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(wind blowing)

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- I kind of realized I
was a bit of a tomboy

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'cause I'm not like other
girls who worry about

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doing their nails or
fixing their hair a lot and

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going to the mall every weekend.

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Me, I don't care if I
have huge muddy feet.

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I'm just kind of...

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I kind of just go with it.

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I'll eventually wash it
off later, but I'm not that

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kind of person that freaks out if there's

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a bug crawling on me.

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(soft ambient music)

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- Some family members freaked out.

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And some friends are
like, "She's doing what?"

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(soft ambient music)

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"Oh my god, she's gonna be
on a mountain all winter?

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"Won't she freeze to death?"

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They would say, "My god, are
there bears in the woods?"

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You know, "Are things
gonna come and eat them?"

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They viewed it as an
isolated dynamic where

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they would be alone and helpless.

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And I think part of the power of it

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is that, yes, you're isolated

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and you're alone, but you're not helpless.

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(soft ambient music)

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- I was concerned.
(laughing)

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I was like, "Okay, tell me more about it."

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It took me a while before
I felt comfortable with it

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but I would always have her,
"Okay, explain more to me.

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"Tell me why I should be okay with this."

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I think it probably took
me four or five months

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to feel good about it,
but then I was all in.

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- It was just the fear
of the unknown for people

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and it's such an unusual
thing, which is why

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it's so spectacular.

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And that was part of the
great story, I think,

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Tori wanted to tell.

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And I thought it would a great
transition for Tori, too,

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between high school and college.

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(soft instrumental rock music)

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- Oh my gosh, it was quite
exciting being on the plane

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on the way here.

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(soft instrumental rock music)

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I'm gonna be a completely
different person coming out

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then when I'm going in.

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The Caretaker program is a incredible

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life-changing experience
that me and four other

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women got to have, where
we pretty much just

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lived on a mountain semi-primitively

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for a full year.

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(soft instrumental rock music)

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- [Girl] This is Oregon,
that's Emma right there.

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Say hi, Emma.
- Hey.

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- [Girl] Then coming
around, we'll see Tori.

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Hello, Tori.

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(soft instrumental rock music)

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(laughing)

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- I think people crave
something beyond themselves,

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and I think nature fills that very well

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because it gives us a
connection to something

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beyond ourselves.

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- Yeah, this is not a
full-blown survival situation.

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This is a stepping stone.

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This is taking our youth
from today's modern society

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and introducing them to a
life-long learning connection

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to nature.

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When we slow down, we go back to nature,

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we connect to the natural flow.

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Nature helps us slow down, detox,

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and purge all of the different
distractions that we kind of

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build up around ourselves.

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- Oh yeah.

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Yeah.
(grunting)

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- I was definitely nervous about, like,

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what's this gonna be like.

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Hi, I'm Tori.

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- I'm Maddee, I've heard a lot about you.

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- Thea.

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- [Maddee] Good to meet you.

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- Nice to meet you, too.

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- Good, how are you?
- Good.

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- Amanda was a past Caretaker.

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She was kind of our den
mother 'cause she would

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come up a lot, and we kind
of felt like we needed

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that extra support.

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- Starting a fire with a bow
drill kit, especially the first

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time you do it, is really, really magical.

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You're literally taking wood from a tree,

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which is sunshine because
trees adsorb sunlight,

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and then it's stored
energy, taking that and

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creating friction.

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And through that process
of friction we turn it

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back into fire, which is
what it was all along.

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If you get lost in the
wilderness, there are four things

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you need to keep yourself alive.

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The first one is shelter,

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the second one is water,

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the third one is fire,

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and the fourth one is food.

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You need fire to clean your water

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as well as to cook your food,

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'cause we used to be able to
go drink out of the rivers

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and the streams.

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We can't anymore.

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(laughing)

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- [Hannah] Stop it, Joe!

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- You know, I'm laughing
with Hannah struggling.

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You go from the smoke going into your face

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to holding it up in
almost like a prayer form.

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You're giving thanks.

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And it's funny because
we all go through that,

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anyone who's made fire primitively.

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(soft ambient music)
(fire crackling)

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(crickets chirping)

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(soft ambient music)

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- So the first night we're
on the mountain together,

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it was kind of nice just
to have just the five

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of us up there and just kind of having,

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you know, some space, and
just kind of settling in.

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(bounding)

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(soft ambient music and bird calls)

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Amanda had gotten a cat
from a person she knew

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to help with mice control.

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Shadow stayed with her
for a while just to get

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him comfortable to the
outdoors and get him

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used to people.

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We would take turns feeding
him cat food and take turns

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sharing him in our shelters as well.

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And so he would start off in Root Chair.

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And then he'd be in OR-7.

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And Deep Purple.

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Sometimes he would just kind
of wander in and out and...

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He was a good cat.

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(birds chirping)

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- I see a lot of, quote-unquote,
"learning disabilities."

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They have this idea because
they don't learn the way

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other people learn, that
they're not good enough.

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- I definitely was in
this special ed class.

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I think it was second or third grade.

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I was diagnosed with ADD.

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(playful piano playing)

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- [Man] Go Tori!

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Go! Carlos, first base.

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Good job.

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Don't worry about the bases, honey.

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You just get ready to run, okay?

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Tori, give me five.

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Good job.

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(piano playing)

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- [Woman] Is that one you made up?

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- I haven't really made up the title yet.

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(piano playing)

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- I don't care about labels.

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My philosophy has always been,

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what can we do to best support Tori?

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- They suggested medication at first

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and we said, "No, that's not gonna happen.

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We're not gonna medicate her,

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we're just gonna see how it goes."

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And we never have, and
she hasn't needed it.

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- [Jeannette] There were some
short term memory issues.

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- She was having to spend
an inordinate amount of

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time doing homework, so they
couldn't quite figure out

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why Tori was having so much trouble.

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- Tori really struggled overall

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with maintaining information.

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But her passion for nature was insane.

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If we could teach something
to her through nature,

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she would maintain it.

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Kids today are medicated
more than they should be.

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They're taking meds for everything.

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On the other hand, I
have a son with autism

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and meds saved his life.

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- The way I learn is... yes, it is slower.

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And, I mean, I do have
dyslexia, so that kind of

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messes me up sometimes, too.

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I don't know.

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I'm a very hands-on kind of person.

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Like, I learn better
through hands-on experience.

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Let's say I'm being
taught how to tree climb

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for the first time.

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Yes, I understand everything
that you're telling me,

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but could you also do
a demonstration, too?

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'Cause that's what helps me learn better.

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So it just kind of depends on who you are

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and how you learn and
what environment you need,

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but I think definitely
a lot of people need

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that quietness so they're able to focus

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and they can understand things better.

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- There's a couple of really
cool leading scientists

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right now studying ADHD.

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Dr. Frances Kuo has done
research with children

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with Attention Deficit
Disorder, and she found

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a simple 20 minute walk in
nature is as beneficial,

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or more beneficial, than
a dose of medication

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for these kids in their
ability to concentrate.

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- How do we diagnose kids accurately,

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find the right medication for them,

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and say "no," if they really
don't need that medication?

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(birds chirping)

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- When you're staying in a
shelter that's been used,

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over time things kind
of get janky so you have

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to re-fluff it, like the debris and stuff,

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and you have to add more bark on top of it

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so it's more waterproofed.

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We pretty much took all the bark off

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and fluffed out the leaves
and put new debris on it

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and added more layers,
and then gathered bark

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from oodles of everywhere.
(laughing)

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Like, we went from close
trees to trees all the way

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off in the distance.

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Like, if you see an area
that's too crowded with trees,

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then you can take down one
or two so it opens it up.

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Little trees that might be underneath it

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have a better chance at survival.

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When you caretake the
land you want to leave it

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better off.

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You want to make sure
you take what you need

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without overdoing it.

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- Uh, I'm gonna do the bottom, okay?

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Okay?
(laughing)

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(laughing)

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- Survival cement -- it
was mud, clay, grass.

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We used it as a glue.

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Get it all nice and smooshy.

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Just kind of lather it on.

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Living out in the woods, you
don't have porta potties.

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Whenever it was halfway or sometimes

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even all the way full, we
would carry them on sticks

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down to the humanure system.

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- Shoot.
(laughing)

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- Nooo!
(laughing)

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- Oh god!
(gasping)

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[Girl] That is disgusting! Holy god.

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- Just a nice little
stream going down the hill.

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(laughing)

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And we were just like, "Oh no!"

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And we got the bucket and slammed it on

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and got the top on.

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- The most beautiful buckets in the world

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are not these.

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- To live with each other.

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To communicate.

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And to be there for each other.

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To harvest the right amount of materials

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that we needed without
hurting the environment.

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Only taking a third of what we needed.

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To become a team.

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To be with ourselves.

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To ride solo.

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We had these two gallon
solar showers that we used

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where you would fill them
up to a certain point

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and then for however
long you would stick them

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in the sun, so you would
actually have hot water

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when you shower.

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I don't miss TV.

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I don't miss, like,

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carpets or any of the
fancy-schmancy stuff.

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It's nice to have it around,

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but I'm not longing for it.

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Like, "Ugh, I wish I was in
a house with a comfy bed."

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No.

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Pfft.
(laughing)

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(wind blowing)
(laughing)

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- This program was not a program

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about hunting and gathering specifically.

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And if we were going to
go into full survival,

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then we would have had
to spend our entire year

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working on those skills
and it would have been

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a very different program.

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(laughing)

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Sometimes it was a chore to go to town.

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There was a shock to the system.

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- If it's a lot of people you always feel

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claustrophobic, like,
"You're too close. Shoo."

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- [Amanda] It's a lot of
stimulation that you're not used to

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when you've been out in the wilderness.

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- [Joe] They can get propane and cook on a

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semi-primitive kitchen.

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There's gravity-fed water
right to the kitchen

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which is great potable water.

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They've got the ability
to go out and harvest

00:16:25.079 --> 00:16:28.579
anything from the landscape within reason.

00:16:36.351 --> 00:16:37.512
- Middle school and high school,

00:16:37.512 --> 00:16:41.049
I didn't have a lot of
friends to hang out with.

00:16:41.049 --> 00:16:42.027
(laughing)

00:16:42.027 --> 00:16:45.519
Maddee, in her past life, was alive.

00:16:46.324 --> 00:16:48.574
(laughing)

00:16:50.251 --> 00:16:54.176
Whenever I meet new friends about my age

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I've always kind of been a little nervous

00:16:56.989 --> 00:16:59.832
becoming really close to them,

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'cause in my high school
life I've had troubles

00:17:03.754 --> 00:17:06.304
with hanging out with girls my age.

00:17:07.029 --> 00:17:08.148
- She started hanging out with people

00:17:08.148 --> 00:17:10.565
who weren't very nice to her.

00:17:11.833 --> 00:17:15.038
And Tori, sometimes she
doesn't remember things,

00:17:15.038 --> 00:17:17.183
or she gets a little bit confused,

00:17:17.183 --> 00:17:20.975
and I think sometimes they
took advantage of that.

00:17:25.469 --> 00:17:28.719
- I think sometimes when it comes to...

00:17:36.305 --> 00:17:37.444
Sorry.

00:17:37.877 --> 00:17:42.044
There are definitely times
where people picked on me.

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There was this one time we
were eating lunch and stuff

00:17:45.943 --> 00:17:48.909
and I didn't know that
there was drama going on,

00:17:48.909 --> 00:17:50.770
but I could feel it.

00:17:50.770 --> 00:17:53.272
It was still pretty loud
in the cafeteria, but

00:17:53.272 --> 00:17:56.071
no one was talking at
my table and I was like,

00:17:56.071 --> 00:18:00.238
"So, how is everyone doing?"
(chuckling)

00:18:00.425 --> 00:18:04.047
And then people just, "Ugh, god, shut up!"

00:18:04.047 --> 00:18:07.630
and just being all weird and negative.

00:18:08.632 --> 00:18:10.950
And then some people left.

00:18:10.950 --> 00:18:14.236
And the next day I came in,
one of my friends was like,

00:18:14.236 --> 00:18:16.849
"Okay, Tori, we're gonna
talk about something

00:18:16.849 --> 00:18:19.408
when everyone returns with their lunch."

00:18:20.491 --> 00:18:24.324
And then they were like,
"Well Tori, I'm sorry.

00:18:24.324 --> 00:18:26.824
You cannot be with us anymore

00:18:28.457 --> 00:18:31.874
'cause you don't talk at the right time.

00:18:33.207 --> 00:18:36.207
We don't wanna be friends anymore."

00:18:37.481 --> 00:18:40.781
And I just completely lost it

00:18:41.206 --> 00:18:42.864
and just broke down

00:18:42.891 --> 00:18:46.999
right there, and then for
the rest of the school day

00:18:46.999 --> 00:18:50.792
I was just thinking about
it and I would just lose it

00:18:50.792 --> 00:18:53.158
and have to go to the
bathroom or sit in the hallway

00:18:53.158 --> 00:18:55.277
or something like that.

00:18:55.277 --> 00:18:58.902
I think the sense of trust

00:18:58.902 --> 00:19:02.460
and the sense of friendship

00:19:02.460 --> 00:19:05.090
just completely broke from there.

00:19:05.211 --> 00:19:09.377
And I was confused as well

00:19:09.377 --> 00:19:12.360
because I'd never done anything

00:19:12.360 --> 00:19:15.060
wrong or bad to them,

00:19:15.077 --> 00:19:18.343
and they just stopped

00:19:18.597 --> 00:19:20.314
being there for me.

00:19:20.993 --> 00:19:25.160
And I think that was the
hardest thing for me,

00:19:25.771 --> 00:19:29.629
and I didn't fully understand

00:19:29.629 --> 00:19:31.995
why they said that.

00:19:32.516 --> 00:19:35.870
- She came running over
and she was bawling.

00:19:36.628 --> 00:19:38.369
And she just looked at me and said,

00:19:38.369 --> 00:19:41.393
"Why are people so mean to me?"

00:19:41.393 --> 00:19:43.647
I said, "It's not just you.

00:19:43.647 --> 00:19:45.750
You're not the only one
who goes through this."

00:19:45.750 --> 00:19:47.698
And she did lose friends.

00:19:47.698 --> 00:19:49.698
They grew away from her.

00:19:50.642 --> 00:19:52.825
- So I was kind of nervous coming here

00:19:52.825 --> 00:19:55.845
and hanging out with
these four other girls.

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I'm very thankful I got to
kind of re-adjust my lens

00:20:00.249 --> 00:20:02.348
and really bond with them.

00:20:02.348 --> 00:20:04.290
The way that this experience has helped me

00:20:04.290 --> 00:20:07.806
reconnect and rebuild friendships

00:20:07.806 --> 00:20:10.931
is just by living with them

00:20:10.935 --> 00:20:14.177
and really kind of bonding with them.

00:20:14.323 --> 00:20:16.573
(laughing)

00:20:19.911 --> 00:20:24.078
- Tori specifically doesn't
fit into a box at all.

00:20:27.409 --> 00:20:30.660
- She was very uncomfortable
and nervous about

00:20:30.660 --> 00:20:32.373
building friendships and relationships,

00:20:32.373 --> 00:20:35.689
but she was also very
open and excited about it

00:20:35.689 --> 00:20:37.106
at the same time.

00:20:38.326 --> 00:20:40.044
And I feel like that first month,

00:20:40.044 --> 00:20:43.968
that first getting-to-know-you
was hard for all of them,

00:20:43.968 --> 00:20:45.543
not her in particular.

00:20:47.988 --> 00:20:49.721
There was a lot of selfishness --

00:20:49.721 --> 00:20:52.138
"This is what I want my Caretaker
program to look like." --

00:20:52.138 --> 00:20:54.473
and then realizing that's
not what it was gonna

00:20:54.473 --> 00:20:57.729
be at all because it was a
constantly evolving thing.

00:20:57.729 --> 00:21:00.233
So the first month especially
was a lot of getting

00:21:00.233 --> 00:21:04.400
to know each other and letting
go of our expectations.

00:21:05.553 --> 00:21:08.303
(birds calling)

00:21:13.838 --> 00:21:15.560
- So when we're
caretaking, we're mirroring

00:21:15.560 --> 00:21:16.703
what the animals are going through,

00:21:16.703 --> 00:21:18.688
we're mirroring what nature
is experiencing at the time.

00:21:18.688 --> 00:21:21.026
So the animals are busy
building their shelters

00:21:21.026 --> 00:21:22.574
and getting ready for winter,

00:21:22.574 --> 00:21:24.940
so that's what the
girls are going through.

00:21:35.507 --> 00:21:38.672
- We kind of mixed and
matched ideas in the beginning

00:21:38.672 --> 00:21:40.543
where we were thinking, "Oh, it'd be cool

00:21:40.543 --> 00:21:41.818
if we did it this way."

00:21:41.818 --> 00:21:44.643
So we had an idea of
how we wanted to do it.

00:21:48.686 --> 00:21:50.599
(pickaxe thudding)

00:21:50.599 --> 00:21:52.449
- Or I could go get the other one.

00:21:53.884 --> 00:21:56.649
- So building the shelter
using just hand tools

00:21:56.649 --> 00:21:59.306
was challenging, but it was fun as well

00:21:59.306 --> 00:22:03.473
because we got to figure out
how we wanted to move things

00:22:03.608 --> 00:22:05.763
and what tools would work.

00:22:06.205 --> 00:22:10.119
It was cool not using
a chainsaw or anything

00:22:10.119 --> 00:22:12.119
that needed electricity.

00:22:18.206 --> 00:22:22.373
You did more work and you
had to use more strength.

00:22:29.472 --> 00:22:33.270
- So many people are just
used to the typical lifestyle

00:22:33.270 --> 00:22:36.293
that we have that they can't imagine

00:22:36.293 --> 00:22:38.164
not having cable,

00:22:38.164 --> 00:22:40.439
not having electricity,

00:22:40.439 --> 00:22:42.615
not having the core things of life that

00:22:42.615 --> 00:22:46.182
they view as instrumental in survival.

00:22:49.798 --> 00:22:53.040
- I've actually been
really glad to step away

00:22:53.040 --> 00:22:55.630
from all that technology and push it aside

00:22:55.630 --> 00:22:57.848
and take a break from it for a year

00:22:57.848 --> 00:22:59.681
and not be so focused.

00:23:00.990 --> 00:23:03.368
'Cause once you're not
so addicted to your phone

00:23:03.368 --> 00:23:07.244
and you actually experience,
fully, what's going on,

00:23:07.244 --> 00:23:10.603
you're like, "Oh wow, there's
a chickadee in that tree!"

00:23:10.603 --> 00:23:13.726
And you can find all this
cool awareness and tracking

00:23:13.726 --> 00:23:16.493
and you're like, "Wow, I
didn't know there was that

00:23:16.493 --> 00:23:17.492
turkey track.

00:23:17.492 --> 00:23:19.828
Wow, that's so cool!"

00:23:19.828 --> 00:23:20.661
Whoa.

00:23:22.056 --> 00:23:24.105
Sorry, there was a woodpecker.

00:23:24.105 --> 00:23:26.900
- When someone finds their
medicine, it's them finding

00:23:26.900 --> 00:23:29.979
their own innate gifts to the world.

00:23:29.979 --> 00:23:33.088
It is slowing down enough, it
is getting real with yourself.

00:23:33.088 --> 00:23:35.685
It's drawing that line
in your own personal sand

00:23:35.685 --> 00:23:38.727
so that you can find what
your gift to the world is.

00:23:38.727 --> 00:23:40.710
It's not what your parents
wants your gift to be,

00:23:40.710 --> 00:23:43.028
it's not what society
wants your gift to be.

00:23:43.028 --> 00:23:45.430
It's not how you should be
molded in by your peer group

00:23:45.430 --> 00:23:47.243
to be a certain way.

00:23:47.243 --> 00:23:50.365
It's you finding your own
place of personal power,

00:23:50.365 --> 00:23:53.238
'cause that is a place of
passion, and that is a place

00:23:53.238 --> 00:23:55.413
that will help steer you and guide you

00:23:55.413 --> 00:23:57.580
for the rest of your life.

00:23:59.455 --> 00:24:02.180
(soft music)

00:24:04.536 --> 00:24:05.916
- [Girl Filming] Thea.

00:24:06.524 --> 00:24:07.607
A rare breed.

00:24:10.326 --> 00:24:12.659
- Can't see me now, can you?

00:24:21.109 --> 00:24:23.410
- [Tori] Thea's very
good at what she does.

00:24:23.410 --> 00:24:25.493
She's a very hard worker.

00:24:26.989 --> 00:24:29.851
She's very passionate about kung fu.

00:24:29.851 --> 00:24:31.627
She has that confidence.

00:24:31.627 --> 00:24:33.350
She's a really amazing cook.

00:24:33.350 --> 00:24:36.018
I remember she made really good cake

00:24:36.018 --> 00:24:39.518
and she made all these
really amazing meals.

00:24:39.518 --> 00:24:40.868
(ax chopping)

00:24:40.868 --> 00:24:42.285
She's a good one.

00:24:43.941 --> 00:24:45.524
Hannah's hilarious.

00:24:46.757 --> 00:24:50.924
She's very talented as
well, and she loves fishing

00:24:51.333 --> 00:24:55.500
and she loves hanging out
and having good times,

00:24:55.518 --> 00:24:57.685
and it's fun watching her.

00:24:59.240 --> 00:25:01.453
Maddee is very fun as well.

00:25:01.453 --> 00:25:04.953
She loves horses and she's very confident.

00:25:05.984 --> 00:25:08.813
Like, whenever she's talking she always

00:25:08.813 --> 00:25:10.949
has that confidence ready to go.

00:25:11.966 --> 00:25:14.027
Emma's a really cool person.

00:25:14.027 --> 00:25:17.707
She's so brave, and
she loves being outside

00:25:17.707 --> 00:25:21.207
and she's very good at knowing her skills.

00:25:34.902 --> 00:25:38.785
A "sit spot" is a place where you can sit

00:25:39.250 --> 00:25:42.305
just feeling whatever comes to you.

00:25:42.305 --> 00:25:45.070
It can take five minutes,

00:25:45.070 --> 00:25:46.614
maybe up to an hour.

00:25:46.614 --> 00:25:48.780
However long you want it to be.

00:25:50.764 --> 00:25:53.779
Okay, this is cool I'll just
sit here for 20 minutes.

00:25:54.779 --> 00:25:55.788
(sighing)

00:25:55.788 --> 00:25:56.621
I'm bored.

00:25:57.572 --> 00:25:59.604
When's breakfast?

00:25:59.604 --> 00:26:00.939
I'm cold.

00:26:00.939 --> 00:26:02.139
What am I supposed to
be getting from this?

00:26:02.448 --> 00:26:03.285
Hmm.

00:26:03.910 --> 00:26:06.049
Hey, the sun feels really warm.

00:26:06.716 --> 00:26:07.549
Wow!

00:26:09.708 --> 00:26:11.598
They look so happy.

00:26:11.598 --> 00:26:13.265
And look down there.

00:26:14.267 --> 00:26:15.100
How neat.

00:26:16.177 --> 00:26:17.708
(soft instrumental rock music)

00:26:18.433 --> 00:26:20.411
Do I hear something behind me?

00:26:21.437 --> 00:26:22.270
Oh!

00:26:22.755 --> 00:26:23.909
(squirrel chirping)

00:26:25.209 --> 00:26:27.116
It's kind of funny but I swear I can smell

00:26:27.116 --> 00:26:29.548
the grass and the dirt
when the wind blows.

00:26:29.565 --> 00:26:31.515
It's almost like I can taste it.

00:26:32.073 --> 00:26:34.611
I'm just going to close my
eyes and really concentrate

00:26:34.611 --> 00:26:36.093
on what's around me.

00:26:37.043 --> 00:26:39.347
It's so quiet and peaceful.

00:26:39.347 --> 00:26:41.097
It makes me feel really good.

00:26:42.585 --> 00:26:44.723
I want this feeling to last.

00:26:45.564 --> 00:26:48.397
(soft instrumental rock music)

00:26:50.192 --> 00:26:53.014
It's been a few weeks and
I feel so much more calm

00:26:53.014 --> 00:26:55.273
and aware from doing these sits.

00:26:55.273 --> 00:26:58.533
I even feel aware of being
more in control of myself,

00:26:58.533 --> 00:27:01.207
which really does make me more confident.

00:27:01.865 --> 00:27:04.223
(soft instrumental rock music)

00:27:12.118 --> 00:27:14.320
I try to do one twice a day now.

00:27:14.970 --> 00:27:18.220
It just makes me happy to do sit spots.

00:27:20.977 --> 00:27:24.310
(soft ambient music)

00:27:29.814 --> 00:27:32.122
(birds calling)

00:27:37.331 --> 00:27:41.023
...just kind of really
paying attention to the birds

00:27:41.023 --> 00:27:45.017
and the wind and everything
that was around me,

00:27:45.017 --> 00:27:48.325
and it was a really cool feeling.

00:27:49.359 --> 00:27:51.518
And then I start to lay
down and just kind of

00:27:51.518 --> 00:27:52.768
look at the clouds, it's like,

00:27:52.768 --> 00:27:56.097
"Hmm, it's been a while since
I really watched clouds."

00:27:56.097 --> 00:28:00.264
And see little different
shapes and compare them and...

00:28:01.777 --> 00:28:03.444
It's a cool feeling.

00:28:07.053 --> 00:28:09.169
(geese calling)

00:28:13.666 --> 00:28:16.482
- Being on the mountain
for one year requires

00:28:16.482 --> 00:28:20.065
a lot of reflection
and a lot of self time.

00:28:30.526 --> 00:28:33.109
(rain falling)

00:28:34.312 --> 00:28:37.864
- We got to live with
the forces of nature.

00:28:37.864 --> 00:28:40.977
We got to really feel all four elements.

00:28:41.577 --> 00:28:43.744
(ax chopping)

00:28:47.561 --> 00:28:51.728
'Cause doing Caretaker, we'd
have meal times and stuff, but,

00:28:52.523 --> 00:28:55.481
it was just kind of a slowing down,

00:28:55.481 --> 00:28:57.981
turning off your mind chatter...

00:29:00.851 --> 00:29:04.018
...and fully being in the present moment.

00:29:06.362 --> 00:29:09.050
(rain pattering)

00:29:09.567 --> 00:29:12.073
When you're in a house
and you experience all

00:29:12.073 --> 00:29:15.031
four elements, you always
know, "What's the weather

00:29:15.031 --> 00:29:15.907
going to be like tomorrow?

00:29:15.907 --> 00:29:18.792
Is it gonna snow? Is it gonna rain?

00:29:18.792 --> 00:29:20.190
What's gonna happen next?"

00:29:20.190 --> 00:29:24.357
But we didn't really know
how things were gonna be

00:29:24.416 --> 00:29:25.889
the next day.

00:29:25.889 --> 00:29:28.783
We're all, like, bunkered
down in our shelter.

00:29:29.425 --> 00:29:30.950
Woo.

00:29:30.950 --> 00:29:34.209
It was fun and exciting
and kind of like...

00:29:34.209 --> 00:29:38.376
It was windy and rainy and
trees were falling everywhere.

00:29:38.517 --> 00:29:41.975
It was crazy energy just everywhere.

00:29:43.288 --> 00:29:45.105
And it was just all over the place

00:29:45.105 --> 00:29:46.855
and stuff was flying.

00:29:47.773 --> 00:29:50.910
There was a huge tree
that...it just completely

00:29:50.910 --> 00:29:54.982
snapped and went over
and luckily it didn't

00:29:54.982 --> 00:29:56.878
crush anybody.

00:29:56.878 --> 00:29:58.718
Man I was freaking out in
the middle of the night

00:29:58.718 --> 00:30:01.743
'cause I just heard this
(makes crashing noises)

00:30:01.743 --> 00:30:02.576
Oh, gosh.

00:30:05.321 --> 00:30:08.865
- So you guys have made
it through the hump.

00:30:08.865 --> 00:30:13.032
Those first three or four months
is really the transition --

00:30:14.534 --> 00:30:18.460
when we go from patterns
and routines and electronics

00:30:18.460 --> 00:30:21.998
and family and friends and phones

00:30:21.998 --> 00:30:26.165
and city, and every whim and
need being able to be met

00:30:26.214 --> 00:30:28.986
in an instant, and driving
in cars and moving our bodies

00:30:28.986 --> 00:30:32.353
extremely rapidly and
our minds even quicker,

00:30:33.869 --> 00:30:35.202
to slowing down.

00:30:39.845 --> 00:30:40.678
And...

00:30:44.651 --> 00:30:45.818
...digging holes,

00:30:46.773 --> 00:30:48.106
and sawing wood.

00:30:49.130 --> 00:30:51.130
Carrying your own water.

00:30:52.804 --> 00:30:54.919
And sleeping with the earth,

00:30:55.861 --> 00:30:57.957
and listening to the birds

00:30:58.749 --> 00:31:01.582
and detoxing from that rapid pace.

00:31:03.529 --> 00:31:07.696
- I just feel extremely present
right now for some reason,

00:31:07.933 --> 00:31:09.528
which feels really good.

00:31:10.236 --> 00:31:12.344
(birds calling)

00:31:24.576 --> 00:31:26.175
- The shelter they chose was not a quick,

00:31:26.175 --> 00:31:27.592
easy shelter to build.

00:31:29.350 --> 00:31:31.105
- [Tori] I don't think
we ever got sick of it,

00:31:31.105 --> 00:31:35.272
but there were times where
there was some tension

00:31:35.918 --> 00:31:38.535
so we took a break from
working for a while.

00:31:38.535 --> 00:31:42.702
And then we would come back
and be on it and ready to go

00:31:43.472 --> 00:31:45.105
and be like, "Okay, we're gonna do this,

00:31:45.105 --> 00:31:47.031
we're gonna get it done, let's go."

00:31:47.031 --> 00:31:50.647
Like, there were times where
we dug out the mud room

00:31:50.647 --> 00:31:53.221
and rain had come in a
couple of days before

00:31:53.221 --> 00:31:55.553
and it was just a pool,
so we were in there

00:31:55.553 --> 00:31:58.119
sloshing around and digging it out.

00:31:59.261 --> 00:32:02.626
That happened two or three
times, so we just had to

00:32:02.626 --> 00:32:05.502
keep digging it and
getting it out of there.

00:32:06.177 --> 00:32:09.565
Some of us were more
motivated than others.

00:32:09.565 --> 00:32:12.546
So sometimes it would be
two of us, sometimes three,

00:32:12.546 --> 00:32:14.174
sometimes four,

00:32:14.174 --> 00:32:16.228
sometimes it would be
all five but we would

00:32:16.228 --> 00:32:18.344
be rotating kind of thing.

00:32:18.344 --> 00:32:21.696
- The shelter building was
probably the biggest argument

00:32:21.696 --> 00:32:24.720
they had continually all
year, and it was definitely

00:32:24.720 --> 00:32:27.129
the biggest contention point.

00:32:27.129 --> 00:32:30.281
Just the fairness and the
equanimity of the work.

00:32:30.281 --> 00:32:32.249
- Yeah, and that was a massive
project that they chose

00:32:32.249 --> 00:32:33.082
to undertake.

00:32:33.082 --> 00:32:34.782
And then look at what materialized.

00:32:34.796 --> 00:32:37.923
A huge rainstorm comes and
dumps six inches of rain here

00:32:37.923 --> 00:32:41.050
in the Red Valley, and a stream
opens up and starts running

00:32:41.050 --> 00:32:43.946
through their shelter
that they're building.

00:32:43.946 --> 00:32:45.656
So now nature is interacting with us

00:32:45.656 --> 00:32:48.481
and it's helping to bring
all of this to the surface.

00:32:51.533 --> 00:32:55.700
- When other people are
fighting it freaks me out

00:32:55.874 --> 00:32:59.882
'cause I'm scared that
they're gonna hurt each other,

00:32:59.882 --> 00:33:03.244
either verbally, physically, mentally,

00:33:03.244 --> 00:33:06.763
and I'm just scared that
things are gonna happen

00:33:06.763 --> 00:33:08.495
between each other.

00:33:08.995 --> 00:33:09.828
Yeah.

00:33:12.931 --> 00:33:16.733
- She's a great person to
kind of be a facilitator

00:33:16.733 --> 00:33:20.130
for people if they're having
angst or if they have issues.

00:33:20.130 --> 00:33:22.188
She's incredibly sensitive.

00:33:22.846 --> 00:33:24.998
- [Joe] We're solving all the problems.

00:33:24.998 --> 00:33:27.176
We're not burying them,
we're not suppressing them.

00:33:27.176 --> 00:33:28.009
Right?

00:33:28.009 --> 00:33:30.220
We're not sweeping them under the rug.

00:33:30.220 --> 00:33:31.670
We're just bringing them
up to the light of day,

00:33:31.670 --> 00:33:34.371
and talking about it as loving adults.

00:33:34.371 --> 00:33:37.037
- And be honest, and it's okay
if things don't get resolved.

00:33:37.037 --> 00:33:38.893
You're allowed to be pissed off and grumpy

00:33:38.893 --> 00:33:40.866
and no one has to fix it.

00:33:40.866 --> 00:33:43.839
Just speaking it will
take you very, very far

00:33:43.839 --> 00:33:46.056
into resolving the issues.

00:33:46.056 --> 00:33:47.996
Just knowing where everyone is coming from

00:33:47.996 --> 00:33:50.406
and what's going on in
the head will change

00:33:50.406 --> 00:33:53.660
your guys' perspective of
each other and yourselves.

00:33:54.177 --> 00:33:55.186
Yes?

00:33:55.419 --> 00:33:57.543
- [Tori] Gooooo team.

00:33:57.543 --> 00:34:00.126
- Tori tends to be a peacemaker,

00:34:00.981 --> 00:34:05.019
and I thought that they
probably have a lot in common.

00:34:05.019 --> 00:34:08.436
So maybe this is gonna help her socially.

00:34:10.758 --> 00:34:12.425
- I had this friend.

00:34:14.373 --> 00:34:16.124
He would always apologize.

00:34:16.124 --> 00:34:18.210
He would always be like, "Oh, I'm sorry."

00:34:18.210 --> 00:34:19.771
He would miss homework and he'd be like,

00:34:19.771 --> 00:34:21.247
"Oh shoot, I'm sorry."

00:34:21.247 --> 00:34:24.471
And then, I don't know why,
but I somehow picked it

00:34:24.471 --> 00:34:26.046
up from him, I think.

00:34:26.046 --> 00:34:28.464
Like, "Huh, that's really interesting."

00:34:28.464 --> 00:34:32.631
He had problems with school bullying

00:34:33.656 --> 00:34:37.190
and he ended up deciding

00:34:37.190 --> 00:34:40.265
that he couldn't take it anymore.

00:34:40.269 --> 00:34:42.877
And just ended it.

00:34:46.400 --> 00:34:49.659
There were a lot of kids
that were upset about it.

00:34:51.973 --> 00:34:53.623
(somber music)

00:35:14.763 --> 00:35:16.747
(wind blowing)

00:35:20.919 --> 00:35:23.336
(somber music)

00:35:30.112 --> 00:35:33.286
- Winter for a caretaker
-- you sleep a lot,

00:35:33.286 --> 00:35:35.953
you eat a lot, because it's very cold.

00:35:35.953 --> 00:35:37.800
Your body is re-adjusting to learning

00:35:37.800 --> 00:35:41.664
how to function outside, so
there's a whole physical process

00:35:41.664 --> 00:35:44.364
of adjusting to the cold
that you go through.

00:35:46.301 --> 00:35:48.801
It's a very slow time of year.

00:35:50.175 --> 00:35:52.175
It's very introspective.

00:35:57.247 --> 00:35:59.297
(cat meowing)

00:36:05.054 --> 00:36:07.971
(soft ambient music)

00:36:19.117 --> 00:36:21.117
It's a very social time.

00:36:24.766 --> 00:36:27.034
- [Girl] Nice shallow snow for them.

00:36:27.634 --> 00:36:29.017
- Yes.

00:36:29.625 --> 00:36:31.142
(laughing)

00:36:44.523 --> 00:36:47.023
(dog barking)

00:36:54.661 --> 00:36:57.161
(ax chopping)

00:36:59.031 --> 00:37:01.991
- The clear blue sky after fresh snowfall,

00:37:01.991 --> 00:37:04.117
when everything is quiet
and there's no insects

00:37:04.117 --> 00:37:08.284
and you can just go out and
have untracked wilderness...

00:37:08.794 --> 00:37:10.794
That is an amazing time.

00:37:15.365 --> 00:37:17.576
- So for this wander,

00:37:17.576 --> 00:37:21.010
we have been told by
both Joe and Amanda that

00:37:21.010 --> 00:37:22.858
we're not really supposed to talk.

00:37:22.858 --> 00:37:26.579
The only way we can talk
is if we need to figure out

00:37:26.579 --> 00:37:28.579
which route we're going.

00:37:43.336 --> 00:37:45.747
(fire crackling)

00:37:46.705 --> 00:37:48.505
- We used to hang out
around the fire at night,

00:37:48.505 --> 00:37:52.037
and now we have this
television set which flickers

00:37:52.037 --> 00:37:55.418
just like a fire, and
it draws our attention

00:37:55.418 --> 00:37:57.292
just like you can wander off into a fire.

00:37:57.292 --> 00:37:59.611
It draws our attention,
but it is imprinting us

00:37:59.611 --> 00:38:01.294
with other realities.

00:38:01.902 --> 00:38:03.369
(fire crackling)

00:38:09.986 --> 00:38:11.154
(laughing)

00:38:11.154 --> 00:38:12.973
- Oh god, it's so cold! Do it.

00:38:12.973 --> 00:38:14.085
Do it.

00:38:14.085 --> 00:38:14.918
(laughing)

00:38:14.918 --> 00:38:16.326
- It's so friggin' cold.

00:38:22.938 --> 00:38:25.688
Ahhhh.
(laughing)

00:38:34.263 --> 00:38:36.513
(laughing)

00:38:37.459 --> 00:38:40.376
(soft ambient music)

00:38:41.812 --> 00:38:42.739
- [Girl] What are you doing?

00:38:42.739 --> 00:38:45.820
- I don't know. I'm being entertaining.

00:38:46.495 --> 00:38:49.995
- So we think we ran into some fox tracks.

00:38:51.441 --> 00:38:54.462
Bobcat or fox, it looks like.

00:38:54.462 --> 00:38:57.225
Maybe even coyote, a small coyote.

00:38:57.983 --> 00:39:00.894
But, the point, there's
like points on the ends

00:39:00.894 --> 00:39:01.894
of the feet.

00:39:02.783 --> 00:39:05.044
There's a point here, a
point here, and a point here.

00:39:05.044 --> 00:39:07.277
Which makes me think it's fox.

00:39:07.277 --> 00:39:09.629
It's totally... well, it's going uphill.

00:39:09.629 --> 00:39:11.296
It's three by three.

00:39:12.711 --> 00:39:15.294
Is it a gallop or, like, a lope?

00:39:16.630 --> 00:39:20.327
- Tracking is so much more than
just imprints on the ground.

00:39:20.327 --> 00:39:22.031
It's in everyone's DNA.

00:39:22.031 --> 00:39:23.272
Everyone is a tracker.

00:39:23.272 --> 00:39:24.518
Parents track their kids.

00:39:24.518 --> 00:39:26.239
If they're coughing down the hallway,

00:39:26.239 --> 00:39:27.657
they know if their kid
if clearing their throat

00:39:27.657 --> 00:39:28.972
or if they're about to get sick

00:39:28.972 --> 00:39:30.072
or if they're choking on something.

00:39:30.739 --> 00:39:33.568
Kids, they know when Dad
comes home and the car keys

00:39:33.568 --> 00:39:36.615
hit the counter if Dad's
had a good day or a bad day.

00:39:37.690 --> 00:39:39.359
- [Tori] Tracking is so fun.

00:39:39.359 --> 00:39:41.610
I used to watch old movies
where people tracked

00:39:41.610 --> 00:39:44.693
and I thought it was so
made up, but it's real.

00:39:45.543 --> 00:39:48.050
You know what else is
so cool about tracking

00:39:48.050 --> 00:39:50.676
is that it uses the right artistry side

00:39:50.676 --> 00:39:53.817
and the left scientific
side of your brain equally.

00:39:53.817 --> 00:39:56.801
Most tracks you will see
will either be canine,

00:39:56.801 --> 00:39:59.760
which are dogs, or feline, which are cats.

00:39:59.761 --> 00:40:02.725
We'll use both a bobcat
and coyote footprint

00:40:02.725 --> 00:40:04.099
to learn the differences.

00:40:04.099 --> 00:40:06.592
There are five basic things to look at.

00:40:06.592 --> 00:40:09.258
One, the number of toes
and their placement.

00:40:09.258 --> 00:40:11.660
Two, toe pad shape.

00:40:11.660 --> 00:40:14.467
Three, are there visible toe nails?

00:40:14.467 --> 00:40:17.126
Number four, heel pad shape.

00:40:17.134 --> 00:40:19.740
Five, negative space.

00:40:19.740 --> 00:40:23.178
On the bobcat track, we
see four toes all near

00:40:23.178 --> 00:40:24.682
the top of the track.

00:40:24.682 --> 00:40:28.405
The toe pad shape on the
bobcat is a teardrop.

00:40:28.405 --> 00:40:31.175
Do you see any toenails in the track?

00:40:31.175 --> 00:40:33.325
Nope, me either.

00:40:33.325 --> 00:40:35.573
There is a double lobe on the top here,

00:40:35.573 --> 00:40:37.940
and a triple lobe on the bottom here.

00:40:37.940 --> 00:40:39.139
Negative space?

00:40:39.139 --> 00:40:41.541
On felines, there's a sideways C --

00:40:41.541 --> 00:40:44.449
or as I like to think of it, as a rainbow.

00:40:44.449 --> 00:40:47.252
Let's switch now to the
canine, or dog, family.

00:40:47.252 --> 00:40:49.378
Here's a typical coyote track.

00:40:49.378 --> 00:40:51.802
The outer toes, number one and four,

00:40:51.802 --> 00:40:54.811
are further back and look
like they are kind of behind

00:40:54.811 --> 00:40:56.843
the number two and the number three.

00:40:56.843 --> 00:40:59.939
On our coyote track, the
toes are more rounded.

00:40:59.939 --> 00:41:00.779
Toenails?

00:41:00.779 --> 00:41:02.037
Yes indeed.

00:41:02.037 --> 00:41:03.218
Heel pad shape?

00:41:03.218 --> 00:41:06.906
Top is a single lobe, and
the bottom is a double lobe.

00:41:06.906 --> 00:41:07.862
Negative space?

00:41:07.862 --> 00:41:10.609
On our coyote, as with all canines,

00:41:10.609 --> 00:41:12.745
there is a distinctive X.

00:41:12.745 --> 00:41:15.313
Look at these two tracks side by side.

00:41:15.313 --> 00:41:17.012
Do you see the difference?

00:41:17.012 --> 00:41:20.154
Coyote on the right, and
the bobcat on the left.

00:41:28.760 --> 00:41:31.342
- Anytime you catch
yourself telling yourself

00:41:31.342 --> 00:41:34.259
something which is from self-doubt,

00:41:36.351 --> 00:41:39.249
I'm gonna ask you guys to
write that in your journal.

00:41:40.240 --> 00:41:43.157
And then put in its place what you want

00:41:43.791 --> 00:41:47.416
so you can re-program any
time you create self-doubt.

00:41:48.584 --> 00:41:52.001
It comes up all the damn
time, for everybody.

00:41:53.470 --> 00:41:56.334
I want you to keep that
in the back of your mind,

00:41:56.334 --> 00:41:59.067
whatever internal self-talk
which is just taking away

00:41:59.067 --> 00:42:00.617
your power and energy.

00:42:02.247 --> 00:42:03.480
"I'm fatigued."

00:42:03.480 --> 00:42:04.534
"I'm angry."

00:42:04.534 --> 00:42:06.068
"I suck."

00:42:06.068 --> 00:42:08.722
"I can't finish any of these skills."

00:42:08.722 --> 00:42:10.973
Any of that self-talk, right,

00:42:10.973 --> 00:42:14.466
that's from that lower
vibration and negativity,

00:42:14.466 --> 00:42:18.183
I'm just asking you guys
to be consciously aware of.

00:42:20.919 --> 00:42:22.537
Equally, when you're just supercharged

00:42:22.695 --> 00:42:24.605
and having that amazing day,

00:42:24.605 --> 00:42:28.439
everything's flowing -- that
love is from you as well.

00:42:30.550 --> 00:42:31.815
- There will be days we'll be like,

00:42:31.815 --> 00:42:34.853
"Ugh, she's mad at me so
I'm gonna go off over here,"

00:42:34.853 --> 00:42:36.093
and "That person's mad at me,

00:42:36.093 --> 00:42:38.103
I'm gonna go off over there."

00:42:38.103 --> 00:42:41.441
And, like, eventually
you'll come back and do

00:42:41.441 --> 00:42:45.608
a group talk and say, "Okay,
this is bothering me."

00:42:45.862 --> 00:42:49.520
Even though we had these
little knots in the rope,

00:42:49.520 --> 00:42:52.872
we can always figure it out.

00:42:52.872 --> 00:42:55.581
In my experience, when
I don't talk it out,

00:42:55.581 --> 00:42:58.255
it's like having a bottle
that you just stuff

00:42:58.255 --> 00:43:00.422
all of your emotions into.

00:43:01.744 --> 00:43:05.911
I've been journaling
about my life and things

00:43:05.912 --> 00:43:08.268
that happened in the past.

00:43:08.268 --> 00:43:12.435
It feels good to be able
to write it down on paper

00:43:12.975 --> 00:43:16.247
so it's not constantly up here.

00:43:16.247 --> 00:43:18.080
Get it somewhere else.

00:43:20.212 --> 00:43:23.207
"You have earned the visit to this planet.

00:43:23.207 --> 00:43:27.201
You can waste it in loitering
here and go nowhere,

00:43:27.201 --> 00:43:30.784
or you can achieve the life of being you."

00:43:34.490 --> 00:43:37.522
As winter was setting in,
it was interesting watching

00:43:37.522 --> 00:43:41.689
the days getting shorter and
shorter, and it was funny

00:43:41.951 --> 00:43:43.824
'cause at the end of
the day you were like,

00:43:43.824 --> 00:43:45.623
"I'm going to bed at four o'clock.

00:43:45.623 --> 00:43:47.901
Like, what the heck?"
(laughing)

00:43:47.901 --> 00:43:50.568
"This is when babies go to bed."

00:43:51.537 --> 00:43:54.387
It was cool, because we were
tired by the end of the day

00:43:54.387 --> 00:43:58.220
so we just kind of got
to relax and settle in.

00:43:59.322 --> 00:44:03.485
Just sit by a nice cozy
wood-burned fire in our shelters

00:44:03.485 --> 00:44:05.731
and we would stay up a little bit longer

00:44:05.731 --> 00:44:08.398
and read books and tell stories.

00:44:13.210 --> 00:44:14.043
- Oh god.

00:44:16.444 --> 00:44:18.302
(laughing)

00:44:23.027 --> 00:44:24.787
- Talk about your snow showers.

00:44:24.787 --> 00:44:26.779
- [Girl Filming] Yeah.

00:44:26.779 --> 00:44:27.612
Seriously.

00:44:29.266 --> 00:44:31.393
Well, we get to track
today, which is great.

00:44:31.393 --> 00:44:32.407
- Yes!

00:44:33.074 --> 00:44:36.832
- After the storm there's
always that calm breath,

00:44:36.832 --> 00:44:39.163
and taking time in that
calm break in between

00:44:39.163 --> 00:44:43.330
the snowstorms or the rainstorms
to go sit and listen to

00:44:44.355 --> 00:44:46.908
the sounds of winter, and
listen to the raindrops

00:44:46.908 --> 00:44:51.075
and the melting snow and see
where the animals are moving.

00:45:01.252 --> 00:45:04.802
- Creative free time in
our daily life is huge.

00:45:05.834 --> 00:45:07.466
(soft ambient music)

00:45:07.466 --> 00:45:09.229
- So you sit around the fire and you work

00:45:09.229 --> 00:45:12.663
on your bow or your snowshoes
or your cordage making.

00:45:13.687 --> 00:45:16.604
(soft ambient music)

00:45:19.874 --> 00:45:22.374
(cat purring)

00:45:24.345 --> 00:45:27.262
(soft ambient music)

00:45:37.966 --> 00:45:40.466
(cat purring)

00:45:43.947 --> 00:45:45.717
♪ Ron Weasley ♪

00:45:45.717 --> 00:45:46.735
♪ Dumbledore ♪

00:45:46.735 --> 00:45:50.228
♪ Snape, Snape, Severus Snape ♪

00:45:50.228 --> 00:45:54.331
♪ Harry Potter, Harry Potter,
Harry Potter, Harry Potter ♪

00:45:54.331 --> 00:45:59.331
♪ Hermione, Hermione,
Ron, Ron, Ron Weasley ♪

00:45:59.457 --> 00:46:01.303
♪ Dumbledore ♪

00:46:01.303 --> 00:46:04.472
♪ Snape, Snape, Severus Snape ♪

00:46:04.714 --> 00:46:06.590
- You kind of see it.

00:46:06.773 --> 00:46:09.765
- Any skill that we practice,
whether it is flint knapping

00:46:09.765 --> 00:46:12.816
or bow making, you're
building a relationship

00:46:12.816 --> 00:46:15.187
with yourself through that process.

00:46:15.187 --> 00:46:17.442
Sports players talk
about being in the zone

00:46:17.442 --> 00:46:19.379
for a particular game.

00:46:19.379 --> 00:46:21.575
So all of sudden everything
just comes together

00:46:21.575 --> 00:46:23.379
and it's flowing and
happening and you're really

00:46:23.379 --> 00:46:25.137
good at what you're doing.

00:46:25.137 --> 00:46:27.701
The skills, flint knapping for example,

00:46:27.701 --> 00:46:30.245
teaches you if you hit the rock wrong,

00:46:30.245 --> 00:46:32.350
then your piece breaks in half.

00:46:33.000 --> 00:46:35.640
But if you're listening
to the rock and you hit it

00:46:35.640 --> 00:46:37.829
in the right place, you
get the perfect flake

00:46:37.829 --> 00:46:41.242
to come off and you end up
with a beautiful piece of art.

00:46:41.809 --> 00:46:42.642
It's an art form.

00:46:42.642 --> 00:46:45.181
No two people are going to
do something the same way,

00:46:45.181 --> 00:46:49.200
so it's individual expression of yourself.

00:46:49.200 --> 00:46:51.496
The skills are extremely
important for that.

00:46:51.496 --> 00:46:52.329
- Come on.

00:46:53.410 --> 00:46:56.421
- Because we all have
something big and important

00:46:56.421 --> 00:46:59.092
to share with the world
and with each other

00:46:59.092 --> 00:47:01.175
and with ourselves, even.

00:47:02.613 --> 00:47:05.930
All of these skills give
us the opportunity to have

00:47:05.930 --> 00:47:08.680
an outlet for sharing who we are.

00:47:16.615 --> 00:47:18.465
Winter, there is a lot of just hanging out

00:47:18.465 --> 00:47:20.173
and getting to know each other.

00:47:22.396 --> 00:47:24.354
(fire crackling)

00:47:25.254 --> 00:47:27.557
- I was sitting up
against this big oak tree

00:47:27.557 --> 00:47:31.001
and I, like, turned around
and looked and there's

00:47:31.001 --> 00:47:34.588
this big striped skunk waddling towards me

00:47:34.588 --> 00:47:36.072
and he didn't know I was there.

00:47:36.072 --> 00:47:38.619
Gonna walk right up on
me and I don't want him

00:47:38.619 --> 00:47:40.286
to spray me or bite me.

00:47:41.156 --> 00:47:44.196
And then I turned around and he was, like,

00:47:44.196 --> 00:47:46.688
standing up with his tail in the air.

00:47:46.688 --> 00:47:49.512
It was like we had a
face off or something.

00:47:49.512 --> 00:47:50.595
And then, I don't know why,

00:47:50.595 --> 00:47:54.103
but I started walking towards
it and it turned around

00:47:55.920 --> 00:47:57.411
and loped off.

00:48:00.640 --> 00:48:03.129
- There are a lot of people
who are afraid of foxes.

00:48:03.129 --> 00:48:05.055
There's a lot of people
who are afraid of coyote,

00:48:05.055 --> 00:48:06.583
or afraid of a bobcat.

00:48:06.583 --> 00:48:08.455
These are really benign animals.

00:48:08.455 --> 00:48:10.560
These animals do not harm humans.

00:48:10.560 --> 00:48:13.253
They don't seek out and hunt humans.

00:48:14.261 --> 00:48:16.844
(rain falling)

00:48:19.930 --> 00:48:22.364
(crickets chirping)

00:48:24.924 --> 00:48:26.916
(soft piano music)

00:48:37.511 --> 00:48:39.158
- When February, March hits,

00:48:39.158 --> 00:48:41.054
the temperature gets a little bit warmer

00:48:41.054 --> 00:48:42.795
and it's still raining and cold,

00:48:42.795 --> 00:48:44.806
and we're still working
on building our shelters

00:48:44.806 --> 00:48:46.632
and we're still working
on all these projects.

00:48:46.632 --> 00:48:48.200
It's still very internal.

00:48:48.200 --> 00:48:51.494
But you can find a sunny
spot a little bit more often.

00:48:51.494 --> 00:48:53.350
You can lay in the sun and read your book

00:48:53.350 --> 00:48:55.133
for half the day instead
of trying to huddle

00:48:55.133 --> 00:48:57.216
by the fire to stay warm.

00:48:59.111 --> 00:49:01.727
You can stay outside a little bit later.

00:49:02.802 --> 00:49:05.862
(soft piano music)
(birds calling)

00:49:05.862 --> 00:49:08.376
- Sap is flowing in the trees again.

00:49:08.376 --> 00:49:11.065
Birds are coming back and returning.

00:49:11.849 --> 00:49:13.873
(birds calling)

00:49:15.651 --> 00:49:17.940
Flowers are popping up.

00:49:17.940 --> 00:49:20.635
We're starting now to
come out of that shell

00:49:20.635 --> 00:49:23.629
and we're starting to go back
into an expansiveness again,

00:49:23.629 --> 00:49:26.340
to prepare ourselves for
the bounty of summer.

00:49:26.857 --> 00:49:30.282
(water splashing)

00:49:31.056 --> 00:49:33.631
(soft piano music)

00:49:40.248 --> 00:49:43.177
- Wandering in the wilderness is probably

00:49:43.177 --> 00:49:44.927
my favorite thing to do.

00:49:46.834 --> 00:49:49.081
Most people like going for
walks, and this is just

00:49:49.081 --> 00:49:52.899
a walk in the woods without
time or destination.

00:49:52.899 --> 00:49:57.038
Young kids love going on
adventures and adults do, too,

00:49:57.038 --> 00:49:58.422
they just sometimes forget that they

00:49:58.422 --> 00:50:00.505
like going on adventures.

00:50:01.838 --> 00:50:04.675
- Walking without a destination
is actually kind of cool,

00:50:04.675 --> 00:50:06.807
'cause when you're just
kind of into being like,

00:50:06.807 --> 00:50:09.369
"I have to make this
meeting at four o'clock.

00:50:09.369 --> 00:50:11.967
Holy crap, I'm almost late."
(laughing)

00:50:11.967 --> 00:50:15.309
But if you're just taking
a nice leisurely walk,

00:50:15.309 --> 00:50:18.097
your mind is calmer and
your body is in tune with

00:50:18.097 --> 00:50:19.680
how you're feeling.

00:50:20.521 --> 00:50:23.354
(soft instrumental rock music)

00:50:27.431 --> 00:50:30.033
There were times where,
well at least for me,

00:50:30.033 --> 00:50:33.926
I didn't know what day of the week it was,

00:50:33.926 --> 00:50:36.176
or what time of day it was.

00:50:37.327 --> 00:50:39.160
I'd just be on a wander and like,

00:50:39.160 --> 00:50:41.328
"Huh, I wonder what time is it?"

00:50:41.328 --> 00:50:45.495
And just kind of learning
not to rely so much on time

00:50:46.192 --> 00:50:50.183
but just kind of, like,
being with yourself.

00:50:52.047 --> 00:50:54.870
- If we carry fear, an
animal is gonna smell

00:50:54.870 --> 00:50:57.452
and detect that fear
versus if we are carrying

00:50:57.452 --> 00:50:59.358
a sense of awe and a sense of,

00:50:59.358 --> 00:51:02.041
"This animal has something to teach us."

00:51:03.920 --> 00:51:06.404
When these caretakers
came upon a black bear

00:51:06.404 --> 00:51:10.373
20 feet away, they all
had collectively a sense

00:51:10.373 --> 00:51:13.127
of reverence and awe and wonder and going,

00:51:13.127 --> 00:51:15.365
"Wow," versus, "Oh my god, this animal

00:51:15.365 --> 00:51:17.773
is gonna try to kill and eat us."

00:51:18.423 --> 00:51:20.628
- That was, like, the
first wild bear for me.

00:51:20.628 --> 00:51:23.461
It was just like, "Oh my goodness!"

00:51:25.064 --> 00:51:26.510
"Whoa!"

00:51:26.510 --> 00:51:29.278
And I was just freaking
out inside of my head.

00:51:29.278 --> 00:51:32.775
I was like, "I saw a wild
bear with all my friends!

00:51:32.775 --> 00:51:34.956
God, this is so great!"

00:51:35.506 --> 00:51:38.008
It was so freakin' amazing.

00:51:38.008 --> 00:51:41.841
I had never felt so much
gratitude in my life.

00:51:45.380 --> 00:51:48.546
- When you don't talk, at some point

00:51:48.546 --> 00:51:52.296
your disturbance bubble
shrinks and comes in.

00:51:54.886 --> 00:51:57.136
(birds chirping)

00:52:05.319 --> 00:52:08.823
So as your disturbance bubble comes in,

00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:12.814
your awareness bubble
stretches out beyond that.

00:52:12.814 --> 00:52:15.842
And then your awareness
passes your concentric ring,

00:52:15.842 --> 00:52:17.387
you start to be aware of animals

00:52:17.387 --> 00:52:18.795
before they're aware of you.

00:52:21.233 --> 00:52:22.832
- [Tori] Let's say you
and your friends decide

00:52:22.832 --> 00:52:25.829
to go out to the woods and
you brought your dog, too.

00:52:25.829 --> 00:52:26.987
Here's what happens.

00:52:27.304 --> 00:52:30.072
You're all just cracking
jokes and laughing.

00:52:30.330 --> 00:52:32.997
You're creating a big disturbance.

00:52:32.997 --> 00:52:35.311
The chickadee standing
on the branch overhead

00:52:35.311 --> 00:52:37.407
sends out an alarm call, which is quickly

00:52:37.407 --> 00:52:39.446
heard by a robin down on the ground

00:52:39.446 --> 00:52:41.645
who responds its own alarm call.

00:52:42.162 --> 00:52:44.118
If you review it from above,

00:52:44.118 --> 00:52:47.993
you start to notice concentric
rings going out like this.

00:52:48.666 --> 00:52:51.809
Next, a junco alarms a little further out,

00:52:51.809 --> 00:52:53.163
and a squirrel hears it.

00:52:53.163 --> 00:52:56.066
The concentric ring's expanding outward.

00:52:56.066 --> 00:52:57.227
The stellar jay hears,

00:52:57.227 --> 00:53:00.380
and finally there's a
deer quietly eating grass

00:53:00.380 --> 00:53:01.612
at the edge of the woods.

00:53:01.612 --> 00:53:05.128
It's very relaxed until
it hears the stellar jay.

00:53:06.620 --> 00:53:09.293
If the deer gets really
spooked, it will run off,

00:53:09.293 --> 00:53:12.112
sending an alarm call even further out.

00:53:12.112 --> 00:53:14.728
So in this way, the animals
of the forest communicate

00:53:14.728 --> 00:53:17.122
with each other even
though they each speak

00:53:17.122 --> 00:53:18.926
their own language.

00:53:18.926 --> 00:53:21.070
(soft instrumental rock music)

00:53:22.020 --> 00:53:25.723
You can learn so much from bird language.

00:53:25.723 --> 00:53:28.140
You can learn where the hawks are,

00:53:28.140 --> 00:53:29.808
where the owls are,

00:53:29.808 --> 00:53:32.069
where the fox is moving,

00:53:32.069 --> 00:53:34.202
where there's a kill sight,

00:53:34.202 --> 00:53:35.854
where the nests are.

00:53:35.854 --> 00:53:39.200
You're able to tell where things are

00:53:39.200 --> 00:53:42.358
by how the bird is reacting.

00:53:43.832 --> 00:53:46.528
For example, this stellar
jay over here is alarming,

00:53:47.978 --> 00:53:52.145
so I know either someone
is in his territory.

00:53:52.145 --> 00:53:54.785
He's kind of telling him to "Go away!"

00:53:54.785 --> 00:53:58.624
One song might be, "Yay, today
is happy, today is great.

00:53:58.624 --> 00:54:00.626
La la la la la."
(laughing)

00:54:00.626 --> 00:54:02.750
And then another baseline might be like,

00:54:02.750 --> 00:54:04.388
"Psh! Psh! Psh!"

00:54:04.388 --> 00:54:06.950
Like, "Stay away, this is my area!"

00:54:06.950 --> 00:54:09.183
Or, "You're not supposed to be here!"

00:54:09.183 --> 00:54:12.655
And kind of this little
battle that's going on

00:54:12.655 --> 00:54:15.322
between one species and another.

00:54:17.934 --> 00:54:21.851
- [Joe] We have a license to
pick up roadkill to teach from.

00:54:21.851 --> 00:54:23.955
There's so much that
the animal has to offer,

00:54:23.955 --> 00:54:26.518
and it's not just meat.

00:54:26.518 --> 00:54:29.049
- A lot of people, the first
time they have a dead animal

00:54:29.049 --> 00:54:31.277
and it's being opened up in front of them,

00:54:31.277 --> 00:54:35.060
there's a visceral reaction
to a thing that was living

00:54:35.060 --> 00:54:37.473
that is now dead that we're now using.

00:54:38.206 --> 00:54:40.456
(scraping)

00:54:44.927 --> 00:54:46.902
- We make tools from everything.

00:54:46.902 --> 00:54:50.036
Watching a student work
a hide their first time,

00:54:51.137 --> 00:54:55.304
there is a internal re-aligning
of their thought process.

00:54:57.643 --> 00:54:59.782
And they see that it is a living membrane

00:54:59.791 --> 00:55:03.330
and it's responding to their
movement and their touch.

00:55:03.847 --> 00:55:06.736
That animal is always
honored through that process.

00:55:06.736 --> 00:55:09.660
You think of it each time
you pull that packet out

00:55:09.660 --> 00:55:11.726
of the freezer to eat, or
you think of it every time

00:55:11.726 --> 00:55:15.318
you grab that hide bag that
carries your stuff in it.

00:55:16.090 --> 00:55:18.686
So imagine what that's
like for indigenous people

00:55:18.686 --> 00:55:22.286
to have that connection with
everything, all of the time.

00:55:32.474 --> 00:55:36.641
- The first time I heard
about people hunting animals

00:55:36.710 --> 00:55:38.236
I was like, "What? People do that?"

00:55:38.236 --> 00:55:41.869
Like, they're beautiful
and animals are incredible.

00:55:41.869 --> 00:55:43.874
Why do you need to shoot them?

00:55:43.874 --> 00:55:46.610
But when I learned that people did that

00:55:46.610 --> 00:55:50.321
in order to survive, then I
gradually became comfortable

00:55:50.321 --> 00:55:51.940
and understood it better.

00:55:51.940 --> 00:55:55.026
I was like, "Oh, okay,
so that makes sense."

00:55:55.843 --> 00:55:58.593
(birds chirping)

00:56:03.429 --> 00:56:04.517
(arrow releasing)

00:56:06.800 --> 00:56:07.883
(arrow releasing)

00:56:12.645 --> 00:56:15.562
(soft piano music)

00:56:21.286 --> 00:56:23.480
- When we talked in
December, I was confident

00:56:23.480 --> 00:56:27.130
that she was going to be
fine for the entire year.

00:56:28.181 --> 00:56:30.470
I was even wondering,
is she ever coming back?

00:56:30.470 --> 00:56:32.287
(laughing)

00:56:34.001 --> 00:56:36.751
- I love every part of Caretaker.

00:56:38.814 --> 00:56:41.147
I would prefer to stay here.

00:56:43.376 --> 00:56:47.543
And I would totally be here
for years and years and years.

00:56:48.994 --> 00:56:50.408
Yes.

00:56:50.408 --> 00:56:51.908
It's been awesome.

00:56:53.062 --> 00:56:55.294
"Only one thing came to mind.

00:56:55.294 --> 00:56:58.202
Stay grounded. Be present with yourself

00:56:58.202 --> 00:56:59.922
and what you are doing.

00:56:59.922 --> 00:57:00.839
Be aware."

00:57:03.565 --> 00:57:05.665
(water flowing)

00:57:11.104 --> 00:57:13.735
I was coming down and I
was following the stream

00:57:13.735 --> 00:57:16.046
all the way from main camp one time,

00:57:16.046 --> 00:57:17.877
and I found this area,

00:57:17.877 --> 00:57:20.904
and it was just roaring with water.

00:57:20.904 --> 00:57:25.071
And it was, like, going 10
times fast as it was right now.

00:57:25.935 --> 00:57:29.069
It was just like, "Whoa,
this is so great!"

00:57:29.069 --> 00:57:31.192
And, like, just feeling the energy.

00:57:31.192 --> 00:57:33.442
The water is like, "Woooo."

00:57:43.802 --> 00:57:47.436
Blindfolded exercises are so awesome.

00:57:47.436 --> 00:57:51.056
They're a way to take
away a sense in order

00:57:51.056 --> 00:57:52.889
to enhance the others.

00:57:57.833 --> 00:58:00.482
The slower you go, the better it will be

00:58:00.482 --> 00:58:03.482
and the more experience you'll have.

00:58:33.259 --> 00:58:34.984
We're getting really,
really close to our shelter,

00:58:34.984 --> 00:58:36.151
which is, yay.

00:58:37.494 --> 00:58:39.121
This is very exciting.

00:58:39.813 --> 00:58:42.480
(tarp scraping)

00:58:43.942 --> 00:58:46.025
This is our shelter trug.

00:58:46.978 --> 00:58:50.291
And that's through the roof, underground.

00:58:50.291 --> 00:58:52.956
We had a spotted owl come in

00:58:52.956 --> 00:58:56.013
and would watch us when
we were working sometimes.

00:58:56.013 --> 00:58:58.548
And he would just kind
of sit in the branches

00:58:58.548 --> 00:59:01.222
and just hang out with us, and that was

00:59:01.222 --> 00:59:03.055
a really awesome gift.

00:59:05.023 --> 00:59:07.746
So pretty much what we
have left is the rest of

00:59:07.746 --> 00:59:11.755
the shingles we have to do,
and then bury it with dirt

00:59:11.755 --> 00:59:13.380
and we'll be done.

00:59:15.333 --> 00:59:17.788
The nature can just pretty much take over

00:59:17.788 --> 00:59:21.701
and have everything start
to grow and become camo,

00:59:21.701 --> 00:59:25.868
so then fox trailers or
people who come up this path

00:59:26.074 --> 00:59:29.341
can have, like, absolutely no
idea that there's a shelter

00:59:29.341 --> 00:59:31.636
right here. And we thought that would be

00:59:31.636 --> 00:59:34.514
a super-awesome shelter to have.

00:59:34.514 --> 00:59:38.676
People can pretty much walk
on top of it and just not even

00:59:38.676 --> 00:59:42.601
think to have a shelter
beneath their feet.

00:59:42.601 --> 00:59:44.512
And we can just be in
our shelter and be like,

00:59:44.512 --> 00:59:47.151
"Ha ha ha, there's someone on our shelter

00:59:47.151 --> 00:59:49.571
and they don't even know."
(laughing)

00:59:50.729 --> 00:59:53.646
(soft ambient music)

00:59:55.812 --> 00:59:57.842
- We found a amanita mushroom.

00:59:58.475 --> 00:59:59.308
- Really?

00:59:59.308 --> 01:00:00.141
Oh sorry.

01:00:02.830 --> 01:00:04.005
(laughing)

01:00:07.882 --> 01:00:10.465
(rain falling)

01:00:33.675 --> 01:00:36.508
(thunder booming)

01:00:45.967 --> 01:00:48.800
(soft instrumental rock music)

01:01:07.543 --> 01:01:09.793
(laughing)

01:01:12.663 --> 01:01:14.652
- It tastes like...?

01:01:14.652 --> 01:01:15.652
- Wheat grass.

01:01:17.884 --> 01:01:19.967
I don't like wheat grass.

01:01:21.678 --> 01:01:22.817
- [Amanda] And then the inner part that's

01:01:22.817 --> 01:01:23.980
all white and soft?

01:01:23.980 --> 01:01:26.891
Yeah, if you peel all the way
down to that, you can eat it.

01:01:26.891 --> 01:01:28.641
- It slipped through!

01:01:29.579 --> 01:01:32.412
(soft instrumental rock music)

01:01:48.427 --> 01:01:51.194
- Yes, there's miner's lettuce,
and this is chickeweed.

01:01:53.182 --> 01:01:55.349
And you can eat that, too.

01:01:58.103 --> 01:02:00.855
- This is a really cool nibble.

01:02:00.855 --> 01:02:01.688
It is...

01:02:02.709 --> 01:02:03.542
...a...

01:02:04.662 --> 01:02:06.102
...cedar tree.

01:02:06.102 --> 01:02:09.566
Which has, like, these
little green bits here,

01:02:09.566 --> 01:02:11.816
and you just munch on them.

01:02:13.418 --> 01:02:14.585
They're pretty good.

01:02:16.142 --> 01:02:18.975
(soft instrumental rock music)

01:02:23.814 --> 01:02:26.202
- You never really know something

01:02:26.202 --> 01:02:28.715
until you've learned to teach it.

01:02:28.715 --> 01:02:32.714
Taking something from being able to do it,

01:02:32.714 --> 01:02:36.035
and then being able to
share it with someone else

01:02:36.035 --> 01:02:37.727
in a way that they can understand it

01:02:37.727 --> 01:02:41.894
and learn it, rounds out
your understanding of a skill

01:02:42.333 --> 01:02:44.729
in a way that nothing else does.

01:02:44.729 --> 01:02:48.507
- Going from Caretaker
and then jumping into

01:02:48.507 --> 01:02:51.989
summertime energy, it was a little like,

01:02:51.989 --> 01:02:53.289
"Oh. Kids.

01:02:53.827 --> 01:02:56.448
There's gonna be more than
five people on the mountain.

01:02:56.448 --> 01:02:58.528
This is gonna be fun."

01:02:59.120 --> 01:03:01.016
But it was cool, though.

01:03:01.016 --> 01:03:03.556
Once we got our teaching groups together

01:03:03.556 --> 01:03:06.564
we were able to just be with the energy.

01:03:10.704 --> 01:03:12.672
- One thing you don't wanna do is run,

01:03:12.672 --> 01:03:14.582
'cause food runs.

01:03:14.582 --> 01:03:16.779
You don't wanna be...

01:03:16.779 --> 01:03:18.435
You don't wanna be chased after.

01:03:18.435 --> 01:03:20.045
And that's not gonna happen
'cause we're gonna be

01:03:20.045 --> 01:03:22.948
all together but, in general,

01:03:22.948 --> 01:03:24.436
give the animals their space,

01:03:24.436 --> 01:03:25.388
don't look them in the eye,

01:03:25.388 --> 01:03:27.721
and come to your instructor.

01:03:28.808 --> 01:03:30.316
(laughing)

01:03:33.618 --> 01:03:34.785
- That's true.

01:03:39.899 --> 01:03:43.566
- Star thistle, it is
a pretty invasive weed

01:03:44.514 --> 01:03:45.347
and it has

01:03:46.645 --> 01:03:49.804
these thorn needles on them.

01:03:49.804 --> 01:03:53.683
And they hurt when the
little kids step on them, so,

01:03:53.683 --> 01:03:56.990
we take them out so
they don't come back in

01:03:56.990 --> 01:03:58.823
full fledge next year.

01:04:09.143 --> 01:04:11.626
- Fire's important, but
it's not the second order

01:04:11.626 --> 01:04:12.596
of survival.

01:04:12.596 --> 01:04:13.429
Yes?

01:04:13.429 --> 01:04:14.262
- [Child] Try to find a water source.

01:04:14.262 --> 01:04:15.095
- Nice.

01:04:15.095 --> 01:04:17.512
Shelter, and then it's water.

01:04:22.621 --> 01:04:25.788
(children chatting)

01:04:32.595 --> 01:04:35.925
- [Joe] Having the youth
learn the caretaking skills,

01:04:35.925 --> 01:04:38.606
young people take to this
so much quicker and easier

01:04:38.606 --> 01:04:39.606
than adults.

01:04:41.330 --> 01:04:42.801
- [Boy] Is this one good?

01:04:42.801 --> 01:04:45.296
- [Joe] Young people have
less layers to get through

01:04:45.296 --> 01:04:46.730
and they're more open.

01:04:46.730 --> 01:04:50.138
Whereas adults, you know,
there's other patterns

01:04:50.138 --> 01:04:52.706
and there are other ruts
and other false beliefs

01:04:52.706 --> 01:04:55.207
and routines that we get into as an adult.

01:04:55.207 --> 01:04:57.389
And sometimes getting
out of those deep ruts

01:04:57.389 --> 01:05:01.018
and routines can be difficult
and scary and unnerving.

01:05:01.018 --> 01:05:04.033
So when we learn those
caretaker principles

01:05:04.033 --> 01:05:07.178
at a young age, we are much
more susceptible to being

01:05:07.178 --> 01:05:10.922
open to change, and we're
much more susceptible to being

01:05:10.922 --> 01:05:13.249
open to other opinions and ideas.

01:05:13.866 --> 01:05:16.033
(metallic hammering)

01:05:18.138 --> 01:05:19.096
- There was this one little girl

01:05:19.096 --> 01:05:20.813
and she was looking at the willow.

01:05:20.813 --> 01:05:23.276
It was either the morning
dew or it had rained

01:05:23.276 --> 01:05:27.280
just the previous day, and
she tapped on the willow

01:05:27.280 --> 01:05:31.447
and all the water came down
and she was like, "Oh, cool!"

01:05:31.843 --> 01:05:34.183
And she was playing with
the leaves and watching the

01:05:34.183 --> 01:05:38.350
water come down, and she
connected with the willow.

01:05:38.463 --> 01:05:40.921
And it was a beautiful moment to watch.

01:05:40.921 --> 01:05:42.946
And her dad and Hannah were just like,

01:05:42.946 --> 01:05:44.498
"Whoa, did you see that?

01:05:44.498 --> 01:05:46.335
That was so cool."

01:05:46.335 --> 01:05:48.725
And then we were just all pumped that she

01:05:48.725 --> 01:05:51.099
made that connection and
just watching the leaves

01:05:51.099 --> 01:05:53.487
and watching the little droplets fall.

01:05:53.929 --> 01:05:56.219
♪ Skip around the room ♪

01:05:56.219 --> 01:05:58.207
♪ Skip around the room ♪

01:05:58.207 --> 01:06:00.118
♪ Skip around the room ♪

01:06:00.118 --> 01:06:01.793
- Doing a circle, or a group check-in,

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helps to bring honesty,
and to teach that you can

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voice something which is
seemingly confrontational.

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You can voice it in an open, loving way.

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You can have two different
opposing opinions.

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It just means they have a
different opinion from me.

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They're seeing something
from a different angle.

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So it's bringing the
humility, and seeing through

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someone else's eyes, and
that's a part of healing

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and growth.

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(laughing)

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(cheering)

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- Summer is wrapping up.

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We're having a closing ceremony

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of Caretaker on Monday,

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and then everyone will be departing.

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It'll be hard seeing everyone go.

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(birds chirping)

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But, it'll be good.

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We got all of these different
tools and experiences and

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adventure in our memory.

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I love these guys.

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I love the mountain.

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This was something I really needed.

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I don't have to go back to those old ruts.

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I can just jump to this
new thing and feel better

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about myself and say, "Yes! I can do this

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by myself, or I can do this with the help

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and support of my friends as well."

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- Thank you guys for being here and doing

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what you do.

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It is a pretty unbelievable
transformation.

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And where your guys'
awareness was this summer

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and your teaching and all of it was...

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...it was awesome.

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Well done, and thank you.

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We're gonna miss you guys.

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- This year has really meant a lot to me.

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When I started hanging out with you guys,

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I found that new edge of
being able to hang out

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with other girls again,

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and it felt good to be with you guys

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and I learned a lot from
each of you as well.

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(chatting and laughing)

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(soft piano music)

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(laughing)

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- Love and gratitude are
just antidotes to anger

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and negative emotions.

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Love and gratitude is something
that, if you value it,

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it'll change you quicker
than anything else.

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So time and nature helps
to bring that about.

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My biggest hope for
these five caretakers is

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how to be a happier, healthier
human on this planet.

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And to navigate through
any of the challenges

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they might face with a little more joy

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and a little more awareness
of a bigger picture.

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(soft piano music)

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- Bye, friend.

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Love you.

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(soft piano music)

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It's been a good one.

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Holding love

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and compassion.

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Gratitude.

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No, I'll just put it right
here next to your generator.

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Yeah.

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Love and gratitude.

01:10:49.301 --> 01:10:52.134
(soft instrumental rock music)

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- When she left, she
was still a little girl

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in so many ways. And when she came back,

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she wasn't.

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- As soon as I went walking
towards the first big piece

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of luggage and picked it
up, she just cut me off

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and she goes, "No, no, no, I've got it."

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And it was probably as big as she was,

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but there was no way she was
gonna let me carry that bag.

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And it was the kind of look where I wasn't

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gonna argue with her,
'cause she wasn't asking me.

01:11:48.659 --> 01:11:51.492
(soft instrumental rock music)

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- She determined that Hocking
College was a good fit for her

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and that first term worked
out very, very well for her.

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She did so well, and
she met a lot of people

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and she fit right in.

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- I've noticed that I'm
a social butterfly now,

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and I love being around
people and making new friends

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whereas before, I was so shy.

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And I'm more like, "Oh hi,
how's it goin'? I'm Tori."

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(upbeat acoustic guitar music)

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- When she got her grades, there was an A

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and there was another A.

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- We were just jumping around,
screaming, "Yay, yay, yay!"

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It was like, that's never happened before,

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and that kind of made me tear up.

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♪ I'm feeling pretty fresh, yeah ♪

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♪ I'm feeling pretty stable ♪

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♪ Feeling really blessed, yeah ♪

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♪ I'm feeling really grateful ♪

01:12:52.653 --> 01:12:55.986
(upbeat acoustic guitar music)

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♪ Just as the birds sing ♪

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♪ Early in the morning ♪

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♪ They come at night ♪

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♪ That's how you excite me ♪

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♪ You all sold me ♪

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♪ Inspire me to be upright ♪

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♪ Yeah, I'm inspired by you ♪

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♪ I'm inspired by you ♪

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♪ I'm inspired by your light ♪

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♪ Yeah, I'm inspired by you ♪

01:13:29.545 --> 01:13:31.896
♪ I'm inspired by you ♪

01:13:31.896 --> 01:13:34.497
♪ I'm inspired by your light ♪

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♪ Your light ♪

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(soft, slow string music)