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Canela
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At 48, Áyax Grandi, an architect from the city of Rosario, decided to become Canela. This film narrates the moments in the life of Canela where she is torn between having gender reassignment surgery or not. With that in mind, her search begins. She consults with healthcare professionals, her sons, and old friends until she realizes something about her desire that she didn’t really expect.
“A sensitive and cheerful gaze.”- María Fernanda Mugica, La Nación
“An extraordinary protagonist.”- Juan Pablo Cinelli, Página 12
“A remarkable documentary.”- Ezequiel Boetti, Otros Cines
“A fascinating portrait”- Anna Dodier, escribiendocine.com
Citation
Main credits
Valle, Cecilia del (film director)
Valle, Cecilia del (screenwriter)
Valle, Cecilia del (film producer)
Tamburello, Romina (screenwriter)
Grandi Mallarini, Canela (on-screen participant)
Other credits
Cinematography, Lucas Pérez; editor, Verónica Rossi; music, Juani Favre.
Distributor subjects
Gender + Sexuality Studies; South America; Mental Health; Health + Aging; Family; Body Image; Sociology; Human Rights; Culture + IdentityKeywords
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-Excuse me, good morning.
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Good morning. How are you?
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CANELA
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A Film by Cecilia Del Valle
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MORENA
GIFTS - HABERDASHERY
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-I'll give you some color, Cane.
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-Oh, well.
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No problem, as long as it shrinks my tummy.
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-Let's see, let's give it some color.
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-Thanks.
-Let's remove the black color.
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-Right, a lot of black.
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Black is the only thing that disguises it.
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-But that was before, remember?
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-Let's see.
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-I don't know, what do you think?
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-I like it better.
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-Yeah, really.
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-Hold on, let me.
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-Ow, if you roll it up.
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-Only if you want to.
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-OK, I love it. Yes, it's Okay.
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-Depend on your sense of style.
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-As long as I don't look like
a construction worker there is no trouble.
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-I'll never forget
the first time you entered.
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-And I always wore some miniskirts up here.
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-You looked hot.
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-I was a bit of a fluff.
I was very skinny.
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That's the thing.
I could wear the mini-skirt then.
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-How cute. I love it, you know?
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-Hey, dad. Barbi sent a message saying
she has arrived to Barcelona.
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Says it is at Barbi’s floor...
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-Aha.
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-...a friend's.
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-That’s freezing there.
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And when she buys a cell phone,
she’ll communicate by phone.
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And sends you a hug and says she loves
us all.
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-Oh, well. She’ll do well.
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She’ll be happy.
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-How are you? Good morning.
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We're starting The Sounds of Silence from
the morning.
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It's a sunny day. A splendid day.
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Very nice.
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I'd like to say hello to
all the people from Rosario.
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Rosario is awaking.
The day has already started.
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And we have a great day.
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We have a lot of things for today.
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We have the people's proposals...
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-How are you? Good morning.
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-Have to ask the inspectors how
to do the contract...
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...for when we bring the material.
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Because going to Entre Ríos
is complicated.
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-How long ago did you start taking
hormones?
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-Just a year ago.
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-Just a year?
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-Yes, I started as a grown-up.
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-I also started as a grown-up
around 4 years ago.
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-Great.
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-When they started giving gender-change
hormones here at CEMAR.
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I came, and I became
one of the first guinea pigs.
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-Do you feel all right?
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-Yes, I do.
It’s the appearance I was looking for.
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-Did you notice it changed the way
you feel?
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Although I started later and besides
I’m older than you.
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I notice changes in my mood...
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...aside from the physical ones.
I feel very comfortable.
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I like that change.
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-Yes. You may have to
go regulating the hormones.
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Is not the same for everyone.
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If I take one a week
as they tell me so...
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...I would weep over ads or cartoons.
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-Canela Grandi.
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-How are you, Doctor?
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-How are you?
-Fine.
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-Excuse me.
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When are my hips going to widen
and all that?
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Or is that not going to happen?
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-As in all, it depends.
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There are some effects
that are related the beginning age...
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...of the hormone treatment.
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-Sure.
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-If you start at an adult age...
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...when your body is already
developed in a certain way...
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...the possibility of modifying that
is much more complex.
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Some things are achieved
and some others not.
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-Well, for example,
the breasts part is noticing.
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That makes me thrilled.
I feel well.
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But elsewhere I do not notice
many differences.
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-No, because the breasts...
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The mammary gland is a tissue
that responds to estrogen.
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When you start taking estrogen
in your body to feminize yourself...
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...the mammary gland wakes up
after so many years of being asleep...
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...and begin to grow,
to develop.
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-At my age, is it possible to think about
a gender reassignment surgery?
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I don’t
know what it’s called. Vaginal?
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-The other day a 54-year-old girl had
that surgery.
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-Aha...
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-How old are you?
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-Fifty-eight.
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-There’s not much difference.
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It depends on the physical
condition of the person.
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How healthy it is
because it is a major surgery...
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...a surgery that weakens the one who is
subjected to that surgery.
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-Sure.
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-So, that person has to be very strong to
be well.
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It’s long surgery by itself.
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-Sometimes you have to transfuse a person
because it loses a lot of blood.
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After that, remain five days
at the hospital...
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...with a series of things, catheter,
probes, lineage.
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Everything that comprises
a surgery of this magnitude.
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And after that, at home
continues with a post-op...
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...where you have to do
a lot of rest.
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Eat well.
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Sleep properly.
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If there has been no
complication...
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...spend at least 40 or 60 days...
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...before getting back to work.
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Consider you need
some money or maybe live with the family.
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Someone has to help you.
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They have to make food for you...
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...until you can
manage on your own.
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-Basically we would say
the main raw material is space.
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As Wright would say...
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...'The truth of architecture lies in the
interior space,...
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...not in the walls that
enclose it'.
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So that is real.
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And from that point of view,...
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...it is very healthy and very deep...
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...not to think of a bedroom
but in a place to sleep.
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That teaching originates
organic architecture...
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...if you look at the variety...
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...conceptual, spatial, stylistic,
constructive...
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...of Wright's work...
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...you see many ways to make places
and make very diverse architecture.
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And I think that's what's good.
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Also, I
always thought...
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...at the time of
concreting...
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...one has to concretize an architectural
place...
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...and there is no doubt about it.
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There is an architectural plant...
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-It has to be real.
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-At a certain moment...
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...if I give it to a bricklayer...
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...of course it's still a blueprint, right?
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But if this becomes a project and I give
it to a construction company...
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...they have to build it.
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-Right.
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-Besides, I have a lot of experience in
construction...
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My grandfather has a
company since...
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1925.
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Thus, it's very interesting the
reasonability of projects.
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-Look for them well...
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-They must be around here...
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-How are you?
Everything alright?
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I brought the machine, you know?
Did you get the material?
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-Still nothing.
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-Don’t worry. We’ll revoke all
so we can paint better.
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-Well, okay.
-It’s quicker to revoke.
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-Okay, I’ll call the lady to see if the
material comes.
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If it will not come I'll try to
bring you something with the truck.
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Elena.
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Forgive me for bothering you
at work.
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But the material has not arrived
yet.
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We are a little worried.
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Oh, what a shame.
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Sure.
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Oh, okay.
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Do you think they will lend me a basket?
To load the truck?
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-No.
-They won’t even listen to me.
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-They have in big sacks.
-Yes, they do.
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-And the van can’t support that...
-We will jab all.
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-...more than a thousand kilos.
-We'll leave it ready for tomorrow.
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-Sure.
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I can bring cement.
-But what do we do with the cement...
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-...if we don't have the sand?
-Unless I buy you bags...
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...but they are too expensive here.
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I can buy small bags but...
-It's no use.
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-Right...
I can buy you four bags.
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I have no more money.
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-It's useless.
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-That's why I'm saying.
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It's going to have to be tomorrow, then.
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-Is this up to the balcony or the tip?
How far are you going to mince?
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-Actually, this would have to
be entirely done.
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The balcony should not have humidity.
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But Angel took the whole measure.
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-We have to do everything.
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-Right.
Go on!
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-Okay.
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-That's mad.
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-Do you remember that we met at the gas
station one day?
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-You told me you were seeing another boy.
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-I had been seeing another boy.
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In the end, we came back together.
-Good, I'm glad.
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-The first fool that comes
I'm going away.
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And there he was.
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-The one with the bike.
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-And I went the hell away.
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-It was on that date... In summer.
-It was in January.
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-And this one also, 2 years, but I do not
know what happened.
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-You did not live together.
-No.
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-When you do, you get to know each other.
-Totally.
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-All the madness.
-It's a whole different thing.
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He lives 2 blocks and a half apart.
But this is a bachelor.
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His mom this, and his mom that...
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I don't care. I don't want him at
my house to disturb me either.
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But leaving like that I don't get it.
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-Drink mate?
-Yes, thank you very much.
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Look, I wanted to talk to you.
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The truth is that I have a problem.
I do not know if it is a problem.
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I'm thinking of having
the surgery.
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-Great, then.
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-But I have a few fears.
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On the one hand the age...
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-I don't think that's an issue.
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You're going to have surgery
and no one will see it.
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It's not like you're going around
showing your vagina.
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Your children will not see you.
They have already accepted you.
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It is an internal change.
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It's only for you.
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-Right.
-And it will only please you.
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You have to think if it is good for you.
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-Well, I have many doubts.
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You have friends who have had
the surgery done.
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-Yes, that’s the thing...
-Thank you, very kind.
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-I’m in a group that’s called Mujeres Trans
Argentina...
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...and each one is clearing up
their doubts.
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For example, I thought
it was a castration.
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I thought you felt no more.
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But I talked to girls
who have had the surgery...
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...and they do feel pleasure.
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-How well.
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So they have a normal fully sex life.
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-Yes, they do.
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-How nice.
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They're younger than me.
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-Yes, the ones I know are younger girls.
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-We are older.
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We began older.
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-I am older.
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Yes, we did.
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-It’s a matter of at least
going to consult...
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...and clearing up any doubts...
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...about the time of rest, prior analyzes
to the surgery.
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-Did they ask you for psychological
tests apart from the physical-clinical?
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-When it is by social work yes they do.
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They ask for a psychological test and a
hormonal one.
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To see how long you've been taking
hormones.
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-It's going to be 2 years just now.
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-Okay.
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-That's why I have such a dude face.
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I will retire before being a woman.
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-Oh, well.
-Outrageous, God.
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Oh, look, let me show you.
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I have my new ID.
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-Really?
-Yes.
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-Here it is.
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This is it? No.
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-That is a dude.
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-You are a mean person.
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-You held his ID.
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-I have the other one. Do you want to
see it?
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-No, I thought it was from some husband.
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-It was me.
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-Look how cute.
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-How cute, well. Now you have to see this.
00:24:33.080 --> 00:24:35.280
-Canela, Canela? Canela, Canela.
00:24:35.720 --> 00:24:37.200
Oh, look...
00:24:40.200 --> 00:24:41.800
I have no picture.
00:24:42.440 --> 00:24:44.560
I have myself on
Facebook.
00:24:45.120 --> 00:24:48.080
I added as myself.
00:24:48.800 --> 00:24:51.280
I've added as my brother.
00:24:51.880 --> 00:24:54.080
There are all
the old photos.
00:24:54.080 --> 00:24:55.280
-Me too.
00:24:55.480 --> 00:24:58.720
Once someone asked
and I said that was my brother.
00:25:02.160 --> 00:25:03.680
-How much is it?
-50.
00:25:03.680 --> 00:25:05.440
-Very kind. Here you are.
00:25:06.160 --> 00:25:09.560
-You should go out.
You don't, right?
00:25:09.840 --> 00:25:12.960
-I'd like to go out, I'm kinda...
00:25:13.840 --> 00:25:16.040
...depressed about my mom...
00:25:16.720 --> 00:25:18.120
...and I'm too old.
00:25:18.360 --> 00:25:20.080
-But to distract yourself.
00:25:20.080 --> 00:25:22.160
You can't be there all day...
-No, I'm needing that.
00:25:22.160 --> 00:25:24.360
-... concerned about your home because
it's bad for you.
00:25:24.800 --> 00:25:28.000
-I would love we went out.
00:25:28.000 --> 00:25:30.200
If you want to go with your partner...
00:25:30.400 --> 00:25:35.520
...I can go alone or with my friend.
00:25:36.480 --> 00:25:37.840
-Yes, it would be nice.
00:25:55.040 --> 00:25:56.240
-How are you doing?
00:25:56.280 --> 00:25:57.280
-Fine, you?
00:25:57.800 --> 00:25:58.800
-Well, and you?
00:25:59.240 --> 00:26:01.240
-How beautiful its looks.
00:26:01.480 --> 00:26:04.800
-We already made progress inside,
too. We have painted inside.
00:26:04.800 --> 00:26:06.800
-Oh, yeah... That’s nice.
00:26:06.800 --> 00:26:08.840
-We’re building the gearbox, it’s firm.
00:26:08.840 --> 00:26:10.120
I’m making the hood.
00:26:10.400 --> 00:26:12.240
-It had many bumps...
00:26:12.240 --> 00:26:14.920
-You were right, it’s got the words
engraved.
00:26:14.960 --> 00:26:16.680
-Did you see it has the words?
00:26:16.680 --> 00:26:17.840
-So we can paint it.
00:26:18.080 --> 00:26:20.440
-You do that and you then let me know.
00:26:20.560 --> 00:26:23.520
-If an ordinary car lasts, this one lasts
twice as long.
00:26:23.520 --> 00:26:24.960
The lock that has and all that.
00:26:25.000 --> 00:26:26.000
-Sure.
00:26:26.000 --> 00:26:27.920
You’ll never have to do
anything to it again.
00:26:28.000 --> 00:26:30.600
-Besides, the engine is very resilient.
00:26:30.760 --> 00:26:32.760
It’s got a Chevrolet engine...
00:26:32.760 --> 00:26:33.840
-A 230 engine.
00:26:33.880 --> 00:26:37.760
-I really I don’t know
if is the 230 or 236...
00:26:38.520 --> 00:26:40.280
...because it's the previous one to...
00:26:40.280 --> 00:26:41.920
-Well…
-I think...
00:26:41.920 --> 00:26:46.240
-There is a 250, but this is a Chevy...
00:26:46.240 --> 00:26:48.160
-Right.
I believe that it...
00:26:48.160 --> 00:26:52.200
...is the original Apache
that was called 236.
00:26:52.200 --> 00:26:54.320
-This is the original,
so it should be a 236.
00:26:54.360 --> 00:26:55.360
-Right.
00:26:55.480 --> 00:26:57.000
-Yesterday I went to upholsterer.
00:26:57.080 --> 00:26:58.520
-Let me know about that, also.
00:26:58.520 --> 00:27:00.720
-He’ll have it done
next Tuesday.
00:27:00.920 --> 00:27:02.600
So by Wednesday it’s done.
00:27:02.760 --> 00:27:04.760
-If we are doing such a job...
00:27:05.320 --> 00:27:07.120
...we are not
going to stay halfway.
00:27:07.120 --> 00:27:08.120
-No…
00:27:08.760 --> 00:27:09.840
It's done.
00:27:09.840 --> 00:27:12.320
In for a penny, in for a pound.
00:27:14.280 --> 00:27:15.640
-This is delicious!
00:27:15.640 --> 00:27:16.960
-What is that?
You like this.
00:27:16.960 --> 00:27:20.240
-That's Finland with chives.
I's good, delicious.
00:27:20.240 --> 00:27:21.240
Try it.
00:27:21.840 --> 00:27:23.120
There are two films.
00:27:23.120 --> 00:27:26.120
You tell me which one you like best to
watch.
00:27:26.280 --> 00:27:29.120
-Flavia did well.
-The two are very interesting.
00:27:29.480 --> 00:27:30.480
-This one.
00:27:30.640 --> 00:27:34.160
-There is a very good scene
in Victor-Victoria...
00:27:34.160 --> 00:27:37.440
...that Robert Preston
plays a gay gentleman...
00:27:37.440 --> 00:27:39.040
...who is drag queen.
00:27:40.600 --> 00:27:42.240
A shallow woman...
00:27:42.240 --> 00:27:45.080
-Is this him?
-Yes, that's Robert Preston.
00:27:45.080 --> 00:27:47.400
He worked with Gary Cooper,
with Ray Milland.
00:27:47.400 --> 00:27:49.600
A guy from the early stage of the cinema.
00:27:49.600 --> 00:27:51.560
I mean, even worked...
-A tough man?
00:27:51.560 --> 00:27:55.160
-Well... it was kind of like that.
-Aha, actually...
00:27:56.760 --> 00:27:59.680
-In this case
a very shallow woman...
00:27:59.680 --> 00:28:01.960
...is like the mistress of the gangster...
00:28:01.960 --> 00:28:05.040
...James Gardner plays a gangster in the
1930s...
00:28:05.440 --> 00:28:11.560
...tells him: 'What a shame
a man as cute as you is gay...
00:28:11.800 --> 00:28:15.480
...If I'd take you to the bedroom,
I'll transform you right away.'
00:28:15.480 --> 00:28:16.640
Says the woman.
00:28:16.640 --> 00:28:18.600
And Robert Preston says to her:
'Me too.'
00:28:32.520 --> 00:28:35.320
-There he goes by ferry to London.
00:28:36.760 --> 00:28:37.760
And, well...
00:28:38.200 --> 00:28:40.240
-Oh, this is Ireland?
00:28:40.320 --> 00:28:41.840
-Right, they are from Ireland.
00:28:41.840 --> 00:28:44.000
-Oh, they are of the group
of the guerrillas.
00:28:44.080 --> 00:28:45.080
-So it is...
00:28:46.760 --> 00:28:50.240
-Then he goes to work
in the construction.
00:28:54.400 --> 00:28:56.800
-A very nice woman.
-Yes, totally.
00:28:56.800 --> 00:28:59.040
Besides, he falls deeply in love.
00:29:00.560 --> 00:29:02.440
-This is outrageous.
I want to see his reaction.
00:29:02.560 --> 00:29:05.000
-Not nicely.
-Don’t spoil it.
00:29:08.360 --> 00:29:10.360
-She believed that he knew.
00:29:10.560 --> 00:29:12.880
But... that did not say anything because
he was a gentleman.
00:29:12.880 --> 00:29:17.680
-Oh, of course...
-For a matter of chivalry and good manners.
00:29:18.200 --> 00:29:21.640
-But, actually, he did not know.
-Amazing.
00:29:22.040 --> 00:29:26.760
-I remember when I watched it
at the premiere...
00:29:26.760 --> 00:29:29.480
...I couldn't watch the ending
because I fell asleep.
00:29:31.720 --> 00:29:34.400
So I never found out what the plot was.
00:29:34.400 --> 00:29:36.600
I watched it many years after.
00:29:36.600 --> 00:29:38.960
-You didn't...
-At no time I realized.
00:29:38.960 --> 00:29:40.960
I always thought it was a girl.
00:29:42.600 --> 00:29:43.640
I felt asleep.
00:29:43.640 --> 00:29:45.160
-Oh, so you didn't get to watch the
scene?
00:29:45.160 --> 00:29:46.880
-No! I never watched it.
00:29:47.080 --> 00:29:49.880
-No way.
What a message from the universe...
00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:51.720
...that in 1992 you felt asleep.
00:29:51.720 --> 00:29:54.240
-At that time I worked a lot.
00:29:54.240 --> 00:29:56.960
-You did not get to watch the
crucial scene.
00:29:56.960 --> 00:29:58.040
-No, I did not.
00:29:59.040 --> 00:30:00.440
I didn't understand a thing.
00:30:00.440 --> 00:30:02.760
I didn't get the point of the movie.
-Right.
00:30:02.800 --> 00:30:04.560
-It has a soldier that die...
00:30:04.560 --> 00:30:06.120
...and was looking for his girlfriend.
00:30:06.120 --> 00:30:07.640
I don't know.
I falled asleep.
00:30:08.240 --> 00:30:12.360
We're starting The Sounds of Silence from
the morning.
00:30:12.640 --> 00:30:16.040
We started with a bit of cold
and we're finishing with heat.
00:30:16.200 --> 00:30:17.680
We're great.
00:30:17.920 --> 00:30:20.280
We have a song requested.
00:30:20.760 --> 00:30:23.160
Let's see if more people join
us.
00:30:23.280 --> 00:30:26.520
I saw you dancing by Yaki Da.
00:30:26.880 --> 00:30:28.320
There it is, for you...
00:30:28.720 --> 00:30:30.200
...that you're listening to me.
00:30:40.120 --> 00:30:41.480
He was the ideal man.
00:30:41.960 --> 00:30:45.920
If I should have married
if I had married Áyax.
00:30:46.160 --> 00:30:48.040
It would have closed the circle
of my life.
00:30:48.760 --> 00:30:50.040
With bun and all.
00:30:55.760 --> 00:30:58.920
He was a kind of Clark Gable.
00:30:59.880 --> 00:31:02.520
Kind of like that.
So much.
00:31:07.600 --> 00:31:11.200
I remember when we used to go on trips...
00:31:11.200 --> 00:31:12.560
...with Áyax.
00:31:14.400 --> 00:31:17.200
I lived it so intensely.
00:31:17.600 --> 00:31:20.080
I still can't forget.
00:31:20.080 --> 00:31:21.680
I cannot forget.
00:31:31.000 --> 00:31:32.880
I loved Áyax so much.
00:31:33.240 --> 00:31:34.320
Loved him a lot.
00:31:52.320 --> 00:31:55.120
I helped him make his change,
put on his make up...
00:31:55.320 --> 00:31:57.640
...and see
what clothes he could be wear.
00:31:59.160 --> 00:32:03.040
From the stockings
to the makeup, the wig.
00:32:03.040 --> 00:32:04.680
Everything!
All.
00:32:08.360 --> 00:32:10.600
I see her exactly the same...
00:32:10.800 --> 00:32:13.800
...taken out from the film...
00:32:14.200 --> 00:32:15.240
...The Danish Girl.
00:32:15.240 --> 00:32:17.280
Just like her.
Exactly the same.
00:32:17.800 --> 00:32:18.920
I see her as if...
00:32:18.920 --> 00:32:19.760
...only as Canela.
00:32:19.960 --> 00:32:22.120
Instead of Lili Elbe, is Canela.
00:32:23.280 --> 00:32:27.760
Nothing like all I went through.
00:32:27.760 --> 00:32:30.440
It took me many years.
00:32:30.440 --> 00:32:32.400
I went through a much longer process.
00:32:36.200 --> 00:32:38.080
Her process is shorter...
00:32:38.080 --> 00:32:39.760
...but she started later.
00:33:54.440 --> 00:34:01.920
-You've been a she-caretaker
and a he-caretaker, before.
00:34:02.320 --> 00:34:03.600
All your life.
00:34:03.760 --> 00:34:09.240
The only problem the
role of caretaker has...
00:34:09.720 --> 00:34:14.160
...is letting yourself being taken care.
00:34:16.560 --> 00:34:18.680
-Nobody takes care of me.
00:34:20.960 --> 00:34:22.280
That's a fact.
00:34:22.800 --> 00:34:27.720
-Even for the convalescence
you are worried about.
00:34:27.720 --> 00:34:30.080
-No one will come, Doctor.
-Why?
00:34:30.080 --> 00:34:31.120
-Why no one?
00:34:31.120 --> 00:34:32.520
-I already know.
00:34:32.760 --> 00:34:35.040
There will be no one.
I will be alone in the hospital.
00:34:35.040 --> 00:34:36.880
-No one seems to me a very extreme term.
00:34:37.360 --> 00:34:39.680
We continue to combat the extremism.
00:34:39.680 --> 00:34:42.000
Nobody.
Someone would come.
00:34:42.000 --> 00:34:44.760
-I have the feeling that no one will come.
00:34:44.760 --> 00:34:48.480
-No, I'm thinking no one is going to come
is not the feeling.
00:34:48.800 --> 00:34:50.800
Is not I feel it is I think.
00:34:51.120 --> 00:34:54.120
I think no one will come...
-I think no one will come.
00:34:54.120 --> 00:34:57.000
-Now I ask you.
Why do you think not?
00:34:57.000 --> 00:34:58.800
Surely someone will go.
00:34:59.200 --> 00:35:01.080
-Yes, some to ask for money.
00:35:03.240 --> 00:35:05.280
Oh, it is Friday and I need to get paid.
00:35:05.280 --> 00:35:06.880
And I am all like this.
00:35:07.480 --> 00:35:10.520
-In that case, what would happen?
00:35:10.520 --> 00:35:12.280
-I don't know, all hell would break loose.
00:35:12.600 --> 00:35:16.360
-Let's think about that possible scenario.
00:35:16.680 --> 00:35:18.120
Who would go?
00:35:18.720 --> 00:35:20.440
-My children would go.
For sure.
00:35:20.440 --> 00:35:23.400
-Oh, well that's not nobody.
We already have someone.
00:35:23.400 --> 00:35:24.640
Who else?
00:35:26.160 --> 00:35:28.280
-Good question.
00:35:29.040 --> 00:35:32.040
-I can't...
00:35:34.080 --> 00:35:36.800
...resist...
00:35:37.560 --> 00:35:39.920
...this love...
00:35:40.400 --> 00:35:44.600
...that is within my heart!
00:36:04.120 --> 00:36:05.440
...It will be healed...
00:36:05.680 --> 00:36:08.560
...If there is someone
with a chronic disease, it will...
00:36:08.560 --> 00:36:10.080
-Here.
00:36:12.120 --> 00:36:14.040
-Loved the veneer wood.
00:36:15.480 --> 00:36:19.840
-Hey! Hello, dear.
-Hello, honey.
00:36:20.440 --> 00:36:23.320
-I brought a new girl.
-Hello.
00:36:23.320 --> 00:36:25.160
-Hello!
00:36:25.160 --> 00:36:26.200
-Canela.
00:36:26.200 --> 00:36:28.840
-Cane. Nice to meet you. Welcome.
00:36:28.840 --> 00:36:30.400
-Thank you, very kind.
00:36:30.400 --> 00:36:32.480
-I'm a bit shorter.
00:36:32.480 --> 00:36:34.080
-And younger, also.
00:36:34.080 --> 00:36:36.080
-That I don't know.
-Sure.
00:36:36.680 --> 00:36:38.560
-I'll invite you to our place.
00:36:38.560 --> 00:36:40.360
It's especially for you.
-Very kind.
00:36:40.360 --> 00:36:41.560
-And for you too.
Come on in.
00:36:41.560 --> 00:36:42.760
-She left outside.
00:36:43.520 --> 00:36:44.800
-Excuse me.
-Come in.
00:36:44.800 --> 00:36:46.400
-Thank you.
-Come in.
00:36:46.800 --> 00:36:48.800
-Good afternoon, how are you?
00:36:48.960 --> 00:36:50.800
Hi. Hello.
00:36:51.280 --> 00:36:54.240
Nice to meet you.
Thank you very much.
00:36:54.800 --> 00:36:57.200
-Welcome
-Me too. Very kind.
00:36:57.200 --> 00:36:58.800
Very kind.
00:36:59.600 --> 00:37:00.600
-Canela.
00:37:01.200 --> 00:37:05.480
-Dear God, we want to deprive of all
religiosity.
00:37:05.720 --> 00:37:06.400
-Amen.
00:37:06.560 --> 00:37:11.680
-We want to shake off
from all religious culture.
00:37:12.120 --> 00:37:14.680
And we want to speak heart to heart.
00:37:14.680 --> 00:37:16.720
Want to be who we are.
00:37:16.720 --> 00:37:18.360
As we are.
00:37:18.880 --> 00:37:20.960
We do not want to sell you anything.
00:37:20.960 --> 00:37:22.960
We take off the masks.
00:37:23.120 --> 00:37:25.880
We know that you receive us.
00:37:25.880 --> 00:37:28.600
That you accept us as we are.
00:37:29.000 --> 00:37:30.400
Stand up, if you would.
00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:31.440
-Yes, of course.
00:37:31.440 --> 00:37:32.960
-And we will say...
00:37:33.520 --> 00:37:36.920
-I love you and I don't
care about nothing else!
00:37:37.080 --> 00:37:40.760
-Welcome, Cane.
-Thank you very much. Thanks.
00:37:44.760 --> 00:37:46.720
-Let's start. It's a party.
00:37:47.720 --> 00:37:51.040
Who is desperate for a divine hug?
00:37:51.040 --> 00:37:52.120
-I am.
-Me.
00:37:52.880 --> 00:37:54.640
-You have to experience this.
00:37:55.480 --> 00:37:58.200
Let's ask God to hug us.
00:37:58.200 --> 00:37:59.800
Come on, let's tell him.
00:38:00.800 --> 00:38:04.440
God is Spirit!
God is Spirit.
00:38:04.440 --> 00:38:06.800
Let's ask the spirit of God to
embrace us.
00:38:07.120 --> 00:38:09.280
When your glory goes somewhere...
00:38:09.600 --> 00:38:11.960
We'll tell him to hug us.
00:38:12.560 --> 00:38:14.600
...the dead ones come back to life...
00:38:14.680 --> 00:38:17.800
...that were sick through your power...
00:38:18.600 --> 00:38:20.600
Fire! Fire!
Fire! Fire of God!
00:38:20.600 --> 00:38:22.120
Fire! Fire!
00:38:22.120 --> 00:38:23.240
Now!
00:38:23.240 --> 00:38:24.240
Fire!
00:38:24.600 --> 00:38:25.840
...Holy Spirit...
00:38:25.840 --> 00:38:28.240
Come, come...
00:38:32.400 --> 00:38:34.400
Touch her. Touch her, Jesus.
00:38:37.800 --> 00:38:40.480
Flow. Flow, Jesus.
00:38:42.920 --> 00:38:45.960
More, more, more peace!
00:38:46.200 --> 00:38:47.200
Forgive me...
00:38:48.360 --> 00:38:50.400
Tell God to hug you!
00:38:53.560 --> 00:38:54.560
Wrap me...
00:38:55.120 --> 00:38:56.120
...rest on me.
00:38:57.160 --> 00:38:59.560
Come, come...
00:39:00.200 --> 00:39:01.920
...Holy Spirit.
00:39:02.400 --> 00:39:04.440
Come, come.
00:39:05.120 --> 00:39:07.000
Come...
00:39:07.360 --> 00:39:10.360
...I can't make it without feeling your
presence every day.
00:39:10.760 --> 00:39:13.000
I need you, Lord.
00:39:13.400 --> 00:39:14.640
Fill me up.
00:39:16.640 --> 00:39:18.600
In you I trust.
00:39:20.400 --> 00:39:22.480
-Will you let me do a prayer for you?
00:39:23.000 --> 00:39:24.480
-Of course. Thank you.
00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:26.160
-My dear friend...
00:39:26.640 --> 00:39:30.440
...I ask you that your
love fill all the spaces...
00:39:30.640 --> 00:39:33.080
...that still could
not be completed.
00:39:34.160 --> 00:39:38.680
And I declare that jobs that are locked
begin to open.
00:39:39.560 --> 00:39:42.560
In the name of Jesus.
00:39:42.560 --> 00:39:45.120
Jobs that are given
and not given.
00:39:45.120 --> 00:39:47.160
I declare they are done.
00:39:47.280 --> 00:39:51.360
I declare prosperity over your life.
00:39:51.360 --> 00:39:52.920
In the name of Jesus.
00:39:53.680 --> 00:39:55.880
Thank you because these days, Lord Jesus...
00:39:55.880 --> 00:39:58.760
...you'll show her that you are
on her side.
00:39:58.760 --> 00:40:00.840
-Amen
-...and that you opened doors of work.
00:40:00.880 --> 00:40:02.320
-So is.
-Thanks, Jesus.
00:40:02.360 --> 00:40:05.040
Because she will come
to tell us that this has happened.
00:40:07.000 --> 00:40:08.400
-Thank you very much.
00:40:49.400 --> 00:40:51.000
See if you can drink it.
00:41:00.240 --> 00:41:01.520
Is it too cold?
00:41:01.520 --> 00:41:04.920
-I'll leave it for later.
00:41:05.280 --> 00:41:07.280
-Whatever you want.
-Yes.
00:41:07.640 --> 00:41:09.360
-Let’s see, this was mine.
00:41:09.640 --> 00:41:10.880
-Yes, this one was yours.
00:41:10.880 --> 00:41:12.880
-I gave it to him.
-And this one.
00:41:13.640 --> 00:41:17.280
-As I see it...
00:41:18.280 --> 00:41:21.400
...you are not Canela, you are Áyax.
00:41:22.960 --> 00:41:24.640
Your name may be Canela.
00:41:24.920 --> 00:41:28.440
You dress like Canela
and I like the way you dress.
00:41:28.440 --> 00:41:29.720
I like the way you fix yourself.
00:41:29.880 --> 00:41:32.280
I gave him that thing... everything.
00:41:32.280 --> 00:41:36.440
But, I can’t believe you’re not my son.
00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:38.600
-I’m still.
00:41:38.920 --> 00:41:39.880
-Exactly.
00:41:39.880 --> 00:41:41.240
-That's why say nothing.
00:41:41.240 --> 00:41:45.320
You call me Áyax and I do not say a thing.
00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:46.960
-Did not show me a woman's dress...
00:41:46.960 --> 00:41:49.920
He put on
a wig and went next to my bed.
00:41:49.960 --> 00:41:53.080
I don't know why I was in bed.
00:41:54.000 --> 00:41:54.840
And I said:
00:41:54.840 --> 00:41:56.040
'What is this?'
00:41:56.520 --> 00:41:57.240
'This is me.'
00:41:57.240 --> 00:42:00.520
'Oh, no.
What are you doing?'
00:42:00.920 --> 00:42:02.280
And I grabbed my head.
00:42:02.840 --> 00:42:07.120
But I came a while ago already...
00:42:09.240 --> 00:42:11.920
...going further down.
00:42:14.480 --> 00:42:15.720
What can I say?
00:42:26.560 --> 00:42:29.200
When I became Canela...
00:42:29.200 --> 00:42:33.640
..the first thing I
did was a profound detoxification.
00:42:33.920 --> 00:42:38.920
I lost 20 kilos, quit smoking, stopped
drinking alcohol for years...
00:42:38.920 --> 00:42:40.400
...or any kind of drink.
00:42:42.280 --> 00:42:48.880
...and the cutest thing was
to go back to my mother’s house.
00:42:48.880 --> 00:42:51.320
To this house in which I was raised.
00:42:53.600 --> 00:43:00.320
And somehow rebuild my being as a trans
girl at my parents house.
00:43:16.920 --> 00:43:19.280
-Hey. How are you?
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:20.760
Hi!
00:43:20.760 --> 00:43:22.400
Hi, Carola!
00:43:23.040 --> 00:43:25.000
-We came with the chubby.
00:43:25.000 --> 00:43:28.680
-Hello! You're happy today.
00:43:28.880 --> 00:43:30.480
How are you, dear? Come in.
00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:33.000
You came with the Rosario
Central reference-of.
00:43:33.000 --> 00:43:34.200
-Of course, I had to.
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:37.480
-That kid is getting bigger.
00:43:37.480 --> 00:43:41.160
-Six kilos four hundred.
800 grams in a month.
00:43:41.160 --> 00:43:43.000
-Oh! Almost twice weight she had when she
was born.
00:43:43.000 --> 00:43:43.800
-Right.
00:43:44.040 --> 00:43:47.360
-Sit down, guys.
Let's bring everything.
00:43:47.360 --> 00:43:49.240
I'm taking off the apron.
00:43:51.200 --> 00:43:55.200
-Juanchi with the clothing of archer.
00:43:55.800 --> 00:43:56.920
-Here he is.
00:43:59.360 --> 00:44:01.360
-He's identical to Carola.
00:44:01.880 --> 00:44:03.320
The father is identical to Carola.
00:44:03.320 --> 00:44:04.240
-Not so much.
00:44:04.240 --> 00:44:05.880
-Well...
-There may be.
00:44:05.880 --> 00:44:06.880
-Here.
00:44:07.080 --> 00:44:09.040
-Look at Carola there.
00:44:11.840 --> 00:44:13.800
You can't say she isn't.
00:44:13.800 --> 00:44:15.160
Looks identical.
00:44:15.160 --> 00:44:16.520
-She looks just like me.
00:44:17.840 --> 00:44:19.440
-She got jealous.
00:44:19.440 --> 00:44:20.960
-No, she resembles you too.
00:44:21.880 --> 00:44:23.880
-Do you remember this day?
00:44:23.880 --> 00:44:27.440
-I remember, of course. Then there is a
picture of dad.
00:44:27.920 --> 00:44:29.920
Ramiro did like this with the bottle.
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:31.920
There is a picture there.
00:44:31.920 --> 00:44:34.640
-Barbi looking at the tattoo.
00:44:39.880 --> 00:44:42.240
-Who was that person?
00:44:42.240 --> 00:44:45.600
-You looked like a playboy.
00:44:46.920 --> 00:44:48.280
-Is this Juanchi?
00:44:48.280 --> 00:44:50.280
-No, this is Juanchi.
-Oh, right.
00:44:50.680 --> 00:44:52.200
-There are the kids.
00:45:21.520 --> 00:45:24.400
-Well, besides from...
00:45:24.840 --> 00:45:26.520
...our usual Sunday reunion...
00:45:26.520 --> 00:45:31.840
...there's something
I want to talk to you about.
00:45:34.680 --> 00:45:37.880
Unfortunately, Barbi is far away in
Barcelona.
00:45:37.880 --> 00:45:41.040
I'll talk to her by
phone afterward.
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:49.560
A few days ago I met with
a transgender friend.
00:45:50.320 --> 00:45:52.480
An acquaintance.
00:45:56.520 --> 00:45:59.320
She has got an appointment
for her surgery...
00:45:59.320 --> 00:46:00.320
...in January.
00:46:00.840 --> 00:46:02.240
She's very pleased.
00:46:04.240 --> 00:46:08.400
And left me a very big concern about it.
00:46:09.760 --> 00:46:11.440
I mean...
00:46:13.080 --> 00:46:16.880
I've got mixed feelings
regarding the surgery.
00:46:18.160 --> 00:46:22.040
But it does seems
as a final wish...
00:46:23.080 --> 00:46:24.960
...to end this cycle so.
00:46:27.360 --> 00:46:31.560
I feel scared.
I feel fear or insecurity.
00:46:32.040 --> 00:46:36.320
But if there were not the probable
inconvenient...
00:46:36.320 --> 00:46:38.520
...one would face in a major surgery,...
00:46:38.880 --> 00:46:41.920
...it would be desirable to me
to have it done.
00:46:43.680 --> 00:46:47.360
I wanted to let you know
to find out what you think.
00:46:49.120 --> 00:46:51.320
In short, those things of life.
Right?
00:47:03.080 --> 00:47:08.280
I don't know what you think
about it.
00:47:08.280 --> 00:47:09.960
We've never discussed until now.
00:47:14.120 --> 00:47:18.880
So far my role in life has been as a
caretaker of the family.
00:47:18.880 --> 00:47:22.280
I've taken care of my children
and I continue to do so.
00:47:22.280 --> 00:47:24.160
Collaborating, helping.
00:47:24.720 --> 00:47:27.560
Now to my granddaughter
and also my mother.
00:47:27.560 --> 00:47:31.520
But at a point I'm going to become a
vulnerable person...
00:47:31.520 --> 00:47:33.600
...and someone will
have to take care of me.
00:47:34.240 --> 00:47:37.800
For the first time, since I was...
00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:40.360
...five years old or ten.
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:43.240
And that's a problem. A problem for me,...
00:47:43.240 --> 00:47:44.640
...an economical problem.
00:47:45.480 --> 00:47:48.400
Because I will have to stop working
for 3 months.
00:47:48.400 --> 00:47:51.000
It's a lot of money not coming.
00:47:51.720 --> 00:47:54.280
Unless I can find a replacement...
00:47:54.680 --> 00:47:56.200
...so Grandi Construcciones
continue in business.
00:47:56.200 --> 00:47:57.200
I don't know.
00:47:57.520 --> 00:48:00.000
Juanchi can still be in that part. But
the technical part,...
00:48:00.000 --> 00:48:02.000
...who's going to do it?
00:48:03.640 --> 00:48:04.880
That's the thing.
00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:08.520
If I can manage to keep the machine
running...
00:48:09.320 --> 00:48:10.880
...without damages.
00:48:13.280 --> 00:48:15.080
-I don't know.
00:48:15.280 --> 00:48:18.560
We have to make a list...
00:48:18.560 --> 00:48:23.400
...and put all the positive and
not so positive aspects.
00:48:24.040 --> 00:48:25.880
-Yes, to compare.
-To balance.
00:48:25.880 --> 00:48:30.240
-I really don't know if there are
damages, rather than...
00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:33.160
-Realities.
-Right.
00:48:33.160 --> 00:48:35.600
-It's a reality.
-Exactly.
00:48:35.600 --> 00:48:36.640
-It's not...
00:48:36.640 --> 00:48:40.920
-Are realities because an economy like
ours in 3 months collapses.
00:48:40.920 --> 00:48:42.920
-Totally.
-For sure.
00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:47.200
-An economy in which you stop
working 3 months,...
00:48:47.200 --> 00:48:49.080
...in 3 months it crashes.
00:48:49.080 --> 00:48:52.520
Unfortunately, I'll have to sell
the car or the truck,...
00:48:52.520 --> 00:48:53.920
...I won't pay taxes.
00:48:53.920 --> 00:48:55.200
We don't know.
00:48:55.600 --> 00:48:57.320
I was never out-of-work for 3 months.
00:48:57.320 --> 00:48:59.000
-We support you no-matter-what.
00:48:59.000 --> 00:49:02.800
There goes on the
balance all the analysis of other things.
00:49:02.800 --> 00:49:07.280
-This year we were stopped fifty percent
of the time,...
00:49:07.600 --> 00:49:10.720
...I had to take a 220,000
pesos credit.
00:49:11.320 --> 00:49:12.160
-Right.
00:49:12.640 --> 00:49:15.200
-The last credit I took was in 2011.
00:49:16.240 --> 00:49:18.600
This is a whole a different country.
00:49:18.600 --> 00:49:20.120
-That must be taken into account.
00:49:20.120 --> 00:49:20.960
-Right.
00:49:21.440 --> 00:49:22.720
-First is the risk.
00:49:22.720 --> 00:49:24.880
That is, the first
thing to analyze is the risk.
00:49:24.880 --> 00:49:27.320
Then all the rest.
Depending on that.
00:49:27.320 --> 00:49:29.800
Slowly, not all messed.
00:49:30.320 --> 00:49:32.320
non possiamo pensare tutto insieme.
00:49:32.320 --> 00:49:34.400
You'll have to think that through first.
I think.
00:49:36.240 --> 00:49:39.440
-It's an even more personal...
00:49:39.440 --> 00:49:40.840
Don't get me wrong,...
00:49:40.840 --> 00:49:44.760
...not that the change itself, the
change is totally yours.
00:49:44.880 --> 00:49:46.520
But more intimate.
00:49:46.520 --> 00:49:49.320
To the outside people, the change is done.
00:49:49.320 --> 00:49:51.320
-No, right.
I've got that clear.
00:49:51.320 --> 00:49:55.280
There are even
countless transgender girls...
00:49:55.280 --> 00:49:56.720
...who do not have the procedure...
00:49:56.880 --> 00:49:59.240
...because they are either too afraid
or they decide not to...
00:49:59.240 --> 00:50:01.200
...because they feel
comfortable as they are.
00:50:01.240 --> 00:50:03.800
-I've read about people that decide...
00:50:03.800 --> 00:50:05.320
...not out of fear.
00:50:05.320 --> 00:50:07.640
If you say I am like this, I have this...
00:50:07.640 --> 00:50:10.160
-As for the acceptance of who you are.
00:50:10.320 --> 00:50:11.360
-Good point.
00:50:11.360 --> 00:50:13.920
-That's something I take into account.
00:50:14.280 --> 00:50:17.040
-I agree, obviously, nothing happens just
because.
00:50:17.040 --> 00:50:23.440
It coincides with the birth of Carola,
with all that implies.
00:50:26.440 --> 00:50:29.000
-In life there are always things, but
sometimes it is...
00:50:29.000 --> 00:50:33.200
-Sometimes there are key moments...
-Which are more intense.
00:50:33.840 --> 00:50:35.840
-It's done, there is no turning back.
00:50:35.840 --> 00:50:39.480
Here's Carola and there is no turning
back after that...
00:50:40.720 --> 00:50:44.160
-This is important to me, but it is as
important as...
00:50:45.960 --> 00:50:47.880
Let's say...
00:50:50.240 --> 00:50:53.440
If I can't count on you
I won't be able to do it either.
00:50:55.840 --> 00:50:58.640
-Yes...
-Well, obviously.
00:50:59.720 --> 00:51:02.320
-I would need help from my relatives.
00:51:02.320 --> 00:51:04.760
I won't be able to manage on my own.
00:51:04.760 --> 00:51:06.680
I won't go to the bathroom by myself.
00:51:06.680 --> 00:51:08.240
It's rather complicated.
00:51:09.200 --> 00:51:10.120
-Oh... Right.
00:51:10.120 --> 00:51:14.120
-You would have to think someone in
the family would have to help me.
00:51:14.640 --> 00:51:15.440
Right?
00:51:15.680 --> 00:51:19.360
Not to end up outsourcing the problem.
00:51:19.760 --> 00:51:22.400
-Surely will have to outsource.
00:51:22.400 --> 00:51:24.400
-Oh, well. Fair enough.
00:52:20.760 --> 00:52:23.440
-Wright said that the three evils
of capitalism...
00:52:23.640 --> 00:52:29.040
...were the interest, the rent
and the substitution of the effort.
00:52:30.000 --> 00:52:31.120
What does it mean?
00:52:31.120 --> 00:52:33.560
To order another what you have to do.
00:52:34.960 --> 00:52:37.480
If these three evils would disappear,...
00:52:38.160 --> 00:52:40.440
...the system could continue to operate.
00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:45.160
As health and education are provided,...
00:52:45.160 --> 00:52:47.000
...housing should be, too.
00:52:48.480 --> 00:52:52.040
There is another social role
that architecture is not fulfilling.
00:52:53.240 --> 00:52:56.480
I estimate that the real estate market
should be regulated,...
00:52:56.480 --> 00:52:57.800
...as the
financial market.
00:52:58.160 --> 00:52:59.560
Both are unregulated.
00:53:00.680 --> 00:53:05.680
So, you built at a cost
that is the third part of the cost of sale.
00:53:06.040 --> 00:53:07.920
Where does that difference come from?
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:14.640
I find it hard to believe here in Rosario
we need buildings of 40 floors high...
00:53:14.640 --> 00:53:15.920
...in front of the river.
00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:18.360
No, can't understand it.
00:53:19.960 --> 00:53:24.200
I do understand that our profession is
facing a crisis...
00:53:25.480 --> 00:53:28.160
...that is not economic but by the values.
00:53:28.640 --> 00:53:30.240
I say something,...
00:53:31.960 --> 00:53:34.120
...and sometimes
some students refute me.
00:53:34.120 --> 00:53:36.280
But I deeply think this.
00:53:37.280 --> 00:53:40.840
When you say that a politician makes
politics to make money,...
00:53:41.480 --> 00:53:44.240
...power or love...
00:53:44.240 --> 00:53:45.640
...is a corrupt.
00:53:46.880 --> 00:53:49.680
Then, why is not a corrupt an architect...
00:53:50.120 --> 00:53:54.240
...who makes architecture to earn money,
power or love?
00:54:10.280 --> 00:54:14.280
-A few years ago I had much more time for
myself.
00:54:14.280 --> 00:54:18.000
More time to buy clothes.
00:54:18.000 --> 00:54:19.880
More time to check out the makeup.
00:54:19.880 --> 00:54:23.920
More time to search for
what I should wear.
00:54:23.920 --> 00:54:25.200
More time to go out.
00:54:25.640 --> 00:54:28.640
More time to go on holidays.
00:54:28.640 --> 00:54:31.760
It’s been a while since that
time has gone.
00:54:32.040 --> 00:54:36.400
This is a fact.
The aging of my mom and my aunt...
00:54:36.840 --> 00:54:40.960
...led to me having to take care
of them for several years.
00:54:41.200 --> 00:54:46.640
Somehow the economical changes that this
country is going through...
00:54:46.640 --> 00:54:49.240
...make me also have to take care of my
children.
00:54:49.920 --> 00:54:51.680
Helping them.
00:54:51.680 --> 00:54:53.560
I don’t want them to go through
what I went.
00:54:53.680 --> 00:54:56.360
-What happened to you?
-I was left alone.
00:54:56.360 --> 00:55:00.240
When I was a man.
Left alone in the street.
00:55:00.240 --> 00:55:05.000
With Menemism. Before.
With the crisis of Alfonsín.
00:55:05.360 --> 00:55:07.760
With a kid and nobody lend me a hand.
00:55:08.560 --> 00:55:10.080
Nobody.
00:55:10.880 --> 00:55:14.920
Nor my father, nor my mother, nor my
father-in-law, nor anyone.
00:55:15.200 --> 00:55:18.040
This I had gone through,
my children won't.
00:55:18.240 --> 00:55:20.600
-And did you go ahead?
-I went ahead.
00:55:21.200 --> 00:55:23.920
-And was it very bad?
-It was very ugly.
00:55:23.920 --> 00:55:25.800
Twenty years of not living.
00:55:27.320 --> 00:55:28.840
-Yes.
-But...
00:55:28.840 --> 00:55:32.560
-Twenty years of not living, Doctor.
00:55:32.800 --> 00:55:35.880
Twenty years in which all I did was work.
00:55:36.960 --> 00:55:40.000
Not even think of anything,
more than work.
00:55:40.000 --> 00:55:43.400
I have no memory of the childhood of my
children.
00:55:43.680 --> 00:55:45.280
Because I was working.
00:55:46.160 --> 00:55:48.560
All week Monday to Sunday.
00:55:49.560 --> 00:55:50.200
Yes.
00:55:50.200 --> 00:55:53.040
I don't want none of them
to go through that...
00:55:53.640 --> 00:55:55.000
To miss their children.
00:55:55.000 --> 00:55:56.000
To be lost...
00:56:08.640 --> 00:56:09.680
No way.
00:56:11.440 --> 00:56:16.040
-It would also be nice you
didn’t keep on missing your own life.
00:56:19.040 --> 00:56:20.720
That would be nice, too.
00:56:30.880 --> 00:56:32.000
-I completely forgot.
00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:35.320
I'm so concerned about
all that mess I had...
00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:36.200
-Yes.
00:56:36.200 --> 00:56:38.240
-I went to pick up the car...
00:56:38.240 --> 00:56:39.320
...it was all right...
00:56:39.320 --> 00:56:41.600
...but it didn't start
because it has no battery.
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:42.440
No, no.
00:56:42.440 --> 00:56:43.440
It never ends.
00:56:43.440 --> 00:56:45.920
-It never ends.
-It doesn't.
00:56:52.640 --> 00:56:55.320
Did you see...?
We saw it together.
00:57:34.320 --> 00:57:35.920
-No. Yes. Valeria.
00:57:35.920 --> 00:57:37.400
How are you? Canela.
00:57:37.400 --> 00:57:39.320
-0h, Canela. How are you?
00:57:39.320 --> 00:57:41.040
-What's up, sweetheart?
Fine, you?
00:57:41.440 --> 00:57:43.080
-Good, Good, I'm okay.
00:57:43.080 --> 00:57:44.560
-It's been a while.
00:57:44.800 --> 00:57:47.680
-Yes, it has. It's been quite a while.
00:57:47.680 --> 00:57:49.120
-How are you? Fine?
00:57:49.640 --> 00:57:50.400
-Fine, fine.
00:58:02.040 --> 00:58:04.000
-How are you?
-Hi, how are you?
00:58:04.000 --> 00:58:05.840
-It's been a while.
00:58:05.840 --> 00:58:06.840
-My dear...
00:58:06.840 --> 00:58:08.320
-The glasses suit you.
00:58:08.320 --> 00:58:10.600
-Really? Do you like them?
-Yes, so cute.
00:58:10.600 --> 00:58:12.920
-I shouldn't eat this.
00:58:13.480 --> 00:58:14.280
-Why?
00:58:14.280 --> 00:58:16.400
-I'm watching my silhouette, go figure.
00:58:16.720 --> 00:58:17.280
-Right.
00:58:17.280 --> 00:58:20.640
-I have a hard time losing a kilo,
imagine this.
00:58:21.440 --> 00:58:23.520
-I wanted to ask you, actually.
00:58:23.520 --> 00:58:24.440
-About what?
00:58:24.600 --> 00:58:25.400
-Talking about this.
00:58:25.400 --> 00:58:26.600
-What?
00:58:27.120 --> 00:58:29.720
-How was your whole surgery process?
00:58:29.720 --> 00:58:31.400
How did you feel?
00:58:31.400 --> 00:58:32.280
-You want to know it all.
00:58:32.280 --> 00:58:34.120
It's a complex issue the surgery one.
00:58:34.120 --> 00:58:37.680
First, you have to be
psychologically prepared.
00:58:38.120 --> 00:58:40.760
It was a huge deal for me.
I was in a terrible denial.
00:58:41.120 --> 00:58:44.320
Couldn't see myself naked in a mirror.
00:58:44.560 --> 00:58:46.480
-I see.
-I was in denial.
00:58:46.680 --> 00:58:49.400
It was as if I saw the devil.
00:58:49.560 --> 00:58:53.320
After the surgery,
I finally went through all of that.
00:58:53.560 --> 00:58:54.600
-How nice.
00:58:54.600 --> 00:58:57.080
-All those mental traumas disappeared.
00:58:57.080 --> 00:58:59.880
-You mean you that you overcame it.
-I totally overcame it.
00:58:59.880 --> 00:59:02.840
I overcame completely
going by myself to places.
00:59:02.840 --> 00:59:06.920
After the surgery, for the first time
I saw myself in a mirror...
00:59:06.920 --> 00:59:08.520
...like any other woman with a vagina...
00:59:08.520 --> 00:59:11.640
...I'd check how it looked like
with the hand mirror...
00:59:12.080 --> 00:59:15.200
There are many things
you have to consider...
00:59:15.200 --> 00:59:17.600
...in order to feel comfortable
for a surgery.
00:59:17.760 --> 00:59:20.480
All that matters is you
and how you feel inwardly.
00:59:20.480 --> 00:59:23.080
-Of course. Sure. You're right.
00:59:23.480 --> 00:59:25.960
-You should clear up all your doubts.
00:59:25.960 --> 00:59:27.960
-Maybe this situation...
00:59:28.840 --> 00:59:31.680
...in which I am comfortable
with my dress,...
00:59:31.680 --> 00:59:33.280
...with my clothes,
with my things.
00:59:33.280 --> 00:59:36.080
-But maybe...
You don't need the other.
00:59:36.080 --> 00:59:37.320
-That's what I mean.
00:59:37.440 --> 00:59:39.040
-Maybe you don't need.
Suppose you don't.
00:59:39.040 --> 00:59:40.920
-Or only for the aesthetics.
00:59:40.920 --> 00:59:41.960
-Suppose you don't...
00:59:41.960 --> 00:59:44.040
-But not for the functioning of the organ.
00:59:44.040 --> 00:59:44.960
-Right.
00:59:45.480 --> 00:59:47.560
-Do you remember when
we went to the river?
00:59:47.560 --> 00:59:48.120
-Yes...
00:59:48.120 --> 00:59:50.640
-To Calabalumba River.
-I don't remember.
00:59:50.640 --> 00:59:52.480
-I didn't remember that.
00:59:52.720 --> 00:59:55.680
-Near the Posada Del Árbol,...
00:59:56.200 --> 00:59:59.040
...we took a path
that we didn't know how far it was.
00:59:59.040 --> 01:00:00.000
-We went trekking.
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:01.640
-We went down, remember?
01:00:01.640 --> 01:00:04.240
-Yeah, there were some cows.
How awful!
01:00:08.160 --> 01:00:12.600
One day we were in bed and she said:
'How cute the Uritorco Hill is'...
01:00:12.600 --> 01:00:14.880
...and I said:
'You really want to see the Uritorco?'
01:00:14.880 --> 01:00:16.720
-I did look at the Uritorco...
01:00:16.720 --> 01:00:21.240
...and I was in a rather
compromised position.
01:00:21.680 --> 01:00:25.200
Looking at the moon
and the Uritorco Hill.
01:00:25.480 --> 01:00:29.760
At that moment the last you
wanted was to see the Uritorco.
01:00:29.760 --> 01:00:32.280
Neither the window nor the Uritorco
nor the lights nor anything.
01:00:32.280 --> 01:00:33.560
I saw lights.
01:00:34.920 --> 01:00:36.480
-We had a good time.
01:01:07.680 --> 01:01:10.480
It's pretty obvious.
01:01:10.720 --> 01:01:11.480
-Right.
01:01:11.480 --> 01:01:13.960
-I'm doing the
gender-change hormones...
01:01:14.720 --> 01:01:17.880
...treatment with Doctor Bertone.
01:01:17.880 --> 01:01:19.440
-Right, with Claudio.
01:01:19.440 --> 01:01:20.160
-With Claudio.
01:01:20.640 --> 01:01:23.040
At a moment, I thought.
01:01:23.040 --> 01:01:26.120
And also I evaluated a lot.
01:01:27.400 --> 01:01:29.560
I mean, I'm not 20 years-old.
01:01:29.560 --> 01:01:30.920
I'm near 60.
01:01:32.000 --> 01:01:34.800
Surely the risk is greater
than if I was 20.
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:36.080
-Without a doubt.
01:01:36.080 --> 01:01:37.320
-As a person, right?
01:01:37.720 --> 01:01:38.880
I have 3 children.
01:01:38.880 --> 01:01:40.360
I have a granddaughter
of 2 months.
01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:41.360
-Very well.
01:01:41.360 --> 01:01:42.480
-Then, I say.
01:01:42.920 --> 01:01:44.360
What would happen...
01:01:44.560 --> 01:01:46.200
...and this is another doubt.
01:01:46.200 --> 01:01:46.800
-Okay.
01:01:47.240 --> 01:01:49.240
-What would happen if...
01:01:50.040 --> 01:01:53.920
...you will take out everything that does
not work,...
01:01:53.920 --> 01:01:56.280
-Yes...
-...but without...
01:01:56.280 --> 01:01:58.120
...making such a risky surgery?
01:01:58.240 --> 01:01:59.640
Without making the vagina.
01:01:59.640 --> 01:02:00.880
-Without making the hole and...
01:02:00.880 --> 01:02:01.680
-Exactly.
01:02:01.960 --> 01:02:04.560
It would have the outside shape.
01:02:04.560 --> 01:02:06.080
-A vulva.
01:02:06.560 --> 01:02:10.040
-Without the possibility of using it
sexually.
01:02:10.480 --> 01:02:12.080
-Of course, well...
01:02:12.080 --> 01:02:16.480
...I had never actually
had a similar query.
01:02:16.480 --> 01:02:17.560
But...
01:02:17.560 --> 01:02:20.240
...it is a reasonable one.
01:02:20.240 --> 01:02:22.280
It can be done.
01:02:22.680 --> 01:02:26.120
The surgery would have
much less risk.
01:02:26.120 --> 01:02:29.200
-The post-op would be shorter,...
01:02:29.200 --> 01:02:32.960
...the scarring would probably be faster?
01:02:32.960 --> 01:02:34.040
-Yes... Yes.
01:02:34.200 --> 01:02:36.080
-With less affected areas.
01:02:36.080 --> 01:02:37.840
-With less affected areas. Sure.
01:02:38.600 --> 01:02:41.640
-Although the post-op of the vulva would
be the same.
01:02:41.640 --> 01:02:46.680
Anyway you shouldn't start your sexual
activity a week from that.
01:02:46.680 --> 01:02:48.240
-Of course. I can imagine.
01:02:48.240 --> 01:02:50.480
-Maybe it will take you 30 days.
-Sure.
01:02:50.480 --> 01:02:51.400
-Or maybe 40.
01:02:51.400 --> 01:02:55.720
We must check how
all the postoperative goes.
01:02:55.720 --> 01:02:57.840
But, well.
01:02:57.840 --> 01:02:59.160
Yes, it would be less risky.
01:03:29.120 --> 01:03:32.760
-A few days ago I met a transgender girl...
01:03:33.080 --> 01:03:35.800
...who used to be my girlfriend.
01:03:36.200 --> 01:03:38.400
...10 years ago.
01:03:39.080 --> 01:03:44.840
We were had lunch together
and everything.
01:03:45.320 --> 01:03:47.920
Honestly, I was moved by many things.
01:03:47.920 --> 01:03:51.240
At one point, I started to think...
01:03:53.640 --> 01:03:56.080
...would it be illogical that I wanted...
01:03:56.080 --> 01:04:01.120
...or wished to be back with her
as I was before?
01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:03.360
As I am now.
01:04:03.640 --> 01:04:06.280
I feel kinda awkward.
01:04:06.280 --> 01:04:09.240
It's like... How can I think that now?
01:04:09.720 --> 01:04:12.960
You're self-censoring.
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:15.720
If this woman you're telling me about...
01:04:15.720 --> 01:04:17.920
...if she was attractive to you,...
01:04:17.920 --> 01:04:21.560
...she seduced you 10 years ago.
01:04:21.560 --> 01:04:23.560
You'll continue to feel attracted to her.
01:04:23.640 --> 01:04:28.040
Because eroticism does not respond to...
Is completely irreverent.
01:04:28.440 --> 01:04:30.360
-I have it all messed up.
01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:31.800
-There are a few things...
01:04:31.800 --> 01:04:35.080
-I'm realizing now.
-...that have nothing to do with surgery.
01:04:35.080 --> 01:04:38.720
-If I hadn't talk to you.
-They have nothing to do with surgery.
01:04:38.720 --> 01:04:40.560
-See? The genital part is not all.
01:04:40.560 --> 01:04:41.920
-No, surely.
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:45.000
-Not at all. It's an anecdotal detail.
I'd say.
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:46.480
-Yes...
-But...
01:04:46.480 --> 01:04:49.240
-If I could just plum and take it out,
I'd love it.
01:05:04.560 --> 01:05:05.880
-How are you doing, Cane?
01:05:05.880 --> 01:05:06.760
-Hi, how are you?
01:05:06.760 --> 01:05:08.280
-Fine.
01:05:08.280 --> 01:05:10.280
-I'll tell your fortune.
-Okay.
01:05:10.280 --> 01:05:14.400
-I'll tell your fortune.
-Last time was almost 10 years ago.
01:05:23.600 --> 01:05:25.000
-Cut with the left hand.
01:05:25.000 --> 01:05:26.880
-With the left hand.
-Do not cross your legs.
01:05:26.880 --> 01:05:28.520
Put this hand in the heart.
01:05:29.760 --> 01:05:31.400
We'll do it the Gipsy way.
01:05:32.440 --> 01:05:34.120
Let's see what comes out.
01:05:39.560 --> 01:05:41.240
A lot will come out.
01:05:41.240 --> 01:05:42.960
You'll have to choose two roads.
01:05:43.560 --> 01:05:45.600
You'll have a very big dilemma.
01:05:47.520 --> 01:05:50.080
-The more I listen to you,
the more I worry.
01:05:50.080 --> 01:05:52.440
-Do you?
-Yes, because my psychologist...
01:05:52.440 --> 01:05:59.520
...told me beyond the gender image I have,
maybe my sexually...
01:05:59.520 --> 01:06:05.120
...can behave not with
the need of a vagina.
01:06:05.120 --> 01:06:07.320
And that's the thing. I don't know.
01:06:08.920 --> 01:06:12.240
It's an organ I never had
and I don't know how it is like.
01:06:13.720 --> 01:06:15.080
That's why I ask you.
01:06:16.360 --> 01:06:18.680
I'll tell you from my point of view.
01:06:18.680 --> 01:06:22.720
What happens to me,
as it is all new to me...
01:06:23.360 --> 01:06:26.680
...I prefer to have vaginal sex.
01:06:27.080 --> 01:06:28.040
-Right.
01:06:28.040 --> 01:06:29.640
-I used to be more structured.
01:06:29.640 --> 01:06:30.840
-Yes, I remember.
01:06:30.840 --> 01:06:34.240
-Not anymore. Tiny detail.
01:06:34.240 --> 01:06:35.320
-That's great.
01:06:36.080 --> 01:06:37.400
-I'm more versatile now.
01:06:37.400 --> 01:06:38.080
-Oh, look.
01:06:38.080 --> 01:06:39.920
-As older.
Can you believe it?
01:06:40.520 --> 01:06:42.320
I can't. But it is so.
01:06:43.080 --> 01:06:44.480
-Maybe you've loosen up.
01:06:44.480 --> 01:06:46.960
-I've become like a guru in that subject.
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:49.760
-Maybe you were as more contained.
01:06:49.760 --> 01:06:52.000
-It's amazing.
Nor I can explain.
01:06:52.000 --> 01:06:53.040
How could it be.
01:06:53.040 --> 01:06:55.680
I used to be more squared-minded...
01:06:56.520 --> 01:06:58.680
...and more structured.
-I think it is a matter of evolution.
01:06:58.680 --> 01:07:00.680
No doubt about it.
So I was.
01:07:01.400 --> 01:07:05.840
I had to fulfill that stereotype...
01:07:05.840 --> 01:07:07.760
...and nothing more.
01:07:07.760 --> 01:07:10.240
-So I was to myself.
Do you remember?
01:07:10.480 --> 01:07:11.520
-Sure.
01:07:11.520 --> 01:07:12.480
-Not anymore.
01:07:12.880 --> 01:07:16.080
I'm surprised because
I'm not like that at all.
01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:17.560
-I swear.
01:07:17.560 --> 01:07:18.960
I can not explain.
01:07:18.960 --> 01:07:22.240
-So now you could be with a girl trans,
as myself?
01:07:22.720 --> 01:07:25.400
-I could be with a woman,
a transgender girl...
01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:26.360
...or whoever.
01:07:26.360 --> 01:07:27.640
-I love it.
01:07:28.040 --> 01:07:30.800
-Sex has no genders.
01:07:31.080 --> 01:07:32.480
-Of course...
01:07:33.040 --> 01:07:35.400
You have to open yourself.
01:07:36.400 --> 01:07:39.640
Over the years one may feel unhardened.
01:07:39.640 --> 01:07:43.880
I've loosen much and look at me now.
01:07:44.400 --> 01:07:46.920
At some point is still hard for me.
01:07:46.920 --> 01:07:49.520
When I look into your eyes...
01:07:49.520 --> 01:07:52.520
...I see you.
And I see the essence.
01:07:52.520 --> 01:07:53.280
-Still.
01:07:53.280 --> 01:07:55.120
-It's still there.
01:07:55.120 --> 01:07:55.600
-Yes, I do too.
01:07:55.600 --> 01:07:59.600
-I don't see genders roles, I see the
essence. And that is still there.
01:07:59.600 --> 01:08:01.680
-That's nice.
-And that's the whole truth.
01:08:01.680 --> 01:08:04.000
-I see you the same. Even better.
01:08:05.560 --> 01:08:08.320
-I don't know if I'm better or worse...
-We praise at each other.
01:08:08.560 --> 01:08:10.360
-Here we have flowers.
01:08:10.680 --> 01:08:16.520
I have a concern about the issue
of having the surgery.
01:08:16.520 --> 01:08:17.600
Maybe....
01:08:18.720 --> 01:08:19.760
...I think.
01:08:20.440 --> 01:08:21.880
This my humble opinion.
01:08:22.320 --> 01:08:26.760
Suppose you are not ready
for the surgery...
01:08:27.200 --> 01:08:31.320
...because you think they
will not accept you as you are...
01:08:31.320 --> 01:08:32.800
...this way.
01:08:33.880 --> 01:08:37.320
There are people who accept you as you are.
01:08:37.600 --> 01:08:40.520
Without having that surgery
and all that mess.
01:08:41.440 --> 01:08:43.760
Maybe you have to think that.
01:08:43.760 --> 01:08:44.880
-Maybe.
01:08:44.960 --> 01:08:47.960
-If you are afraid people
don't accept you...
01:08:47.960 --> 01:08:50.120
...there are other people
who love you as you are.
01:08:50.640 --> 01:08:52.840
Beyond anything.
01:08:53.320 --> 01:08:55.400
-Thank you so much.
-You know it is so.
01:08:55.760 --> 01:08:57.320
-Happens that I had forgotten.
01:08:58.240 --> 01:08:59.680
So many years not seeing each other.
01:09:00.320 --> 01:09:01.680
-But it's so.
01:09:01.840 --> 01:09:04.480
Let's take a walk.
-Of course.
01:09:05.440 --> 01:09:07.680
-To digest a bit everything we ate.
01:09:07.680 --> 01:09:09.360
-And the mate.
-Specially the mate.
01:09:10.200 --> 01:09:12.480
-Oh, yes.
-Go figure.
01:09:14.520 --> 01:09:15.760
Careful. Don't go falling.
01:09:16.320 --> 01:09:17.840
If we fall down, they'll sacrifice us.
01:09:18.160 --> 01:09:19.800
-This is the aloe Vera.
01:09:19.800 --> 01:09:22.520
-No, this is a lily, also called azucena.
01:09:22.920 --> 01:09:24.920
-Azucena Maizani.
-Azucena Maizani.
01:09:25.200 --> 01:09:26.760
-La ñata gaucha.
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:28.840
-And that is the cockroach.
01:09:29.440 --> 01:09:30.480
-Oh. Why?
01:09:31.360 --> 01:09:32.160
-Just because.
01:09:32.160 --> 01:09:34.120
-Look.
-Cockroach?
01:09:37.480 --> 01:09:39.080
-Go swimming would have been nice.
01:09:39.080 --> 01:09:40.800
-Isn't this...?
01:09:42.480 --> 01:09:44.240
...lampalagua...
01:09:44.240 --> 01:09:45.440
-It's not lampalagua.
01:09:45.440 --> 01:09:46.360
-Lampalagua it's a snake.
01:09:47.080 --> 01:09:50.680
-This one is called slipper.
-Right. Slipper.
01:09:50.680 --> 01:09:52.240
-Pink lady's slipper.
01:09:52.240 --> 01:09:53.040
-Like that?
01:09:53.160 --> 01:09:53.960
-Yes.
01:10:10.600 --> 01:10:14.280
-I fell in to a burning ring of fire...
01:10:14.920 --> 01:10:16.680
...I went down, down, down...
01:10:17.200 --> 01:10:19.200
...and the flames went higher...
01:10:19.200 --> 01:10:21.080
And it burns, burns, burns.
01:10:21.080 --> 01:10:23.600
The ring of fire.
01:10:24.040 --> 01:10:25.520
The ring of fire.
01:10:26.960 --> 01:10:30.840
I fell in to a burning ring of fire.
01:10:31.080 --> 01:10:33.120
I went down, down, down...
01:10:33.280 --> 01:10:35.280
...and the flames went higher.
01:10:35.840 --> 01:10:37.200
And it burns, burns, burns...
01:10:37.800 --> 01:10:40.040
The ring of fire.
01:10:40.280 --> 01:10:41.680
The ring of fire.
01:10:42.920 --> 01:10:45.200
And it burns, burns, burns...
01:10:45.600 --> 01:10:47.360
The ring of fire.
01:10:48.080 --> 01:10:49.360
The ring of fire.
01:11:23.400 --> 01:11:29.040
I’ve been here for so long...
01:11:31.400 --> 01:11:37.320
...I do not know if I am real...
01:11:37.320 --> 01:11:42.800
...If the world
where I lived even exists...
01:11:42.800 --> 01:11:45.280
...Maybe...
01:11:46.680 --> 01:11:52.040
...I come from a labyrinth...
01:11:52.040 --> 01:11:56.600
...or I’m missed...
01:11:57.800 --> 01:12:03.680
...But it was not a dead-end...
01:12:03.920 --> 01:12:08.440
...I found out after...
01:12:09.640 --> 01:12:11.360
...And could be myself...
01:12:11.560 --> 01:12:14.200
...And also be there to feel...
01:12:14.400 --> 01:12:16.640
...To feel it well...
01:12:18.400 --> 01:12:22.920
...And I want to see the feeling area...
01:12:23.200 --> 01:12:25.520
...under the skin...
01:12:28.360 --> 01:12:31.240
...And then rest...
01:12:41.640 --> 01:12:46.120
...The darkening of the feeling area...
01:12:46.120 --> 01:12:48.800
...under the skin...
01:12:51.960 --> 01:12:54.680
...And go back...
01:12:55.640 --> 01:13:01.360
...to some place...
01:13:13.640 --> 01:13:19.480
...I’ve been here for so long...
01:13:21.600 --> 01:13:23.240
...I do not know...
01:13:24.800 --> 01:13:27.440
...if I am real...
01:13:27.720 --> 01:13:33.080
...If the world
where I lived even exists...
01:13:33.080 --> 01:13:35.800
...Maybe...
01:13:36.640 --> 01:13:42.600
...I reached rock bottom
of the precipice...
01:13:42.760 --> 01:13:47.000
...where you can’t even see a thing...
01:13:47.920 --> 01:13:50.920
...And I found a color...
01:13:50.920 --> 01:13:54.160
...a new way out...
01:13:54.520 --> 01:13:58.600
...and I felt so good...
Distributor: Pragda Films
Length: 75 minutes
Date: 2020
Genre: Expository
Language: Spanish
Grade: High School, College, Adult
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