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All of a sudden there\'s this hormone thing

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happening things\'ll pop and
I can remember to this day

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the sound of the giggles and

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the boys and nobody explained to me
other than old boys will be boys.

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And girls get to be girls.

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I think if I was brought up
with the opportunity to have

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self-love or to appreciate my body

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Maybe a different person.

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I don\'t remember anyone
I was sitting down and

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saying this is how you are in
the world with your breasts.

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This is how you can just be who you are
aligned to hide my sensuality and order two

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a woman be accepted.

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My breasts have been hugely
influential on the person I have

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become because of my negative
relationship with them.

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You know we may be called on to know different
things at different times in history.

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But if we can\'t use our
bodies are sacred bodies to

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know then we are going to miss
that stream of information.

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There\'s something there\'s something that is

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more than what we are being
told or seeing there\'s more

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I would say the first time I became aware of
my breasts would be like giggly wiggly with

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girls sleepovers and you know
it\'s like you hide under

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your t-shirt and they\'re like there\'s

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all this like you know
displaced emotion and whatnot.

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And there\'s nothing there and you\'re
covering your nipples just in case you know

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and and I think there\'s also that legality
of like it\'s all safe in the snippet

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You know it\'s like no nipple no nipple.

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There was no talk about breasts
in my house growing up at Canyon.

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I remember my first Brom my mom taking me
for my first Brian there was nothing about

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puberty like I don\'t remember any talk about
it and still we don\'t talk about nothing.

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There was no guidance absolutely nothing.

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The only thing I ever remember from my
childhood from anyone in my family was

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my grandmother who always
said I have perfect press.

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She would always say. I
never nurse their perfect.

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I have perfect little nipples
may have perfect breasts.

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And I thought to myself well nobody touches
them and you\'re going to die like that.

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So who cares

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I can remember being like five or six and
being told now you have to wear a top.

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And it\'s one of those memories that
always sort of goes back and my brain.

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And I remember being really
confused because it was hot out.

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Why boys didn\'t have to
wear shirts and girls did.

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And I don\'t think any answer
I got was ever satisfactory.

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But I remember a piece a
sham there of why do I have

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to do this what\'s wrong with me it was
like cover this up. Don\'t show this.

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I think I developed really
early and like kindergarten

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or first grade where I was running
around the playground and I was

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Bobbing my line bu bi\'s were
moving and the teacher noticed.

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And I\'m sure I don\'t know
the exact story but I\'m

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sure she called my mother because
the very next day I went to

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school with a bra I wasn\'t
taught anything about

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my breasts and I wasn\'t
taught to love them.

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I wasn\'t taught to you really
even look at them just abroad.

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But the shirt on you know if they\'re
moving too much tighter bra.

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I used to play volleyball and after
digging all the women shower together.

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And what I remember is I always felt like
I didn\'t have a problem being naked but

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I felt like they could see that I\'m different
because of my breast looking different

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And I guess there was some sort of shame
around it through a little buds parasites.

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We the real issue was
outside of my family you

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know where to get a
connection to the tenderness.

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I felt there was a beautiful stream in

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these sweet-smelling grasses
and a wild apple tree.

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And I would live there.

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And I always like to be naked.

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I\'ll give them that was dangerous and girls
weren\'t supposed to be in the forest. But

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I love the sun on my body
in the wind touching

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me and nature connected me with what I was
feeling which is I am of the living earth.

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My relationship with my breasts would be.

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Hello I think their grade
there are moments that I

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have where I think there are two small

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through my life that I\'ve
thought they were too small.

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Looking from the side.

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Where are they from the front

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I love them. I\'m actually afraid to have

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sound so bad to have children
because I\'m afraid of what it\'s

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gonna do to my breath I wouldn\'t
have children because of

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that but I\'m a little nervous what
it\'s gonna do them because I do it.

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It\'s probably one of my
favorite parts of my body.

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My relationship with my
breast is very positive.

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I\'m really comfortable with my body.

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I remember like at some point maybe it
was college or something like that.

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That was that saying anymore
than a handfuls of waste.

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So I think I felt like I\'ve gotta hand
in puberty Jay Mansfield was the motto.

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So I thought I was flat
chested and that embarrassed

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me in the eyes of being
attractive to other boys

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I was very aware that they
weren\'t attractive by

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a standard the standard that I saw in
Seventeen magazine or that I saw on the TV.

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The nipples were sort
of pointed up and they

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were just you know rather than being
around and and perfectly even.

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And I had a sense that they
were going to change as I grew.

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But I was embarrassed by them.

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I didn\'t feel that I was attractive
and I wanted to cover up.

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I didn\'t like the shape of
my breasts like for instance

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my sister and me talking better pose
but she\'s got a very perky boobs

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And always had my boobs
however resemble more or like

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my grandmother\'s long and
pendulous my best friend.

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And we used to compare
our breaths actually.

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And she called mine footballs.

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So no I did not like the
shape of my breasts.

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And I think that was part of my just tucking
them away not really being with them.

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You know this body thing is
very very very deep for me.

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If there is an intimacy involved I
can be bold if I feel confident.

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But if it\'s a breast man I don\'t even count

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If there\'s something that
feels like I want to

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cry and it\'s obviously
complicated and deep.

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And it is something that would come
from my conscious and unconscious.

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But it would be something that
would make me feel less than an

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inadequate or not sexual enough.

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And I would have to say
honestly that I would

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overcompensate probably sexually
because of that literally

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because my breast it breaks my heart that my
my step daughter who\'s become my daughter

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She hates her body and I hate that she\'s
carrying that legacy and she just turned 21

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and it would have helped provide

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some sense of what to do to help
and how to guide her width that.

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I feel like there was the desire to have

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bigger breasts and then yeah
the the inverted nipples.

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I can still see myself sitting at

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the doctor\'s office because I
wanted to know if he could make

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my nipples come out just
like everybody else\'s

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and so he started touching
them in making even pictures.

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I believe and telling like the procedure
that okay then this was going to be

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cut and this was going to be glued
on and and all of a sudden I\'m like

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I like I couldn\'t breathe anymore.

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I was like oh my god I made a mistake.

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It was like Why for aesthetic
reasons would I do that and I cut

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my milk channels through and then hoping

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that it will grow back on
again but you never know.

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So I mean it from that point it was
so obvious like okay these statics.

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I mean it\'s important in
lots of ways in my life but

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this is my body this is
this is not what I want

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I watched women morph their breasts.

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I never had breast to work with.

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So you know to watch somebody be central or
sexy or let it linger or it is like I like.

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It\'s shameful from that place
of feeling deformed and

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all the respect that I couldn\'t wear the clothes
that were the clothes in the mod times.

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And so I had to kinda figure
something else out and

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to know that clothes are
made for women with breast.

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It is sad to go looking for clothes
when you don\'t have breasts.

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And you have to work at some weather some of
them and I can hear myself getting quiet.

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So obviously I went looking for clothes
reluctantly to this day. I hate it.

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Breasts have probably influenced
the person I\'ve become.

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Because I think they made me more of

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a free spirit where because I was always
so comfortable with them and like

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the way they looked I was able to go out with
no bra and show my breasts to random people

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On a fun night with friends I wanted to
be noticed I want my brand to be noticed.

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And so that influenced the dressed in a
certain way at certain times to be noticed

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and I got some attention but I also

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got a lot of situations where
I was criticized by women.

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I was a model when I was a teenager.

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And I was chosen for this big show

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absolute models for Boston and it was to

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raise money for the homeless
and it was a very big deal.

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And I was chosen to be the one girl in

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this classic part of the show who
would wear this metallic dress.

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That was a $100 thousand dress made of
silver or something like that. And they

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Show and they put me in the dress
without ever trying it on me.

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And I remember when the dress
came on it just flattened.

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My breasts repressor very pendulous and not
very perky and it just really flatten them.

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And it was very uncomfortable and
I knew they didn\'t look good.

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And they took me out of the dress
for the big show didn\'t even say

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a word to me took me right out
of it and out of that position.

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So heroism that was shattering.

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For sure. Here I was receiving
attention and accolades from

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my looks all the time but as
soon as my breast came into

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the picture it changed the story.

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And they were utterly
in control of my fate.

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I was one of the girls who developed. First

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And fullest and it was hard.

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My family didn\'t have money even though
we acted like we did so I was at

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a private school where I was
already dealing with a lot of

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economic differences a
lot of class problems.

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And then to have moments where I
felt like they like me I realize

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now is because I got boobs
and I\'m different yet again.

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But there\'s something tantalizing

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about my deference that they\'re
willing to overcome that I\'m Other

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I\'m an outsider and I want to be my
friend so they can check it out.

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And in some ways that was probably
that was the tipping point.

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My God a good bra is what it\'s all about.

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The times I have actually gone to a star

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with usually middle aged or
older ladies not women ladies

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lowercase OWL and they measure
and they explain and they

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jiggle and they make sure that I\'m
wearing saw correct size for my body

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It\'s great my shirts fit better.

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They hang differently in my old my old age.

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I just turned 48. But I\'m feeling
older I\'m feeling wiser.

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And and it\'s funny because I began
not to wear a bra at 47 years old.

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I started not wearing bras very often.

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And what I feel from not harnessing
myself every day is just

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ah there\'s a fluidity that happens in

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my movement and in the way I feel
and how I go about the world.

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So there\'s a freedom that we get from
uncovering our breasts. Know about bras

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I wish I didn\'t have to worry when I
don\'t have to wear one but then you have

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the there\'s that line
like that you can cry.

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Some people can say stuff to you can say mean
things to you possibly could be degrading.

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And I don\'t know if I
want to deal with that.

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We follow the rules because that\'s how we

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are raised and the rules around
our breasts are very clear.

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So to think of a whole
neighborhood of women in

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America taken off their shirts to change

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something socially and would
never happen in this culture.

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Our browser way to pretty.

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We have whole catalogs of lingerie
why on earth would we not want to

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show that off Well I think the
consensus of what we have to wear

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Based on how it would look to
someone else high-heeled shoes

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those are terrible for
one\'s feet and ankles

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who who said women should
wear those high-heel shoes.

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Same thing with the breasts.

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Who says you should wear bright you know so
you\'re look better or you\'ll be pushed up.

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But the interesting thing is the materials
that browser made of you know the

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foam foams sometimes it tracks
formaldehyde and other toxins.

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In my little bit of research I don\'t have

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all the conclusive research but I
bet if a little bit of digging that

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the higher incidence of breast
cancer could be related to some of

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the toxic materials used in the bras that
are used to hold up women\'s breasts.

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I think we\'d be a freer culture of women quite
honestly as were restraining ourselves.

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And I think that you know the whole
Women\'s Movement and burning abroad.

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And I think there was a lot
to be said about that.

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It\'s kinda sad because then that\'s probably

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part of the reason that girls or
women don\'t feel as comfortable

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with their breast because they feel
like they have to hide them with

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these bribes narrow padded beg
and they cover the whole thing

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The paradigms that are given to
us and I hope that amongst each

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other at least we can feel
free and safe to expose.

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So I was wearing the scarf this morning
and I actually around my throat.

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Somehow feels that that\'s an area
that needs to be protected at times.

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And then I thought it would be nice to
have a zipper so I can slowly unzip.

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And then under there I decided you
know I knew what I was doing.

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I decided to guess I\'ll I\'ll
take this out to where the bra

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and make that part of
what I wanted to show.

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Because like look what I\'m
what I was saying before

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how did it protects and
and I mean I don\'t know

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if you can see it but when
I\'ll take it off even leaves

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marks on my skin because
it\'s a little bit too tight.

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And you know this is kind of security because
we never really know if my nipples are out.

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So I guess it\'s still a
little bit disconnected.

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Because there are still seeing some more TS

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The first time I\'m really
it\'s like you\'re asking

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the question was the first time
I expose my breast and I\'m

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kinda like John Bill who
who who got it first.

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I would have to say I\'m
definitely in high school

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Did I would certainly it would not be in
the daylight but it would be in a Chevy.

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When I first trivial my breasts and I was
only 14 I pretended I was asleep I didn\'t

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reveal and I let him look and touch
and I loved it but I couldn\'t

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pass a boy or a girl was not allowed
or Catholic or on top of that Yao.

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But I found a way without
being responsible.

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Whenever I would be intimate with someone

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I would always enter the intimacy
aka being naked with sort of you

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know sort of Haiti nervousness

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kind of trying to be sexy but sort of
trying to hide them at the same time.

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It was an interesting dance.

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I can honestly say that I
don\'t even know if I really

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exposed my breasts but there\'s
always the lifting up

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the kinda getting to the
broad and kinda help in

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the mountain maneuver
and it\'s like can he do

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it Guinea and do it it\'s like moist
query for when he can do it.

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And then you know the Brazos
kinda hanging there there\'s no

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lifting the shirt over your head or the
sweater so it\'s up all underneath this stuff.

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So nobody is really looking at

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Yet there at the moment of

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voluntary intimacy in the early years were
actually with girls with a particular.

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She was actually a woman a young
woman a few years older than

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me and it was very different
than it would have been with

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a boy because it wasn\'t the
taboo of the foreign land

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and we both had breasts and hers were
bigger and it made the exploration.

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I think a little more fun.

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Guy wasn\'t charged in the same way.

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It would have been one of the boys.

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One of the first times I had
a boy touched my breast he\'d

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just soon as he got to my
breast he just stopped. Then

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It\'s just awful for me because of course
in my mind who knows what he was thinking.

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But in my mind men I thought he just
he just made just made him stop.

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The whole second base thing.
I didn\'t get it.

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It\'s like okay he\'s got
his hand on my boobs.

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Why it didn\'t feel like anything to
me I had no sensation whatsoever.

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Oh what pleasure Oh isn\'t a pleasure
to have breaths when you make love.

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And you woman who are so multi erotically
centered have many other options.

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But I hope this is one. You won\'t miss

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Oh yes my becoming aware of my breasts.

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As a source of pleasure didn\'t come
tool in my probably in my mid twenties.

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And I was very surprised.

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Okay let\'s talk about nipples.

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My nipples had never
been my erogenous zone.

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So they they it wasn\'t they weren\'t
they weren\'t necessary for play.

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I\'ll never forget this. My friend
told me that she could have

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an orgasm that by having somebody
you know simulator nipples and

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it was like really without the above for me
the blow doesn\'t happen. If you get my drift

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Very obvious that they are the two things
that lead the way my labels are not very

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sensitive which has been

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disappointing and probably why I
don\'t remember the first time.

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Someone touched my breast or maybe
because I was scared to death.

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I was always aware that men.

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The men that I was exploring with wanted to
touch me to touch my breast to arouse them.

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So you know I was trying to hide
that that they weren\'t sensitive

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and trying to sort of act as if they were
nipples absolutely are part of orgasm for me.

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Like bring it on.

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I like to have them stimulated and okay

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let\'s go randomly like I\'ll get colds.
And Austin.

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I feel my nipples like I can
feel them getting so hard.

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They just and it just goes all through me.

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And I can feel it\'s all typically.

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And I\'m like no I\'m very aware of

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my rest that they\'re there and I\'ll touch
them but I\'ll play with my nipples.

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I\'m like it feels kinda guy.

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I was dancing two weeks ago.

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And a young man spoke
poetry to me and my breasts

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And I said I\'m going to have
to tell him I\'m married darn.

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Sometimes I feel that they are an
indirect connection was my Claros.

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Sometimes I feel that they\'re
even more like that.

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It could I could only have I am
not sure if I\'ve experienced that

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but by just being stimulated
through Naples that it\'s orgasmic.

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Well at this particular time because I\'m

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pregnant when my nipples are
touched they\'re pretty sensitive.

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They they burn a little.

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It\'s definitely nothing sexual.

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And I would say that

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It\'s never really been sexual For me.

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I remember many a time when my
nipples were being harassed

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or touched in a in a sexual
way by a partner kinda

00:23:56.269 --> 00:24:00.559
going until they\'ve ever

00:24:00.560 --> 00:24:04.609
done because I felt you know need to
please them they want it they wanna do it.

00:24:04.610 --> 00:24:08.479
Go ahead get it over with please.

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Well my my gardeners say
dim at best kept secret.

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And because he gets to at
times when they\'re in and

00:24:20.015 --> 00:24:26.613
where sexual he gets to play
with them and find swayed to

00:24:26.614 --> 00:24:31.848
Get them out and so I mean he\'s totally
happy with that their relationship I\'m in

00:24:31.849 --> 00:24:33.588
now event together 15 years and

00:24:33.589 --> 00:24:37.504
this the first relationship I\'ve been
in where orgasms were part of it.

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And I suspect it was
probably related to the fact

00:24:40.730 --> 00:24:43.849
that I\'m with someone who is so
into my breasts and my nipples.

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And so having a strong sexual response was a
surprise and having orgasms was a surprise.

00:24:50.795 --> 00:24:58.795
So all of it was a surprise and never occurred
to me that the nipples would my nipples.

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Yes the full-time attached
to would be part of that.

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My husband might be touching me
and my mind is somewhere else.

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I\'m not present

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The actin and he\'ll say for the
weight bad like these connected.

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And I\'ll realize I need
to get in the RAM and

00:25:19.534 --> 00:25:24.109
other times I can feel him wanting
to please me and love me.

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By the way he\'s touching my breast.

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And that will make my nipples are wreck.

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I my breast sensitive.

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It took me until I was 25 to really

00:25:36.019 --> 00:25:41.254
experience what it was like to be
made love to you and me participate.

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That is when I my I would say my nipples

00:25:45.769 --> 00:25:51.843
played a part because my heart pounded
out in my chest through my breath

00:25:51.844 --> 00:25:57.949
and understood that there was something
delicious here and it was love.

00:25:57.950 --> 00:26:01.039
And my body was wet with it.

00:26:01.040 --> 00:26:06.859
My my breast he lived in
a very different way.

00:26:06.860 --> 00:26:13.924
And it was associated with
that place of beauty.

00:26:13.925 --> 00:26:18.574
This is putti is lovemaking was beauty.

00:26:18.575 --> 00:26:19.984
It wasn\'t about sex.

00:26:19.985 --> 00:26:23.404
It was he\'s touching me.

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He\'s kissing me.

00:26:27.280 --> 00:26:30.199
I\'m being loved.

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My nipples my breasts

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Did not feel ashamed.

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I have this one really
amazing and sweet boyfriend.

00:26:42.415 --> 00:26:44.994
And the first time we were intimate.

00:26:44.995 --> 00:26:49.118
He I was doing that funny awkward
dance and I remember he took

00:26:49.119 --> 00:26:53.724
my wrists and he separated my arms
put them back on the bed like that.

00:26:53.725 --> 00:26:57.474
And he looked right in my eyes and
he said your breasts are beautiful.

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Just having someone be positive and

00:27:00.985 --> 00:27:05.738
read my body language and they didn\'t have
to communicate the trauma I\'d had for

00:27:05.739 --> 00:27:10.718
so many years and be able to see
into me and understand when you

00:27:10.719 --> 00:27:13.148
get something and it\'s
physical and emotional and

00:27:13.149 --> 00:27:16.259
spiritual mentally then you\'ve really got

00:27:16.260 --> 00:27:18.979
The whole gestalt and that\'s just the best.

00:27:18.980 --> 00:27:22.848
And it\'s just like five minutes
I\'ve had had an orgasm

00:27:22.849 --> 00:27:27.544
I mean sure that can be and I start
to the day and release my back.

00:27:27.545 --> 00:27:32.959
But that\'s not about my breasts then
that\'s not about the fullness that I feel.

00:27:32.960 --> 00:27:39.094
When I\'ve totally engaged my whole
self were multi-faceted we have

00:27:39.095 --> 00:27:46.174
ovaries we have wounds we have vaginas
we have voiceovers we have chlorous.

00:27:46.175 --> 00:27:48.229
We\'re right side left side.

00:27:48.230 --> 00:27:51.454
We have breath we have nipples.

00:27:51.455 --> 00:27:57.558
So some women will be more inclined
to one part than the other

00:27:57.559 --> 00:28:00.694
And our differences make us strong.

00:28:00.695 --> 00:28:03.299
I want to honor that

00:28:15.760 --> 00:28:18.619
the very things that
bothered me the most about

00:28:18.620 --> 00:28:20.479
my breast had been great for nursing home.

00:28:20.480 --> 00:28:24.319
My nipples are too vague and look how
easy it is for the BMI to see that too

00:28:24.320 --> 00:28:28.939
dark and so BEG without when I\'m not
nursing That\'s a really negative thing.

00:28:28.940 --> 00:28:32.014
But when I am nursing it\'s like
oh it\'s this great design.

00:28:32.015 --> 00:28:36.004
They stick out their easy to
latch onto their easy to find.

00:28:36.005 --> 00:28:39.799
And babies always loved them so
much the pet them and love them and

00:28:39.800 --> 00:28:43.789
That\'s the kinda touch. I love when
you have a baby who\'s nursing on you.

00:28:43.790 --> 00:28:46.429
And they\'re just petting you and looking at

00:28:46.430 --> 00:28:49.218
us and smiling and their
eyes rolling because they\'re

00:28:49.219 --> 00:28:53.058
just getting this wonderful yummy milk and

00:28:53.059 --> 00:28:57.229
they\'re seeing their mom and it\'s
just skin to skin connection.

00:28:57.230 --> 00:28:59.314
That is a sensation I love.

00:28:59.315 --> 00:29:01.338
Initially nursing was like

00:29:01.339 --> 00:29:08.089
our little little ones suck and the
breast not being used to that.

00:29:08.090 --> 00:29:14.119
The thing that also is kind of surprising
with nursing was initially being leaky.

00:29:14.120 --> 00:29:18.078
So having to like if I went into town bring
a few changes are closed because you

00:29:18.079 --> 00:29:22.294
know if the milk let down there
goes the shirt. But ultimately

00:29:22.295 --> 00:29:25.698
I feel really happy that I was able
to do that for my two daughters

00:29:25.699 --> 00:29:30.439
their immune systems are strong of
a wonderful connection to them.

00:29:30.440 --> 00:29:34.219
And I feel like they got
great nourishment from

00:29:34.220 --> 00:29:39.093
a physical bonding as well
as the antibodies and

00:29:39.094 --> 00:29:44.028
all the good vitamins minerals that the
breast milk cans to offer very first time I

00:29:44.029 --> 00:29:50.059
understood my pressed to have another
role was when I was pregnant.

00:29:50.060 --> 00:29:57.934
And I felt my breasts for the first
time because they were more pregnant.

00:29:57.935 --> 00:30:04.563
Then I felt and having
them be pregnant. Felt

00:30:04.564 --> 00:30:11.824
Like I had something to extend and then my
heart made a decision about an abortion.

00:30:11.825 --> 00:30:16.669
Because quite frankly I never
wanted to be a parent to my child.

00:30:16.670 --> 00:30:19.264
The way my parents were parents to me.

00:30:19.265 --> 00:30:26.689
And so I felt them recede
and the sorrow of that.

00:30:26.690 --> 00:30:31.144
But I can honestly say I do not
regret not having children.

00:30:31.145 --> 00:30:39.145
I regret that something inside
me knew something deeper.

00:30:39.920 --> 00:30:44.928
I don\'t think we ever
forget or early experience

00:30:44.929 --> 00:30:52.929
And some babies have a euphoria at their
mother\'s breast other babies have colic.

00:30:52.970 --> 00:30:56.823
And I\'m a psychologist
and I work with adults

00:30:56.824 --> 00:31:00.604
whose character was
affected by the experience.

00:31:00.605 --> 00:31:05.659
And I do absolutely think that a
baby who\'s had that experience

00:31:05.660 --> 00:31:10.639
at their mother\'s breast has that
experience available throughout their life.

00:31:10.640 --> 00:31:16.923
Yes. Well we don\'t talk about the experience
at the breast because our culture wants

00:31:16.924 --> 00:31:20.209
to move away from women\'s
bodies and we\'ve just gone

00:31:20.210 --> 00:31:23.569
through a time and don\'t
forget in the 19 fifties.

00:31:23.570 --> 00:31:27.030
The doctor delivered the baby.

00:31:27.040 --> 00:31:30.514
The woman was the nest the size.

00:31:30.515 --> 00:31:33.739
The baby was taken from her.

00:31:33.740 --> 00:31:37.159
I\'m sorry I guess I I think I got angry.

00:31:37.160 --> 00:31:44.748
All I know is when a culture
decides to disconnect from

00:31:44.749 --> 00:31:48.289
it\'s embodied self they have to
start early and they have to

00:31:48.290 --> 00:31:52.980
start with separating infants
from the mother\'s breast

00:32:08.200 --> 00:32:12.724
A negative relationship was my breast
understand breasts are very powerful.

00:32:12.725 --> 00:32:14.299
They feed us.

00:32:14.300 --> 00:32:18.319
They are the food for our
infants for our babies.

00:32:18.320 --> 00:32:20.329
They\'re the perfect food for them.

00:32:20.330 --> 00:32:21.769
There\'s nothing that they can imitate.

00:32:21.770 --> 00:32:23.899
There is better. Business is huge.

00:32:23.900 --> 00:32:29.014
This is the first thing we depend on
when we come out of the womb to survive.

00:32:29.015 --> 00:32:33.708
And to turn these beautiful tools

00:32:33.709 --> 00:32:38.388
these nurturing and parts of our
bodies into something that is

00:32:38.389 --> 00:32:44.629
improper and anti moral and
should be covered and is

00:32:44.630 --> 00:32:47.478
offensive and please leave
the restaurant or go nurse

00:32:47.479 --> 00:32:50.958
your baby in a bathroom stall.
All this stuff is just

00:32:50.959 --> 00:32:55.459
I saw ridiculous I don\'t
know it just makes me wonder

00:32:55.460 --> 00:32:58.159
what what were we told what

00:32:58.160 --> 00:33:01.384
what happened all of a sudden we
had to cover ourselves as women.

00:33:01.385 --> 00:33:03.739
And what makes it different for men.

00:33:03.740 --> 00:33:10.668
They have breast to why are we so
embarrassed and ashamed and why is it

00:33:10.669 --> 00:33:14.208
always a you know why is it always
speaking for itself I can\'t

00:33:14.209 --> 00:33:18.543
just be that we want to be natural and

00:33:18.544 --> 00:33:23.898
And feel the water when we go
swimming on our breaths and feel

00:33:23.899 --> 00:33:30.964
the air as it coerces feel another
part of our body kinda moving around.

00:33:30.965 --> 00:33:33.078
You know what it would be like
if women can take their tops

00:33:33.079 --> 00:33:35.299
off of the beach it would be like nothing.

00:33:35.300 --> 00:33:40.789
It would be like totally normal
because it\'s just a part of our body.

00:33:40.790 --> 00:33:46.354
My sister and I believe I was my early
twenties and she\'s three years younger.

00:33:46.355 --> 00:33:50.688
We came to America for the first
time on vacation and went to LA

00:33:50.689 --> 00:33:55.309
and we\'re so happy to see the beach
and out of the plane like 120 array.

00:33:55.310 --> 00:34:00.543
So we were ready to go in
the ocean and so we took

00:34:00.544 --> 00:34:06.439
Everything except for our bikini
underwear so to speak and

00:34:06.440 --> 00:34:10.248
tuplets I mean that\'s what we\'re used to in

00:34:10.249 --> 00:34:14.989
Holland and several other places in Europe
where we normally would go on vacation.

00:34:14.990 --> 00:34:19.159
And before we even like could reach
the water there was like a lifeguard

00:34:19.160 --> 00:34:23.449
running after us right away and
and we\'re like what\'s going on.

00:34:23.450 --> 00:34:26.719
And so he we realized that we were

00:34:26.720 --> 00:34:30.528
visiting and we were from Europe
and but he was he took us back

00:34:30.529 --> 00:34:35.778
to our parents because my parents are
supportive of that as well and explain to

00:34:35.779 --> 00:34:38.014
them you know it\'s it\'s really I

00:34:38.015 --> 00:34:41.464
mean I could have arrested them
I could have find them ie.

00:34:41.465 --> 00:34:46.908
This is a big deal and so can you please
tell your daughters to put on their tops

00:34:46.909 --> 00:34:54.739
and I mean I realize like wow did this feeling
of that you have done something wrong.

00:34:54.740 --> 00:34:56.794
I almost feel like we evolved.

00:34:56.795 --> 00:35:00.949
We devolved that at some point we are

00:35:00.950 --> 00:35:05.719
very accepting of women sometimes
covering up for various reasons

00:35:05.720 --> 00:35:08.958
and sometimes taking off
and then shifted and band

00:35:08.959 --> 00:35:14.779
a blame women for being provocative for asking
for something just by exposing themselves.

00:35:14.780 --> 00:35:22.780
This culture seems to have lost some
maturity or ability to maintain control

00:35:23.599 --> 00:35:30.919
the responsibility of maintaining control for
themselves and and put it on a woman and

00:35:30.920 --> 00:35:34.519
say if you\'re if you\'re gonna
do that you\'re causing me to

00:35:34.520 --> 00:35:38.374
act and appropriately
and that makes me mad.

00:35:38.375 --> 00:35:41.433
What is the culture for people who
want to control people I mean

00:35:41.434 --> 00:35:44.509
I think at this point in
time I kinda look and go.

00:35:44.510 --> 00:35:47.749
Oh my gosh you know these
people really have power

00:35:47.750 --> 00:35:51.919
And they can put heavy fines that
can make things uncomfortable.

00:35:51.920 --> 00:35:57.229
They kinda control where money is spent
and where things are are allocated.

00:35:57.230 --> 00:36:00.754
You\'re only exposed when it\'s
supposed to turn somebody on.

00:36:00.755 --> 00:36:06.649
That\'s it that\'s all they\'re used for
is to turn people on and to control us.

00:36:06.650 --> 00:36:10.324
And the way we feel about them and to control
men in the way they feel about them.

00:36:10.325 --> 00:36:17.884
These things these funny globular things
that they do have such power is obvious.

00:36:17.885 --> 00:36:23.659
I would like to live in a culture
where it\'s okay for me to be topless

00:36:23.660 --> 00:36:30.269
and not worry about what it
might mean to someone else

00:36:46.720 --> 00:36:50.208
If you showed a certain amount of body you

00:36:50.209 --> 00:36:53.074
are considered a very naughty
girl or downright a whore.

00:36:53.075 --> 00:36:56.524
So I mean we\'re talking in the fifties
in the sixties and growing up

00:36:56.525 --> 00:37:01.129
where your skirts had to be a certain length
your buttons had to come up a certain way.

00:37:01.130 --> 00:37:06.364
And I didn\'t have a lot of
body image to even SaaS width.

00:37:06.365 --> 00:37:08.239
I have really aren\'t in a postcard.

00:37:08.240 --> 00:37:12.288
I hardly ever see them soft and people have

00:37:12.289 --> 00:37:14.958
Told me they\'re a little put off about it

00:37:14.959 --> 00:37:17.824
but other friends are like
why it\'s great it\'s fine.

00:37:17.825 --> 00:37:19.698
But if I\'m walking down the street or in

00:37:19.699 --> 00:37:22.819
a store and you know I\'m
just there I\'ll hide Lehman.

00:37:22.820 --> 00:37:26.748
They\'re looking at them and there
have been times where I\'ve

00:37:26.749 --> 00:37:30.409
covered you know my nipples
up because a mug is

00:37:30.410 --> 00:37:35.299
this gross is this bad is this trashy the
large breasts were getting me yell dad

00:37:35.300 --> 00:37:40.309
and whistled and all that stuff on
the street and I wanted it to stop.

00:37:40.310 --> 00:37:44.824
So not having breast or having small lots.
I love small.

00:37:44.825 --> 00:37:49.098
To me was a way to be powerful and
it wasn\'t that I didn\'t want to be

00:37:49.099 --> 00:37:54.739
a girl Claiborne raised to like being a
girl but I didn\'t want those damn curves

00:37:54.740 --> 00:37:57.169
that was problematic.

00:37:57.170 --> 00:38:02.149
So I tried to change my body
through controlling it.

00:38:02.150 --> 00:38:07.414
And there\'s this idea that anorexia is
about denying majority or womanhood.

00:38:07.415 --> 00:38:10.774
No I wanted power to be safe.

00:38:10.775 --> 00:38:13.999
And I saw this as a means to do that.

00:38:14.000 --> 00:38:19.579
And always felt strange to me when
people said oh is about denying women.

00:38:19.580 --> 00:38:23.839
Like hey was something
totally different for me.

00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:30.408
It\'s religion really is the
story of Adam and Eve and Eve

00:38:30.409 --> 00:38:33.379
dropped the ball that we could
have gone up for all of

00:38:33.380 --> 00:38:36.888
eternity in our natural cloudless state

00:38:36.889 --> 00:38:40.894
and not have anything to
be wrong but if was bad.

00:38:40.895 --> 00:38:45.829
And therefore I think anything
that calls attention to what is

00:38:45.830 --> 00:38:52.279
uniquely family and about our bodies and
probably also about our way of being is bad.

00:38:52.280 --> 00:38:57.348
I think I had multiple seeds of
confusion planted as a little kid about

00:38:57.349 --> 00:39:03.364
my body because we were a feminist
intelligent educated household.

00:39:03.365 --> 00:39:08.314
I was raised that my body
is a good day verbally.

00:39:08.315 --> 00:39:12.739
But there was sexual abuse
in my life as a kid.

00:39:12.740 --> 00:39:16.369
So while there is a verbal message
of your body is a good thing.

00:39:16.370 --> 00:39:17.674
Love your body.

00:39:17.675 --> 00:39:22.698
Cif Ms. Magazine says love your
body and I had those examples but

00:39:22.699 --> 00:39:27.784
my body was also a place of pain
and confusion from sexual abuse.

00:39:27.785 --> 00:39:30.859
So there\'s always been this this battle of

00:39:30.860 --> 00:39:34.804
what I\'m tot isn\'t always
what is socially taught

00:39:34.805 --> 00:39:39.439
We are down the beach and the
car making out and it was

00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:43.684
like one of those great sexual
moments and it\'s oral sex.

00:39:43.685 --> 00:39:47.790
And often there\'s a knockoff
window and it\'s a policeman.

00:39:49.120 --> 00:39:53.449
And you fumble and you tumble and scary.

00:39:53.450 --> 00:39:57.394
And this that and the policeman is
like my heart speeding right now.

00:39:57.395 --> 00:39:59.959
The policeman said Get dressed.

00:39:59.960 --> 00:40:04.339
And so I\'ve pulled up my pants
that I\'ve taught was on and

00:40:04.340 --> 00:40:08.599
kinda over one side steamy
windows the whole shebang.

00:40:08.600 --> 00:40:15.409
And he said contrast we\'re
taking you home drive her home.

00:40:15.410 --> 00:40:17.029
And I can honestly

00:40:17.030 --> 00:40:19.998
and say that it was the
first time I went in

00:40:19.999 --> 00:40:24.978
saying that I was in that car and
Bill when to start the car and I

00:40:24.979 --> 00:40:28.669
went insane screamed yelled kit

00:40:28.670 --> 00:40:30.829
frantic to the point where

00:40:30.830 --> 00:40:34.309
the policemen came over because I was beating
up on him that you will not take me home.

00:40:34.310 --> 00:40:37.459
You will not take me to my father
because my father would have killed me.

00:40:37.460 --> 00:40:39.649
I mean we got beaten.

00:40:39.650 --> 00:40:42.108
And if I came home with a policeman for

00:40:42.109 --> 00:40:44.929
sexual exposure at the beach
where everybody went to

00:40:44.930 --> 00:40:50.584
make out I can\'t imagine what
would have happened to me.

00:40:50.585 --> 00:40:58.230
Regardless this policeman because he
came he sat down next to me a gun.

00:40:58.360 --> 00:41:01.099
And I just said you can\'t take me home.

00:41:01.100 --> 00:41:04.129
You cannot take me to the house.

00:41:04.130 --> 00:41:11.430
And I think he saw something in me
that I didn\'t know happened to me.

00:41:11.740 --> 00:41:15.499
And I think he understood
what I would have to go

00:41:15.500 --> 00:41:18.618
through for him to be a
good policeman was to

00:41:18.619 --> 00:41:26.010
talk to me in that moment rather than
be take this girl to the gallows.

00:41:27.160 --> 00:41:35.160
And so interestingly enough
I\'m stuffing everything.

00:41:35.855 --> 00:41:41.418
My sexuality just turned off it was. It was

00:41:41.419 --> 00:41:47.073
Be quiet was timed to be
I think safe with myself

00:41:47.074 --> 00:41:53.299
and know that it didn\'t matter what I was
feeling that I wasn\'t telling myself feel it.

00:41:53.300 --> 00:42:01.300
Because the consequences were far too
dangerous truly far too dangerous.

00:42:01.700 --> 00:42:09.604
With sexualized in this culture the body in
these very cut up literally strange ways.

00:42:09.605 --> 00:42:13.099
And so here are all these women running
around with their breast covered up and

00:42:13.100 --> 00:42:16.519
smush so they\'re not going to be really
sensitive because they\'re all smushed.

00:42:16.520 --> 00:42:19.339
And then we cut off the
forest skin of our man.

00:42:19.340 --> 00:42:24.600
So there so over sensitized
that they aren\'t sensitive.

00:42:25.560 --> 00:42:29.273
We\'re covering up what should
be left out in the open and

00:42:29.274 --> 00:42:33.414
uncovering with man what should be covered

00:42:33.415 --> 00:42:41.415
and that\'s where I go when I think about
them neurological with breasts and bras.

00:42:41.440 --> 00:42:47.649
And if we\'ve got them always suppressed and
cooked in and what\'s that doing to us.

00:42:47.650 --> 00:42:50.003
And and I\'m thinking the whole cultural

00:42:50.004 --> 00:42:52.329
again because I think it\'s
interesting I went right to

00:42:52.330 --> 00:42:59.030
circumcision and how we
separate and do whatever is.

00:42:59.040 --> 00:43:03.529
The fastest way to shut down that energy

00:43:15.810 --> 00:43:19.134
Breast cancer is man-made.

00:43:19.135 --> 00:43:23.589
Procedure is man-made it\'s
foreign things entering

00:43:23.590 --> 00:43:28.719
our body but we took thousands
of years to evolve.

00:43:28.720 --> 00:43:34.689
How do you think about an organic
being doesn\'t evolve that you want to

00:43:34.690 --> 00:43:41.750
throw all kinds of foreign objects
into a slowly evolving system.

00:43:42.300 --> 00:43:45.729
It\'s killing a great number of us.

00:43:45.730 --> 00:43:48.894
But even that doesn\'t stop us.

00:43:48.895 --> 00:43:51.584
So how amazing we are

00:43:51.585 --> 00:43:57.799
that we can poison ourselves and
our children and not be stopped.

00:43:57.800 --> 00:44:00.724
It\'s quite something to be human.

00:44:00.725 --> 00:44:04.789
I had a nurse practitioner who was very

00:44:04.790 --> 00:44:12.064
soft very much a Buddhist and her medical
practice was part of her spiritual practice.

00:44:12.065 --> 00:44:13.938
And when she would talk
to me about it and would

00:44:13.939 --> 00:44:15.769
actually say things like
are you checking for

00:44:15.770 --> 00:44:22.249
lumps or engage with me
it made me want to do it.

00:44:22.250 --> 00:44:28.354
Now still fighting with having a
body so it was hard to remember.

00:44:28.355 --> 00:44:32.850
But it put it on my horizon
in a different way.

00:44:33.010 --> 00:44:37.398
Somewhat feel a little bit doomed
to get breast cancer had a

00:44:37.399 --> 00:44:41.464
few of my cousins and and die.

00:44:41.465 --> 00:44:43.804
So I have a ton of fear about it.

00:44:43.805 --> 00:44:45.109
It\'s pretty huge for me.

00:44:45.110 --> 00:44:47.104
I think about it a little too much.

00:44:47.105 --> 00:44:50.449
Oh I was afraid.

00:44:50.450 --> 00:44:53.448
Not only was I afraid of
breast cancer because of

00:44:53.449 --> 00:44:57.874
my my grandmother having it I
felt powerless to stop it.

00:44:57.875 --> 00:45:03.469
I almost felt like I was on a path that was
gonna happen and I instead of checking

00:45:03.470 --> 00:45:09.454
to make sure I was staying healthy it
felt like checking to find the problem.

00:45:09.455 --> 00:45:12.289
People don\'t talk about having to heal from

00:45:12.290 --> 00:45:15.859
the treatment and that troubles
me I\'m very worried for women.

00:45:15.860 --> 00:45:18.529
But there again I\'m getting subjective.

00:45:18.530 --> 00:45:20.449
Obviously women go on.

00:45:20.450 --> 00:45:22.669
I don\'t know I needed to heal.

00:45:22.670 --> 00:45:26.659
And so I could listen to my inner
voice like when I was in chemo

00:45:26.660 --> 00:45:31.939
my body told me I was in danger
that the poison was too strong.

00:45:31.940 --> 00:45:36.123
And I felt frightened and I stood in
the middle of the room and I asked

00:45:36.124 --> 00:45:41.059
Well what can I do and
it said go to the river.

00:45:41.060 --> 00:45:47.388
And I got in my car and I drove to the
food bank farm and there\'s a gentle river

00:45:47.389 --> 00:45:54.510
behind and I stripped my clothes and
I lay in that stream for two hours.

00:45:55.000 --> 00:46:01.879
And when I came out I had no experience
of being in camo whatsoever.

00:46:01.880 --> 00:46:09.880
I was fully natural and embodied and
alive for awhile till my next camo.

00:46:09.890 --> 00:46:15.958
They move in the direction of our predominant
thoughts and I almost felt like I was on

00:46:15.959 --> 00:46:22.969
a wild train ride of negative
unhealthy God\'s uncompressed.

00:46:22.970 --> 00:46:29.659
It\'s just being in the conversation.

00:46:29.660 --> 00:46:32.988
What what question do you
have about your breast

00:46:32.989 --> 00:46:37.428
completely changed stop that
train and turned it around

00:46:37.429 --> 00:46:42.799
I\'m now having conversations with
my bras about how I want them to be

00:46:42.800 --> 00:46:44.958
healthy and with me for the rest of

00:46:44.959 --> 00:46:49.774
my life and that I\'m going
to take better care of them.

00:46:49.775 --> 00:46:57.775
But also that that term that
we\'re going to be fine.

00:46:59.810 --> 00:47:05.099
And we are not going to be sick

00:47:18.940 --> 00:47:22.849
Yesterday I was doing a workshop
and one of the students was

00:47:22.850 --> 00:47:27.064
saying I wish I had the balls to
do with that but I said balls.

00:47:27.065 --> 00:47:33.244
How do you got what you want to
polish on me wanna stand them love.

00:47:33.245 --> 00:47:35.299
You want to bring them
out you want to stand

00:47:35.300 --> 00:47:38.239
there and be proud that
you don\'t need balls.

00:47:38.240 --> 00:47:41.359
You you don\'t need them.

00:47:41.360 --> 00:47:43.204
You have breasts.

00:47:43.205 --> 00:47:50.448
You have power you have identity and stand
and be awake with the fact that these

00:47:50.449 --> 00:47:58.204
have power and that power it can
stop anybody in their tracks.

00:47:58.205 --> 00:48:02.208
I think even through ancient
history I mean the way in which

00:48:02.209 --> 00:48:05.613
Are portrayed in the images
that we see through time

00:48:05.614 --> 00:48:09.468
Ancient Egypt and Africa women
are walking with their breasts

00:48:09.469 --> 00:48:14.064
exposed there standing
there queens and Pharaohs.

00:48:14.065 --> 00:48:17.269
And and the breast are
prominent in these images.

00:48:17.270 --> 00:48:19.294
I\'ve never thought about this before.

00:48:19.295 --> 00:48:23.970
But in this moment I can see
the power of the breast.

00:48:24.580 --> 00:48:30.604
It. I keep meeting women who knock me out.

00:48:30.605 --> 00:48:35.389
Ordinary women like
myself who can listen to

00:48:35.390 --> 00:48:40.534
and the wisdom that\'s in their
body and heal themselves.

00:48:40.535 --> 00:48:47.614
I think that after many years of really ignoring
them not thinking very much about them.

00:48:47.615 --> 00:48:52.368
I think now I\'m much more
conscious of them and I I tend

00:48:52.369 --> 00:48:57.934
to hold them and massage them
and work to keep them healthy.

00:48:57.935 --> 00:49:01.924
I have I have breast consciousness
now where there once was none.

00:49:01.925 --> 00:49:07.849
And after years of hating my body
I\'ve begun to love myself as I am.

00:49:07.850 --> 00:49:11.464
And I think maybe that\'s all tied into
how I\'m feeling about my breast Now.

00:49:11.465 --> 00:49:17.133
My relationship with my breaths right now
is a little foreign a little surprising

00:49:17.134 --> 00:49:23.554
And actually intriguing because I\'m in men
applause and all of a sudden I\'ve got breast.

00:49:23.555 --> 00:49:27.783
Keep no it\'s like where did these come from

00:49:27.784 --> 00:49:31.864
N2 all of a sudden go like this it what
the heck them by touching and it\'s me.

00:49:31.865 --> 00:49:35.584
And so I\'m aware of them
in a very different way.

00:49:35.585 --> 00:49:40.680
And I\'d have to say they\'re almost
aware of me in a different way.

00:49:51.040 --> 00:49:59.040
I remember this so beautifully seeing an
elderly woman walk naked with dignity

00:49:59.894 --> 00:50:06.200
And her body was well arc

00:50:06.450 --> 00:50:11.724
was well r. And she was
comfortable in her body.

00:50:11.725 --> 00:50:13.793
And I think it\'s the first
time I actually saw

00:50:13.794 --> 00:50:16.659
a woman in her body that
I would like to say.

00:50:16.660 --> 00:50:19.524
That would be some way
I would like to walk.

00:50:19.525 --> 00:50:22.809
I can see in my family choices that

00:50:22.810 --> 00:50:27.684
my great grandmother made that
have influenced my life today.

00:50:27.685 --> 00:50:30.354
And I am deeply grateful for it.

00:50:30.355 --> 00:50:35.499
And I would like to be able to pass on
to my to my daughter loving your body.

00:50:35.500 --> 00:50:38.154
And I\'d be happy with not hating your body.

00:50:38.155 --> 00:50:40.059
That would be really good.

00:50:40.060 --> 00:50:41.879
Then the front of our body

00:50:41.880 --> 00:50:49.219
Their courage there are cache
which so lucky as women to

00:50:49.220 --> 00:50:56.749
have them from a woman is taught
to touch her breasts with love.

00:50:56.750 --> 00:51:00.000
And with the energy of life.

00:51:03.100 --> 00:51:09.499
Who knows what would happen
I can honestly say to you.

00:51:09.500 --> 00:51:14.989
This may be the first time in my life my
breasts and I are befriending each other.

00:51:14.990 --> 00:51:22.009
And if I die and we did
something really great.

00:51:22.010 --> 00:51:24.229
I\'m a Whole Woman

00:51:24.230 --> 00:51:29.254
As I sit here with here I believe that

00:51:29.255 --> 00:51:35.520
women have a great part in
what\'s ahead in our history.

00:51:35.560 --> 00:51:41.269
What\'s ahead for the future of the planet
I believe that women have a great part.

00:51:41.270 --> 00:51:46.289
So perhaps this breast consciousness

00:51:46.360 --> 00:51:52.129
is not only timely but needed.

00:51:52.130 --> 00:51:56.370
And we\'re ready for it.

00:52:18.580 --> 00:52:20.880
Got

00:52:37.240 --> 00:52:39.509
that

00:52:48.070 --> 00:52:50.370
my

00:53:20.920 --> 00:53:22.188
Name

00:53:22.189 --> 00:53:24.900
is John.

00:54:02.050 --> 00:54:04.440
Yes.

00:54:12.550 --> 00:54:14.999
Okay