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Castanha
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Joao is a 50-year-old actor who lives with his 72-year-old mother, Celina. He divides his time between his work at night as a crossdresser in small gay bars and his parts in small plays, movies, and TV shows. Tormented and haunted by ghosts from his past, day after day Joao, starts to merge the reality in which he lives with the fiction he is interpreting.
"A character-study of a middle-aged Brazilian performer, which provocatively defies fiction/non-fiction categorization...A ruminative, deliberately elliptical and slightly alienating enterprise, Castanha intrigues and absorbs on a scene-by-scene basis." - The Hollywood Reporter
"This is not a reality TV showcase of some vapid performer; it is a revealing and probing examination into how a gay man ekes out a life under difficult conditions." - Gary M. Kramer, Indiewire
Citation
Main credits
Pretto, Davi (film director)
Pretto, Davi (screenwriter)
Castanha, Celina (on-screen participant)
Carlos Saldanha, João (on-screen participant)
Adão Barbosa, Zé (on-screen participant)
Wink, Paola (film producer)
Other credits
Cinematography, Glauco Firpo; editor, Bruno Carboni; music, Diego Poloni.
Distributor subjects
Gender + Sexuality Studies; Body Image; Dance + Performing Arts; Labor Studies; Health + AgingKeywords
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Hello.
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What’s up, Suzi.
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Yes, I received it.
Lauro received it too.
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No, everything is alright.
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No, I can do another one.
I can do another one.
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I will check and then
call you back, OK?
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OK?
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Hello.
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- Did you leave early today?
- Of course.
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Pass me the clothespins.
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I left, didn’t you see?
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- No, I didn’t.
- You were sleeping.
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- Did you go see the old man?
- Yes.
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- Do we have any coffee?
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Collect call. To accept it,
stay on the line after the identification.
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Hello. Go ahead.
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Alright
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I’ll bring some food.
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And cigarettes too?
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Where, Marcelo?
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Alright, I can take it, but not too far,
I’m not going all the way to…
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… I’ll be right there. Calm down.
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Alright.
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There you go stuffing him again.
Where is he waiting for you?
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Yes. Are you jealous?
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Would you like some poison?
I have some.
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João Carlos Castanha da Silva
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I’ll think about it,
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"and then if you come up
with something as well… OK?
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I’ll call you when I get there, tomorrow.
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We’ll talk then.
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Yes, I can.
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A hillbilly?
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Like a female hillbilly?
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The prettiest hillbilly in Alvorada City.
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Then she walks in all covered in blood.
She was stabbed.
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No, we’ll come up with something, OK?
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Alright, dear. Bye.
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Turn down
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the volume in that thing!
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But dad, we have a show tomorrow.
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Dancing.
Dancing is for faggots!
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A group of 800 demonstrators tried to get
closer to the Maracanã stadium to demonstrate.
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so they were welcomed by the police with
pepper spray and tear gas.
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The poor thing.
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he looks more dead
than alive
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Well, he has been
like that for a while.
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Didn’t he ask you for pastries?
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Yes, he loves pastries.
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I’ll bring some next time, I think.
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I’ll have to make some,
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the ones you can buy are too greasy.
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But you don’t have
to go there so often, do you mon?
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It’s four bus changes to get there.
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But we have to go see the poor man.
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A few days ago, I got there,
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said hello and kissed
his forehead.
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He stared at me, scared.
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So I asked him
“You don’t remember me, Jairo?
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He said, No, who are you?.
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And I told him “It’s me, Jairo, Celina...
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your ex-wife”.
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Poor thing.
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He loves bananas.
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His nieces bring him chocolate
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this and that,
and I bring bananas.
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He can’t have chocolate.
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He likes bananas, so I give him what he likes.
Bananas.
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And then it’s always the same thing.
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He misses you.
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He always asks about you.
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How is João Carlos?” “Is he OK?.
So I tell him you’re fine.
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I am perfectly fine.
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I have to work again today.
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- You’re going to work?
- Yes.
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What time?
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Same as always, mother.
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I’ll leave early, around ten.
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Is it that same one... Mixx?
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Yes…
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Welcome!
Enjoy yourselves however you please…
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That’s how things are at Eróticos Vídeos,
an open house, very liberal, very eclectic.
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And I hope you’ll enjoy the show tonight,
because our hostess this Sunday is here,
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with all her beauty,
sensuality, malice...
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and perfume...
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please welcome:
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Maria Helena Castanha!
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Thank you!
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Please enjoy yourselves.
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We have condoms
and lube upstairs,
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and we also have potties,
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because the other day
someone pooped herself up there,
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and miss piggy is here,
I saw her,
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the faggot,
oh my…
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Always pooped.
It’s so sad.
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So please welcome,
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Carlinhos, Jonas, Munrá...
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Jonatas!
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Let’s hear it for Carlinhos, Munrá,
Jonatas and Jonas!
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Look, God is really unfair.
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God is the most unfair creature
to ever set foot on this earth.
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"He gives so much to some,
and to others... nothing, right?"
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"When you’re crazed,
you forget about good taste."
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"And people judge you
for everything you do."
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"Actually, this city is
the biggest courtroom I know of."
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Everyone is a judge
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or worse
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a critic.
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"Everyone has their own
negative opinions about you"
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your work.
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"I don’t know anyone that
would go to a play and say"
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“It’s perfect,
I liked everything”.
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"You can get some compliments,
but then"
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there’s always a “But…
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"It could be shorter.
It could be longer."
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"I like everything,
but that actor..."
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"That actress doesn’t go
with the rest of the cast."
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I thought the lighting was too dark.
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No, no, the lighting was too bright.
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"The music,
the soundtrack is outdated”."
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And in the end you find out that
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"this wonderful work
was actually a big piece of shit."
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I was always crazy about cinema.
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"When I liked a movie,
I would watch it over and over again."
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"There were days when
I would go to the theater"
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and watch the same movie five times.
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"I did that with
Alan Parker’s “Bugsy Malone”."
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"I would get there at 2 p.m.
and leave after the 10 p.m. screening."
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It was crazy!
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But in a good way.
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A healthy kind of craziness.
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I kept thinking
“How shitty that I live in Brazil."
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"If I lived where those
movies are made,"
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I’m sure I’d be in them.”
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But no.
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I was just a spectator.
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Silence in the set, we're rolling.
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Sound.
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Camera.
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Four, two, one.
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"The cab is parked,
are we going or not?"
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"Being romantic at this time of the day…
Hey, I have to work!"
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Let’s go, let’s go!
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Oh, I can’t believe this.
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"Discussing their relationship!
That’s all I needed…"
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"C’mon, run away from this guy.
Let’s go!"
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"'- Can you give me five minutes?
- Yes."
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Thank you.
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That’s all I needed.
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I’m wasting my whole day.
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And where I stopped right there,
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do you want to me to stand there
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or move around?
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"I don’t think there should
be this much talking for now."
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"We need more body language,
keep bothering them."
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OK.
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Did you just get home, son?
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It’s been a while.
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"It’s late,
I was worried about you."
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As always, you know?
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I worry every night.
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"There’s nowhere else
for you to work, is there?"
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It has to be
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this “night” thing.
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So I can’t sleep.
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"You know every time you
get home I’m awake."
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Me and the dogs,
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waiting for you.
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"I miss my little kid when
he’s not around."
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"What about you,
do you miss your mother?"
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- I don’t.
- You don’t?
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I don’t even think about it.
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Hello? Hi, Marcelo.
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You have to go
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see them, at the courthouse,
where they said you should go.
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Yes, I know.
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But if you don’t go,
they’re going to take you.
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You can’t just roam around.
They’re going to get you.
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You know it, right?
Who is going to get you.
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They are crazy.
00:26:14.200 --> 00:26:17.200
Yesterday there was
a bunch of police cars driving around.
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We would never see that before,
now it’s full of them.
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Yes.
00:26:23.200 --> 00:26:24.200
Yes.
00:26:24.200 --> 00:26:26.200
He wants cigarettes.
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He wants us to leave a
pack with the doorman.
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- When?
- So what is he selling Terezinha?
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- I don’t know, João.
- He says he sold a bunch of stuff to her.
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A dog house and
Terezinha is taking care of his clothes.
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He said he is looking for a job.
So I said “Well, that’s good.
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That’s good, that’s good.
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It’s good. He said he has all the documents,
but I doubt that.
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I hope he does.
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If he kept them he
still has it, João Carlos.
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I hope he has them.
It’s best for him.
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I’m tired.
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I lay down and it’s as if
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I have died already,
that’s how tired I am.
00:28:39.833 --> 00:28:42.266
Well, of course. You spend all
day running after that kid.
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That’s all.
00:28:44.200 --> 00:28:45.266
That kid.
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That is all, I am just tired.
I’m old.
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Done for.
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One of the days you'll be done
00:28:55.200 --> 00:28:59.200
business of helping
people that don’t deserve it.
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- I’m just too old and tired.
- No, it’s not because you are old.
00:29:02.933 --> 00:29:05.200
There are people who are older
and do a lot of stuff
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and sleep well at night,
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they don’t have to...
00:29:09.200 --> 00:29:11.200
drag all that baggage you have.
00:29:11.933 --> 00:29:13.200
But let him know
00:29:13.200 --> 00:29:16.200
he should not show up here,
because the kids around here
00:29:16.200 --> 00:29:18.200
are after him.
00:29:18.200 --> 00:29:19.200
And if they catch him,
00:29:20.000 --> 00:29:21.433
I have nothing to do with it.
00:29:22.666 --> 00:29:27.266
I will not take any sides.
- It’s the stairs...
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The stairs are not the problem.
The problem is Marcelo.
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But everything
is going to be alright, son.
00:29:41.633 --> 00:29:44.833
I want him to go back
to the farm for rehab.
00:29:45.200 --> 00:29:47.266
Then it will be just the two of us.
00:29:57.699 --> 00:30:00.266
I told him I’d go visit
on the weekend.
00:30:03.200 --> 00:30:05.200
I’m not going to abandon
the poor thing.
00:30:10.066 --> 00:30:12.200
You know, João Carlos,
00:30:14.066 --> 00:30:16.200
when I go to the retirement home,
00:30:16.200 --> 00:30:20.366
the poor thing… I think he feels guilty
about something from our past,
00:30:21.866 --> 00:30:24.266
because he grabs
my hand and kisses it.
00:30:25.433 --> 00:30:27.200
He calls me “my love”.
00:30:28.566 --> 00:30:32.200
My love,
how’s everything going, my love?
00:30:32.966 --> 00:30:35.466
And then he starts asking
about things here, about the house.
00:30:35.466 --> 00:30:38.200
How is everything.
How are you.
00:30:38.200 --> 00:30:41.200
He asks about the dogs,
the cats.
00:30:42.200 --> 00:30:44.200
I say “everything is fine.
00:30:49.966 --> 00:30:54.200
Then he asks about the neighbors,
he actually liked some of the ladies…
00:30:55.200 --> 00:30:57.200
So I say “They’re fine.
At their houses.
00:30:57.966 --> 00:31:00.200
I don’t even talk to the neighbors.
00:31:03.866 --> 00:31:05.200
Everything else is going well.
00:31:08.200 --> 00:31:09.200
Now it is too late.
00:31:09.200 --> 00:31:12.200
We are both half dead.
00:31:15.200 --> 00:31:16.366
It's over.
00:32:13.699 --> 00:32:16.033
- Hey, what’s up?
- Hello my angel, how’s everything?
00:32:16.033 --> 00:32:18.433
I walked in here before
to say hello but didn’t find you.
00:32:18.433 --> 00:32:20.200
I just got here,
I was working.
00:32:20.933 --> 00:32:23.200
- What time do you get on stage?
- Soon, soon….
00:32:25.200 --> 00:32:27.200
Who are you today?
00:32:27.266 --> 00:32:32.200
- Lonely, lonely, waiting for someone...
- Looks like that lady from the Titanic.
00:32:32.200 --> 00:32:34.200
You’re Brad Pitt.
00:32:34.200 --> 00:32:36.666
No, you’re Leonardo DiCaprio!
- Leonardo DiCaprio!
00:32:36.666 --> 00:32:39.200
Let’s try not to sink together.
00:32:40.200 --> 00:32:43.200
- I’ll be waiting for you then.
- I’m dedicating the show to you.
00:32:43.200 --> 00:32:46.200
- Excuse me?
- I’m dedicating the show to you.
00:32:52.000 --> 00:32:56.200
Now let’s see, someone with
a big dick…
00:32:56.266 --> 00:32:58.266
Laurita!
Lauro!
00:32:59.200 --> 00:33:02.200
Guys, Lauro has this thing,
it looks like Veruska’s cock.
00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:06.200
It looks like Veruska’s cock.
Except hers is 90 years older.
00:33:07.200 --> 00:33:09.000
Lolita’s got a big one too.
00:33:09.200 --> 00:33:11.200
You do,
I saw you wearing a swimming suit.
00:33:11.200 --> 00:33:14.200
Your balls look like
two kiwis trying to escape.
00:33:14.966 --> 00:33:17.500
Debbie probably
has a short stubby dick,
00:33:18.200 --> 00:33:21.200
like a pinky.
A little one.
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You know,
big nose, big cock!
00:33:47.866 --> 00:33:50.200
- Bye.
- See you Friday.
00:33:50.933 --> 00:33:52.766
- When will I see you again?
- Friday.
00:33:53.066 --> 00:33:55.200
- Friday, here? At Mixx?
- As we agreed.
00:33:55.200 --> 00:33:57.833
- What about Indis, are you
going to be performing there as well?
00:33:57.833 --> 00:33:59.500
- Every day.
- Every day? Alright then.
00:33:59.500 --> 00:34:03.200
- Bye. God bless you!
- You as well.
00:34:25.200 --> 00:34:27.200
What...
what do you want, kid?
00:34:29.200 --> 00:34:34.200
Now look here.
No, no, no. Look, no, no!
00:34:36.166 --> 00:34:37.699
Fucking hell!
00:34:38.200 --> 00:34:40.200
The kid won’t fucking stop cursing!
00:34:41.633 --> 00:34:43.200
I don’t know where he got that from.
00:34:52.000 --> 00:34:55.200
- Hello.
- Hi, how are you?
00:35:31.200 --> 00:35:34.200
- What's up "boy"?
- Are you going out tonight?
00:35:37.200 --> 00:35:41.200
I’ll go if you go...
00:38:58.200 --> 00:39:06.200
There’s no more commotion.
There’s no one to miss him.
00:39:17.200 --> 00:39:21.200
He is already dead and doesn’t know it.
00:39:24.200 --> 00:39:25.200
Are you tired?
00:39:25.200 --> 00:39:27.200
I’m feeling lazy.
00:39:40.699 --> 00:39:42.866
-I have to get some bloodwork
done tomorrow morning.
00:39:42.933 --> 00:39:43.966
-Really?
00:39:44.000 --> 00:39:47.533
Fasting until 7 AM,
I can’t even have a caipirinha now.
00:39:48.200 --> 00:39:50.266
But why did you schedule it for...
00:39:50.300 --> 00:39:53.000
They did! They schedule
one every four, six months.
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:54.866
So it’s tomorrow.
And I have to go.
00:39:55.200 --> 00:39:58.200
But the worst part is
I have this thing, I see them.
00:39:58.200 --> 00:40:01.966
I remember being here at Vitraux
when Ramona died. I was standing right here."
00:40:01.966 --> 00:40:05.300
I could see her walking
around, clear as the day.
00:40:05.866 --> 00:40:08.699
And Rogério, that one I liked,
00:40:09.766 --> 00:40:12.800
when he died, in ‘84 I think it was.
00:40:12.866 --> 00:40:14.033
It’s been a while.
00:40:14.200 --> 00:40:16.200
Yes, about 30 years.
00:40:16.933 --> 00:40:19.533
I remember seeing him,
he walked into my room
00:40:21.433 --> 00:40:24.033
He gave me a hug.
I used to sleep in a bunk bed
00:40:24.033 --> 00:40:25.833
I felt him climbing up
00:40:27.200 --> 00:40:29.533
and then he laid by my side
and started to talk to me.
00:40:30.200 --> 00:40:33.200
I could feel everything
and he was there for a long time talking to me.
00:40:34.766 --> 00:40:36.766
When he died you were
still in touch with him?
00:40:36.766 --> 00:40:38.766
I saw him the day before he died.
00:40:38.800 --> 00:40:40.766
And then he died.
00:40:40.766 --> 00:40:44.800
I remember he was here,
and I saw his sister, Maria Tereza,
00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:47.766
and she told me he was at her house
and wanted to see me.
00:40:47.800 --> 00:40:50.766
So I rushed over and as soon as
I opened that door...
00:40:50.766 --> 00:40:51.766
I was horrified.
00:40:51.766 --> 00:40:54.200
He used to have curly hair,
but there was nothing left,
00:40:54.200 --> 00:40:57.766
he looked like
he had been through chemo.
00:40:57.766 --> 00:40:58.766
He looked like a corpse.
00:40:58.800 --> 00:41:00.800
We started to talk and
he held my hand saying
00:41:01.766 --> 00:41:03.766
We’ll make up for
all the time we lost.
00:41:03.766 --> 00:41:06.766
And I stood there staring at him,
I still had feelings for him.
00:41:06.766 --> 00:41:10.766
All of a sudden I looked at him
in that state and I don’t know why,
00:41:12.500 --> 00:41:14.533
but I just snapped,
I had to leave.
00:41:14.766 --> 00:41:20.766
So I said goodbye to him and told him
I’d come visit again, and ran out the door.
00:41:21.300 --> 00:41:23.766
I stood out there, God,
it was so horrible, that sight…
00:41:23.766 --> 00:41:25.766
He used to be so handsome.
00:41:26.533 --> 00:41:32.366
All I know is the next day he was committed
to a hospital and 48 hours later he was dead.
00:41:33.533 --> 00:41:36.166
It used to be like that,
it all happened so quickly.
00:41:36.766 --> 00:41:39.466
Did you ever work on a play together?
- Yes. He was my son.
00:41:39.466 --> 00:41:40.766
I was the mother.
00:41:41.766 --> 00:41:44.766
- I remember the "Mother",
I saw that play.
00:41:44.766 --> 00:41:48.566
But I can’t remember him very well,
all I know is he was a very handsome man.
00:41:48.766 --> 00:41:50.766
He was pretty cute.
00:41:57.200 --> 00:41:58.200
How sad.
00:41:58.266 --> 00:42:01.333
Shoes from Paris.
From my friend Naldegas.
00:42:01.533 --> 00:42:02.466
Naldegas!
00:42:02.500 --> 00:42:06.766
She always asks about you,
“Where’s Castanha?” Working…
00:42:07.333 --> 00:42:08.766
- Running around…
- Always.
00:42:09.333 --> 00:42:12.133
- Dressed as a lady.
- Taking care of his family and mother.
00:42:12.133 --> 00:42:13.766
Of my mother, because the rest...
00:43:14.500 --> 00:43:15.699
Good afternoon.
00:43:15.699 --> 00:43:18.699
I would like to make an...
00:43:19.699 --> 00:43:24.699
"appointment with a psychiatrist for my grandson.
He’s on drugs.
00:43:24.699 --> 00:43:26.699
We need help.
00:43:26.699 --> 00:43:28.699
- Where does he live?
- He lives here.
00:43:28.699 --> 00:43:30.699
- “Here” where?
- Here in Porto Alegre.
00:43:30.699 --> 00:43:34.699
- What street?
- Here in this neighborhood.
00:43:34.699 --> 00:43:37.699
- Alright, is he on our system already?
- Not yet.
00:43:37.699 --> 00:43:40.699
So first of all he
needs to register here,
00:43:40.699 --> 00:43:44.699
and that can only be done
in the morning, over there.
00:43:44.766 --> 00:43:49.699
The last booth. You should bring
all the documents for the registration.
00:43:49.699 --> 00:43:54.699
Then once he is registered you go over there to
the other booth to schedule an appointment.
00:43:54.766 --> 00:43:59.699
He really needs help because
he is on a lot of drugs...
00:43:59.699 --> 00:44:02.699
on crack.
- I see.
00:44:02.699 --> 00:44:03.699
So I have to do all this.
00:44:03.699 --> 00:44:08.699
Yes. Well, we also have
the emergency back there,
00:44:08.699 --> 00:44:11.699
maybe that’s what you are looking for.
00:45:17.766 --> 00:45:20.699
Looks like you were starving.
00:45:49.699 --> 00:45:51.699
Hello.
00:45:57.699 --> 00:45:59.699
What are you going to do?
00:46:01.766 --> 00:46:04.699
Well, it’s your problem.
I have nothing to do with that.
00:46:06.699 --> 00:46:08.699
Don’t break the glass…
00:46:35.699 --> 00:46:41.699
I’m going to get someone to deal with this.
I’m not getting blood on my hands.
00:46:41.699 --> 00:46:43.933
- He is still doing drugs, right?
- He will never stop.
00:46:43.933 --> 00:46:47.699
He was born to do drugs
and he is going to die doing drugs.
00:46:47.699 --> 00:46:51.699
Did you see those kids?
Trying to sell me a jacket for $10.
00:46:51.699 --> 00:46:55.699
- They do that.
- Just because of the drugs.
00:46:56.699 --> 00:47:00.699
Those people are like prostitutes.
00:47:02.699 --> 00:47:04.833
Yes, they're like
the male prostitutes.
00:47:04.833 --> 00:47:07.699
How many of them
accomplished anything in life?
00:47:07.699 --> 00:47:13.766
Not even 0.1%.
They would like to, but…
00:47:15.699 --> 00:47:16.766
By the way...
00:47:18.699 --> 00:47:20.699
Testa asked if you’re going to
do the show there.
00:47:22.699 --> 00:47:25.699
- I can do it on the 22nd.
- Only on the 22nd?
00:47:25.766 --> 00:47:28.699
- When is the Valentine’s day party?
- Today.
00:47:28.699 --> 00:47:29.699
Seriously?
00:47:29.699 --> 00:47:33.500
He spent a lot of money
with the decor and everything.
00:47:33.500 --> 00:47:36.066
He thought you were going to be there.
- But what time is the show there?
00:47:36.066 --> 00:47:37.833
- What?
- What time is the show?
00:47:37.833 --> 00:47:40.699
He said if you wanted to do the show
there tonight it’s all set for you.
00:47:40.699 --> 00:47:42.766
But what time is the
show, do you know?
00:47:42.800 --> 00:47:44.300
Any time you want,
they’re open until 5am
00:47:44.300 --> 00:47:45.699
Alright, I’ll go then.
00:47:45.699 --> 00:47:48.699
- So you want to do it?
- After I’m done with everything I’ll go.
00:47:48.766 --> 00:47:51.699
I'll make more
money, then.
00:47:52.766 --> 00:47:54.699
Yeah, money is always good.
00:47:59.166 --> 00:48:00.300
Good evening...
00:48:00.699 --> 00:48:03.699
I am Marcelo’s grandmother, that kid...
00:48:06.266 --> 00:48:07.333
Excuse me?
00:48:12.533 --> 00:48:15.766
I just wanted to tell you
that he’s been around.
00:48:15.766 --> 00:48:18.699
And he might want to
throw rocks at your place.
00:48:18.699 --> 00:48:21.766
I’m not sure if it was you
that he threw rocks at the other day,
00:48:25.066 --> 00:48:27.699
But I wanted to let you know.
So you can be prepared,
00:48:27.933 --> 00:48:29.699
have a baseball bat ready
and go after him,
00:48:30.066 --> 00:48:32.966
don’t let him
break anything. Alright?
00:48:33.500 --> 00:48:34.566
Goodbye.
00:48:40.699 --> 00:48:42.699
What am I supposed to do…
00:48:47.699 --> 00:48:49.699
He identified himself as a journalist...
00:48:49.699 --> 00:48:50.766
and the police...
00:48:51.699 --> 00:48:56.699
and the police seems to
be reliving its military days.
00:48:57.300 --> 00:48:58.433
Isn’t that right?
00:48:58.699 --> 00:49:05.699
Reliving the worst moment
of the last decades in this country’s history.
00:49:06.699 --> 00:49:16.699
Generating more violence as the people’s
discontentment is taking to the streets.
00:49:16.699 --> 00:49:20.699
Because of that, here in
São Paulo,
00:49:20.699 --> 00:49:27.699
the governor arrived at
a good time to control the police.
00:49:29.699 --> 00:49:31.300
Careful with the stray bullet!
00:49:31.766 --> 00:49:33.766
I thought I was in Alvorada City.
00:49:35.699 --> 00:49:40.766
Bope is a fundamental piece
in our public security tactics.
00:49:42.699 --> 00:49:47.699
And I have total faith
in your capacity.
00:49:47.699 --> 00:49:49.300
We’ll always be together.
00:49:49.699 --> 00:49:51.066
Skull!
00:50:32.699 --> 00:50:36.699
Valentine’s day, I hope
you’re all set here, with your dates.
00:50:37.699 --> 00:50:41.699
Today is a good day to
find your soul mates.
00:50:41.699 --> 00:50:43.699
Look at that handsome man!
00:50:43.699 --> 00:50:45.699
Today you’ll only remain
single if you want to.
00:50:45.766 --> 00:50:47.699
There’s a lot of men
here tonight.
00:50:49.500 --> 00:50:52.066
There’s one over there that
looks like the kind you take home
00:50:52.066 --> 00:50:55.699
and he’ll eat all scraps of
food you have in the fridge.
00:50:56.699 --> 00:50:59.699
Good God,
it’s so horrible.
00:50:59.699 --> 00:51:02.699
There’s one,
I’ll show you who it is later,
00:51:02.766 --> 00:51:05.699
but when he gets to your
house and takes his shoes off,
00:51:07.699 --> 00:51:10.699
it’s like there’s smoke,
like dry ice inside the house.
00:51:10.766 --> 00:51:16.699
You can put the shoes outside
but doesn’t matter, the smell stays, you know?
00:51:16.699 --> 00:51:21.699
And his fingers, his fingernails,
it looks like he’s been working the land,
00:51:21.699 --> 00:51:26.699
and his feet, it’s like a…
00:51:26.699 --> 00:51:31.699
It’s so horrible, and then
he starts caressing you with his feet.
00:51:32.699 --> 00:51:39.699
And when he pulls out his
dick it looks like it is wearing a turtleneck,
00:51:40.699 --> 00:51:47.699
that white cream cheese looking thing,
you could make a cheesecake out of it.
00:51:51.699 --> 00:51:53.699
Alright, my love.
00:51:55.699 --> 00:51:57.699
The party is going
to be great tomorrow!
00:52:27.766 --> 00:52:30.699
- Great job!
- Thank you.
00:52:57.699 --> 00:53:03.699
- Broke what?
- Broke the flower pot.
00:53:04.699 --> 00:53:06.699
He broke the flower pot.
00:53:06.699 --> 00:53:08.699
Broke the pot?
00:53:08.699 --> 00:53:11.699
Broke the flower pot!
Up there.
00:53:11.766 --> 00:53:14.066
He came here and broke it.
I gave him $5 and he left.
00:53:14.066 --> 00:53:15.699
- You gave him $20?
- I gave him $5.
00:53:18.699 --> 00:53:21.699
We need to watch what
he’s been wearing so they can catch him.
00:53:21.699 --> 00:53:25.699
Kill that kid.
Now this…
00:53:27.699 --> 00:53:30.766
Son of a bitch!
He needs to die.
00:53:31.699 --> 00:53:33.766
He said he would kill you.
00:53:34.699 --> 00:53:36.766
We’ll see who dies first...
00:54:18.333 --> 00:54:21.300
This is a letter from
the condominium association.
00:54:21.300 --> 00:54:23.666
Once again, it’s about your dogs barking.
00:54:23.699 --> 00:54:26.699
- Oh, screw you.
- Calm down Celina, calm down.
00:54:26.699 --> 00:54:28.133
- Leave me alone.
00:54:28.133 --> 00:54:30.666
-I will leave you alone,
but I need to give you this first.
00:54:30.699 --> 00:54:33.433
No, you can take that and eat it.
Eat it! I’m not taking it.
00:54:33.466 --> 00:54:36.266
Alright, you don’t have to take it,
but you have to know about it.
00:54:36.266 --> 00:54:37.699
It’s complaints about your dogs
00:54:37.699 --> 00:54:39.333
Enough! I don’t want
to hear about it.
00:54:39.333 --> 00:54:43.699
And your grandson, who threatened the doormen
more than once and broke all the flower pots.
00:54:43.699 --> 00:54:46.433
Go to hell! Go take care
of your own life and leave me alone.
00:54:46.433 --> 00:54:49.699
I’m taking care of my life
and I’m taking care of the condo.
00:54:49.699 --> 00:54:53.699
Get out of my house, I don’t ever
want to see you again,
00:54:53.699 --> 00:54:56.699
you are two-faced, you’re a bad person.
00:54:56.699 --> 00:54:59.166
Alright, you can think
whatever you want about me,
00:54:59.166 --> 00:55:01.766
but I’m leaving
the letters here, OK?
00:55:02.699 --> 00:55:07.766
I told you about this, the dogs bark
and the neighbors are complaining,
00:55:07.766 --> 00:55:11.699
they can’t stand them
howling anymore...
00:55:15.699 --> 00:55:17.699
Alright Celina...?
00:55:19.300 --> 00:55:20.500
See you.
00:56:39.699 --> 00:56:46.699
What is all this? Are you crazy?
This is too loud, the patients are complaining.
00:56:46.699 --> 00:56:51.699
You disconnected everything
and you’re out of bed, why?
00:56:51.699 --> 00:56:53.366
I miss going to a nightclub.
00:56:53.366 --> 00:56:56.300
How I would like to go to
a nightclub. Dance.
00:56:57.699 --> 00:57:00.766
It’s time for breakfast.
We have coffee and cookies.
00:57:02.300 --> 00:57:04.433
I’m not a prostitute to eat cookies.
00:57:04.433 --> 00:57:06.633
Actually, they just love everything that’s edible.
00:57:07.000 --> 00:57:08.033
They eat everything.
00:57:08.699 --> 00:57:10.033
Prostitutes love beans.
00:57:16.266 --> 00:57:17.866
- Let’s try it.
- Alright.
00:57:27.699 --> 00:57:28.699
Start.
00:57:28.699 --> 00:57:32.699
He worked, not like a man
who works that he may live;
00:57:33.566 --> 00:57:38.533
but as one who is bent on
doing nothing but work;
00:57:39.699 --> 00:57:43.300
having no regard for
himself as a human being
00:57:44.533 --> 00:57:48.533
but only as a creator;
00:57:49.500 --> 00:57:54.500
moving about grey and
unobtrusive among his fellows
00:57:55.500 --> 00:57:58.500
like an actor without his make-up,
00:57:58.500 --> 00:58:03.500
who counts for nothing as soon
as he stops representing something else...
00:59:20.866 --> 00:59:23.166
I was the one that had to put up
with it my whole life.
00:59:24.500 --> 00:59:26.866
And I don’t hate him,
he’s my own blood.
00:59:33.166 --> 00:59:36.066
I wish him well, it’s my own blood,
my daughter’s son.
00:59:48.500 --> 00:59:50.500
I took him to the
rehabilitation clinic many times,
00:59:50.533 --> 00:59:51.800
he didn’t want to stay.
00:59:53.500 --> 00:59:57.500
One day while I was filling
out the paperwork,
00:59:57.500 --> 01:00:00.500
he said he was
going for a smoke.
01:00:01.066 --> 01:00:04.500
Once I was done I went outside
and Marcelo was gone.
01:00:07.500 --> 01:00:08.500
That’s it.
01:00:08.633 --> 01:00:12.500
If I knew he was at the clinic
I would be able to relax,
01:00:13.033 --> 01:00:18.966
I wouldn’t be nervous all night long,
worried about him meandering around.
01:00:20.033 --> 01:00:24.500
Sometimes I hear gunshots
01:00:24.500 --> 01:00:27.066
and I think he’s being shot at.
01:00:30.500 --> 01:00:34.500
He has no friends,
no one apart from me.
01:00:39.000 --> 01:00:41.833
But everything will be
alright, won’t it son?
01:00:43.133 --> 01:00:44.166
Alright then...
01:01:13.533 --> 01:01:15.500
Right hand.
01:01:30.500 --> 01:01:34.500
Celina Castanha da Silva.
01:02:45.500 --> 01:02:47.500
-What do you want?
- Is Celina at home?
01:02:47.500 --> 01:02:49.333
I don’t know where she is,
I don’t want to know
01:02:49.333 --> 01:02:50.766
and I don’t care for those
who do know.
01:02:50.766 --> 01:02:52.500
-It’s been three days...
-I said I don’t know,
01:02:52.500 --> 01:02:55.500
I don’t want to know,
leave me alone and fuck off.
01:03:17.500 --> 01:03:20.500
Well, João, we’re going
to have to do an x-ray.
01:03:20.500 --> 01:03:24.500
- The wheezing has gotten a bit worse.
- Alright.
01:03:24.500 --> 01:03:26.500
Chest x-ray.
01:03:30.500 --> 01:03:34.500
Looking at your tests,
I’m not going to lie to you,
01:03:34.500 --> 01:03:37.500
I’ll tell you exactly
what I see here.
01:03:37.500 --> 01:03:40.500
They don’t look very good.
01:03:41.500 --> 01:03:45.500
Even if you’re taking the
medication like you said you are,
01:03:48.500 --> 01:03:51.500
your lifestyle...
01:03:52.500 --> 01:03:53.500
too much smoking
01:03:54.500 --> 01:03:57.500
drinking and being
awake at night
01:03:57.500 --> 01:04:01.500
it can lower your immunity
and worsen your situation.
01:04:53.500 --> 01:04:57.500
You don’t talk to me
anymore, Casta?
01:05:03.500 --> 01:05:07.500
delete chat
01:06:53.500 --> 01:06:54.500
How big is he?
01:06:55.500 --> 01:06:57.500
He’s about my size.
01:06:58.500 --> 01:06:59.500
Oh, so he’s short then.
01:06:59.500 --> 01:07:00.500
Yes, he’s skinny,
01:07:00.500 --> 01:07:04.533
but he grabbed a big flower pot full
of dirt and he...
01:07:05.500 --> 01:07:07.000
-He picked it up?
- He picked it up.
01:07:07.000 --> 01:07:08.500
So he’s a bit buff.
01:07:08.500 --> 01:07:11.500
His strength comes from the devil.
01:07:11.500 --> 01:07:13.500
That is from the drugs.
01:07:13.533 --> 01:07:18.500
He’s satan.
He’s the devil,
01:07:18.500 --> 01:07:20.500
I’m telling you.
01:07:20.500 --> 01:07:22.000
Does he go to your house every day?
01:07:22.166 --> 01:07:24.500
No. He was gone for a while,
but reappeared yesterday.
01:07:24.500 --> 01:07:26.500
So I said I wasn’t going to get
my hands dirty,
01:07:26.500 --> 01:07:29.800
I was going to pay someone
to kick his ass.
01:07:30.333 --> 01:07:33.033
We have to catch him and drag him around,
really beat him up.
01:07:33.066 --> 01:07:37.500
I know you are good at this, like the guy
in that movie, Danny the dog.
01:07:37.500 --> 01:07:40.000
- Danny the dog, yes!
- Where the guy is treated like a dog.
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:41.500
It’s a really cool movie.
01:07:41.533 --> 01:07:44.500
I know no one can control you.
01:07:44.500 --> 01:07:47.500
How many people have you beat up
at the same time? A lot, right?
01:07:48.500 --> 01:07:52.500
Remember “Once Upon a Time”? Where I got
into a fight with Fernando’s ex-boyfriend.
01:07:52.500 --> 01:07:54.500
A bunch of guys at the same time.
01:07:54.500 --> 01:07:56.966
Even Guto, remember? Good God...
01:07:57.500 --> 01:07:58.500
Are you single now?
01:07:58.500 --> 01:08:00.500
No, I am with someone.
01:08:00.500 --> 01:08:04.500
So you are in love?
And is he good or is he crazy?
01:08:04.500 --> 01:08:06.500
He doesn’t do drugs, thank God.
01:08:06.500 --> 01:08:08.966
- Good. Enough is enough.
- He is a hard working man.
01:08:08.966 --> 01:08:10.166
Are you working?
01:08:10.166 --> 01:08:11.866
Yes, for 6 months already.
01:08:12.933 --> 01:08:14.300
What about Kung-Fu?
01:08:14.500 --> 01:08:16.500
I have a fight on the 25th.
01:08:16.500 --> 01:08:18.833
- Really? Where?
- At the Tesourinha Ginasium.
01:08:19.500 --> 01:08:20.500
We’ll go see you.
01:08:20.500 --> 01:08:23.500
Alright, but look, when he shows up
you have to call me.
01:08:23.500 --> 01:08:28.500
No, I’ll let you know beforehand.
You can crash at my place.
01:08:28.500 --> 01:08:33.500
Imagine if we’re there and he shows up.
I think I would start a fight right there.
01:08:33.500 --> 01:08:38.500
Loi, I’ll show you, the building has two exits,
two entrances, one on each street.
01:08:38.500 --> 01:08:40.500
You can go around and catch him.
01:08:41.500 --> 01:08:44.500
From one of the exits he can only go one way,
he can’t go the other.
01:08:44.500 --> 01:08:47.500
So you can catch him and it’s over.
01:08:47.500 --> 01:08:52.500
- Is he a good runner?
- No, he’s a mess, always barefoot,
01:08:52.500 --> 01:08:54.500
-doesn’t even wear shoes anymore.
- He must be in pretty bad shape.
01:08:54.500 --> 01:08:56.500
It’s pretty easy to catch him.
01:08:56.500 --> 01:09:02.699
He’s going to get what he deserves. It will
take time but it will happen eventually.
01:09:03.300 --> 01:09:04.433
Elis,
01:09:05.500 --> 01:09:06.533
Elis Regina!
01:09:08.500 --> 01:09:10.500
My feet are like a loaf of challah.
01:09:10.500 --> 01:09:12.766
- Of course, look how high that thing is.
- Look at that!
01:09:14.166 --> 01:09:15.500
Pretty!
01:09:15.533 --> 01:09:18.500
- Oh my...
- So for how long have you been in a relationship?
01:09:18.533 --> 01:09:21.500
- 6 months.
- 6 months...
01:11:36.166 --> 01:11:37.500
What do you want?
01:11:39.000 --> 01:11:40.000
I’m always with you.
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:42.866
I’m always by your side.
01:11:49.333 --> 01:11:51.166
There’s no point in running away.
01:11:52.500 --> 01:11:54.866
You have to accept me to go on with your life.
01:12:40.500 --> 01:12:43.500
Once I took a prostitute to a restaurant
01:12:44.366 --> 01:12:46.500
and ordered stroganoff, my God…
01:12:47.066 --> 01:12:50.500
He mixed everything,
01:12:51.466 --> 01:12:54.500
the rice, the sauce,
the straw potatoes,
01:12:54.500 --> 01:12:57.500
it looked like puke.
01:12:58.200 --> 01:13:01.466
- No, stay here until he’s done with this story.
- Until he is done, alright.
01:13:01.500 --> 01:13:03.300
He has not memorized his lines yet.
01:13:03.500 --> 01:13:07.366
I didn’t know where to hide.
I was so embarrassed.
01:13:08.266 --> 01:13:11.500
No, that’s not it. Let’s go through everything.
Stop, listen!
01:13:12.133 --> 01:13:13.500
ordered stroganoff,
01:13:14.000 --> 01:13:18.333
he mixed everything, the rice, the sauce,
the straw potatoes, it was a mess.
01:13:18.699 --> 01:13:22.866
Then he called the waiter over and asked
if they had beans.
01:13:23.433 --> 01:13:25.500
You are not supposed to laugh at what
he is saying.
01:13:25.500 --> 01:13:29.133
She’s mortified by all the
horrible things he says.
01:13:30.533 --> 01:13:34.500
This thing about the prostitute for
example is just horrible for her.
01:13:38.033 --> 01:13:40.166
But he tells it just to bother her.
01:13:41.200 --> 01:13:44.000
He’s sadistic.
It’s Castanha, you know?
01:13:50.200 --> 01:13:52.200
Today I dreamt that I was dead.
01:13:53.200 --> 01:13:56.200
People looked at me
through the coffin glass.
01:13:58.200 --> 01:13:59.200
No one was crying,
01:14:00.200 --> 01:14:02.200
they were just curious.
01:14:04.200 --> 01:14:07.200
Did you ever dream
you were dead?
01:14:13.633 --> 01:14:17.200
It has been so long since I have
held hands with someone,
01:14:18.500 --> 01:14:21.800
it has been so long
since I got a hug,
01:14:23.200 --> 01:14:25.833
so long since I was last kissed.
01:14:27.033 --> 01:14:30.633
It has been so long since someone
asked me to dance.
01:15:27.200 --> 01:15:28.200
Where’s mother?
01:15:28.200 --> 01:15:30.200
- What are you doing here?
- Where’s mother?
01:15:30.200 --> 01:15:32.200
- What do you want from her?
- I need money. I’m taking the DVD player.
01:15:32.200 --> 01:15:34.200
You’re not taking anything from here.
01:15:34.200 --> 01:15:37.200
- Don’t move. Stay right where you are.
- You’re not taking anything from here.
01:15:39.200 --> 01:15:41.200
Give me some cash, then.
Right now!
01:15:41.266 --> 01:15:44.200
- You want cash?
- Give me cash. Or I’ll kill you.
01:15:44.200 --> 01:15:46.200
You want cash? I’ll give you cash.
01:15:46.200 --> 01:15:48.200
But the cash will run out.
01:15:48.200 --> 01:15:51.200
- Quickly!
- Just take it. Take it.
01:15:54.200 --> 01:15:56.200
And don’t ever come back.
01:16:23.500 --> 01:16:25.300
- Good morning. How are you?
- Good morning.
01:16:25.500 --> 01:16:26.933
Do you need any help, sir?
01:16:27.000 --> 01:16:28.466
I would like to sell some clothes.
01:16:29.133 --> 01:16:30.200
What are you selling?
01:16:30.200 --> 01:16:31.200
Night garments.
01:16:31.200 --> 01:16:34.266
Night garments? Let’s take a look.
Please, follow me.
01:18:10.200 --> 01:18:11.833
I need you to do that thing for me.
01:18:12.033 --> 01:18:12.866
Alright.
01:18:13.200 --> 01:18:14.800
I have something to tell you though.
01:18:14.800 --> 01:18:17.266
You should leave the city
this weekend.
01:18:19.200 --> 01:18:23.200
- Get it done. Well done.
- Of course.
01:18:43.200 --> 01:18:46.200
So no buses go there?
01:18:46.266 --> 01:18:50.200
Even the ones that go to all the beaches
and stop everywhere?
01:18:50.933 --> 01:18:52.500
Alright, that’s fine.
01:19:12.833 --> 01:19:14.200
Rodrigo,
01:19:14.533 --> 01:19:16.200
could you take me to Tramandaí Beach?
01:19:22.200 --> 01:19:25.266
Alright, alright.
No, there’s no problem.
01:19:26.866 --> 01:19:28.033
Thank you.
01:20:27.266 --> 01:20:31.200
I'm here already.
01:24:01.200 --> 01:24:03.200
Last night I dreamt that I was dead.
01:24:04.766 --> 01:24:07.133
I was in my coffin and people
looked at me
01:24:07.800 --> 01:24:12.200
with astonishment and admiration.
01:24:16.433 --> 01:24:18.266
But no one looked sad.
01:24:20.533 --> 01:24:22.266
They were just curious.
01:24:35.333 --> 01:24:36.833
Why can’t you stand still?
01:24:37.433 --> 01:24:40.566
Look, you already moved it.
01:24:42.466 --> 01:24:44.300
What have I become?
01:24:44.300 --> 01:24:47.500
Me, a true ’80’s creature.
01:24:48.200 --> 01:24:50.300
- I can imagine.
01:24:50.333 --> 01:24:53.166
- Do you think we will go to heaven
or hell when we die?
01:24:54.866 --> 01:24:57.966
I think I might go to hell.
01:24:59.200 --> 01:25:02.300
"After fucking, being fucked,
sucking, gossiping…"
01:25:04.200 --> 01:25:05.833
How could I go to heaven?
01:25:06.699 --> 01:25:08.966
Heaven is for mommies.
01:25:09.200 --> 01:25:11.200
Our mommies go to heaven.
01:25:11.966 --> 01:25:14.200
It’s like a mother’s club up there.
01:25:14.966 --> 01:25:17.066
They all wear white,
01:25:18.133 --> 01:25:20.033
- That’s silly,
- barefoot on the grass
01:25:20.200 --> 01:25:21.633
playing the harp,
01:25:22.133 --> 01:25:23.466
all that cheesy stuff.
01:25:24.466 --> 01:25:28.200
Hell is a rave. An eternal rave.
01:25:28.933 --> 01:25:32.200
That’s silly, there’s no such thing
as heaven and hell.
01:25:32.766 --> 01:25:35.033
I just can’t find the vein today.
01:25:36.466 --> 01:25:38.500
I think I’m becoming invisible.
01:25:41.633 --> 01:25:43.699
Stand still, I’ll be right back.
01:26:02.133 --> 01:26:05.200
He worked, not like a man who works
that he may live;
01:26:06.933 --> 01:26:11.566
but as one who is bent on
doing nothing but work;
01:26:13.200 --> 01:26:17.500
having no regard for himself
as a human being
01:26:19.033 --> 01:26:22.200
but only as a creator;
01:26:23.500 --> 01:26:27.533
moving about grey and unobtrusive
among his fellows
01:26:29.300 --> 01:26:31.500
like an actor without his make-up,
01:26:32.633 --> 01:26:35.666
who counts for nothing as soon as he
stops representing something else.
01:26:37.266 --> 01:26:39.200
He worked withdrawn out of sight
01:26:40.166 --> 01:26:43.300
and sound of the small fry,
01:26:44.800 --> 01:26:47.633
for whom he felt nothing but contempt,
01:26:49.033 --> 01:26:54.833
because to them a talent was a social
asset like another;
01:26:56.266 --> 01:26:59.200
who, whether they were poor or not,
01:27:00.066 --> 01:27:02.566
went about ostentatiously shabby
01:27:03.500 --> 01:27:06.333
or else flaunted startling cravats,
01:27:07.800 --> 01:27:14.200
all the time taking jolly good care
to amuse themselves,
01:27:16.533 --> 01:27:18.333
to be artistic and charming
01:27:20.066 --> 01:27:22.433
without the smallest notion of the
fact that good work
01:27:23.566 --> 01:27:26.633
only comes out under pressure of a bad life;
01:27:28.000 --> 01:27:30.500
that he who lives does not work;
01:27:32.166 --> 01:27:34.200
that one must die to life
01:27:35.699 --> 01:27:36.666
in order to be
01:27:36.666 --> 01:27:39.699
utterly a creator”
01:28:42.500 --> 01:28:44.466
Hello, son.
01:28:47.133 --> 01:28:48.666
How are you doing?
01:28:50.000 --> 01:28:51.466
I have been better.
01:29:01.866 --> 01:29:03.699
How was your day?
01:29:05.833 --> 01:29:07.433
I just got home from the play.
01:29:12.699 --> 01:29:14.433
Have you seen Marcelo lately?
01:29:20.333 --> 01:29:21.166
No?
01:29:31.466 --> 01:29:33.033
I missed you.
01:29:35.466 --> 01:29:37.466
I missed you too.
01:29:38.466 --> 01:29:40.466
Cover yourself.
01:29:44.266 --> 01:29:45.666
Goodnight.
01:32:21.033 --> 01:32:25.466
Today you get to experience
the gay cure.
01:32:25.466 --> 01:32:28.500
We are going to stop being gay,
01:32:28.500 --> 01:32:32.466
stop suffering, stop paying
for sex with other men.
01:32:32.466 --> 01:32:35.766
We are all going to become
heterosexual, to become homophobes.
01:32:36.466 --> 01:32:37.466
Hallelujah!
Distributor: Pragda Films
Length: 95 minutes
Date: 2014
Genre: Narrative
Language: Portuguese
Grade: College, Adults
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Closed Captioning: Available
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