me individually.
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They's say things like:
"Oh, Bolsonaro won...
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Now everyone will be armed, now we...
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We will kill gay people,
we will kill black people..."
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And, like, not a funny joke, right?
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And then I had this breakdown, and...
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And I didn't go to school for a week.
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I don't know... It's me, you know?
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I don't want to hide just because...
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of Bolsonaro or Bolsonaro's voters.
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This moment is priceless.
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To serve the Nation
as head of the Executive Power.
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We cannot let pernicious
ideologies divide Brazilians.
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Ideologies that destroy
our values and traditions,
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that destroy our families,
the basis of our society.
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Brazil above everything,
God above everyone!
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"To be silent is already to have a side"
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"Fear, never!"
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"Travesti"
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"Travesti is master of the street!
And whatever she wants"
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"Feminist resistance"
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BLOOMING ON THE ASPHALT
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I'm hungry.
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Are we going downstairs to eat?
- If you want, let's go.
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Will we wake up Vittoria?
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I wanted her to go to the Parade...
- She's not going?
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- No.
- Why not?
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Because of her mom. Her dad...
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I don't think she would like Pride...
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because she didn't like yesterday.
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Ah, maybe she'd like it.
It's different...
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Just because there's gay people there?
- Yeah!
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It's gonna be cool that everyone who
was there yesterday is going to the Parade today...
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Like, the people who were hanging out with us...
- Damn!
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What?
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- Why "damn"?
- Nothing...
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C'mon, say it!
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Why? There's gonna be drunk teenagers?
- No...
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Why? What happened?
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No, it's fine...
My mom is...
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It's whatever, she can hear that.
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It's because Andy's going
to to kiss everybody...
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Do you want to see my testosterone?
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There's a little vial over there...
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By the way, today I'm
going to do my shot...
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And you can record it.
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- Uh!
-Yes...
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Be careful not to break it!
- Yeah, easy...
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When I got my first box
I broke all of it.
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Look!
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I took 0.5 ml once
and 1 ml the other time.
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I don't think anything
has changed yet.
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Your libido has fucking changed!
That much is obvious...
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Don't say this stuff to my mom, Jack!
- Ah, it's no big deal...
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And you injecting yourself is...
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Is this normal?
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Are you allowed to?
- Yes.
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Or is it an illegal act?
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Oh, yes...
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I mean, I'm allowed...
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My endocrinologist,
who is also a gynaecologist...
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She said she'd rather
me to go to the pharmacy
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so I don't hit any
nerve or blood vessel,
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but I do everything properly.
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I get really nervous,
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I keep singing inside my head,
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waiting for it to end.
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And the lady kind of laughs at me.
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The three of you started out
kind of together, didn't you?
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What did we start together?
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Ah, the transitions, figuring things out...
- The discovery...
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Yes.
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I began to feel...
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Uncomfortable with people calling
me by feminine pronouns
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and then I asked Andy
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call me by male pronouns
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so I could know how I'd feel.
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Then...
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About a week later Jack said that...
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That he's a man, and all that stuff...
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Then I thought "Um, wow..."
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I remember the first time I met you
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I instantly started referring to you
with masculine pronouns...
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- Yes...
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And I didn't even know...
- Wow, I didn't remember that.
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Yeah...
The first time I...
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I was the last one to understand myself....
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Oh, you already understood, it's just...
- No, more or less...
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More or less...
- I was a long time understanding,
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not understanding, understanding,
not understanding...
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Yeah, you just needed to
reaffirm yourself.
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I think...
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I don't know, in the beginning
it's really confusing.
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Yes...
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My mom says you're getting
a boyish look now.
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Becoming a young man...
- Look, my mom is pouting!
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Okay, I'm gonna take off my pants...
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Ui, take off your clothes!
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But i'm wearing boxer
briefs so it's alright!
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Oh, how cute!
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- Hey, naked Jack.
- Hey, naked Jack!
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So, guys...
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Look...
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I have to split the area of my thigh...
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into about 3 divisions.
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So this is where you
apply the shot, right?
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I'll do it right about here...
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Professional.
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I take this...
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I take this first needle to...
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To fill it up.
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Anyway, it takes a while...
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Because it's so oily...
Annoying, right?
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There's one coming up...
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You have to be patient, right?
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No hurry, okay? For God's sake.
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Then I have to...
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relax my leg.
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And apply 90 degrees to the muscle.
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And that's it!
If no blood came out, even better.
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That's it!
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Stop squinting, Jack, please!
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There you go!
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It's been a while, you thought so
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So many people in the world and
no one feels the same as me
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They tumbled into reality
and the truth they found
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Your humanity was in everyone,
only you didn't notice
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only you didn't notice
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Problems dissolve in the sea of infinity
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When drinking from the water
of this colourful river
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Dealing with the past,
I become light in the dark space
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I project the paths that
open up to the future
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Ahh, that open up to the future...
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Drink your flavoured vodka...
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Yesterday Andy got home a mess.
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Me?
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Yes, you!
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I've heard you've turned around
more than microwaves.
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- Who said that to you?
- You said it on Twitter!
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- Me?
- More or less...
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- No, I said I kissed beautiful people...
- "I've never kissed so many people in all my life!"
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No, I meant... That I thought
everyone I kissed was so beautiful.
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That's all.
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Everyone in this place is very beautiful,
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because gay people are very
beautiful and very stylish.
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Like, everyone.
All LGBTs are too beautiful.
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- If you look anywhere...
- And I'm glad there aren't only gay people here.
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- Yes!
- Very happy!
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Like, not just cis gay men.
- Yes.
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Oh guys, there's a girl recording us.
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Over there!
- That's my mom!
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- No way! Is she really your mother?
- That's my mother!
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My razor carries the thread of life
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My clear voice breaks through the air
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I nursed my wounds
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We will not retreat
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Waiting for love but walking in fear
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I deserve much, much more
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I hope I'm lucky, not to die so soon
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I know I deserve to walk in peace
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Waiting for love but walking in fear
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I deserve much, much more
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I hope I'm lucky, not to die so soon
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I know I deserve to walk in peace
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To walk in peace, I deserve it
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I deserve to smile, I deserve to sing
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To walk in peace, I deserve it
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I deserve to live, I deserve to love
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I deserve them to stop
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to kill me
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"Let only kisses cover your mouth!"
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Inanna,
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give strength to me
and to all travestis,
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to the cuntboys, to the non-binaries.
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Protect your children, Inanna.
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For us to triumph,
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not only survive.
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Inanna, my Lady, my Holy Mother.
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Find me.
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I offer my body to your power.
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This war with no choice:
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either fight
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or die.
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"Only those who are travesti will be saved"
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My father kind of kicked me
out of the house.
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We were fighting a lot and...
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And he asked me to leave.
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What house is this?
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This is a kitnet that Fauno
first rented, right?
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And I came to live with him.
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How did you guys meet?
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I used to live in São Paulo
and I moved to Campinas.
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And then I went to study
at Rio Branco...
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The Rio Branco School.
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We were classmates and then we met.
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Anyway.
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He was the only person
who spoke to me.
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We were those isolated ones.
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And we were still
figuring out our sexuality.
00:15:32.322 --> 00:15:33.239
If we....
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At the time we didn't know if we
were bisexual or if we were lesbians...
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If we were...
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Whatever we were.
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So it was a bit of a...
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It was scarier for me than for him,
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because his mother had always
deconstructed these things.
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So I struggled more.
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I used to think that to be a trans man...
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I was supposed to...
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Like, have a lot of testosterone
in my body and wear
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only square-shaped clothes,
you know?
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When, actually, it's just...
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How I want to...
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How I want these people who make
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this kind of interpellation
interpret me, you know?
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I feel that
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in the trans community
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I prefer to ask people to refer
to me without gender.
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Yes...
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What about you?
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- It's that thing: cuntboy, right?
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Cuntboy Non Binary.
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Yeah, like...
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I will never use the word "macho"
to define myself.
00:17:07.042 --> 00:17:08.126
So, your gender...
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I don't even know what your gender is exactly.
- Male...
00:17:22.724 --> 00:17:23.683
But is it non-binary?
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Yes...
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Because I don't believe in
gender anyway.
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What about you, Jack?
00:17:32.192 --> 00:17:32.692
Me?
00:17:35.153 --> 00:17:37.947
Well, I guess I consider
myself a trans man
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I think that's it, but...
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I don't know.
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When we experience things in the world
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and we are trans, right?
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we kinda have to be
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revisiting these things all the time.
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"Rupture of bodies"
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How cute!
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Guys, look at the little spell I made!
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I made an oily chamomile extract.
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It has anti-bacterial and
anti-inflammatory properties
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I learned it in the class I'm taking.
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And look how beautiful it looks!
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It's golden! Look at this one!
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How pretty.
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I'm gonna apply it to my willy.
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It's nice, right?
- It's good to take care of our genitalia.
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I want to empower myself on my
testosterone cycles, take hormones,
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stop taking hormones.
And have a dick that gets hard and wet,
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and be horny.
And it's a female dick, right?
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And I would like to see one day a
mandala with a drawing of a penis
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that is a flower and it's
super pretty, you know?
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And I get pissed off because every time I go
looking for something about my body's health,
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I have to go onto men's health care websites.
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With pictures of hot women and ripped guys...
and I mean, that's not my body.
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So let me explain to those who
have never been here before,
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before we start...
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What we are doing here...
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What are we doing here, right?
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I will give you an introduction...
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and feel free to add
your thoughts, buddy.
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Great!
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I am a travesti,
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as you can see, since I'm naked...
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And I began to find a lot of...
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Let's say, a peace of
mind in spirituality
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with the Sacred Feminine.
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But then, as I was studying it,
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going on meetings,
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I began to realize how much it
biologizes the matter of spirituality.
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"A woman's potential lies in her womb"
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"Because of the womb, the woman
is closer to the Goddess"
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"She is stronger,
she is more powerful".
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I thought: What a shame...
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I am already excluded from God's world,
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and I am also being left out of
the Goddess' world.
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What world is mine?
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And then I kept thinking about that...
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And one day I had an insight
that my goddess was Ishtar.
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Ishtar Inanna,
who is a Babylonian goddess.
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And I thought:
" Wow, why did that happen?"
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An ancient version of Aphrodite.
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She was born in Sumeria
in 3000, 4000 BC.
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6,000 years ago.
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And she is a precursor of Aphrodite.
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Inanna Ishtar, here.
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She is both male and female,
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demonstrating that there is no
such thing as masculine and feminine.
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And she had priestesses called "Gala"
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who had penises.
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It was described that
these priestesses had penises.
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Their bodies had a sacred role.
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A body like mine.
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A body like Nubia's.
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A body like yours too.
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I would like to share a thought...
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because I think I'm getting to a place
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of feeling that I will always
be the "in between".
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I don't know if...
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If that makes sense, you know?
It seems like it's a...
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A constant crossroads.
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It is the body of the crossroads.
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I got very emotional
when you were talking.
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And that's what talking
of Inanna is all about.
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It is to think that this body is sacred.
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Because it once was.
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So everything that
was built after that...
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Which states that this
body is profane, dirty...
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It's a social matter, isn't it?
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It is a matter of the society
we live in today.
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This same body,
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this same body configuration
was once sacred.
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So what the fuck is this?!
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You know?
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I have increasingly explored myself
and discovered things about my body,
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the possibility of understanding
my relationships
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with others
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and with myself as
being about affection.
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And I think a lot of things
have moved forward
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since I joined this house
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thanks to all of you who live here,
everyone who is here today.
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One matter that I live with,
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and I always feel it when I talk to people,
is that I live with loneliness.
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Because...
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Black bodies experience this.
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I don't know if loneliness
is my best friend...
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or whether it is the best choice...
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It is the best!
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Look at her, she's an expert, guys!
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Hashtag!
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Hashtag, queen!
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Well, maybe...
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as we are the only two
black people here...
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We can support each other a lot.
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I really want to share
things with you,
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I really want to deal with your
problems in a healthy way.
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And we can grow together.
You can count on me too.
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There are these goddesses
in the centre of the circle.
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We have paper,
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pens.
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I want you to draw a picture,
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or write or scribble
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about your pain, on that paper.
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I won't read it, nobody will read it.
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We will burn it in our cauldron.
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Today we are on a burning day.
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It's time to set the fire!
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Because the full moon
is about fullness,
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and I don't want us to
enter into the fullness of pain.
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So let's burn the pain away!
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Burn the seeds of hatred!
Burn the seeds of hatred!
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Burn the seeds of hatred! Burn, burn!
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Burn Inanna, burn!
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Burn Inanna, burn!
00:24:22.393 --> 00:24:23.769
Burn Inanna, burn!
00:24:24.228 --> 00:24:25.605
Burn Inanna, burn!
00:24:26.272 --> 00:24:27.607
Burn Inanna, burn!
00:24:28.107 --> 00:24:29.484
Burn Inanna, burn!
00:24:29.775 --> 00:24:31.068
Burn Bolsonaro!
00:24:31.694 --> 00:24:33.029
Burn the fascists...
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Burn the fascists!
00:24:34.071 --> 00:24:35.573
Burn the racists!
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Transmute our fears into courage.
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May our sorrows be appeased
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and may new stories
blossom for our bodies.
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May our bodies find
redemption in themselves
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and in the affection networks
we learned to build.
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Those who trust the travesti
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are like the mountains of Zion
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which do not get shaken
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but remain forever
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"Crossroads body"
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"GET YOUR NUMBER"
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Voter ID.
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Are these all up-to-date documents?
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Yes.
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- What is your occupation?
- I'm a student.
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There's no "br", right?
00:27:44.512 --> 00:27:46.472
Are you going to change
the name and gender?
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Yes.
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You'll sign...
00:28:56.876 --> 00:29:00.504
You will initial here,
on the first page, okay?
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Your signature and full name here.
00:29:04.133 --> 00:29:06.427
- On the first page...?
- It's just an initial.
00:29:06.427 --> 00:29:08.095
- A signature?
- That's it.
00:29:13.017 --> 00:29:15.352
In five working days
they will send the certificate
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and it will be available for pick up
here with us, in Vinhedo.
00:29:18.856 --> 00:29:19.315
Alright?
00:29:19.315 --> 00:29:21.776
- Perfect! Thank you!
- There you go. Thank you!
00:29:21.776 --> 00:29:22.777
Thank you very much!
00:29:23.778 --> 00:29:24.737
Now should I go to the cashier?
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Advance the storm full of charge,
recharge, travesti rebellion
00:29:46.008 --> 00:29:49.345
Roars like lightning haunting
cry from the sky
00:29:49.595 --> 00:29:50.971
Trasvesti-thunder
00:29:51.138 --> 00:29:54.225
Tires and exhausts all
with her blast of wind!
00:29:54.475 --> 00:29:57.394
No chance for transphobia,
homo, lesbo, biphobia
00:29:57.394 --> 00:30:01.774
The dead-end road for rascists,
xenophobes, narcissists.
00:30:02.399 --> 00:30:06.904
The God above all flees
like a peeping bat.
00:30:06.904 --> 00:30:09.532
The God who kills
faggots and beats his wife,
00:30:09.532 --> 00:30:11.784
who shoots black men
and rapes his ex-lover.
00:30:11.784 --> 00:30:13.953
I take a razor from under my tongue.
00:30:16.163 --> 00:30:20.292
I take a razor from under my tongue.
00:30:35.349 --> 00:30:40.354
In the name of the Father, the Son,
and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
00:30:42.898 --> 00:30:44.149
That is an abomination.
00:30:44.149 --> 00:30:46.318
People, this is an abomination.
00:30:46.318 --> 00:30:49.113
How can such a thing happen?
Are they blind?
00:30:49.697 --> 00:30:52.783
Can't they see if the child is
a man or a woman?
00:30:53.576 --> 00:31:02.209
Schools are in Satan's plan.
00:31:03.252 --> 00:31:05.838
Gender ideology.
00:31:05.963 --> 00:31:08.924
The people are now beginning
to coming closer to God!
00:31:08.924 --> 00:31:11.093
Wait your time!
00:31:16.098 --> 00:31:20.853
You teenagers are the target of hell.
00:31:20.853 --> 00:31:24.064
Only those who understand what
I am going to say now will glorify!
00:31:34.033 --> 00:31:37.328
And remove from your mind
this idea that God does not kill,
00:31:37.328 --> 00:31:38.746
because God kills.
00:32:09.652 --> 00:32:11.403
There you go. Legally Jack!
00:32:11.528 --> 00:32:13.989
Yes! Nice!
00:32:14.573 --> 00:32:16.533
- Happy?
- Very happy!
00:32:17.076 --> 00:32:17.952
Finally!
00:32:18.243 --> 00:32:19.662
It took a bit of work...
00:32:20.245 --> 00:32:22.873
- But thank God it's over!
- Yes!
00:32:23.666 --> 00:32:24.583
Cool!
00:32:25.084 --> 00:32:25.668
Thank you.
00:32:25.668 --> 00:32:27.628
- You're welcome! Congratulations!
- Thank you!
00:32:27.628 --> 00:32:28.504
All the best!
00:32:31.173 --> 00:32:32.383
Oh my goodness!
00:32:34.843 --> 00:32:35.386
Here.
00:32:36.595 --> 00:32:37.763
Oh, I'm happy!
00:32:38.764 --> 00:32:39.682
So happy!
00:32:40.766 --> 00:32:45.396
It took a few years for me to be with
my right name, the right gender.
00:32:46.438 --> 00:32:47.314
That's it, huh?
00:32:47.648 --> 00:32:49.525
Eighteen years old
and I was born again.
00:32:49.775 --> 00:32:51.986
"If it hurts my existence,
then I will be resistance"
00:32:52.236 --> 00:32:54.113
That one also looks like a bar...
00:33:03.539 --> 00:33:05.332
So, there was supposed
to be a bar here...
00:33:06.083 --> 00:33:08.794
There seems to be one over there...
00:33:13.298 --> 00:33:15.134
A large bottle?
- That's it... of beer.
00:33:15.843 --> 00:33:18.554
I think we'll only be
able to take cans.
00:33:18.554 --> 00:33:21.223
A can? To take away, just cans.
00:33:21.473 --> 00:33:24.518
Can you offer a discount?
If I buy a few...
00:33:24.518 --> 00:33:25.894
No? Alright.
00:33:33.402 --> 00:33:34.903
Because dykes are all emotional...
00:33:35.654 --> 00:33:38.907
And then I started
to feel like a trans man.
00:33:39.533 --> 00:33:42.911
I thought: "Fuck! She knows
me as a girl, she likes me as a girl,
00:33:42.911 --> 00:33:45.497
she fell in love with
me seeing a girl".
00:33:45.497 --> 00:33:48.167
How am I supposed to go and say
"Hi, how are you? I'm a boy!"?
00:33:48.834 --> 00:33:51.003
But she said: "It doesn't
matter if you you are Nani,
00:33:51.003 --> 00:33:53.047
if you are Fê, if you are Felipe.
00:33:53.047 --> 00:33:57.801
No matter who you are, I fell in
love with you, I love you, and that's it!"
00:33:58.093 --> 00:34:00.095
And then she gave me my first binder.
00:34:00.095 --> 00:34:04.308
And then, like, I was very happy
and I thought "Wow, I'm really happy".
00:34:04.558 --> 00:34:07.936
It was the way she found to show
me that she accepted me and loved me.
00:34:17.196 --> 00:34:17.863
Where's Noah?
00:34:18.322 --> 00:34:19.323
They are there at...
00:34:19.323 --> 00:34:20.282
Chatting with people
- Do you wanna go over there?
00:34:21.283 --> 00:34:21.909
Do you wanna go over there?
00:34:24.203 --> 00:34:25.954
I don't know.
You guys want to go over there?
00:34:25.954 --> 00:34:27.706
- Let's go!
- Let's go!
00:34:30.334 --> 00:34:30.793
Hi!
00:34:31.085 --> 00:34:32.961
What's your name?
- Diego.
00:34:33.087 --> 00:34:34.713
Nice to meet you, I'm Fauno.
What's your name?
00:34:34.713 --> 00:34:35.214
Iago.
00:34:35.214 --> 00:34:37.174
- Diego, Jack.
- What's your zodiac sign?
00:34:37.174 --> 00:34:38.258
- Jack?!
- Capricorn.
00:34:38.258 --> 00:34:40.803
Beautiful name, seriously, I love this name!
- Capricorn? He's a Capricorn too.
00:34:40.803 --> 00:34:42.304
-What is your zodiac sign?
- Leo.
00:34:42.304 --> 00:34:44.515
Leo?! Whoa!
00:34:46.225 --> 00:34:49.436
On his birthday I secretly gave him a binder.
00:34:49.436 --> 00:34:51.522
Then his mom found out.
00:34:51.522 --> 00:34:54.399
She thought the thing was smuggled.
She thought it was illegal,
00:34:54.399 --> 00:34:55.943
that I was smuggling.
- Damn
00:34:55.943 --> 00:34:57.152
- I was, like...
- Dude...
00:34:57.152 --> 00:34:58.987
Smuggling a binder...
00:34:58.987 --> 00:35:01.615
- Binder is a fabric, for God's sake!
- It's an elastic fabric!
00:35:01.615 --> 00:35:05.244
You can go to a fabric store and buy it.
- It's a clothing accessory, guys.
00:35:06.912 --> 00:35:08.372
The level of ignorance of these moms...
00:35:08.372 --> 00:35:09.623
Do you think it'll start soon?
00:35:11.083 --> 00:35:11.667
I think so.
00:35:11.667 --> 00:35:12.334
I think it will.
00:35:12.793 --> 00:35:15.379
- Good night, everybody!
- Good night!
00:35:15.379 --> 00:35:16.421
Are you guys happy?
00:35:16.839 --> 00:35:18.173
Are you guys joyful?
00:35:18.966 --> 00:35:21.176
So let's get this ball started, babes!
00:35:22.302 --> 00:35:25.764
And now I'm calling her, the juicy one,
00:35:26.557 --> 00:35:28.142
Vênus Camélia!
00:35:38.902 --> 00:35:39.987
Victory
00:35:41.029 --> 00:35:42.197
Victory
00:35:45.033 --> 00:35:46.994
I'm walking through the fire,
I won't get burnt
00:35:46.994 --> 00:35:48.954
I'm moving through the waters,
I won't drown
00:35:48.954 --> 00:35:50.998
Against me, every macho man will retreat
00:35:50.998 --> 00:35:53.083
Travesti name has power
00:35:53.083 --> 00:35:55.294
I'm walking through the fire,
I won't get burnt
00:35:55.294 --> 00:35:57.462
I'm moving through the waters,
I won't drown
00:35:57.462 --> 00:35:59.464
Against me, every macho man will retreat
00:35:59.715 --> 00:36:01.175
Travesti name has power
00:36:01.175 --> 00:36:02.885
Applause for our juror!
00:36:12.144 --> 00:36:14.313
Marvellous! Incredible!
00:36:49.389 --> 00:36:52.434
Resplendent
Drunk with glory
00:36:52.559 --> 00:36:55.187
To the world I am indecent
00:36:55.187 --> 00:37:00.484
Apocalyptic horsewoman
Beside me, only eloquent travestis
00:37:00.484 --> 00:37:05.364
On my feet the Louboutin
burns brightly
00:37:05.364 --> 00:37:06.823
It's reteté
00:37:06.823 --> 00:37:10.619
I walk in high places, always profane
00:37:10.619 --> 00:37:13.288
Theusa, Frozen 2000, Cassie Capeta
00:37:13.288 --> 00:37:17.876
I am only because I am with my sisters
00:37:17.876 --> 00:37:20.128
May our street party celebrate!
00:37:22.047 --> 00:37:26.551
Lascivious blades
our flame is a blazing fire
00:37:26.551 --> 00:37:31.974
Around me, I feel life as
the future predicts a seer
00:37:32.516 --> 00:37:39.064
On the plateau I prophesy:
Jup do Bairro naked
00:37:39.064 --> 00:37:45.279
Taking the presidential banner
00:37:45.279 --> 00:37:51.368
Rise and shine
00:37:54.204 --> 00:38:02.796
Orne yourself of me
I need to be swept away
00:38:03.672 --> 00:38:06.758
Put the python boot on
00:38:06.758 --> 00:38:10.053
Wearing a Prada bag
00:38:10.053 --> 00:38:13.098
Versace, Yves Saint Laurent
00:38:13.098 --> 00:38:17.978
I want to wear Balenciaga
00:38:18.729 --> 00:38:22.024
Travesti in charge of the nation
00:38:22.024 --> 00:38:26.153
And we, together,
pray the plague
00:38:26.778 --> 00:38:29.573
May the macho fall
00:38:29.906 --> 00:38:35.203
And may his God transition
00:38:35.203 --> 00:38:38.332
Let aggression turn into enjoyment
00:38:38.332 --> 00:38:42.002
Release my fucking saxophone
00:39:08.612 --> 00:39:11.073
"Yes to travesty resistance!"
00:39:39.643 --> 00:39:41.686
- What's up?
- All good?
00:39:42.437 --> 00:39:44.147
Excuse me.
00:39:44.648 --> 00:39:46.733
I have an appointment
with Marcos Miguel.
00:39:48.318 --> 00:39:49.277
Right.
00:39:49.861 --> 00:39:51.405
"Deep Peeling"
00:39:51.405 --> 00:39:55.325
"The combination of
chemicals used in this peel
00:39:55.325 --> 00:39:58.328
affects both the epidermis
and the deep dermis..."
00:40:46.626 --> 00:40:49.296
What surgery do you
wish to proceed with, Jack?
00:40:49.296 --> 00:40:54.759
So, I want to know if
you do breast removal,
00:40:54.759 --> 00:40:56.303
mastectomy,
00:40:56.303 --> 00:41:00.056
but reconstructing the chest
and making it more masculine.
00:41:00.432 --> 00:41:04.769
Okay, we call it
"masculinizing mammoplasty".
00:41:04.769 --> 00:41:05.937
Is this it?
-Uhum
00:41:25.832 --> 00:41:28.335
Can I also have a copy of this document?
- Yes.
00:41:28.335 --> 00:41:29.753
Is this from your therapist?
00:41:33.757 --> 00:41:36.468
This is from my old therapist...
00:41:38.929 --> 00:41:43.183
This is the same technique
we use for gynaecomastia.
00:41:43.183 --> 00:41:48.563
That is, when there is a male patient
who has gronwn breasts,
00:41:48.939 --> 00:41:51.233
and they come here to reduce them.
00:41:51.233 --> 00:41:55.195
We proceed with the surgery as follows:
00:41:55.195 --> 00:41:58.448
we remove breast tissue
00:41:58.448 --> 00:42:00.283
and skin in that direction.
00:42:01.034 --> 00:42:05.664
So your aureole, which was
originally here, it migrates.
00:42:05.664 --> 00:42:07.499
We will have this scar line.
00:42:07.499 --> 00:42:09.918
- Uhum.
- Initially, that line stays here.
00:42:09.918 --> 00:42:13.463
The aureole was hidden here,
then it migrates and ends up here.
00:42:13.463 --> 00:42:15.799
It covers part of the scar.
00:42:15.799 --> 00:42:19.135
You notice that initially
this scar had this size
00:42:19.135 --> 00:42:22.472
but the aureole itself covers
this part of the scar up,
00:42:22.472 --> 00:42:24.349
leaving only this part visible.
00:42:24.349 --> 00:42:28.728
I really like this technique
because it makes it look more real.
00:42:29.479 --> 00:42:31.273
More normal.
00:42:34.734 --> 00:42:36.695
Well, I think that's it, right?
00:42:38.905 --> 00:42:39.823
For now, yes.
00:42:39.823 --> 00:42:41.783
Once you have...
00:42:42.242 --> 00:42:43.994
decided to operate...
00:42:44.327 --> 00:42:47.747
we'll have another consultation
to ask further questions, if necessary.
00:42:47.747 --> 00:42:50.458
We will talk about the details of aftercare.
00:42:51.084 --> 00:42:54.462
Compression gear that
you'll have to wear,
00:42:54.462 --> 00:42:55.922
medication...
00:42:55.922 --> 00:42:58.049
Before and after photos
that we have to take,
00:42:58.049 --> 00:42:59.843
to have this documented.
- Yes, yes...
00:42:59.843 --> 00:43:01.428
- Alright?
- No problem!
00:43:01.428 --> 00:43:02.345
So that's it.
00:43:02.554 --> 00:43:03.805
It's been a pleasure.
- Thank you
00:43:03.805 --> 00:43:04.639
It's my pleasure.
00:43:04.639 --> 00:43:05.599
See you soon.
00:43:06.433 --> 00:43:07.892
How long do I...
00:43:08.476 --> 00:43:12.689
How soon will I be back, more or less?
- Ah, that depends on you.
00:43:13.481 --> 00:43:15.734
Oh, I'd come back today.
00:43:23.742 --> 00:43:30.915
In the name of the Sis, the Sis,
the Sis and the Sis.
00:43:32.667 --> 00:43:37.172
Exaltation of Inanna,
mother of all travestis.
00:43:41.718 --> 00:43:49.017
Great lady, holy sister
Travesti splendour shines,
00:43:49.017 --> 00:43:56.274
beloved of the zone, amazon,
opulence abundant money, ostentatious
00:43:56.274 --> 00:43:59.944
shining breasts rare expensive jewels.
00:43:59.944 --> 00:44:05.158
Who doesn't love a good tiara, crown?
The one that doesn't dress us up for nothing
00:44:06.034 --> 00:44:10.205
Holy poc, faggot, transcendental.
00:44:10.664 --> 00:44:14.334
Witch, priestess, divine conqueror.
00:44:14.334 --> 00:44:17.587
Mistress of the divine powers,
mistress of every fucking thing,
00:44:17.587 --> 00:44:20.757
like a dragon, a serpent,
poison in running water
00:44:20.757 --> 00:44:25.637
in the earth, in the polluted
soil sowing her seed...
00:44:26.721 --> 00:44:27.514
of love.
00:44:28.306 --> 00:44:31.476
No contaminated root shall survive.
00:44:31.851 --> 00:44:34.354
No radioactive bud shall bloom,
00:44:34.354 --> 00:44:38.566
it shall not sprout, It shall not
arise this hateful foaming sap...
00:44:38.566 --> 00:44:42.237
Gross, hateful, disgusting sap,
thick purulent drool,
00:44:42.237 --> 00:44:46.825
dissipate this violent hetero jouissance
with your thunder, Inanna!
00:44:46.825 --> 00:44:51.538
Beside Cur, god of the heavens
and of thunder, of storms...
00:44:52.664 --> 00:44:54.833
Powers of heaven and earth.
00:44:54.833 --> 00:44:59.212
Water, typhoon, powerful,
greatness of heaven and earth
00:44:59.212 --> 00:45:03.383
Inanna, Lady of the travestis,
00:45:03.717 --> 00:45:05.927
those fascists are yours!
00:45:15.854 --> 00:45:20.734
I declare the 65th
ordinary assembly open.
00:45:20.734 --> 00:45:22.485
This is a motion, Mr President,
00:45:22.485 --> 00:45:25.238
which protests to the
Public Ministry of Education
00:45:25.238 --> 00:45:29.743
over the insertion of a
gender-ideology-thematic question,
00:45:29.743 --> 00:45:33.747
through the thinking of
Simone de Beauvoir,
00:45:33.747 --> 00:45:35.874
in the 2015 university entrance exam.
00:45:35.874 --> 00:45:37.333
Just look at the question:
00:45:37.333 --> 00:45:40.503
"One is not born, but rather
becomes, a woman".
00:45:41.004 --> 00:45:43.798
This is an insult
to Brazilian society!
00:45:43.798 --> 00:45:45.967
This is an ideology right here!
00:45:45.967 --> 00:45:48.595
I respect those who think this way,
but the reality is not like that.
00:45:48.595 --> 00:45:50.305
Yes, you are born a woman!
00:45:50.597 --> 00:45:54.017
This concept that a man
and a woman make a child,
00:45:54.017 --> 00:45:56.227
means their child is a
man or a woman as well!
00:45:56.811 --> 00:45:58.396
Because it was God who created us.
00:45:58.396 --> 00:46:01.024
Because He knows that,
since before you were born.
00:46:01.483 --> 00:46:03.485
If that was God's will,
00:46:04.068 --> 00:46:07.363
He would have made Adam
with two genital organs.
00:46:07.864 --> 00:46:09.574
He would not have
needed to create women.
00:46:10.575 --> 00:46:13.536
Now they come up
with this philosophy,
00:46:13.536 --> 00:46:16.372
and they believe they can
impose it to Brazilian society,
00:46:16.372 --> 00:46:19.626
knowing that Brazilian society
has Christian traditions.
00:46:20.251 --> 00:46:24.339
I have the right to disagree
with gender ideology.
00:46:24.339 --> 00:46:25.673
It is a right that I have.
00:46:26.257 --> 00:46:29.469
The vast majority are in
favor of the law of nature!
00:46:30.053 --> 00:46:32.055
I don't even care!
00:46:32.055 --> 00:46:39.062
I want to say that I do not accept this
marriage between a man and a man, people!
00:46:39.062 --> 00:46:40.605
Between a woman and a woman!
00:46:40.605 --> 00:46:42.315
I can't accept that!
00:46:48.988 --> 00:46:52.158
"City Council - Plenary"
00:46:52.992 --> 00:46:59.207
"Cisnormativity is a commitment to a lie"
00:47:13.638 --> 00:47:15.598
No, I don't drive.
00:47:16.516 --> 00:47:18.768
Me with a beer, driving!
00:47:24.524 --> 00:47:25.817
It fell.
00:47:25.817 --> 00:47:27.986
- I think she thought
he was the driver.
00:47:28.528 --> 00:47:29.988
No, no...
00:47:29.988 --> 00:47:32.699
If I were a driver I would be
a very irresponsible one...
00:47:33.032 --> 00:47:38.454
Does anyone have R$5 to donate
to the "House Without Prejudice"? R$5!
00:47:38.454 --> 00:47:40.415
R$5!
00:47:40.415 --> 00:47:42.417
Who the hell's got R$5 over there?!
00:47:47.297 --> 00:47:49.424
Can you get my cigarette
over there, please?
00:47:50.925 --> 00:47:51.926
Thanks!
00:48:05.732 --> 00:48:08.484
It's all very well done!
00:48:09.903 --> 00:48:12.113
This is crazy!
00:48:20.955 --> 00:48:28.212
It is with great joy that we begin our
Open Plenary with some considerations.
00:48:28.212 --> 00:48:31.507
I think this is an exercise
that we have to do as activists.
00:48:32.091 --> 00:48:37.263
There is a difference, for example,
between adversary and enemy.
00:48:37.263 --> 00:48:39.057
The adversary disagrees with us.
00:48:39.057 --> 00:48:43.186
The enemy is the one
who wants us not to exist.
00:48:43.519 --> 00:48:47.857
And that non-existence,
it goes two ways. Or more.
00:48:47.857 --> 00:48:49.359
But I'm going to talk
about two basic ones.
00:48:49.359 --> 00:48:53.613
One is not existing physically, it's killing.
00:48:53.863 --> 00:48:56.783
And I think we know our reality,
the number of people who are killed.
00:48:56.783 --> 00:48:58.409
The other way is to kill our souls:
00:48:59.035 --> 00:49:02.413
"Oh, you can be gay,
but keep it indoors"...
00:49:03.289 --> 00:49:06.542
"Ah, two boys, two girls holding
hands, kissing? How awful!".
00:49:06.542 --> 00:49:08.378
That is killing us too.
00:49:08.378 --> 00:49:12.173
Postmodernity says that the
identity struggle ends in itself.
00:49:12.173 --> 00:49:18.888
So: I am an LGBT activist, and so
my only job is to fight LGBTphobia.
00:49:18.888 --> 00:49:21.683
Postmodernity thinks that
the struggle against oppressions
00:49:21.683 --> 00:49:23.935
can take place within
the terrain of capitalism.
00:49:24.644 --> 00:49:26.354
But that's not quite true.
00:49:26.688 --> 00:49:31.943
Representativity without
a goal is useless.
00:49:32.193 --> 00:49:34.988
This is the greatest
challenge of activism.
00:49:34.988 --> 00:49:38.282
Because representativity matters.
It matters a lot.
00:49:38.282 --> 00:49:40.743
I want to have a very
advanced programme
00:49:40.743 --> 00:49:44.372
on LGBT rights and I want
LGBT people to advocate for it.
00:49:44.372 --> 00:49:47.041
But when you have people
who are the same as us
00:49:47.041 --> 00:49:49.627
but who don't have our
convictions towards social change,
00:49:49.627 --> 00:49:52.213
they are usually much more
helpful to the other side.
00:49:52.547 --> 00:49:54.882
And I believe that the
message we bring
00:49:54.882 --> 00:49:59.303
is that in order to transgress the system
you need to be organized.
00:50:03.891 --> 00:50:09.897
I would like to call Jack Celeste,
Fauno Vaz and Victoria Aisha.
00:50:10.523 --> 00:50:13.359
Vicky is going to perform now,
00:50:13.359 --> 00:50:16.529
and then we'll hear
the opening speeches.
00:50:16.529 --> 00:50:20.074
Macho society, we are
witnessing your slaughter
00:50:20.074 --> 00:50:22.452
Prejudice and hatred
that never ends,
00:50:22.452 --> 00:50:25.455
Mocking my existence
Killing us incoherently
00:50:25.455 --> 00:50:27.623
Black travesti who re-exists
00:50:27.623 --> 00:50:30.501
I'm one more from the slums,
a warrior who won't give up
00:50:30.501 --> 00:50:34.756
The genocide of women travestis
and transsexuals only increases
00:50:34.756 --> 00:50:36.424
We have no support
and no assistance
00:50:36.549 --> 00:50:37.759
Prejudice that kills
00:50:37.759 --> 00:50:39.594
Corrupt system, an absurdity
00:50:39.594 --> 00:50:44.223
Dandara, Cotonete and many
others brutally murdered
00:50:44.265 --> 00:50:46.768
It's very clear why I walk
down the street frightened
00:50:46.768 --> 00:50:50.188
My identity is an illusion
To the eyes of these senseless men
00:50:50.188 --> 00:50:52.231
The same ones whose desire comes,
00:50:52.231 --> 00:50:54.692
when they see me on the street
naked or almost nude
00:50:54.692 --> 00:50:56.194
My despair comes too
00:50:56.194 --> 00:50:58.362
The car stops and one gets in
00:50:58.362 --> 00:51:01.074
Soon their desire is over
the price does not please
00:51:01.074 --> 00:51:03.367
Inherent rebellion violent remorse
00:51:03.367 --> 00:51:06.746
He hits me and I run away with no right
To the lonely avenue
00:51:06.746 --> 00:51:08.372
Waiting for one more
00:51:08.372 --> 00:51:10.124
One more - cover the childrens' ears -
00:51:10.124 --> 00:51:12.043
One more one more asshole
00:51:12.043 --> 00:51:15.254
Whose cock gets hard in his pants
when he sees me in the street.
00:51:22.053 --> 00:51:24.514
First of all I want to thank...
00:51:25.306 --> 00:51:26.474
your courage.
00:51:26.474 --> 00:51:30.436
One has to be very brave
00:51:31.604 --> 00:51:38.194
to be at the head of this first core
of the National LGBT Union
00:51:38.194 --> 00:51:40.238
in the city of Campinas.
00:51:40.238 --> 00:51:45.701
It is a great joy for me to
count on a youth directory
00:51:45.701 --> 00:51:52.625
that will be thought and organized by two
trans boys from the city of Campinas.
00:51:52.625 --> 00:51:57.463
I want a huge round of applause
for these beautiful cuntboys,
00:51:57.463 --> 00:52:03.594
who are on it with a great deal of
enthusiasm to really reclaim their spaces.
00:52:04.095 --> 00:52:11.727
It is very good to know that this core
is beginning already with body equality.
00:52:12.979 --> 00:52:16.274
Come on, guys! You must stay here
in the centre, not in the corners!
00:52:21.154 --> 00:52:29.412
The UNA, the UNA, the UNA is to fight!
To fight for more rights and freedom to love!
00:52:29.829 --> 00:52:31.664
"Respect me"
00:53:31.557 --> 00:53:33.392
Hi! What's up?
00:53:33.392 --> 00:53:35.144
I'm good, and you?
00:53:35.436 --> 00:53:36.854
Are you locked down?
00:53:37.355 --> 00:53:38.522
Yes, I am...
00:53:39.023 --> 00:53:41.442
And did you leave São Paulo
because of the lockdown?
00:53:41.442 --> 00:53:44.946
It was right that weekend
when this thing started, like...
00:53:45.529 --> 00:53:47.073
not leaving the house,
00:53:47.073 --> 00:53:48.824
and so I ended up staying
at home until now.
00:53:49.075 --> 00:53:50.993
So I've been here since then...
00:53:50.993 --> 00:53:53.329
Got it. Where were you moving to?
00:53:53.329 --> 00:53:54.664
To...
00:53:55.164 --> 00:54:00.795
I was gonna share a flat with three people
there in São Paulo, near the university...
00:54:01.545 --> 00:54:04.799
Are you guys getting on well together,
or is it difficult?
00:54:04.799 --> 00:54:06.092
It's better, it's better.
00:54:06.092 --> 00:54:09.345
It's better? It's okay, like,
being together 24 hours a day,
00:54:09.345 --> 00:54:11.305
without being able to go out?
- Yes, yes.
00:54:11.305 --> 00:54:16.477
And he is also working
more with the UNA as well.
00:54:16.477 --> 00:54:19.772
We operate in different spaces.
00:54:19.772 --> 00:54:21.274
Ah, what are you doing at the UNA?
00:54:22.358 --> 00:54:25.194
So, for the moment,
00:54:25.903 --> 00:54:30.616
I'm more into the social media...
00:54:30.616 --> 00:54:40.876
But Fauno, Alice, Fabrício and Vicky are
working together to donate basic food parcels
00:54:41.127 --> 00:54:43.629
for people who can't afford it. So...
00:54:45.798 --> 00:54:48.134
Can I ask you something
that you may not know?
00:54:48.134 --> 00:54:50.386
But anyway, it came to mind now...
- You can ask.
00:54:51.762 --> 00:54:53.889
About transitioning,
that sort of thing.
00:54:54.473 --> 00:54:56.309
Do you...
00:54:56.684 --> 00:54:58.477
When your voice began to drop,
00:54:58.477 --> 00:55:02.481
did you have an issue
where your voice came out
00:55:02.481 --> 00:55:04.275
higher than it could?
00:55:04.275 --> 00:55:07.403
I mean, that you could make your voice lower,
but you never remembered to do it...
00:55:07.403 --> 00:55:08.612
Because I have that problem.
00:55:08.612 --> 00:55:11.574
Like, I think my voice
can get lower than that.
00:55:11.574 --> 00:55:14.368
Now I'm sort of remembering to lower it down a bit,
but when I'm talking distractedly,
00:55:14.368 --> 00:55:16.037
my voice gets, like, really high-pitched!
- Yes, I know!
00:55:16.037 --> 00:55:18.205
And I get very angry,
because I don't like it.
00:55:18.205 --> 00:55:20.207
Because it wasn't supposed to be like this...
- Yes...
00:55:20.207 --> 00:55:22.877
Like, I'm taking this thing
precisely so that I won't do that.
00:55:23.544 --> 00:55:26.547
Yes, yes. It'll get better later on,
in about...
00:55:26.547 --> 00:55:28.257
How many months have you been on it?
00:55:28.257 --> 00:55:30.134
Man, It's been almost eleven months!
00:55:30.426 --> 00:55:31.552
Eleven?!
00:55:32.303 --> 00:55:34.889
I started on May 24 last year.
00:55:36.057 --> 00:55:37.516
And now it's already April.
00:55:38.726 --> 00:55:40.811
On the 24th it's gonna be eleven months!
00:55:41.395 --> 00:55:43.356
Wow, I'm stuck in time!
00:55:44.565 --> 00:55:46.484
Yes, it's gone by very fast,
it doesn't even feel like it.
00:55:46.984 --> 00:55:51.447
So now I am taking...
1.5 ml every three weeks.
00:55:51.864 --> 00:55:53.949
Then I have a T vile,
which I'll use next week
00:55:54.784 --> 00:55:57.578
or the next, I don't remember,
00:55:58.454 --> 00:56:00.748
and then I'll have to manage
to get another prescription.
00:56:00.748 --> 00:56:03.334
But, I don't know, maybe I'll have
to go to the Gender Clinic.
00:56:04.377 --> 00:56:06.462
Got it.
- I don't know how that's going to be.
00:56:07.254 --> 00:56:08.923
Wear a mask!
00:56:19.934 --> 00:56:21.519
Hello, anybody there?
00:56:21.519 --> 00:56:24.355
Are we all going inside? Isn't it better if
we put everything in the car already?
00:56:24.355 --> 00:56:26.357
So, we haven't started to set up yet.
00:56:26.357 --> 00:56:28.692
- What?
- We haven't started setting up the meals yet.
00:56:31.028 --> 00:56:33.447
I think I've never been to the
House Without Prejudice.
00:56:34.115 --> 00:56:36.033
I've never been...
- Neither have I.
00:56:37.326 --> 00:56:40.204
- They have a trans dog.
- Really?
00:56:40.913 --> 00:56:42.415
What is it called?
00:56:42.415 --> 00:56:44.625
I don't know.
But I actually think it's a cat,
00:56:44.625 --> 00:56:46.335
I guess it's a bit different.
00:56:47.336 --> 00:56:49.255
It identifies as a bird.
00:56:50.756 --> 00:56:57.596
Come see the sun, my darling
00:56:58.013 --> 00:57:01.559
which rises in the gentle morning
00:57:01.559 --> 00:57:07.815
Burning my whole body,
glowing in the indigo blue,
00:57:07.815 --> 00:57:13.279
bringing all this flavour of life...
00:57:34.008 --> 00:57:39.763
Come see the sun, my darling
00:57:41.849 --> 00:57:45.352
which rises in the gentle morning
00:57:45.352 --> 00:57:52.693
Burning my whole body,
glowing in the indigo blue,
00:57:52.693 --> 00:57:57.823
bringing all this flavour of life...
00:58:03.704 --> 00:58:10.753
Ah, I wish I could burn in your bed
00:58:11.462 --> 00:58:14.173
Burning with fever
00:58:14.173 --> 00:58:17.676
My body knows what it asks
00:58:32.024 --> 00:58:38.072
And come another day so we can dance
00:58:39.323 --> 00:58:46.497
While these reactionary and
rude people learn to love
00:58:49.083 --> 00:58:55.172
Let the sun shine again
00:58:57.967 --> 00:59:00.219
What's up, guys?
00:59:00.553 --> 00:59:02.054
I'm alive...
00:59:02.763 --> 00:59:04.557
It's so cold, isn't it, guys?
00:59:04.557 --> 00:59:05.683
Hi there!
00:59:05.683 --> 00:59:07.142
Happy pride day to us!
00:59:07.142 --> 00:59:09.853
- To everyone, right?!
- We're together!
00:59:10.312 --> 00:59:12.064
But is everything okay?
Is everything alright?
00:59:12.064 --> 00:59:15.067
- Yeah! Always running around!
- You should have called me to help you!
00:59:15.067 --> 00:59:16.944
But Dani made the food!
00:59:16.944 --> 00:59:18.696
Yeah, when it's time
to do that thing...
00:59:18.779 --> 00:59:20.155
- Gusmão?
- Yes, Dani Gusmão.
00:59:20.155 --> 00:59:24.118
I did only the delivery.
She made the food. What?
00:59:24.118 --> 00:59:27.454
When it's time to do the lunch
delivery thing, call us to help.
00:59:27.454 --> 00:59:29.456
- It's a deal!
- We are doing nothing around here...
00:59:29.456 --> 00:59:31.125
- Yeah, I'm doing nothing!
- Awesome!
00:59:31.125 --> 00:59:32.418
I'm going to call you for real, then!
00:59:32.418 --> 00:59:34.003
-Yeah! Bye, bye!
00:59:34.003 --> 00:59:35.588
Kisses, guys.
- See you later!
00:59:44.263 --> 00:59:46.432
I'm not a great make-up artist...
00:59:50.352 --> 00:59:52.146
Not sure if I like this lipstick...
00:59:53.355 --> 00:59:55.316
Stabilization is activated...
00:59:55.899 --> 00:59:58.319
I don't know if it's the
stabilization that does this...
00:59:58.902 --> 00:59:59.903
Have you noticed?
00:59:59.903 --> 01:00:02.114
- It keeps adjusting the focus...
- It keeps adjusting it all the time.
01:00:02.114 --> 01:00:04.783
I noticed it, but I'm slightly
careless with my aesthetics,
01:00:05.075 --> 01:00:08.537
so I didn't really care.
I thought: "my fans won't care,
01:00:08.537 --> 01:00:10.789
because I don't even have many..."
- Got it.
01:00:10.789 --> 01:00:13.959
Those who are my fans
like me for other reasons.
01:00:13.959 --> 01:00:15.419
I'm cool...
01:00:19.423 --> 01:00:20.466
I'll let you know on five, right?
01:00:21.383 --> 01:00:23.052
That's it. And on three too.
01:00:24.595 --> 01:00:27.598
Good morning, good afternoon,
good evening, good night!
01:00:27.598 --> 01:00:29.099
Have you missed me?
01:00:29.433 --> 01:00:32.269
If so, that's good!
If not, just lie, OK?
01:00:33.062 --> 01:00:36.857
We're back with Travesti Witchcraft,
with our weekly predictions.
01:00:36.857 --> 01:00:39.693
It was a pretty tense week
actually, wasn't it?
01:00:39.693 --> 01:00:44.615
On Friday Venus will be squaring Mars.
01:00:44.615 --> 01:00:48.494
and Saturday will make you
want to go out and fuck.
01:00:48.494 --> 01:00:50.829
"Fuck the security protocol,
I'm going out,
01:00:50.829 --> 01:00:52.623
I'm going to fuck,
I'm going to sit on that dick".
01:00:52.623 --> 01:00:55.334
It's that desire to go
out and have fun. Anyway...
01:00:55.584 --> 01:00:58.754
The erotic is horniness
with urgency for action.
01:00:58.754 --> 01:01:02.925
Mars is your inner warrior.
And Venus is your inner slut.
01:01:02.925 --> 01:01:04.343
The two keep fighting:
01:01:04.343 --> 01:01:06.762
Like: "Go fuck, sis,
you're too stressed out!"
01:01:06.762 --> 01:01:09.807
You know that energy that you... Urgh!
01:01:10.182 --> 01:01:15.854
So, the two squaring off brings a
very strong will to "fuck off".
01:01:15.854 --> 01:01:17.523
But, hold on.
01:01:18.023 --> 01:01:22.194
Because sometimes we believe
that we can confront everybody...
01:01:22.194 --> 01:01:24.571
And then, as soon as we get the
first slap in the face we cry out:
01:01:24.571 --> 01:01:27.825
"Oh, I didn't deserve that..."
01:01:27.825 --> 01:01:30.244
And you did deserve it,
you know you did.
01:01:30.327 --> 01:01:32.996
So sometimes we have
this vibe of confrontation,
01:01:32.996 --> 01:01:34.498
we want to confront God,
01:01:34.498 --> 01:01:37.835
we want to confront the Church,
Capitalism, the hetero-cis-white man...
01:01:37.835 --> 01:01:39.336
We want to confront everything!
01:01:39.336 --> 01:01:42.548
Then, at the first fall we take,
we see that we have anxiety,
01:01:42.548 --> 01:01:46.343
generalized anxiety disorder,
post-traumatic stress, depression...
01:01:46.343 --> 01:01:48.554
Because we're not doing
well in the lockdown.
01:01:48.804 --> 01:01:52.307
We can't pretend that the world
is the same as it once was.
01:01:52.307 --> 01:01:56.103
All the plans you had with your career,
with your family, with your friendships,
01:01:56.103 --> 01:01:57.771
with your dreams, with your college...
01:01:59.022 --> 01:02:01.316
Everything sucks, right?
Let's be honest.
01:02:01.817 --> 01:02:02.901
It's shit, isn't it?
01:02:03.026 --> 01:02:04.236
So, let's be careful.
01:02:04.236 --> 01:02:06.697
This desire to throw rocks at everything,
I have it too.
01:02:06.697 --> 01:02:08.073
I have this desire right now.
01:02:09.116 --> 01:02:12.035
But sometimes you have to know
who to throw the rocks at.
01:02:12.035 --> 01:02:13.996
Sometimes the question is not whether
to throw the rock or not,
01:02:13.996 --> 01:02:17.958
but to know at whom, or what, or where,
or when to throw this rock.
01:02:17.958 --> 01:02:19.585
OK? Keep the tip!
01:02:19.585 --> 01:02:21.211
Kisses from your travesti aunt.
01:02:24.631 --> 01:02:25.924
It's done!
01:02:26.884 --> 01:02:27.843
Oh, my back!
01:02:28.719 --> 01:02:29.553
Was it good?
01:02:30.053 --> 01:02:30.804
It was chic!
01:02:30.804 --> 01:02:31.972
It was chic...
01:02:32.306 --> 01:02:33.307
I had to hold back from laughing!
01:02:33.807 --> 01:02:35.225
And that light was good too...
01:02:35.559 --> 01:02:38.187
But, wow, that's the face
of someone who has lived.
01:02:39.855 --> 01:02:42.316
- Of one who has lived a battle...
- Who has lived..
01:02:42.316 --> 01:02:45.903
- How is it? "I have seen, lived and won".
- "I have seen, lived and won".
01:02:46.695 --> 01:02:47.946
But you look cute.
01:02:48.322 --> 01:02:50.324
I'm cute, but I look long-lived.
01:02:52.075 --> 01:02:53.994
We became very good friends on MSN...
01:02:54.453 --> 01:02:56.538
And one day we were in a bad mood...
01:02:56.538 --> 01:02:58.207
and I don't know how it came up...
01:02:58.207 --> 01:03:00.375
there was a BuzzFeed
test at the time,
01:03:00.375 --> 01:03:01.794
which wasn't BuzzFeed yet,
which was called:
01:03:02.169 --> 01:03:03.629
"Are you transgender?"
01:03:04.213 --> 01:03:06.632
And we were like:
"Ha ha ha, let's do this test!"
01:03:06.632 --> 01:03:07.966
"Let's make some fun of it!"
01:03:09.092 --> 01:03:10.093
We are...
01:03:10.093 --> 01:03:13.597
And it turned out that
we were transgender!
01:03:14.014 --> 01:03:18.644
The acronym was LGBTTT, three Ts
01:03:18.685 --> 01:03:21.104
Which was travesti,
transsexual and transgender.
01:03:21.688 --> 01:03:25.192
And do you know what Google's definition
of transgender was at the time?
01:03:25.734 --> 01:03:29.571
Transgender was the person who
was of the other gender on the inside
01:03:29.571 --> 01:03:33.075
but they didn't make a
point of externalising it.
01:03:34.076 --> 01:03:35.327
Then we thought: "that's us".
01:03:35.327 --> 01:03:36.662
"Closeted, it's us!"
01:03:36.662 --> 01:03:39.623
"I don't need to, can you imagine,
me becoming a travesti?"
01:03:39.623 --> 01:03:41.583
"I've wanted to,
I don't want to anymore!"
01:03:41.834 --> 01:03:45.963
I live with you, I work with you,
I do witchcraft with you...
01:03:45.963 --> 01:03:46.713
Right?
01:03:46.713 --> 01:03:48.632
We only don't have sex
because he doesn't want to.
01:03:52.344 --> 01:03:53.595
I've tried many times!
01:03:54.513 --> 01:03:55.973
Girl, don't expose me like that!
01:03:57.808 --> 01:03:59.768
- "I'm gay, babe..."
- That's it!
01:04:02.229 --> 01:04:06.066
- You're just the colour of your shirt!
- Oh, you're ridiculous!
01:04:06.608 --> 01:04:09.987
"The power belongs to the travestis"
01:04:15.534 --> 01:04:17.244
What's in there, Noah? Why is it open?
01:04:20.122 --> 01:04:23.417
This is my testosterone box,
it comes with three vials.
01:04:24.084 --> 01:04:26.503
I was taking it, but I decided to stop
01:04:26.503 --> 01:04:27.546
and there's one left...
01:04:28.255 --> 01:04:33.176
So I decided to give it to Jack,
because he takes it continuously.
01:04:33.802 --> 01:04:37.514
And he and Rafa helped me
out a lot two or three times.
01:04:37.514 --> 01:04:42.185
When I had a problem
with the vile itself,
01:04:42.185 --> 01:04:44.438
or with the prescription, something
like that, they helped me out.
01:04:44.438 --> 01:04:47.816
So it's also kind of a way
of returning the favor...
01:04:51.403 --> 01:04:54.197
And why have you stopped
taking testosterone?
01:04:55.699 --> 01:04:59.953
Because I have decided
that I am already satisfied
01:04:59.953 --> 01:05:02.956
and I don't want to take it forever,
01:05:02.956 --> 01:05:05.334
I don't want more changes
than I already have...
01:05:06.335 --> 01:05:10.297
Anyway, it did for me what it had to do,
and so I decided to stop.
01:05:11.173 --> 01:05:11.924
Pretty much that.
01:05:12.424 --> 01:05:13.842
" Male/female: what do I have
to do with it? Enby was here"
01:05:14.134 --> 01:05:17.804
Because, after all, I'm not a trans man, right?
I am a non-binary person.
01:05:17.804 --> 01:05:23.101
I just wanted to change a bit,
so as not to...
01:05:23.393 --> 01:05:28.023
To be more comfortable
with myself and not get so...
01:05:28.857 --> 01:05:31.568
I didn't want people to see
me all the time as a woman,
01:05:31.568 --> 01:05:32.986
because that bothered me a lot...
01:05:34.613 --> 01:05:37.783
Anyway, I discovered that in fact
there is no such thing as passing for me,
01:05:37.908 --> 01:05:43.497
because socially I don't exist, so the
most I can do is look a bit weird.
01:05:45.457 --> 01:05:52.339
And what would work best for me,
what is possible at the moment,
01:05:52.339 --> 01:05:53.799
is for people to look at me and say:
01:05:53.799 --> 01:05:56.385
" Wow, there's something going on
with this person's gender.
01:05:56.385 --> 01:05:58.428
I don't know what it is,
but something's a bit weird".
01:05:59.137 --> 01:05:59.972
And that's it.
01:05:59.972 --> 01:06:02.474
I think that for me...
I think I've achieved that and it's...
01:06:04.017 --> 01:06:06.895
it's the closest I will ever get to
passing, so that's it.
01:06:08.438 --> 01:06:09.398
Jack!
01:06:20.492 --> 01:06:21.284
I heard a noise.
01:06:29.167 --> 01:06:30.043
Ah, there you are!
01:06:30.335 --> 01:06:31.837
Hello!
- Hi, how are you?
01:06:31.837 --> 01:06:34.297
Ah, hugs aren't allowed, right?
- It's not allowed...
01:06:34.798 --> 01:06:35.298
Okay...
01:06:35.298 --> 01:06:38.635
- Can I throw alcohol on the sole of your shoe?
- Yes, you can!
01:06:38.844 --> 01:06:40.095
Okay...
01:07:07.873 --> 01:07:10.542
How much time a day
do you spend working, generally?
01:07:11.543 --> 01:07:12.878
Good afternoon, Jonatan?
01:07:28.226 --> 01:07:28.935
You can talk...
01:07:29.144 --> 01:07:30.353
- Huh?
- You can talk...
01:07:30.729 --> 01:07:33.648
I was going to ask how long
you do this a day, more or less....
01:07:35.484 --> 01:07:37.527
Eight hours working like this.
01:07:38.862 --> 01:07:40.864
Wow, you spend eight
hours calling people?
01:07:41.698 --> 01:07:45.243
Sometimes I drink coffee
and I get more energetic...
01:07:45.243 --> 01:07:45.869
Uhum.
01:07:45.994 --> 01:07:50.373
But today I'm pretty crap, you know?
01:07:51.875 --> 01:07:52.793
Each day is a different day...
01:07:53.293 --> 01:07:55.837
But, gosh, that seems exhausting.
- Yeah...
01:08:00.675 --> 01:08:02.052
Good afternoon. Tiago?
01:08:03.929 --> 01:08:04.554
Hello?
01:08:06.473 --> 01:08:07.224
Hello?
01:08:21.613 --> 01:08:23.198
But hey Jack, I miss you!
01:08:23.198 --> 01:08:25.659
Whenever I'm talking to Dek,
we remember when we used to hang out,
01:08:25.659 --> 01:08:27.077
and we say: "Oh, how I miss Jack!"
01:08:27.077 --> 01:08:28.954
And we echoed, "Yeah, I miss Jack..."
01:08:33.875 --> 01:08:35.252
I miss you guys too.
01:08:38.296 --> 01:08:40.674
I just don't text very often,
because I don't...
01:08:41.049 --> 01:08:43.009
- I totally understand...
- I have this blockage with texting...
01:08:43.093 --> 01:08:44.344
Don't worry about that!
01:08:49.015 --> 01:08:51.184
Now the pandemic
is kind of fucked up...
01:08:51.184 --> 01:08:55.313
- I don't know what colour it is now, purple or red...
- Yeah, it must be...
01:08:56.565 --> 01:08:59.234
Good afternoon,
I would like to speak to Carolina.
01:09:02.154 --> 01:09:05.615
And the Cinema Package,
it costs R$70 a month.
01:09:06.032 --> 01:09:08.702
So you'll get more content
from films, series...
01:09:08.702 --> 01:09:11.955
You''ll have all the channels
and also two platforms.
01:09:13.123 --> 01:09:15.792
Then I just need to confirm some information for...
01:09:18.879 --> 01:09:20.005
The system is glitching a lot.
01:09:21.798 --> 01:09:26.303
I only had time to go to the opening...
freshman year reception...
01:09:28.221 --> 01:09:30.849
It's been a year, more or less,
a year and a bit.
01:09:31.433 --> 01:09:33.476
Last time I had my hopes high, and...
01:09:35.437 --> 01:09:36.813
Yeah, that's it.
01:09:38.106 --> 01:09:39.733
It makes like...
01:09:40.442 --> 01:09:43.904
It makes you feel weak, like...
You don't even want to...
01:09:44.654 --> 01:09:49.117
Right now everybody just wants
to exist as nothing, just waiting, right?
01:09:49.284 --> 01:09:51.119
Everything sucks.
01:09:51.453 --> 01:09:53.747
It sucks enough that you
can't leave your house,
01:09:53.747 --> 01:09:55.916
you can't see your friends,
you live in fear and so on.
01:09:55.916 --> 01:09:58.877
Everybody's fucked up with money,
with everything, with life...
01:09:59.586 --> 01:10:01.087
And on top of that... like,
01:10:01.546 --> 01:10:04.174
This is because of the government...
01:10:04.174 --> 01:10:06.134
because of assholes in the government,
01:10:06.134 --> 01:10:09.012
but we can't do what we usually do,
01:10:09.012 --> 01:10:11.306
which is get out on
the streets and protest...
01:10:11.473 --> 01:10:12.182
So, like...
01:10:13.183 --> 01:10:14.226
One doesn't know what to do.
01:10:15.143 --> 01:10:19.439
"The cistem is glitching"
01:10:36.498 --> 01:10:38.458
There are some questions
that the system asks...
01:10:38.458 --> 01:10:39.334
Sex?
01:10:39.542 --> 01:10:41.962
Male.
01:10:42.045 --> 01:10:42.504
Ok.
01:10:44.339 --> 01:10:45.423
What is your race?
01:10:45.423 --> 01:10:46.049
White.
01:10:51.513 --> 01:10:53.974
And then you bring it
for the second dose as well.
01:10:53.974 --> 01:10:55.183
Is that good?
- All right, then.
01:10:55.433 --> 01:10:57.143
Thank you.
- Thank you. Have a nice afternoon!
01:10:57.143 --> 01:10:57.894
Thank you!
01:11:01.106 --> 01:11:04.359
- Hi, good afternoon.
- Hi. Sit down, please.
01:11:11.533 --> 01:11:13.868
Stay calm, relax. Okay?
01:11:14.369 --> 01:11:15.704
It's just a little pinch.
01:11:19.374 --> 01:11:20.208
Hold this.
01:11:20.333 --> 01:11:22.168
Look, the syringe is empty, OK?
01:11:28.925 --> 01:11:31.886
The next dose will be on the 24th,
01:11:31.886 --> 01:11:35.265
- at 4:35 pm, okay?
- That's good.
01:11:35.265 --> 01:11:37.183
- Thank you!
- You're welcome, all the best.
01:11:37.183 --> 01:11:38.685
- Have a nice afternoon.
- Thank you.
01:11:50.405 --> 01:11:52.907
"Who is allowed to dream?"
01:11:55.327 --> 01:11:58.747
We do not deserve to survive
01:11:59.497 --> 01:12:01.124
We deserve to triumph
01:12:02.625 --> 01:12:06.588
We deserve a place of our own, Inanna
01:12:26.274 --> 01:12:27.859
Protect my sisters,
01:12:29.194 --> 01:12:31.613
Protect trans men, travestis...
01:12:33.573 --> 01:12:37.243
In this war that we
did not choose to fight.
01:12:55.762 --> 01:12:57.514
But the times are calling
01:13:00.809 --> 01:13:04.813
Inanna, goddess of love and sex,
but also goddess of war,
01:13:05.939 --> 01:13:07.816
It's time to go to war,
01:13:08.441 --> 01:13:10.568
It's time to strike back.
01:13:11.444 --> 01:13:16.991
Bolsonaro out! Bolsonaro out!
01:13:19.202 --> 01:13:20.912
May the macho fall!
01:13:22.497 --> 01:13:25.583
The traviarchy is about to begin.
01:13:43.226 --> 01:13:45.854
So start by telling us what
day it is today. Do you know?
01:13:46.563 --> 01:13:49.983
August 27, 2021.
01:13:51.901 --> 01:13:54.904
So, five years since
we first filmed you.
01:13:55.196 --> 01:13:55.947
Oh, yeah?
01:13:56.656 --> 01:13:57.615
Quite a long time.
01:13:59.784 --> 01:14:01.953
In the first interview
we did with you...
01:14:02.787 --> 01:14:06.082
Julio asked how you imagined
yourself in ten years.
01:14:07.292 --> 01:14:08.501
- Do you remember?
- Yes, I do.
01:14:09.043 --> 01:14:10.253
And do you remember what you answered?
01:14:12.255 --> 01:14:13.173
I'd have a beard?
01:14:16.384 --> 01:14:19.053
And how do you feel
now compared to back then?
01:14:19.596 --> 01:14:21.723
I feel much better, because...
01:14:22.765 --> 01:14:26.352
I don't know... I think I managed
to deal with the matter...
01:14:29.189 --> 01:14:30.398
...of my body, you know?
01:14:31.858 --> 01:14:33.776
I became more comfortable with my body.
01:14:34.694 --> 01:14:39.073
The issue of having breasts too...
I'm more comfortable with that.
01:14:39.449 --> 01:14:42.994
Not to the point where
I wouldn't want to have top surgery,
01:14:42.994 --> 01:14:44.954
I still really want it... but I...
01:14:45.705 --> 01:14:50.543
I feel like:
"OK, they're here, and that's it..."
01:14:50.793 --> 01:14:55.089
I think it was because of the connections
I had during all this time, right?
01:14:55.632 --> 01:15:00.303
I think if I hadn't met them,
I would be less...
01:15:01.429 --> 01:15:03.223
open-minded. I would be...
01:15:03.223 --> 01:15:05.808
I wouldn't be a cuntboy, I'd be a...
01:15:06.142 --> 01:15:11.564
A normative trans man like some
that exist out there, you know?
01:15:14.234 --> 01:15:17.695
Sometimes I fall into traps
01:15:19.113 --> 01:15:22.534
Sometimes I think so much about life
01:15:24.035 --> 01:15:27.372
They ask me to be perfect, to be a model
01:15:27.372 --> 01:15:29.707
The reference, the mirror to you
01:15:29.707 --> 01:15:32.752
that there is no hope lost
01:15:34.128 --> 01:15:37.423
but a new era has arrived,
01:15:39.259 --> 01:15:42.512
I came to teach you what love is
01:15:43.721 --> 01:15:47.976
I am imperfect,
my recipe for salvation
01:15:48.518 --> 01:15:54.524
it's acceptance, self-love,
I don't ask for forgiveness,
01:15:55.984 --> 01:15:57.443
I don't ask for forgiveness,
01:15:58.903 --> 01:16:02.073
I am what I can be
01:16:03.533 --> 01:16:07.036
and I will do my best
01:16:08.621 --> 01:16:11.833
I am what I am meant to be
01:16:13.293 --> 01:16:16.879
and I will do my best
01:16:19.674 --> 01:16:21.676
I will do my best
01:16:35.023 --> 01:16:38.693
The days of peace are ending
01:16:39.902 --> 01:16:43.615
And our war is just beginning
01:16:44.824 --> 01:16:47.535
We want respect and to say it out loud
01:16:47.535 --> 01:16:50.204
our pride to be in this world
01:16:50.204 --> 01:16:54.667
and never to be ashamed
01:16:55.168 --> 01:16:58.504
I won't ask for permission
01:16:59.964 --> 01:17:03.718
I won't apologise anymore
01:17:04.677 --> 01:17:08.348
To be able to exist,
to breathe and to love
01:17:08.348 --> 01:17:09.599
and to be able to say
01:17:09.599 --> 01:17:13.603
that I am no less than you
01:17:14.479 --> 01:17:18.024
I want us alive
01:17:18.941 --> 01:17:23.154
I want us alive
01:17:24.238 --> 01:17:27.825
I sing for life
01:17:29.494 --> 01:17:33.122
It's not too much to ask
01:17:34.415 --> 01:17:37.669
I am what I can be
01:17:39.045 --> 01:17:42.465
and I will do my best
01:17:44.133 --> 01:17:47.553
I am what I am meant to be
01:17:48.805 --> 01:17:52.183
and I will do my best
01:17:53.643 --> 01:17:57.939
I'm alive
01:17:58.606 --> 01:18:02.694
I'm alive
01:18:03.277 --> 01:18:06.614
I'm alive
01:18:08.074 --> 01:18:12.078
I'm alive
01:18:13.037 --> 01:18:17.083
We are what we can be
01:18:17.917 --> 01:18:21.879
and we will do our best
01:18:22.964 --> 01:18:26.843
We are what we meant to be
01:18:27.677 --> 01:18:31.848
and we will do our best
01:18:32.724 --> 01:18:37.353
Let's keep on living, let's keep on living
01:18:37.645 --> 01:18:41.858
Let's keep on living, let's keep on living
Distributor: Pragda Films
Length: 79 minutes
Date: 2022
Genre: Expository
Language: Portuguese
Grade: High School, College, Adults
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Closed Captioning: Available
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