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(marker scratching)

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(dog barking)

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(string music)

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(ambient music)

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(upbeat music)

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- This has been buzzardville
right here, girl.

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It's like the guys hang out here right now

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more than the girls right now, you know?

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- That's Pepe, ain't it?

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- Is that Pepe?

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- Look like it.

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- Girl, go back there and get that ho.

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- That's Pepe.

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This fool got right into me.

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- White men.

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Okay, slow down, slow down.

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You gonna go up and down these blocks.

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Make a left, make a right.

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- Which one, make a left or right?

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- There you, there you go, right there.

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- Okay, it's a car over there.

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- Yeah.

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Might be,

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man that look like a baby, don't it?

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- Mmhmm.

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Who is it, where this guy at?

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What this guy doing?

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- Wait!

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- You see, he see I got my signal.

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- Sweetie, you need condoms?

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This ho, she keep on, I got.

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- You want some condoms, baby?

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Okay.

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- You want some condoms,
you know you want some.

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Come here.

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You okay?

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Go nowhere.

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- This guy stabbed me,
he was about 19 years old.

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And when I looked down he had hit an artery

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and blood started pouring
out like a waterfall.

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- Oh my God.

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- So I grabbed my waist
and I'm like what the hell

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did you to do me and then by
that time he stabbed me here

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and now he's stabbing me
and I'm just punching him

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and I'm telling her, why won't he die?

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You know what I'm saying?

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But my mind was slipping and I passed out.

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The drugs, I have to stop.

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I broke down crying to my friend,

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to don't let me wake up,
Lord, in the morning.

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I don't want to wake up.

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I'm too scared to take my own
life, but in a way,

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I wish somebody would,
you know what I'm saying?

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'Cause you know what I
mean, people die with two,

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three stab wounds

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and here I am,
got stabbed 19 times and I'm still here.

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This friend of mine's, just the other day,

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she puts my hand to her chest,

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she's been stabbed so
many times and I looked

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and I'm crying, I'm like oh my God,

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and I raise up her shirt
and she's been stabbed.

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She, I'm crying, I'm holding
her, this was just this week.

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And I'm holding her, holding her.

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She died in my arms

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and I just,

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you know,

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it just messed me up because here it is,

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they get stabbed, they
this, they that and they die

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and I'm stabbed and I'm still here,

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this and that and it confuse me at times

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because I want peace,
I really don't wanna be living.

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- First I start some drugs,

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dropped out of school and

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I started dating older men
that was older than me.

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I mean my whole family, my mother's,

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I was born with crack in my
system, whatever.

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- You was born with crack in your system?

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- Yeah,

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but I been going through
a lot of stuff, though,

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like I ain't have my mam
when I was little, you know,

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and it was from curiosity though, I mean

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one day I just tried it and I liked it and.

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- Here you are.

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- Yup.

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- How long,
so you've been out here prostituting

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so that you can get high, right?

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And you're 19 years old.

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- And my mama who adopted me,

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she's 80 years old and you know,

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that's the only mama I know, but like,

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you know now, I mean she,

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I'm just out here by myself,
you know, I ain't got nobody.

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- Have you ever thought
about getting off drugs

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and doing something with your life?

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- It's okay, baby.

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(crying)

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It's alright, sweetheart.

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- I'm trying.

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I've started shooting up.

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I've started doing everything.

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It's just like,
it's just more pain every day.

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- Titi, you know what?

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- No.

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- I used to be right out here, too.

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You know what I'm saying?

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From that, from that hotel to that corner,

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from that hotel to that corner,

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that's what I did,
you know what I'm saying?

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Hiding.

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Hiding from

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myself, actually, you know what I mean?

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I know what pain is

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and I know,

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I know you're in a lot of pain.

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If you want somebody
that's gonna care for you,

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unconditionally to you,

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we here to do that.

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See you didn't know about
this, you didn't know

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there was some women like that
here, did you?

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You didn't know that there
was somebody that you could

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reach out and hold your hand

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'til you could learn how to walk.

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And that's what we do.

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- We understand right now
that you're in the midst of

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what's going on out here, okay?

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We did all, been high and all of that,

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so we understand that right
now, you're in the midst

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of what's going on.

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So are you ready to get help tonight?

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- No.

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- We're not here to
pressure you or judge you,

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we just wanna know when you're ready.

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You can call us.

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Can you, do you know the
name of this organization?

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The Dreamcatcher Foundation.

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- You got any dreams?

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- Catch your dreams.

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You got any dreams you wanna catch?

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- Yeah.

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- And when you get sick and tired

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of being sick and tired,

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you call us, let us help you.

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- There's a girl that I know,

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she came from the west side of Chicago,

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her mother died when
she was six months old.

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She was put into the
care of her grandmother.

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Her grandmother was an alcoholic, you know,

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went to work everyday but
physically, emotionally,

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mentally abusive to her and

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she started getting
molested at the early age

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four or five, sometimes the
people that her grandmother had

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keeping an eye on her
were some of the people

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that molested her.

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She used to sit in the window
and they lived in the area

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where prostitutes worked
up and down the street,

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and she used to watch
these ladies all the time,

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but these ladies looked kinda shiny

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and all she ever wanted to be was shiny.

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She never wanted anything else.

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And she asked her grandmother one day,

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"what are those women doing?"

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She said, "Well,
those women are getting cars

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"and take off their panties
and men give them money."

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She put a little dress on and

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hella cheap shoes and

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she went down to an area where she knew

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where prostitutes worked,
and she got into the car

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with her first customer.

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As he was on top of her,
she cried, but she got out

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because she kept hearing her
grandmother's voice saying,

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"You need to bring some
money into this house."

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And then she got into the next car.

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When she got into the next
car, she started crying

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and she asked the man, she
said, "Please, don't do this,"

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because she had thought
about what she had done

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and she had gotten too far,

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but it was too late by then.

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Her life was 25 years in prostitution,

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that young lady got shot five times,

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stabbed over 13 times.

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At the end of the road she
got in a car with a guy

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who drug her six blocks,
tore all the skin off her face

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and her body

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and she thought she would
never have a face again.

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All she asked for was her face back

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and to make her a lady,
'cause she could never remember

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being a lady and she just
wanted her face back.

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And today,
that young lady stands before you,

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a lady with a face.

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I don't, this, this is crazy.

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You know I had one on last night

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and I wanted to put it back on
today, you know,

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it's my, it's my new look.

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- You got a new one?

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Yeah?

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I didn't see it.

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- I don't know where my hair is.

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Okay, I'll put on another hair.

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But see, then when I change hairs,

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I change personalities.

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Oh, I know where my hair is.

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In here it be,

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no, maybe.

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- You got it?

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- No, it's not in here.

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- It's not in there?

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- What you think of this one?

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- I like that one, too.

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- You like this one?

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I don't like this one.

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- You don't?

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- I mean, I love it, but it's
not, I don't feel it today.

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- Mmhmm.

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- Right now I'm trying to figure out,

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I'm still trying to figure
out what I'm finna put on,

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you know,

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'cause I felt like that hair.

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You know, it was like

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fun, springy and I felt like that.

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Now I'm throwed off,

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I'm throwed off so,

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I gotta get throwed back on.

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(soft piano music)

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- Shit.

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(soft piano music)

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- [Teacher] Hey.

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Get in the room.

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Gloria, Gloria.

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Come here, come here.

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- I know what you mean, shoot,

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you shoulda told me.

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Okay.

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It's hard

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to have a sister, ain't it?

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It's to trust to trust women
again after being out there

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in the streets for so long.

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Because when we're out there,

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men teach us to not like each other because

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if we like each other,
that's way too much power.

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Then they can't control
us if we get together.

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That's rule number 8 in
the pimp's code of conduct.

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Never let a ho like a ho.

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Huh?

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'Cause then if they get together,

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they can turn against him.

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So they always have these things out there

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about us so that we
wouldn't get together or

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that we wouldn't know
that they were using us

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because only another sister
would tell another sister

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girl, he ain't no good, he's using you.

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But if they kept us separated,
divide, they could conquer.

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We got some time now,
I'm a leave the floor open

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for any of you all who wanna share.

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- He came after me,

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beat me outside the car 'til I was bloody,

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knocked, dislocated my
jaw and knocked two of my

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very back teeth halfway out,

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made me take all my clothes
off and that was to ensure

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that I wouldn't jump out of the car.

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And he tried to make me
perform oral sex on him

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while my jaw was dislocated
and I couldn't do it very well

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and

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he still beat me

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in the car.

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You know, I'm already bloody so

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whatever,

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and,

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and he was talking about,
you know he wants to do it to me

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in the butt,

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and

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I'm like, but, you know,

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so this time I'm telling
him anything I have to

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so he doesn't kill me.

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He went to go lunge forward,
he put me in a headlock

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and I started screaming.

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The guy let go of me and
I dropped to the floor,

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or to the ground and I started running

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across the parking lot.

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I went home and I was in
and out of a comatose state.

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I finally ended up going to the hospital.

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- Wow.

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- I spent three days

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semi-comatose.

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You know, that's just
some of what the streets

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can do to you.

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My name's Kina.

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- [Group] Thank you, Kina.

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(applause)

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- As you all know, just recently

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they vacated my whole record, right?

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- [Group] Right.

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(applause)

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- Y'all better understand
about that one, baby.

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(laughter)

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Okay, and this is the woman

00:14:01.550 --> 00:14:02.650
who helped me do that.

00:14:04.200 --> 00:14:06.949
- You've been there,
and you're probably still struggling

00:14:06.950 --> 00:14:09.199
with feeling like the
way you've been treated

00:14:09.200 --> 00:14:11.123
is what you deserve, right?

00:14:12.330 --> 00:14:15.109
My job is to hold the rest of the world

00:14:15.110 --> 00:14:17.629
accountable for what's been done to you.

00:14:17.630 --> 00:14:19.066
I know,

00:14:19.067 --> 00:14:21.317
(applause)

00:14:23.421 --> 00:14:26.459
and what we did with Brenda
is we went to the court

00:14:26.460 --> 00:14:28.779
and we basically said

00:14:28.780 --> 00:14:31.939
every time that there was a conviction

00:14:31.940 --> 00:14:35.593
that landed in her lap,
in her life, on her record,

00:14:36.930 --> 00:14:41.029
you were treating her like a
criminal and that was wrong.

00:14:41.030 --> 00:14:44.539
And you, the legal system,
should not have done that.

00:14:44.540 --> 00:14:49.540
You should have recognized
that she was surviving.

00:14:49.900 --> 00:14:54.739
Brenda helped make the law
happen because up until

00:14:54.740 --> 00:14:58.039
this law was enacted,
we didn't have a way of going to

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the court system and
saying these convictions

00:15:00.810 --> 00:15:02.389
shouldn't have happened in the first place.

00:15:02.390 --> 00:15:04.409
You were treating someone like a criminal

00:15:04.410 --> 00:15:08.159
when you should have been
recognizing that, really,

00:15:08.160 --> 00:15:10.330
they were a survivor.

00:15:10.331 --> 00:15:12.748
(soft music)

00:15:37.720 --> 00:15:38.952
- [Brenda] I see him.

00:15:38.953 --> 00:15:40.345
- [Stephanie] You see
the one talking to them?

00:15:40.346 --> 00:15:41.179
- [Brenda] Mmmhmm.

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Tied to the car.

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- [Man] Yeah, that's what I'll tell him.

00:15:45.027 --> 00:15:47.400
- [Stephanie] Somebody laying down.

00:15:47.401 --> 00:15:49.669
- [Brenda] Oh my God,
it's baby's out tonight.

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This is the street right here

00:15:52.250 --> 00:15:54.719
that ended my prostitution.

00:15:54.720 --> 00:15:56.305
- [Stephanie] Oh yeah, that is.

00:15:56.306 --> 00:15:57.139
- I was brought up here by the guy,

00:15:57.140 --> 00:15:59.009
I got dead of him up here,

00:15:59.010 --> 00:16:01.433
tried to get out the car right there,

00:16:02.354 --> 00:16:04.389
and my clothes caught hold to the car,

00:16:04.390 --> 00:16:06.740
pull over,
let me get these girls some condoms.

00:16:07.670 --> 00:16:10.479
This is the area that ended my,

00:16:10.480 --> 00:16:12.023
that was my demise.

00:16:14.519 --> 00:16:17.127
- Someone tried to strangle
me like a year and a half ago.

00:16:17.128 --> 00:16:19.104
Mmhmm, yeah.

00:16:19.105 --> 00:16:21.489
So I stopped working the
track for a long time, so.

00:16:21.490 --> 00:16:22.754
Can't do it.

00:16:22.755 --> 00:16:23.969
- I don't want you to get hurt, though.

00:16:23.970 --> 00:16:25.129
'Cause it's dangerous out here.

00:16:25.130 --> 00:16:28.099
- Yeah, I know,
my friend just died a couple months ago.

00:16:28.100 --> 00:16:28.933
- She did?

00:16:28.933 --> 00:16:29.933
- Yeah, in,

00:16:31.290 --> 00:16:34.533
in Newport Beach,
they found her face-down in the sand.

00:16:35.942 --> 00:16:36.942
Her name was Tina.

00:16:42.850 --> 00:16:45.909
- Okay, she's working but she's
got a guy with her because

00:16:45.910 --> 00:16:49.359
a lot of times they walk
down here with guys because

00:16:49.360 --> 00:16:51.493
it's been so hot up here.

00:16:51.494 --> 00:16:52.653
I don't know where she went,

00:16:53.730 --> 00:16:55.380
she had just came out of Denny's.

00:17:01.230 --> 00:17:03.289
- Out here is really
dangerous, that's why I'm,

00:17:03.290 --> 00:17:04.379
hardly ever come out here.

00:17:04.380 --> 00:17:05.240
- Yeah, this is, this is.

00:17:05.241 --> 00:17:06.618
- I don't hardly ever walk to the track.

00:17:06.619 --> 00:17:08.828
- Yeah, this is one of
the most dangerous spots.

00:17:08.829 --> 00:17:10.479
- I was walking home
from her house one day.

00:17:10.480 --> 00:17:13.180
- I would never, when I was out
here, and I was tough,

00:17:14.117 --> 00:17:15.549
you know, this area right
here, I wouldn't do it,

00:17:15.550 --> 00:17:17.199
I'd only do it in the daytime.

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I would do this in the daytime and
then, you know,

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I would never do it at night.

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- Yeah?

00:17:21.293 --> 00:17:22.429
- It was too spooky for me.

00:17:22.430 --> 00:17:23.290
- They're dangerous out here,

00:17:23.291 --> 00:17:24.578
they're starting to kill the girls.

00:17:24.579 --> 00:17:26.709
That's because of the,
people started stealing

00:17:26.710 --> 00:17:28.229
and robbing from these guys,

00:17:28.230 --> 00:17:29.989
and not respecting the
fact that their money's

00:17:29.990 --> 00:17:32.349
just as hard-earned as ours.

00:17:32.350 --> 00:17:33.489
So once you respect the game,

00:17:33.490 --> 00:17:35.569
then I haven't had that
many bad things happen to me

00:17:35.570 --> 00:17:37.315
while I was working.

00:17:37.316 --> 00:17:38.739
(phone ringing)

00:17:38.740 --> 00:17:40.039
Hey.

00:17:40.040 --> 00:17:40.873
Yeah.

00:17:40.874 --> 00:17:42.639
It's my baby's daddy.

00:17:42.640 --> 00:17:44.403
Yeah, Baby, yeah Baby Daddy.

00:17:47.810 --> 00:17:48.810
Alright.

00:17:50.350 --> 00:17:54.159
So, I moved out here, I was on the run

00:17:54.160 --> 00:17:57.089
from parole, ran from parole.

00:17:57.090 --> 00:17:59.799
I kept going back and forth to prison,

00:17:59.800 --> 00:18:03.009
and then '08 I hooked up
with my four year old's dad

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and I ended up getting pregnant
and ended up going back

00:18:05.600 --> 00:18:07.253
to serve my time.

00:18:07.254 --> 00:18:10.769
I did two and a half years in
prison, got out in 2011.

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Lived with him, tried the, you know.

00:18:13.670 --> 00:18:14.560
- The square stuff.

00:18:14.561 --> 00:18:16.169
- Tried to do it,

00:18:16.170 --> 00:18:19.299
but I wanted to get to
the escorting business,

00:18:19.300 --> 00:18:21.489
which was the online.

00:18:21.490 --> 00:18:24.662
In April, me and my baby's
daddy had a fall out,

00:18:24.663 --> 00:18:27.079
the strain was too bad,
like the violence was there,

00:18:27.080 --> 00:18:29.149
we were always fighting and
everything, you know,

00:18:29.150 --> 00:18:30.649
we never got along.

00:18:30.650 --> 00:18:33.709
I decided to leave and then
I ended up getting trapped

00:18:33.710 --> 00:18:35.863
in a relationship that was like, dang,

00:18:36.830 --> 00:18:38.919
I just broke up with him
and now here's this guy,

00:18:38.920 --> 00:18:41.303
you know,
that's doing it all over again, so.

00:18:41.304 --> 00:18:42.339
- Are you pregnant now?

00:18:42.340 --> 00:18:43.590
- Yes, I am.

00:18:43.591 --> 00:18:44.424
- Okay.

00:18:44.425 --> 00:18:47.099
- I am, I'm 20 weeks
pregnant, so it wasn't,

00:18:47.100 --> 00:18:49.879
I did not want it,
I was not like I didn't hand the guy

00:18:49.880 --> 00:18:52.089
the condom, he knew I was really fucked up.

00:18:52.090 --> 00:18:52.923
- Right.

00:18:52.924 --> 00:18:54.029
- You know, he was like a more,

00:18:54.030 --> 00:18:56.409
a trap thing 'cause he
heard on the streets that

00:18:56.410 --> 00:18:58.839
'cause how loyal and how much money I made

00:18:58.840 --> 00:19:00.206
for my baby's dad, you know?

00:19:00.207 --> 00:19:01.978
- Mmhmm, mmhmm, mmhmm.

00:19:01.979 --> 00:19:03.615
And so he wanted to get you pregnant.

00:19:03.616 --> 00:19:04.799
- And he figured out that
yeah, if I trap her,

00:19:04.800 --> 00:19:06.023
then I can control her.

00:19:06.948 --> 00:19:08.789
I never thought that
it had to come to this,

00:19:08.790 --> 00:19:10.659
but it comes to it and

00:19:10.660 --> 00:19:13.109
I've been on the streets
since I was eight so.

00:19:13.110 --> 00:19:14.339
- You been on the streets
since you was eight?

00:19:14.340 --> 00:19:16.379
- Yes, in Portland, Oregon.

00:19:16.380 --> 00:19:17.889
I'm actually was born in Portland, Oregon

00:19:17.890 --> 00:19:19.119
and I was a runaway.

00:19:19.120 --> 00:19:20.829
And I grew up around the pimps and stuff,

00:19:20.830 --> 00:19:22.329
I was the little girl
that'd go collect the money

00:19:22.330 --> 00:19:23.489
from the hoes.

00:19:23.490 --> 00:19:24.323
- Right.

00:19:24.324 --> 00:19:25.574
- You know, so I been around the game.

00:19:25.575 --> 00:19:26.619
- Was your mother a
prostitute or something?

00:19:26.620 --> 00:19:29.493
- No, my mom just lost us,
she was mentally crazy.

00:19:30.390 --> 00:19:32.203
Couldn't deal with us and I never,

00:19:33.130 --> 00:19:34.219
I don't like authority.

00:19:34.220 --> 00:19:35.889
- So you been in this game for awhile?

00:19:35.890 --> 00:19:37.851
- Yeah, I know the streets.

00:19:37.852 --> 00:19:40.052
It's the streets,
it's just the streets, so.

00:19:41.630 --> 00:19:43.269
- Did you need condoms?

00:19:43.270 --> 00:19:44.103
- Yeah, please.

00:19:44.103 --> 00:19:44.936
- Okay.

00:19:44.937 --> 00:19:46.429
- I was just gonna say,
we don't lock our doors.

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- Okay.

00:19:53.320 --> 00:19:55.499
Call me, you know.

00:19:55.500 --> 00:19:56.809
If I'm around,

00:19:56.810 --> 00:19:58.609
I'll probably be around a little bit later,

00:19:58.610 --> 00:20:00.038
I don't wanna block anything from you

00:20:00.039 --> 00:20:01.749
but would you mind having
a little coffee with me

00:20:01.750 --> 00:20:02.583
or something?

00:20:02.583 --> 00:20:03.480
- Yeah, that would be nice.

00:20:03.480 --> 00:20:04.313
- Okay.

00:20:04.314 --> 00:20:06.870
- I used to go down to Pine
Valley and get some coffee.

00:20:08.650 --> 00:20:13.650
- [Announcer] Northbound
F train is out of service.

00:20:27.040 --> 00:20:28.499
- These are great years,

00:20:28.500 --> 00:20:30.119
these are great years in high school,

00:20:30.120 --> 00:20:31.429
these are great years.

00:20:31.430 --> 00:20:33.819
These are the years that
you have a lot of friends,

00:20:33.820 --> 00:20:36.569
you have a lot of fun,
you do a lot of crazy things,

00:20:36.570 --> 00:20:39.039
but you don't have to
get serious in any way

00:20:39.040 --> 00:20:39.873
with relationships.

00:20:39.874 --> 00:20:41.789
The only thing you should be serious about

00:20:41.790 --> 00:20:43.343
is your work.

00:20:44.230 --> 00:20:46.819
Is your work and how I'm a graduate.

00:20:46.820 --> 00:20:49.320
That's the only serious
thing you should be about.

00:20:51.990 --> 00:20:53.403
- Remember, I wanted to join.

00:20:54.705 --> 00:20:56.061
- That was yesterday.

00:20:56.062 --> 00:20:58.049
- When I come in here I see boys,

00:20:58.050 --> 00:21:00.732
they knock on the door there
'cause they trying to get in,

00:21:00.733 --> 00:21:01.773
you know what I'm saying?

00:21:01.774 --> 00:21:02.607
(laughing)

00:21:02.607 --> 00:21:03.440
You know?

00:21:03.441 --> 00:21:04.939
You know, they sniffing
around the door right now.

00:21:04.940 --> 00:21:05.930
You know?

00:21:05.931 --> 00:21:08.167
I want you to learn
different ways that you can

00:21:08.168 --> 00:21:11.839
express yourself,
how you can tell a guy out of,

00:21:11.840 --> 00:21:13.673
with your own words,

00:21:14.733 --> 00:21:16.529
I don't want, I'm not with that.

00:21:16.530 --> 00:21:18.629
I'm just not ready yet.

00:21:18.630 --> 00:21:21.582
- It already did happen when
a man got aggressive with me.

00:21:21.583 --> 00:21:24.699
I was 11,
and I was in my best friend house,

00:21:24.700 --> 00:21:27.349
and I had, I was at her house,

00:21:27.350 --> 00:21:29.940
and she invited her boyfriend over,

00:21:29.941 --> 00:21:31.591
like my best friend was older me.

00:21:32.878 --> 00:21:35.019
She invited her boyfriend
over and I didn't know

00:21:35.020 --> 00:21:37.023
her boyfriend big brother was coming,

00:21:37.920 --> 00:21:40.999
and I had a headache and
I was in a room, sleep,

00:21:41.000 --> 00:21:43.319
and the only thing I heard
was the door close and

00:21:43.320 --> 00:21:44.959
he like,

00:21:44.960 --> 00:21:47.092
like talking to me and I'm
like who is you, and stuff.

00:21:47.093 --> 00:21:50.899
I don't know who he is,
like I saw him when he came in

00:21:50.900 --> 00:21:54.059
and I was screaming for my best
friend, Brianna,

00:21:54.060 --> 00:21:58.852
it happened like, aggressively,
he raped me when I was 11,

00:21:58.853 --> 00:22:00.163
and I saw him again.

00:22:01.630 --> 00:22:03.349
- Did he get arrested?

00:22:03.350 --> 00:22:05.169
- I didn't tell nobody.

00:22:05.170 --> 00:22:07.583
I kept it to myself 'til I was like, 15.

00:22:08.900 --> 00:22:12.299
I just told my mom and then
she was mad at me because

00:22:12.300 --> 00:22:14.695
she felt like I should
have told her because

00:22:14.696 --> 00:22:16.520
that what happened to
her when she was younger

00:22:16.521 --> 00:22:18.147
and she didn't want it to recycle.

00:22:18.148 --> 00:22:19.148
- Right.

00:22:20.814 --> 00:22:22.566
- The same thing that happened to
her, it happened to me,

00:22:22.567 --> 00:22:25.199
but I was like, a lot older than her.

00:22:25.200 --> 00:22:27.599
I was like, 14 when it happened to me.

00:22:27.600 --> 00:22:28.919
Like I was living with my parents.

00:22:28.920 --> 00:22:31.120
That's the reason I don't
live with my parents no more,

00:22:31.336 --> 00:22:33.319
because they had a friend
of the family that was

00:22:33.320 --> 00:22:37.669
living with us, and he raped
me, like every night.

00:22:37.670 --> 00:22:39.449
And I told my mama and everything but

00:22:39.450 --> 00:22:41.342
she didn't believe me, so I had to just

00:22:41.343 --> 00:22:42.973
leave from the house.

00:22:43.810 --> 00:22:44.713
- Wow.

00:22:44.714 --> 00:22:46.224
- I'm gonna cry 'cause
this is making me sad.

00:22:46.225 --> 00:22:47.058
(laughing)

00:22:47.058 --> 00:22:48.058
- Okay.

00:22:49.058 --> 00:22:52.449
- I was nine when I got raped by my cousin.

00:22:52.450 --> 00:22:56.269
He was 19, I was nine and I got raped and

00:22:56.270 --> 00:22:58.049
it was a party, New Year's
Eve, you know how

00:22:58.050 --> 00:22:59.219
everybody get drunk?

00:22:59.220 --> 00:23:02.739
And I was in a room asleep and I was like,

00:23:02.740 --> 00:23:05.339
I was wondering what was coming
towards me when I woke up.

00:23:05.340 --> 00:23:07.069
I started screaming but
nobody didn't hear me

00:23:07.070 --> 00:23:08.889
'cause the music was loud.

00:23:08.890 --> 00:23:11.229
He threatened to kill me,
he put a knife towards my throat

00:23:11.230 --> 00:23:14.919
and threatened to kill me when I was nine.

00:23:14.920 --> 00:23:17.254
I was nine, so,

00:23:17.255 --> 00:23:19.769
I had to tell my cousin, it was like,

00:23:19.770 --> 00:23:21.949
my cousin was like my son
ain't never raped you.

00:23:21.950 --> 00:23:22.800
Really?

00:23:22.801 --> 00:23:24.709
Really, I was nine years old.

00:23:24.710 --> 00:23:28.019
I don't know how to have sex.

00:23:28.020 --> 00:23:29.323
I don't know what sex is.

00:23:30.370 --> 00:23:34.183
But how I feel it,
it was hurtful and I was nine years old.

00:23:35.358 --> 00:23:37.299
- My little sister was only four years old,

00:23:37.300 --> 00:23:39.629
even though it happened to
me since I was like nine

00:23:39.630 --> 00:23:40.923
to like 14,

00:23:41.890 --> 00:23:44.349
I fought for it not to happen to her.

00:23:44.350 --> 00:23:46.129
And it was hard because I'm young

00:23:46.130 --> 00:23:49.169
and my hands don't hurt
them but it does something.

00:23:49.170 --> 00:23:53.689
Like I done got beat so many
times, my face was so beat up.

00:23:53.690 --> 00:23:57.369
Like I had scars all over my
body, I got cut.

00:23:57.370 --> 00:23:59.889
I mean, it's a lot of
stuff that happened to me

00:23:59.890 --> 00:24:02.599
to stop it from happening
to my little sister.

00:24:02.600 --> 00:24:03.819
And just,

00:24:03.820 --> 00:24:08.199
'cause I don't like them being
around boys at all, like,

00:24:08.200 --> 00:24:10.369
I don't even like them being
around my mama's bodyfriends,

00:24:10.370 --> 00:24:12.899
I don't trust no male at all.

00:24:12.900 --> 00:24:15.679
I don't, and I used to be so jumpy young,

00:24:15.680 --> 00:24:18.409
and people used to always
ask me why I was jumpy,

00:24:18.410 --> 00:24:20.839
but I didn't ever wanna say
nothing because I didn't want

00:24:20.840 --> 00:24:22.590
us to get taken away from our mama.

00:24:23.550 --> 00:24:25.609
I wanted all of us to be together.

00:24:25.610 --> 00:24:27.899
That's why I don't live with
my mama to this very day,

00:24:27.900 --> 00:24:30.209
because after I done
told her so many times,

00:24:30.210 --> 00:24:31.629
every time it happened,

00:24:31.630 --> 00:24:34.059
she ain't never did nothing about it.

00:24:34.060 --> 00:24:38.439
And then all she did was cry but I
mean, you shedding tears

00:24:38.440 --> 00:24:39.959
but you not doing nothing about it,

00:24:39.960 --> 00:24:42.179
like what was my point in telling you?

00:24:42.180 --> 00:24:43.796
So I moved with my gramma,
and my little sister and them

00:24:43.797 --> 00:24:46.169
are still with my mama to this very day,

00:24:46.170 --> 00:24:47.739
and I go over there to see them every day,

00:24:47.740 --> 00:24:49.749
and I talk to them personally one on
one, to make sure

00:24:49.750 --> 00:24:52.209
ain't nobody doing nothing
to them or nothing.

00:24:52.210 --> 00:24:53.709
Like I am so overprotective.

00:24:53.710 --> 00:24:55.799
My little sister was only four years old

00:24:55.800 --> 00:24:58.259
when they tried to touch
her and I fought so hard

00:24:58.260 --> 00:24:59.949
'cause I was nine.

00:24:59.950 --> 00:25:02.308
I fought so hard for her.

00:25:02.309 --> 00:25:03.626
- Yes,

00:25:03.627 --> 00:25:04.627
yes you did.

00:25:07.770 --> 00:25:10.899
I didn't even know this
was gonna come out, but

00:25:10.900 --> 00:25:13.623
I'm glad it did because for many years,

00:25:14.628 --> 00:25:16.439
I started getting molested

00:25:16.440 --> 00:25:18.303
at the age of four or five years old.

00:25:19.320 --> 00:25:21.079
I got molested most of my life,

00:25:21.080 --> 00:25:26.080
it became normal for me and
I, too, felt it was my fault.

00:25:27.270 --> 00:25:28.749
I thought that

00:25:28.750 --> 00:25:31.319
there's something wrong with me,

00:25:31.320 --> 00:25:33.999
because I didn't think it
happened to anybody else, right?

00:25:34.000 --> 00:25:35.673
The molestation was horrible,

00:25:36.620 --> 00:25:38.569
but the most other
horrible part is the people

00:25:38.570 --> 00:25:40.259
who didn't believe me when I told them.

00:25:40.260 --> 00:25:41.260
- [Group] Yes.

00:25:42.600 --> 00:25:45.799
- So it made me feel like I
was dealing with that alone

00:25:45.800 --> 00:25:48.259
and that in some way, it was my fault.

00:25:48.260 --> 00:25:50.860
But I'm here to tell each
and every one of you today

00:25:52.100 --> 00:25:54.873
it is not your fault, do you understand me?

00:25:55.900 --> 00:25:56.989
It is not your fault,

00:25:56.990 --> 00:25:58.409
it is not your fault,

00:25:58.410 --> 00:25:59.829
it is not your fault,

00:25:59.830 --> 00:26:01.049
it is not your fault,

00:26:01.050 --> 00:26:02.589
do you understand me?

00:26:02.590 --> 00:26:04.563
That is not your fault.

00:26:21.270 --> 00:26:23.179
I got too much going on.

00:26:23.180 --> 00:26:25.659
- [Woman On Phone] Okay,
okay, what you want me to do?

00:26:25.660 --> 00:26:26.640
- It ain't nothing you can do,

00:26:26.641 --> 00:26:28.319
I couldn't go to work this
morning 'cause I was up

00:26:28.320 --> 00:26:29.839
all last night, though.

00:26:29.840 --> 00:26:31.579
I wanted to call you this
morning but I was sleeping,

00:26:31.580 --> 00:26:33.089
okay?

00:26:33.090 --> 00:26:35.373
Okay, Letell called,
you know little Letell?

00:26:37.171 --> 00:26:38.579
- [Woman On Phone] Right,
right, right, right.

00:26:38.580 --> 00:26:41.829
- Her mom, right,
her mom beat her up last night.

00:26:41.830 --> 00:26:42.760
- [Woman On Phone] Her mom beat her up?

00:26:42.761 --> 00:26:43.985
- Yeah.

00:26:43.986 --> 00:26:44.980
- [Woman On Phone] Okay.

00:26:44.981 --> 00:26:46.659
- She didn't fight back
'cause I had told her

00:26:46.660 --> 00:26:48.073
don't fight your mom back.

00:26:49.177 --> 00:26:50.719
And it was a good thing
'cause her mom was actually

00:26:50.720 --> 00:26:52.459
trying to fight her,
to provoke her to fight her

00:26:52.460 --> 00:26:54.210
so that she could send her to jail.

00:26:55.310 --> 00:26:56.143
You know what I mean?

00:26:56.144 --> 00:26:59.003
And she didn't do it,
so that was a good thing.

00:27:00.010 --> 00:27:01.010
Then,

00:27:01.944 --> 00:27:03.769
I get a call last night

00:27:03.770 --> 00:27:04.770
from Jessica.

00:27:06.570 --> 00:27:07.470
- [Woman On Phone] Okay.

00:27:07.471 --> 00:27:08.549
- Her boyfriend,

00:27:08.550 --> 00:27:10.593
her boyfriend beat her up pretty bad.

00:27:11.640 --> 00:27:13.759
Fractured a couple things on her arm,

00:27:13.760 --> 00:27:14.740
because she was using her hands

00:27:14.741 --> 00:27:16.340
and her arms to protect herself,

00:27:17.540 --> 00:27:21.577
and she's a mess and then I
gotta go deal with Temeka,

00:27:22.419 --> 00:27:24.879
'cause Temeka's aunt put her out last night

00:27:24.880 --> 00:27:27.410
because she came home late, I mean.

00:27:27.411 --> 00:27:28.746
- [Woman On Phone] How old is Temeka?

00:27:28.747 --> 00:27:30.203
- Temeka is 15.

00:27:32.980 --> 00:27:35.490
Yeah, this is gonna be real good, I love

00:27:36.760 --> 00:27:38.909
you Temeka because you always been honest,

00:27:38.910 --> 00:27:42.019
you always are upright and
you say what you gotta say,

00:27:42.020 --> 00:27:43.569
what's on your mind.

00:27:43.570 --> 00:27:44.799
- I was staying with pimps,

00:27:44.800 --> 00:27:46.923
traps, hookers,

00:27:47.790 --> 00:27:49.129
wherever I had a place to lay my head,

00:27:49.130 --> 00:27:50.529
I wasn't staying at home.

00:27:50.530 --> 00:27:55.286
I know but, the cause,
the cause of me doing it was

00:27:55.287 --> 00:27:58.039
for my rape incident when I got
raped, you know,

00:27:58.040 --> 00:28:01.879
it was by a guy close to me,
made me strop trusting people

00:28:01.880 --> 00:28:04.380
and made me, like, it didn't make me do it,

00:28:04.381 --> 00:28:06.719
I ain't make no excuses for my actions but,

00:28:06.720 --> 00:28:10.619
it was just like,
the only thing I knew to do, like,

00:28:10.620 --> 00:28:14.219
I went, ah well,
just go on with your life, no,

00:28:14.220 --> 00:28:17.009
I didn't have nobody to
support me at all like,

00:28:17.010 --> 00:28:20.219
I've been abused my
life, beaten by my mama,

00:28:20.220 --> 00:28:21.789
my daddy, you know.

00:28:21.790 --> 00:28:24.009
They say it was whoopings but it wasn't,

00:28:24.010 --> 00:28:27.563
and it was just like I been
home to home, you know.

00:28:28.898 --> 00:28:32.269
I ain't really been in a
stable place where I could

00:28:32.270 --> 00:28:34.579
lay my head, trust somebody, you know?

00:28:34.580 --> 00:28:36.119
I'll never trust my mama.

00:28:36.120 --> 00:28:38.476
- So why you don't like to
sleep at your mama's house?

00:28:38.477 --> 00:28:40.319
- 'Cause she make me not trust her,

00:28:40.320 --> 00:28:43.112
she threatened my life
several times and no,

00:28:43.113 --> 00:28:44.159
I don't trust you.

00:28:44.160 --> 00:28:45.919
The reason why I'm in
the certain predicaments

00:28:45.920 --> 00:28:49.169
is because of you,
like you don't think that

00:28:49.170 --> 00:28:51.519
what you do affect me,
what you say out your mouth

00:28:51.520 --> 00:28:54.139
affect me,
what you telling people affects me.

00:28:54.140 --> 00:28:55.346
- Right.

00:28:55.347 --> 00:28:57.169
- I could put this on everything I
love, my gramma,

00:28:57.170 --> 00:28:59.289
my mama died today, I would not cry.

00:28:59.290 --> 00:29:01.049
I would not shed no tears,
I wouldn't even come

00:29:01.050 --> 00:29:03.339
to her funeral and if
I do come her funeral,

00:29:03.340 --> 00:29:04.869
I'm just be sitting there.

00:29:04.870 --> 00:29:06.349
Like I'm not gonna go
up there read nothing,

00:29:06.350 --> 00:29:07.549
I'm not gonna do nothing.

00:29:07.550 --> 00:29:09.893
If it was up to me,
she wouldn't be getting buried.

00:29:19.680 --> 00:29:21.689
(buzzing)

00:29:21.690 --> 00:29:22.690
- I'm at the door.

00:29:31.330 --> 00:29:34.759
- Tuesday she went downtown
and then that was it.

00:29:34.760 --> 00:29:37.359
Just sounded like she was under
the influence of something

00:29:37.360 --> 00:29:38.839
and crying.

00:29:38.840 --> 00:29:39.720
Hello.

00:29:39.721 --> 00:29:41.789
And then she calls me at
midnight, she still doesn't

00:29:41.790 --> 00:29:42.790
know where she is.

00:29:43.770 --> 00:29:46.559
But she's out walking, so I, I don't know,

00:29:46.560 --> 00:29:50.573
you went from doing pretty
good to now you's chaos.

00:29:51.560 --> 00:29:53.659
She's been texting a guy, a older guy,

00:29:53.660 --> 00:29:56.319
he said how old he is, 52,

00:29:56.320 --> 00:29:57.719
so she's transacting her body,

00:29:57.720 --> 00:29:59.919
she's having sex with this man for money.

00:29:59.920 --> 00:30:01.212
- Mmmm.

00:30:01.213 --> 00:30:03.079
- And then she's trying
to recruit other girls

00:30:03.080 --> 00:30:06.569
to get on the internet
with her to work theirself.

00:30:06.570 --> 00:30:08.079
- We can't leave her on the street.

00:30:08.080 --> 00:30:09.359
- No, she has to be in school.

00:30:09.360 --> 00:30:10.639
Right now, she's in limbo.

00:30:10.640 --> 00:30:11.473
- Yeah.

00:30:11.474 --> 00:30:14.139
- That just eats me all up, I'm like how.

00:30:14.140 --> 00:30:15.469
I have my kids under control.

00:30:15.470 --> 00:30:17.553
They was under my mindset.

00:30:17.554 --> 00:30:18.714
- Mmmhmm.

00:30:18.715 --> 00:30:20.289
- Now how you let some
man get in your head?

00:30:20.290 --> 00:30:21.769
I understand, I'm a female.

00:30:21.770 --> 00:30:24.429
I started, once a girl start having
sex, it's hard to stop

00:30:24.430 --> 00:30:25.479
but,

00:30:25.480 --> 00:30:27.589
may my mother rest in peace, I wasn't crazy

00:30:27.590 --> 00:30:29.399
'cause she was a hotter than Mississippi.

00:30:29.400 --> 00:30:31.669
I tried that running away one night,

00:30:31.670 --> 00:30:33.939
uh huh, I paid for it when I got home.

00:30:33.940 --> 00:30:34.773
- Yeah.

00:30:34.774 --> 00:30:37.209
- She said she got closure from the rape,

00:30:37.210 --> 00:30:40.429
but she was all laughing
with him and sit in his lap

00:30:40.430 --> 00:30:41.430
and I'm like,

00:30:42.590 --> 00:30:43.423
I'm like wow.

00:30:43.424 --> 00:30:46.277
- You know, that can happen,
but that don't stop where.

00:30:46.278 --> 00:30:47.819
- I'm not saying it's still
wrong for what he did,

00:30:47.820 --> 00:30:50.039
but I mean the beginning of the cycle,

00:30:50.040 --> 00:30:52.269
you got to realize,
this man is over 20 years older,

00:30:52.270 --> 00:30:53.339
what are you sitting in his lap for?

00:30:53.340 --> 00:30:56.779
- But ask him why he
letting her sit in his lap,

00:30:56.780 --> 00:30:57.613
and she a baby?

00:30:57.614 --> 00:30:59.429
- Well he kinda not right either.

00:30:59.430 --> 00:31:00.445
- Okay.

00:31:00.446 --> 00:31:01.279
- He has a disability, too.

00:31:01.279 --> 00:31:02.112
- He real not right.

00:31:02.113 --> 00:31:04.659
And see you trying to raise a
child, and a predator,

00:31:04.660 --> 00:31:07.899
a trafficker,
a molester trying to take your baby

00:31:07.900 --> 00:31:09.986
away from you, 'cause every time, you know,

00:31:09.987 --> 00:31:12.409
Temeka go out there, she get involved

00:31:12.410 --> 00:31:16.219
with one of those guys,
turn a trick or she do something

00:31:16.220 --> 00:31:18.929
on those streets,
it pull her lower and lower.

00:31:18.930 --> 00:31:21.253
It's like buzzards
picking up at your flesh.

00:31:27.998 --> 00:31:30.581
(somber music)

00:31:57.310 --> 00:31:59.359
- I wasn't selling pussy,

00:31:59.360 --> 00:32:01.219
but I ran away from my group home,

00:32:01.220 --> 00:32:03.739
and the girls I ran away with,

00:32:03.740 --> 00:32:06.909
were associated with pimps and California.

00:32:06.910 --> 00:32:08.849
I've always been like,
okay I gotta do it on my own,

00:32:08.850 --> 00:32:12.569
you know, I gotta feed myself,
well, okay, we got a job

00:32:12.570 --> 00:32:14.670
for you, you're too young to be out there.

00:32:15.880 --> 00:32:18.564
You, go collect the money for me.

00:32:18.565 --> 00:32:19.398
You know what I'm saying?

00:32:19.399 --> 00:32:20.759
That's how they did it
out in the West Coast,

00:32:20.760 --> 00:32:22.679
the hoes would be on the corner

00:32:22.680 --> 00:32:24.999
and instead of the pimps
going to collect their money,

00:32:25.000 --> 00:32:28.069
or taking them off their
post, they would send a child.

00:32:28.070 --> 00:32:28.903
- Yeah.

00:32:28.904 --> 00:32:30.149
- I'm tired,

00:32:30.150 --> 00:32:31.839
I'm tired of laying with all these men

00:32:31.840 --> 00:32:34.189
and I still need help,
trust and believe I still need help,

00:32:34.190 --> 00:32:36.429
'cause I struggle, I struggle.

00:32:36.430 --> 00:32:37.739
I struggle and I always need help.

00:32:37.740 --> 00:32:39.699
And I'm not one to be
like I don't need no help,

00:32:39.700 --> 00:32:41.299
no I need help.

00:32:41.300 --> 00:32:44.479
- What is the one thing
that I could possibly do,

00:32:44.480 --> 00:32:46.589
if I can do anything,

00:32:46.590 --> 00:32:49.019
for either one of you, what would that be?

00:32:49.020 --> 00:32:53.003
- If I had my home,
and I had a car, and I had a job,

00:32:53.907 --> 00:32:56.349
you know what I'm saying,
that kept me occupied?

00:32:56.350 --> 00:32:58.169
I want to be able to
see my daughter to say,

00:32:58.170 --> 00:32:59.809
you know what,

00:32:59.810 --> 00:33:02.103
reach for that,
you can not be what mama was.

00:33:02.104 --> 00:33:03.479
- Right.

00:33:03.480 --> 00:33:05.397
- I will not allow it.

00:33:05.398 --> 00:33:07.139
- I could be talking to you
for two or three years now,

00:33:07.140 --> 00:33:08.469
and you could still be
doing the same thing,

00:33:08.470 --> 00:33:09.589
talking to the same mess,

00:33:09.590 --> 00:33:11.559
I'm a still be Miss
Brenda to you and help you

00:33:11.560 --> 00:33:12.619
wherever I can.

00:33:12.620 --> 00:33:14.299
I have girls like that.

00:33:14.300 --> 00:33:16.179
One girl, it took her actually three years

00:33:16.180 --> 00:33:18.359
and she used to always think
that I finna judge her.

00:33:18.360 --> 00:33:19.193
- Yeah.

00:33:19.194 --> 00:33:21.159
- And I used to just crack
up when she'd be telling me

00:33:21.160 --> 00:33:22.602
stuff and she said Miss
Brenda, you're the only one

00:33:22.603 --> 00:33:24.759
that don't judge me and
I said I can't judge you

00:33:24.760 --> 00:33:26.149
because I'm you.

00:33:26.150 --> 00:33:27.419
And you can always look in my eyes,

00:33:27.420 --> 00:33:30.139
and look in my eyes,
and it's gonna be okay, Marie.

00:33:30.140 --> 00:33:31.153
- And that's where.

00:33:31.154 --> 00:33:31.987
- Look at me.

00:33:31.988 --> 00:33:34.009
- I know, you just touched my
spirit, though.

00:33:34.010 --> 00:33:36.569
I'm a very spiritual person,
you touched my spirit, so.

00:33:36.570 --> 00:33:37.403
- It's gonna be okay.

00:33:37.404 --> 00:33:38.479
- You gave hope, again.

00:33:38.480 --> 00:33:41.549
- And it's not, 90 days, 100.

00:33:41.550 --> 00:33:44.469
- No, it's nothing that changes,
you can't change overnight,

00:33:44.470 --> 00:33:46.529
you can't, it doesn't happen overnight.

00:33:46.530 --> 00:33:47.363
- It doesn't.

00:33:47.363 --> 00:33:48.340
- But it's hard, too.

00:33:48.341 --> 00:33:51.232
- 'Cause you have been here
since you were eight years old,

00:33:51.233 --> 00:33:52.433
I don't expect that.

00:33:53.285 --> 00:33:54.317
I don't expect that.

00:33:54.318 --> 00:33:56.239
I expect you to know that
I'm gonna be here for you

00:33:56.240 --> 00:33:58.629
when you need me, that's what I expect.

00:33:58.630 --> 00:34:00.180
You understand what I'm saying?

00:34:01.230 --> 00:34:03.104
- I'm also, too, I'm five months pregnant.

00:34:03.105 --> 00:34:05.243
- Baby, I'm telling you.

00:34:07.002 --> 00:34:09.359
- You all really don't know.

00:34:09.360 --> 00:34:12.050
- You give hope,
and that's what we need out here.

00:34:13.021 --> 00:34:14.371
That's what I needed again.

00:34:16.655 --> 00:34:17.823
Thank you.

00:34:17.824 --> 00:34:18.824
- Mmhmm.

00:34:22.107 --> 00:34:24.288
- [P.A. Voiceover] All students that have

00:34:24.289 --> 00:34:25.700
perfect attendance from the first day

00:34:25.701 --> 00:34:28.320
of school up until the end of
September that this will be

00:34:28.321 --> 00:34:31.302
posted outside of the
attendance office as well

00:34:31.303 --> 00:34:32.401
in the cafeteria.

00:34:32.402 --> 00:34:34.626
Those students that are listed on the

00:34:34.627 --> 00:34:39.109
perfect attendance list will
be invited to a small lunch

00:34:39.110 --> 00:34:41.196
and as well as being invited to

00:34:41.197 --> 00:34:43.614
a perfect attendance meeting.

00:34:44.726 --> 00:34:47.116
We appreciate your attendance, so again,

00:34:47.117 --> 00:34:50.000
congratulations to those
students and we will be looking

00:34:50.001 --> 00:34:53.080
forward to a luncheon with you shortly

00:34:53.081 --> 00:34:55.169
so be looking out for that invitation.

00:34:55.170 --> 00:34:58.096
- Hey, my love,
I may not be there when you want me,

00:34:58.097 --> 00:34:59.941
but I'm always on time.

00:34:59.942 --> 00:35:02.192
(laughing)

00:35:03.750 --> 00:35:06.893
You got to realize,
I do several things in life.

00:35:09.430 --> 00:35:12.249
The person that I have here
today was a part of my life

00:35:12.250 --> 00:35:14.629
when I was in the streets, in fact,

00:35:14.630 --> 00:35:17.319
my pimp and him were best friends.

00:35:17.320 --> 00:35:18.959
I saw him

00:35:18.960 --> 00:35:20.793
turn his life completely around.

00:35:23.860 --> 00:35:26.959
And as awful as he used to be,

00:35:26.960 --> 00:35:28.559
he is as

00:35:28.560 --> 00:35:29.863
good a person today.

00:35:34.240 --> 00:35:35.749
- Good evening young ladies

00:35:35.750 --> 00:35:36.993
and ladies.

00:35:39.100 --> 00:35:42.899
My nickname was Fancy when
I was in the lifestyle.

00:35:42.900 --> 00:35:44.850
I started out with the three card molly

00:35:45.870 --> 00:35:48.563
and it escalated into
the nightlife with women.

00:35:50.020 --> 00:35:52.269
I'm crushed just some of you
young ladies can identify

00:35:52.270 --> 00:35:54.359
with it now, you can understand that

00:35:54.360 --> 00:35:57.543
child molestation doesn't
start just with females.

00:35:58.470 --> 00:36:02.939
At the age of 9 years old,
I was molested by my aunty

00:36:02.940 --> 00:36:06.019
and we became lovers for many years,

00:36:06.020 --> 00:36:08.509
so what that did was it
gave me a distorted sense

00:36:08.510 --> 00:36:10.339
of what love was,

00:36:10.340 --> 00:36:12.582
so I found it in the streets.

00:36:12.583 --> 00:36:15.809
At the age of 17 years old,
I was finally introduced

00:36:15.810 --> 00:36:17.599
to my first prostitute,

00:36:17.600 --> 00:36:19.930
she introduced me to the game, and

00:36:21.350 --> 00:36:23.219
from there it took off.

00:36:23.220 --> 00:36:26.529
But the molestation, it really gave me

00:36:26.530 --> 00:36:30.199
a very distorted view, very distorted.

00:36:30.200 --> 00:36:34.369
I also come from a dysfunctional family.

00:36:34.370 --> 00:36:38.889
I used to watch my dad beat
my mom up for many years

00:36:38.890 --> 00:36:40.609
as a little kid, so,

00:36:40.610 --> 00:36:44.609
I wasn't confused by him beating her up,

00:36:44.610 --> 00:36:47.593
what confused me was that she stayed.

00:36:48.900 --> 00:36:52.489
So that gave this little boy the idea that,

00:36:52.490 --> 00:36:57.419
okay, if I beat up my
girlfriend, it's okay, you know.

00:36:57.420 --> 00:36:59.829
- When did you, like, realize that you

00:36:59.830 --> 00:37:01.569
didn't wanna do it no more?

00:37:01.570 --> 00:37:03.899
Like what made you say I'm done with this?

00:37:03.900 --> 00:37:07.999
- Okay, one of my greatest
fears as being a pimp

00:37:08.000 --> 00:37:11.709
was one day receiving a phone
call from the police station

00:37:11.710 --> 00:37:14.889
or the morgue telling me
to come down to identify

00:37:14.890 --> 00:37:18.059
one of my ladies from
being killed by a trick.

00:37:18.060 --> 00:37:19.551
Y'all know what a trick is, right?

00:37:19.552 --> 00:37:22.069
- [Girl] Yeah, it's the guys
ladies get in the cars with.

00:37:22.070 --> 00:37:24.201
- Hey, you know too much.

00:37:24.202 --> 00:37:25.719
(laughing)

00:37:25.720 --> 00:37:26.720
Yeah, okay.

00:37:28.959 --> 00:37:30.156
- When you was pimping and,

00:37:30.157 --> 00:37:32.599
did you ever get close to your women or

00:37:32.600 --> 00:37:35.729
have you ever been in,
more like in a relationship

00:37:35.730 --> 00:37:36.929
with one of 'em?

00:37:36.930 --> 00:37:38.230
- They were all important.

00:37:40.360 --> 00:37:43.432
Either get my money or
suffer the consequences.

00:37:43.433 --> 00:37:44.266
- Wow, okay.

00:37:44.267 --> 00:37:46.702
- [Brenda] What kinds of consequences?

00:37:46.703 --> 00:37:48.239
- It could get physical, I mean,

00:37:48.240 --> 00:37:50.589
from coat hangers to

00:37:50.590 --> 00:37:52.359
broomsticks.

00:37:52.360 --> 00:37:54.883
Once you in,
you can't tell me when you leaving.

00:37:55.940 --> 00:37:57.819
You leave when I say you can leave.

00:37:57.820 --> 00:37:59.287
- [Girls] Oh, wow.

00:37:59.288 --> 00:38:01.320
Whoa, okay then.

00:38:02.907 --> 00:38:04.113
- You better listen.

00:38:05.020 --> 00:38:06.779
You better listen.

00:38:06.780 --> 00:38:09.453
'Cause most abusers start out real sweet.

00:38:10.350 --> 00:38:13.799
It's only later on that you
find out that he's an abuser,

00:38:13.800 --> 00:38:17.559
and once he start it's
almost impossible to stop.

00:38:17.560 --> 00:38:18.393
- Homer's women would be in the back seat,

00:38:18.394 --> 00:38:20.559
I would be in the back seat.

00:38:20.560 --> 00:38:22.229
The pimps would be in the front seat.

00:38:22.230 --> 00:38:25.469
We would get slapped just for looking,

00:38:25.470 --> 00:38:27.369
it was so much

00:38:27.370 --> 00:38:28.819
control

00:38:28.820 --> 00:38:32.869
and so hardcore,
but it was the life that, you know,

00:38:32.870 --> 00:38:34.069
we were living and went through

00:38:34.070 --> 00:38:36.189
and we thought that was cool.

00:38:36.190 --> 00:38:37.316
- That's right.

00:38:37.317 --> 00:38:41.549
- And then they beat you,
you know, but emotionally

00:38:41.550 --> 00:38:43.120
they mess

00:38:43.121 --> 00:38:44.239
you

00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:45.240
up.

00:38:47.100 --> 00:38:49.629
Because I used to have extension cord marks

00:38:49.630 --> 00:38:53.619
all over my body but they weren't as bad

00:38:53.620 --> 00:38:55.765
as what they said to me.

00:38:55.766 --> 00:38:57.429
- [Homer] The emotional scars.

00:38:57.430 --> 00:38:59.130
- That I couldn't come from under.

00:39:00.040 --> 00:39:02.323
Everyday it's a brainwash.

00:39:03.290 --> 00:39:05.533
- Do you, like, regret at all now?

00:39:09.190 --> 00:39:12.249
- I regret some of the
decisions I may have made.

00:39:12.250 --> 00:39:13.623
Do I regret my life,

00:39:14.590 --> 00:39:15.570
no?

00:39:15.571 --> 00:39:17.943
I had a daughter, her name was China Doll,

00:39:18.790 --> 00:39:20.140
I pimped on her mother

00:39:21.940 --> 00:39:24.409
from the day she was conceived

00:39:24.410 --> 00:39:26.283
all the way up to her ninth month.

00:39:27.600 --> 00:39:29.929
She's on the strip, on the hoe stroll,

00:39:29.930 --> 00:39:31.749
that's what it's called,

00:39:31.750 --> 00:39:32.750
this big,

00:39:33.780 --> 00:39:35.539
in the winter time,

00:39:35.540 --> 00:39:37.079
with a short jacket on.

00:39:37.080 --> 00:39:39.989
The more flesh you see,
the better it's, anyway,

00:39:39.990 --> 00:39:42.723
my daughter was born
with bronchial pneumonia.

00:39:44.040 --> 00:39:46.609
She couldn't breathe,
she had a breathing disorder

00:39:46.610 --> 00:39:49.409
because of her mother being in the streets

00:39:49.410 --> 00:39:52.209
throughout the whole
pregnancy and my daughter died

00:39:52.210 --> 00:39:54.109
nine months later after she was born,

00:39:54.110 --> 00:39:55.310
because of this disease.

00:39:56.990 --> 00:39:58.233
And the lifestyle.

00:39:59.740 --> 00:40:02.823
(somber piano music)

00:40:19.130 --> 00:40:21.599
Being a little boy was very frightening,

00:40:21.600 --> 00:40:23.563
so I found my own means of escape.

00:40:25.132 --> 00:40:28.446
And I guess that's probably
what helped spawn the,

00:40:28.447 --> 00:40:30.633
the alter ego along the way.

00:40:31.800 --> 00:40:34.573
Getting outside of me,
I didn't have to deal with me.

00:40:35.810 --> 00:40:38.223
I, you know,
I let my alter ego deal with that.

00:40:40.290 --> 00:40:42.409
Lot of damaged goods.

00:40:42.410 --> 00:40:43.979
- [Interviewer] And who was the alter ego?

00:40:43.980 --> 00:40:44.980
- Fancy.

00:40:47.750 --> 00:40:49.583
- [Interviewer] And what was he like?

00:40:52.210 --> 00:40:54.363
- He's the total opposite of Homer.

00:40:55.730 --> 00:40:57.243
He wasn't loving and caring.

00:41:01.110 --> 00:41:02.483
Driven by greed.

00:41:05.380 --> 00:41:07.230
Eventually turned into a drug addict.

00:41:10.103 --> 00:41:11.719
- [Interviewer] Do you
have any idea why your dad

00:41:11.720 --> 00:41:13.363
was so angry, do you know why?

00:41:14.510 --> 00:41:15.583
- No, I don't.

00:41:17.315 --> 00:41:21.519
No, I really don't, never really asked him.

00:41:21.520 --> 00:41:25.449
I got a chance to meet my
grandparents, they're pretty

00:41:25.450 --> 00:41:28.049
angry people themselves, so,

00:41:28.050 --> 00:41:30.549
he became a product of what they were.

00:41:30.550 --> 00:41:33.579
And by them living in a
rural area in the country

00:41:33.580 --> 00:41:36.509
of Mississippi he didn't have
the opportunities to do the

00:41:36.510 --> 00:41:39.119
things that the big city offered me,

00:41:39.120 --> 00:41:41.749
or he probably would have
went the same route I did,

00:41:41.750 --> 00:41:42.750
or worse.

00:41:45.130 --> 00:41:46.819
To say when the violence would occur,

00:41:46.820 --> 00:41:50.359
it occurred when it
occurred, at any given moment

00:41:50.360 --> 00:41:51.523
the house could go up.

00:41:52.697 --> 00:41:55.509
And then it would hurt not
leaving, it only solidified

00:41:55.510 --> 00:41:57.793
that okay, this might be the way it works.

00:41:58.930 --> 00:42:02.159
My whole idea was the sooner
I can get out of here,

00:42:02.160 --> 00:42:06.229
the better and when I say outta
here, I mean this exact home

00:42:06.230 --> 00:42:08.379
where we're at right
now, I wanted outta here.

00:42:08.380 --> 00:42:09.963
It was not beautiful to me.

00:42:10.890 --> 00:42:13.669
All I knew was I wanted to escape.

00:42:13.670 --> 00:42:16.149
I didn't wake up one day
saying I wanted to be a pimp,

00:42:16.150 --> 00:42:18.503
that's, that's not what happened.

00:42:20.600 --> 00:42:23.709
I never was one for guns and

00:42:23.710 --> 00:42:27.883
things like that,
but of course I became a criminal,

00:42:29.530 --> 00:42:32.779
short con player and pimping,
that's 'cause most of my life,

00:42:32.780 --> 00:42:35.559
that's where I spent my
life, in the pimp game.

00:42:35.560 --> 00:42:37.089
But in the beginning,
you have to understand,

00:42:37.090 --> 00:42:40.139
I had no, not a clue, not an idea that

00:42:40.140 --> 00:42:41.529
I would cause this much pain.

00:42:41.530 --> 00:42:43.830
I thought it was gonna
be something real cool.

00:42:45.860 --> 00:42:49.423
And time went on, it became
business, serious business.

00:42:51.210 --> 00:42:54.559
Fortunately, I've never been to prison.
I don't really even

00:42:54.560 --> 00:42:57.883
have a jail record,
and that's probably why I chose it,

00:42:58.800 --> 00:43:02.879
but then some people
are, could adapt to jail.

00:43:02.880 --> 00:43:05.029
I don't like a lot of confinement.

00:43:05.030 --> 00:43:07.179
I don't like someone telling
me when I have to get up,

00:43:07.180 --> 00:43:08.793
let out, eat, no.

00:43:09.830 --> 00:43:12.469
And because I had a way

00:43:12.470 --> 00:43:15.840
with the women I can't
quite explain what it was,

00:43:15.841 --> 00:43:18.719
I'm not the most handsomest
guy in the world,

00:43:18.720 --> 00:43:21.973
but I was always able to connect,

00:43:23.260 --> 00:43:27.363
listen and talk, because I was vulnerable.

00:43:28.870 --> 00:43:29.870
Very.

00:43:31.940 --> 00:43:33.413
Now him, on the other hand,

00:43:34.900 --> 00:43:38.010
I don't, I'm not sure
if he really understand

00:43:39.650 --> 00:43:42.923
how much damage he actually
caused through his violence.

00:43:45.600 --> 00:43:46.800
- Pimping ain't no life.

00:43:48.760 --> 00:43:50.549
No life in that.

00:43:50.550 --> 00:43:53.323
It's like the streets, there's no end.

00:43:56.780 --> 00:43:59.539
- I remember one day me and my
father having a conversation,

00:43:59.540 --> 00:44:01.329
I said Pops, let me ask you something.

00:44:01.330 --> 00:44:04.279
How do you really feel about me, what I do?

00:44:04.280 --> 00:44:06.299
And I didn't stop at the time

00:44:06.300 --> 00:44:08.459
but it did have an impact on my life.

00:44:08.460 --> 00:44:10.929
I asked him how did he feel,
'cause I thought, you know,

00:44:10.930 --> 00:44:13.429
what is supposed to,
being men, this would be the

00:44:13.430 --> 00:44:14.729
coolest thing in the world, you know?

00:44:14.730 --> 00:44:17.469
I got more than one woman,
I can do what I want,

00:44:17.470 --> 00:44:20.819
but his answer was totally
opposite of what I expected.

00:44:20.820 --> 00:44:23.270
He told me, he said son,
how do you think I feel?

00:44:26.340 --> 00:44:29.218
- [Interviewer] What about you, Marcelle?

00:44:29.219 --> 00:44:31.802
How do you feel about your son?

00:44:33.292 --> 00:44:35.203
- I feel better about him, yeah.

00:44:37.200 --> 00:44:38.509
I would feel much better if he would

00:44:38.510 --> 00:44:40.133
really give his self to God.

00:44:43.500 --> 00:44:45.200
Man, that would really be amazing.

00:44:56.956 --> 00:44:59.623
(phone ringing)

00:45:01.540 --> 00:45:02.373
- Hello?

00:45:02.374 --> 00:45:03.690
Is Temeka, is she coming out?

00:45:04.600 --> 00:45:06.823
Tell her bring her slow self on.

00:45:08.370 --> 00:45:10.870
(dog barking)

00:45:14.632 --> 00:45:16.882
You so old, you a old lady.

00:45:20.612 --> 00:45:23.452
- I ain't about to go
back and forth for her.

00:45:23.453 --> 00:45:25.082
I think if I would never have your number,

00:45:25.083 --> 00:45:28.329
I think I would still be
on the streets right now.

00:45:28.330 --> 00:45:32.119
I know, like, I couldn't say I
think, I know I would.

00:45:32.120 --> 00:45:34.759
- We were talking about
your mom being very verbally

00:45:34.760 --> 00:45:37.329
abusive to you, did that slacken up?

00:45:37.330 --> 00:45:40.389
- Her only thing is abuse,
like a whooping, like,

00:45:40.390 --> 00:45:42.809
that's what her first conclusion come to.

00:45:42.810 --> 00:45:45.239
No, that's not all it's about.

00:45:45.240 --> 00:45:47.089
I didn't learn from no whooping.

00:45:47.090 --> 00:45:49.949
Like a whooping make
me want to do it again.

00:45:49.950 --> 00:45:52.219
Like, for real, think with a child's mind.

00:45:52.220 --> 00:45:54.414
You whoop Papi, he gonna do it right again.

00:45:54.415 --> 00:45:57.079
He just gonna go back and do
it, you gotta talk,

00:45:57.080 --> 00:45:58.949
like it's not about whooping.

00:45:58.950 --> 00:46:01.339
'Cause I feel like any time my mama hit me,

00:46:01.340 --> 00:46:03.422
I'm a feel I was abused
'cause all this gonna go back

00:46:03.423 --> 00:46:04.543
into the past.

00:46:06.630 --> 00:46:07.463
- Okay.

00:46:07.464 --> 00:46:09.294
All this gonna go back to when

00:46:09.295 --> 00:46:10.629
I had to get stitches right here.

00:46:10.630 --> 00:46:13.989
Like I have a mark because of my
mom, like she don't realize

00:46:13.990 --> 00:46:16.629
that so every time she hit
me, I think about that.

00:46:16.630 --> 00:46:18.942
I don't try to,
but that's all I think about.

00:46:18.943 --> 00:46:20.459
- What happened with that?

00:46:20.460 --> 00:46:23.869
- She hit me with a brush
and I had to get stitches.

00:46:23.870 --> 00:46:25.707
My head opened.

00:46:26.890 --> 00:46:29.609
Saturday and Friday,
I was just thinking about everything

00:46:29.610 --> 00:46:31.056
in my past.

00:46:31.057 --> 00:46:32.099
- And you was thinking about going back?

00:46:32.100 --> 00:46:32.933
- Yeah.

00:46:32.933 --> 00:46:33.880
- To prostitution?

00:46:33.881 --> 00:46:34.919
- Yeah.

00:46:34.920 --> 00:46:35.920
- To

00:46:36.640 --> 00:46:38.924
your old lifestyle,
maybe your old people, right?

00:46:38.925 --> 00:46:40.246
- Yeah.

00:46:40.247 --> 00:46:41.859
- It's not gonna make it better.

00:46:41.860 --> 00:46:43.014
It's not gonna make it better.

00:46:43.015 --> 00:46:47.199
It's gonna make it worse,
you know what I'm saying?

00:46:47.200 --> 00:46:49.649
Any time you go back, it always gets worse.

00:46:49.650 --> 00:46:52.722
Don't go back, let's go forward, okay?

00:46:52.723 --> 00:46:56.056
When you feel like that, give me a call.

00:47:15.610 --> 00:47:17.109
Hello?

00:47:17.110 --> 00:47:19.046
Hi, Temeka.

00:47:19.047 --> 00:47:20.848
- [Temeka] Can you hold on
for one minute, hold on,

00:47:20.849 --> 00:47:22.461
one second, one second.

00:47:22.462 --> 00:47:24.065
- You're, Temeka, Temeka.

00:47:24.066 --> 00:47:24.899
- [Temeka] Yeah?

00:47:24.900 --> 00:47:26.099
- Your mother keeps putting you out,

00:47:26.100 --> 00:47:28.219
what are you gonna do about that?

00:47:28.220 --> 00:47:30.823
I've called a lot of places for you,

00:47:32.360 --> 00:47:35.199
that I thought, would be,
you know, workable for you.

00:47:35.200 --> 00:47:38.009
- [Temeka] I'm pregnant,
and I can't go there.

00:47:38.010 --> 00:47:39.433
- Oh my, you pregnant?

00:47:40.450 --> 00:47:41.450
- [Temeka] Yeah.

00:47:42.470 --> 00:47:43.470
- Okay.

00:47:45.900 --> 00:47:48.029
So you had, you had unprotected sex

00:47:48.030 --> 00:47:49.380
with your boyfriend, right?

00:47:50.480 --> 00:47:51.480
- [Temeka] Yes.

00:47:52.330 --> 00:47:54.343
- And you know you're pregnant, right?

00:47:55.190 --> 00:47:56.689
- [Temeka] Yeah, I know for sure.

00:47:56.690 --> 00:47:58.983
I had a test yesterday.

00:48:05.190 --> 00:48:08.190
- Well that just opens up a
whole new can of worms, sweetie.

00:48:10.190 --> 00:48:14.596
- [Temeka] I gotta go for a
doctor's appointment on Friday.

00:48:14.597 --> 00:48:17.097
(baby crying)

00:48:21.280 --> 00:48:22.709
- She probably did this on purpose,

00:48:22.710 --> 00:48:24.219
she wanted to get pregnant.

00:48:24.220 --> 00:48:26.969
But what she doesn't want to
do, is she doesn't want

00:48:26.970 --> 00:48:29.329
anyone to know who this
guy is because he's grown.

00:48:29.330 --> 00:48:33.279
He's much older than her
and she's only 15 years old

00:48:33.280 --> 00:48:36.029
and he's already convinced
her not to tell anybody

00:48:36.030 --> 00:48:38.099
'cause he knows he'll get in trouble.

00:48:38.100 --> 00:48:41.229
He knows this, so,
that's just the way it is.

00:48:41.230 --> 00:48:43.006
It's unfortunate that life is like that

00:48:43.007 --> 00:48:45.569
and there are men out
there who don't care about

00:48:45.570 --> 00:48:47.919
getting 15 year old girls pregnant.

00:48:47.920 --> 00:48:50.889
You know, no matter how
much they see them hurting,

00:48:50.890 --> 00:48:53.190
'cause anyone can tell
that this girl is hurt.

00:48:54.380 --> 00:48:56.689
But I knew that if Temeka
didn't get any love,

00:48:56.690 --> 00:48:58.929
she was gonna create some
love, and she has.

00:48:58.930 --> 00:49:03.449
She's created her own love,
so, that's just what girls do.

00:49:03.450 --> 00:49:04.759
I did it.

00:49:04.760 --> 00:49:08.163
So I know what it means,
so, there you have it.

00:49:20.815 --> 00:49:21.690
- [Coach] Alright, let's go guys.

00:49:21.691 --> 00:49:22.937
Right now, let's go.

00:49:26.969 --> 00:49:29.600
Get that back, get the ball.

00:49:29.601 --> 00:49:30.839
- [Brenda] Get the ball!

00:49:30.840 --> 00:49:31.722
Get that ball!

00:49:31.723 --> 00:49:34.559
Get that ball, where you
going, get that ball!

00:49:34.560 --> 00:49:36.479
- [Referee] No ball, right.

00:49:36.480 --> 00:49:38.341
- Watch the ball, get the ball.

00:49:38.342 --> 00:49:39.544
- Go boy!

00:49:39.545 --> 00:49:41.366
- Get the ball, get the ball.

00:49:41.367 --> 00:49:42.950
Yeah, there you go.

00:49:44.139 --> 00:49:45.425
Watch the ball!

00:49:45.426 --> 00:49:47.291
- [Brenda] Get the ball!

00:49:47.292 --> 00:49:49.542
(cheering)

00:49:51.324 --> 00:49:53.056
(whistle blowing)

00:49:53.057 --> 00:49:54.140
Good job, 32.

00:49:55.037 --> 00:49:57.755
- Good job, watching the ball.

00:49:57.756 --> 00:50:00.180
(cheering)

00:50:00.181 --> 00:50:02.636
(applause)

00:50:02.637 --> 00:50:03.733
- Touchdown!

00:50:03.734 --> 00:50:04.734
Yeah!

00:50:05.448 --> 00:50:06.479
Yeah!

00:50:06.480 --> 00:50:07.559
Yeah!

00:50:07.560 --> 00:50:08.560
What that do?

00:50:09.607 --> 00:50:11.164
What's our name?

00:50:11.165 --> 00:50:14.236
(cheering)

00:50:14.237 --> 00:50:16.070
What's your name, huh?

00:50:20.140 --> 00:50:23.329
- [Announcer] This will be
the eighth play of this drive,

00:50:23.330 --> 00:50:25.235
and he takes it away.

00:50:25.236 --> 00:50:26.236
- Again!

00:50:27.868 --> 00:50:29.012
I can't allow this.

00:50:29.013 --> 00:50:29.846
- You can't run.

00:50:29.847 --> 00:50:31.832
- I can't, I can't allow this.

00:50:31.833 --> 00:50:33.166
This is another Hail Mary.

00:50:33.167 --> 00:50:34.000
- [Announcer] The offense heads to the line

00:50:34.001 --> 00:50:36.599
for the seventh play of the drive.

00:50:36.600 --> 00:50:38.387
Looking to the right side to throw.

00:50:38.388 --> 00:50:39.540
- Oh!

00:50:39.541 --> 00:50:40.669
Oh!

00:50:40.670 --> 00:50:43.059
- [Announcer] That's a touchdown.

00:50:43.060 --> 00:50:45.019
Boy, that is something to watch,

00:50:45.020 --> 00:50:49.659
a Hail Mary pass, he goes for a touchdown.

00:50:49.660 --> 00:50:51.260
- Hey, who was your first mommy?

00:50:52.318 --> 00:50:53.400
- Melody.

00:50:53.401 --> 00:50:54.401
- Mmhmm.

00:50:55.100 --> 00:50:56.941
Who took care of you?

00:50:56.942 --> 00:50:58.169
- You.

00:50:58.170 --> 00:50:59.429
- Right.

00:50:59.430 --> 00:51:01.533
So you got two mommies, right?

00:51:03.590 --> 00:51:04.629
Which mommy you like the best,

00:51:04.630 --> 00:51:05.834
nah I'm just kidding.

00:51:05.835 --> 00:51:06.668
(laughing)

00:51:06.668 --> 00:51:07.668
- You.

00:51:08.580 --> 00:51:10.619
Since I got a game here, so

00:51:10.620 --> 00:51:11.731
it gotta be you.

00:51:11.732 --> 00:51:14.399
(laughing)

00:51:14.400 --> 00:51:15.233
I'm serious.

00:51:15.233 --> 00:51:16.233
- Since I got a game.

00:51:19.033 --> 00:51:21.119
When Jeremy first got with us,

00:51:21.120 --> 00:51:24.509
he just was in a trance until

00:51:24.510 --> 00:51:27.209
the guy who transport
the children drives up

00:51:27.210 --> 00:51:29.419
in front of the door.

00:51:29.420 --> 00:51:33.169
Jeremy ran and hid in the closet, right?

00:51:33.170 --> 00:51:35.199
I didn't know the kid,
I didn't know much, you know,

00:51:35.200 --> 00:51:37.689
I hadn't had a lot of
experience with Jeremy,

00:51:37.690 --> 00:51:40.609
so I'm looking for Jeremy and
he's in the closet, crying.

00:51:40.610 --> 00:51:43.239
And I said what's wrong, what's wrong?

00:51:43.240 --> 00:51:46.043
And he kept pointing at the man, the man,

00:51:47.140 --> 00:51:50.199
the man had transported him from

00:51:50.200 --> 00:51:52.559
placement to placement
and he thought the man

00:51:52.560 --> 00:51:54.609
came there to take him away again.

00:51:54.610 --> 00:51:57.929
And I remember grabbing
that kid and saying to him,

00:51:57.930 --> 00:52:00.849
no, no, no,
nobody's gonna take you anywhere.

00:52:00.850 --> 00:52:03.949
You will never leave again, you don't ever,

00:52:03.950 --> 00:52:07.229
you will, no one will ever
take you again, anywhere.

00:52:07.230 --> 00:52:09.083
And that's when I made my decision,

00:52:10.290 --> 00:52:11.711
that he was mine.

00:52:11.712 --> 00:52:14.295
(somber music)

00:52:33.420 --> 00:52:34.587
It ain't easy.

00:52:35.630 --> 00:52:39.082
You've had a lot of stuff
happen to you in your life.

00:52:39.083 --> 00:52:39.916
- I have.

00:52:39.917 --> 00:52:42.569
- Look, hey, I know, you've told me.

00:52:42.570 --> 00:52:44.899
You said you used to get beat for anything.

00:52:44.900 --> 00:52:45.733
- Yeah.

00:52:45.734 --> 00:52:47.650
- You know, and that you could not stand

00:52:48.510 --> 00:52:50.169
nobody to get no whooping,
you couldn't even stand

00:52:50.170 --> 00:52:51.003
to say you can't do it.

00:52:51.004 --> 00:52:52.239
- Right, I couldn't.

00:52:52.240 --> 00:52:54.572
That's why I don't like
my kids to get whooped.

00:52:54.573 --> 00:52:57.823
- And that's a beautiful thing,
you know what I'm saying?

00:52:59.650 --> 00:53:00.483
- Yep, that's true.

00:53:00.484 --> 00:53:02.880
- But you told me,
you said I got beat all the time,

00:53:03.770 --> 00:53:05.214
you know what I'm saying?

00:53:05.215 --> 00:53:07.329
And you let me know that
somebody tried to beat

00:53:07.330 --> 00:53:08.889
all the beauty out of you.

00:53:08.890 --> 00:53:10.513
Beat all the life out of you,

00:53:10.514 --> 00:53:12.749
because you got something in you.

00:53:12.750 --> 00:53:14.000
You know what I'm saying?

00:53:16.190 --> 00:53:18.090
- My father was a policeman growing up

00:53:18.980 --> 00:53:20.529
and basically

00:53:20.530 --> 00:53:22.563
we had a good life except for,

00:53:25.297 --> 00:53:26.909
you know, like he said
when he was going through

00:53:26.910 --> 00:53:29.398
whatever he was going through at the time,

00:53:29.399 --> 00:53:31.078
but basically it was okay.

00:53:31.079 --> 00:53:32.384
- He would beat you all?

00:53:32.385 --> 00:53:33.218
- Yeah.

00:53:33.219 --> 00:53:34.229
- Would he beat your mother?

00:53:34.230 --> 00:53:35.526
- Yeah, yeah, he used to fight my mother.

00:53:35.527 --> 00:53:36.362
- So you saw that? - Yeah, he did.

00:53:36.363 --> 00:53:40.689
One day I went in,
tried to help her out, I was,

00:53:40.690 --> 00:53:42.340
I think I was like 15.

00:53:43.277 --> 00:53:46.739
I ran and I heard them
hollering, and I ran in the room.

00:53:46.740 --> 00:53:50.049
I said leave my mother
alone and he picked me up

00:53:50.050 --> 00:53:52.469
and threw me over the television set.

00:53:52.470 --> 00:53:56.909
That was rough, but I'd rather him,

00:53:56.910 --> 00:53:59.188
at least that stopped him
from doing that to her,

00:53:59.189 --> 00:54:00.819
and then got him off of her and on to me.

00:54:00.820 --> 00:54:04.803
But that was all he did,
and then he left out the door.

00:54:05.640 --> 00:54:06.640
And then.

00:54:07.810 --> 00:54:09.359
- You said that was all he did?

00:54:09.360 --> 00:54:10.747
But wasn't that enough?

00:54:10.748 --> 00:54:11.680
- Yeah.

00:54:11.681 --> 00:54:14.039
- See we, sometimes I
hear, I hear you talking,

00:54:14.040 --> 00:54:16.519
but that's all he did, that was enough.

00:54:16.520 --> 00:54:19.799
We make excuses for people
who do things to us,

00:54:19.800 --> 00:54:21.159
because we love them.

00:54:21.160 --> 00:54:25.862
When we love somebody,
we make excuses for what they do.

00:54:25.863 --> 00:54:26.696
You know what I'm saying?

00:54:26.697 --> 00:54:28.663
You make excuses for my brother.

00:54:29.850 --> 00:54:30.736
Right?

00:54:30.737 --> 00:54:31.737
- Mmhmm.

00:54:31.738 --> 00:54:32.938
- And there's no excuse.

00:54:34.210 --> 00:54:35.251
You understand what I'm saying?

00:54:35.252 --> 00:54:36.252
- Mmhmm.

00:54:37.200 --> 00:54:40.200
- I feel you, I know, it's not easy.

00:54:41.230 --> 00:54:43.497
- I had it rough, I had it pretty rough.

00:54:43.498 --> 00:54:44.639
- You know?

00:54:44.640 --> 00:54:47.472
- Yup, I left home when I was 17.

00:54:47.473 --> 00:54:52.319
Been on my own ever since,
but I stayed in school.

00:54:52.320 --> 00:54:57.320
I did do that,
I stayed in school no matter what, yup.

00:55:01.680 --> 00:55:03.902
- [Guard] Come on, you guys, let's go.

00:55:03.903 --> 00:55:07.072
- I appreciate life,
I'm so glad that I'm alive.

00:55:07.073 --> 00:55:09.379
So I look classy when I'm looking at me,

00:55:09.380 --> 00:55:11.263
when I'm walking past the mirror.

00:55:12.570 --> 00:55:13.403
- This is a band.

00:55:13.404 --> 00:55:14.819
- I need y'all to come with me.

00:55:14.820 --> 00:55:16.911
So I like what I see
when I'm looking at me,

00:55:16.912 --> 00:55:18.562
when I'm walking past the mirror.

00:55:19.430 --> 00:55:21.399
Yeah, hey.

00:55:21.400 --> 00:55:23.743
Y'all don't understand how
to get the party popping.

00:55:23.744 --> 00:55:25.879
(laughing)

00:55:25.880 --> 00:55:27.930
This is my daughter, Doctor Ruth Vassell.

00:55:28.880 --> 00:55:30.699
And she'll tell you more about herself,

00:55:30.700 --> 00:55:32.703
she's a psychologist for adolescents.

00:55:34.350 --> 00:55:35.183
- What I'm here to do today,

00:55:35.184 --> 00:55:36.289
is I just wanna talk to you all.

00:55:36.290 --> 00:55:38.419
Whatever you wanna talk
about, whatever questions

00:55:38.420 --> 00:55:41.469
you all have about the
discussion that you had

00:55:41.470 --> 00:55:44.609
with my mother a few weeks ago, just about

00:55:44.610 --> 00:55:47.239
molestation and sexual abuse.

00:55:47.240 --> 00:55:50.649
And then my mama also told me
you all had questions for me

00:55:50.650 --> 00:55:53.649
in regards to just, I guess, you know,

00:55:53.650 --> 00:55:56.129
having her as my mom and so,

00:55:56.130 --> 00:55:56.963
(laughing)

00:55:56.964 --> 00:55:58.069
what, you know,
she said you guys had questions

00:55:58.070 --> 00:55:59.779
that you might have wanted to ask me

00:55:59.780 --> 00:56:01.749
about how that was or some experience that

00:56:01.750 --> 00:56:05.159
me and my sister may have
gone through growing up.

00:56:05.160 --> 00:56:06.689
So I'll open for the first few questions

00:56:06.690 --> 00:56:07.550
and I'll tell you a little more.

00:56:07.550 --> 00:56:08.383
Yes?

00:56:08.384 --> 00:56:10.629
- How did you feel when

00:56:10.630 --> 00:56:13.269
she told you she was a prostitute?

00:56:13.270 --> 00:56:15.439
- We always knew that, actually.

00:56:15.440 --> 00:56:18.409
There was a lot of different
traumas that happened to us,

00:56:18.410 --> 00:56:19.689
you know, we were,

00:56:19.690 --> 00:56:21.529
my grandmother, well my
mother, you know she was

00:56:21.530 --> 00:56:23.809
of course out on the street
and so my grandmother died

00:56:23.810 --> 00:56:26.239
when I was like four,
so at that point we were just

00:56:26.240 --> 00:56:29.499
kind of put with everybody,
we a lot of strings of

00:56:29.500 --> 00:56:31.869
people that we lived
with, like babysitters,

00:56:31.870 --> 00:56:35.709
my grandfather and you
know, just left with a few

00:56:35.710 --> 00:56:38.149
different people in our lives
and of course, you know,

00:56:38.150 --> 00:56:41.859
through that process I was
sexually abused a couple times

00:56:41.860 --> 00:56:44.109
through that process of,
you know, being with different

00:56:44.110 --> 00:56:46.639
family members who took
advantage of that situation.

00:56:46.640 --> 00:56:48.819
And there were nights that
we didn't have any food,

00:56:48.820 --> 00:56:51.309
barely had any clothes, you
know, infested with like, rats

00:56:51.310 --> 00:56:52.489
and roaches and different things like that.

00:56:52.490 --> 00:56:54.299
So we went through a lot of different,

00:56:54.300 --> 00:56:58.899
our own little different traumas as a
kid, waiting for her.

00:56:58.900 --> 00:57:00.589
- How, how, how,

00:57:00.590 --> 00:57:03.779
how you deal,
really actually deal with that life?

00:57:03.780 --> 00:57:04.919
- When I looked at her I thought, okay,

00:57:04.920 --> 00:57:07.259
she's here with us now, she's the smiling,

00:57:07.260 --> 00:57:09.259
the drugs are not here so she loves us.

00:57:09.260 --> 00:57:10.579
But then I knew when she
went out on the street,

00:57:10.580 --> 00:57:11.972
that was her drugs,
that's why we didn't hear from her,

00:57:11.973 --> 00:57:14.129
that why she kind of was out
there for all those years

00:57:14.130 --> 00:57:15.699
and things like that,
and I think that's what we

00:57:15.700 --> 00:57:18.869
always understood,
that it was my mother under the influence

00:57:18.870 --> 00:57:21.109
of drugs, under the influence of pain,

00:57:21.110 --> 00:57:22.629
under the influence of

00:57:22.630 --> 00:57:23.829
all the things that,

00:57:23.830 --> 00:57:26.390
what happened to her as a child.

00:57:26.391 --> 00:57:31.391
- 'Cause my mama did some
things that she regret and

00:57:31.420 --> 00:57:33.559
to this very day I still

00:57:33.560 --> 00:57:37.639
take it out on her,
so I don't actually talk to her at all,

00:57:37.640 --> 00:57:41.629
like I moved out and
everything, like I don't have

00:57:41.630 --> 00:57:43.689
no communication with
her, I don't want none.

00:57:43.690 --> 00:57:44.523
- Can I say something?

00:57:44.523 --> 00:57:45.356
- Sure.

00:57:45.357 --> 00:57:47.699
- When I told you like,
at one time I was gone

00:57:47.700 --> 00:57:50.709
and they didn't hear from
me for like 12 years, right,

00:57:50.710 --> 00:57:54.039
I used to call the house
and I wouldn't say anything,

00:57:54.040 --> 00:57:55.839
I would just breathe on the phone.

00:57:55.840 --> 00:57:58.289
They would say stuff like
we're praying for you.

00:57:58.290 --> 00:57:59.929
We pray for you every night.

00:57:59.930 --> 00:58:02.839
And I was out in my madness
and that right there

00:58:02.840 --> 00:58:05.940
would keep me alive because

00:58:06.880 --> 00:58:09.080
they didn't say I hate you, they didn't say

00:58:10.125 --> 00:58:12.849
I don't wanna talk to
you, they kept saying hey,

00:58:12.850 --> 00:58:14.719
is this mama, is this you?

00:58:14.720 --> 00:58:16.419
We pray for you every night.

00:58:16.420 --> 00:58:19.699
And that made me say my
daughters are praying for me.

00:58:19.700 --> 00:58:21.069
And I remember I used to get out the phone,

00:58:21.070 --> 00:58:22.609
I used to look around at the
people that I was hanging with,

00:58:22.610 --> 00:58:26.649
I was saying my daughters
are praying for me.

00:58:26.650 --> 00:58:29.749
You know, the shame kept me away.

00:58:29.750 --> 00:58:32.359
All the stuff that happened
to me when I was young,

00:58:32.360 --> 00:58:37.360
I was running from it,
and in the process, I ran from them.

00:58:37.480 --> 00:58:41.273
The last time that I saw
them, I abandoned them.

00:58:42.340 --> 00:58:44.123
I abandoned them.

00:58:45.270 --> 00:58:46.349
You know what I mean?

00:58:46.350 --> 00:58:48.303
I mean straight abandoned my kids.

00:58:50.500 --> 00:58:52.100
And I couldn't live with myself.

00:59:05.130 --> 00:59:06.130
So,

00:59:06.950 --> 00:59:07.950
what's up?

00:59:09.390 --> 00:59:11.533
- Nothing, nothing good at all.

00:59:12.700 --> 00:59:15.100
My brother been missing
for a whole week, he 15.

00:59:17.077 --> 00:59:19.369
And he got learning disabilities,
he don't got it all,

00:59:19.370 --> 00:59:21.293
so he easily influenced to do,

00:59:22.207 --> 00:59:24.459
he's like a follower,
anything that'll make him

00:59:24.460 --> 00:59:27.063
think he got cool points or
friends, he gonna do it.

00:59:28.984 --> 00:59:31.986
And when we, the police and
everything looking for him, but.

00:59:31.987 --> 00:59:32.820
- Okay.

00:59:32.821 --> 00:59:36.499
- I'm the reason why he did
that, 'cause he kinda sorta

00:59:36.500 --> 00:59:40.499
look up to me and I ranned
away and all that stuff before,

00:59:40.500 --> 00:59:44.239
and it seem like he doing
everything that I used to do.

00:59:44.240 --> 00:59:47.043
I can't sleep, I can't think 'cause

00:59:48.130 --> 00:59:50.810
it hurts 'cause we was so close.

00:59:50.811 --> 00:59:51.644
- Right.

00:59:51.645 --> 00:59:54.842
- And he asked me,
he said I don't wanna be at home,

00:59:54.843 --> 00:59:57.739
I don't wanna be at this school,
can I come stay with you?

00:59:57.740 --> 01:00:01.619
And I'm staying with a boyfriend of mine's,

01:00:01.620 --> 01:00:03.263
all the way out west.

01:00:03.264 --> 01:00:04.252
- Oh.

01:00:04.253 --> 01:00:06.159
- So, I'm like, you feeling me,

01:00:06.160 --> 01:00:08.769
I'm not trying to take you from my
mama, I don't want them

01:00:08.770 --> 01:00:11.309
to think I'm just letting you do whatever,

01:00:11.310 --> 01:00:13.519
so you gotta stay there,
and besides she needs your help

01:00:13.520 --> 01:00:14.353
since I'm not there.

01:00:14.354 --> 01:00:16.459
And she got babies to raise.

01:00:16.460 --> 01:00:18.689
- I would go around there
and just put a message out

01:00:18.690 --> 01:00:19.909
in the hood, right?

01:00:19.910 --> 01:00:20.969
- Yeah, we did that.

01:00:20.970 --> 01:00:23.853
- No, no, you, 'cause he close to you.

01:00:24.770 --> 01:00:27.949
Tell my brother I said if you see him,

01:00:27.950 --> 01:00:30.339
tell him to come on home to me.

01:00:30.340 --> 01:00:32.489
I got him, he can stay with me.

01:00:32.490 --> 01:00:35.109
- Now my family looking at me like,

01:00:35.110 --> 01:00:36.859
like I'm the bad person.

01:00:36.860 --> 01:00:38.109
- No, you're not the bad person,

01:00:38.110 --> 01:00:39.679
and your mama can't put that on you.

01:00:39.680 --> 01:00:41.129
At that point and at that time,

01:00:41.130 --> 01:00:42.659
you'd have done the best you coulda done.

01:00:42.660 --> 01:00:44.729
In fact, you might have tried
to take on the whole family

01:00:44.730 --> 01:00:46.139
if you could.

01:00:46.140 --> 01:00:48.069
But you don't have it,
you know what I mean?

01:00:48.070 --> 01:00:51.709
You're barely surviving yourself,
so how is that your fault?

01:00:51.710 --> 01:00:54.739
Because you don't have,
because you're not surviving?

01:00:54.740 --> 01:00:55.740
You're a child

01:00:56.650 --> 01:01:00.589
being put in adult situations
and given more responsibility

01:01:00.590 --> 01:01:02.829
than you should ever have right now.

01:01:02.830 --> 01:01:03.893
It's not you.

01:01:05.130 --> 01:01:07.259
I think he'll come home to you.

01:01:07.260 --> 01:01:08.879
You told me that you had
dropped out of school

01:01:08.880 --> 01:01:11.559
and now you're back,
'cause you want something.

01:01:11.560 --> 01:01:14.089
You hungry for education,
but you got so much,

01:01:14.090 --> 01:01:17.037
all this stuff, you know,
getting throwed at you.

01:01:18.590 --> 01:01:20.509
But what I would like
for you to do right now,

01:01:20.510 --> 01:01:23.803
is try to get here every
Tuesday, can you do that?

01:01:27.025 --> 01:01:28.608
What's it gonna be?

01:01:29.952 --> 01:01:31.264
- I'm gonna do it.

01:01:31.265 --> 01:01:32.098
- Huh?

01:01:32.099 --> 01:01:33.598
- I'm gonna do it.

01:01:36.360 --> 01:01:38.289
- It's not your fault.

01:01:38.290 --> 01:01:40.490
Everything seems to be your
fault, don't it?

01:01:41.520 --> 01:01:43.119
It's not.

01:01:43.120 --> 01:01:44.519
You ain't been on the planet long enough

01:01:44.520 --> 01:01:46.170
to have to deal with all of that.

01:02:02.544 --> 01:02:03.544
- Gill!

01:02:10.701 --> 01:02:11.718
I explain to them,

01:02:11.719 --> 01:02:14.469
they come up and down the street.

01:02:15.667 --> 01:02:17.250
Here I come, y'all.

01:02:18.963 --> 01:02:19.992
- Mama!

01:02:19.993 --> 01:02:21.573
- Will you please come on?

01:02:23.739 --> 01:02:25.739
Melody, come on in here!

01:02:31.208 --> 01:02:32.219
- Get ready.

01:02:32.220 --> 01:02:34.852
- Melody, why don't you
bring your ass over here?

01:02:34.853 --> 01:02:37.097
- Give me one minute, that's all I ask.

01:02:39.249 --> 01:02:40.170
Okay.

01:02:40.171 --> 01:02:42.929
- Melody, bring your ass on outta there!

01:02:42.930 --> 01:02:45.680
- Here I come, here I come, doll.

01:02:47.798 --> 01:02:49.226
- Get your motherfucking ass out there,

01:02:49.227 --> 01:02:50.949
get on in there.

01:02:50.950 --> 01:02:51.950
- Ugh.

01:02:52.879 --> 01:02:54.524
What you want me to do?

01:02:54.525 --> 01:02:57.325
- Bring your motherfucking ass out there.

01:02:57.326 --> 01:03:00.706
That's why I shouldn't have
told you I go out the door.

01:03:00.707 --> 01:03:02.599
You take care of your end,
I know I'm taking care

01:03:02.600 --> 01:03:03.600
of my end.

01:03:06.320 --> 01:03:07.320
Sheesh.

01:03:08.400 --> 01:03:10.903
Can I get up and get my
shoes and get out the house?

01:03:22.450 --> 01:03:24.617
(singing)

01:03:36.842 --> 01:03:39.236
- Open the door.

01:03:39.237 --> 01:03:40.237
- Hug me.

01:03:51.023 --> 01:03:52.773
- Come open the door.

01:03:59.732 --> 01:04:01.732
- You can't get in, boy?

01:04:04.749 --> 01:04:06.409
Brenda, this is beautiful.

01:04:06.410 --> 01:04:07.889
- Well thank you, pumpkin.

01:04:07.890 --> 01:04:10.519
This is Jeremy, he got a, this is his,

01:04:10.520 --> 01:04:12.229
he sleeps here 'cause he wants to.

01:04:12.230 --> 01:04:16.039
He's got another room
upstairs, he just won't,

01:04:16.040 --> 01:04:19.209
he doesn't wanna sleep upstairs,
he wants to be down here.

01:04:19.210 --> 01:04:21.299
That's why he's in, you
know, here with my stuff.

01:04:21.300 --> 01:04:24.656
He wanted, 'cause this was a
futon, right, and he wants,

01:04:24.657 --> 01:04:27.699
he's got a twin bed,
then he's got a double decker bed,

01:04:27.700 --> 01:04:29.399
either one of those rooms he could have,

01:04:29.400 --> 01:04:32.239
but he wants to sleep
down here in this bed,

01:04:32.240 --> 01:04:35.469
I guess 'cause he's close to
us, you know what I'm saying?

01:04:35.470 --> 01:04:37.789
So, no don't hang that up in there, right?

01:04:37.790 --> 01:04:39.528
I'll get that, don't
worry, you just have a seat

01:04:39.529 --> 01:04:42.719
and talk to me, okay,
'cause this is our lady time.

01:04:42.720 --> 01:04:44.789
This is our girl talk, okay?

01:04:44.790 --> 01:04:47.305
- When he was in my stomach,
it was like a connection.

01:04:47.306 --> 01:04:48.173
- Mmhmm.

01:04:48.174 --> 01:04:52.219
- But I just,
I just knew I wanted my child with you.

01:04:52.220 --> 01:04:55.473
No matter where or when or what,

01:04:56.670 --> 01:04:58.170
he would always be

01:04:59.760 --> 01:05:01.460
in the most

01:05:03.404 --> 01:05:04.408
delicate hands,

01:05:04.409 --> 01:05:06.896
that's to say I wouldn't have to worry.

01:05:06.897 --> 01:05:07.752
- Mmhmm.

01:05:07.753 --> 01:05:11.621
- You know how a mother
worries about her child,

01:05:11.622 --> 01:05:15.259
what he's doing, I didn't have
to worry about that with you.

01:05:15.260 --> 01:05:18.089
Because I, in my heart,

01:05:18.090 --> 01:05:19.090
I knew,

01:05:20.295 --> 01:05:21.436
you

01:05:21.437 --> 01:05:22.437
had,

01:05:23.380 --> 01:05:24.380
you had him,

01:05:25.360 --> 01:05:27.082
I knew that.

01:05:27.083 --> 01:05:32.083
Even though I wanted, you
know, I wanted my son with me,

01:05:37.260 --> 01:05:40.510
I knew you would be better with him because

01:05:44.600 --> 01:05:45.600
you know,

01:05:47.404 --> 01:05:49.173
I didn't want,

01:05:50.106 --> 01:05:55.106
to be stand still,
even though I wanted him so bad.

01:05:55.779 --> 01:05:57.849
I really did.

01:05:57.850 --> 01:05:59.449
- I know you wanted him, Melody,

01:05:59.450 --> 01:06:00.599
I knew you wanted it.

01:06:00.600 --> 01:06:03.709
- I couldn't drip and run.

01:06:03.710 --> 01:06:05.739
- I wanted you to have it

01:06:05.740 --> 01:06:08.633
because I've been where you are,

01:06:10.029 --> 01:06:13.399
and I know how it is to want
something and you can't,

01:06:13.400 --> 01:06:17.460
and it just, it's so hard to get it, and

01:06:19.160 --> 01:06:20.160
when,

01:06:22.090 --> 01:06:23.573
I just know how you feel.

01:06:24.482 --> 01:06:27.981
- No, and I knew,

01:06:27.982 --> 01:06:31.140
and I just knew, I knew my baby

01:06:33.050 --> 01:06:34.190
was going to be

01:06:35.710 --> 01:06:36.830
well

01:06:38.016 --> 01:06:39.883
provided for and loved, I knew it.

01:06:42.357 --> 01:06:44.083
And I treasure you for that.

01:06:45.761 --> 01:06:50.761
- Melody, one thing I can tell
you is I know how it feels

01:06:50.890 --> 01:06:55.319
to be locked in something
and not be with your kids.

01:06:55.320 --> 01:06:58.989
You got so much stuff on top
of the beauty inside of you,

01:06:58.990 --> 01:07:01.359
but I see through that stuff.

01:07:01.360 --> 01:07:03.269
I see how beautiful you are on the inside,

01:07:03.270 --> 01:07:04.349
you know what I mean?

01:07:04.350 --> 01:07:06.799
And that's the Melody I want to flow and

01:07:06.800 --> 01:07:08.419
be out there, you know what I'm saying?

01:07:08.420 --> 01:07:09.989
You notice I love to come around there

01:07:09.990 --> 01:07:11.740
when you're not high and

01:07:12.787 --> 01:07:15.559
you and I laugh and we talk and we
have, you know,

01:07:15.560 --> 01:07:17.579
we understand each other,
you know what I'm saying?

01:07:17.580 --> 01:07:19.519
Because no matter what you think,

01:07:19.520 --> 01:07:22.139
I can never judge you,
'cause I was there, too.

01:07:22.140 --> 01:07:24.569
But I want,
I know that there's a beautiful woman

01:07:24.570 --> 01:07:27.543
inside of there that's
just dying to come out.

01:07:27.544 --> 01:07:30.672
- She's sure dying to come out.

01:07:30.673 --> 01:07:34.329
- And you know anytime you
ready, I'm ready.

01:07:34.330 --> 01:07:36.179
I'm ready to help you walk through it.

01:07:36.180 --> 01:07:37.133
- I know, you told me that.

01:07:37.134 --> 01:07:41.749
And you always held my hand,
but I always took my hand back.

01:07:41.750 --> 01:07:42.953
I wasn't ready,

01:07:44.529 --> 01:07:46.163
and I'm still not ready.

01:08:10.040 --> 01:08:11.483
- I need a little bit of chicken.

01:08:13.880 --> 01:08:14.880
- Aye.

01:08:16.149 --> 01:08:17.149
Jeremy.

01:08:23.050 --> 01:08:24.050
Muah!

01:08:24.990 --> 01:08:29.701
I love my little hunky punky, yes I do.

01:08:29.702 --> 01:08:30.848
(laughing)

01:08:30.849 --> 01:08:31.849
What about

01:08:32.590 --> 01:08:34.929
you, you, you?

01:08:34.930 --> 01:08:36.752
Hunky punky, number one.

01:08:38.401 --> 01:08:39.399
Huh?

01:08:39.399 --> 01:08:40.399
- Yeah.

01:08:43.109 --> 01:08:47.889
- The young lady, Maria,
she called me and she was crying

01:08:47.890 --> 01:08:51.169
and she said I can't do
it, I'm ready to go in.

01:08:51.170 --> 01:08:52.519
So I'm going,

01:08:52.520 --> 01:08:55.449
I'm going to go get her
now because she said

01:08:55.450 --> 01:08:58.769
she smoked some crack cocaine
and she's pregnant, remember?

01:08:58.770 --> 01:09:01.858
So I had to leave my job and go get her.

01:09:01.859 --> 01:09:02.859
This is it.

01:09:05.490 --> 01:09:06.490
What happened?

01:09:07.729 --> 01:09:09.885
- Well I,
you know me and Chloe been working

01:09:09.886 --> 01:09:12.909
off the internet and it
just takes a toll on you,

01:09:12.910 --> 01:09:17.429
it, after awhile, it's just
like, I'm tired of turning dates

01:09:17.430 --> 01:09:20.209
and it doesn't seem like
anything to go right.

01:09:20.210 --> 01:09:23.879
Anything, like I save up
to get a place, I have,

01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:26.909
I saved up to get an apartment
and the dude was willing to

01:09:26.910 --> 01:09:29.778
work with me, you know,
give him $200 a day until I get

01:09:29.779 --> 01:09:33.199
the $1400 for him,
I'm just like I can't do it no more,

01:09:33.200 --> 01:09:36.489
though, I can't, I'm tired,
I get sick when I go in there

01:09:36.490 --> 01:09:39.889
and turn these dates and
my baby doesn't like it

01:09:39.890 --> 01:09:42.452
and it's just like I can't do it.

01:09:43.452 --> 01:09:46.090
I can't do it,
I miss my daughter more than anything

01:09:47.216 --> 01:09:50.169
and it's hard because I
did two and a half years

01:09:50.170 --> 01:09:54.639
away from her and to come
home and to be in her life

01:09:54.640 --> 01:09:56.259
and then,

01:09:56.260 --> 01:10:00.808
because her dad was so
fucking brutal to me, I just,

01:10:00.809 --> 01:10:01.933
I had to leave and,

01:10:06.030 --> 01:10:07.839
and I just relapsed last night.

01:10:07.840 --> 01:10:11.549
I was doing good, like doing really good,

01:10:11.550 --> 01:10:14.459
and it just took a toll on me
and I went to go see a friend

01:10:14.460 --> 01:10:19.460
and was smoking weed,
and I already was using crack

01:10:19.640 --> 01:10:20.993
before I got pregnant so,

01:10:22.136 --> 01:10:23.136
it wasn't like,

01:10:23.840 --> 01:10:24.673
you know?

01:10:24.674 --> 01:10:26.570
It was there and we got high

01:10:27.480 --> 01:10:29.630
and I just kept getting high until I puked.

01:10:30.530 --> 01:10:33.669
I always come up with an
excuse to keep on working

01:10:33.670 --> 01:10:37.249
and I'm just tired of
it, I can't work anymore.

01:10:37.250 --> 01:10:41.569
- I knew once I saw you,
I told everybody, I said,

01:10:41.570 --> 01:10:42.839
she ready,

01:10:42.840 --> 01:10:44.769
'cause I saw it in your eyes.

01:10:44.770 --> 01:10:47.320
Even though you tough,
you strong, you all of that.

01:10:48.184 --> 01:10:50.869
You know what I'm saying,
you can, kinda hide it,

01:10:50.870 --> 01:10:52.799
be all, you know, thuggish in the street

01:10:52.800 --> 01:10:54.859
and everything like that but on the inside,

01:10:54.860 --> 01:10:56.319
you ready to stop.

01:10:56.320 --> 01:10:58.109
- I am, I'm ready on the outside.

01:10:58.110 --> 01:11:00.579
It's like I look at my body
and I'm almost six months

01:11:00.580 --> 01:11:02.423
pregnant and I'm like, how?

01:11:03.809 --> 01:11:05.719
How, you know what I'm saying?

01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:08.219
I don't want to hurt my
baby anymore and when I

01:11:08.220 --> 01:11:11.939
turn these tricks,
I get sick, like he knows,

01:11:11.940 --> 01:11:14.939
like does he know that it's not his dad or,

01:11:14.940 --> 01:11:15.773
you know what I'm saying?

01:11:15.774 --> 01:11:16.812
- Does he know this is not right?

01:11:16.813 --> 01:11:18.429
- Does he know, like,

01:11:18.430 --> 01:11:21.229
and then these tricks start
asking are you expecting?

01:11:21.230 --> 01:11:22.808
- Well,

01:11:22.809 --> 01:11:24.673
I've got a bed waiting for you.

01:11:24.674 --> 01:11:25.507
- Okay.

01:11:25.508 --> 01:11:26.659
- Everything's all taken care of.

01:11:26.660 --> 01:11:28.429
We don't even have to stop,
we have to go straight up

01:11:28.430 --> 01:11:30.935
to the second floor,
she told me to bring you straight up

01:11:30.936 --> 01:11:33.159
to the second floor because

01:11:33.160 --> 01:11:34.433
that's how I get down.

01:11:34.434 --> 01:11:35.370
(laughing)

01:11:35.371 --> 01:11:38.519
And you're gonna be
okay but you gotta stay,

01:11:38.520 --> 01:11:39.979
get your detox.

01:11:39.980 --> 01:11:41.639
They have a program up there, we don't know

01:11:41.640 --> 01:11:43.379
what will be next but we'll work it out.

01:11:43.380 --> 01:11:46.080
But just take today,
just for the day right now, okay?

01:12:00.370 --> 01:12:01.662
Hey.

01:12:01.663 --> 01:12:02.532
- [Girls] Hey.

01:12:02.533 --> 01:12:04.413
- How y'all doing today?

01:12:04.414 --> 01:12:05.350
- [Girls] Good.

01:12:05.351 --> 01:12:06.749
- What up, what up, what up?

01:12:06.750 --> 01:12:09.284
Wake up, wake up y'all, like all a that.

01:12:09.285 --> 01:12:10.260
- I got some good news!

01:12:10.260 --> 01:12:11.180
- Good news.

01:12:11.181 --> 01:12:12.219
- My brother came home.

01:12:12.220 --> 01:12:13.738
- My brother came home.

01:12:13.739 --> 01:12:15.126
(applause)

01:12:15.127 --> 01:12:17.968
Everybody say it, my brother came home.

01:12:17.969 --> 01:12:20.709
- [Group] My brother came home.

01:12:20.710 --> 01:12:22.239
- 'Cause that's good for you.

01:12:22.240 --> 01:12:24.189
Yes, gimme some good
news, I like good news.

01:12:24.190 --> 01:12:25.217
I'm pumped up.

01:12:25.218 --> 01:12:26.051
- I've been to school two days in a row.

01:12:26.052 --> 01:12:28.006
- Whoa, that's real good news.

01:12:28.007 --> 01:12:28.870
(laughing)

01:12:28.871 --> 01:12:29.962
Somebody, somebody,

01:12:29.963 --> 01:12:31.563
somebody to sell, baby.

01:12:32.950 --> 01:12:33.783
(laughing)

01:12:33.784 --> 01:12:35.219
I guess you all kind wonder
who this lady is, right?

01:12:35.220 --> 01:12:36.053
- Yes.

01:12:36.054 --> 01:12:40.308
- This lady right here
used to be my wife in law.

01:12:40.309 --> 01:12:42.749
We had the same pimp.

01:12:42.750 --> 01:12:44.258
- [Girl] Wow.

01:12:44.259 --> 01:12:45.180
- [Girl] Whoa.

01:12:45.181 --> 01:12:46.483
- Bust that one down.

01:12:47.559 --> 01:12:50.619
Some time in December

01:12:50.620 --> 01:12:51.920
I'm going to have surgery.

01:12:53.033 --> 01:12:56.369
They gonna put,
they gonna give me new knees.

01:12:56.370 --> 01:12:58.769
They're gonna replace my
knees, so that I can get

01:12:58.770 --> 01:13:01.169
around better, 'cause I'm not,
I'm having a total hard time

01:13:01.170 --> 01:13:04.329
getting around and so
I'll be out for awhile.

01:13:04.330 --> 01:13:07.593
While I'm gone, Miss Brie will
be coming to see you, okay?

01:13:18.084 --> 01:13:19.117
- Get out.

01:13:19.118 --> 01:13:22.174
(shouting)

01:13:22.175 --> 01:13:23.272
- No.

01:13:23.273 --> 01:13:24.856
For real, for real.

01:13:27.342 --> 01:13:29.592
(shouting)

01:13:32.016 --> 01:13:34.599
- How many guys I got here,
'cause y'all look just alike.

01:13:34.600 --> 01:13:35.580
- You so pretty.

01:13:35.581 --> 01:13:37.409
- Now, that's your brother?

01:13:37.410 --> 01:13:38.925
- He look just like my man baby.

01:13:38.926 --> 01:13:39.759
- What's his name?

01:13:39.759 --> 01:13:40.592
- [Kids] Jeremiah.

01:13:40.593 --> 01:13:41.836
- Jeremiah, and your name is?

01:13:41.837 --> 01:13:42.670
Huh?

01:13:42.670 --> 01:13:43.503
- I'm Terrence.

01:13:43.504 --> 01:13:45.670
- Terrence, hey, Terrence.

01:13:47.136 --> 01:13:47.969
- Say hey.

01:13:47.969 --> 01:13:48.969
- Hey.

01:13:56.010 --> 01:13:58.209
- Anybody, I don't care who you are,

01:13:58.210 --> 01:14:00.539
anybody need help with all these children.

01:14:00.540 --> 01:14:01.373
- Yeah, I know.

01:14:01.374 --> 01:14:04.539
- And you don't have any help and

01:14:04.540 --> 01:14:05.373
that's how we found Sharita,

01:14:05.374 --> 01:14:07.369
'cause she wasn't going to school

01:14:07.370 --> 01:14:12.263
and we're gonna make sure
that we help you, okay?

01:14:13.356 --> 01:14:14.757
- What's up with you?

01:14:14.758 --> 01:14:16.784
Why you looking so mean?

01:14:16.785 --> 01:14:17.894
- I'm always like that.

01:14:17.895 --> 01:14:19.935
- That's what you're always like, that?

01:14:19.936 --> 01:14:21.918
- They just call me Em.

01:14:21.919 --> 01:14:23.259
- Huh?

01:14:23.260 --> 01:14:24.672
- They just call me Em, Eminem.

01:14:24.673 --> 01:14:25.823
- They call you Eminem?

01:14:27.529 --> 01:14:28.362
Okay.

01:14:28.363 --> 01:14:29.419
- I just don't hug.

01:14:29.420 --> 01:14:31.120
- No, no, no, I'm, I respect that.

01:14:31.958 --> 01:14:32.817
I respect that, okay.

01:14:32.818 --> 01:14:34.533
Me and you cool, okay?

01:14:35.610 --> 01:14:38.295
Alright, I just want to
know is you okay, alright?

01:14:38.296 --> 01:14:41.039
(baby crying)

01:14:41.040 --> 01:14:42.539
- You're a smart young man.

01:14:42.540 --> 01:14:44.259
You ain't crazy, are you?

01:14:44.260 --> 01:14:45.220
- No, I'm not crazy.

01:14:45.221 --> 01:14:46.811
- You see what's going on
out there in the streets,

01:14:46.812 --> 01:14:47.738
don't you?

01:14:47.738 --> 01:14:48.571
- Yeah.

01:14:48.572 --> 01:14:50.334
- And you don't want that
to happen to you, do you?

01:14:50.335 --> 01:14:51.509
- No, no.

01:14:51.510 --> 01:14:53.909
- Now you can do the right
thing, which ain't popular,

01:14:53.910 --> 01:14:56.889
or you could do the wrong
thing, like my son did.

01:14:56.890 --> 01:14:58.799
See, he wanted to be slick, selling drugs,

01:14:58.800 --> 01:15:00.895
they gave him 42 years.

01:15:00.896 --> 01:15:01.729
You can't even hang with that crowd.

01:15:01.730 --> 01:15:03.209
You can't be with them.

01:15:03.210 --> 01:15:04.808
Okay, listen to this, listen to this.

01:15:04.809 --> 01:15:06.879
You don't know me, I don't know you, right?

01:15:06.880 --> 01:15:08.746
You could tell me whatever
you wanna tell me.

01:15:08.747 --> 01:15:10.669
But guess what?

01:15:10.670 --> 01:15:12.389
What I'm telling you is fact.

01:15:12.390 --> 01:15:15.759
It's gonna happen if you stay
out there in them streets,

01:15:15.760 --> 01:15:17.269
trouble's gonna find you,

01:15:17.270 --> 01:15:18.123
whether you looking for it or not.

01:15:18.124 --> 01:15:20.089
And you gonna be sitting
there in jail talking about

01:15:20.090 --> 01:15:21.229
I didn't do nothing.

01:15:21.230 --> 01:15:23.630
You don't have to do
nothing, you was out there.

01:15:35.130 --> 01:15:36.719
- Everything that I get,

01:15:36.720 --> 01:15:39.826
I get it so I can get stuff
for my sister and brother

01:15:39.827 --> 01:15:41.981
'cause I know mama can't do it.

01:15:41.982 --> 01:15:43.517
- Now that you said that,
let me ask you something.

01:15:43.518 --> 01:15:44.999
- I know that shhe not gonna do it.

01:15:45.000 --> 01:15:46.000
- Do you steal?

01:15:47.379 --> 01:15:48.549
- Do I steal what?

01:15:48.550 --> 01:15:49.743
- Stuff.

01:15:49.744 --> 01:15:50.577
- No.

01:15:50.577 --> 01:15:51.410
- You don't?

01:15:51.410 --> 01:15:52.243
- Uh uh.

01:15:52.243 --> 01:15:53.076
- Okay, I need to ask you
that, 'cause I'm real.

01:15:53.077 --> 01:15:54.709
You know Miss Brenda, I'm gonna ask you.

01:15:54.710 --> 01:15:56.129
- Yeah, but I don't.

01:15:56.130 --> 01:15:57.729
- Okay, if you need something,
you know that you can

01:15:57.730 --> 01:15:58.983
call and ask us, right?

01:15:59.900 --> 01:16:01.259
You hear me?

01:16:01.260 --> 01:16:04.273
If you're hungry, okay,
if you need some things, right,

01:16:05.170 --> 01:16:06.959
let me know, okay?

01:16:06.960 --> 01:16:08.300
Guess what, I got you.

01:16:10.500 --> 01:16:11.539
You hear me?

01:16:11.540 --> 01:16:12.373
- Yeah.

01:16:12.374 --> 01:16:15.269
- Things that you might
have been doing to survive,

01:16:15.270 --> 01:16:17.650
that's when I wanna help you do, okay?

01:16:17.651 --> 01:16:19.839
Like I said,
I want you to know I got your back.

01:16:19.840 --> 01:16:20.919
And the reason I asked do you steal,

01:16:20.920 --> 01:16:22.989
not 'cause somebody said
that you steal, right?

01:16:22.990 --> 01:16:25.259
If you don't do one, then you do the other.

01:16:25.260 --> 01:16:26.093
You understand what I'm saying?

01:16:26.094 --> 01:16:28.429
So I'm asking how do you survive?

01:16:28.430 --> 01:16:31.069
I wanna make sure that you
don't have to do that, okay,

01:16:31.070 --> 01:16:33.249
'cause if I was hungry, I would steal,

01:16:33.250 --> 01:16:35.058
and I know that we have to
do some things, you know,

01:16:35.059 --> 01:16:36.099
in order to survive.

01:16:36.100 --> 01:16:38.229
You don't have to do that, okay?

01:16:38.230 --> 01:16:40.367
We want you to be a part of Dreamcatcher.

01:16:41.517 --> 01:16:44.099
We want you to be a Dreamcatcher girl.

01:16:44.100 --> 01:16:45.569
Okay?

01:16:45.570 --> 01:16:48.424
If you know somebody got your
back, you'll make it.

01:16:48.425 --> 01:16:51.342
(melancholy music)

01:17:09.430 --> 01:17:12.009
She was just 17 years
old and I wanted to know

01:17:12.010 --> 01:17:13.349
who she was staying with.

01:17:13.350 --> 01:17:16.067
I don't want to have to come
down here and bodyslam you,

01:17:16.068 --> 01:17:16.902
(laughing)

01:17:16.903 --> 01:17:18.193
put my flip flops on you.

01:17:19.309 --> 01:17:21.629
But you seem like a caring person.

01:17:21.630 --> 01:17:23.014
- Yeah, I am.

01:17:23.015 --> 01:17:25.308
- And you care about Sharita, right?

01:17:25.309 --> 01:17:26.143
- Yeah.

01:17:26.144 --> 01:17:28.589
- He the type of person that'll try to do

01:17:28.590 --> 01:17:32.509
everything he can to make sure that we eat

01:17:32.510 --> 01:17:35.729
every single night, he take care for me.

01:17:35.730 --> 01:17:37.509
When something wrong with me, he know,

01:17:37.510 --> 01:17:40.229
he gonna keep asking me
and to actually tell him

01:17:40.230 --> 01:17:43.099
what's wrong with me,
'cause that's what he do.

01:17:43.100 --> 01:17:45.959
- She, she brings me up
when I be down at times,

01:17:45.960 --> 01:17:47.777
so that's how I know her character.

01:17:47.778 --> 01:17:48.969
- See what I'm saying?

01:17:48.970 --> 01:17:50.139
- I been hearing a lot about you.

01:17:50.140 --> 01:17:51.319
It's all she talk about, is y'all.

01:17:51.320 --> 01:17:54.419
- Uh huh, she talk about the
Dreamcatcher Foundation a lot

01:17:54.420 --> 01:17:57.629
and me and what we do and
everything like that, yeah?

01:17:57.630 --> 01:17:58.739
Well that's good.

01:17:58.740 --> 01:18:01.306
- I wish I had something
like that coming up, though.

01:18:01.307 --> 01:18:02.140
(laughing)

01:18:02.140 --> 01:18:02.973
- For yourself, huh?

01:18:02.974 --> 01:18:04.363
- Yeah.

01:18:04.364 --> 01:18:07.549
- Well, you know what?

01:18:07.550 --> 01:18:09.213
You deserve to be happy.

01:18:14.530 --> 01:18:18.363
("Brake Fluid" by Snoop Dogg)

01:19:16.606 --> 01:19:18.889
I understand you, and I got
you, I got your back.

01:19:18.890 --> 01:19:20.729
You still look good to me, okay?

01:19:20.730 --> 01:19:21.893
'Cause I know.

01:19:21.894 --> 01:19:22.853
- I don't to me.

01:19:22.854 --> 01:19:24.259
- No, no, I know and that's most important,

01:19:24.260 --> 01:19:27.209
that it does to you, 'cause you
forgot, when I came around,

01:19:27.210 --> 01:19:28.452
I had no face.

01:19:29.490 --> 01:19:30.890
I lost my whole face, Homer.

01:19:32.220 --> 01:19:33.386
- I sure want my grill, man.

01:19:33.387 --> 01:19:35.979
- Yeah, you gonna get it back.

01:19:35.980 --> 01:19:38.349
You gonna get it, and it's gonna be lovely.

01:19:38.350 --> 01:19:40.110
You know what I'm saying,
especially on that

01:19:40.536 --> 01:19:42.099
chocolate, pretty skin,
you gonna have all that white,

01:19:42.100 --> 01:19:43.619
all them white teeth in
there, you gonna be,

01:19:43.620 --> 01:19:44.452
shoot, it's gonna be.

01:19:44.453 --> 01:19:46.516
- It's affecting my weight, everything,

01:19:46.517 --> 01:19:49.569
'cause I can't chew like I
want, you know what I mean?

01:19:49.570 --> 01:19:50.570
- Mmhmm.

01:19:56.101 --> 01:19:57.489
When I asked him to
come here with me today,

01:19:57.490 --> 01:20:00.459
I brought him here 'cause I
don't want to offend anybody,

01:20:00.460 --> 01:20:04.209
but because we need the
information, people.

01:20:04.210 --> 01:20:05.759
We need this information.

01:20:05.760 --> 01:20:08.019
We don't need to get angry
about anything today.

01:20:08.020 --> 01:20:10.109
We don't need to get upset,
but what we need is the

01:20:10.110 --> 01:20:12.449
information to learn how
to fight human trafficking.

01:20:12.450 --> 01:20:15.359
We don't need to get
caught up about nothing.

01:20:15.360 --> 01:20:18.003
- I started at the age of 16 years old.

01:20:18.930 --> 01:20:22.829
Older women were attracted to
me, so they gave me money

01:20:22.830 --> 01:20:25.329
and that told me that I had some power.

01:20:25.330 --> 01:20:27.452
And I think all of us want some power.

01:20:28.360 --> 01:20:31.712
I haven't used any drugs or
pimped on a woman in 13 years,

01:20:31.713 --> 01:20:33.955
I think that deserves a hand clap.

01:20:33.956 --> 01:20:36.745
(applause)

01:20:36.746 --> 01:20:38.839
- We gotta have people to give
us information about this,

01:20:38.840 --> 01:20:40.529
am I right?

01:20:40.530 --> 01:20:43.549
So you guys gotta be open-minded

01:20:43.550 --> 01:20:46.269
to the tools that are available to you.

01:20:46.270 --> 01:20:48.729
I use Homer for,

01:20:48.730 --> 01:20:52.129
and I do use Homer,
but I use him for the good,

01:20:52.130 --> 01:20:52.980
you know what I mean?

01:20:52.981 --> 01:20:57.169
Isn't it ironic how life
can change and go around?

01:20:57.170 --> 01:20:59.626
How Homer used to ride with my pimp,

01:20:59.627 --> 01:21:03.483
and they used to pimp, now
I, look, Homer work for me.

01:21:03.484 --> 01:21:04.643
(applause)

01:21:04.644 --> 01:21:06.133
Ha, ha!

01:21:06.134 --> 01:21:08.634
(piano music)

01:21:30.638 --> 01:21:32.569
You know, Homer,
basically we are animals out there

01:21:32.570 --> 01:21:34.159
at one time.

01:21:34.160 --> 01:21:37.459
I was animalistic also,
the way that I treated the johns,

01:21:37.460 --> 01:21:38.293
you know what I'm saying?

01:21:38.294 --> 01:21:40.939
The way that I went after
people because I preyed,

01:21:40.940 --> 01:21:43.869
I preyed on young girls in
order to please another,

01:21:43.870 --> 01:21:45.799
somebody else, you know what I'm saying?

01:21:45.800 --> 01:21:46.800
And,

01:21:47.660 --> 01:21:50.603
I remember one time I
had copped a girl for,

01:21:52.440 --> 01:21:55.159
my guy at the time was Coolie,
and I had copped a girl

01:21:55.160 --> 01:21:58.339
for him and brought her
home, young girl, younger,

01:21:58.340 --> 01:22:01.373
about 14 years old and
she looked just like me.

01:22:02.500 --> 01:22:05.079
He was in the bed with her, right?

01:22:05.080 --> 01:22:07.589
And usually I would join in on the little

01:22:07.590 --> 01:22:09.649
fatalities and stuff like that,

01:22:09.650 --> 01:22:12.359
but I didn't, I sat in the
living room and I smoked a joint,

01:22:12.360 --> 01:22:14.899
right, and when she came
out, I was looking at her,

01:22:14.900 --> 01:22:16.808
rolling her eyes,
not because I was jealous,

01:22:16.809 --> 01:22:19.039
because it was like he had did me in there,

01:22:19.040 --> 01:22:20.829
and I was a baby.

01:22:20.830 --> 01:22:22.869
There were other times when
there was no problem for me

01:22:22.870 --> 01:22:24.339
doing it, you know what I'm saying?

01:22:24.340 --> 01:22:25.939
- That's when you were numb.

01:22:25.940 --> 01:22:28.649
- There were times when I
did it straight out of spite.

01:22:28.650 --> 01:22:29.650
Better her than me.

01:22:32.240 --> 01:22:35.249
So that's how you become the
victimizer, you become,

01:22:35.250 --> 01:22:37.039
because it's the only
way to survive out there.

01:22:37.040 --> 01:22:39.779
You can not survive out
there and only be the victim.

01:22:39.780 --> 01:22:40.780
- I promise you.

01:22:50.777 --> 01:22:51.943
- There we go.

01:23:14.660 --> 01:23:17.559
I mean, going through some
emotions lately and I really am

01:23:24.340 --> 01:23:25.340
kind of like,

01:23:30.020 --> 01:23:32.709
I'm an emotional person but
I'm kind of emotional about

01:23:32.710 --> 01:23:36.209
the surgery,
about not being with my family,

01:23:36.210 --> 01:23:38.289
about not doing my outreach,

01:23:38.290 --> 01:23:40.483
what my girls are gonna do while I'm down.

01:23:42.150 --> 01:23:45.729
I'm hoping that I prepared
them well enough that

01:23:45.730 --> 01:23:47.386
they can be okay until I get well,

01:23:47.387 --> 01:23:50.337
and that's why I'm hoping that
everything is gonna be okay.

01:23:58.700 --> 01:24:01.619
And even with 16 years
out of the lifestyle,

01:24:01.620 --> 01:24:03.630
almost 17 years, I still get

01:24:07.110 --> 01:24:08.853
emotional and I get,

01:24:14.890 --> 01:24:17.153
sometimes these anxiety attacks, you know?

01:24:23.059 --> 01:24:25.019
Especially after I've
seen a lot of clients,

01:24:25.020 --> 01:24:26.020
I can kind of,

01:24:34.896 --> 01:24:37.509
(sighing)

01:24:37.510 --> 01:24:39.449
'cause sometimes people think
that, you know,

01:24:39.450 --> 01:24:41.282
you dress up, you look well,

01:24:42.890 --> 01:24:45.036
you make it to everything
that you need to make it to,

01:24:45.037 --> 01:24:47.537
but they don't know how
you feeling on the inside.

01:24:50.160 --> 01:24:51.370
It takes a lot of work

01:24:52.470 --> 01:24:55.759
to continue to maintain trauma,

01:24:55.760 --> 01:24:57.489
stuff that you been
through and just because

01:24:57.490 --> 01:24:58.909
I work with girls doesn't mean

01:24:58.910 --> 01:25:00.469
that I don't have my own days.

01:25:00.470 --> 01:25:01.933
I do have my own days.

01:25:03.720 --> 01:25:07.253
And in the last couple days,
I've been having a few moments.

01:25:11.026 --> 01:25:12.026
- Come on.

01:25:14.652 --> 01:25:16.735
(crying)

01:25:19.343 --> 01:25:21.788
Is somebody from Two Bars in there?

01:25:21.789 --> 01:25:23.515
- No, she don't work, she good.

01:25:23.516 --> 01:25:25.424
- Come on, Three South, line up.

01:25:25.425 --> 01:25:26.675
I got business.

01:25:31.020 --> 01:25:33.940
- I used to think for a long time that

01:25:35.600 --> 01:25:39.279
because I wasn't standing on the corners,

01:25:39.280 --> 01:25:40.943
that I wasn't a prostitute.

01:25:42.850 --> 01:25:43.850
I was,

01:25:44.780 --> 01:25:47.069
I been living on the street since I was 11,

01:25:47.070 --> 01:25:48.103
I'm 20 now.

01:25:50.040 --> 01:25:51.853
What is a child to do at 11?

01:25:52.877 --> 01:25:56.373
You know, I'm a child,
I don't have no guidance, no help.

01:25:58.260 --> 01:25:59.413
At the age of 11,

01:26:00.490 --> 01:26:04.429
I was sexually molested a lot.

01:26:04.430 --> 01:26:07.623
I was molested to the point
that I thought it was okay.

01:26:08.930 --> 01:26:12.522
My mother wasn't always in my
life, it was times that

01:26:12.523 --> 01:26:14.323
I would go without seeing my mother.

01:26:15.910 --> 01:26:17.849
We slept in cars.

01:26:17.850 --> 01:26:19.823
We slept in abandoned buildings.

01:26:22.390 --> 01:26:26.789
I remember, when I was in fourth
grade, my mother sold me

01:26:26.790 --> 01:26:29.157
and my little sister to the drug dealers.

01:26:32.525 --> 01:26:34.949
When I was in fourth
grade, I used to get beat

01:26:34.950 --> 01:26:36.023
for no reason.

01:26:36.880 --> 01:26:39.619
He would tie me by my hands and my
feet, across the bed.

01:26:39.620 --> 01:26:41.013
- The drug dealer?

01:26:42.809 --> 01:26:45.279
- And he would beat me for no reason.

01:26:45.280 --> 01:26:47.989
I tried to run away and
found my way back to Chicago.

01:26:47.990 --> 01:26:49.540
I was living in Milwaukee then.

01:26:51.690 --> 01:26:56.423
I would always get cold
and he'd beat me bloody.

01:26:57.460 --> 01:27:00.473
This is not a place for nobody, I hurt.

01:27:02.540 --> 01:27:06.159
- And you was so courageous
when you asked for help.

01:27:06.160 --> 01:27:07.409
You did.

01:27:07.410 --> 01:27:09.360
You said Miss Brenda, I need some help.

01:27:10.870 --> 01:27:11.943
I'm here to help you.

01:27:13.650 --> 01:27:15.350
I'm gonna help your little sister.

01:27:18.550 --> 01:27:20.349
- Thank you so much,

01:27:20.350 --> 01:27:23.569
'cause I ask for help all
the time and people just

01:27:23.570 --> 01:27:26.642
look at me, okay, we're gonna help you and

01:27:26.643 --> 01:27:28.303
I never hear from them again.

01:27:32.830 --> 01:27:34.119
- Every time I look at you, I wanna cry.

01:27:34.120 --> 01:27:35.767
You are just such a.

01:27:40.184 --> 01:27:41.851
- Thank you so much.

01:27:46.730 --> 01:27:50.529
- I used to,
being raised out in the street, I did

01:27:50.530 --> 01:27:52.989
just about everything that I can do.

01:27:52.990 --> 01:27:54.709
That's some of the things
that I didn't want to do,

01:27:54.710 --> 01:27:55.799
I had to do.

01:27:55.800 --> 01:27:56.888
- Right.

01:27:56.889 --> 01:27:59.591
- You know, 'cause sleeping in
bed, it'd be all of us

01:27:59.592 --> 01:28:02.913
eating out of garbage cans, I've done that.

01:28:05.500 --> 01:28:06.702
Drugs,

01:28:07.559 --> 01:28:09.308
alcohol,

01:28:09.309 --> 01:28:11.369
you know, played a part in my life.

01:28:11.370 --> 01:28:15.419
- Is there anybody who
was abusing you or Payla

01:28:15.420 --> 01:28:17.449
or Dianah at that time?

01:28:17.450 --> 01:28:18.808
- Yeah,

01:28:18.809 --> 01:28:21.617
at one point we had a issue where Dianah,

01:28:24.589 --> 01:28:27.817
a gentleman friend of mine was
supposed to have abused her.

01:28:30.251 --> 01:28:31.690
- You said supposed to have?

01:28:32.657 --> 01:28:34.179
- I said that, yeah.

01:28:34.180 --> 01:28:35.780
- Do you believe that he did it?

01:28:37.320 --> 01:28:39.609
- To be honest with you,
I really don't know.

01:28:39.610 --> 01:28:41.539
- Why, do you believe your daughter?

01:28:41.540 --> 01:28:42.719
- I believe my daughter.

01:28:42.720 --> 01:28:43.553
- Good.

01:28:43.553 --> 01:28:44.386
- I believe my daughter.

01:28:44.386 --> 01:28:45.315
- That's what you're

01:28:45.316 --> 01:28:47.079
supposed to do,
you're supposed to believe your baby.

01:28:47.080 --> 01:28:47.913
- Right.

01:28:47.914 --> 01:28:50.169
So, yeah.

01:28:50.170 --> 01:28:52.519
I knew how it was when I was out here,

01:28:52.520 --> 01:28:55.019
and if I had of told somebody,

01:28:55.020 --> 01:28:58.136
if they would have believed
me, I didn't tell nobody.

01:28:58.137 --> 01:28:58.970
- Right.

01:28:58.971 --> 01:29:01.019
- I kept all my stuff

01:29:01.020 --> 01:29:02.859
within my self.

01:29:02.860 --> 01:29:04.439
And I

01:29:04.440 --> 01:29:05.440
dealt with

01:29:08.446 --> 01:29:09.446
things

01:29:10.330 --> 01:29:11.463
the best way I could.

01:29:12.470 --> 01:29:14.289
- I'm here to open a door,

01:29:14.290 --> 01:29:16.096
to let you know you have assistance,

01:29:16.097 --> 01:29:18.570
you have support, okay?

01:29:18.571 --> 01:29:19.404
- Okay.

01:29:19.405 --> 01:29:20.916
- You have support now.

01:29:23.282 --> 01:29:24.282
It's okay.

01:29:25.892 --> 01:29:26.725
- Thank you.

01:29:26.725 --> 01:29:27.725
- It's okay.

01:29:29.360 --> 01:29:31.233
She's coming, she's coming.

01:29:33.080 --> 01:29:34.280
She's coming back, mama.

01:29:42.990 --> 01:29:46.039
Stephanie, I'm already
rolling, I've got three

01:29:46.040 --> 01:29:48.239
interventions lined up and
I just need to call you

01:29:48.240 --> 01:29:49.779
to hear your voice,
you know I can't do this stuff

01:29:49.780 --> 01:29:51.156
without you.

01:29:51.157 --> 01:29:51.991
- [Stephanie] Did you get some rest?

01:29:51.992 --> 01:29:55.019
- When other people are in
their bed sleep on a Sunday,

01:29:55.020 --> 01:29:57.049
my husband and my son
just went to breakfast,

01:29:57.050 --> 01:30:01.259
I'm doing interventions,
the trees are gorgeous.

01:30:01.260 --> 01:30:02.308
- [Stephanie] What trees?

01:30:02.309 --> 01:30:03.663
- By my house.

01:30:04.898 --> 01:30:07.009
- [Stephanie] Oh, what, the fall?
The orange?

01:30:07.010 --> 01:30:09.823
- Oh my God, they gorgeous.

01:30:12.490 --> 01:30:13.323
- I feel better.

01:30:13.324 --> 01:30:15.669
Like when they told me that
you were coming to see me today

01:30:15.670 --> 01:30:18.849
I was like, thank God, oh my
God, because I've been having

01:30:18.850 --> 01:30:21.023
it hard, like, I was like I don't,

01:30:22.720 --> 01:30:25.269
it was like a fresh breath of air again.

01:30:25.270 --> 01:30:27.739
- And I'm gonna be around
but I'm not gonna be there

01:30:27.740 --> 01:30:29.909
all the time because I need
you to get strong enough

01:30:29.910 --> 01:30:31.092
to take care of Marie.

01:30:31.093 --> 01:30:31.925
- Myself.

01:30:31.925 --> 01:30:32.759
- This is what I'm focused on.

01:30:32.760 --> 01:30:35.779
I'm here, not there,
I'm not all over the place,

01:30:35.780 --> 01:30:36.969
I'm going this way.

01:30:36.970 --> 01:30:40.189
Just like you talk about the
ex who approached you and said

01:30:40.190 --> 01:30:42.104
now this is, I'm waiting for you.

01:30:42.105 --> 01:30:44.539
- That's what I told him, I said,

01:30:44.540 --> 01:30:47.199
and it was actually yesterday,
after I got done with my

01:30:47.200 --> 01:30:49.944
PA meeting,
I went over there to pick up Memory,

01:30:49.945 --> 01:30:51.859
and he was like,
I got about four girls coming to town,

01:30:51.860 --> 01:30:53.269
will you be able to
answer the phones for me?

01:30:53.270 --> 01:30:55.939
I'm like, Tyson, I'm in recovery.

01:30:55.940 --> 01:30:57.662
I'm not only in recovery
for drugs and alcohol,

01:30:57.663 --> 01:31:00.119
but I'm in recovery for prostitution.

01:31:00.120 --> 01:31:02.449
That means I don't want no part of it.

01:31:02.450 --> 01:31:04.239
No, I don't want to be
your business partner

01:31:04.240 --> 01:31:05.649
when it comes to service.

01:31:05.650 --> 01:31:06.808
Like I have a whole new,

01:31:06.809 --> 01:31:08.679
I don't even want to own a service now.

01:31:08.680 --> 01:31:10.839
In the beginning I was like
I wanna own a service and.

01:31:10.840 --> 01:31:12.069
- I remember that.

01:31:12.070 --> 01:31:13.030
- Have these girls work for
me, it's like, no,

01:31:13.031 --> 01:31:15.959
I wanna save these
girls, I wanna help them.

01:31:15.960 --> 01:31:18.089
I wanna help them save themselves.

01:31:18.090 --> 01:31:19.879
- This couldn't have happened
if you hadn't have made a

01:31:19.880 --> 01:31:23.156
decision and wanted to
be involved in your life

01:31:23.157 --> 01:31:26.558
and you said no, I need my life back.

01:31:26.559 --> 01:31:30.235
And that's what you did,
baby, that's all you did.

01:31:30.236 --> 01:31:32.790
You did it, girl, you big old boo boo.

01:31:32.791 --> 01:31:34.788
I'm loving you.

01:31:34.789 --> 01:31:35.872
- I love you.

01:31:45.970 --> 01:31:48.553
(somber music)

01:32:22.339 --> 01:32:23.589
- There she is.

01:32:24.697 --> 01:32:26.780
(crying)

01:32:32.835 --> 01:32:33.764
- Hey, mommy.

01:32:33.765 --> 01:32:35.847
(crying)

01:32:37.508 --> 01:32:39.249
- Hi, sweetie.

01:32:39.250 --> 01:32:40.083
- Hi, Dianah.

01:32:40.083 --> 01:32:41.083
- Don't cry!

01:32:42.157 --> 01:32:44.469
Hey, this is a,

01:32:44.470 --> 01:32:46.360
how you doing?

01:32:46.361 --> 01:32:48.015
- I'm bad. - You?

01:32:48.016 --> 01:32:49.119
- I'm bad.

01:32:49.120 --> 01:32:51.719
- You fine, don't cry, baby.

01:32:51.720 --> 01:32:53.272
You look so nice.

01:32:53.273 --> 01:32:56.780
- [Sister] You got on my favorite color.

01:32:56.781 --> 01:32:57.614
- Huh?

01:32:57.615 --> 01:32:59.067
- [Sister] You got my favorite color.

01:32:59.068 --> 01:33:00.829
(laughing)

01:33:00.830 --> 01:33:02.729
- [Mother] I miss you so much.

01:33:02.730 --> 01:33:04.696
- I miss y'all, too.

01:33:04.697 --> 01:33:07.629
- [Mother] Brenda is a real nice
lady, I met her,

01:33:07.630 --> 01:33:10.679
she came to the house and I
met her and she told me all

01:33:10.680 --> 01:33:12.849
that she's trying to help you do.

01:33:12.850 --> 01:33:17.069
And I'm so grateful for that,
and you take advantage of that

01:33:17.070 --> 01:33:19.169
and get all you can out of that,

01:33:19.170 --> 01:33:20.943
get your high school diploma.

01:33:21.954 --> 01:33:23.653
Are you going to school?

01:33:24.750 --> 01:33:25.879
You are?

01:33:25.880 --> 01:33:29.293
That's good, that's good, that's great.

01:33:31.030 --> 01:33:32.656
It's alright, baby.

01:33:32.657 --> 01:33:33.541
- [Sister] Stop crying.

01:33:33.542 --> 01:33:35.458
- [Mother] Stop crying.

01:33:40.990 --> 01:33:42.458
- [Sister] Don't cry.

01:33:42.459 --> 01:33:44.376
- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

01:33:47.943 --> 01:33:49.867
I'm sorry, mommy.

01:33:49.868 --> 01:33:51.135
- [Mother] Don't cry.

01:33:51.136 --> 01:33:52.292
- I love y'all.

01:33:52.293 --> 01:33:53.726
- [Mother] We love you, too.

01:33:53.727 --> 01:33:55.893
We love you, too, sweetie.

01:33:56.904 --> 01:33:58.639
- I wish I could be home with y'all.

01:33:58.640 --> 01:34:01.622
I'm sorry for leaving y'all, I'm sorry.

01:34:01.623 --> 01:34:04.409
- [Mother] That's okay,
it's gonna be alright.

01:34:04.410 --> 01:34:07.233
You coming home, you coming home soon.

01:34:08.290 --> 01:34:12.058
And you won't be back, I know.

01:34:12.059 --> 01:34:13.663
It'll be all over with then.

01:34:15.320 --> 01:34:17.263
- It's time to go, I love y'all.

01:34:17.264 --> 01:34:18.342
- I love you, too.

01:34:18.343 --> 01:34:19.175
- Love y'all.

01:34:19.175 --> 01:34:20.175
- See you later.

01:34:20.864 --> 01:34:22.947
(crying)

01:34:24.708 --> 01:34:26.388
Don't cry, I love you.

01:34:26.389 --> 01:34:28.230
She gonna be alright.

01:34:34.730 --> 01:34:38.834
- You gotta forgive and let
go and put it in God's hands.

01:34:38.835 --> 01:34:39.934
And that's what I did.

01:34:41.407 --> 01:34:44.909
And now my time with them
is gonna be so precious,

01:34:44.910 --> 01:34:45.910
I just,

01:34:46.850 --> 01:34:48.973
man, it's a good feeling.

01:34:50.726 --> 01:34:52.423
I can't stay mad at my mother.

01:34:53.870 --> 01:34:56.049
Back then I didn't have no,

01:34:56.050 --> 01:34:58.808
my blood was black, my heart was black,

01:34:58.809 --> 01:35:00.193
my soul was black.

01:35:01.950 --> 01:35:04.076
And now I got life.

01:35:04.077 --> 01:35:06.577
(piano music)

01:35:25.264 --> 01:35:27.679
- And now, ladies and
gentlemen, shush, sit down,

01:35:27.680 --> 01:35:29.839
I'd like to introduce you to

01:35:29.840 --> 01:35:34.840
my best friend, my road
dog, all the way from

01:35:35.830 --> 01:35:37.159
54th and Hyde Park,

01:35:37.160 --> 01:35:38.673
Missus Stephanie Daniels.

01:35:39.862 --> 01:35:41.815
(applause)

01:35:41.816 --> 01:35:44.066
(laughing)

01:35:45.883 --> 01:35:47.129
- Hey!

01:35:47.130 --> 01:35:47.963
(laughing)

01:35:47.964 --> 01:35:49.733
What's going on, ladies?

01:35:49.734 --> 01:35:51.259
What's poppin'?

01:35:51.260 --> 01:35:52.100
(laughing)

01:35:52.101 --> 01:35:55.529
- Alright, y'all want me to
sing the song Always to you?

01:35:55.530 --> 01:35:57.332
It goes like this.

01:35:57.333 --> 01:36:01.948
♪ As around the sun the
Earth knows she's revolving ♪

01:36:01.949 --> 01:36:06.090
♪ As rosebuds know the bloom in early May ♪

01:36:06.091 --> 01:36:08.192
♪ Just as hate knows love's a cure ♪

01:36:08.193 --> 01:36:10.548
♪ You can bet my mind is sure ♪

01:36:10.549 --> 01:36:15.339
♪ That I'll be loving you always ♪

01:36:15.340 --> 01:36:17.025
(laughing)

01:36:17.026 --> 01:36:19.212
♪ Always ♪

01:36:19.213 --> 01:36:23.607
♪ Now we can't reveal these
mysteries of tomorrow ♪

01:36:23.608 --> 01:36:27.672
♪ But in passing we'll
grow older everyday ♪

01:36:27.673 --> 01:36:30.110
♪ Just as kindness knows no shame ♪

01:36:30.111 --> 01:36:32.447
♪ Know through all my joy and pain ♪

01:36:32.448 --> 01:36:36.938
♪ That I'll be loving you always ♪

01:36:36.939 --> 01:36:41.192
♪ As today I know I'm living but tomorrow ♪

01:36:41.193 --> 01:36:45.522
♪ Can me take me to pass,
but that I mustn't fear ♪

01:36:45.523 --> 01:36:48.208
♪ 'Cause I know deep in
my mind the love for me ♪

01:36:48.209 --> 01:36:50.048
♪ God left behind ♪

01:36:50.049 --> 01:36:53.424
♪ And I'll be loving you always ♪

01:36:53.425 --> 01:36:54.456
And then it goes,

01:36:54.457 --> 01:36:58.248
♪ Until the day that eight
times eight time eight is four ♪

01:36:58.249 --> 01:37:02.722
♪ Until the day that you
are me and I'm no more ♪

01:37:02.723 --> 01:37:04.143
♪ Until the day ♪

01:37:04.144 --> 01:37:07.181
♪ Says our work is through ♪

01:37:07.182 --> 01:37:10.149
♪ Until the day that you are me and ♪

01:37:10.150 --> 01:37:11.862
Well, that's my song, okay?

01:37:13.157 --> 01:37:16.491
("As" by Stevie Wonder)